Rescued from the darkness(1) by Sandy Bergmann

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INDEX 1. Born for God’s Purpose.................................................................... 11 2. God will not abandon his purpose on your life............................ 23 3. Touch her body, but do not touch her soul.................................... 35 4. Again, an infernal encounter........................................................... 47 5. The consequences of Disobedience................................................ 55 6. Death, Hell and a new opportunity................................................ 63 7. Beyond Limit..................................................................................... 70 8. On the verge of madness.................................................................. 79 9. Asking for Help!................................................................................ 95 10. Mount Calvary............................................................................... 101 11. The beginning of preparation...................................................... 109 12. Inner Healing................................................................................. 121 13. Evangelic Campaign at Dominican Republic............................ 133 14. In the Potter’s hands...................................................................... 143 15. Evangelistic Campaign at Ecuador............................................. 157 16. Evangelistic Campaign at El Salvador........................................ 177 17. Restoring family and matrimonial laces.................................... 191 18. When the situation goes in the opposite direction of God’s promise........................................................... 213 19. The help of angels.......................................................................... xxx 20. God is calling you to overcome by practicing authority.......... xxx 21. From your mother’s womb........................................................... xxx 22. Farewell words................................................................................. xx 4

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D E D I C AT O R Y With all of my love I dedicate this book to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, who saved me by his grace and mercy, set me free and has made me very happy.

To him be all the glory and honor. â&#x20AC;&#x153;Lord, it has not been easy to follow your pathway, but to live without you is impossible for me. You are the reason of my being. You are the one who fills all of my being and without you everything is senseless. There is no price to pay all the things you have done for me and while I stay alive I will not stop preaching your word and earning souls for your kingdom. I love youâ&#x20AC;?.

I also want to thank you, my dear Holy Spirit, for your love, for your help, for comforting and accompanying me. My dear Holy Spirit, words are not enough to express what I feel for you. I can just say: Thank You. I love you with all of my heart and all of my soul.

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PROLOGO This book will help you understand how the Devil works and how God always and always has the final word and gives victory to his children. Sandy was set free from occultism, abuse, depression and suicide by the loving hand of the Lord. She narrates her story in detail, helping us to better understand the spiritual realm. In fact, she was rescued from hell itself when she died and was resurrected by the Lord. She ends her story as an inwardly healed, anointed and free woman who has been equipped by the Holy Spirit, to powerfully serve God through evangelic campaigns showing the miracles and wonders of God. Take your time and read this book because undoubtedly, the Lord will speak to your heart through Sandyâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s life experiences.

Esteban and Erica Correa

(AvanzaPorMas.com - editors)

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INTRODUCCION I would like to share my testimony with all of you and testify how our Lord Jesus Christ in his love and mercy, snatched me from the hands of Satan himself, setting me free me from a satanic pact which was done with me while I was a little girl. Satan (the Lord rebukes him), wanted to kill me many times, and while attempting to kill me, he destroyed my emotions, all my body and wanted to touch my soul as well. It was a war until death, but my Lord Jesus Christ defeated him. My Lord Jesus, not only set me free from that satanic pact, but when my soul was going towards hell, he gave me the opportunity to come back to life. I never imagined neither the wonderful plans God had with my life nor I was not in this world by accident, nor why my parents had planned it, but because it was already in God’s plans before the creation of the world. For a long time, I sought for a reason to live. I felt a victim of my past and I wanted all around me to feel sorry for me. Many times I wished to be dead and thought my problems were the biggest ones. I used to be selfish with myself and also with those around me, because while I wanted to die, there were many who wanted to live and enjoy the wonderful gift God has given us, i.e. “life”. For many years, I believed my life was a hindrance and I should have never born. And, trust me I had enough reasons to wish death, because since I was a little girl I only heard: “You should have never 7

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born”, “You are a hindrance, good for nothing”, “You are stupid and useless”, etc. The worst thing of all is that I believed those lies and did not believe God could fix his eyes in someone like me. I never imagined how mistaken I was! God did love me and had chosen me from my mother’s womb to be his servant and sanctified me to preach the gospel to the nations. When God has plans with a person, the devil seeks all means to prevent the purpose of God in your life from happening. The enemy will try to destroy you and even more, to kill you, just as he wanted to do with me. Yet, God has the last word in our lives, and at the end, his will be done. The book of Isaiah 44:2 reads: “Thus says the Lord who made you and formed you from the womb, who will help you: ‘Fear not, O Jacob My servant; and you, Jeshurun, whom I have chosen”. We did not choose God instead he was pleased to choose us. The Glory Be to God! I wish for God’s glory and honor, that your life be blessed, through the testimony you are about to read. Because of this testimony, the enemy has wanted to kill me and shut my mouth up many times, and even, while I was writing it, I received a lot of oppression from the enemy, but the Lord helped me to conclude it. If the Lord has allowed this humble book to reach your hands, is because he has a purpose in your life. Yet, remember the enemy will try by all his means to prevent you from reading this book. Do not allow the enemy to steal from you, the blessing the Lord wants to give you, and whatever you may not understand 8

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while reading this book, please ask the Lord to bring revelation to you through his Holy Spirit. I would love to give this book personally, to each person and share that I wrote it for you, not with the purpose to shout my life from the roof tops, yet, for the name of our lord Jesus Christ to be glorified for his greatness. The testimony you are about to read has been video recorded, and Iâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;ve received hundreds of testimonies from people who have been freed from oppression and diabolical oppression. Testimonies from young people, women and men who have received inner healing, testimonies from people who were about to commit suicide and once they heard my testimony they have regret to commit that sin. Other people have testified how other pastors are evangelizing using my testimony and how the pastors display my testimonyâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s video on streets via television, and those people who watch and listen to it, make the decision to accept the Lord as their Lord and Savior. TO MY GOD SHALL BE ALL THE GLORY! To those people who have testified and those I have not yet heard, in the event my testimony changed your life or has been a blessing to you, I invite you to share my testimony with someone else, so that his or her life can also be blessed. For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, â&#x20AC;&#x153;plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. Amen. 9

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Chapter 1

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Chapter I

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It is my pleasure to tell you about the miraculous signs and wonders that the Most High God has performed for me. How great are his signs, how mighty his wonders! His kingdom is an eternal kingdom; his dominion endures from generation to generation. Daniel 4: 2-3.

I was born on 4 March 1975 in the province of Sánchez, Dominican Republic. My mother was born in the city of Nagua and my father in the province of San Cristóbal. They met through a call my mother made to my father’s workplace, “Haina Port”. By that time, my mom was a single mother of three children, and when she met my dad, she fell in love with him and got pregnant for the fourth time. My parents’ loving relationship was not long-lasting. Why they ended their relationship? I do not know! My mother’s pregnancy was of high-risk and the best solution seemed to be abortion. Her health was deteriorating and she lived in extreme poverty. The doctors said only a miracle would allow me to survive. When I was born I was lanky and undernourished. Yet, I know the Lord looked at me with love and mercy and said: YOU WILL LIVE! Time later, my mother took me to the province of San Cristóbal, leaving me there with my grandparents from my father’s side. She left, leaving me with them, and I did not know her until many years later. My grandparents were very poor and did not know what to do

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with me, as I was still very little. Yet, God helped my grandparents raise and look after me.

A cousin of mine used to be possessed by demons and one of the demons who possessed my cousin’s body spoke through him and commanded him to look his female pigeon. “I was the female pigeon”. That was the nickname the demons used to refer to me. Whenever the demons asked to see me, I was taken to my cousin’s house. Once there, the demon or disgusting spirit, used to greet me with his arms crossed and say through my cousin’s voice, that I belonged to them. I did not understand what was happening, but those rites did called my attention. I only was eight (8) years old and too innocent to understand many things. My life totally changed since the first night I started experiencing diabolical oppression. A demon started to visit me. He personified as a tall, dark-skinned man, wearing dark clothes and his face was covered with a black cape. Everything in this man was darkness. I used to scream: “Look at him”. Yet, no one else could see him, only me. Many times my relatives took me to the hospital, thinking I was suffering from nerves’ attack, but the doctors could not find anything. No one understood what I was experiencing. My family

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In the countryside where my grandparents lived, the Gospel of the Lord Jesus Christ had never been preached before. There was no Evangelic Church. Spiritualism and witchcraft was abundant. Parties devoted to demons were a regular practice and the majority of houses, had altars devoted to them. Whenever parties were celebrated in honor of these filthy spirits, the demons took possession of those people’s bodies who were invoking them and also the demons spoke through those people. Oftentimes the demons imitated the voices of people who had died, which caused family members to think it was really their dead relative who was speaking from afterlife.

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members used to tell me: “You are seeing all those weird things because you are a badly behaved little girl”. Yet, the reality was very different from their perception. When I was a little girl, a satanic pact was done with me. And Satan (the Lord rebukes him), felt to be the owner of my life. This demon I used to see had been assigned to be my spiritual guide wall way through until the diabolic pact previously done with my life came to pass and the time came for me to go with Satan.

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Just as the Lord promises in his word that the angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear him, and he delivers them (Psalm 34:7), the enemy of our souls has demons with special assignations to provide certain protection to those who adore him. And the evil not only provides that protection to his followers, but also certain powers to be used on behalf of the kingdom of darkness.

People who serve and adore Satan, feel powerful, but they do not know the enemy is only using them as puppets to do his malign will, and as soon as he gets from them what he wants, he will simply try to destroy their lives, and even worse, he never gives them the things he said he would if they served him. On the contrary, he takes from them, everything he gave them at the beginning. And he does everything possible for the souls to go to hell. Only the power of God can prevent the enemy to get away with his evil purpose. Only the Power of God and the Church have the power to step back and destroy the enemy’s plans. The bible reads: “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full”. John 10:10. The enemy’s only purpose is to destroy; he does not respect age or social circle. Yet, it does not matter what he does, you and I are

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sculpted in the hands of God and no defeated devil can snatch us from the hands of God, nor to prevent God from completing the good work he started in our lives.

The satanic appearances started to be more and more frequent. Yet, one day, a married couple arrived to the countryside where I lived, preaching the Gospel of Jesus Christ. God never arrives neither late nor early; but when he arrives, he changes everything and glorifies his name wherever he wants and whoever he wants. When the Gospel of Salvation was preached in that place, the first ones to accept the Lord Jesus Christ were an uncle and three aunts of mine. At the beginning, it was not easy for them to be Christians, because my grandparents were opposed to them being Christians; but both my uncle and aunts stood firm in their position to follow the Lord Jesus Christ. They used to take me to Christian services, and I liked to hear the Word of God. And you know what? I was very mischievous, but even though I used to spend my time at church disturbing and whispering, I was also able to learn by heart the chorus sang by people at church and did not forget the messages preached by the pastor. There are people who do not want to take their children to church, because they think their children may disturb; but I want

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“I know that you can do all things, and that no purpose of yours can be thwarted. Job 42:2”. Satan believed he had me safe in his hands. Yet, he did not count on the plans God also had for my life. In fact, he does not know to count, he only knows to subtract and divide. I could not imagine what was happening in the spiritual realm nor had idea how in spite of having eight (8) years old, I was about to experience a battle to death in my own life. I can say since I was in my mother’s womb the battle had started, only that I had not realized it.

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to tell you, there was no little girl who disturbed more than me, yet, today God has made me an Evangelist for his glory and honor. The bible says: “Train up a child in the way he should go: and when he is old, he will not depart from it. Proverbs 22:6”.

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In spite of some members of my family becoming Christians, and taking me to worship God at church, the diabolic attacks against me did not disappear, on the contrary, became stronger. Satan sent a demon named: “San Elijah, also known as, the “cemetery boy”, to visit me. That was the same demon I saw in previous occasions. Whenever he visited me, he just observed me, but did not speak. Even though some of my family members were opening their hearts to God, none of them knew about spiritual warfare. People did not use to talk about Satan and his demons. In my grandparents’ home there were still altars devoted to demons. Those altars had various images of different demons, but my family in their ignorance thought the images were miraculous saints.

Some people who do not know about God and ignore the origin of these spirits, call them Saints. During that time, the master and owner of my grandparents’ home was a demon known as “Saint Anthony”. My family used to worship that image, and I recalled how they used to offer in front of the image coins of one (1) cent value, believing that the image was able to concede their petitions. The Bible refers to these demons as “disgusting spirits”. They like to inhabit in peoples’ bodies, in objects or images from diabolic origin. A lot of people have asked me whether demons exist or not, but what surprises me the most, is that mostly, the ones who ask this question are Christians who know God. We can find in the Bible, examples of many people who were tormented by demons, but the Lord Jesus Christ, set them free

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during his minister on earth, and he continues to free all those who are oppressed by the enemy’s attacks. In Luke 8: 26-39 the Bible reads: 26 And they arrived at the country of the Gadarenes, which is over against Galilee. 27 And when he went forth to land, there met him out of the city a certain man, which had devils long time, and ware no clothes, neither abode in any house, but in the tombs.

29 For he had commanded the unclean spirit to come out of the man. For oftentimes it had caught him: and he was kept bound with chains and in fetters; and he broke the bands, and was driven of the devil into the wilderness. 30 And Jesus asked him, saying, what is your name? And he said, Legion: because many devils were entered into him. 31 And they pleaded him that he would not command them to go out into the deep. 32 And there was there a herd of many swine feeding on the mountain: and they pleaded him that he would suffer them to enter into them. And he suffered them. 33 Then went the devils out of the man, and entered into the swine: and they ran violently down a steep place into the lake, and were choked. 34 When they that fed them saw what was done, they fled, and went and told it in the city and in the country.

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28 When he saw Jesus, he cried out, and fell down before him, and with a loud voice said, what have I to do with thee, Jesus, thou Son of God most high? I beseech thee, torment me not.

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35 Then they went out to see what was done; and came to Jesus, and found the man, out of whom the devils were departed, sitting at the feet of Jesus, clothed, and in his right mind: and they were afraid. 36 They also which saw it told them by what means he that was possessed of the devils was healed.

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37 Then the whole multitude of the country of the Gadarenes round about besought him to depart from them; for they were taken with great fear: and he went up into the ship, and returned back again.

38 Now the man out of whom the devils were departed besought him that he might be with him: but Jesus sent him away, saying, 39 Return to your own house and share how great things God has done unto you. And he went his way, and published throughout the whole city how great things Jesus had done unto him. I am very grateful about my Lord Jesus Christ. His Power has not changed. He is the same. He freed me just the same way he freed the man from Gadarenes thousands of years ago, and he has ordained me to tell my people and family how great things God has done unto me and he has also sent me to testify throughout the world the great things he has done unto me. We can see how the Bible shows that demons are spirits who are able to possess and speak through a human being. They also know when a person is truly a servant of God or when a person is simply an impostor. No one serves the devils out of love or free will. People who practice and believe in fortune-telling, spiritualism, witchcraft, sorcery, psychics, hand reading, cup reading, are misled daily,

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threatened, terrorized and tortured via voices, dreams, nightmares, until their will is defeated. The threats are targeted to their loved ones, like those things we need the most. These lies create the illusion of the person losing a son, daughter, job and even life, if he does not do what he is asked to do.

Oftentimes, evil spirits do not allow people to eat, go out or travel, and when they do, is after providing them a sort of “protection”. They do not allow the person to fall in love with whoever the person may want to. The demons choose the one they like and there are situations whereby they humiliate the person by sustaining intimate relationships, influencing the person to do disgusting things against his will and values. Demons make people slaves of taking stinking baths and reek perfumes, dressing evil ways, filling people’s home, workplace, automobile or personal business of disagreeable artifacts. They make people visit cemeteries, kill animals, lie and mislead others the same way they were misled by Satan, a liar and the Father of lies. John 8:44. Fear, terror, panic, mental torture, lies and threats are some of the carnal weapons utilized by Satan and his demons in order to destroy precious souls as yours. But, today, you can be set free if

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The tortures consist of depriving people from physical and emotional needs until controlling the person’s will and subduing it to their evil will. The evils do not let people sleep and constantly murmur to people’s mind during day and night, saying lies against people’s friends and family, making you believe as if someone is chasing after you and as if all people around are speaking evil against you.

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you believe the truth. Jesus Christ is the truth. The Bible reads: Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me”. John 14:6. Demons cannot hurt you. Their threats are materialized only when the person ignores that Satan is not all powerful, nor omniscient. He and his demons are not able neither to hurt nor destroy someone without God’s consent or the person’s permission. He was defeated by Jesus in the Calvary cross and the Holy Spirit has given us spiritual weapons to destroy him.

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In the past my family and I did not know these biblical truths, but now we know them. Unfortunately, there are many people who are unaware of the truth end up being victims of these diabolic attacks. But, there is good news for you and your family.

The Bible reads: “And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free. John 8:32.” Jesus Christ is the truth and only he can free you and your family from any satanic oppression. Continuing with my testimony, remember that at the beginning I narrated how an evil spirit threw me furiously against an aunt of mine in order to harm her? After this issue with my aunt, I received another attack from the enemy. One night, during daybreak, I was woken up, and literally, I saw a black hand, a few bigger than a man’s hand. This hand held my neck, thus, I screamed out loud and the hand disappeared. Few days after this experience, the Lord Jesus Christ started to deal with me. God does not make exceptions of people. The same way he deals with adults he does with children. Children also receive a lot of demonic oppression, the enemy knows children are the future of tomorrow, they will be future ministers, evangelists, missionaries, worshippers, lawyers, teachers, scientists, presidents, etc.

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I urge parents to look after their children. They are a gift from God. The time will come when you will need to account before the Lord for the way you disciplined your children. Childhood is a very important season. Give your children the best of you. Devote your time to them. Make them feel you love them and let them know how important they are to you. Loving your children is not about giving them expensive gifts instead is about making them feel you truly love them and being present whenever they need you. Love is not to overly please them or letting them do whatever they want, rather is to discipline them with love. Be committed to raise the self-esteem of your children.

If you wish your child to be in the future a man or woman of good, kindness, stability, self-confidence and fearful of God, you must start by setting the example as a parent. Do not forget, majority of jails, psychiatric hospitals and drugs rehabilitation centers are full of men and women who were victims of a frustrated childhood. Raise mentally and emotionally healthy children, and in the future, you will have healthy and self-confident men and women, useful to our society. Remember, God has not forgotten you. God created you with a purpose and he will fulfill his purpose in you. The same way God set me apart from my motherâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s womb, he has done with you. The time will come when God will reveal himself to your life and he will let you know your purpose in this world. Even though oftentimes, you may not know how to do certain

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Childhood is a learning season. Keep in mind that even ourselves as adults do not know everything, rather every day we are learning new things, because in this lifetime no one knows everything.

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things, or how to keep going with your family, keep in mind, the Lord will be with you, and he will give you wisdom and the willingness you need to succeed in life. The Lord is the one who help us to do through him what we cannot do on our own strength. He is the one who tells you: “Call unto me, and I will answer you, and show you great and mighty things, which you do not know”. Jeremiah 33:3.

Chapter II

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Chapter II

While still being a little girl, God started dealing with my life. One night he gave me a revelation. I saw a white cloud descending from the sky. Above the cloud there was a character with the figure of a man. He was descending with open arms and he had white and shinning clothing. He had a belt tight to his wrist and his hair was long to this shoulders. He was tall, strong and masculine. When I saw him I joyfully yelled: Look to Jesus! Yet no one else could see him but me. He stayed in the air above the cloud, and at the same time, very close to me. I asked him: Lord, when are you coming? Because I’ve heard at church, you are coming soon”. He answered and said: “Yes, I’m coming soon and you have to be converted. I’ve come to tell you that I love you and that “YOU ARE MINE”. The same way he descended I saw him ascending, until he disappeared in the sky. After this experience, the Lord gave me another revelation about the church’s rapture. During revelation, the Lord had raised his people and multitudes were left. People’s desperation on streets was terrible. I saw how many Christians have been left, including two aunts of mine. One of them was left because she didn’t accept Jesus as her savior. The other one was crying bitterly while saying: “Ay! I was left for I was watching soap operas”. In the revelation, I had been left myself, and I tell you honestly, I do not know why I was left? Even though I had visit the church regularly, I had not professed my faith and no one had asked me

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I do not want to miss mentioning about my two aunts. The one who had been left for she was watching soap operas is nowadays a minister and she detests soap operas. The other one, who was left because she had not accepted the Lord, several years later accepted the Lord in her heart. I remember during the year 2000, the Lord gave me a message for her. I went to Dominican Republic, and visit my aunt Oliva. I told her how much the Lord loved her and shared with her the revelation I have had about the churchâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s rapture and how she had been left for not accepting the Lord. I told her a religion could not save her soul but accepting Jesus as her Lord and Savior could. I lovingly preached the word to her and she accepted, and believed with her heart. I also told her, to keep in mind, should she got sick to not forget to call upon the Lord rather than a saint as she and her family used to do. However, if her family discovered she had accepted the Lord after having spent so many years in a pagan religion, might caused her a great problem. Yet, our God is wise and he knows what he does and the moment he does it. After I preached the gospel to my aunt, I came back to New York, and few months later, I received the news my aunt had died. I felt an immense peace in my heart and had a conviction my aunt had passed away with the Lord in her heart. Days later, the Lord gave me a vision. I saw how a side of my room was rolled like a parchment as a white light came close. In the middle of the light, there was a young woman wearing a white shining dress. There was a character standing next to her and holding her with his arms. I could only see half of the sleeve of the character who was holding her. When I saw and recognized her. It was my aunt Oliva! She was young and looking like twenty years old. When alive, my aunt was

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if I wanted to. I think that was the reason I had been left during revelation. Without Christ we cannot go anywhere.

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obese. Her weight was around 500 pounds. Yet, during revelation, I saw her slim. She had a new body. To God shall be the glory!

If you are suffering and hopeless because of overweight and you would like to be in shape, do not worry, this problem will be solved at Heaven. The Lord solved it for my aunt Oliva! During revelation, I wanted to come closer and touch her but a gentle voice said: “You cannot touch her. I’ve brought her to show you she is safe”. She smiled at me and I noticed a tremendous peace in her face. She looked at me as wanting to say: Many Thanks! While I was living at my grandparents’ home, the Lord continued to deal with my life. After a while, my father who was living in town with his wife and two kids, decided to look for me and took me to live with him and his family. Living in town with my father, I was more comfortable to attend school, have better clothing and was able to eat three times a day, yet, I was not happy. I felt happy with my grandparents who brought me up since I was two months born. To me, they were my true parents. Even though many times, they had no money to provide me with three meals a day, nor buy me new clothes. Even though I had to walk a lot of kilometers to attend school, I was happy with them, because, they offered me a kind of love and connection I did not feel at my father’s home. My father insisted that I must live with him. I loved my father, but I was also afraid of him and my stepmother. I do not know why I feared my father, when in reality he was and is a good, honorable and just man. A while later I met my mother. It was by then I started to experience agony because my mother wanted me to live with her at Nagua. On the other hand, my father wanted me to live with

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While being a little girl I suffered a lot and with only eleven (11) years old I was not interested in life. I used to ask God to take me with him because I did not want to live but my request was useless, as God seemed to not listen to me. At the beginning, I used to be a good student at school but suddenly my grades worsened. I was full of fears and insecurities and above all, I had a huge sense of inferiority. Oftentimes, while children are still little, adults tell them negative words that may affect forever the life of that creature. The words coming out of our mouth have power, and that is why we must be careful about the words we say to our little ones and the things we do before them. For instance, when someone says a child: “You are good for nothing”, “You are a nuisance”, “You are stupid”, “You are not good enough”, “You are ugly”, “No one will ever love you” and so on. Phrases and words aforementioned can destroy a child’s image. Perhaps the adult may forget the words he said to that creature, but I can assure you, the child will never forget the words spoken over him/her. Sometimes I wonder if some adults forget that those little children God has allowed them to look after and raise will someday grow. There are people who mistreat and abuse children, treating them like insignificant, without even knowing, that in future, that creature may be the one who will extend them a hand of hope and help in times of adversity.

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him in San Cristóbal and my grandparents wanted me to live with them in the countryside. For a long time, I was rolling like a football ball. I was being raised with great instability until finally I stayed at my father’s home.

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me to pray for her mother. Her mother did not like lonesomeness, yet, when she finds someone who is willing to help with the house chores and serve as a companion, she mistreats the person without compassion. Her daughter told me his mother had been given a child who had recently lost his mother. The childâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s father was unable to raise him and he thought his son would be better living with this woman. Nevertheless, rather than being kind and loving with the child, the woman mistreated and abused the child physically, verbally and emotionally. She punished the little child severely. She did not give him food and made him do all of the house chores. The womanâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s daughter told me whenever she visited her mother, she advised her mother to not mistreat the child. But her mother did not pay attention to her request. Thanks God, the childâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s father met a very generous woman and took the child from the unkind woman. Subsequently, this unkind woman was given another little child to serve her as companion, yet, she also mistreated this child. She excused her unkind behavior towards the children, by saying she was also mistreated and abused when she was child. She says she cannot give what she never received. My advice to anyone who makes contact with a child is to offer that little one the best of you. If you can offer a smile, a hug, a comprehensive look, loving words, please do not hesitate to do it, because perhaps that is the only good thing that child may receive from someone throughout his/her lifetime. Parents you can discipline your children, but please, do so with love. If you are going to punish your child, do so, but tell him/her why you are punishing him/her. And the same was you punish them due to disobedience or bad behavior, please, compliment them when they do something good and positive. Tell them how proud they make you feel. And above all, do not trust your children

care to anyone. Be careful and mindful, because sometimes, the person you least imagine could harm and mistreat your children. Give your children confidence and above everything, ask God to give you wisdom in order to raise your children in discipline and love. I once heard a story I will never forget. There was a young man who loved to be on streets with his friends and always got late to his home. His mother begged him to arrive home early but he did not care about his mother request. One night he arrived very late night and while he was walking he was meditating on all things he could tell his mother should she reproached him for getting late. Yet, his mother was more intelligent than him. Rather than reproaching, she prepared him a hot chicken soup. When the young man got home, his mother received him affectionately, showing gratitude that her son had gotten home safe. She helped him to take off his coat and brought to his bedroom the chicken soup. The son was astonished with his mother’s attitude. He thought once he got home, his mother would reproach him but the opposite happened. Do you know what this son told his mother? “Mother, you are so kind. I promise you I will never get home late moving forth”. Not all issues are resolved by punishing or saying offensive words. An offensive word can destroy or mark forever a human being’s life. Perhaps if this mother would have reproached her son for getting home late, her son might not have decided to change his behavior. Yet, his mother’s positive attitude made him change his attitude and behavior for the rest of his life.

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Parents, please, I urge you to not throw your children out to the streets. Rather than being dictatorial parents, befriend your children so that they do not look outside home and in wrong places and people, the love and comprehension they cannot have in their home. I believe we need to change our attitudes so that many things can change in our lives and families. As a family and human beings it is important to dialogue. Parents learn to listen to your children. Children listen to your parents. Oftentimes, we fail as human beings but there is nothing like family. In the event you cannot dialogue with each other, please look for professional and spiritual assistance. Look for a counselor who is able to orientate and help you to have a safe conversation emotionally and spiritually. Remember Satan is the only one who hates you and wants to destroy you. Nevertheless, the Lord is with you and he is able to help those who trust him. In Ephesians 6: 12-13 the bible says: “For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm”. I’ve heard many people say they do not have any problem with Satan, yet, even though you may not want to accept it, the enemy will always fight against you implacably. The enemy’s desire is to throw you an atomic bomb and destroy you forever more. Even though you may feel safe and the enemy may not be a problem for you, do not be careless as you may be surprised as many others have been.

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Unfortunately, there are many people who have problems with submission. They do not want to submit to ministers, leaders or even their boss at work. Also, there are women who do not want to submit to their husbands and children who do not want to submit to their parents. If we do not want to submit ourselves to our known authority figures, even less we will be able to submit to God who we have not seen. Undoubtedly, the enemy is doing his work while many at church are slept and getting worried about meaningless things. For instance, they are more concerned about the sister wearing a short or long skirt. Others are more concerned about their brothers and sisters’ faults, not in order to instruct them with docility but to criticize, judge and condemn. People who do nothing at church, yet, are disturbed about others’ behavior, wanting to know and question everything. They are like judge and jury. It is time for us to occupy about the true necessities people have. There are many people wounded and hurt and God desires to console his people. There are few messages about consolation. Many prefer to talk more about condemnation rather than salvation, more about punishing than God’s forgiveness. The Lord is more interested in forgiving rather than punishing. God desires you to surrender your life to him. He desires you to stop doing things that are displeasing to him and to forgive those who have hurt you. Otherwise, there will be hindrances to your prayers. To stay victorious you must allow the Lord to heal your emotional wounds. You must submit yourself to God and

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In order to become victorious against the enemy’s oppression we must obey the Word of God and submit ourselves to God in obedience. The bible says in James: 4-7: “Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you”.

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constantly pray. Prayer opens the windows of heaven. Ask the Lord to guide you in fasting. Fasting brings victory and breaks chains and spiritual ties.

Examine the Word of God. For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart. And no creature is hidden from his sight, but all are naked and exposed to the eyes of him to whom we must give account. Hebrews 4: 12-13. Ask the Lord to give you the ability and wisdom to understand his word. The bible reads in James 1:5: “If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him”. When asking the Lord for something in particular, the key is to ask with faith and believe in our hearts he will give us what we ask for. The bible says in James 1:6: “But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind”. If you neither obey God’s word nor dress with the necessary armor to resist the enemy, then you will be a mediocre and weak Christian, and the enemy will do whatever he feels like with you. Yet, the Lord says: “Take the armor, wear them and do not take them off, not even while sleeping because you do not know the hour the enemy may attack”. As long as we are covered with the power of God, even that the enemy may attack us everywhere, we will be able to say as David, the psalmist: “Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear; though war break out against me, even then I will be confident”. Psalm 27:3.

Dear brothers and sisters do not give up and do not throw the armors as they are powerful in God. Unfortunately I was unaware about these biblical truths. I think they were too profound for me to understand. Besides I had only gone to church few times, by then. Only Godâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s mercy sustained me in order to bear the horrible things that were about to occur in my life. Yet, the deeper truth is that God was not going to abandon his purpose in my life, and he will not abandon you either.

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Chapter III

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Chapter III

truly believe the enemy cannot do anything in our lives, unless God allows him to do so. Additionally, anything the Lord allows in our lives, either bad or good, will be with the purpose to glorify his name. The book of Job clearly illustrates this principle, specifically, Job 1: 6-22. Continuing with my testimony, in spite of my father taking me to live with him and his family, I didn’t feel happy. I thought a lot about my mother. Sometimes I thought: “If my mother was here with me”. Yet, she had gone to Puerto Rico and I was hopeless about seeing her again. I missed and needed her a lot. I wished to feel my mother’s love and support. During that season, a lot of horrible things happened to me and it was the mercy of God that prevented me from having a heart attack. I recalled how many times I cried out to the lord in pain saying: “If you exist and really love me, please take me with you, take my life away, I do not want to live anymore”. But, I did not receive an answer from God. You may wonder how a Christian woman can desire to die. I was not Christian by then, but only attended church every once in a while and had heard about Jesus. Besides, I was only a little ten years old girl. Yet, it is very sad that a little ten years old child does not want to live! One Sunday night I went to the public phone station located at the nearer park in order to call my mother who was in Puerto Rico. During that time, few people had phones in their homes, thus, it

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Because it was raining heavily, I accepted his offer. I knew him. I didnâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t think he could harm me. He was with two more friends and they offered me a glass of soda and I accepted. I do not know what there was in that drink but I do remember how bad I felt after drinking it. They raped me. From that moment onwards my life worsened. I had eleven (11) years old. I was still a little girl. And to make matters worse, by the time this tragedy happened, my father had gone to live to New York. As days passed I started to feel very bad physically. I felt dizzy. I used to frequently faint at school. My schoolmates used to say I was pregnant. To me that was impossible. At eleven (11) years old I still believed children came to the world by a stork. My teacher heard about the comments and she spoke with me. I tried to explain to her what had happened to me in the car during that tragic night. My teacher promised to help and took me to the hospital so that a doctor, friend of her, could examine me. I had a pregnancy test, but according to my teacher the result was negative. Weirdly enough, the doctor gave my teacher a prescription and she bought me some medicines. My teacher told me she had to apply me a vitamin injection, and advised me to continue applying the injection subsequently. During that time, many strange things happened that I could never understand. For instance, why my teacher did not spoke to my family and just wanted to help me secretly? My agony was in not knowing how to go to the hospital in order to get the injection applied. I almost had no permission to go out unless it was for going school. Nevertheless, thanks God, I also

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was necessary to go to the park to make a phone call via the public phone station. That night started to rain, and a young boy who lived nearby offered to take me there.

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had a cousin living in my father’s home. She is Christian and knew how to apply an injection. I spoke and shared with her everything I had gone through. She felt sorry for me and helped me to go to the hospital without my stepmother being aware of or suspicious. My cousin did not want to apply me the injection because she did not know what the prescription was for and did not want to run any risk. I was afraid of injections, yet, I never imagined that because of that injection I almost die. When I arrived to the hospital, the doctor did not want to apply me the injection, rather she asked a nurse to apply it. The nurse told me: “Give thanks to God that this is a water injection and not an oil one”. I did not understand what she meant. The injection was so potent that it had to be applied via the buttock, yet the nurse applied it on my left arm. I felt as if my arm had been pulled out from me in cold blood. There are no human words to describe such immense pain. When I left hospital, my arm was almost immobile as if quintals of cement had been placed above it. I recalled how I went all the way home crying without anyone feeling sorry for me. I almost lost my life because of that injection. Yet, since my mother’s womb God said: LIVE and if he gave the order for me to live, no defeated evil could take my life away, though I had been sold thousands of time to him. My arm was totally swelled up. I could not move it and pain became more unbearable as days passed. Nevertheless, I had to conceal and pretend everything was fine so that my father’s wife did not suspect something was wrong. After a while I started having high fever. All my body was trembling as gel and felt something coming off my womb.

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During that season I went to visit my grandparents from my father’s side for two weeks, but my health was worsening and days after, I suffered a blood hemorrhagic stroke for nine (9) days. No one realized that this little girl of just eleven (11) years was dying. I do know there was someone or something helping me to stay alive. One day while reading the bible I read a verse that says: “On the day you were born your cord was not cut, nor were you washed with water to make you clean, nor were you rubbed with salt or wrapped in cloths. No one looked on you with pity or had compassion enough to do any of these things for you. Rather, you were thrown out into the open field, for on the day you were born you were despised. “‘Then I passed by and saw you kicking about in your blood, and as you lay there in your blood I said to you, “Live!”. Ezekiel 16: 4-6. After I read this bible verse my soul broke into tears and sweeping, because deeply within I felt God was speaking to me regarding that particular moment of my life. Two weeks passed and I came back to my stepmother’s home. One day, I saw the young boy who had previously harmed me. He threatened and said that should I accused him he was going to kill me. Soon after, he pulled out a knife from his pocket and put it on my neck. I didn’t feel either cold or hot nor was I frightened. I didn’t care less either to live or die. I was like living in a hell. Few days later, my family found out what had happened to me. In that particular moment, they did not know I had been raped instead they thought I did it intentionally

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I thank God for my cousin who prayed for me all the time. In fact, she used to wake up very early in the morning in order to put cold cloths in my forehead attempting to reduce my fever. I believe what helped the most were her prayers on my behalf.

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because I wanted to. I was afraid to speak the truth about the real facts due to the death threat I had been given before.

I remember my grandpa being so upset that he told me horrible things and his eyes were red like a tomato. His face reflected a lot of hatred as if he wanted to destroy me. Yet, I knew my grandpa’s true essence did not want to destroy me rather the evil self in him did. After the incident, my grandpa used to visit everyday my step mother’s home in order to insult me, and each word coming out of his mouth was like a knife penetrating my soul. Eventually, my family decided to go to the Ministry of Education office in the capital city, Santo Domingo, in order to denounce my teacher for having remained silent. Thus, a record was opened to investigate the facts. During the process, I was asked an endless number of intimate questions I had no idea how to respond. Then, the record was sent to the regional office. From there, everything turned out terrible. I was asked even more questions than in the first office. The pressure was so intense that I became voiceless and could not speak. Few days later, we were notified about the decisions taken in both Ministry of Education and regional office. The teacher denied the facts. She said she only tried to help me. I was thrown out from school and lost the scholar year. To me, it was not relevant as I had already lost the desire to live. The enemy had fulfilled his purpose to destroy my emotions, my body and now he wanted to also destroy my soul. One morning, while being alone at my father’s home I heard a voice telling me: “Sandy, in your stepmother’s bedroom there is a chlorine and hair straightener, go and mix both and drink it”. I didn’t know both the chlorine and hair straightener were there, yet when I went to look for it I found them. I did as I had been

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Instantaneously after having drunk the milk, I felt as if a hand was introduced in my stomach and made me throw up the poisoning mixture. The milk prevented my stomach from suffering severe damage. I could not distinguish between God’s voice and Satan’s voice, but what I do know for sure, is the voice that instructed me to drink milk saved my life. The Lord allowed the enemy to touch my body and emotions, but I am sure he warned him not to touch my soul. I was disappointed I was still alive because I could not really find a reason to live. When I reached twelve (12) years old I felt as if I was one hundred (100) years old. In the midst of my aloneness and loneliness, God allowed me to meet two girls who became my sisters and dear friends. To me, they were like two angels sent from heaven. I found in them the affection and support I was yearning for. What would we do without friends? They are a true gift from God. The Bible reads in Proverbs 18:24: “A man who has friends must himself be friendly, but there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother”. Eventually I was sent to live with my mother in the city of Nagua, thus, my friends and I had to separate from each other. At my mother’s home no one knew about my life and it was difficult for me to start a new life with a family I barely knew. Besides I had no friends and felt very awkward living there. In my mother’s home was living her whole family, i.e. her parents, two brothers and three (3) sons. I would love to say the contrary, but unfortunately I also suffered a lot while living there. I felt in so much despair. I felt so empty inside that even the sea waters could not fill my desolation. One day, I attempted suicide by swallowing seventy (70) pills.

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instructed, and soon after having drunk the mixture, a very gentle voice spoke to my heart and said: “Put milk in the cup”. Thus, I filled the cup with milk and drank it.

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By midnight the pills started to make their effect and I felt as if I was dying. In the midst of my agony and being so close to death, I remembered those who committed suicide did not enter the kingdom of God and then, I cried out to God and said: “God, I am dying. Please help me. I do not want to die but I cannot find a reason to live”. God listened to my call for help! “My sacrifice, O God, is a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart you, God, will not despise”. Psalms 51:17. In the midst of my agony I saw a strong and tall character standing in front of my bed who said: “Do not close your eyes. Keep them opened. Something came out of my body, my soul had come out and I was flying upward, but stood there. I heard who the character continually repeating me: “Do not fall asleep, if you do, you will die”. The Lord sent me an angel who stood with me until daybreak”. Next day, early in the morning, my grandma found me almost dismayed and cried out for help. Soon after, one of my brothers came and she asked him to take me to the hospital. He answered: “I am not going to take her to the hospital. If she took those pills to commit suicide, then, let her die”. Yet, God did not leave me alone. Nearby, there was a woman selling lottery numbers and she mentioned while she was passing by, she heard a voice in her mind saying: “Go to Sandy’s home. Run to her home”. She narrated the voice was so intense, she immediately ran to my home. Upon arrival, she found me dismayed and looked for a vehicle to take me to the hospital. That woman was not a Christian, yet, she was used by God. The Lord uses whom he wants in the way he wants. If God used a donkey to speak up to a prophet, how much more will he use a human being to glorify himself!

Once I got to the hospital, I was examined and doctors concluded was not necessary to practice a stomach washing as pills have made their effect and I was miraculously alive. The doctor was right. I was alive by a miracle! I was left in repose and while I was resting a doctor, wearing a white tunic came into the room and said: “Do not attempt suicide, because God loves you”. His words penetrated deep down my heart. Hebrews 4:12 says: “For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart”. When I left the hospital nothing in me had changed. The emptiness was still present and becoming deeper. I became so depressed that I continually heard a voice insistently saying: “Suicide”. Yet apart from the voice instructing me to commit suicide I also felt in my heart a gentle and soft voice saying: “Sandy, before attempting suicide, why don’t you taste Jesus Christ? Taste him and you’ll see the result!” I told myself: “It is truth. I will taste Jesus and convert my life to him”. I want to remind you, I was not yet a Christian back then. Even though I had been taken to church while I was a little girl, I had not yet accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior. God did help me during that season due to his mercies and also, because he had a plan for my life since I was formed in my mother’s womb. Moreover, a defeated devil could not disturb God’s purposes for my life. You may ask: “Why she did not accept the Lord if he had saved her from death?” I believe God’s dealing with each person has a specific timing. I did not think about accepting the Lord. It was

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as if my understanding was blinded and only opened during that afternoon where the Holy Spirit dealt with me. When I was advised to taste Jesus, I could sense my understanding opened. I felt I had just discovered a great treasure.

That same afternoon I went to church with my older brother whom had accepted Jesus as his Lord and savior. That night I accepted Jesus as my only and true savior. Instantly, I felt something in my life had changed. I received a great joy. My desire to die disappeared. I became the happiest girl in the world. My brothers and sisters from church hugged me and made me feel part of their family. The pastor and his wife told me to see them as my parents. I could not understand how they could love me without even knowing me! I started attending church services every day. I used to participate in retreats and also volunteered to share biblical literature with people on streets. Oftentimes I stayed awake and praying until daybreak. I wanted to read the whole bible in just one day. It was like having a honeymoon with the Lord. I felt hunger for God and wanted to know him more and more. I felt happy because I had neither trial nor sadness. Everything was a total joy, until one day I heard that a Christian without trials had to examine himself because something may be going wrong with his life. That made me feel sad because I thought the fact I had not any trial meant the Lord Jesus had not accepted me as his daughter. Day and night I asked the Lord: â&#x20AC;&#x153;Lord, have you accepted me as your daughter?â&#x20AC;? Yet, what was happening is that the Lord was giving me a snack. He was recompensing me for all things I had suffered and at the same time he was preparing me for the terrible things that were about to happen.

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Three months after converting my life to the Lord Jesus Christ, I was baptized in the waters and eventually, the demonic oppression emerged but this time everything was different. I was not alone. The Lord and the Holy Spirit were with me and many people were praying on my behalf.

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I had accepted Jesus in my life but Satan was not willing to give up. The huge problem was that I already belonged to Jesus, but at the same time a pact had been made with Satan to own my life and he was not willing to lose.

Chapter IV

Again, an infernal encounter

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Chapter IV

After being baptized in the waters, one morning, I woke up early to pray and suddenly I felt all my body paralyzed. I could sense a heavy atmosphere in my bedroom. My heart was beating very fast. I tried to lie down in bed and once I did, my body became immobile. My tongue stuck to the palate. I could only think and wonder “Lord, what is happening”? Unexpectedly, I saw a tall, dark character wearing black clothes and approaching my bed. I could not see his face, because his head was covered with a black cape. Everything I could sense in him was darkness. He had a raven on his shoulders. He stood by my bed and look at me for some seconds. Should he lasted longer my heart would not have resist because his presence was extremely strong. That demon who visited me was the same one I used to see when I was a little girl, i.e. Saint Elias, the cemetery boy. At the beginning of his visit I thought I was just hallucinating or getting crazy. I thought everything was a result of my imagination and decided to sleep with my grandma. To my surprise the cemetery boy went to look for me at my grandma’s bedroom. As soon as he showed up, his presence woke me up. When I opened my eyes, he was there staring at me. Oftentimes, the rocking chairs started to move alone, and the plates from chicken were thrown to the floor. The atmosphere was like a horror movie. The cemetery boy had been ordered by Satan to kill me or make me crazy if I was not willing to serve him.

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I was in constant despair due to not being able to breathe freely, but thankfully the pastor, his wife and sons were praying on my behalf. Oftentimes they even stayed awake until daybreak watching over me to prevent something harmful from happening. During my stay at my pastor’s home an evangelistic convention took place in the city of Samaná and I was able to attend together with the pastoral family and my brothers from church. All along convention days I felt really good, except the last night where I felt something very dense like a black midst covered me from head to feet. My body and mind were transformed and I felt possessed for something weird. That night I suffered a horrible headache provoked by the malign influence. I was about to get crazy and die. The following day we went back to my pastor’s home and my headache had increased. For a moment, I thought I was dying. I got sick, did not eat, did not take a bath regularly and by then, the demons took advantage of the situation and took control of both my body and mind. They spoke through me saying I belonged to them and could not leave without me. I give thanks to God and my pastors, who supported and took care of me during all the time I was tormented by the demons. The

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One Sunday after arriving church, my pastor was waiting for me and said: “Sandy, I have felt from God to invite you to spend some days at my home so that you can accompany my daughter”. I accepted his invitation with pleasure not even imagining that everything was part of God’s plan to keep me safe and secure at the pastor’s home. Upon arrival at my pastor’s home I could not sleep the first night because I felt as if I was asphyxiating. The demon in charge to torment me could not enter my pastor’s home yet the evil influence against me was so intense that even from the outside wanted to asphyxiate me.

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Lord sent to the city of Nagua, an evangelist called “José Ismael Colón” to offer an evangelistic campaign at the church. I did not know José Ismael Colón but the demons in me did know him. The demons spoke to my pastor through me by saying they knew José Colón was going to Nagua to offer a campaign, thus, they were going to destroy him once he got there because he always disturbed their plans.

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The day José Colón arrived at my pastor’s home, I was sitting at the living room and suddenly I heard a greeting voice: “Good afternoon. God bless you”. I did not take the chance to see who had greeted instead the demons propel me to run away. They did not resist José Colón’s presence. Demons are liars. They tremble before a human being whose presence is filled with the power of God.

The Devil is not afraid or impressed by the years a man or woman may have being Christian. Nor he is impressed by professional degrees or positions. He is not afraid to know you are a Reverend, Bishop or Apostle. He is afraid and concerned about those people who are willing to deny themselves in order to follow God’s will and those who are true worshippers and intercessors before God’s presence. The enemy is afraid of a prayer warrior and fighter. He knows what cannot be achieved by an army during a war, can be achieved by a man or woman who bows down their knees in prayer. The first day I attended the evangelist campaign at church, nothing happened with me. I found myself in a deplorable state and I remember the pastor’s wife started fasting and praying and said to the Lord: “Lord please save Sandy or take her away with you so that she suffers no more”. God listened to her cry for help and by the campaign’s second day I was taken to church. Once there, I was sat in the first bench. While he was preaching I heard voices saying to me: “Go outside and throw yourself to the first car you see”. I tried to stand up, go out and do what the voices were

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asking of me, yet when I tried to do so, I could not move my feet because they were like tied up, rather I could only move them to walk towards the altar.

Many of the brothers and sisters at church believed the preacher was not able to cast out those demons, because as soon as one came out, another one manifested. As God knows our intentions, he spoke to the church by means of the Holy Spirit through an elderly woman who was sitting at the last bench and said: â&#x20AC;&#x153;My brethren do not think my servant has not the authority to cast out these demons. My servant do has the power to cast them out, but tonight I want to give a lesson to the church. Do not think my servant Sandy is wicked due to being in sinful behavior. No, she is so, because a diabolical pact was made with her life when she was a little girl, and Satan is claiming her, but she is mineâ&#x20AC;?. The Lord spoke the foregoing words to the church through her servant Ramonita Minaya, who has already passed to the Lordâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s presence. After the Lord spoke, the church humbled and started to intercede on my behalf. That night the Lord set me free, but he warned me not to be careless, because if I was careless, the demons could come back and my life depended on fasting and prayer. I was

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After the preacher finished the sermon he started to minister and someone took me to the altar. The evangelist put his hands over my head and I immediately fell into the ground and the demons started to manifest through me. The Lord allowed them to talk and they continually repeated I belonged to them and they could not leave without me. That night several demons manifested such as: Anaisa pies, Saint Marta, Saint Miguel, Belie del can, Metrecili y the cemetery boy, God rebukes them. They made me drag along the ground like a snake. Some people who witnessed the incident later told me how five men tried to get hold of me but could not restrain me.

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like dead but at the same time I felt free like a dove. That night was the first time I realized about the pact previously done with me and I was able to comprehend why I had receive so many attacks from the enemy.

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Upon liberation, I started to pray and fast. I knew I could not get distracted because the enemy was not going to give up on me. For some days, everything felt peaceful and tranquil, yet the war was about to start once again. In 1 Peter 5:8 the bible reads: “Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour”.

We know the enemy has been defeated and has limited power. He is neither omniscient nor omnipresent, which means he cannot be at all parts at the same time, nor he can know our thoughts, yet, he will try all means to harm us. But we have the most powerful weapons in God, to defend ourselves against his evil plans. One of the most powerful weapons is the word of God. Each time the enemy throws you a dart you have a missile to throw back by the word of God. Do not forget obedience is extremely important. When we obey God’s word and put it into action we receive great blessings. One of the things that hurts the enemy is when we obey God’s word, because he knows when we are walking in obedience all doors are closed for him. One of the enemy’s purposes is to lead us to disobey God’s word, because he knows disobedience is sin and sin brings into our lives huge negative consequences, making us lose many blessings and opening doors for him to take advantage of the situation. The enemy cannot do anything against us unless the Lord allows him to do so, just as it happened with me. Yet, when we disobey God’s word, we open the doors to the enemy and welcome him into our lives.

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Now, how can we close any door we may have opened to the enemy? Very simple! The bible says in 1 John 1:9: “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness”. Perhaps the enemy will make you feel ashamed and make you believe the Lord will not forgive you. That is a vile lie. Should you not confess your sins to the Lord, nor apart yourself from doing evil, he will not forgive you and your life will become a total ruin. You will not be successful in your endeavors. Because the only thing the Lord cannot do is to forgive a human being who does not repent from sin.

If you are actually wondering “Why the enemy is constantly attacking me?” It is because God has wonderful plans with your life and he wants to use you as a blessing channel for his purpose. The enemy knows it and that is why he wants to destroy God’s purpose for your life. However, do not worry, you have been chosen by the heavenly God. A defeated Devil cannot prevent God’s purposes to happen in your life. Remember if we walk in obedience, the Lord is faithful, and he will strengthen you and protect you from the evil one. 2 Thessalonians 3:3. Personally I admit I was very disobedient to the Lord. Yet, I was an immature adolescent. I was only twelve (12) years old. Even though I had to pay a high price for being disobedient, I feel very grateful about my Lord Jesus Christ because throughout my life his love and mercy have been real even in the face of breakdowns. All trials and tribulations I went through were allowed by the Lord so that his name could be glorified. There is no one like God.To him be all the glory and honor.

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We have good news. The bible says in Proverbs 28:13: “Whoever conceals their sins does not prosper, but the one who confesses and renounces them finds mercy”.

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Chapter V

The consequences of Disobedience

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Chapter V

During my spiritual search, I was having wonderful experiences with the Lord. Every day I felt his presence closer to me. Yet, that did not mean the oppression had ended. On the contrary, they were about to start again and even with greater fury from the enemy. One day, my pastor’s daughter began to feel jealous about me. She felt her parents loved me more than her. Yet, in reality both of us were treated the same way. The situation worsened because we were arguing every day. Thinking from her perspective, I believe should I have been in her shoes, I would have also felt the same way, perhaps I would have felt jealousy about my parents loving another girl more than me. We were 13 years old adolescents and lacked the capacity an adult has to handle and understand certain matters. Therefore, I decided to return my mother’s family home, because I did not want my pastor’s daughter to feel bad because of me. Before leaving, the Lord sent three brothers to tell me a message from the Lord. They advised me not to leave my pastor’s home in the basis that God was the one who took me there to keep me safe. They also warned me that should I return to my mother’s house, the demonic oppression would come back, because there was the danger. I replied to one of the brothers the Lord had sent, specifically the last one of them: “Tell the Lord I am leaving and do not care what he says”. With those words I had signed my sentence.

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After having stayed one week at my mother’s home, the cemetery boy visited me again. The previous occasions he visited me, he never talked to me, just looked at me. The cemetery boy is mute, yet this time he spoke to me. He didn’t speak verbally but in thoughts. In my thoughts, I know he ordered me to hang. I went to the bathroom and started tightening my throat. Soon after, I felt how a strong man’s hand took possession of my own hand and was hanging me. I immediately reacted and tried to remove the hand from my neck, but I couldn’t and I said: “God, help me”. My beloved brothers and sisters, for the first time, I heard the voice of the Lord, very loud like a thunder, saying me: “Sandy, what are you doing?” At the same time the Lord spoke, I felt the demon’s hand leaving my neck. I ended up with my neck and throat reddened and inflamed. I could not even talk but little by little I recovered. The most important thing is that I was still alive thanks to God’s mercy. As days passed, I neglected spiritually and my devotional time with God. I almost did not pray. I had no desire to attend church and even worse I went in disobedience to my mother’s home. The spiritual attacks became worse every single day. No one could help and in my despair, I shared with a neighbor the situation I was going through. He told me he knew a wizard who could help me. I was conscious about the Bible condemning those who consult fortune tellers and wizards, yet, I decided to go and consult the wizard.

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I returned my mother’s home and once I arrived, I felt totally alone. I did not feel the Lord’s presence or the Holy Spirit anywhere. I knew they had not left me but I had to pay the consequence of my disobedience and disrespect to the Lord’s message. Disobedience is sin and leads to serious consequences, such as, DEATH.

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As soon as I arrived to the wizard’s place, I felt frightened. There were many people waiting to consult the wizard. I walked toward the kitchen and a tall man, wearing red clothes, stood before me and said: “Welcome, I was waiting for you”. Do not be afraid, hug me and your fear will go away. I fearfully hugged him and felt something hot coming out of his body and going through my body. Upon which, I felt no more fear.

Once it was my turn to see the wizard, I thought I had to tell him all my life, but he surprised me, when he started telling me all my life, without me saying a word. That particular day, the wizard was working with “candela” a demon from the 21st division. The wizard told me he worked with God’s power and the Holy Spirit. I told him, the Holy Spirit could not dwell in a place like that and asked him to leave the Holy Spirit alone. And then he replied: “I do not have to wear a mask with you”, which meant he did not have to mislead me, because I knew who he was. In order to deceive people and make them believe that not all wizards and fortune tellers are bad, many of them keep a bible opened above the same table where there are many evil images. They also say they work with God’s power, the child Jesus and Saint Miguel in order to mislead people by making them believe all of that comes from God. The same way Satan lied to Eva in the Garden of Eden he continues to lie and mislead humanity. The scriptures say the enemy dresses up as an angel of light. To lie is one of his most powerful weapons. Whenever you consult a wizard, the first thing he will tell you is that they can see a light emanating from you and in his words, that is something good and great God wants to fulfill through your life. Should you not fulfill it, something bad will happen to you or your family. Nevertheless, all of that is a vile lie from the enemy.

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I replied him that I had gone there to tell them I did not want any of them in my life because I loved Jesus. He replied: “I hate Jesus. You know why? Because I was above with him, I was like him, but he dethroned me and now I am the master of this world”. I thought I was talking with Candelo, because the wizard was working with him that particular day, but then I surprised and realized I was talking with Satan himself, the Lord rebuke thee. The wizard also mentioned how while my mother was pregnant of me, someone practiced sorcery to her with the purpose to kill her, but I was the one who received the sorcery and that is why I almost die while in my mother’s womb. He told me how everything I was experiencing came from my mother and he was able to prove it. He told me: “When you are with your mother, you do not feel fear and the spirits do not torment you, yet, when she is not present, the spirits do not leave you alone. That is because the spirit residing in your mother is very strong to the extent it orders the other spirits to leave you alone while you are with her”. The wizard told me, my mother and I were destined to work together in sorcery and that was one of the purposes they had with my life. At the beginning I was wondering: “How this wizard knows all of these things if he does not even know me?” Yet, he

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The wizard told me, I had gone to visit him, because every night, at the same time, I saw a tall and black character, wearing black clothes and holding a big bird over his shoulders. He told me the character’s name was “Saint Elias”, also called “The cemetery boy” and his purpose was to kill me or make me crazy if I didn’t serve him. The wizard asked me to look at all the images he had on the altar. I looked at them and he said: “The cemetery boy is not together with these images but in a separated place, below the table, because I use him to do special works. He is very dangerous. I use him to kill and destroy”.

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knew me very well, because I was not talking with the wizard, but with Satan who had taken possession of the wizard’s body.

Once I realized I was talking with Satan I told him I knew God could set me free from his hands. And he answered: “If God can set you free from my hands, then, what are you doing here?” I could not answer him because he was right. I had nothing to look for in such place. I stood up and said I was leaving and he replied: “Do you remember what happened to you when you were eleven (11) years old?” I replied “What happened to me?” and he said: “When you were raped. Don’t you remember you were given a red soda and you drank it? There was a drug inside of the soda. You didn’t realize what was happening because of the effect the drug made on you”. I asked him: “How do you know all this?” He answered: “I was there and I was the one who caused it to happen”. He also told me the place, the timing and the exact date when everything occurred. Thereafter, I said I was leaving that place and he answered: “Yes, you can leave but I will see you again”. I answered: “Don’t be so sure”. Once I left that place, I felt a strong and terrible oppression in me. Nevertheless, I did not have a desire to pray nor go to the church. I think I had given up and it was by then, God allowed me to have a face-to-face encounter with death. Believe me, desiring to die is one thing and facing that reality, is another thing totally different. To die in Christ is gain, but to die in disobedience and without the Lord, is an eternal, total and definitive failure!

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Chapter VI

Death, Hell and a new opportunity

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Chapter VI

Death, Hell and a new opportunity

After the encounter I had with Satan, rather than seeking God’s presence, as days passed, I turned more away from God. To stop praying and attending the church meant giving up advantage to the enemy.

When I reached fifteen (15) years old, I became seriously ill. I had a terrible infection in my left kidney and was urinating blood. My condition was very serious. At church, my brothers and sisters were continuously praying on my behalf but there was no improvement. In my distress, I called upon the Lord and promised to inquire his presence with all my soul if he saved and healed me. God listened to my prayer. Few days later, I left the hospital. I did not keep my promise to the Lord and once again, I became seriously ill. The doctor was not optimistic about my condition and he was waiting 72 hours to see how my body was going to react, otherwise he did not see possibilities for me to live. When you promise something to the Lord and do not keep it, you are in serious trouble. The bible says: “When you make a vow to God, do not delay to fulfill it. He has no pleasure in fools; fulfill your vow. It is better not to make a vow than to make one and not fulfill it. Do not let your mouth lead you into sin. And do not protest to the temple messenger, “My vow was a mistake.” Why should God be angry at what you say and destroy the work of your hands? Much dreaming and many words are meaningless. Therefore fear God” Ecclesiastes 5:4-7.

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After we reached some place at the outer space, we started to descend. The more we descended, the darker the space turned out. It looked like descending to the hell. Then, he introduced me via a dark and long tunnel. It was humid and smelled like sulfur and putrefaction. I tried to remove his hands from my arm but I could not touch him. The experience was like trying to catch the air. In my distress, I cried out to the Lord, yet I felt like he could not listen to me nor exist in that place. I screamed: “God, please have mercy on me, give me another chance”. Yet, it was in vain. There was no response. The more I cried out the quicker the demon was running with my soul. I want to say that even though I was dead, my soul was still alive. I could speak, hear and smell. I had all of my senses and knew I was descending to the hell because of my disobedience. As we were approaching the end of the tunnel, I could see a very dull light turning on and off. When the light was on, I saw at the end of the tunnel another abyss and my soul was going towards that direction. Nevertheless, what frightened me the most was to see and hear other souls falling in the abyss. Their screams were exasperating. While falling, they said: Noooooooo. As soon as I

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I do not know for how long my soul left my body. During my illness and serious condition, I heard a voice saying: “Now you will go to hell”. Soon after, I saw a demon coming to look for me. He was tall, appearing like a man and all his body was full of hair, like a monkey. His face looked like a bat. He had big wings, long and stooped nails, like a chicken. Such demon was horrible. I will never forget his ugly and strange appearance. He took me by my left arm and we started flying upwards, in sky direction and at a fast speed, like a rocket.

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was about to fall I screamed with all my strength and soul: “GOD PLEASE HAVE MERCY ON ME. I DO NOT WANT TO GO TO HELL. GIVE ME ANOTHER OPPORTUNITY”. When I was about to fall, I heard a strong voice, with power and authority, like a thunder saying: “LET HER GO. SHE DOES NOT BELONG TO YOU. SHE IS MINE!”

The demon immediately let me go, and he was screaming. He ran away and went back to the hell. I remained alone at the tunnel, yet immediately, I was surrounded by a sparkling light and a tall character stood by my side. He did not allow me to see his body. He only allowed me to see his arm and sleeves. His clothes were dazzling and as white as snow that I have no words to describe it. He took my left arm and allowed me to caress his hand, yet, I could not see him completely because he was full of light. I know he was Jesus because of the nails’ mark on his hands. Thereafter, the Lord took me out of that place, and brought me back to my physical body. I remember he placed in my mouth a small baby bottle and asked me to drink. Once I started drinking, I felt my mouth watering because the liquid in the baby bottle was as sweet as honey. I felt the liquid permeating all my body like a blood serum that needed to be supplied slowly. I felt it reaching all the way through my feet and immediately started to feel stronger. I felt as if I had born again. I felt so strengthened that next day I left the hospital. I could not understand how that tiny substance the Lord passed me to drink, was able to cover and strengthened my whole body. There is nothing impossible for God. One of the biggest lies Satan wants people to believe, is that dying is the fastest way to solve their problems, in other words by “committing suicide”, in the context that suicide sets an end to all of their problems and brings peace from this external world challenges. Unfortunately many people have believed his lies and end up committing suicide. The Bible says “Satan is the father of all lies”. Should he advised you

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Many people think that after death, everything ends. Nonetheless, it is exactly the opposite. After death, the true eternity starts. We are a spirit, we have a soul and we live in a body. The body is like the apparel that covers the soul, is like the clothes we wear to cover our bodies in order to not be naked. When we die, our body turns inert and lifeless, because the soul was the one that made it feel and move. All emotions are contained in the soul, as well as the spirit, which is a sigh of life that returns to God. The soul passes to eternity. We ourselves choose which place to go. There are two pathways: heaven and hell. The only way to be saved and to enjoy eternal life is through Jesus Christ, the son of God. “Jesus is the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through him”. John 14:6. “Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus”. And this is applicable to those who walk in the spirit and not in the flesh. Romans 8:1 What does it mean to walk in the flesh? “The acts of the flesh are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God”. Galatians 5: 19-21. I know the least thing you desire is to lose your salvation or to walk in disobedience. Yet, inside of you, there is an internal fight. Your spirit wants to do the will of God but your flesh impulses you to do things that displease God. The Lord knows your weaknesses. The Bible says: “For the flesh desires what is contrary to the

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to commit suicide in the basis that you will feel better, it means that if you commit suicide, your soul will go to a place of torment for all eternity, where no one will be able to help you.

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Spirit and the Spirit what is contrary to the flesh. They are in conflict with each other, so that you are not to do whatever you want”. Galatians 5:17.

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How do we know if we are walking in the Spirit? It’s very simple. The answer is “through our fruits”. What are those fruits? The Bible reads: “But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law” Galatians 5: 22-23.

You are not alone in this fight. You have God’s support and the constant help of his Holy Spirit. God will never leave you. But remember you also need to exercise your willingness. Do not let the enemy use you as a puppet, doing of you whatever he wants, whenever and everywhere he wants. Do not expose yourself to temptation, do not look for it. Temptation comes without notice. Once it arrives, submit yourself to the Lord and he will not leave you. The Bible says: “Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him: James 1:12. Each time we cede to temptation we lose a blessing. Yet, do not be discouraged. If you have ceded to temptation, get up in the name of Jesus. The Bible says: “Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need” Hebrews 4:16. I just ask one thing from you. Set a goal to not allow anyone or anything to make you lose your salvation. If no one wants to go with you to heaven, then do not go with anyone to hell. We know that salvation is by grace, but if we insist to stay in sin, or if death or the rapt of church surprises us, we are going to lose it.

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The Bible reads: “For though we walk in the flesh, we are not waging war according to the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not of the flesh but have divine power to destroy strongholds. We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion that is raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ” 2 Corinthians 10: 3-5.

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If you’ve had the privilege to have known the gospel of salvation, please do not go back and instead go ahead fighting the good fight. Should you stumbled over, get up again. All those who have accomplish great things in life, made mistakes in the way, yet they made the decision to stay on track, make an effort and go ahead. This career is not won by those who start but by those who finish.

Chapter VII

Beyond Limit

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Chapter VII After God gave me the opportunity to come back to life, I did not follow through my promise to serve him. I did not even go back to church to reconcile with him. On the contrary, when I became sixteen (16) years old I went to live to New York with my mother. The idea to see and live with my mother made me very happy.

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It is dangerous when we promise and do not keep our promise, because the Lord is not pleased with those who are foolish. As human beings, when we are dealing with rough situations, we may make promises to the Lord and don’t keep them. I was a person who used to cry out to the Lord only when I was in a tight spot.

Sometimes we may go to the church seeking for God’s favor, his healing, his help with our needs; and all this is good because God heals, frees, prospers, helps and blesses those who trust him. However, is even better to seek for more than just the aforementioned needs. Let’s seek for more than his favor. Let’s seek his holy presence. Let’s seek him out of love rather than for the benefits he gives us. Let’s seek the things above and all other things will be added onto us. Should the Lord had allowed our desires for material things such as: a house, a car, a husband, a wife, children, academic title, jewels, bank account, etc. be the source of our happiness, there would be no need to seek the Lord’s presence. The reality is that inside of all us there is need for happiness that no material thing can fulfill but only God can.

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On the other hand, neither Satan nor the cemetery boy had forgotten about me. I was about to receive their visit very soon. One night, the steps of a giant woke me up. As he approached my room, I started sensing a smell similar to a candle. I started shaking as a jelly. I thought I was going to suffer a heart attack. I saw when this huge and tall character, dressing black clothes, stood up in front of my bed and put his body above mine. His body was so heavy I felt as if I was asphyxiating. I couldnâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t either talk or move. My tongue was fixed to my palate. This giant demon was the cemetery boy, the Lord rebukes him. He started kissing me and his breath was like a ferocious bull. Shortly after, he made me his and then he left. Once he left, the candle smell vanished, yet my mouth still smelled and tasted like a candle. His night visits became so frequent that eventually I stopped fearing him and got used to his visits every night. I knew when he was arriving because the atmosphere smelled like a candle. He used to arrive at 12:00 am and when he didnâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t arrive I felt worried. I used to stay awake until late night waiting for his arrival. He had made me his wife and I did not feel any interest on falling in love with someone else because I felt satisfied with him. And even if I decided to fall in love with someone else, I was going to have a lot of problems, because those

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Upon my arrival to New York, I thought I was going to be very happy but the opposite happened. At the beginning was not easy to adapt to a new city lifestyle. I barely knew people. I did not speak the English language and felt very weird at school. By then, I started experiencing emotional problems. I felt alone, fearful, full of insecurities and with a very low self-esteem. I had grown up with a low self-esteem and up to that moment, my whole life had been troublesome. I wished to have someone to love and protect me, someone who could fill the emptiness within my heart. I had my mother, but as I did not grow up with her, I did not trust her much and communication among the two of us was almost nonexistent.

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who serve demons cannot have the man or woman they choose, instead the ones chosen by the demons. I still remember when I fell in love with a man I deeply loved. He loved me too. But suddenly, he started hating me and did not want to see me. I suffered a lot because I loved him and could not understand why he hated me. Another day I had an encounter with the cemetery boy through a wizard and I asked him why my boyfriend hated me and he replied: “You knew you could not fall in love with him because we have prepared a man for you. You cannot choose a man for yourself. The one for you will be chosen by us. We made your actual boyfriend to hate you because he does not believe in us”. When the cemetery boy mentioned “us” he was referring to himself and Satan, the Lord rebukes him.

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I also prepared an altar for the cemetery boy. The altar encompassed a candle, in flower water, a cup of coffee and an image of the cemetery boy himself. In essence, I had overstepped the limits, forgetting what God had done with me and from where he took me out! I think, because of everything I had done, like disobedience and abusive behavior, I was deserving of being sent alive to hell. When I say abusive behavior, I mean with my behavior, I had abused God’s grace and mercy. However, the fact is God had a plan behind of all those circumstances.

Before I continue sharing my testimony, I would like to let you know that all the aforementioned experiences I was going through, were allowed by God because he wanted me to know the spiritual world, show me how demons operate and also to manifest his powerful glory in my life. Some people tell me I used to be very hard and stubborn, yet, the fact is the Lord himself hardened my heart because this was the only way for him to show and teach me the things he wanted me to learn.

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I recall the story of Moses when God instructed him to go to Egypt and present himself before Pharaoh and command him to let the people of Israel go. Yet, the Lord warned Moses that he was going to harden Pharaoh’s heart, so that he would not let the people go. Exodus 4:21. This seems to be illogic, because firstly we see how God sends Moses to Pharaoh to command him to let the people of Israel go so that they may worship God and secondly we see how God himself, tells Moses that he was going to harden Pharaoh’s heart, so that he would not let the people go. The answer to this is simple, meaning that the Lord wanted to show his power to Pharaoh, so that his holy name was announced and glorified in all earth!

Subsequently God sent ten (10) plagues to Egypt. During the first six (6) plagues Pharaoh stood firm in not letting the people of Israel go. Yet, during the latest four (4) plagues, Pharaoh decided to let the people of Israel go. It was during the hail plague that Pharaoh summoned Moses and Aaron and said to them: “This time I have sinned. The Lord is in the right, and I and my people are in the wrong. Pray to the Lord, for we have had enough thunder and hail. I will let you go; you don’t have to stay any longer.” Exodus 9:27-28. I was committing the same sin as Pharaoh did. When I was in danger I cried out to God for safety and promised to serve him, but as soon as God helped me, I forgot the promises I made him during my moments of despair.

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In Exodus 14:4, the bible reads: “And I will harden Pharaoh’s heart, and he will pursue them. But I will gain glory for myself through Pharaoh and all his army, and the Egyptians will know that I am the Lord.” So the Israelites did this”.

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The Lord allowed my heart to harden in order to show me his mighty power, love and mercy. Had not been this way, he wouldnâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t have given me so many opportunities. Had he desired, he would have let me die and go to hell the day I took the seventy (70) pills, instead, he saved me and allowed me to come back to life. The Lord knew I was not going to keep my promise to serve him even though I had made the promise wholeheartedly.

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On a side note, during one of his visits, the cemetery boy instructed me to harm my mother. I refused and told him to not touch my mother. In order to prevent him from harming her, I used to stay locked up in my room. This caused my mother to complain about me being locked up in my room most of the time, but she did not imagine this was the only way for me to avoid the demons from hurting her or even worse, to prevent them from using me to hurt her. The enemy wanted to destroy my mother and use me as a channel to carry out his evil plans. Also, I would like to highlight that even though the cemetery boy is mute, he has ways to communicate with those who serve him.

Personality Disorder As I continued to feel a terrible despair inside of me I started experiencing personality disorder. I used to manifest three different personalities. One of them, used to be a little girl, around seven (7) years old. While possessing my body the little made me react like a child. The other personality was a young girl, my same age. When this young girl possessed my body, I was a completely different person, feeling I had the world under my feet and anything I desired I got it. I just had to ask for it. It was as if Satan himself (the Lord rebukes him) delivered me anything I wanted. This personality, i.e. the young girl, was very clever. Sometimes, while taking exams at school, she used to take possession of me and filled the exam on my behalf. Finally, the other personality was someone who wanted to destroy everything around me. Only

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God was able to prevent this demon from doing all the evil things he had the intention to do through me. After my experience with personality disorder, I came to an understanding that when someone does evil to another person, is not intentional but the demons acting through the person. Oftentimes, that is the reason why when a person commits a crime, he or she may state not knowing how it happened or say that they heard a voice encouraging them to commit the crime. These voices are demons sent by Satan with the purpose to torment people, make them lose their senses and even kill them. In John 10:10 the Bible reads: “The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full”.

God has allowed many people to experience first-hand these life experiences I am sharing with you, in order for them to see and know the Devil’s intentions and most importantly, so that they can realize how all-powerful Jesus is to set us free from all evil plans. It doesn’t matter how much you have been suffering or the enemy’s plans against you. If you open your heart to Jesus, he will set you free and fill your heart with joy and abundant peace. Through Jesus you will be able to find a loving family. Do not allow the enemy to continue destroying your life. Choose Jesus, the author and giver of eternal life. The Devil has been defeated already, by

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The Devil’s intention is to steal your joy, your freedom, to kill you and to destroy your life and family. Only Jesus can dissolve and prevent his evil plans against your life and family from happening. Only Jesus can give you life and save you from the enemy’s hands. If you are currently being attacked by the enemy, do not think there is no hope for you. Instead come to the feet of Jesus who wants to help you and set you free from all evil prisons and oppression.

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our Lord Jesus. Seek God and you will find him. Godâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s desires for your life are for good, he wants to help you and use your life as a channel of blessing for other people. You were not born by chance. You are in this world to fulfill Godâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s purpose. God will fulfill his purpose in you.

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On the Verge of Madness

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Chapter VIII

On the Verge of Madness

When a person resists obeying the Devil’s commands or ordinances, he or she can be punished strongly. The person can be in danger of death or even worse on the verge of madness.

Because I did not obey the demons’ order to harm my mother, their punishment was to drive me crazy. I was attended in psychiatry for a long time. The first time, I was hospitalized in a psychiatry clinic during one month. It was a traumatic experience. I had never been in a psychiatry hospital before, thus, upon arrival, I became traumatized to see people who seemed to come from another world. Their minds were totally out of reality. Some of them looked like children. Others were there because voices were tormenting them or simply because they wanted to die. I was wondering: “What incident marked their lives so strongly to the extent they were in a psychiatry hospital affected by madness”? Particularly, something called my attention about those patients. Some of them were very kind and tender even in the midst of their mental condition. I think maybe unconsciously they were offering the kindness and tenderness they wanted to receive from others. God is very interested in those who are in psychiatry hospitals, oftentimes forgotten by their relatives and even by God’s people. While at the hospital, I used to be given different pills. When I was first admitted I felt sane, but upon taking the pills I became in the same mental state as the other patients. At the beginning I just used to sleep, because I had neither energy nor strength to

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do something else. I did not know where my mind had gone. I recalled how my mother used to visit me sometimes, yet, after she left I could not remember she had come to visit me.

I would like to share that going to a psychiatrist or visiting a psychologist is not bad, on the contrary, is good. God gave them the capacity and wisdom to help those who are in need. Taking pills is not bad either. God gave men the wisdom to create and supply pills to all those who need them. Yet, there are diseases provoked by demons, and Jesus Christ is the only effective medicine to heal and set people free from demons. When people are tormented by demons, there is no human medicine able to help them. Unfortunately, medical science is unaware of this fact. The doctors who attended me, used to tell me that I had to take the pills in order to be healed. Yet, I think that demons do not get out with medicine or pills. They only get out in the name of Jesus. In Mark 16:17 and 18 the bible says: â&#x20AC;&#x153;And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons; they will speak in new tongues; they will place their hands on sick people, and they will get wellâ&#x20AC;?. In many cases medication is necessary. For instance, some

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My body and mind reactions were temporal until my body could adapt to the pills and their effect. Eventually psychiatry hospitals became my second home. Even the hospital director, knew me very well. When I was out of the hospital I was continually tormented by demons, yet while at the hospital the demons left me at peace. As they had not been able to kill me, their intent was to drive me crazy. I became addict to take sleeping pills and many times I used to take even more pills than those indicated by the doctor.

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people suffer from chemical unbalance in their brain, which causes negative reactions that affect their character and state of being. In this case, medication can help to regulate the functioning of chemicals in the brain, allowing a steady recovery until people are totally sane. A similar scenario, are people suffering from diabetes. Should they not take insulin, they run the risk to relapse or even die.

I totally believe our Lord heals the sick. I also believe he can glorify himself through doctors. He acts through mysterious pathways. Many people believe going to a doctor is a sin and a lack of faith. Yet, I believe their viewpoint is ignorance. Visiting a doctor is not a sin. Personally, when I feel unhealthy, I pray and ask God to heal me. If nothing happens and my health remains the same or worsens, then, I go to the doctor. If I am healed by the medicine given by the doctor, it means the illness was physical as opposed to demons’ oppression. Reason being, demons are not driven out with medication but in the powerful name of our Lord Jesus. I think being diagnosed healthy by the doctor while continuing to feel ill, it is an indication of the enemy’s oppression. The Devil’s oppressions are not reflected in medical exams. The Lord is able to heal instantly, but sometimes he wants to glorify his power through medical science. Other times, when healing does not occur, it is good to remember our God is sovereign and knows the why behind his acts, even though in our human condition we cannot understand his designs. I’ve heard about many cases where medical science cannot do anything about a disease and only a miracle from God can heal the person. I’ve even heard testimonies about doctors who are unbelievers and have challenged God to do what medical science cannot do, and God has manifested his power by making possible

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what the doctors claimed impossible. Where medical science ends, God begins to act. Men can only do possible things, but impossible things belong and can be done by our God.

During that season of my life, when I was not at the psychiatrist I was at the office of my general practitioner. Every day I used to feel a different pain in my body and those days I did not feel any pain, I used to wonder: “It is weird I do not feel any pain”. I was calling the pain myself. Even worse, when my doctor did not find anything in my body, I used to get upset at him and say that he was not a good doctor thus had to come back to university to study. Yet, the doctor knew all my problems were emotional. Even though I wanted to change doctor, it was not convenient for me, because Calderón (my doctor’s name) and my therapist were the only ones who truly understood my condition. I do not want to skip talking about my doctor Aaron Calderón. Wherever he is, my desire is for my Lord Jesus to bless him abundantly and keep him safe. This doctor was like an angel for me. More than a doctor he became my best friend. I remember him as being compassionate with all of his patients and devoting his time to their needs. From the deepest part of my heart, I wish to express my gratitude to doctor Aaron Calderón for everything he did for me. His work was so beautiful I felt he deserved the Nobel Prize. I was told he moved from New York City and is currently

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Separately, not all diseases are caused by demons. Many people are sick due to demonic oppression, but others suffer from psychosomatic diseases, which means, they auto-diagnose a disease, to the extent the person becomes truly ill. Once I read in a book that three of every four people in a hospital suffer from EIBOI, i.e. Emotional Inclination to Believe Oneself Ill. When I read the phrase I laughed a lot and said to myself: “Oh my God, I used to be one of those”.

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living in the state of Colorado, USA. Wherever he is I would like to say: “Infinite Thanks doctor Aaron Calderón, for all the beautiful things you did for me and for each one of your patients. God will reward you”.

There are many reasons why a person can become mentally ill to the extent of needing to be admitted in a psychiatric hospital, for instance, sexual abuse, physical abuse, emotional abuse, childhood abuse, inferiority complex and low self-esteem among others. Other people bear resentment, bitterness or hold onto grudges and hatred. These kind of diseases reside in the heart and soul, and sooner than later manifest themselves in our physical bodies. This is the reason why many people go to the doctor claiming symptoms of disease yet upon medical examination nothing was found. These people can even take a lot of pills to no avail. You know why? Because the only medicine able to heal their wounds is to submit their lives to Jesus, forgive themselves and other people’s offenses. It is necessary for them to release and let go of the roots of bitterness and resentment in order to receive inner healing. Forgiveness is the best medicine for the soul I know people who were ill for many years and became healthy once they decided to forgive and let go. We are to forgive those who offend us the same way God forgives us. Many people do not feel God’s forgiveness even when he has forgiven them. This is because they have not forgiven themselves. It is the same that happens when a person thinks no one loves him or her, even though he or she may be surrounded by loving people; a person who doesn’t love himself, will not be able to feel the love from others nor to genuinely love others. My advice for them is to seek God’s help, spiritual support, and if needed be, seek for professional assistance. I needed the three of them, but the one helped the most was God’s help and mercy.

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Regardless of my mental instability condition, I was a very good employee and had a special grace to sell goods to my customers. In spite of having a job, I had few other activities to distract my mind, thus, demons kept persecuting me wherever I went. Even at the new apartment I was living, the landlord was a woman who had an altar devoted to demons. Besides, there were other two roommates with us who were fortune-tellers and read the coffee cup. Personally, in order to feel accepted by them, I also devoted an altar to the cemetery boy, the Lord rebukes him. I was going from bad to worse, i.e. like a marble crab, walking backwards. End with your life! Few days after having arrived to the apartment, I started to receive strong diabolic oppression. The demons ordered me to go to the train station at 181 Saint Nicholas Street and throw myself into the rails when the train was approaching. I obeyed and went to the train station in order to commit suicide. While walking towards the train station I could feel as if someone was taking me there by obligation. The oppression was so strong that I had no other choice than to obey and end with my life. Upon arrival, I lasted a long time waiting for the train to approach in order to throw myself into the rails. I had around 40 minutes waiting. Then, in my despair I cried out to the Lord and said that he neither washes, nor lets others use the washing pan. In

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When I left the psychiatric hospital, I decided to leave my motherâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s home and rent a room. I was afraid to harm her as per the enemyâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s order. I was able to cover my expenses, because due to my psychiatric problems I received financial support from the government. I also used to work few hours in a shoe store. The store owners were very kind with me, and each time I left from the psychiatric hospital, they employed me so that I could keep my mind busy and active.

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other words, he neither ends with my life nor lets me end with my life. While I was saying to the Lord that I wanted to die, I started feeling an abundant joy and peace within me. I started singing praises to the Lord, those I had previously learned at church. As the joy and peace remained, I said to myself: “I cannot commit suicide while feeling this abundant joy and peace within me”. And I said to the Lord: “I know the peace I am feeling is coming from you”. A few moments later, I left the train station. Upon leaving, I realized the train was just approaching. The Lord stopped the train from approaching while I was inside, in order to save me from committing suicide.

On the other hand, the landlord realized I tried to commit suicide and asked me to look for another room because she did not want to face problems with the police in the event I committed suicide. As a result, I called a friend and said I did not know where to go. My friend told me she knew a woman who was leasing a room. Thus, I talked with her and she agreed to lease me a room. Just as my previous landlord, this new landlord also had altars at her home. In every room she had an altar devoted to demons and her own bedroom looked like a cemetery due to all of the candles. She had many problems and without knowing me, she shared with me all of her life issues. While she was speaking, I wanted her to finish promptly because I also wanted her to know about my life and story. I really needed someone with whom to share and speak. When I was finally able to share with her my story, she was amazed about all the things I had been through. She thought her own problems were big, but when she listened to mine, she remained without words. After I left, she pondered about whether leasing me a room or not, because she thought to herself she already had many problems and did not want a person with even more problems to live at her home. The next day, after I left work I looked for my clothes and personal items, ready to move to the new room.

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God will always provide us support It was almost 12:00 am, when a woman walked through the building staircase and noticed me. She said: “Dear, what are you doing here, alone at this late night hour? Come with me, to my apartment”. She later told me how while sleeping she was awoken by a voice saying: “Go to the building’ staircase”. And she said to herself: “What am I going to look for at the building’ staircase being 12:00 early morning?” Nevertheless, she obeyed the voice and that is how she found me. In New York, no one dares to enter an unknown person to his home and even less at late hour night. Thus, I know the Lord was the one who awoke the woman and the voice she heard was the Lord’s voice. Once we entered her home, she prepared dinner for me and sat in front of me. I will never forget the words she said: “You were born for something special. The Lord loves you and will do great things through you”. Even though she was not Christian, the Lord used her to help me by saying those encouraging words. After dinner, she accompanied me to see the other woman who had agreed to rent me a room and thanks God, we found her. From that night forward, I stayed living at her home. I felt in total despair but I had to pretend everything was fine. I didn’t want the landlord to worry or ask me to leave her apartment, because I had no place to go.

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When I arrived the new landlord’s home, even though I repeatedly rang the bell no one opened the door. Thus, I ran to the building staircase and started crying. I felt a profound sadness within me. I cried out to the Lord and said: “Lord, what can I do now? The landlord is not here and I have no place to go. I do not want to go back to my mother’s home. It’s late night and I am afraid someone might come and harm me. Besides, I am hungry”. I was crying. Yet, a broken and a contrite heart, these, our Lord, will not despise. Psalm 51:17.

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A week later, I went to see my psychiatrist to talk about the cemetery boy, the demons wanting to kill me and the cemetery boy intimating sexually with me. When I spoke with her, she told me the reason why I was experiencing all this was because surely I was not taking the medication. She also mentioned I was very young to be thinking about a man. She could not understand I was referring to a demon as opposed to an earthly man.

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I left her office very disappointed and told myself: “If my life really belongs to the Devil then I will give him my life. I am tired about this battle and struggle”. Soon after, I went to a botanic store in order to buy all possible images and idols from demons belonging to the 21st division and devote a big altar. I bought candles, flowery water and a perfume named “Anaisa anai” for the demon Anaisa pies. Upon arrival to the apartment, I prepared and devoted the altar. Subsequently, I was visited every night by a different demon and they even told me the clothes I had to wear.

A week later, a man came to the apartment to visit the landlord. This man was one of the biggest wizards in Dominican Republic. The apartment’s owner looked for a big rum bottle and gave it to the wizard in order to be drunk by the beings acting through him. Soon after, the demons took possession of the wizard’s body. The landlord wanted the demons to talk with her. However, the demons said through the wizard’s mouth that I was the one they wanted to speak with. She looked for me at the kitchen and said: “Sandy, the demons want to speak with you”. Thus, I went to the room and the wizard grabbed my arms strongly and I told him to ask the demons to calm down if they wanted to speak with me. I left the room but the woman went looking for me again. I entered the room again and the wizard was more relaxed. He asked to look for a candle and glass of water and go to my room. Once at my room,

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another demon took possession of the wizard. This one looked like a ferocious bull, breathing like a wild animal and wanting to demolish all items at my room. I was totally scared, yet I knew I could not show fear or weakness.

When the first demon left the wizard’s body, another demon took possession of his body. I thought it was the cemetery boy, but then I realized it was not him, because the wizard started talking with a female voice. I asked him, who is she? And he replied he was not authorized to respond to my questions. I told him I felt alone because I had left the Lord Jesus Christ. And she (the demon) asked me to not feel alone because a different demon had been assigned to visit me every night. She asked me to give her a gift. She asked for a red nightgown I had purchased. I told her she could take it. Then, I was supposed to wear the red nightgown each time she came to visit me. Then, she said: “As we are now friends, I am going to tell you my name. In the 21st division they call me “LA PEQUEÑA. Now I must go because your husband is on the way, and he is our boss. We are all afraid of him”. I really don’t know what she meant with her words.

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I asked him: “Who are you?” and he said he was not authorized to reveal any information and asked me to wait for my husband, the one who was able to answer all of my questions. He also said he was mad at me because I had not prepared anything for him. I told him I did not know he was going to visit me and besides, I didn’t know him. Then he said he had to leave because my husband was on his way. In that moment, I realized for first time, the cemetery boy had made me his wife, the Lord rebukes him.

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Once she left the wizard’s body, the cemetery boy, i.e. Saint Elias, took possession of his body. I have no words to describe his reaction. If the first demon looked like a ferocious bull, I cannot even compare the cemetery’s boy reaction. I just said to myself: “Oh my God, what is this I am looking at?”

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After he calmed won, he said it was time to reveal the secret of my life. He said: “When your mother had five (5) months pregnancy, she was going to lose you. But my master sent me to save you and thanks to him and me, you are alive. I am the one who has taken care of you all of these years. I am the one you have always seen. You belong to us and we are preparing you to work for us. Even though you and your mother do not get along, you are destined to work together because everything that happens to you comes from her. We are waiting for you to reach certain age in order to carry through our plans and the time is approaching”. Each time the cemetery boy mentioned the word “we” he was referring to Satan, the Lord rebukes him.

I told him: “If my life really belongs to you, then I am willing to give it to you, because I am tired of this fight. However I need a favor. I want you to give me money in order to leave my relatives and family from San Cristóbal in a very good position because they are all very poor and I want to support them financially. If you fulfill my desire, you can then take my life”. He answered: “Place a glass of water and a candle below your bed during seven (7) days. After seven (7) days call the “horse” and he will give the lottery lucky number, so that you can financially support your family”. When he mentioned the “horse” he was referring to the wizard he was talking me through. He said my time was coming to an end. Before leaving, he said he was mad at me, because the altar I had devoted lacked two things I did not have. He was referring to a red soft-drink for Anaisa pies and a thick tallow candle for Saint Martha, the Lord rebukes her.

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My advice for all people who have altars at home devoted to idols and saints is to get rid of them. Those images and idols called “Saints” are demons presented as angels of light. The Bible says about these idols made of silver, gold, bronze, iron and wood are the work of men’s hands; they have mouths, but they do not speak; eyes they have, but they do not see; they have ears, but they do not hear; noses they have, but they do not smell; they have hands, but they do not handle; feet they have, but they do not walk; nor do they mutter through their throat. Those who make them are like them; so is everyone who trusts in them. Psalms 115: 4-8. Even though many people have testified about the miracles received from these images and idols, called “Saints”, the truth of the matter is they can do nothing. These kinds of miracles are performed by demons. The demons take possession of the images, hide behind them and grant your petition in order to keep you trusting in them. This is because the Devil knows that God does not like idolatry and those who bow down or worship idols will not enter the kingdom of heaven. The Devil’s only purpose is to take you to hell. The Lord gave us his word, the Bible, to speak to us through it and let us know the good things we must do and the bad things we must not do. Moreover, the Bible teaches us the consequences of both obedience and disobedience.

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The same night after speaking with him, I placed the candle and glass of water below the bed. Three days after I went to the storehouse and bought the red soft-drink for Anaisa pies and the thick tallow candle for Saint Martha. When I lighted the candle I repeated the prayer written in the label, and then, I fell asleep. I had no idea about Satan’s plan to kill me that night, the Lord rebukes him.

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Psalm 10:11 encourages us to trust Jehovah. He is our helper and shield. Many people who practiced sorcery and magic have been rescued by the Lord. People who had great covenants with Satan and were slaves of demonic pacts are free nowadays through Christ Jesus and they have been instructed by the Lord to testify how they were saved and set free from the enemyâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s tactics.

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Do you know why the Lord wants us to testify? It is not to divulge our past life issues to the four winds, instead the Lord wants people who are burdened by the enemy and not knowing what to do, be able to listen to his word, which brings life to the soul. He wants these people to know there is hope for them and Satan is not allpowerful, nor he can do as he pleases, because there is someone who defeated him. This person is Jesus and all those who believe in Jesus, will continue to defeat Satan.

I will never get tired of testifying to the world the miracles God has performed in my life. I will never get tired of testifying his love and mercy. I cannot be ungrateful with my Lord. Many people who have experienced the miracles of God in their lives have remained silent. They do not testify out of shame. Others say they are not yet prepared and are always giving an excuse. Many have buried the gifts and talents the Lord has placed in them. The Lord wants you to be grateful and to freely give what you have freely received. Do not feel ashamed to testify the miracles God has performed in your life. Your testimony can be the channel God wants to use to save many who are in the same condition you once were. You are the channel for God to deliver an encouraging word, hope, healing and salvation. Live your life in gratitude towards God and remind your soul each one of the blessings you have received from the Lord. A thankful heart and attitude will help you to realize the many reasons you have to live happy and grateful about the life God has given you.

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Be grateful for your bed, even if it’s not that comfortable, because there are many sleeping on the floor. Be grateful that regardless of all difficulties and suffering you’ve been through, you are still alive and not dead in the hell. Be grateful for the food God provides, because many go to sleep without eating. Be grateful and express your gratitude, because ungrateful people will not enter the kingdom of heaven. Feel proud about who you are. Express your gratitude to God about his blessings and favor upon you. If you do so, you will start to witness how blessings will increase and overflow in your life. God wants to bless many but they do not receive more because they are ungrateful. Do not be one of them.

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Be grateful about everything you have. Stop complaining about the things you don’t have. There are many who have less than you have, however they still express their gratitude to God. Be grateful about your life, because at present, there are many who are agonizing and hopeless. Be grateful about your health, because many are unhealthy. Be grateful for your eyes, because many are unable to see. Be grateful for your feet, because many are unable to walk. Be grateful for your ears, because many are unable to hear. Be grateful for your hands, because many do not have hands. Be grateful about your job, no matter how hard it is, no matter how challenging your boss is, because many would love to find a job as yours. Be grateful for your children, because many desire to become parents but are unable to. Be grateful for your house and living space even if it’s not the best, because many desire to have a place to live.

Chapter IX

Asking for Help!

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Chapter IX Continuing my story about the night I lighted a thick tallow candle for Saint Martha and placed a red soft-drink at the altar for Anaisa pies, I was awaken by midnight and saw a serpent tangled and coming from Saint Martha’s body and moving above the bed. At the same time I heard a voice saying: “Your time has ended. You have to die”.

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When a person is possessed by Saint Martha’s demon (named “the tyrannical”), the body is possessed not by Saint Martha but by the demon tangled in her body with the shape of a snake. This is the reason why the possessed person tends to drag along the ground like a snake. Only the power of Jesus, through his servants full of the power of God, can crush its head and set the person who is possessed free. Most importantly, the person must desire to be set free. The person must receive Jesus as his Lord and Savior and let the Holy Spirit reign in his heart and life.

I literally saw how the serpent started to tangle my whole body and strangle my neck. I just was able to scream in my mind: “Lord, help. Please help me. I do not want to die and have no strength to fight this demon, please help me!” My cry in despair reached the Lord’s presence. I do not know how, but the fact is I kept fighting with this demon until daybreak. It was not in my own strength but God strengthened me. When the demon left, I didn’t feel strength to even wake up. I dragged my body along the bed until I fell off. However, I managed to get to the bathroom. At the bathroom I felt like fainting and dying.

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I know many people may doubt about my experience and even think itâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s just a product of my imagination. Yet, had I not lived this experience I donâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t think my mind would have been able to imagine something similar. I want to tell you that the spiritual realm is even more real than the natural realm where we human beings are. I respect each person opinion but I am quite sure all of these experiences I am sharing with you were real and God allowed me to experience them. There are people who know me and can testify the validity of all the majority of experiences I went through. The Lord and my own consciousness know I am neither lying nor exaggerating. Besides, if it was not true, Satan would not bother in wanting to kill me so that I do not open my mouth and unmask him. As a result of writing this book, Satan has tried to kill me to prevent me from publishing it. If he had done this, it is because my story is not invented rather it is 100% real and true.

The experience I had with the demon transformed in a snake, was neither a dream nor a nightmare, it was something real. As I mentioned above, the spiritual realm is as real as the natural realm you observe and live in. I lost all of my strength while fighting the demon. Being still alive was a miracle from God. Once I was at the bathroom, I cried like I had never cried before. I did not know Satan was waiting until my 21st birthday, in order to take me with him. The pact was supposed to end by my 21st birthday. I was 20 years old and in three months I was going to be 21 years old. However, the enemy wanted to take me with him before the

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Moreover, I believe my salvation is too valuable in order to lose it for a simple lie. I am crystal clear that one the sins the Lord detests the most is to lie, and as I always say, if no one wants to go with me to heaven, I will not go with anyone to hell, and even less because of telling a lie. I know our salvation is a gift from God and I also know if I do not care for it I can lose it. I also know a white lie is still considered a lie before the eyes of God.

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deadline. The enemy is a liar as he did not keep his promise to provide me with money in order to support my family financially, instead, before the seven days, he tried to kill me. That morning, I asked the Lord’s forgiveness. I told him: “Lord, I know today is my last day and the Devil will kill me no matter what. I’ve received the order to commit suicide today, but I want to tell you Lord, that even though I may find myself in the most profound places in hell, I will always love you. You have been extremely good to me. I am the one who has failed you”. The foregoing were not simple words, I was surrendering my heart to the Lord.

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Suddenly, I heard a gentle voice speaking to my heart and said: “You cannot commit suicide. Get up and go to work”. When he mentioned the word “work” I remembered how kind my boss had been with me. I could not leave the job without notifying her. While listening to the voice, my body began to strengthen. I managed to get up from the floor and felt better. I took a bath and went to my workplace. I decided to go walking because I felt I needed to walk. On my way, I felt the same peace and joy I had previously felt when I intended to commit suicide at the train station. In my mind I said to the Lord: “I know this peace comes from you”.

I went to my workplace with the idea in mind to resign and say good-by to my boss, but Lord’s plans for my life that day were very different from what I could have ever imagined. A while ago, I had written a letter to “Radio Vision Cristiana” with the intention to share the odyssey I had been through. I thought by the time they receive my letter I was going to be dead already. I just wanted someone to truly believe my experience as real and true. Upon arrival at my workplace, I was not able to talk with my boss and I decided to talk with her by end of the day. At 12:00 PM the store was totally empty without customers. Suddenly a

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young man entered the store and started preaching to my work colleagues. They were not paying full attention to his preaching. There was one moment, he spoke with authority and said to one of the girls how much Christ loved her. She didn’t even look at him. At that instant, I was passing by and his words deeply touched my soul. His word penetrated to the core of my bones: “Christ loves you”.

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I stopped and asked the young man if he was Christian and he said yes. I asked him who his pastor was and whether he was able to drive out demons. He answered: “My pastor is able to drive out demons and they have to leave”. I told him I had written a letter with the purpose to mail it to Radio Vision Cristiana, but I was going to give it to him instead, so that he could share it with his pastor. He agreed, passed me his church address and encouraged me to visit the church that same night, because there was worship service. I felt happy and enthusiastic about a new hope for my life. God bless this young man named José Albarracín who is a member of the church Mount Calvary supervised by Rev. Porfirio Reyes.

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Chapter X When I left work, I took the bus in direction to the address the young man had noted down for me. While at the bus, I was hearing the voice of demons saying: “If you go to that place, we will punish you. You have to commit suicide. Your time is over”. At the same time, I cried out to the Lord, saying: “Lord, please help me to find the church. This is my last opportunity to be saved. If you do not save me, the demons will punish me and you know how hard they punish”.

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Upon arrival at the address where the church was supposed to be, I could not see it. The demons had blurred my sight to prevent me from seeing the church. The church was exactly in front of the place where I was standing. As I could not see the church, I cried out to the Lord: “Oh Lord, this was my last opportunity to be saved. I can’t find the church. I will have to commit suicide”.

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When I was about to return with the intention to commit suicide as per the demons’ order, suddenly a dazzling light similar to a car’s headlight pointing your face lighted up my face’s right side. The light was so potent that I looked back to check what was shining. When I looked, my eyes saw a sign with dazzling letters that read: “MOUNT CALVARY PENTECOSTAL CHURCH”. My beloved, those letters and the light coming from the sign looked like fine gold to me. My heart started beating faster than usual. I crossed the street running and went up the church’ stairs. Upon arrival, I stood at the church’s hallway waiting to see if someone would come out. While I was standing, the demons kept

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repeating in my mind: “Get out of this place. This place is not convenient for you”.

When I tried to leave the church, I was unable to move my feet. It looked like my feet had been glued with cement to the church’s floor. I said in my mind: “Lord I cannot move my feet away from this place”. I stood for a while, waiting for a miracle, and the miracle happened. All of a sudden, a door opened and many people came out. Among them, there was a tall, strong and pleasant man. Everything in this man radiated love. I had never seen before such a beautiful smile like his. I did not know who he was, yet, in my heart I felt a strong impact coming from a voice who told me: “He is the pastor”. Without knowing me, he approached and welcomed me. He told me he was the pastor. I told him I needed to talk with him and he replied: “Come with me”. The God be the Glory! I did not need to make an appointment to talk with him. I needed someone to listen to me and believe me. This man sat together with me and listened to me patiently. Most importantly, he believed everything I told him. When I finished my story he said: “The first thing you must do is to reconcile with the Lord. Secondly, get rid of all things that keep you joined to the Devil. Allow me to pray for you”. I repeated the prayer of faith and soon after he prayed for me. During the prayer, I felt water falling through my head. It felt like drizzle, like a hot water penetrating my head’s pores. The water felt like a serum, flowing slowly through my body until it covered the sole of my feet.

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Later, a sister came out and I told her I wanted to see the pastor. She told me I had to make an appointment in order to see the pastor. She said the pastor already had an appointment that night, thus, it was impossible for him to see me. I said in my mind: “Oh Lord, the pastor will not be able to see me. This was my last opportunity. I will have to commit suicide”.

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When I felt the water has covered the sole of my feet, I said to the Devil: “You are defeated Satan, because the Lord Jesus Christ has just entered my life”. Soon thereafter, the pastor also invited me to go to the altar in order for the church to pray for me, as well. As per his request, I went to the altar and the congregation started to pray for me. The demons in my body manifested and didn’t want to leave. The demons said I belonged to them and they were not going to leave without me. However, a great anointment was manifested and the demons had to leave my body. The last one to leave my body was the cemetery boy. When Jesus arrived, he drove this demon out and Jesus stayed as the absolute owner of my heart. Oh, when Jesus comes everything changes!

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I felt like dead but free like a dove. I felt I had born again. I left the church, went home and put in a trash can the altar I had devoted to the demons together with all of the clothes and everything related to demons with the purpose to throw the items away the next morning. During midnight I was awaken by a noise coming from the trash can where I had placed all the things belonging to the Devil, the Lord rebukes him. I felt so scared, like if my heart was going to leave my body. At the same time, I felt someone hugging me, taking away my fear and whispering: “Do not be afraid, I am with you”. Thus, I fell asleep like a birdie. The next day, I threw the trash can away.

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I continued to attend to the Mount Calvary church which is pastured by Porfirio Reyes. When I returned I realized the church’s sign did not have the dazzling lights I had seen the night before. Everything was part of God’s plan in order to allow me to see the church’s sign. I found a great family at Mount Calvary church. The pastor was like my father. Because I had met the pastor first than his wife, I hadn’t had a chance to liaise with her much, but she is a very kind and sweet woman. I used to say in my heart: “Lord, I would love her to be my mother”. All brothers and sisters from

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church treated me with love and tenderness. They were used by God to take care of me until I became fully recovered. I would like to take this chance to express my gratitude to Fredy and his brothers, Natividad, Kirsy, La Chama and all women who helped me through their prayers and always cared about me.

During the week, another incident happened. Early in the morning, a man who was also living at the landlord’s house entered my room. Even though I did not know him or hadn’t spoken to him before, he entered my room saying he needed to talk with me. When I saw him, I felt afraid but stayed calm. He sat in my bed and began speaking about God. I told him, “If you know so much about God’s word the best you can do is to open your heart to Jesus”. I also ordered him to get up from my bed and get out of my room in the name of Jesus. And so he did. At night, this man found me at the kitchen and said he wanted

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The Holy Spirit’s Baptism The same day I was set free by the Lord, while I was commuting to work, the Lord told me: “Go back home, turn on the radio and tune in Radio Vision Cristiana”. Even though I did not want to go back home because I ran the risk to arrive late at work, I obeyed the Lord’s instruction. Once I tuned in Radio Vision Cristiana station, I felt a powerful anointing as they were worshipping God. I also started to praise and worship God. Suddenly I felt as if a fire was burning from my head to feet and my tongue tangled. I could not speak Spanish. I was speaking another language, one I had not spoken before. The Lord baptized me in the Holy Spirit through Radio Vision Cristiana station. I went to work and felt as if all my body was burning. When I tried to speak, I spoke in tongues. I will never forget that experience! Oftentimes we may lose blessings when in a hurry. Had I not obeyed the Lord in order to not arrive late at work, I would have probably lost that blessing.

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to say something. And then he said: “While God is with you, nothing and no one will be able to harm you”. I told him I already knew that and asked him why he was saying those words to me. And he answered: “Today, I entered your room with purpose to rape and kill you. I did so because I heard a voice instructing me to go to your room to rape and kill you. The voice instructed me to speak to you about God first so that you could feel in a familiar environment. That is the reason why I spoke about God first in order to create familiarity with you. Upon which, my intention was to rape and kill you. However I could not do it, because a shining light was covering you and did not allow me to harm you”. Thanks God, eventually, the Lord allowed me to leave the landlord’s house which was full of demons and provided me a better place to live.

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In that new season of my life, the Lord gave me a revelation and showed me how there was a fight for my soul. During revelation, I saw myself lied down in a bed and there were many demons wanting to kill me. Some of them had knives, others had lances like those used by Indians and others had other type of weapons, unknown to me. One of them quickly flied towards me in order to soak the lance through my left side. At the same time, a giant and strong angel wearing white clothes came from behind my head. The angel had golden hair, no wings but flying quickly. He took a very big golden sword and fought the demons to prevent them from hurting me. While the angel was fighting, I heard a strong voice, like a thunder who said: “This is the fight for your soul”. The Lord warned me saying that my life was going to depend on fasting and prayer. He warned me not to get distracted for an instant, because the Devil was screaming for my soul. From that moment forward, a new season of profound preparation and going deeper into the Lord’s presence, started for me. Even though the Devil has hurt me a lot in the past, the Lord Jesus Christ was preparing me to take revenge and come against the enemy by doing

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the thing he hates the most: “TO WIN SOULS FOR CHRIST”, to bring the light of Christ to those who are in darkness so that the light of Christ can shine in their lives and save them from the Devil’s tactics.

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Even it was not my choice, God allowed me to return to my mother’s home. When I moved to her home, I could not continue attending to the Mount Calvary church, but I knew I had left a family at church, being brothers and sisters who have always loved me and will continue to love me. Months later, the Lord allowed me to congregate at a church named RIOS DE AGUA VIVA, whose pastor was Digna Martínez (today this loving God’s servant has passed to the Lord’s presence). She was a tremendous God’s servant whom I greatly admired. She not only became my pastor but also my friend, my mother and a tremendous spiritual helper in my life. At the Rios de Agua Viva’s church, I also found a wonderful family whom I will be eternally grateful. This church became my home. There, I learned to give my first steps. I learned to grow and develop as a person. I was deeply loved by all members of the church and the pastor used to call me her Anacaona Indian. I never had a happy childhood and during this season God was allowing them to make me feel like a baby. We spent good, bad, sad and happy moments and we always remained in union. The Lord started to deal with my life. He used to wake me up early morning in order to pray, fast, scrutinize the word of God and many times he guided me to be in cilice. I was starving and yearning to know more about the Lord. The more I sought the Lord the more I felt his presence and the more he touched my life. At the beginning I felt a little confused, because when the

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There are many people being touched by the Lord, and just like me, they may feel confused at times, not knowing how to distinguish who is speaking to them, i.e. their own heart and mind or the Lord through his holy spirit. Also, new believers may feel confused because they believe it may be their imagination and not God speaking. The truth is that the Lord wants to deal personally with his children and have a personal relationship with us. When you feel God is speaking to you, do not be afraid. If possible, write down the things he speaks to your heart; when you are reading his word, write down any revelation you receive; because someday the Lord will use those words through you in order to speak to someone else in need who needs to listen to those words. At the same time the Lord was preparing me, I received severe attacks from the enemy. This time they were not able to touch me like they used to do in the past but they tried to make my life impossible through other people. During moments of despair I cried out to the Lord: “Lord, take me with you, because I do not know if I will be able to get to the finish line, and I do not want to get lost or disobey you”. The Lord’s response was: “Be courageous and make an effort, because a long way lies ahead of you”. Other times I used to say to the Lord: “Lord. I feel tired. I want nothing. I do not want a ministry. I will not be able to stand the trial. If you want, do not give me the crown. Please, take me with

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Lord spoke to me, I thought it were my emotions talking. Yet, one day, through a prophet, he told me the gentle and sublime voice talking to my mind and heart was his voice. He also said the more I continued to seek his face, presence and voice, the more real he would become in my life. The Lord began to give me messages, but I did not know who the messages were intended for, or where I was going to preach, because I had not preached before. Oftentimes, while eating or taking a bath I heard the Lord’s voice saying: “Take a pencil and a notebook and write the message”.

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you”. I used to say the foregoing words to the Lord, during moments of despair. I thought he was going to say: “My poor little girl, you are suffering and I will please you”. However, do you know what the Lord did? Sometimes, he didn’t say a word. He remained in silence. There was nothing else that caused me more despair than the silence of God. Today, I’ve learned when God makes silence is because he wants to do something great in your life. When he finally decided to speak he said: “Don’t tell me you cannot, because you will go wherever I lead you and you will say whatever I ask you to say”.

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The Lord told me he was preparing me to send me to the nations and also preparing me for a visit Satan had planned to make me (the Lord rebukes him). Thus, the Lord wanted me to come out victoriously. When the Lord spoke about sending me to the nations, he told me I was going to minister a lot of people, especially to women who had been raped. He told me I was going to write many books and have a great ministry. He told I was going to rub shoulders with people such as: presidents and governors with the purpose to preach them his word. He also told me I was going to preach in big stadiums, radio and television. For this latest prophecy the Lord used a prophet named Alberto Navarro, but I did not believe the pastor’s prophecy because it was too big for my mind to conceive it. Through this prophet, God also said that I would see the fulfillment of the prophecy within seven years period. Doubt began to work in my mind. I was wondering: “How am I going to go the nations without citizenship? And if I go, who is going to pay the air ticket? Who is going to invite me if I almost don’t know people from other countries? How will I meet a president or governor, unless it is via television? How am I going to preach to the nations if I don’t even preach at my church? Much less, will I be able to preach via radio or television”. I also used to think: “Well, I want to write a book, but who is going to buy it? Who is going to publish it?” In essence, I saw as impossible, all

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the things the Lord spoke to me through his prophet Navarro, yet, is there something impossible for God? In John 11:40 the bible reads: “Then Jesus said, “Did I not tell you that if you believe, you will see the glory of God?”

I had grown up with a very big complex of inferiority. I still had certain fears, worries and insecurities. All those traits did not allow me to see the qualities the Lord had given me. The Lord had to work on those areas. One chapter later, I will speak about it, because there are many people inside and outside of the church, who feel inferiority complex, unattractive and stuck with fear to accomplish great things, because they have believed the lies of Satan as I did. One day, my pastor’s daughter invited me to have lunch at her home. There were other invitees. Those invitees were nothing more and nothing less than Pastor Andy Torres and his beloved wife. I could not believe my eyes! Pastor Andy Torres and I sat at the same table as honor guests of my pastor’s daughter. My beloved, what is impossible in the eyes of men, is possible for God. Ada Rodríguez, who is Pastor Digna’s daughter, told Pastor Andy Torres that I had a tremendous testimony and he immediately said he wanted to hear it and invited me to preach to his church. I instantly remembered the Lord’s promise. I went to preach to his church, gave my testimony and during the service God manifested

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The fulfillment of God’s promises After seven years, God began to fulfill his promises. One day, while I was praying, the Lord said he was going to take me to preach at the church of Rev. Andy Torres. I knew the pastor by reference. I only knew he was a well-known pastor. I saw him as a very successful person, thus, I thought he was not going to invite someone he didn’t know to preach to his church.

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his glory greatly. Subsequently, the Pastor invited me to participate at a radio programme he was conducting via Radio Visión Cristiana. I felt so excited! God continued to keep his promises. While I was giving my testimony at the radio programme, people who were going through the same situation I went through started to call. Also, many brothers and sisters called in order to invite me to preach at their churches. Those messages the Lord had given me previously, those I had no idea where to preach, were the ones the Lord instructed me to preach during this season.

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I remember one sister who invited me to preach at her congregation. I thought hers was a small church, yet when I arrived the temple was big with a lot of members. My legs were trembling as gel, because this was the third time I preached in my whole life. To top it all, the Pastor said he did not know me and advised me to preach what the Lord had instructed me to preach. I thought my heart was going to kill me. It was beating so fast that I thought it was going to leave my chest. I did not know how to get to the altar because my legs could not stop trembling. I said to the Lord: “My Lord, if I am going to feel this way each time I am called to preach, I better do not preach, because the nerves are going to kill me. Anyway, now I submit myself to you. I submit myself in your hands. Take my mouth and speak through me”. When I started to preach, because my body was trembling a lot, the microphone used to frequently hit my teeth. I used to think: “If I manage to survive this experience, I will not go to another altar to preach again”. Suddenly, I felt something descending from above, from my head to foot. I felt a burning fire inside. When the anointing touched my life, fear and trembling disappeared instantly. Even the demons present in some people, also left. The Lord saved the lost souls, restored the defeated lives, healed the sick and set free those who were evil possessed. THE GLORY BE TO GOD!

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After that experience, I said to the Lord: “Lord, I changed my mind, I want to continue preaching!” The Lord replied: “YOU WERE BORN TO PREACH THE GOSPEL. KEEG GOING AND DO NOT STOP!”

The Lord continued keeping his promises. When I was prophesied I was going to rub shoulders with Presidents and Governors, I rebuked the Devil, because as I mentioned before, it seemed impossible. However, one afternoon the Pastor Digna Martínez called me and asked me to go with her son in order to represent her church at the Police Commissioner. The Pastor was unable to attend and she wanted me and her son to represent her and the congregation. The Pastor’s son and I were escorted by the Police, seal 33 in high Manhattan until the Police Plaza, general station. The Lord made me feel like a princess. Well, he did not only make me feel like a Princess, we are Princesses and Princes for the Lord! At the general station, there were many important people and when the commissioner arrived he greeted me. I greeted him as if he was a normal person, because I did not know he was the commissioner. I had not even seen him by photo either. Suddenly I saw the photographers taking photos at the same time he greeted me and this way I realized he was the commissioner. The funny thing about this anecdote is that I did not know how

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The Lord opened the doors for me to preach at Mount Sinai’s Church in Long Island whose Pastor is Armando Bonilla. Two sisters from that church were used by God as a channel to invite me to preach. Since first time I visited this church to date, I have kept visiting it. The Pastor and his wife have adopted me as their daughter and I can say I’ve found a family in each member of their church.

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to speak English or understand it. In my mind I said to the Lord: “Lord, you allowed me to come to his place and I will not disappoint you. I will behave as others do”. Thus, when I saw people clapping I clapped too. When they laughed, I laughed too. However, in my mind I thought: “Lord, what have they said that is causing them to laugh?” Even if I was able to understand or not, the Lord was showing me his loyalty to the promises he made me years before.

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Years later, I was invited to the Pastor’s Organization Anniversary and Minister, from New York City. At the event venue, there were a lot of important celebrities from politics such as: the Governor, the Mayor, Senators and High Police Officers.

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I was assigned to seat at the table #69, practically very far from everything. Yet, the Lord showed me one more time that he keeps his promises. The Lord allowed me to find a very beloved sister used by God. She invited me to seat with her at table #2. That day I had the privilege to meet Mr. Governor and Mr. Mayor from New York City. I was able to interact and share with personalities such as: New York’s Senator. And God made one of my dreams come to pass which was to personally meet Kittyn Silva, who was the President of Radio Visión Cristiana, by that time. I shared with him and we were taken some photographs together. That day the Lord gave me a huge lesson, which was to never again doubt this promises. These testimonies are not for me to boast but to let you know that God keeps his promises. I do not know what God has promised you. Whatever his promise was, no matter how impossible it looks, God will fulfill his promise and purpose in you. If you asked something in the name of Jesus and what you asked for is according to the will of God, then keep praying, fasting and wait patiently because the answer is on its way. At God’s appointed time, you will

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receive it. Remember God has his divine timing for everything you want. I know many people pray and fast for a purpose. Usually God answers immediately, yet, there are others who regardless of their prayers and fasting do not see an answer coming.

Perhaps you think now is the time to receive what you’ve been asking God for. Yet, God is wise, he is able to see what we don’t see and at his divine timing he will give you what is best for you. If what you are asking for is not convenient for you, believe God is powerful to provide something even better than your expectation. I believe your answer is on the way, and even though it may seem far away, I tell you in the power of the Holy Spirit, that your heavenly answer is around the corner, and you may receive it when you are least expecting or from who you least thought. It is not easy to believe God, especially when circumstances are contrary to his promises. Oftentimes, we as human beings want to see in order to believe. When God called Abraham he said: “Go from your country, your people and your father’s household to the land I will show you” Genesis 12:1. God gave Abraham seven promises but Abraham had to walk in agreement with the will of God in order to receive God’s promises. The first thing Abraham did was to go out from his country and his father’s house. Abraham did not make excuses to God. He didn’t say to the Lord: “I do not want to go from this place, because here is my family. If you want to bless me, you can do it here, you can bless anywhere”. Abraham simply obeyed God’s voice!

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Let me tell you, fasting and prayer are not going to make God changes his mind, instead, God will use your prayers and fasting to change you. Through the waiting season he will fortify some spiritual muscles in you such as patience. Rest assured, when you are ready, you will receive your blessing.

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In order for me to receive the promises of God for my life, I had to walk according to God’s will. And this did not mean I wouldn’t have problems, on the contrary, to follow the will of God can imply much suffering, pain, rejection, taunt, contempt, loneliness, etc. Yet, whatever happens we cannot stop preaching or doing the will of God. I personally think, those who are called can do what they want, but those who are chosen are to follow the will of the Lord rather than doing whatever they want.

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My beloved, as I mentioned before, it may be you don’t believe or simply cannot accept many of the things I’ve been sharing with you. Still, we need to live and experience certain things. Many of the things which happen in our lives are allowed by God. Others are consequence of our own disobedience and lust. Nevertheless, whatever happens he will take any negative circumstance that happened to us to glorify his name and bless us. Only God is able to change our failures in blessings. And remember, whatever happens, no one and nothing will be able to separate us from the love of God. The bible reads: “Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord”. Romans 8: 35, 37-39. I believe God works out all things together for good regardless of circumstance. I will give you an example in my own life, about how God works out all things together for good in the lives of those who Love Christ and uses every circumstance in our lives to

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glorify his name. However, as the bible says, this applies to those who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28.

For many years, my questions had no answer. But today I can tell you that God has answered me. He did not answer in the time I desired but in his divine timing. Remember God has a divine timing to fulfill his purpose. God knows when to arrive, when to stop, when to run, when to speak, when to make silence and when to move on our behalf. Whenever I see lives restored through my testimony, and when I see a person has the faith to believe his/her life can be restored the same way God restored mine and to believe God can save him/ her the same way he saved me, I am able to say: “Lord, thanks for the experiences I went through and making them to work on my behalf ”. Believe me, there is nothing that brings more joy into my heart, than seeing a soul coming to the Lord’s feet and seeing the Lord restoring lives. Nothing fills my heart with more joy than seeing a life set free from the powers of darkness. That is why I can say: “ALL MY SUFFERING WAS WORTHWHILE, BECAUSE IT HAS BEEN FOR THE LORD TO GLORIFY HIS NAME. TO HIM BE ALL GLORY AND HONOR”.

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When I was raped at 11 years old, I did not provoke to be raped. It simply happened the same way it has happened to thousands of women, men and children. I wondered thousands of times, why me? Why God allowed it to happen? Why God did not defend me? You have read before how much I suffered and the Lord did not avoid the suffering in my life. Yet, he did not allow the enemy to kill me, because God had a purpose with me, and God was going to convert all the suffering I went through in blessings for thousands of people.

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The Lord told me he has placed in my hands a ministry to help raped women. In order to fully understand the suffering and pain a raped person experiences, it is necessary to have lived the same experience. It is not the same to say: “I can imagine how you feel” than to say: “I know how you feel. I know what you are suffering because I also went through that experience”.

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How can we help a person who has been abused? I believe the first thing to do is to be very comprehending of that person and to understand his/her negative reactions are normal. Patience is necessary and above all, to offer our support. This person is wounded, full of pain, full of anger with himself/herself and with all things around him/her. They also feel angry at God, because they wonder, if you really exist, why did you allow it to happen? And many times their questions have no immediate response. Secondly, after the person feels your support and comprehension you must help him/her to react positively and to think that no matter if his/her world falls apart, not everything is lost. God is in control. You cannot allow your past to destroy your present or ruin your future. As there are perverse men and women there are also Godfearing men and women. As there are women victims of rape so there are a lot of men who have been raped. Unfortunately, few people are able to overcome the trauma and thus have become homosexual or lesbian and many others commit suicide. Now that we are talking about homosexuals and lesbians, I’ve

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heard many, even Christians, saying they hate homosexuals and lesbians. They judge and condemn them. I am not defending their sin, because before the word of God their conduct is aberrant and is condemned by God’s word. I am referring to people who condemn them as human beings. They were not born this way. Yet, something marked their lives and led them to commit this sin. Only Jesus Christ is able to break this curse.

The Bible reads: “The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit” Proverbs 18:21. When God allowed me to share my testimony I did not used to speak about my rape because the incident was disgraceful and I did not feel like sharing about it. Yet, one day the Lord commanded me to talk about it because there were many people suffering, men, women, youngsters and children who had been sexually abused and were unable to grow spiritually because they had not been able to overcome the trauma. The Lord also told me how many of them preferred not to talk about it, not even with the Lord and had not allowed the Lord to enter that area of their lives in order to heal it. Nevertheless, many of these people called Christians, have wanted to hide their reality behind a false holiness and religiosity. Their lives are a lie. A lie they do not believe 100%. Oftentimes they are the ones who pray and fast the most. Yet, the fact is they need an inner healing.

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Parents are also need to be careful about the way they treat their children while growing up. I recalled a cousin of mine who unfortunately died. He died very young from SIDA. When he was a little boy, his family used to dress him with girl clothes. Sometimes he was given earrings, make up and as he grew up they started calling him “little woman”. Do you know how his life ended? He became homosexual and died from SIDA. The words that come out of our mouth have power.

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When the Lord asked me to share my experience, I told him if I had to speak about it I better did not share my testimony. The Lord did not leave me alone; he didn’t leave me sleep and repeatedly said: “Share your experience. Speak about it”. That same week while speaking with a young Christian man, the Lord showed me this man had been raped when he was a little boy. I shared with him what the Lord had shown me and he confessed it was true. He told me when he was little he was raped by his uncle, and even though he was Christian he had not overcome the trauma.

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I believed myself I had overcome my own trauma, but what I had done throughout my life was to hide it in my subconscious mind. Even though I did not feel pain, the trauma was there. And the Lord did not want me to keep the trauma in my subconscious. He wanted me to bring it to the open and receive healing, in order to be able to bring healing to other people, as well. When God started to touch those fibers, I realized the pain and trauma were still there like the day when it happened. I used to cry out to the Lord and said: “Enter any area of my life, but do not enter that area, because it hurts”. But my love for the Lord was and is so great that I had to forget about my feelings and obey his will.

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I obeyed the Lord, and spoke about how I had been raped. It was then, when healing arose from within. I remember the night when I shared my testimony, I cried like I had never done before, but after obeying the Lord, the healing partially occurred in that area of my life and I felt a huge burden had been taken away from me. Many years later, God orchestrated an encounter with the person who had raped me when I was eleven (11) years old, and it was then when total healing occurred in that area and that age of my life. Oftentimes, God will use the same people who hurt you as an antidote to heal you. Perhaps you may not understand what I mean, but I will speak about it in chapters ahead.

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Some people used to ask me whether I didnâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t feel ashamed to speak so openly about my rape, because being a very young woman, perhaps I was going to have difficulties to find a good partner in the future. My answer to them was that I was not afraid to talk about the topic, because I didnâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t feel any pain, resentment, shame or guilt. I had been healed by God and was doing what he had commanded me to do. I also told them I knew God had already set aside a life partner for me who was not going to feel ashamed of me and even though if no man loved me, I was still going to be fine, because if only one soul became saved by my testimony or was restored by God, then all my sacrifice was worthwhile.

I cannot remain silent or feel ashamed about everything God has done in my life. I cannot stop testifying about how the Devil wanted to destroy me and how my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ saved me. I could have been dead or mad at a mental hospital, but thanks God, I am alive and sane. Do you know the amount of people who are in hell because they committed suicide? Others were victims of family curses and did not have the opportunity God gave me. Still nowadays many are the enemyâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s victims. Others are imprisoned in psychiatric hospitals. Others depend on medication to feel better and yet their relatives have lost all hope. However, I want to let you know there is a hope. The hope is Jesus. I believe he can do a miracle in your life as he did in my own life.

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Many people advice not to recall past situations and point the Bible says to not bring to memory things from the past. This is true, but it depends on how you remember the past. The past cannot be forgotten, but is very different when you are able to remember your past without pain or resentment rather than living in bitterness thinking about what was done to you and keeping resentment in your heart.

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Just as many people nowadays, I was hopeless. If I was able to go ahead it was not in my own strength or merit, but for Christâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s merits. I will never be ashamed to testify the great things he has done for me.

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What I feel ashamed of is about the taboos at many churches. I feel ashamed to see so many with emotional burdens, because they are afraid to speak and share the things that torment their lives because they fear what others will say or think about them. I feel ashamed when certain Pastors and Ministers doubt about my testimony and my experiences in the spiritual realm, nevertheless most of their church members are going through the same experience I did and do not know what to do or whom to ask for support. They are afraid about others thinking they are crazy or simply have been careless spiritually. I feel ashamed about the souls being lost. There are human beings in despair and many are immersed in severe depression regardless of their social status. Even those who are famous commit suicide because no matter how much fame and fortune they have, nothing can fill or satisfy their soulâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s emptiness.

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The majority of television channels are full of trash such as pornography, those who promote sex and alcohol. There are few healthy and moral programs; violence abounds; this is what I feel ashamed of. It is shameful when people who call themselves believers are the first ones to prohibit others to speak about God, when the first one who must be in our lives and everything we do is God. If God is not in all of our lives issues, then Satan will be. It would be a blessing if God touched someone famous from a TV channel, someone who can be seen by millions of viewers. It would be great for people to view a TV program whereby those who have been transformed by a miracle from God are allowed to share their testimony.

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Many don’t want others to talk about God because it’s religion, but if anyone appears saying he is the Christ then he is listened to. To me, that is to feel ashamed of. I pray for the world to awaken and people can realize they can do nothing without God. The only solution to all of our problems is to humble ourselves before the mighty hand of God and ask his forgiveness. My advice to all those who need help, is to leave aside shame and seek for help. Speak to someone who is able to help and understand you. Look for someone who can believe you. Look for people like Pastor Porfirio Reyes. When I asked for his help, he believed and helped me and had the authority in the power of Jesus Christ to drive out all demons from my life.

Do not make the mistake to stop praying or attending church, because you may feel no one understands you or perhaps you don’t feel the presence of God. This would be a huge mistake and it would allow the enemy to gain advantage over your life. Remember that not praying, not reading the bible and not attending church gives the enemy power over your life. Something very important we must do is to forgive others and ourselves sincerely. Sometimes we may not want to forgive those who have hurt us. For instance, to forgive the one who raped you is not easy, because we may see the person as a monster, someone terribly bad, cruel, perverse and sick of mind. And so it

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Do not allow fear, impotence, shame or other people’s beliefs to control your life and emotions. Do not allow anyone to steal your dreams. God will put someone in your pathway in order to help you, but please don’t give up. Fight the good fight, because nothing has been written about cowards, and if God has allowed you to still be alive, after all you’ve suffered and been through, is because he has an amazing and great purpose for your life.

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is. This person has a disease, has a serious problem and behind his condition is the enemy. The Devil is the one trying to convert this person in someone Machiavellian and destroyer. However, believe it or not, this person also needs help, liberation and God’s love and mercy. And we are the ones responsible to do this work. Since I was a young girl, I felt resentment and hatred about the person who abused me and had desire of revenge. I recalled when I was 13 years old, my Pastor Rafael Ortiz at Dominican Republic, took me to an evangelistic campaign with Evangelist Vicente Barranco. And the preacher said: “I want this young girl to approach the altar” and later he said: “This young girls has been very hurt and God will be the one to take revenge on her behalf ”.

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Eleven (11) years passed, and the Lord allowed me to see face to face the man who had abused me. While working, I had to attend and sell him a pair of shoes. After that, the Lord allowed me to have another encounter with him but this time the Lord said: “You are going to hug and forgive him and you will say to him that I LOVE HIM TOO.” Before this happened, the Lord allowed me to express to this man all the hurt and pain he had caused me and how much I suffered. He kneeled before me and asked forgiveness. When I saw he humbled himself, I felt compassion and forgave him. We hugged each other and I told him: “The Lord Jesus Christ loves you too”.

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Today this man is one of my best friends. In order to do this, you need to truly love the Lord, to have his love in your heart and be in the disposition to forgive for your own good. Many people say: “I am praying for God to help me to forgive”. This is good, but you must remember that forgiveness is a commandment from God and we are expected to obey. Others claim they don’t feel like forgiving, yet it’s not necessary to wait

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until you feel you can forgive, you must do it out of faith and obedience to God. The Bible reads: “For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins”. Matthew 6:14-15. My beloved sisters and brothers, I went through very painful experiences provoked by close relatives. They did so many terrible things that only people possessed by the Evil himself can do and say. I did not write those experiences in this book because these people are very close to me. But I want you to know that each time these people hurt me, the Lord told me I had to forgive, because the person is not the one who hates you, but the Evil himself who wants to destroy you and acts through them.

I know people who have a very strong character and are careless about offending others and their excuse is they are just like that. I was born this way and will remain this way. In reality, this is a very poor excuse and the Lord does not accept excuses. We must give the Lord our bad character so that he can mold it to his image. This famous phrase: “I AM THIS WAY” it is simply an excuse to continue in the same state. Remember, in order for things to change in your life, it is necessary for you to change and have a positive attitude.

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Believe me, the price I paid was high but I reached victory because I denied myself, I died to myself and above my feelings and pain I said: “Because of you, my Lord Jesus, I will forgive these people all times that may be necessary”. God will allow painful experiences in our lives. The purpose is not to make us suffer but to make us grow and become mature, to fortify those weak areas in us and to mold our character in order to make us the man and woman God wants us to become in his hands.

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In the past, I used to say, I didn’t want anyone to put their eyes on me because I have a lot faults as human being and I am not perfect. Even though it is true, at the same time, I realized this was a simple excuse to do things my way. Even though as human beings, we have many faults, the Bible instructs us to be an example as believers. And above all, to keep a good testimony in order to prevent people from saying bad things about us, instead, by letting the light of Jesus to constantly shine in our lives people will recognize that we truly are servants of God.

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I take delight in the Lord when I can see men, women, teenagers and children who have been restored by God through my testimony. They’ve comprehended that God can also help them to overcome any trauma, heal their wounds and manifest his Glory in their lives the same way he did with my own life. I feel joy when they share their desire to be a blessing to others by testifying God’s power and wonders manifested in their lives.

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I still keep a photograph from a family saved by the Lord in Ecuador. They wrote me a note in the photograph which reads: “To the woman God used to change our lives through our Lord Jesus Christ”. I really did nothing; I am a useless servant; I only did what I was called to do, which is to preach the gospel of Jesus Christ. He is the one who does all things possible. To God Be all the glory! Positive changes are necessary in people’s lives. The spirit of the Lord is upon us to permit those changes to happen. The Bible reads: “The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me; because the Lord hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound; to proclaim the acceptable year of the Lord, and the day of vengeance

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of our God; to comfort all that mourn; to appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he might be glorifiedâ&#x20AC;?. Isaiah 61: 1-3.

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The Bible reads: “And these signs shall follow them that believe; in my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues; they shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover”. Mark 16: 17-18. As the Lord continued to open doors for me to preach, this time I went to Dominican Republic. At the evangelic campaign I was able to preach the gospel to my father’s family side and all people who attended the campaign. During the campaign, a woman started to dance and speak in very weird tongues. There were people worshipping God but I knew by the Lord’s spirit that this particular woman was not genuinely worshipping by God’s spirit but instead, she was possessed by demons. I asked the church to join me in profound communion and prayer. Thereafter, I laid my hands on the woman’s head and immediately the demons violently throw her to the floor. Through her, the demons began to speak saying that I once belonged to them, but not anymore, because the power was in me. I ordered the demos to shut up, in the name of Jesus and to set her free. They obeyed, yet another demon took possession of the woman’s body. This filthy spirit began speaking through her in a Haitian dialect called “Patua”. Then the demon spoke in French and finally in another tongue I did not understand. I knew the fact that demons can only be driven out in the name of Jesus, but I had no certainty about whether this demon understood

Spanish, because I did not understand any of the three languages the demon spoke. I prayed to God because he knows how to speak and understands all languages. I said to the Lord: “Father, in the name of Jesus, let me speak the language this demon speaks in order to drive him out”. The Lord answered my prayed and I was able to speak the demon’s same language, i.e. “Patua”. I ordered the demon to set the woman’s body free in the name of Jesus, and so he did. The woman was set free. Even though this woman was Christian, only God knows the reasons why demons possessed her body like being her owners. The Glory Be to God, because that night she was free and many lives came to the feet of Christ. After the above-mentioned campaign, I was invited to share my testimony at another campaign outdoors. Before the campaign start up, everything was fine. Yet, when I started sharing my testimony, an electrical wire started to burn. People ran and left the chairs empty. I continued speaking with the microphone in my hands and one demon told me: “Drop the microphone, if you don’t, you will be electrocuted”. For a moment I doubted, but then I reacted and replied: “If I am electrocuted, I will die with Christ and many more will continue to preach the Gospel”. I continued to share my testimony and people came back to their chairs. When I finished preaching, a young man approached me to say that his mother who was having a trembling attack asked him to go to the campaign and find out who was the person preaching, because since I started talking, the altar at her home devoted to demons was trembling as well as her body. This young man’s mother was a witchcraft serving Satan. The young man replied to his mother: “She is a preacher who came from New York and what you are feeling is the power of God’s presence because demons cannot stand God’s presence; they tremble and run away before God’s presence”. That night, many unbelievers accepted Jesus as their Lord and Savior.

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I was also invited to preach at a church in Santo Domingo, capital city. At the church, the presence of the Lord was intense. While I was testifying, the Lord poured out a special anointing. People were praising God’s greatness and dancing. I had never ministered so many people together, the queue seemed to have no end and I said in my mind: “Lord, I am exhausted”. Suddenly, I felt the hands of a man holding my back; his hands were so real, I could feel his five fingers. When I finally thought I had finished, a woman was taken to the altar and I was asked to preach for her. When I was about to lay my hands on her, the Holy Spirit asked me not to touch her, but to turn her body around seven times, instead. By the fifth turn, demons manifested in this woman, raising her to the air and then, throwing her to the floor. I said to myself, “They killed her”, but thanks to the Lord, she was still alive. I knew the three first demons manifested through her. There was another demon who said he was going to destroy me and I felt curiosity to know who he was. I asked his name, but he didn’t answer. At church, there were seven deacons who were prayer warriors and they joined me to fight against this demon. There was a moment the demon told me: “Remove your hands from me because you are burning me”. Thus, I asked him with authority one more time: “Who are you?” And while screaming he answered: “I am Satan and her body belongs to me”. I told him: “In the name of Jesus, set her free, she doesn’t belong to you”. However, he didn’t want to leave the woman’s body. Believe me, the fight was turning hard. Concurrently, I was rebuking the demon and asking for the Lord and Holy Spirit’s help. I felt fire coming from my hands, the enemy could not resist, and minutes later, Satan spoke through the woman’s mouth saying: “I leave now, but we will see again”. The woman was the Pastor’s niece and when Satan said he was the one in her body, the Pastor advised the deacons and me to leave her alone, because the Holy Spirit was able to set her free. We

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When that woman was set free, she looked like she had been born again, her countenance was different and she was set free from all oppression. To Lord Jesus be the Glory and Honor! Days later, the Lord sent me to her home in order to pray for her. When we started praying, the Lord guided me to the bedrooms and I had a fight with one demon in one of the rooms. That woman had witchcraft altars, images and charms coming from Africa and Haiti. While at her home, it looked like all legions from hell had come against me and I proclaimed: “If you want war, I will fight you in the name of Jesus”. I took all plaster cast images at the altar and broke them; thereafter I looked for anointed oil and anointed all of her home, and kept fighting until I felt the atmosphere was free and relaxed. Upon arrival at her home, the oppression was so hard I felt I had an animal claw above my neck, but most importantly, God gave me the victory. “The encounter with Satan” While I was returning to New York, the Lord warned me I was going to receive a visit from the enemy and so it happened. One night at 11pm I was praying and the Lord said: “Do not open your eyes because Satan is going to visit you”. Suddenly my room was covered with a thick mist and I heard like giant steps approaching my bedroom. My body was trembling like a gel and I felt I was going to have a heart attack.

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did not pay attention to the Pastor, instead, as the scriptures say in Mark 16: 17-18: “And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues; they shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover”.

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I was on my knees, part of my body leaning back on bed when Satan entered and sat above my bed. His body was so heavy that the bed reclined to the ground. I felt my heart could not stand it and I cried out the name of the Lord Jesus, but it looked like God has left me alone. I could not feel his presence. I called the Holy Spirit and recalled him he was my helper, but looked like he had also left me. I also called the Father directly, but nothing happened. I remembered that Angels are in their best disposition to help us, thus I said: “If there is any Angel here with me, I ask you in the name of Jesus, to help me”. Yet, it looked like there were no angels. As last alternative, I called my mother and brothers, but they couldn’t listen to me. I was about to give up and I said to the Lord: “Lord, I cannot resist Satan’s presence, I feel like I am about to die”. However, I heard the Lord’s voice saying: “Fight, you have the power”. Soon after, I felt a strength covering me from head to feet. I stood up right and told Satan: “Listen to me well Satan, because I will not repeat. I do not belong to you. The pact done with you for my life was broken by the Lord Jesus Christ. Now, he is the Lord and owner of my life. He has redeemed me through his blood. I am not afraid of you anymore. I command you to get up from by bed and get out of this place right now! Get out, in the name of Jesus.” He got up and left. When he left the thick mist disappeared. The enemy arrived at 12:00 am and left at 2:00 am. Let me tell you, to call the Devil is one thing and to see him face to face is another different thing. Unless God gives you the strength to resist his presence, a human body cannot resist it. I do not play with the enemy and I do not overlook him either as many people do. Many ministers and ministries have been destroyed because of playing with the enemy and overlooking his tactics. Many churches and families are destroyed because of overlooking the Devil and his tactics. Thus, the solution is neither to give him importance nor

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My position is that I am not giving importance to the demons. I am doing what the Lord commanded me to do. The Lord told me that the reason why he allowed me to go through those experiences was in order to show me the spiritual realm and also to let his people know the facts about demons because even many of his people speak about demons, they do not really know them. The Lord warned me that many doors would be closed for me, because many ministers were not going to accept my testimony. However the Lord promised he was going to open doors from those churches where their servants were willing to receive me. He instructed to visit those churches without fear. At first, when I recorded my testimony in video, it was a huge blessing for many. I’ve received news and testimonies about the things God has done in the lives of many who have watched the video. In parallel, I’ve also received hard critics from Pastors who are not agreeable with my testimony. Personally, I think, my preaching and testimony is not convenient only for the Devil. Believe me, because of my preaching and testimony, the Devil has tried to kill me several times, but the hand of God has preserved me. One day, one Pastor called me to say “a message from God” and advised me to stop sharing my testimony at churches and outdoors, because the testimony was a personal experience I lived and I should not be proclaiming it from the hills”. I told him the Lord had commanded me to do the opposite. I also said I knew

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to overlook his tactics. Many do not even mention the enemy, but Christ did. He faced and defeated the enemy. The Devil is not allpowerful but he has certain powers we must not overlook. Some people, especially Pastors, have criticized me on the basis that I speak a lot about demons and Satan while sharing my testimony and this is to give them more importance than necessary.

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the voice of the Lord. Additionally, I said my experience was not that personal and unique, because thousands of people are going through the same experience I lived. The Pastor went on to say many other things. I listened to him and when I finished talking to him, I felt a huge sadness inside of me and said to the Lord: “Lord, I do not want to keep sharing my testimony because I suspect that I will have a lot of problems”. I had not yet finished talking with the Lord when the phone rang and this time was another Pastor to say that he didn’t know me but after watching my testimony, the Lord commanded him to call me and encourage me to go ahead and don’t stop, because, !Poor me, should I keep silent! God continued to open many doors for me. I received another call from a Pastor, asking me to preach at his church with the condition of not sharing my testimony because of his experience as a minister he felt from God I should not share my testimony. Moreover, he mentioned he went through a lot to suffering with his Christian wife who had a similar experience to mine, but in her case, was tormented by demons until death. I felt like saying he was traumatized because of the experience with his wife, but I decided to keep silent. We could not reach an agreement, because the Pastor wanted to instruct me on what to preach at his church. I believe, if God sends me to preach to a particular church, he will give the message according to the needs in that church and I do not accept any man to instruct me about what to preach at the pulpit. The message is given by God. When I finished talking, I felt as sad as I felt with the first Pastor who had previously called me. I prayed and the Lord said: “Are you discouraged for one closed door? I told you I was not going to allow you to attend those churches unable to accept your testimony. Yet, you cannot keep silent, because if you do, I will raise someone else to speak”. That day the Lord comforted me and I ended up receiving more than ten calls to go preaching. I soon remembered the day the Lord told me: “If one door closes I will open ten more”. We need to be

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It is important to be sure when God is the one speaking to you because when you truly know the voice of God and you are sure about the words he’s spoken over you, it doesn’t matter if someone else says God told him something opposite to what God spoke over you. God is not a God of confusion! I exhort you to keep on looking his presence and waiting on him and you will see him doing great and marvelous things through you. Do not take decisions lightly nor move after a first prophecy is given to you. Seek the Lord’s direction and ask him to speak to you and to confirm in your heart whether his will is according to what someone else said to you in his name. Also, bear in mind, God can test your heart and obedience to him. God in his sovereignty can give you a word just one time, and then, send you someone with a different word, in order to prove you and see who you are going to believe. God did so with me. He commanded me to testify and stop. When I began to share my testimony, the two above-mentioned Pastors appeared, with great knowledge of the word of God, almost 30 years in ministry, to tell me that God had commanded them to tell me not to share my testimony. I could have followed their voices, but I recalled God has told me something totally different from what these men were telling me. When we really know to recognize the voice of the Pastor’s pastors there is no one able to make us step back, not even an angel. God blessed my loyalty. My beloved, I believe in the gift of prophecy and prophets. However, let’s examine any prophecy given to us and seek God’s direction first. We are living very dangerous times and we can pay a high price, for any mistake.

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very careful about the phrase: “The Lord told me”. It is necessary to differentiate between our own feelings and a feeling or conviction coming from God. Otherwise, we might make a lot of mistakes, cause a lot of damage and create a lot of confusion.

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Chapter XIV The Bible says in Jeremiah 18: 1-4: “The word which came to Jeremiah from the Lord, saying, Arise, and go down to the potter’s house, and there I will cause you to hear my words. Then I went down to the potter’s house, and, behold, he wrought a work on the wheels. And the vessel that he made of clay was marred in the hand of the potter: so he made it again another vessel, as seemed good to the potter to make it”.

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The aforementioned teaching can be compared with the work God does in our lives. God is our potter. He made and molded us as the clay in the potter’s hands. The Lord is the one who molds us and in great part determines what he can do with us when we obey him. When we are in the potter’s hands, there is no much Hallelujah or Glory to God! When God breaks us, there is silence, pain, tears and words cannot easily come out of our mouth.

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I know what it feels like to be in the potter’s house and also in the potter’s hands. While the potter is molding us, we feel all of our being is marred, because the process is painful; the Lord will take out things he did not plant in our lives and will put those things we need in order to become the vessel he wants us to be. When Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego, were thrown into the blazing furnace, God did not avoid for them to be thrown into the blazing furnace yet, he didn’t allow them to die. The Bible says that even though they were bound, none of them suffered any harm. Only the bonds and ties were burned. God will allow us to pass through the furnace, but remember, he will be with you in

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the middle of the furnace, and only those things that hinder your walking with God will be burned.

Even after seven years passed, it didn’t mean everything was fine. No? Still, there were areas in my life which I had not surrendered to the Lord. There were unhealed traumas. Although God in his mercy was using me and opening doors for me to preach, I still needed to keep going to the potter’s house. One of the most difficult areas to surrender to the Lord, were my emotions and my character. Emotions are treacherous and we can easily become their victims. I relied a lot in my emotions and believed more in my feelings than in the words the Lord told me. The Lord had made me a lot of promises and in order to receive them I had to walk according to his will and be led by him. Unfortunately, some of these traumas, still present, betrayed me and led me to commit a lot of mistakes. For a while, I was living a hypocritical life before others. I went to church and danced, prayed, spoke tongues, made fast and preached sometimes. I was

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Remember, you are a soldier, you are a warrior. As a soldier you will be proved. You will have to pass through the training field and then you will be sent to the war. Before the Lord sends you to a mission or puts a ministry in your hands, he will prepare you. Firstly God calls, then he prepares us and finally he sends us. The training is not easy as there are moments we feel like dying. And that’s the real key: DIE TO SELF, so that Christ can be manifested in us. In my personal life, God did not change my life overnight or all at once. Everything was a very difficult process and certainly quite long. After the Lord set me free, I spent seven (7) years in preparation. He didn’t give me a ministry all at once, because I was not prepared. Personally, I think seven years is not that long and it was the set time by God. Who are we to tell the Lord how and when he has to do the things?

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an example for others but reality was another. In spite of doing the aforementioned activities, I felt alone, empty, lacked selfconfidence and oftentimes I had to take pills in order to sleep. The reason was I did not want to surrender all of my burdens and past to the Lord or allow him to enter and completely heal those hidden areas of my life.

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I liked people to feel sorry and pity for me. Personally, I didn’t do anything to get out of that vicious circle which sooner or later could destroy my emotional and spiritual life. I was like the people of Israel. Israel could have crossed the desert and enter the promise land in 40 days. Yet, because of their disobedience and rebellion, they remained 40 years at the desert, until one day, the Lord said: “You have been traveling around this mountain country long enough. Turn northward”. Deuteronomy 2:2-3.

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Spiritually speaking, I kept traveling around the same mountain for a long time. I can say that mountain was: trauma, fear, cowardice, insecurity, resentment, bitterness, lack of forgiveness, pain from old hurts, etc. The Lord could not use me in the condition I was. It was necessary for him to set me free from all burdens of the past, in order to receive healing and subsequently minister healing over other people. The same way a blind cannot guide another blind, a sick cannot help a sick. I was a vessel who needed the potter to take me in his hands and mar me with the purpose to make a new vessel according to his perfect will. I knew the process was going to be painful and it really was, but I was conscious that when I surrendered myself to the potter’s hands, he knew how to restore me, thus there was no need to be afraid. One of the most painful experiences was for me to renounce to the sickly love I felt about my father. Although I did not live with him for much time, since I was a little girl, I idolized him. My father didn’t speak that much and few times he expressed his

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feelings. I adored my father and at the same time I was afraid of him. Oftentimes, I wished to hug and express him how much I loved him, how I wanted to become like him, but I never told him. Sometimes I wondered: “Why my little brothers can hug him and sit in his legs, but I cannot do it?” As I grew up separated from him, I created a fantasy world in my mind, idealizing a father who was only present in my imagination. I used to idealize my father in every man I saw. Frequently, because of depression, I was hospitalized and used to think: “I do not want to live without my father”. To me, the love of my earthly father was more important than the love God could give me. I only wanted to have the love and support of my earthly father, as other young girls had, and because I was obsessed to get it, I was destroying myself.

I spent many years in the same condition. One night, the Lord ministered me through an elderly woman who went to preach to the church and said: “The Lord says to you, I am your father. I chose you from your mother’s womb. I only used your parents as a channel to bring you to this world. You are mine and I want to see you preaching”. When I arrived home, I kept crying until late daybreak. I prayed and spoke with the Lord. I expressed him my pain, my sadness and the frustrations I was feeling. I told him: “Lord, I did not want to offend you. I only desired to have my earthly father by my side to love and protect me. I recognized I’ve loved my father more than you. I would have given my life in order to receive a hug from him. Lord, I love him and I also feel rage and pain about him, because he was not present when I needed him the most. Oh Lord, I’ve felt empty without him. If you are

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The Lord always ministered me and said: “Sandy, I am your Father” and in my despair I answered: “I know you are my father, but you also gave me an earthly father, and I want him”. I wished my father could be present to help me, to share my problems with him and above all to help me with Mathematics.

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my Father and fill everything as you have told me, why you don’t fill this great emptiness my earthly father has left in my life? Lord, I was resigned to receive only one hug from him. If you hug me, I will not be able to feel your hands like I would feel my father’s hands, but Lord, if you truly used my parents as a channel to bring me into this world, I ask you as a sign to give my father another son in exchange for me and I want this son to be born the same day I was; and I promise to devote myself to you and to preach your word as you have commanded to do”.

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That night I fell asleep while crying and before daybreak the Lord gave me a lesson I will never forget. I was awaken very early morning and I saw a tremendous light full of radiance approaching my bedroom. The presence of the character coming from the radiance covered me from my head to my feet. I felt he was filling all of my being. Soon after, I felt his hands caressing me as babies are caressed. His hands were so real I could feel his five fingers.

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He hugged me strongly and I only could say: “Lord, you are hugging me”. He whispered into my ears: “I fill all things and nothing is impossible for me. Should your father hugged you, you would have only felt his hands but I fill all things”. Thereafter, the Lord left and I continued sleeping like a birdie. After sunrise, I felt new and my whole being was filled. After this experience with the Lord, I called my father and shared everything I had felt. I expressed how much I had missed and needed him and also how much I loved him. I told him I was renouncing to the sickly love I had felt about him all of my life. I said I now belonged to the Lord Jesus Christ and in exchange for me the Lord was going to give to him another son and I wanted him to give this son all the love he could not give me. I expressed those words deep from my heart. My Dad did not take seriously the prophecy about him having another son. To him, it was

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impossible. Yet, the Lord you and I serve is an expert in doing possible what seems humanly impossible.

After this experience with the Lord and my earthly father, my life changed. I surrendered those areas of my life to the Lord and he restored them. I came to the understanding I was an adult woman who needed to mature and grow personally and spiritually. I was not destined to spend all of my life in sorrow, grief and feeling sorry for myself. I came to the understanding I could not change the past, thus, I needed to focus in the present moment, in God’s plans for my future and the things he wanted me to do. Nowadays, when I look backwards, I realized how selfish I used to be and only thinking about me. The Lord made me understand that my dad was a man who had suffered a lot and just as me,

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Months later, a girlfriend my father had called me to say she was pregnant and wanted to have a boy. She also said the doctors told her she was going to have her baby by the beginning of March. I could not believe my ears, God had accepted the promise I made him. My Dad’s girlfriend told me she wanted her baby to be a boy and I asked her: “Do you believe God can make the miracle to change the sex of the creature in your womb”? She answered it was impossible. Then I told her: “I am going to pray for you right now for the Lord to manifest this miracle. And as a testimony the Lord is doing this miracle, your son won’t be born at the beginning of March but by end of March, i.e. 29 March, the same day I was born”. The foregoing conversation with my Dad’s girlfriend was by phone. I was in New York and she was in Ohio. I also ask her to tell my father this baby was the one the Lord was giving to him in exchange of me. She told me this would be a great miracle, and in case it happened she was going to accept Jesus as her Lord and Savior. Months passed and the Lord kept his promise. The child was born on 29 March 2000.

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he never received affection and had to work hard in order to go ahead in life. In other words, my father could not give me what he had not received. I recognized my condition before God and my earthly father, and I asked God forgiveness for the selfishness, pain and resentment I harbored in my heart for so long. All of these feelings did not allow me to see beyond my nose. At present, my dad and I are very good friends. We speak frequently and we love each other. I always remind him I love him and he also tells me: “You know I LOVE YOU as well”.

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While I had not surrendered this burden to the Lord, the enemy was using my mind like a puppet by filling my mind with negative thoughts. Mentally I had opened doors for the enemy. I believe the biggest door which was opened for him was: “Lack of forgiveness”. However, after I asked the Lord and my dad to forgive me and very important, after I forgave myself, those doors were closed and the enemy has no access to them. The Glory Be to God!

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After I surrendered those areas of my life to the Lord, I felt I had gone a step up both personally and spiritually. The Lord asked me to apart myself for him during 40 nights in cilice, because he was going to allow a trial in my life. The beginning of my ministry and its summit depended on me passing this upcoming trial. As per the Lord’s instruction, I obeyed and initiated 40 days in cilice. I wondered every day: “What will be this great trial the Lord will allow in my life?”After 40 days in cilice, the trial begun. The trial was long and painful. Believe me, I do not wish anyone to go through a similar trial, although it comes from the Lord. I felt myself in the blazing furnace and I felt the flame burning in me. Although I knew the Lord was with me I could not feel his presence anywhere. I had to believe by faith he had not left me. I experienced despair in open flesh, I felt as if everything alive in me was dying. One day, I told the Lord I wanted to die to the self

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everyday so that his nature could be formed in me. However, I think I really didn’t know what I was asking for! One thing is to ask for one thing and another very different thing is to face reality.

The Pastor prayed for me and left. The trail intensified like a strong wind, until one day I cried out to the Lord with all my soul and heart and said: “Enough already, Lord. Take my life away. If this is the way you love me, I do not want your love”. As I mentioned before, one thing is to be called and another different thing is to be chosen. Then one who is called can do anything he or she wants but the one who is chosen cannot do things when or how you want. For instance, there are people with ministries who lovingly serve the Lord, but when a sudden problem or trial arises, they cannot stand strong and decide to easily run away from the problem and leave everything. Also, a Pastor who has been called but doesn’t know how to cope with his sheep the easiest solution is to resign his role; but for a person who has been chosen by God doesn’t matter how many times the person wants to quit, this person can say whatever he or she wants, but the Lord has the last word and will not leave this person alone, until he or she does the will of God. On the contrary, all things this person does without God,

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While facing this trial, I recalled one special day when I felt my soul had been broken in thousands of parts and no one was there to give me a comforting word but a Pastor came up with a message for me from the Lord. The message was not very encouraging. He said, the Lord says: “So far, I had allowed you to fight with demons, but moving forth you war will not be with them anymore, because they have not defeated you; they do not see you, but they see me in you. You are feeling this way, because at present, your battle is against principalities and Satan himself. Yet, do not be afraid, because they will not see you, but me in you”.

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will fail. The trail I went through which was allowed by God, lasted some more days. When the trial ended, I felt dead alive; I didn’t want to do anything not even eat. I really felt the “Sandy” in me had died. I didn’t believe I had passed the Lord’s trial, because I cried and complained a lot. Within myself, I said “You failed the test”. I was rude with the Lord and said: “If you don’t take my life away, I will not eat and die”. I had five days without eating and not precisely because of fasting but because to me, living or not living was the same. Do not judge me because of my attitude. Although the Bible says that no temptation has overtaken us except what is common to mankind, I felt as if mine had surpassed the limits.

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After five days without eating, I was very weak and didn’t care about anything. One afternoon I got up from bed and in my weak state tried to go to the living room, and suddenly I felt someone’s presence behind me who said: “Eat, do it for Jesus”. It was an angel and as soon as he spoke, I felt strengthened and alive! When I looked back the angel had already gone.

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After some days, the Lord spoke a message to me through a prophet. I didn’t know her and she didn’t know me but she said: “The Lord says to you: you were proven and passed the test. The test I allowed for you, very few have passed it. I tested your heart, and you truly love me. I am pleased with you. You told me if this was the way I loved then you did not want my love. I love you, I’ve loved you with an everlasting love; thus, I’ve prolonged you my mercy. I have mercy on whomever I have mercy”. I could not believe I had passed the test and the concept God had about me. My beloved, the concept God has about you, is not the same as the one you have about yourself or the concept others

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have about you. Choose to believe what God thinks and says about you regardless of what you feel or what other people say. The Bible reads: “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future” Jeremiah 29:11.

Although I thought I was not going to be able to endure the trial, the Lord allowed it because he knew I was able to. The Bible says: “No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it” 1 Corinthians 10:13. In each trial, God is making you stronger. Sometimes when trials arise we feel like stumbling and without human strength to continue. However, during those vulnerable times, is when God is really working in us. Through trials our capacity is tested to see if we have progressed and matured and if we are really ready to go the next step up. I recalled one day I devoted myself to the Lord in fast and prayer for seven days. By the fifth day, I felt super spiritual, like flying through the air. I felt more spiritual than others around me, in other words, I felt as if I was the fourth person in the Trinity, when in reality there are only three. I wanted the trumpets to ring at that

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I know many of you wish to know what the trial the Lord allowed me to go through was. I would have loved to share it with you all, but the Lord did not allow me to testify it for now. Some people, very close to me, do know what the trial was and they only say: “One must be very courageous and greatly love God in order to pass this test, because if I would have been you, I would have said NO to the Lord”. However my beloved, when we truly love someone, we are capable to do any sacrifice for that person. How much more shall we obey the Lord if we truly love him!

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moment, because if they did, I was totally sure I was going to go with the Lord. I had a problem, which was not being able to tolerate other people murmuring about me or saying I had said something untrue. After five days fasting and feeling overly spiritual, a sister from church called to say a rumor was running about me having said something which was untrue. When the sister told me the foregoing, I do not know where my spirituality went. I forgot I had spent five days in fast and prayer, and I told her even what I didn’t have to say.

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After the above-mentioned experience the Holy Spirit confronted me and said: “You were feeling overly spiritual and wanted the trumpets to ring and look how you have reacted in the face of a simple comment”. We really don’t know who we are until we are tested. Oftentimes the Lord will use those who surround us as a channel to test us. Inside my heart I felt after seven days in fast and prayer, regardless of what people could say about me I was not going to be disturbed. However, the Lord showed me the opposite through the sister who called me.

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I had to be prepared to listen to all kinds of comments either good or bad for the type of ministry the Lord wanted to put in my hands. For the purpose, it was necessary to pass me through various trials until I passed the exam. At the beginning was not easy; I cried my eyes out a lot, but nowadays, I am prepared to listen to anything people say about me either good or bad. Many people had asked me to pray for them because they are going through a strong trial with a relative or someone close to them; they desire God to change or get away this person from their side. However, my beloved brothers and sisters, I must tell you God is possibly using this person as a channel to change you and carrying on to completion the good work he began in you.

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After I passed the fire proof, the Lord sent me to preach at the republic of Ecuador. In the process, I was waiting confirmation to take the United States citizenship test. My greatest concern was about not being able to pass the test because I could hardly speak English. I studied the book and asked the Lord to take charge of the rest. When I was at the immigration officer office she asked me to lift up my right arm and swear to tell the truth. I was so nervous I didn’t understand what she said, but at the same time, I felt someone lifted my right arm up and I could say “Yes”! I studied all of the potential questions, but I could only learn twelve answers which were certainly the most difficult ones. I was asked exactly the twelve questions I had studied and learned! I passed the exam 100%. Surely, the merits were not mine, but for the Lord Jesus Christ, who made it possible. Before the appointment to receive the citizenship certificate, I received a letter requesting me to provide evidence about my first work experience in 1992. Otherwise, I was not going to be given the citizenship certificate. Being the 2001 year running, it was going to be impossible for me to obtain a work evidence letter from 1992. I didn’t know what to do and I cried out to the Lord. The Lord asked why I was crying if he had already given me the citizenship! The problem was Satan wanted to rob me the citizenship because there were abundant blessings behind it. When the Lord, through his spirit made me understand Satan’s tactic, I said the Devil out

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The Lord provided me with everything I needed to travel to Ecuador. I travelled with a sister from Ecuador who sheltered me at her home. The campaign lasted 21 days and I fought a battle with the Devil himself, the Lord rebukes him, but the Lord gave me a big victory. During the 21 days preaching at various churches and outdoors, there was a beautiful harvest of souls for Christ. Lesbians and homosexuals came to the Lord’s feet. Sick were healed. I recalled a little girl who was born deaf and mute. The Lord made a miracle and the little girl was able to hear and speak. Because of the miracle, the little girl’s mother accepted Jesus as her Lord and Savior. I recalled one afternoon I felt the need to visit a hair salon to have my hair done. In Ecuador, the majority of hair stylists are homosexuals. I tried to go to a hair salon I had visited before, but while on my way, the Lord guided me to another hair salon. When I looked from outside there were five homosexuals and before entering I said to Satan: “In the name of Jesus, listen to me well, I will go in this hair salon, and poor of any demon who dares to touch me! Look the blood of Jesus flowing through me. Should any demon dare to touch me, he will die drown in the blood of Jesus!” I was alone with the hair salon’s owner. He looked at me and asked: “Are you Christian?” I answered: “Yes”. The young boy changed the music that was playing and instead, tuned in a Christian radio station. He told me he and his family used to be

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loud: “Listen to me Satan, in the name of Jesus I command you to not touch my citizenship, because the Lord has given it to me already. I give you three days to drop it and if you don’t, I will proclaim fast and prayer. And you know is inconvenient for you when I start fasting and praying in the presence of the Lord”. After three days, I received an appointment letter to collect my citizenship certificate. The Glory Be to God!

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Christians but they lost their way. He asked me to pray for his sister because even though she had been a loyal Christian who prayed during many years for himself and her unbeliever husband, she lost her way after the Lord saved them. The Lord ministered this young boy who had been a victim of homosexuality and he cried

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and reconciled himself with the Lord. During the night, I saw this young boy arriving to the Campaign with all his family, including his mother, his sister, his sister’s husband and several neighbors who reconciled themselves with the Lord. The Glory Be to God!

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We need to be super bold and super courageous and let God lead us. If I had been religious I would have not entered that hair salon or perhaps I would have said: “I do not go in those places, I rebuke the Devil. Lord, send another person but not me!” If I had not obeyed the Lord’s guidance those eight lives would have not come to the Lord’s feet and I know God would have demanded me for it. Before I continued my testimony on the evangelistic campaign at Ecuador, I want to tell you that a lot of times the Lord will ask us to do things which will look like madness for us and others. One night, during the campaign, the Lord spoke to me through his servant Raphael Campusanoque saying he was going to make things through me which would look like madness. I thought about his words wondering what was the Lord going to do through me which would look like madness? Few days later, I went to visit my sister in the Lord, Isaile and she told she had bought three bombs for cockroaches and asked me to put one bomb at the kitchen, one bomb at the bathroom and another one at the living room. I thought I just had to spray the liquid around the house, yet, even though it was only necessary to open the cover and let the liquid to spread by itself I ended up trying to spray the liquid and as a result part of the liquid fell into my face.

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I didn’t pay attention to the incident, but that same week I felt unhealthy and went to see a doctor. I believe 100% the Lord heals and restores. If I feel unhealthy I pray and ask others to pray for me, but if I don’t get well I go to the doctor. I never forget something

The evangelist did not pay attention to the doctor’s warning and his wife got pregnant again. God could have healed her, but unfortunately she died after giving birth. The consequence was for the evangelist to be left alone with two little babies due to disobedience. I agree that medical science sometimes fails, but it is also true that God can glorify himself through it. There are many Christian doctors and even non-Christians doctors who are very fearful of God. When I was at the hospital the doctor examined me but did not found anything. I told her perhaps I was feeling this way because accidentally a poison for cockroaches had fallen into my face few days ago. The doctor didn’t speak Spanish well and understood I had used the poison for myself and sent me to the psychiatrist. Moreover, my psychiatrist records appeared at any medical center I visit. When I arrived to the psychiatrist I cried and truly thought I was going to get mad at that place. I was also concerned about what my brothers and sisters from church were going to think when they realized I was in psychiatrist, mainly because that same week I had just preached a message at church and the Lord had glorified in a special manner.

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an evangelist I personally know went through. Her wife had given birth to a baby but she had a lot health problems. The doctor warned them not to have more babies, because if she got pregnant she or the creature ran the risk to die.

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While I was crying, a pregnant woman approached me and advised me not to cry because I was very beautiful and the Lord loved me, but her words did not comforted me either. This young woman was at the psychiatrist because she had tried to commit suicide with her husbandâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s gun. She was very beautiful, had a good job and seemingly had no need to be in that place, but she constantly heard voices commanding her to commit suicide.

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I told her I was Christian and I was there due to a misunderstanding. I had forgotten what the Lord had spoken about doing things through me which were going to look like madness and there I was; this experience was one of those things. I felt discouraged but the young woman visited me every day and asked for prayer; then, I understood the Lord took me there with a purpose. I started preaching at the psychiatrist and many souls accepted Christ. Meanwhile, many brothers and sisters were criticizing me from outside, because they could not figure out why I was at psychiatrist. I stayed two weeks at the hospital and eight souls accepted the Lord in their hearts, including the young woman who had intended to commit suicide. The Lord allowed me to have a doctor who looked like an angel; she allowed me to go to church with the condition to return to the hospital. After the Lord saved those lives, he allowed me to go out from the hospital. When I testified about the things the Lord had done, then those who criticized me, glorified the Lord and said the Lord had taken me to the hospital with a purpose. (Weirdly, all of my brothers and sisters from church had this feeling only after I testified what had happened). The Lord revealed to me he took me to the hospital in order to save those souls at the psychiatrist, because those people were oppressed by the Devil, victims of curse from families and he

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Continuing my story about the campaign at Ecuador, at the beginning of the campaign I felt frightened like a birdie, because even though I had preached before at some churches in New York and Dominican Republic, I had never preached before for so many days, outdoors and in an unknown country which had a different culture than mine. I used to say to the Lord: “Lord, remember I had never studied at a biblical institute, how have you sent me so far away for an evangelistic campaign?” The most important was that even though I had never studied at a biblical institute before, I constantly sought God’s presence in fast and prayer. Some nights I stood awake while moaning in the spirit and when I opened my eyes the sun had already risen. When the time to minister came, the Lord took control of everything. I almost could not preach at those churches I was supposed to preach, because the Holy Spirit took control and did it his way. People were crying, demons were manifested and lives accepted Christ. It was a wonderful experience in the Lord. Many lesbians who were less than 20 years old accepted the Lord. The Lord asked me to visit a young’s woman home in order to pray for and anoint her from head to feet. When I visit the young woman, she shared how demons came every night transformed in animals and had sex with her and she was able to feel their hands touching her. The demons wanted to get her mad and continually repeated she belonged to them. I told her I believed her words because I knew it was real.

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wanted to set them free from all oppression. He also said that the majority of people at psychiatrists, need liberty and freedom, and although their relatives have forgotten them he had not forgotten them. Besides, there is a need for courageous men and women who are willing to say to the Lord: “Send me, count on me, I will go”.

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More ahead, I will speak about how demons can have sex with many people and because of this problem many marital relationships are being destroyed. The young woman continued to share that there was a doll who walked and talked to her at nights, meaning that demons possessed the doll and wanted to get her mad. I met her mother who was Christian. She didn’t know much about spiritual warfare, was very sick and her husband had lost his way.

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I started to pray and suddenly a strong light covered the place like the sun in its brightness. When the light came in, the demons who possessed the young woman, threw her strongly and furiously, hitting her head with the ceiling and then throwing her to the floor. Many demons were manifested through her and they said: “Why have you come? We know you but we can’t stand you, because what is in you is more powerful than us”. I commanded them to shut up and leave her body. They shouted they were leaving because they were unable to stand the light of the personage with me. I did see the light and brightness, everyone did, but I didn’t see any personage, however the demons did see him. After the young woman was set free I started to anoint her home and when I entered her home, all of the hair in my body and head got cold. There was something bloodcurdling. {I didn’t return because all of her family was behind me and there was not space to do it} I am kidding! At the woman’s room the first thing I saw was the famous doll she had spoken about. Believe me the doll called “Chuki” was less bloodcurdling than the doll at her bedroom. The demon in the doll stared at me, and I stared at him as well. I approached him and put my hands on him to rebuke him. When I touched him, the demon in the doll screamed out loud and complained in a bloodcurdling way. I continued to rebuke and threw away all of her dolls. Perhaps you think the doll functioned

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with battery and screamed when I touched him. No, this was not a battery doll. The young woman’s father reconciled with the Lord when he heard what just had happened. The Lord also healed the young woman’s mother and they testified about the wonders God made at their home. The Glory Be to God for this victory!

During the last night campaign outdoors, upon arrival, I saw a group of people surrounding someone. I thought someone had fainted, yet, when I approached the scene to see what was happening, I was told that a young man had taken a drug overdose. I was advised not to pay attention because the young man was used to do it and he was an alcoholic. The young man lied on the floor foaming and unconscious. My heart felt pain when I saw the condition of this young man. I couldn’t do anything but I knew my Christ could solve that problem. I sat on the floor and tried to lift his head up. Then, I commanded the demon of drug and alcohol to set his body free immediately in the name of Jesus. At the same time, I said to the young man: “React. Fight for your life. The Lord loves you”. The young man started to react, but could not speak; then, I commanded the demons to leave the young man’s throat and little by little he started to repeat what I was saying. When he came to himself and reacted, I sat him in a chair and he listened to the word of God. When I asked people to pass to the altar, he was the first one who came and accepted the Lord. The Glory Be to God!

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Although many brothers and sisters love God they wouldn’t want God to send them to preach to a lesbian or homosexual, because they fear what other people might say or interpret. I think when you truly love God and the souls, it doesn’t matter whom God sends you to preach to. We shouldn’t be concerned about other people’s comments or negative reports.

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When I share my testimony at any campaign, I usually just testify since the beginning of my testimony until the day I was set free by the Lord, because my testimony is very long. Almost no one knows what happened after the last liberation, and that is the reason why in this book I am testifying the things which happened after my last liberation. Many criticize the beginning of my testimony because of all the times I used to lose my way, but everything was part of the Lord’s plan in order to let me know in a profound way how the spiritual realm works. Certainly, I lost my way many times however, after the last and definitive liberation the Lord made in my life I did not go back but stayed on course.

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After first campaign ended, in the same year, the Lord sent me to Ecuador again. The Lord touched the heart of my brothers and sisters at Mount Sinaí church in Long Island in order to bless and support me financially during this missionary trip. I never asked their help as I really don’t know how to sell or ask for financial support. As the Lord knows me, he intervened and touched their hearts to bless and support me. The Lord commanded me to visit a particular Pastor’s church in Ecuador, but did not say the purpose. Upon my arrival at Ecuador, I was warmly welcomed. I stayed at a pastoral family’s home who adopted me as their daughter. The Pastor Jorge Vicente prepared the campaign agenda and blessed me a lot. I preached during two weeks and many souls came to the Lord’s feet. I managed to visit the Pastor’s church the Lord had previously asked me to visit. I preached and ministered and by the time I finished preaching, a child who was dying was brought to the altar. The doctor had told his parents there were no chances of living for their child. Thus, they brought the child to the church. The child parents were witness of Jehovah, and didn’t believe in miracles, but the Lord allowed them to believe through their despair. The child had a malign tumor in his head. To me, was impossible to

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We prayed for the child and the Lord manifested his glory in a very special way, bringing the child back to health. The child parents accepted the Lord. At present, they are not witness of Jehovah anymore, but witness of the glory of Christ. When the service ended, the church’s Pastor testified he had felt worried because he had invited another Pastor from Perú to preach the same night I was supposed to preach, thus, he didn’t know whom to assign the preaching that night, whether the Pastor from Perú or me. Consequently, he prayed and said to the Lord: “Lord, if it is your will for your daughter Sandy to preach, please make the Pastor from Perú call me and say he will not be able to come”. The Pastor testified he had not finished praying, when the phone rang and it was the Pastor from Perú to say he was unable to attend the service”. The Glory Be to God, because when he sends he supports his servants. After preaching at the aforesaid church, I preached at Guayaquil. During the campaign I received a very pleasant surprise. When I was about to start preaching, a man and another young man around 21 years old, approached and greeted me; the man asked if I didn’t remember the young man and I replied I didn’t know who the young man was. He told me: “He is my son. He is the young man you prayed for last year when you found him at the floor being affected by a drug overdose”. I couldn’t believe this elegant young man was the same man I had know in such deplorable condition months ago. The young man hugged me and said he was very grateful about God and me, because of the marvels God had done in his life. He said he was now preaching the word of God. I hugged him too and cried from happiness because of the miracle God made in this young man’s life.

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do something, but I knew the God I serve, is an expert to make possible the impossible. The Glory Be to God!

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I know many people actually find themselves in the same condition this young man was. Yet, everything isn’t lost for you. The Lord Jesus Christ can change your life, if you allow him. Even though you may feel tied by the enemy, the Lord can set you free. The Bible reads: “If the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed”. John 8:36. God’s ways are mysterious and he deals uniquely with every human being. The Lord can set you free instantly or he can allow you to spend a large period of time at a detoxification center in order to learn more about his word.

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At times, the Lord allow us to go through difficult circumstances to enable us to help others who are going through the same condition we once were and do so, with a compassionate, loving, merciful and patient attitude. I will give you an example. One day, around 6am a young mother feeling very desperate called me. She asked me to go to her home urgently because the demons wanted to kill her. She called me because she felt I was able to help and understand her. I tried to arrive to her home as soon as possible. Upon arrival, I found her lied down with terrible dark circles under her eyes and bruises provoked by the demons. When I saw her, it was as if I was seeing myself during the time I used to be attacked by demons as well. In her despair, she told me she wanted to die and could not endure anymore. She said in spite of praying and reading the Bible, the demonic oppression continued. Many brothers and sisters had prayed for her, but they got tired and stopped praying and visiting her because they thought she didn’t want to be free. It is certainly easy to judge when you have not gone through or lived the same experience. I told the young woman I knew she wanted to be free, because I knew and had gone through her actual experience. I advised her not to ask God to take her away because

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Unless the Lord has a purpose to show a person how demons operate and what they are capable of doing, demons cannot touch or possess a Christian who has been washed with the blood of Christ and if they do, there is something in the person that belongs to demons. For instance, after the Lord showed and allowed me to experience some of the things demons are capable of doing, they couldn’t possess my body anymore and regardless of their attempts to touch me, they were not allowed to do so, because I had the authority to rebuke them. But remember, I got rid of everything belonging to demons. You cannot keep the Devil and his demons to attack or visit you, but you can for sure keep them from doing whatever they want with you. This is similar to a saying that goes: “You can’t keep the birds from flying over your head, but you can sure keep them from building a nest in your hair”. Sometimes we as Christians regularly complain and say: “I don’t know why the enemy constantly attacks me, if I am a child of God, my problem is not with him”. Let me ask you a question: If your problem is not with the enemy, then with whom? If we didn’t have any problem with the enemy, the apostle Pablo wouldn’t have warned the church at Ephesus: “Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers

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he was not going to do it. I also said I knew God was preparing her to know more about the spiritual realm because of the big purpose and ministry he had for her life. I also said two things may have been happening with her life; firstly was that the Lord had not finished doing the things he had proposed to do with her life, thus, she should go deeper into the things the Lord wanted to teach her about the spiritual realm. Secondly, she might have opened a door and given demons the legal right to do whatever they wanted with her home and herself.

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of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realmsâ&#x20AC;? Ephesians 6: 11-12.

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Because the struggle and war is not against your husband, or wife, or family, or sisters and brothers at church, or the Pastor, or your boss, or your work colleagues, the apostle Pablo advices us to put on the full armor of God, so that we can endure and resist during difficult times, because difficult times are part of life, and after we have done everything, to stand strong in Jesus.

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We shall acknowledge that the enemy will use any of the aforementioned people to fight against us and make our lives impossible. If we donâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t put on the full armor of God, then, when the enemy uses your husband or your wife, the easy way out will be to leave him or her and destroy your family. If the enemy uses a sister or brother from church or even the Pastor, the easy way out is to visit another church, and if the problem is at work, you may want to change job as well, nonetheless, wherever we are, we are going to face attacks and problems, hence, in order to endure and resist, we must cover ourselves with spiritual weapons, even while sleeping. This is the only way we can endure and resist during difficult times and after we have done everything, we will stand firm. While I was still at the sisterâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s home, I allowed her to speak and vent her feelings, and I made her feel I really knew and understood the situation she was going through. In parallel, I also noted in a paper all doors the Lord revealed me were still opened in her life for which she needed to renounce. The doors opened were more than twenty (20). She got pregnant while still being a young girl. One day, she went to visit a fortune teller together with a friend of her. Even though she was not interested in consulting the fortune teller, the witchcraft insisted on reading her future. The fortune teller told

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While giving birth she was about to die and during the process she saw a man who said he had come to look for her baby boy; according to her words, the next thing happened was horrible. If I didn’t know the things demons are capable of doing, I wouldn’t have believed her story, because the things she narrated were terrible to listen to and believe. When her children were born, her baby girl was alive, but her baby boy was born dead looking like a cadaver and in such condition that doctors didn’t want to show him. Satan didn’t keep the promise to make her rich in exchange for her baby boy. I must clarify that Satan cannot possess the soul of a baby. When a child dies, his or her soul goes to the presence of the Lord. There are no children at hell. Years later, she practiced sorcery and the enemy made her do horrible things. When she finished sharing her complete story, I told her that even though she was in Christ, she still needed to renounce to a lot of things. She accepted and renounced to all doors the Lord had previously showed me were still opened in her life. Thereupon, the Lord asked me to enter to one of the bedrooms at her home and what I found there was terrible! Inside the closet, there was a box full of DVDs with diabolic movies. There were complete collections of Pokemon, CDs with metallic music and many other things; a demon was drawn in one of the closet’s doors. With her consent, I threw all these things to the garbage can, and asked the Lord to show me and bring to light if there were more things to get rid of.

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her she was expecting twins, one girl and one boy. The fortune teller also said that Satan wanted the boy and should she accept to give her baby boy to Satan, she was going to become rich by Satan’s power. The young woman accepted the proposal without imagining the enemy was going to truly claim her baby boy.

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While I was cleaning the room from all diabolic things, I felt nausea and dizziness. I was about to faint. The oppression was so strong and real, I was able to feel when a demon came against me and put his claws in my neck. I immediately began to rebuke and order the demon to take his claws off me. At the same time, other demons took the young woman and threw her to the floor, knocking her over like a snake. I cried out to the Lord for help and felt when something as hot as a fire enfolded and strengthened me to fight against those demons.

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Although her life still had doors opened to the Devil, the things we got rid of didn’t belong to her but to a relative. Even though she knew it wasn’t right to keep those things at her home, she did in order to please her relative. My beloved, no matter how insignificant you may think certain things are, if they are diabolic, do not have compassion or shame with anyone. Do not allow anyone to bring your home an object which has diabolic origin. Doesn’t matter who or what it is. Be careful, because sometimes the most apparent insignificant things are certainly the most dangerous ones. After I prayed anointing her home and we got rid of all diabolic things, everything came back to normality. She stopped being depressed and instead was happy. The next day, she called to say she had slept all night like a birdie. The Glory Be to God! I warned her not to get distracted. The fact she was now peaceful, didn’t mean the demons would leave her alone, but she needed not to be afraid because demons cannot do anything without the Lord’s consent. I gave her a spiritual warfare book and advised her to keep up praying, fasting, reading the Bible and congregating at church. I also told her that regardless of few people wanting to help her or being able to understand her, God was not going to abandon her but he would always bring to her pathway someone who is comprehensive, patient and willing to support her as many times as necessary.

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Something very important to bear in mind is that we must not show fear to demons, even though we may feel fearful. One of the most powerful weapons the enemy uses against Christians is to fill them with fear. Dread and fear paralyses us and prevent us from acting. When a satanic appearance happens, oftentimes, people cannot move. It is as if their bodies are suddenly paralyzed completely, and the tongue is pasted to the palate without chances to move it. Even though you may feel your body is paralyzed due to dread, the enemy cannot paralyze your mind. You must cry out to God to give you strength to rebuke demons in the name of Jesus. If you don’t do anything because of fear and if you don’t get involved in spiritual warfare, the enemy may take advantage over you and continue to fill you with fear. I know many people who have let the enemy used them as puppets, simply because of fear, and as a result, they’ve become depressed. They are afraid to sleep unless the lights are turned on and they also get used to take sleeping pills in order to be able to rest. I personally know a family who left their home and moved to the father’s mom home, because demons were living at their home. During night hours it was common to see things flying around, furniture moving, voices yelling and screaming and shadows

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We both kept communicating with each other and one day she told me that demons had attacked her again saying she belonged to them, but this time everything was different. They could not touch or possess her body like they used to do in the past. She fought against demons in the name of Jesus without showing fear but reminding herself that her absolute owner was the Lord Jesus Christ.

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moving from one place to another. It was believed the people who lived before them at the house, had a relationship with occultism.

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This brother, member of this home, approached me not knowing what to do. I told him: “My dear brother how is it possible that you being a preacher and worshipper had to leave your home in charge of the demons? That is shameful. Where is the authority the Lord has given you? The first thing for you to do is to return home and drive the demons out rather than allowing the demons to drive you and your family out from your own home!” He said he would do what I said. I would really like to come back to the brother’s country in order to confirm if he did what I suggested him.

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My beloved brothers and sisters, you have authority and power. Do not be afraid of the enemy’s traps. Make use of God’s weapons. Let the Lord to do great things through you. Let the Lord use you. Do not forget what the scriptures say: “And these signs shall follow them that believe; In my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues; they shall take up serpents; and if they drink any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover” Mark 16: 17-18. God’s promises are for all of us. We must be on alert mode. The enemy can attack you when you least expect. However, the Lord has given us his powerful word. I remember one morning while I was at Ecuador, a woman came to visit me to say that his eight years old daughter, could not sleep because she constantly saw shadows entering her bedroom. She asked me to go to her daughter’s bedroom and pray. When I entered her daughter’s bedroom, I felt a terrible oppression. Her daughter’s bedroom was decorated with many dolls and cartoons’ cover, especially with the famous Pokemon. I prayed and the Lord put in my heart to say to this mother it was necessary for her to clean the bedroom and get rid of all those

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dolls and cartoons from demonic origin if she wanted the demonic oppression to disappear from her daughter’s life.

The next day, she testified how after I left her home, she cleaned her daughter’s home and threw to the garbage all dolls and cartoons, and in consequence, her daughter was able to sleep peacefully that night. The Glory Be to God! Oftentimes, unbelievers tend to obey the Lord’s instruction faster than many Christians. I say this, because I’ve witnessed many cases. Additionally, this woman and her daughter accepted the Lord Jesus as their savior. My advice is for parents to be very careful about the things they purchase for their children. There are many items with diabolical origin. Before market launch, many of these items are devoted to Satan and that is why many children become rebellious, receive demonic oppression, cannot sleep and have frequent nightmares. Without even realizing it, you may bring an anathema to your home. Do not be careless. Usually the things you consider insignificant and small, are the most dangerous. I encourage you to pray and break any curse whenever you buy an item and if you are unsure about its origin. Should the Lord reveal you or other person to get rid of the item be obedient and do as he says. Do not be disobedient or skeptical. Succeeding my second trip to Ecuador, the Lord sent me for a third occasion. Then, he sent me to El Salvador. In the next chapter, I will speak about both my last trip to Ecuador and my trip to El Salvador.

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I want to clarify I am not religious and I don’t get rid of things from any place, unless the Lord instructs me to do so, and unless the person is willing to obey the Lord. I gave the message to the woman, prayed, rebuked and left her home. I didn’t think she was going to obey, because she wasn’t Christian and besides the amount of things she had to get rid of was huge.

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The Lord promised me many things. One of them was for me to preach his word through the nations. Initially, the Lord ministered my life, through his Pastor and Prophet, Alberto Navarro, saying that I would preach his word through the nations, participate in radio and TV programmes, write books and preach to people in a position of power. I did not believe any of the aforesaid promises. The prophecies were too marvelous for me to digest with my five senses. As I mentioned before, doubt was the first thing which came to my mind. However, the Bible reads: “He raised up the poor out of the dust, and lifted up the beggar from the dunghill, to set them among princes, and to make them inherit the throne of glory: for the pillars of the earth are the Lord’s, and he has set the world upon them” 1 Samuel 2:8. The Lord allowed me to participate in a campaign at El Salvador. I was invited by the Mount Sinai church Missions’ Ministry, which is supervised by Armando Bonilla in Long Island. I traveled with two other missionaries. They covered all of my expenses. The Lord had previously told me he was sending me to preach at El Salvador, because he was going to do something great through me. I felt happy because I was going to preach in another country having the Lord’s support. At the same time, I felt sad, because upon my return from Ecuador, I thought the Lord would allow me to go to Dominican Republic to visit my family from my father’s side, especially my grandfather who was like the love of my life and the light of my eyes. I used to say I had two loves, the Lord and my grandfather. I always asked the Lord to take me away first, before my grandfather.

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The same day I was departing to El Salvador, I called my grandfather from the airport, to promise I was going to visit him after my return from El Salvador. While I was speaking I felt him sad and at the same time I felt both a knot in my throat and a profound indescribable sadness. In my heart, I said to the Lord I could not understand why I felt so sad. I never imagined, that morning was the last time I would speak with my grandfather, better said, my father, because he was the one to bring me up since I was two months old. During my second day at El Salvador, the missionaries and I went to visit a sister at her home. I didn’t know anyone in the country, and upon arrival to the sister’s home she joyfully welcomed and hugged me while speaking in tongues. Through her, the Lord spoke saying no matter what happened, I could not leave El Salvador until I finished the mission why he sent me there. Through this woman, the Lord ministered me and touched my heart, encouraging me to receive his peace and strength. He said he was in total control. I thought the Lord was saying all the foregoing words, because of the campaign, but I didn’t imagine I was about to receive the most terrible news in my whole life. Upon arrival to the house I was staying, I called my mother to say I had arrived well to El Salvador. She asked me to be strong, because she had to give me bad news. The bad news was that my grandfather had died from a heart attack three hours after our conversation from the airport. When I heard the news, I felt as if my soul had been broken in millions of pieces, I felt my

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I had called my grandfather to say I was going to visit him after my return from Ecuador. However, when I arrived to New York, the Lord sent me to preach at El Salvador. As an old saying states, “Where a captain rules, a sailor has no sway”. I prepared my luggage and traveled to El Salvador with the two missionaries’ sisters who had invited me.

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heart was not responding and I felt as if I was dying. I had never experience before such a terrible pain. I couldn’t understand how my grandfather had died, because he was not sick or very old. I didn’t understand why the Lord had sent me to El Salvador if he knew my grandfather was going to die. I didn’t understand why he didn’t allow me to visit him when I asked him, instead, he sent me to other countries. I didn’t understand why he sent me to minister healing to other people, especially when the human being I most loved required healing.

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I didn’t understand anything. However, through this painful situation, for the first time I was able to understand the meaning behind the words in the book “When God Doesn’t Make Sense”. In my despair, I wanted to travel from El Salvador to Dominican Republic but it was impossible. There were no available flights. In my mind, I recalled the words from the Lord: “You cannot leave, whatever happens”. I couldn’t sleep at night, I could not stop crying, but I knew I could speak with the Lord and lay my head in his legs. I told him my heart was hurting a lot. I expressed him my frustrations and I cried my soul out before his presence. I didn’t feel strength or encouragement to preach. How I was going to give words of life and encouragement to others? Being I the one who needed words of life and encouragement during those moments, because I too felt like dying. That night, Satan visited me and mockingly said: “I hit you where it hurts you the most, and the Lord didn’t do anything to avoid it”. I then, courageously stood up and said: You have hit me, but get prepared, because in the name of Jesus, I will hit you too where it hurts you the most”. The next day, I went to the mall with one of the sisters in order to buy something she needed. When we left the mall, I felt like preaching and preached to the people walking around. People were

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At night, I went to a church in order to preach and share my testimony. The anointing was so powerful that people fell to the floor under the power of God, even without being touched. That night, a paralytic man was at the service and he had to use two crutches in order to walk. Someone asked me to pray for him; when I touched his legs with my hands, I realized his legs were curved, and thoughts of doubt came to mind: “This man will not be able to walk. Do not remove his crutches because he may fall above you”. I didn’t know what to do. I felt disturbed, I didn’t know whether ask him to drop his crutches or leave things as they were. I knew the Lord was able to make a miracle, but I almost ceded to doubt. I recalled when Satan told me he had hit me where it hurt me the most. In parallel, I also recalled I had told Satan I was going to hit him where it hurts him the most. In that moment my faith increased. I prayed in favor of the paralytic man and asked the Lord to heal him. While I was praying for him, I felt how the Lord was straightening his bones and then I said to the man: “Drop the crutches and walk in the name of Jesus”. The man started to walk and soon afterwards, he was dancing and singing “Mighty One of Israel”. It was a blessed night. Next in line, during a revelation, the Lord showed me to visit a home. I didn’t know the people living at the home, but I went and asked for permission to enter. I spoke to them about the Lord and seven souls accepted the Lord as their savior. The Glory Be to God! People used to approach me to share what the Lord had done in their lives while others testified how they had received healing. The testimony had an impact at El Salvador like in no other place. I was invited to both a Christian radio station and a secular radio

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approaching and asked me to pray for them and their businesses. That day, sixteen (16) souls accepted the Lord and I said to the Devil: “I told you I was going to hit you where it hurts you the most”.

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station. I was also invited to preach at a local television channel. I couldn’t believe I was going to preach via television. This is when I remembered the promise the Lord had given me through his servant for which I had doubted.

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The Lord opened doors and gave me favor with the Pastors and all people I met. I was able to meet influential and wealthy people, just as the Lord had promised. God really puts his favor in us when we walk in obedience. At El Salvador, people wanted to know and learn about spiritual warfare. It was enormous, the number of people facing diabolic oppression, not knowing what to do and helpless to seek orientation. I was also invited to preach at a congregation and that night I shared my testimony. While I was preaching I felt as if my words were bouncing like a ball in people’s minds. In my mind I said to the Lord: “Lord, these people are not receiving my testimony, help me to finish soon”. When the service ended, I asked if anyone would like to come to the altar for prayer or accepting the Lord. No one passed. I said to the Lord I was going to finish and hand over the microphone but the Lord didn’t allow me to. Instead, he showed me how the majority of these people had been abused, were lost and tied by the enemy. The Lord put me in an awkward situation, because all of these people looked like Christians. By his spirit, he showed me the people I was going to ask to pass to the altar. I obeyed the Lord while the two missionaries who accompanied me helped me to minister. That night, the Lord broke spiritual chains. The lost souls gave their lives to Jesus. God restored the broken lives. Two demons manifested through two young women. One of the young women was the church’s Levite in charge of running and singing at the church’s choir. The other one was the deacon’s daughter.

Later, the Pastor told me that all people I called to pass to the altar had lost their way and had been sexually abused and mistreated. Because many did not believe my experiences with demons were real, the Lord allowed the demons to be manifested through one of the church’s sisters, who didn’t believe my testimony either. The young woman who was set free by the Lord, later shared how while I was testifying, she could not believe what I was saying, thus, she wanted to leave the church, but when she tried to stand up and leave, she couldn’t move from the chair. When she passed to the altar, she was the first one who fell to the floor possessed by demons. Even though she attended the church regularly, sang and prayed, she was tied. She testified she had gone to a retreat for three days and pretended she felt free. Nevertheless it was during the night I preached the Lord really set her free. During my stay at El Salvador, the enemy was totally furious with me. He wanted to stop me from preaching and attacked my health. I became sick with diarrhea, vomit, fever and was not able to stand on my feet. My throat caught such a bad infection that my tongue became full of pus scars. The enemy also attacked the sisters and missionaries who accompanied me during the campaign. The sister who drove the bus accidentally hammered a knife in one of her hands; the other sister, Ruth Aparicio, fractured one of her legs and sister Gladys was very sick because of the flu. Meanwhile, In New York, the Lord asked one of the sisters from the church I used to congregate at, to unceasingly pray for me, because the enemy was going to attack my health. In spite of my health condition, I said to the Devil, in the name of Jesus, I was going to keep preaching even if I had to die at the altar. The Lord gave me the victory, when a Christian doctor, the brother Salomón Ayalas, served us without charging us one cent. I continued to suffer because of my grandfather’s death but when the time to preach came, I forgot about my feelings and focused on doing God’s will.

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I will never forget the last night campaign. When I was about to return to New York and say goodbye to the brothers and sisters, the Lord said: “You are not leaving yet, change your flight’s departure date, because I want you to deal with “The Direct” who was one of the biggest gangsters at El Salvador. He had been accused of committing 17 murders and sexually abusing and killing women. He was looked by the police and even the police was afraid of him.

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This young man was the boss of one gang called: “La Mara Salva Trucha”. When he left jail some people moved to other places and he was known to frequently hang around with a grenade in his hands with the purpose to detonate it in the event anyone tried to confront him. His body was full of tattoos from head to feet. Even looking at this man was like setting one’s teeth on edge. His favorite hobby was to kill and see the blood around. When I realized who this man was and his past, I said to the Lord: “Lord, do you want to deal with this man through me? If you want, take him to the campaign on Thursday”. The campaign’s last day was Tuesday, and my flight to New York was supposed to depart on Thursday. Because of the Lord’s instruction, I requested my departure date to be changed to Saturday with the purpose to preach on Thursday at a church, where the Lord was going to deal with “The Direct”. In reality, he has another name, but this was his nickname, because whenever he wanted to do something, he directly did. The night before the campaign, the Lord did not allow me to sleep. I spent the whole night interceding for this man’s life. I said: “Satan I command you not to touch this man, because tomorrow he must go to the campaign”. Around 1am, the intercession was stronger; I felt agony, despair and sweat covering all of my body. I found myself fighting a war to death in the spirit for this man’s life. I asked the help of the Holy Spirit, because I felt a terrible burden above my shoulders. It was as if a legion of demons had come against me to prevent me from interceding on behalf of this man’s life.

Inwardly, I knew I could not stop interceding until I felt the peace that comes when victory is achieved. At daybreak, I felt the Lord’s peace and I knew victory was already mine. Even though I had to stay awake interceding, I was fine as the Holy Spirit strengthened me and the hours passed so fast I didn’t even realize it. The next day, two hours before leaving for the campaign I felt an oppression in my chest. It was as if something was going to prevent “The Direct” from attending the campaign. I instantly cried out to the Lord, and commanded the Devil and his demons, not to touch this man, because he had to go to the campaign even above the Devil’s head, the Lord rebukes him. At the same time, I kept asking the Holy Spirit to bring him to the service. I didn’t stop interceding on his behalf until I felt the Lord’s peace. I went to the campaign and when I arrived, the church was full of people. People were interested in listening to my testimony again and at the same time they wanted to see what was going to happen with “The Direct”. Upon arrival, I asked brother Buruca, whether “The Direct” was at the room and he said: “Yes, he is sat at the last bench”. I said: “The Glory Be to God!” Before preaching, I called him by his true name and said how the Lord allowed me to stay two more days at El Salvador, because he loved him and wanted to deal with his life. I said that even though he had committed many crimes, theft and abuses, God had preserved his life because he had a great purpose with his life; he was not alive because of satanic works or witchcrafts, but because the Lord had allowed him to stay alive. The Lord spoke about all of the things this man had gone through since he was at her mother’s womb until this present moment. I still keep a video recording as a living proof about what happened during that night. The Lord touched this man in a terrible way. He cried like a little child and reconciled with his mother. I hugged him and what I felt in my arms was a vulnerable man. His face changed and his

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appearance turned different. He looked like he had born again. People fearlessly hugged him. The Lord told him he had chose him as an instrument to represent his name. The Lord warned this man that he would return to the jail and once there, he would be shown how much was necessary to suffer in the name of God!

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That night I promised Gustavo (his true name) that he could find in me a friend and sister in Christ as I had shown him so far. We kept in contact. He later confessed me that the night before the campaign, he went to seek revenge with someone and when he was about to kill this person, suddenly like a miracle from God, allowed this person to escape from his hands and sight. I asked him at what time this incident happened and he said it was about 1am. Then I could understand why the Lord had previously guided me to intercede on behalf of this man during early morning. The purpose was to prevent this man from committing another assassination. He also told me during the campaignâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s day, on Thursday 5PM, the police made a raid at his home in order to take him prisoner, and when the police had captured him, a lawyer arrived to intercede on his behalf. At the same time, he escaped the police and hid. The police could not find him and left. He then was able to attend the campaign. I glorified the Lord when I listened to his testimony because I also understood why the Lord guided me to intercede on this manâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s behalf one hour before leaving for the campaign. The enemy wanted to prevent this man from attending the campaign, but intercession was more powerful than the Devilâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s plans, the Lord rebukes him. Eventually, Gustavo left the gang and I prayed the Lord to provide him with a job. Few months later, he called me to share he was already working. He said his only desire was for God to use him to preach his word. Just as the Lord had warned that he

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The last time I knew about him, his mother told me he was doing some nice paintings at jail. Then he gave the paintings to his mother for subsequent sale and to financially support his mother with the earnings. Most importantly, he kept firm with the Lord. The Glory Be to God! At the time I am writing this book, I have not received news from Gustavo for a while and I have also lost contact with his mother, but I keep praying a lot for him and ask God to allow me to see him again. Although I felt a huge pain because of my grandfather’s death, I also received a lot of support while witnessing the great things the Lord did at El Salvador. There, I left a very great family in Christ Jesus. To him all the Glory! I have not been able to travel to Dominican Republic yet but the Lord has allowed me to travel to other countries such as: Germany, Switzerland, France, Austria, Holland, South Africa, Dubai, Ecuador, Panama, El Salvador, United States and I am thinking to travel soon to my country of origin Dominican Republic. I also have some pending invitations to preach at Chile, Argentina, Cuba, Brazil and El Salvador, but I keep praying for everything to happen in God’s divine timing and also for him to support me economically, because there are many people in need at those places who need to be helped. I recalled one time while I was at Ecuador’s campaign I only had 100 dollars, and the Lord guided me to change these 100 dollars

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would return to jail, so it happened. He didn’t commit any crime, but one person tried to kill him and the police captured both of them. I believe this was a way the Lord prevented him from being harmed, because even though he had given his life to Jesus Christ, he still had many enemies. Still nowadays, there are many people who want to seek revenge because of all the things he did.

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in five bills of 20 dollars. He then asked me to give 20 dollars to each one of the five Pastors he was going to show me. I obeyed and did so. The next day, the wife of one of the Pastors, came and visit me to give thanks for the 20 dollars I had given to her husband, because that day they had nothing to eat and they had gone to the campaign without eating before, and they did not know what they were going to eat the following day, but the 20 dollars served them to have dinner that night and to eat the following day. My beloved, should the Lord guide you to do something for someone or give something to someone, do not hesitate, instead be obedient. When God asks you is because he wants to bless you and when he blesses you is because he wants you to bless others. When I mention the countries I have visit I donâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t do so in order to boast but to testify the Lord kept his promises and continues to keep his promise to take me through the nations to preach his word. To me, it looked impossible, but nothing is impossible for God. Because of Godâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s mercy, everything has been possible. He always keeps his promises.

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Restoring the Marital Laces

Marriage is the first institution that exists on earth. God created the man and the woman in order to live together and be part of a family. That’s the reason why the bible says a man will leave his father and mother and be united to his wife, and the two will become one flesh.

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Unfortunately, nowadays the divorce rates continue to increase. We see families totally destroyed and broken and unstable homes. This is not God’s will. Instead, God’s will is to bless your home, family and life. I must also say that the same way we have and believe in a wonderful God who wants to bless us still we also have an enemy whose only purpose is to destroy. Perhaps the following story may sound weird or even difficult to accept, but even though you may have not gone through a similar situation, I can tell you, thousands of people are going through a similar situation and feel shame to talk about it. When I was 13 years old I heard the testimony of an ex witchcraft who had accepted Jesus Christ in her life. She shared how demons used to possess her body and have sexual relationships with her. Even though she had a husband, she didn’t feel any sexual desire for him. I was speechless when I heard her testimony, because I could not believe my ears. I could not conceive a demon was able to have sex with a human being. I know many people think this is impossible. I too believed it was impossible until I personally went through this experience, and now I believe these experiences are 100% real.

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This is a topic not many people share. It is like a taboo, a forbidden topic. Few people would dare to speak about it. Unfortunately, while many people ignore this topic or simply don’t believe it can happen, still there are hundreds of people, or better said, thousands of people who go through this experience; even God’s loyal servants, singles and married are receiving these attacks and don’t know what to do.

The enemy doesn’t respect whether you are Christian or not, single or married. His only mission is to destroy. He has already destroyed many marriages. You may wonder: if demons cannot touch nor have sex with a Christian, then why there are Christians going through this experience? The answer is very simple. When a Christian opens door to the Devil or demons, they will enter without asking permission. The Bible says: “Do not give the Devil a foothold”. Ephesians 4:27. For instance, if a Christian likes to watch pornographic movies or magazines, sooner or later, he will be attracted to anything related to pornography. If the person doesn’t change, he or she will eventually end up addicted to masturbation and other sins such as lust, lasciviousness, evil passions, fornication and sexual fantasies. All the aforesaid sins are doors which people open for demons and this is the way demons do anything they want with people. That is why the Bible advices us to capture the small foxes, otherwise,

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It is very easy for a demon to have sex with an unbeliever. But it is impossible for a demon to have sex or possess the body of a Christian who has been washed with the blood of Jesus, who is filled with the Holy Spirit, God’s anointing and power and who is living a consecrated life according to God’s word. A Christian who has the foregoing traits may experience the enemy’s oppression, but if the person is filled with God’s weapons, he or she will be able to rebuke the enemy or any malice coming against him or her.

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if you allow them to grow, they will become big beasts wanting to destroy you. The Bible says: “But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart” Matthew 5:28.

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You can commit adultery with someone in your heart just by having a lustful desire, and even worst, by imagining having sex with the person, if the person is not your partner. Many single people who are yearning to have a partner have told me they want to be loyal to the Lord, but there is a moment in their lives when they fall into the temptation of practicing masturbation and then, it becomes difficult for them to stop doing it.

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Many may wonder whether masturbation is a sin. Yes, it is. When a person masturbates, he or she must necessarily think in someone or have sexual fantasies with someone. That’s where sin comes. When we desire a person who is not your partner, we commit adultery, fornication, greed, lust, lasciviousness, evil passions and all of these are opened doors for the enemy to do whatever he wants with our lives. Besides, the Bible says in Galatians 5:21: “and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God”. Whenever an unbeliever sins he or she doesn’t feel any conviction because doesn’t have the Holy Spirit who brings reprimand. On the other hand, when a Christian who has been washed with the blood of Jesus, does something unpleasant to the Lord, he or she is able to feel the Holy Spirit’s sadness and reprimand which in turn makes the person feel bad about his or her actions. After you fall into temptation and commit sin, as Christian and human being you feel bad with God and yourself, and you may even promise God that you will not do it again, because you feel certain guilt within yourself which makes you feel that your actions were unpleasing to God. When you least expect, and even without

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you realizing, temptation and desire will knock your door, and you will cede again into temptation, thus, the situation becomes a vicious circle which is difficult to break. Remember, it may difficult to break, but not impossible, because we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us. Philippians 4:13.

When a marriage is involved, many conflicts arise to the extent a separation or divorce can occur. Some of the doors a marriage can open to the demons are: lack of forgiveness, bitterness, resentment, anger, lack of communication, lack of love, among others. The Bible says in Ephesians 4:26: “Be angry and do not sin. Don’t let the sun go down on your anger”. A married couple should not go to sleep with unresolved issues or disagreements between them, because this is also an open door for the enemy who is only waiting for any small breach in order to enter. If one partner is anger at the other, hardly there will be intimacy with each other and sometimes the anger affects the relationship for long days. The Bible says in 1 Corinthians 7: 1-6: “Now for the matters you wrote about: “It is good for a man not to have sexual relations with a woman.” 2 But since sexual immorality is occurring, each man should have sexual relations with his own wife, and each woman with her own husband. 3 The husband should fulfill his marital duty to his wife, and likewise the wife to her husband. 4 The wife does not have authority over her own body but yields it to her husband. In the same way, the husband

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The enemy’s attacks are not only for those who are single but married as well. I’ve known marriages who have received attacks from demons who want to have sex with one of the partners. I’ve known men and women who live anxious, because during night they see a personage or shadow who visits and has sex with one of the partners, either the man or the woman.

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does not have authority over his own body but yields it to his wife. 5 Do not deprive each other except perhaps by mutual consent and for a time, so that you may devote yourselves to prayer. Then come together again so that Satan will not tempt you because of your lack of self-control. 6 I say this as a concession, not as a command”.

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I want to ask you: Do you have an idea about how many Christian married couples sleep in separate beds? How many couples sleep together still, one with his face towards south and the other with her face towards north? And it’s not precisely because that is their favorite side of the bed. How many couples there are who speak in tongues more than the Apostle Pablo, dance more than David, preach more than John the Baptist and nevertheless, they cannot stand each other at home?

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All the aforementioned attitudes are opened doors for the demons to enter your home and take control of your dreams. When couples don’t intimate sexually with each other, demons can attack their minds and lead them to carnal thoughts. For instance, the man may begin to think in another woman or to desire his wife could have the attributes he sees in other women, especially if the woman is Christian. Besides, men can be attacked with erotic dreams which are difficult to control. When least expected and while sleeping, he can dream with a woman who visits and has sex with him. In reality, this could be a demon transformed in a woman who will try to seduce him, and if the man does not declare war or resist in the name of Jesus, this demon could destroy the marriage. One of the biggest temptations existing in the world is sexual pleasure. Because of sexual temptation, many marriages have failed and ended up in adultery. Many couple relationships have failed because of infidelity and fornication. The danger is not in

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temptation, because it is a temptation. The danger comes when we fall into temptation. When we sin, God forgives and restores us, but we lose all of the blessings we were going to receive, if we hadn’t committed sin.

The Bible says in Proverbs 6: 23-33: “For this command is a lamp, this teaching is a light, and correction and instruction are the way to life, keeping you from your neighbor’s wife, from the smooth talk of a wayward woman. Do not lust in your heart after her beauty or let her captivate you with her eyes. For a prostitute can be had for a loaf of bread, but another man’s wife preys on your very life. Can a man scoop fire into his lap without his clothes being burned? Can a man walk on hot coals without his feet being scorched? So is he who sleeps with another man’s wife; no one who touches her will go unpunished. People do not despise a thief if he steals to satisfy his hunger when he is starving. Yet if he is caught, he must pay sevenfold, though it costs him all the wealth of his house. But a man who commits adultery has no sense; whoever does so, destroys himself. Blows and disgrace are his lot, and his shame will never be wiped away”. Complaints during Marriage There are couples who complain about their partner, because one of them has neglected their marital relationship. There are women who claim not being touched by their husbands and looking like siblings while sleeping together. They claim oftentimes when they decide to have sex with their partner, he only satisfies himself and

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Do you remember King David? David committed adultery but even though he later repented and was forgiven and restored by the Lord, he had to gravely pay the consequences of his sin. God forgave him, but he lost his son. God forgave him, but after he committed sin, his kingdom was severely affected and his family came to destruction.

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doesn’t take into account her feelings. On the other hand, there are women who don’t want to have sex with their partner when he wants. All these scenarios are opened doors for the enemy.

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The Bible says in 1 Corinthians 7: 3-5: “The husband should fulfill his marital duty to his wife, and likewise the wife to her husband. 4 The wife does not have authority over her own body but yields it to her husband. In the same way, the husband does not have authority over his own body but yields it to his wife. 5 Do not deprive each other except perhaps by mutual consent and for a time, so that you may devote yourselves to prayer. Then come together again so that Satan will not tempt you because of your lack of self-control”.

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Whenever you desire to be with your partner and give him or her one kiss or a hug or simply love, just go ahead and do it. The Bible says your partner’s body is also yours. However, do it with love, care, attentiveness and with your partner’s consent. When you are sexually intimating with your partner, leave him or her sexually satisfied and let his or her caress satisfy you always. The Bible says in Proverbs 5: 18-19 “May your fountain be blessed, and may you rejoice in the wife of your youth. A loving doe, a graceful deer, may her breasts satisfy you always, may you ever be intoxicated with her love”. They Bible clearly advices married couples not to deprive each other except perhaps by mutual consent and for a time, so that you may devote yourselves to prayer. Then come together again so that Satan will not tempt you because of your lack of self-control. If you are in a marital relationship and desire to set some time apart with the Lord for prayer and fasting, make an agreement with you partner to support you and if possible, to join you during this period. It is a great blessing when couples can pray and fast together. Ask the Lord to guide you and confirm for how many days he wants you both to spend time in fast and prayer. God will

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guide you but don’t do anything out of emotion. For example, there are people who say: “I will fast and pray for 21 days, and don’t want to be disturbed by anyone”.

We cannot neglect our familiar or matrimonial relationship. The Bible advices couples to submit to one another and respect the Lord. The married woman is to be submissive to his husband as she is with the Lord. We must love and respect our beloved husbands. To consult with them any decision we want to make. Nevertheless, there are many women facing physical, emotional and sexual abuse by their husbands. To be submissive does not mean to allow your husband to abuse you in any way. I think the same way a rapist needs to be denounced an abusive husband must also be denounced. Many women have lost their marriage because of their resistance to submit to their husbands. Yet, other women have lost not only their marriage but their dignity and some their life, because of being submissive to an abusive husband. The Bible says in Colossians 3:19: “Husbands, love your wives and do not be bitter toward them”. This means for husbands to practice being kind, loving, gentle, comprehensive, compassionate, sweet, polite, helpful and attentive, among other attributes.

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To those people I ask: “Did you make an agreement with your husband or wife? Did you let him or her know about your decision? Did you provide your partner with enough financial support in order to cover the home expenses during your absence? When you are called to preach in another country, and your wife or husband cannot go with you, do you frequently call your partner to know how he or she is doing? Do you express your partner how much you love him or her? Do you set time apart for your family? Do you know couples need to have their own space and also need to share together privately without someone else presence?”

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As a wife, a woman can stand hunger, nudity, sickness and support her husband during good and bad times. Yet, the Bible doesn’t say a woman is to support abusive behavior from her husband. If you have been abused by your husband, do not remain silent and seek help.

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The Bible says in Ephesians 5:25: “Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her”. How does the Lord love the church? He loves the church so much that he gave his own life for her.

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I know as there are women abused by their husbands, there are also husbands abused by their wives. They are not submissive to their husbands and tend to mistreat and belittle their husbands. They are jealous, bitter and melancholic women. They neglect their children, husband, home and even their own physical appearance. They are careless about looking attractive for their husbands. Many husbands are right when they get disappointed about their wives. Sometimes they don’t even feel the desire to arrive home. Why? Because upon home arrival, they find a mess, things over the floor or couch, dirty dishes, neglected children, the woman with a tousled hairstyle and smelling like onion. To complete the scenario, there is a sign hanging on the wall that reads: “The peace of Christ reigns in this home”. I am a married woman and more ahead I will share the testimony of how God provided me with a husband. Since we got married, we have never gone to bed mad at each other. We made an agreement in advance, to discuss and solve any issues or misunderstanding between us. Whenever I wish to do something or go to any place, I ask my husband, I ask his opinion and when I need help, I ask his help.

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The Bible says in 1 Corinthians 13: 4-7: “4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered and it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always suffers and always perseveres”. However, when it says that love always suffers and perseveres, doesn’t refer to physical or emotional abuse. Do not confuse true love with an obsession, or masochism or habit. True love is not self-seeking but seeks the good for the other person. Broken families produce emotionally unstable children. Many men and women come from a dysfunctional home. They witnessed their father mistreating their mother. They had an alcoholic mother or father and while growing up only listened to hateful and resentful words. Unfortunately, these events cause the person to become frustrated and negatively affected, without the love and support of a family and with a very low self-esteem or none at all. Usually, people who grew up in dysfunctional homes do desire to have a home, a stable family without repeating the same story

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My husband shares with me any issues he may be dealing with, as well. He doesn’t do things just for his own convenience. He firstly thinks in me and this is the true love. Love is not self-seeking but always seeks the good for the other person. Love doesn’t do anything against the other person. Love it is not easily angered. I recalled one day I felt a little angry with my husband, but after 15 minutes, I was again happy with him. Love is not resentful. Oftentimes we may feel angry or irritated, but we must try not to feel this way for long. Before day ends, couples must aim to solve any issues between them and avoid going to bed while being mad at each other. Anger is an opened door for the enemy to enter and sow discord in both hearts and minds.

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they lived during childhood, yet, unfortunately when they manage to have their own family, they end up repeating the same pattern and story they lived in their family of origin. It is like a curse. Even though they come to the Lord, they don’t get rid of their painful past or release their burdens to the Lord, but keep living in the same condition, making others believe that everything is fine, when in reality everything is a farce. This is the reason why many times the enemy does whatever he wants with their lives.

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You can release your burdens to the Lord. Give your past, home and family to the Lord and he will act on your behalf, for your highest good. The Bible says in Psalms 55:22 “Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken”.

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You can change. What you need is to have a positive attitude. The Lord is your ally. He is your helper. Do not allow the enemy to destroy your home as he did with your parents’ home. You have to break the curse. Otherwise it will pass from generation to generation. You are a winner and a victor. Victors do not remain at the floor, knocked out, grumbling about life challenges. Instead, they get up and keep fighting, trying, learning about their mistakes in order to not repeat them again. I exhort husbands to encourage their wives. Tell them beautiful words. Express them how important they are for you. Do not wait until it is too late in order to express your emotions. Even though your partner knows you love her still she likes to hear it from you. The more you express how much you love her, the better. God wants to bless your home and family, to bless both of you spiritually, physically, emotionally and financially as a couple. The Bible reads in Proverbs 10:22 “The blessing of the Lord brings wealth, without painful toil for it”.

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Whenever he wants me to prepare a coffee or tea for him, he asks me gently and above all, he makes a request. He always says “Thank you” whenever I do something for him. He congratulates me when I do something good, but he also lets me know when I do something wrong. He shows interest about my needs. Every day he lets me know how much he loves me. Frequently, because of his work, we need to separate but wherever he is, he calls every day to check whether I am fine and to say how much he misses me. You may think: “This woman has a perfect man”. No, my husband isn’t perfect, on the contrary, he has many weaknesses. Yet, I do not focus on his weaknesses but his strengths. I try to keep his self-esteem high. I frequently express him how much I love him, how important he is for me, and I say how grateful I am about him being my husband. I tell him his positive traits as well as his negative traits exercising intelligence and wisdom and knowing he can change the negative ones. The same way we as women feel good when our husbands converse with us in a gentle way, our husbands also feel well when we say: “My love, I like how the shirt or pants looks on you or you look so handsome”.

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Little gestures, still with great results Sorry if I talk too much about my husband, but I cannot overlook sharing with you about this wonderful man God has given me. He is very detail-oriented and attentive. Because he knows I love flowers, every time he can he surprises me with flowers. When he is not able to buy a bouquet of flowers he brings me one flower and that makes me feel so happy as if he would have bought the whole florist for me. My gratitude is not as much for the flower as it is his gesture of thinking about me.

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A while back, a good friend sent me a beautiful thought via email. One of the phrases reads: “A strong woman, gets a strong man who increments her strength. A woman of fortitude will become the strength that will make her partner invincible”. How long ago you don’t say nice things to your husband? If you are waiting for your relationship to change, don’t wait until your partner changes, instead, change yourself. Give the first step. Do not allow the enemy to do whatever he wants with your marriage. Fight the good fight rather than giving up.

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Should you feel discouraged or disillusioned to try something in order to save your relationship, then let God be your support. The Bible says in Isaiah 41:10 “Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand”.

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You may say: “My husband is so dry and has such a bad character, that doesn’t inspire me to do something”. I am quite sure when you met your partner you didn’t conquered his or her heart with a bad character. Start by looking at his good traits, because he is not completely bad. If you lack wisdom, ask the Lord and he will give it to you. The Bible says in James 1:5 “If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you” and in James 3:17 “But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere”. We must desire the wisdom that comes from heaven. Are you a wise man or woman? The wise woman/man builds her/his house, but with her/his own hands the foolish one tears hers/his down. The Bible reads in James 3: 13-16 “13 Who is wise

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and understanding among you? Let them show it by their good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom. 14 But if you harbor bitter envy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast about it or deny the truth. 15 Such “wisdom” does not come down from heaven but is earthly, unspiritual and demonic. 16 For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice”.

Which are the medicine and antibiotics to apply? These are forgiveness, repentance, humility, dialogue, changing a negative attitude into a positive one and a new opportunity. I know all marriages have difficulties. Don’t think my husband and I haven’t had disagreements and difficulties. We have had but communication is extremely important. Learn to pay attention and listen to your partner. There are people who don’t know how to listen and believe they are right and the others are wrong. On the other hand, yelling while conversing is not advisable. The one who speaks louder is not necessarily right. I once got mad at my husband. I knew I wasn’t right and the Holy Spirit corrected me and said: “Ask your husband to forgive you”. I didn’t want to do it and had no words to say. I felt my throat was closed. Several times I opened my mouth to say: “Darling, forgive me” but I couldn’t. Do you know why I couldn’t? It was because of pride. However, I came to terms with myself and said: “Sandy,

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There will always be a solution Don’t let the flame of love between you to extinguish. Don’t let bitterness, jealousy, personal ambitions or arrogance to extinguish the love between you. Some couples feel they don’t love each other anymore but this doesn’t mean love is lost. Sometimes instead of feeling love for our partner we feel pain because of old hurts in our hearts. If we apply medicine and the proper antibiotics to the hurt and pain, eventually healing will occur and pain will disappear.

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I rebuke you in the name of Jesus! Go and ask your husband to forgive you”. Then I said to my husband: “Forgive me. I know I made you feel bad”. My husband said humbly: “Forgive me”. My husband was humble in his attitude. I don’t have to tell the rest of the story, you can imagine. Forgiveness, recognizing our faults and weaknesses can make miracles!

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Don’t let the enemy to use you. Recognize your faults as a couple. Ask the Lord’s discernment to recognize when any of you is being used by the enemy. Don’t forget, our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.

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In order for a marriage to survive, you need to leave pride behind and acknowledge when you offend your partner. We must ask forgiveness. Some couples think the one to humble or ask forgiveness is the one who made an offense. I know the person who offends must ask forgiveness, but if your partner doesn’t want to do it, approach your partner with docility and have a conversation. For everything, there is a solution. If you don’t want to humble yourself, because you think your partner doesn’t deserve it, then do it because of your love for Jesus Christ and for your own good. Take care of small details and don’t neglect your family Do not overlook small details. We often overlook and let pass small things. Sometimes, these little things which are simple as a drop of water falling into a rock, at the beginning look insignificant but with time the drop of water can drill the rock. The same happens with a marital relationship. When small things arise we don’t correct them and as times passes we realize the gravity of the issue.

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Remember, God must occupy the first place in your life. In the second place, your family and in the third place your call and ministry. The church begins at your home and if you are unable to properly govern your home or take care of your family, how do you think you will be able to govern and take care of the Lord’s issues?

Saving the family and marriage is the responsibility of both partners. I know many women and men who put all of their effort, desire, strength and sacrifice in order to save their marital relationship. They sought counseling and read books on how to have successful marriages. Unfortunately, sometimes one of the partners doesn’t want to save the relationship. Only a miracle from God could make the family or marriage to stand united as stated in the Bible. To save a relationship, both partners must be willing and do their best. I don’t get tired of reemphasizing that forgiveness is the key for a new beginning. I know forgiveness is not easy. I had to do it many times, even when it looked impossible as a result of the horrendous and devastating pain I felt inside of me. But in any situation, we can ask the Lord to help us forgive. Oftentimes, it is difficult to forgive, especially when the wound is recent, but if we do forgive, we give a giant step and walk ahead to obtain all of the things the Lord wants to give us. Lack of forgiveness paralyzes us, hinders our walk with God and disturbs God’s plans for our lives. The situation is similar when a

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Many people have neglected their family issues because of ministry. Oftentimes when a relationship is about to collapse or at the border of separation, people want to look for the guilty party. We blame the Devil, we blame our partner, we blame God and in reality we ourselves, are the guilty ones because of our own lust and carelessness. This is when the enemy takes advantage of the situation.

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house is constructed using blocks and cement. If there is no water for the cement, blocks cannot be cemented, thus, construction is paralyzed. If we don’t forgive, God’s work in our lives gets paralyzed. Don’t allow lack of forgiveness to destroy your home, your family or your spiritual life. Don’t allow the enemy to enter that door. Close it! Don’t allow lack of forgiveness to disturb God’s work in your life or limit the things the Lord wants to do with you and your loved ones.

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Don’t stop God’s work in your life. Don’t choose to be a loser. Don’t give up all of the things the Lord wants to give you. All trials you’ve been through which have left you with scars and pain, are life exams allowed by the Lord, in order to prepare you to receive all of the blessings he has in store for you and also for your life to be a blessed example for those people who are suffering without God and hopeless.

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The enemy knows God’s purpose is to bless you so that your life can be a testimony to others. This is why he will do the possible and even the impossible to keep you from obtaining God’s blessings and stuck in the same position without making progress to the next level God wants to take you. There is a price to pay, but if God has called and chosen you, it is because he knows the great potential you have, and if you obey him regardless of difficulties, pain, loneliness, tears, sadness, humiliation, mock and contempt, you will get to the finish line and obtain your victory. You will be amazed about the wonderful future God has for you and your loved ones. Don’t allow fear and dread to paralyze you I’ve mentioned some types of sins which can become opened doors for the enemy to attack you spiritually. Perhaps, your problems are not any of the things I’ve mentioned such as: adultery,

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fornication, pornography, masturbation or the desire to sexually intimate with another person but your partner.

When someone experiences a demonic appearance, oftentimes the person feels his body paralyzed, and the tongue fixed to the palate, but as I said before, demons cannot paralyze your mind. Instead you can cry out to the Lord for help. If you are not familiar with spiritual warfare, I advise you to seek both God’s help and support from experienced people in this area. Go the bookstore and buy books about spiritual warfare and you will also find spiritual warfare prayers which can help and strengthened you. When the Lord set me free and started to prepare me spiritually, he guided me to read the books: “He came to set captives free” and “Prepare for war” by Rebecca Brown. Little by little the Lord guided me to buy other books from men and women of God who know how the spiritual world and demons operate. Still, the number one key is to trust God, obey the Lord, to scrutinize his word and constantly pray. What couples must do? Couples must pray together, anoint their families and all objects at their home. Also, try to solve any issues that may arise between you. As Christians, you will be attacked by Satan. But the enemy has been defeated. How is it possible that you being a winner, allow a loser to defeat you? No way! Don’t allow this to happen!

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Oftentimes, there may be cases where a demon visits a Christian in order to seduce him or her, but if the person doesn’t do anything to rebuke the demon, and instead becomes fearful, then the demon will continue to attack until the person gets rid of fear and rebukes the demon in the name of Jesus. Both fear and dread are opened doors for the enemy.

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If you have never been before through any of these experiences, give thanks to God. However, the fact that you have never been attacked by a demon either sexually or in any other way doesn’t mean these experiences aren’t real. God will let you go through certain experiences so that you can understand and help other people.

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I met a Christian woman, with a precious family and a loving husband who went through the experience of a demon visiting and having sex with her. She didn’t find much help because she was afraid to speak about the topic and thought people could think she was crazy.

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She reached a severe state of depression and stopped attending church. She needed help, but when I tried to visit her in order to speak and offer my help, she rather went to another place. Unfortunately, there are people who like to suffer and become the enemy’s victims. Don’t allow the enemy to use you like a puppet. You are a winner. You’re a child of God. Alone you can do nothing, but with God all things are possible. It is God who arms you with strength and keeps your way secure. He makes your feet like the feet of a deer; he causes you to stand on the heights. He trains your hands for battle. Psalms 18: 32-34.

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Chapter XVIII There is a Christian hymn that says: “It is good to praise God when things are going well. It is good to praise God when you don’t have problems. That is good!” The letters of this hymn are true, yet, how difficult it is for many of us to praise God in the midst of the problem, in the midst of devastation or when our situation goes in the opposite direction from God’s promise, or even when we feel God is at millions of distance from us. I know many of you have experienced God’s presence in a very special way. So close that we can almost palpate his presence. We feel God is walking by our side. We attend church and rejoice because the Lord spoke to our hearts through the message preached. He also gives us a prophecy through his servants as well as dreams and revelations. Everything seems to be in our favor. Yet, suddenly, something happens, and we stop feeling the Lord’s presence as if he had moved away from us. We feel our prayers bounce in the air. We attend church with the hope God will give us a message or prophecy through the Pastor, but he doesn’t say anything. Perhaps God will use the Pastor to minister all brothers and sisters except ourselves. And we say in our minds: “Lord, I am here. Please talk to me”. Then, days, weeks, months and perhaps years may pass, without the Lord saying a word to us.

There is a time when the Lord stops moving in our lives. It is as if he stopped and said: “Wait a moment and stop!” When God stops moving in our lives and when he makes silence it is because he is about to do something greater in our lives. We, as human beings, tend to always be in a hurry and want God to move quickly in our lives and when he doesn’t we drive to despair. However, we must understand God is not in a hurry even when we are. God knows how and when he is going to move on our behalf. He knows when to speak, when to walk and when to run on our behalf, because he is in control of everything. He has a divine timing. The Bible says in Ecclesiastes 3:1 “Everything has its time - To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven”. The foregoing quote means that even though we drive to despair, God will not change his plans or purposes for our lives, instead, in his divine timing he will give us what is best for our lives. Before I went to live to Germany with my husband, the Lord said he would be with me, his angel would open doors for me and he had great purposes with me in Europe. I had previously asked the Lord to give me a German husband who wanted to live in Germany. I really didn’t know what I was asking for or imagine the price I had to pay. I am not referring to the relationship with my husband, because I am very happy with him. I am referring to how difficult was for me to adapt to the German culture. Still nowadays, I believe I have not been able to fully adapt to the German culture. When the Lord told me he was sending me to Europe and he was going to be with me, I didn’t worry, because I knew I was going to be with both my Lord and my husband. Yet, when I arrived Germany the least I felt was God’s presence.

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I was living in a very beautiful town. Everything looked perfect, streets were clean, everything was very organized and tranquil, but no one spoke English or Spanish, and I didn’t speak German. I could only talk with the Lord and my husband. But my husband had to leave home for work. Sometimes he worked far away from home and other times outside of the country. We could only see each other during weekends. And when I spoke with the Lord I felt as if he was at millions of distance from me. One day, in my despair I cried out to the Lord and said: “Lord, is it that you don’t exist here in Germany? Where are you? You are indispensable for me, like the air I breathe. Please answer me Jesus!” Yet, there was no response. I prayed, fasted, sang, read the Bible, made vigil at home. I did everything and the Lord didn’t say a word. No one called me and when someone called from New York, it was to ask for prayer or share their problems. There were people who didn’t even ask how I was, instead, they asked for prayer straightforward. I listened to them and prayed for their petitions, but after their problem was solved they forgot to call me back. Every day, I called my friends and relatives and the phone bill was expensive. I only felt good when my husband was at home and we could share together, but when he had to go to work, I felt alone. Loneliness and silence became my company. I didn’t know where to find an evangelic church and to cap it all there were only two churches near my home, one Catholic and another Lutheran. Besides, the services were in German language. I could not go out, because I didn’t know to take the train or the bus and I was afraid to get lost. Oftentimes I looked through the window and didn’t see anyone walking in the streets. One morning, I cried out to the Lord saying: “I know you sent me to this country and you said you had

great purposes with me here, but if you don’t speak to me or say something, I will return to New York. I am sorry for my husband and you know I love him with all of my heart, but if your presence is not with me at this place, I am leaving. I prefer to stay at New York, single with my five senses, preaching your word rather than here in Germany, married, almost crazy and without feeling your presence. Thus, if you don’t want me to leave, I ask you two signals, one is to provide me with friends in this place and second to heal someone who is sick. That same day, I went to the post office to mail a letter and when I was coming back while passing in front of the Lutheran’s church, there was a woman sat in a bench close to church. The Holy Spirit asked me to talk to the woman. I kept walking and said to the Holy Spirit: “How am I going to talk to that woman, if I don’t know her and don’t speak her language?” Thereafter, I felt a real hand grabbing my left arm and directing me towards the woman. Once I was in front of the woman I didn’t know what to say. She smiled and spoke in German. I asked her: “Do you speak English or Spanish?” She answered in German that she spoke Russian, French, Armenian and German a little bit. It may sound funny what happened next, while I spoke to her in Spanish and English, she replied in German, and I don’t know how, but we understood each other. She invited me to her home and in my mind I said to the Lord: “I am going to this woman’s house, if I am killed I will die with you, but I will not lose the chance to make friends with this family”. When we arrived at her home, her family warmly welcomed me. She has three daughters and one of them speaks English, a little. They prepared dinner for me and asked me to feel at home, as if they were my family. I felt happy because in spite of not feeling God’s presence for a long time, he was confirming the signals I asked him for, and one

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more time, he confirmed his will for me was to stay at Germany. When I returned home, while I was going up the stairs, I found an elderly man who was going towards the garbage and greeted me. I thought he wanted me to accompany him to throw the garbage, thus I accompanied him. When we were back, he opened his apartment door and asked me to go in, but I didn’t dare to go in. Then he said something and I only understood the word “meine frau” which translated to English means “my wife”. I thought he wanted me to see his wife. I went in his house and indeed that’s what the elderly man had asked me for. His wife was very sick. She had a weird disease in her body, as if her skin was about to fall little by little. By making signs, I asked if I could pray for her and they both agreed. I prayed but the Lord didn’t act immediately. I went home and the next day I saw the elderly woman at her garden and I went to greet her. When she saw me, she was happy and kissed me; she lifted up her blouse and showed me her skin which was totally healed and looked like a baby skin. The Glory Be to God! This was an answer to the second sign I had previously asked God. After this experience, I felt more tranquil as I didn’t feel alone anymore. When my husband left home for work, I now was able to visit my friends. I also learned to take the train and bus going to the city centre. Before I came to Germany, my lifestyle used to be very hectic at New York. I frequently preached and traveled a lot. My mobile phone did not stop ringing and I always found someone to talk with. However, I also complained with the Lord, I told him how tired I felt, sometimes I didn’t want my mobile phone to ring, I wanted to have a family and be tranquil, and interestingly enough, now that God had answered my prayer to have a family and a home, to be tranquil without the phone ringing, I was also complaining.

Who can understand human beings? While I was living in New York I thought my trust was focused on God no matter what happened, but while living in Germany I realized God was the least person I was focusing my trust on. Almost four years of God’s silence, were necessary for me to learn the lesson to rely and really trust in God. When I lived in America and anytime problems arose, the first thing I used to do was to seek for people’s help and orientation. When people could not help me I ran to the Lord. When I was sick, rather than going to the Lord first, I ran to the doctor’s office. I don’t mean trusting people or doctors is bad, yet, it is not good when we leave God as the last alternative when he must be our first priority. Here, in Germany, I learned to trust God like a child. There was no other alternative. During those silence years I devoted myself to God and the Holy Spirit like I had never done before. I recalled one day I had an accident and hurt my spine, the ache was terrible and I thought I was going to become paralytic. I needed a doctor but couldn’t go to the hospital because I didn’t have medical insurance yet and in Germany, going to the hospital without a medical insurance is extremely expensive. My husband was crying together with me, he wanted my ache to pass to his body but couldn’t do anything because he didn’t have the money to pay for the doctor’s fee. I started praying and spoke with the Lord. I believed by faith that the Lord was not going to leave me prostrated and in spite of pain and despair, I stood believing and the Lord made a miracle and healed me. The Lord wanted to teach me to trust him even when I was not feeling his presence and regardless of the situation going in the opposite direction of his promises.

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Trust and the Holy Spirit’s Company I learned to trust the Holy Spirit like I had never done before. He is so real! I recalled one afternoon I went to the house flat roof to pick up the clothes I had previously washed. I was going down the stairs backwards and at the same time I was holding with my two hands the clothes basket. I don’t know how it happened, but suddenly I felt I was losing my balance and didn’t know how to stand up, because if I grab the basket clothes with one hand and use the other hand to grab the stairs I was going to lose my balance and fall down anyway. Should I fall down it was going to be a sure death. I quickly asked the Holy Spirit: “Please help me, if I move I will fall down and my body is losing its balance, if I fall down I will die, help me, what can I do, Holy Spirit”? The Holy Spirit spoke and said: “Put one of your hands on the stairs and hold from there”. I answered: “I can’t. If I move a little I will die”. He said: “You will not fall down, just believe that my hands will hold you”. I said again to the Holy Spirit: “I don’t feel your hands. I only feel the cold death”. The Holy Spirit said again: “Just believe that my hands are holding your back”. I closed my eyes and believed and was able to grab the stairs. That day, I gave many thanks to the Lord and the Holy Spirit because when I did what he said, I felt a breeze and in the middle of the breeze two real hands like the hands of a man who held my back and didn’t allow me to fall down. I learned to trust the Holy Spirit for everything. One day while I was typing at my husband’s computer, I don’t know what happened, but the computer broke down and was not working. I felt very concerned, because I thought I had caused my husband’s computer to break down. Besides, he had been working on his computer trying to make a computer programming for his company but could not make it. I prayed to the Holy Spirit and said: “Holy

Spirit, I believe I’ve caused my husband’s computer to break down. I will be very sad to tell my husband his computer is not working. Please, Holy Spirit, I ask you to repair my husband’s computer, in the name of Jesus”. I gave thanks and believed. I called my husband and told him I thought I had broken down his laptop. He asked me not to worry as he would try to repair the computer once he got home. I told him, I had prayed and by faith I believed the Holy Spirit had repaired his laptop. When my husband got home, he turned on the computer and it worked well. The greatest miracle the Holy Spirit did was not only repairing my husband’s computer but the programming my husband had previously tried to do to no avail, appeared totally done and functioning. He was amazed and I was even more amazed than him. The Holy Spirit did more than I ask him to do. I love you Holy Spirit! A year later, while still living at the beautiful town of Norten Hardenberg, God allowed me to meet a young woman from Colombia. The first time we saw, we both felt something special, as if we met since long time ago, but the real reason was that young woman was and still is a servant of God. Ana became my friend and sister. God united us in a very special way. It was incredible for us to realize how close we lived, yet we had not seen each other before. Everything happens in God’s divine timing. To me, my friend Ana was like a huge treasure I had just found. We used to visit each other, prayed, laughed, sang and cried together. However, the time came when my husband and I had to move from the apartment we were living to a new home. You know what? This was like beginning again. The new town where we moved was as beautiful as the previous town, looked like a dream, but I didn’t know anyone. Sometimes my parents-in-law came to visit me but they only speak German. At the beginning it was not easy as it feels horrible when someone speaks to you and you don’t understand. It feels horrible to be in the middle of people who don’t speak your

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language. You know how I felt? Like a quashed cockroach. I had the desire to run away and leave everything behind. And God made silence again. I missed preaching the gospel. I missed to preach and win souls for Christ, to be able to reach those places where no one wants to go, that is my passion. I cried out many times to the Holy Spirit and said: “If you and God don’t want to talk to me, at least, allow me to understand my parents-in law when they come to visit and talk with me”. Even though the Holy Spirit didn’t say a word, I am quite sure he listened to my prayer, because I started to understand my parents-in-law while they talked to me. And you know what? I am only able to understand the German language when I talk with them but no one else. I am making my best to learn the German language, in the name of Jesus I know I will be able to learn, understand, speak, write, read and translate it. God continued to remain silent, in spite of the promises he had made me. He had told me I was born to preach and now I found myself in anonymity. I felt if I didn’t preach I was going to die. The sadness and sorrow were about to end with my life. When I stopped preaching I felt the same way a patient who needs oxygen feels when the oxygen is taken away from his body. I felt asphyxiated, until one day I said to the Lord: “Lord, this is enough. If you don’t open a door for me to preach, and if you don’t tell me you are with me regardless of your silence, I will prepare my luggage to depart. You know I love my husband, but I will not get crazy. And if the enemy is the one opposing the doors to be opened, today I challenge the Devil to get out of my way, in the name of Jesus”. I had never felt so much courage and hatred for the enemy. But the spiritual warfare I did that day, made possible for two Pastors who didn’t know me to call me and ask me to preach at their churches. It may sound incredible to believe, but every invitation I have received to preach in this country has come after I’ve fought a spiritual warfare. Many times I wanted to leave everything back

and return to New York, but every time I was about to do it, the Lord intervened and said no, as he had a purpose with me in Germany. The Lord intervened and spoke to me, because he knows there is no interest in my heart for material things in first place. Should I have had to decide between the love of my husband and the ministry, I would have chosen to do the will of God. I recalled whenever the thoughts to leave came to my mind, the Holy Spirit said: “Sandy, if you leave, people will not think you left because of loneliness, yet they will think that your marriage wasn’t the will of God. Satan wants you to be desperate and run away”. Whenever the Holy Spirit ministered me, he ended up convincing me to stay. I can only say that through the arid desert and the trial furnace I’ve been through, I’ve learned to die so that Jesus can be formed in me. The Lord’s silence lasted for a long time. There were moments of huge despair. Depression wanted to knock my door, but in the name of Jesus I had victory. I fought face to face with the Devil. There were moments when I wanted to leave everything and return to my sister’s Isaile home at New York. I knew first hand, what it was like to experience the coldness of loneliness and aloneness. And whenever I cried out to the Lord, he only encouraged me to wait upon him. Even though, the waiting process was exasperating to me, it was worth it. During the waiting season I had a lot of experiences and learned many things the Lord wanted to show me, but above all, he healed many things from my heart that I didn’t even know myself existed. When God makes silence it is because he is working in our lives. It was a season that I called: “An intimate encounter with God”. The Lord didn’t allow anyone else to intervene or help me. It was an appointment between me and the Lord. Perhaps, should I have shared with someone about my spiritual drought I would have

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been told it was because I went to Germany out of the will of God. Eventually, God’s silence finished and I started to feel his presence closely. He sent me to preach several times to New York and Florida. He also allowed me to meet some Pastors from Amsterdam Holland who gave me the opportunity to preach at their churches. Then, I was invited to preach at a church in Frankfurt and there, I have a family in the Christian faith. The Lord has allowed me to make new friends including the parents of my sister-in-law’s husband. They are from Turkey. I don’t know how we can understand the language but God makes everything possible. Here at Germany, there is a lot of work to do on behalf of God’s vision. I didn’t know how poor the evangelism is here in Germany, and a great revival is needed. There is a need for women and men who are able to revitalize the fire, because this is a nation that needs to see in order to believe. I know God will do exploits and wonders in this country and I feel in my heart, I will be part of this great movement from God.

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Chapter XIX In Hebrews 13:2 the Bible reads: “Do not forget to show hospitality to strangers, for by so doing some people have shown hospitality to angels without knowing it”.

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As Christians, we are protected by God. We are not alone but we have the company of the Lord and the Holy Spirit. We also have angels to help us. There are troops of angels protecting our homes, our families and ourselves. The Bible says in Psalms 34:7 “The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear him and he delivers them”.

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I recalled one morning I was waiting the Bus to travel from Manhattan to Bronx. While I was waiting for the bus to arrive, I saw a tall, black and robust man walking towards me. The Lord allowed me to see the amount of demons possessing this man. I could not stop from looking this man, until he lifted up his eyes and noticed I was looking at him. When he saw me he said: “I am going to destroy you. I will break your face”. This man started to walk towards me quickly. I felt paralyzed. I couldn’t move and the man kept moving towards me with his fist. At the same time he was about to hit me, I felt someone stood between the two of us and separated me from the man. I didn’t see the angel who did it but I did feel his

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hands. When I was moved, the possessed man lost his balance and fell down. I saw the man laying face down with his hands on his back and unable to move, like when a police man arrests someone. Minutes later, the bus arrived and the man was gotten up from the floor but still with his hands on his back. He got in the bus, looked at me and said: “I am going to destroy you”.

Another experience I had with angels was when I was told that my grandma (from my father’s side) had passed away. It was a terrible hit for me. It was so terrible as if I was dying myself. She was like my mother because she was the one to bring me up since I was two months old. The same day I received the news, I went to the airport in order to depart to Dominican Republic. I was one of the first persons in the waiting list. Do you know what happened? All people in the waiting list found available seats and were able to depart, except me. Even my dad and uncle, who were traveling from Cleveland-New York-Dominican Republic, were able to find available seats. However I was not able to find seats availability even though I had arrived first than them. As I was not able to depart, I felt my soul had been broken in little pieces. I wanted to see my grandma for the last time, even dead. I started to cry disconsolate. I had never experienced such a profound pain. I didn’t care people were looking at me. I felt so alone. And to make matters worse, I could not feel God’s presence. While I was crying, a man approached me and asked: “Why are you crying?” I replied that my mother had died and I intended to depart that day but there was no available seat for me. He asked

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I know the enemy wanted to harm me through this possessed man, but I have no doubt the personage who defended me was the angel of the Lord. There are thousands of promises in the Bible for you and for me. The Bible says in Psalms 91:11 “For he will command his angels concerning you, to guard you in all your ways”.

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me not to cry and said he also had to depart in the plane which had just left but instead he stayed to take care of me. Like a little girl, I replied: “To take care of me? Why are you going to take care of me if you don’t even know me?” He said: “I was sent to take care of you”. I didn’t pay much attention because I thought he was joking. I continued crying. I tried to find another flight even with stop at Miami or Puerto Rico to no avail. Meanwhile, the man was accompanying me everywhere.

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Around 4pm he said I needed to rest as I could not wait until next morning for the next available flight. He said he was going to pay me a hotel room so that I could rest. He called one of the hotels close to the airport and few minutes later, a luxury bus came to pick us up. In our way to the hotel, a truck almost hit the bus we were in but the man realized and warned the bus driver on time. The truck appeared from nowhere.

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Upon arrival at the hotel, the receptionist asked who was going to pay the fees. The man said he would. When he was asked his name, he said: “I cannot give my name. Please register the room in her name”. When we arrived at the hotel room I reacted and said to myself: “Sandy, are you crazy? What are you doing in this room with a man you don’t even know?” He seemed to know my thoughts because he said: “Don’t be afraid. I will not harm you. Pretend I am your Father. You need to rest because a long day awaits you. Take a bath, make yourself comfortable and then I will take you out for dinner. You cannot go to sleep without having dinner. Do not be afraid. I will not harm you. I am here to take care of you”. His words made me feel at peace. Thus, I took a bath, put on clothes and we later had dinner at the hotel’s restaurant. When we returned to the hotel room, he sat in the bed and I sat in the couch and he said: “Do you want me to turn on the radio”? I said

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yes, please tune in the radio station. When I mentioned the word radio station, he finished my sentence and said: “Radio Visión Cristiana”. I felt amazed not understanding how he knew what I was going to say. After he tuned in the radio station he asked me to share about me. I said I was Christian and I shared a little bit about my testimony. He was not doing this by chance. He was trying to distract me so that I could not remember much my grandma’s death.

Next day, early morning he woke me up and said: “Wake up. It’s time to go to the airport”. Upon arrival at the airport he invited me to have breakfast. After breakfast, I ask him to go with me to board the plane. He replied: “I can only stay to this point with you. I stayed to take care of you. Go in peace and everything will be fine”. We say goodbye and while I was walking I stopped to say him goodbye one more time yet he had already disappeared. One week after having arrived to Dominican Republic I went to make some errands and when I arrived home, my aunt Neri said that a man went looking for me to say that everything was fine and to encourage me not to be sad. He asked my aunt to tell me that he was the man who took care of me at the airport. I asked my aunt whether she didn’t give him anything. She said she prepared an orange juice for him, which he drank and later left. After this experience, I realized the man was an angel sent by the Lord.

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I went to sleep but at midnight I felt very bad. I was dying. I saw my soul going up at a high speed and I was covered by a white cloud. Yet, I heard the voice of the man saying: “Don’t give up. God has not finished with you, yet. This storm shall pass. A long way still awaits you”. When I woke up, the man strongly hugged me and said: “You are not alone. Don’t give up”. His words were so beautiful that I fell asleep. I believe hadn’t this man been with me I would have died that night.

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Hadn’t he been an angel, what would have been his interest to take care of me? Why he was the only one who realized the accident we almost had in our way to the hotel? Why he didn’t want to give his name for the room reservation and instead asked the receptionist to make reservation under my name? Why he didn’t rape me at the hotel room yet every moment he encouraged me not to be afraid and asked me to act as if he was my father? How did he know the radio station I wanted to listen to if I hadn’t told him I was Christian? Why when I had a nervous breakdown to death he said it was not time for me to go yet? How he disappeared so fast from the airport? How he appeared at my family’s home in Dominican Republic, if I didn’t give him my address? Was this a normal man or the angel of the Lord? We must be careful on how we treat others, because even without realizing it, the person you least think may be an angel. This man I knew didn’t have anything special. He was dark-skinned, spoke Spanish, had beard and wore many gold jewels. In Hebrews 1:14 the Bible says: “Are not all angels ministering spirits sent to serve those who will inherit salvation?”

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In February 2004, I went to the city of Minessota. When I was returning to New York, I got lost because the taxi driver took me to the wrong airport. I was in anguish because the plane was departing in one hour and I was lost. No matter how much I asked I was given the wrong address. When I realized an hour had passed, I started crying and I felt so impotent. Suddenly, out of nowhere, a white, tall, white hair and blue eyes man appeared. I asked whether he knew where it was the airline terminal “Sun Country”. He said he was also looking for that terminal and asked me to follow him. He helped me, carried my hand luggage and we both took the bus towards the terminal. Upon arrival at the terminal, there was a long queue. I knew my flight had already departed. When I was at the queue, he appeared again and encouraged me to go the counter and ask about my flight departure. I answered I could not do that

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because there were other people waiting before me. He said: “Go because I send you. I will look after your luggage”. I obeyed and when I asked about my flight I was given good news. My flight had been suspended in the morning and was departing in the afternoon. I felt so happy. I went to the waiting room feeling a burning sensation in my heart. There was something in the man which called my attention. I started walking trying to see him again and to my surprise we found face to face. He sat some minutes with me and asked what I was doing. I said I was a preacher and was writing a book. He asked me to talk about me and I shared the story when the Lord brought me back to life. I wasn’t sure if he could understand what I was saying because I didn’t speak much English. I asked if he could understand what I was saying. He took my hands and said: “Yes, I perfectly understand everything you have said. Keep on preaching and don’t stop”. I was in shock when I listened to his words. Soon after, he stood up and left. I quickly reacted and tried to see him again, but he had already left.

I feel joy to share with you each one of these life experiences the Lord has allowed me to live in his love and mercy. I only ask you not to doubt but trust and believe God can do these things and many more in your life. You are not alone. You have the company of the Father, the Son, the Holy Spirit and many angels at your disposition. The Lord loves you so much and he is closer to you than you think. Remember, the Bible is full of promises for your life. You only have to ask and believe you will receive.

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I believe he was an angel. This man came out of nowhere only to help me and give me that message. I’ve had many experiences with angels. Also, when I’ve been ministering, the Lord has allowed other people to see angels by my side. The Glory Be to God!

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We can only come against the kingdom of darkness in the name of Jesus, rebuking all spirit from the Devil in the name of Jesus. The most powerful weapons for us to use are prayer, fasting, praise and the Spirit’s sword which is the word of God. When Jesus was tempted at the desert, he used the scriptures to overcome Satan. Matthew 4:10. In Christ Jesus, we have power and are more than conquerors. The Lord gave us authority against the kingdom of darkness. In Mark 16:17 the Bible says: “And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons; they will speak in new tongues”. Believe you can do great miracles in the name of Jesus. The word of God says as you believe it will be done. Unfortunately there are people who want to be free, but at the same time they don’t want the one who can set them free. I will give you some examples I’ve known. One day a woman called and asked me to pray for a young girl who was possessed by a demon but the only problem was she didn’t want Christ. I personally think that rejecting the giver of eternal life is the biggest problem a person can have. Without Christ we are lost. Without Jesus life is senseless. Jesus is the one who fills everything. I can understand that a possessed person may not be able to accept the Lord due to evil binding. Yet, after the person has been set free, there is no excuse to accept Jesus. As days passed, the possessed young woman became worst, because she was set free when people prayed for her, but her spirit was empty because she didn’t give the Lord or the Holy Spirit the opportunity to enter her

heart. The Bible says in Matthew 12: 43-45: “43 When an impure spirit comes out of a person, it goes through arid places seeking rest and does not find it. 44 Then it says, ‘I will return to the house I left.’ When it arrives, it finds the house unoccupied, swept clean and put in order. 45 Then it goes and takes with it seven other spirits more wicked than itself, and they go in and live there. And the final condition of that person is worse than the first. That is how it will be with this wicked generation.” My advice to all those who want to be free from the slavery of sin and the enemy’s hands is to seek the Lord. The Lord is the only one able to set you free from prisons and oppression from the enemy. The Lord has power for everything, but he cannot forgive a man who doesn’t repent. I will give more examples. I had a very sick uncle whom the plan of salvation was presented. My uncle wanted to accept the Lord but his wife warned him that should he become Christian he wouldn’t count on her anymore. My uncle did not accept the Lord because of fear of his wife leaving him. Apparently, he got better from his health condition and the first day he went to work he died at the company. While in New York, I was called and informed that my uncle had died, but I was not told he had been preached the gospel of salvation and he didn’t accept Jesus because of fearing his wife. Two years after his death, the Lord asked me to fast and pray for five days. By the third day fasting, I was praying early morning and suddenly I felt the presence of someone approaching my room. I lifted up my head and saw someone approaching. His clothes shined and there was a white shining light surrounding him. He said: “Follow me”. I don’t know whether I was in the flesh or the spirit, but I do know the Lord and I ran through the ceiling roof and flied in direction to the sky, at a very high speed like the speed of light.

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After we arrived somewhere in the space, the Lord introduced me via a very dark abyss that looked like a funnel. The more profound we got the wider it became. Thereafter, we reached a place where there were stone mountains. This road was horrible and frightened. When we left that place, the Lord took me to a more profound place looking like a womb. There, you could hear the grizzle of thousands of souls. The Lord had taken me to hell. This place was as dark as a furnace and it sounded like a sea roaring. Literally, I didn’t see fire but I did know the people in that place were being fired and tormented. There was light, only at the spot where the Lord and I were standing, because the Lord was illuminating the spot with his presence. The Lord was by my side and sustaining me with his hands. I cried: “Lord, take me out from here. I cannot stand listening to so much suffering!” Suddenly, the name of my uncle came to my mind and I asked the Lord whether my uncle was at that place. The Lord answered: “Yes, he is here, because he didn’t want to accept me. I gave him the opportunity to repent but he didn’t want and that is why he is here at this place. I’ve brought you here so that you can go and tell his family, that if they don’t repent they will also end up in this place”. Soon after, the Lord returned me to my room. I traveled to Dominican Republic and gave the message to my uncle’s family. They testified how the Lord had really given my uncle the opportunity to repent and he didn’t want. Nevertheless, before one year after my uncle’s death, his widow married his best friend. This is the reason I advise you not to lose your salvation because of anyone. If no one wants to go with you to Heaven, don’t go with anyone to hell. The Glory Be to God that most of my uncle’s children are now serving the Lord.

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Years back, I went to visit my sister Isaile at her work. Upon arrival, she was talking by phone with a friend from Santo Domingo. My sister asked me to pray for her friend but the Holy Spirit ministered me not to pray for her. I didn’t know what to do, because my sister had recently accepted Jesus, and I didn’t know how to explain I didn’t feel like praying for her friend. My sister insisted so persistently, that I ended up praying for her friend by phone. While I was praying for her friend, I felt a terrible oppression penetrating my body. I felt as if my brain was going to explode. When I finished praying I felt very sick. My sister’s friend felt free. She felt the oppression had left her body. Strangely enough, in spite of her friend feeling well after I prayed, she didn’t want to accept Jesus as her Lord and Savior. When I passed the phone to my sister, I said I had to leave because I felt very bad after praying for that person. My sister replied the woman I had just prayed for, was a witch, a servant of Satan. I made a serious mistake because the Lord warned me not to pray for her but I did, in order to please my sister and as a consequence, I almost die. I almost got crazy, I had to go to the emergency hospital and worst thing of all, doctors didn’t find anything bad in my body. The attack I received was diabolic and because of God’s mercy and because I humbled myself before his presence, asking forgiveness, the Lord had mercy on me.

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Be careful about who you lay your hands on and who lay his hands on you! As Christians, we need to be very careful. We shall seek the Lord’s direction in every situation. The Lord has asked me to be careful about the places I go, who I allow to lay his hands on me and very careful about whom I lay my hands on. We cannot act carelessly but with precaution.

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In another occasion, the Lord warned me not to allow everybody to pray for me. A pastor came to the church saying he had been fasting for 40 days. Strangely enough, he didn’t look like he had been fasting for a period of 40 days, because he looked very robust. In my Spirit, I felt there was something wrong with this man. I prayed to the Lord and said: “Lord, forgive me, but there is something in your servant that I don’t like”. The Pastor insisted he wanted to pray for me, but the Lord had already warned me not to allow this man to touch me but his insistence became stronger every day. I was living at my sister’s Isaile home, and he told my sister he felt like praying at her home. I told my sister what he really wanted was to pray for me. She encouraged me to accept his prayer, because he was a servant of God and why to deny prayer to someone. I thought: “This time I cannot please my sister, because the first time I did, I ended up paying a high price”. The Pastor arrived and started praying all around my sister’s home. I was distant at one corner because I knew his intentions, but when I was with my eyes closed, he went towards where I was and laid one of his hands in my forehead and his other hand on the back side of my brain and soon after, I listened the voice of the Holy Spirit saying: “You are now sick”. Instantly I got fever. Three days after, as I continued with fever, I felt calling one of the church brothers to pray for me. I shared with him what had happened; I ask the Lord forgiveness and soon after the brother prayed for me the fever disappeared. I’ve known many people who have wanted to pray for me on the basis the Lord has told them that I need liberation and there are unbroken curses in my life. But I consider the same way a blind cannot guide another blind, neither a tied can untie someone who is tied. I don’t say this for those who want to pray for me but for myself, because if I were tied, the Lord wouldn’t have commanded me to untie others who are tied.

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The first night at my friend’s house I went to pray before going to sleep. I recalled I fell asleep at a couch in the room and suddenly I woke up due to strong noises coming from the room’s door. When I lifted up my eyes there was a demon standing in front of the door who asked me with authority: “What are you doing here”? I replied: “I am the one who asks “what are you doing here?” He answered and said: “You are in my territory”. I couldn’t believe my ears. How could this demon say I was in his territory, if I was at my Christian friend’s home? This demon was tall, black, looked like a man but his body was full of hair similar to the body of a monkey. The demon leaped on me and tried to strangle me. I was asphyxiating. I couldn’t fight him. I started to cry out to the Lord in my mind and ask for help because I was asphyxiating. Suddenly, I felt strengthened. I felt someone took possession of my hands, because I felt my hands as big as a giant and I started to strangle the demon’s neck. We were looking at each other’s eyes. He didn’t cede and I didn’t either. I recalled how little by little when we were both falling to the floor, he let me go and said: “This time you have defeated me but we will see again”. I don’t know whether I was in the flesh or the Spirit, but I do not know, that was a real fight. I stayed forceless and praying. That same week a Christian sister called to give me a message from the Lord and the message was: “Who did you ask permission to visit

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I believe we shall not only be careful about those we lay our hands on, in prayer and also those who lay their hands to minister us, but we also must be careful about the places we frequently visit without the Lord’s consent. I recalled a time a friend and sister in Christ invited me to spend some days at her home. I gladly accepted her invitation and went to her home without consulting God’s will.

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that home? Did I send you?” Believe me, the Lord admonished me strongly.

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You may wonder: If your friend was Christian, why the demon said her home was his territory? Very simple, she was in fornication. Don’t forget when you open doors for the demons they are going to enter and take possession of everything you cede to them.

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Intercession save lives My beloved brothers and sisters you have the power of God in your life. More than 2000 years ago the Lord gave us his power. Use the sword of power and seek the face of God in prayer. Prayer is the sword that cuts and destroys all traps from the evil tempter. At the beginning of my journey, I didn’t know how to pray and when I did I was selfish. I only focused on my problems and needs. Yet, one day I told the Lord I wanted to be adoring, intercessor and warrior in prayer. Do you know that intercession has saved lives? One day at 4pm I was cooking and the Lord said: “Cry out for your doctor”. I said, why should I pray for my doctor if he is working now? Yet, I felt such a big anguish that I left the kitchen and started to pray. During prayer, I was in agony, I felt pain at my core, I felt so much desperation that I was sweating. I considered the possibility to stop crying out because I also felt as if the heaven was closed, but I knew I couldn’t cede until I felt peace. When I felt the Lord’s peace, I stopped praying and went back to cook. The next day, the doctor called to inform about a medical analysis he had made me. During our conversation, I ask the doctor if he had a car, and he said he had a car but it was now at the auto repair shop because he had had an accident. He said he was miraculously alive because the car was fully damaged and crashed. I asked him when exactly the accident

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I testified and share with my doctor how the Lord asked me to intercede on his behalf. My doctor was surprised and said he had never imagined God loved him or was interested in him. My doctor knew God was real, but no one had told him before that Jesus loved him and he was important to Jesus. My beloved, each time you have the opportunity to speak with someone, say lovingly how much Christ loves him or her! When the Lord asks you to pray, regardless of the time, please obey, because you don’t know what God may want to free you from or show you or what life even from your own family he wants to save. Another night, the Lord asked me to intercede on my grandfather behalf. The intercession was so profound that my clothes could be wrung because of the sweat. The only words that came out of my mouth were: “Demon of death, I command you not to touch my grandfather. In the name of Jesus, I command you death, not to touch him”. I felt I was fighting for my grandfather’s life. The intercession was so profound that I woke up praying for him. I was wondering why the Lord guided me to cry out this way for my grandfather’s life. Later, I called him to know how he was doing. When I called to the Dominican Republic, I told my cousin’s husband to call my grandfather and he asked whether I didn’t know what had happened. I asked: “What happened?” and he said my grandfather had been taken to the hospital in emergency because he had intoxicated with a fish. I was surprised and able to understand why during intercession I was fighting with the demon of death for my grandfather’s life.

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happened and the timing and he said: “Yesterday, around 4pm”. I was speechless, because the accident happened during the moment the Lord asked me to intercede on my doctor’s behalf. Prayer and intercession saved my doctor’s life.

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My grandfather narrated how during that night, he saw a demon who went to look for him, but at the same time he saw another personage who didn’t allow the demon to approach his bed. When this happened, my grandfather had not yet opened his heart to Jesus, but the Lord in his fidelity, saved my grandfather’s life. Sometimes I think if I wouldn’t have obeyed the Lord when he asked me to pray for my doctor and my grandfather, something terrible would have happened with their lives and I know the Lord was going to demand it from me. My beloved, if you still don’t know what is the ministry the Lord has for you, don’t worry, don’t despair as he will soon reveal to you. Sometimes we dream about being someone famous, a famous evangelist, but you can also see your dreams come to pass in the hands of God. Oftentimes I said to the Lord I dreamed being an evangelist like his servant Katherine Kurman but I understood the Lord already had a Katherine. At present, he needs a Sandy who is willing to be used by him the same way he used his servant and she let him used her. He also needs you and desires that you let him use you. My beloved, there is a need for valuable workers to work in the vision of the Lord. The harvest is much but the workers are few. Soldiers are needed for battle. We need to fight the battle and win the victory. The Devil’s fortresses need to be defeated. God is calling us to demolish walls. It is true there are people crying. There are people crying out. There are people feeling oppressed. But there is good news. God has not left his people. The Lord says: “You are the people I chose. You are my church. You are my son. You are my daughter. I will not leave you. I haven’t forgotten you”.

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While I was fasting during seven hours every day for forty days, one early morning the Lord’s presence visited me and said: “I’ve begun to clean my people’s dirt. I’ve begun to clear the altars. I am calling my ministers to humble themselves, not to humble their knees but their hearts. Tell my people I demand holiness and unity, because I will return for a united church rather than divided”. The Lord continued to say: “I want to bless my people as I have promised. Yet, there are dirty vessels preventing my blessing to be fully poured out. The dirty vessels are of adultery, of fornication, of jealousy, of envy, of gossip, of disputes, of bitterness, of lies, of hypocrisy, of discontentment, of rebellion among many other things.” My beloved sisters and brothers is time to humble ourselves. It’s time to repent from our hearts. It’s time to consecrate ourselves to God in spirit and truth. It’s time to wet the altars with tears of repentance. It’s time to seek the Lord’s presence. It’s time to allow the Lord to clean and purify our souls, bodies and spirits. To obtain victory you must be a warrior. You must be very courageous. You must be decisive. You must stand firm. Firm in what God has told you to do. Firm while believing what God has promised to do in your life. Stand firm in your convictions, decisions and the battle. My beloved even when you may feel defeated due to the enemy’s oppressions, remember you are not defeated. On the contrary, God has called to defeat all of the enemy’s tactics.

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The Lord wants you to get up and light the torch. Which torch? The torch of victory! Begin to play the trumpet of jubilation. Begin to play the trumpet of war and let the trumpets of victory to sound.

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You are a warrior. You are a conqueror since the time you were in your mother’s womb. Do you know why? Because millions and millions of spermatozoon are found in the man’s sperm, and only one of them, and rarely two or three, are able to enter and make contact with the woman’s ovule. Only one can make it, and has to be very fast and intelligent to make it.

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You were one of them. You were the fastest one and the more intelligent. You were the victor among millions. God gave you the privilege to win and today you are here in this world where there is a lot competition, but with God’s help you can stand being a winner and victor. Don’t give up. Fight the good battle. If you want victory don’t get tired in attempting to get it. Victory comes from God and he gives it to those who make an effort. Those who don’t want to effort but run away, only find failure throughout life. As of you, keep fighting the victory, in spite of trials, suffering, pain, betrayal and failure hurting you. When there is a competition, prizes are given after competition has ended rather than at the beginning or even at the middle. The winner gets the prize after a lot of suffering, pain, effort and work. Keep going because your victory might be around the corner. Victory is for you and you have to reach it. Fight for your blessing as Jacob did. The scripture says in Genesis 32: 24-26 “So Jacob was left alone, and a man wrestled with him till daybreak. When the man saw that he could not overpower him, he touched the socket of Jacob’s hip so that his hip was wrenched as he wrestled with the man. Then the man said, “Let me go, for it is daybreak.” But Jacob replied, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.” Jacob fought with the man the whole night. He didn’t care the timing or place. Jacob didn’t care about the pain he felt due to his

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The same way we must fight for our blessing. Sometimes things are not easy to obtain, but those who persevere and put their trust in God are able to obtain the desires of their hearts. The Bible says in Psalms 37: 4 “Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart”. Don’t get disappointed by external circumstances or for other people’s comments. The enemy will try to discourage and make you feel with your hands tied. He will use those you think the least to fight against you. However, don’t worry, that’s part of the process you need to go through. Meanwhile, keep moving forward because victory is in your hands. Don’t give up even when you see things are impossible in the natural. Remember, we as human beings can do the possible things, but the impossible things are solved by the Lord. When you are in a difficult situation and don’t know what to do, ask yourself: “What would Jesus say and do should he be in my place?” Whatever you believe he would do, do it yourself. Be loyal to God and he will reward you. He will not leave you in shame. You have suffered a lot but your sufferings cannot be compared with the great rewards and blessings God has for you. My beloved, focus in the present moment and the wonderful future God has for you. Let the Lord heal the wounds of your past. Get out of the vicious circle you are in. Don’t get trapped in the past, feeling sorry about what others did to you or those things you could have done but didn’t. Don’t let the past to destroy your present and ruin your future. Give your present, past and future

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wrenched hip. Jacob didn’t care to be overpowered. He had in mind to be blessed and wasn’t willing to lose his blessing for anything or anybody, even at the price of his own life.

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to the Lord. He will work out all things together for your highest good and for the highest blessing of the many people around you.

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Focus on the Lord and his plans for your life. Salvation is worthwhile. Don’t lose it for anything. If you are careless or apart from the Lord, return to the Lord. Apart from God we can do nothing. We are almost getting to the finish line. Christ is coming soon. It is true there are many Christian people giving bad testimonies. It is true there are many hypocrites. It is true there are many brawlers. It is true there are many welsher. It is true you can find all kinds of Christian people. But I can assure you the only place where you will find more sincere, honest and fearful of God people is in Christianity and the gospel of truth. Seek the Lord and don’t focus in other people’s bad testimonies. Don’t let that be an excuse for you to not seek the Lord. If someone has given you a bad testimony, then seek yourself the Lord’s presence and teach others how to be a good servant of God, but don’t look any excuse and start to set an example. Remember, the Bible says in Romans 8:28 “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose”.

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Chapter XXI The Bible says in Isaiah 44: 2 “This is what the Lord says – I made you, I formed you in the womb, and I will help you”. Almost every day we hear bad news about children who lost their lives or mothers who abort or simply abandon their child as something unusable.

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There are children who perhaps were not desired by their parents and not guilty to be born. There are defenseless children who are unable to defend themselves and only depend on a miracle and God’s mercy to be able to survive.

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Many children become victims of their own parents, because oftentimes parents have to leave their children with a relative, in order to look for a better future. Yet, during the parents’ absence, those children are abused, mistreated, emotionally hurt and grow with a great emptiness inside their hearts. The emptiness is called: “Mom and Dad’s absence”. These children eventually become adults and don’t find a meaning for their lives. They regret every day and wonder what for they were born and blame God because of their pain. They blame God because of their failure. There are children, adolescents and adults who have to turn to drugs and alcohol or even lesbianism, homosexualism, prostitution among other things. What is the

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cause? They don’t know what to do or where to go to find a meaning for their lives. They only wish a crumb of affection and as they are unable to find it at home, they run to find affection in wrong places and in wrong arms, and oftentimes the easiest solution they find is suicide. There are also rapped children who become adults and are unable to have a normal and stable family. There are many people in the world who have lived lives full of pain. People who cannot forget the maltreatment they received. Verbal, emotional, physical and sexual maltreatment caused in some instances by their own relatives. How many people still bitterly cry and wonder: Why mom and dad didn’t love me? Perhaps you are one the people who ask this question in a daily basis.

Perhaps doctors said you were not going to born, perhaps your father abandoned your mother and in despair she took a bad decision. Perhaps your parents left you alone to seek for a better life and offer you a better future, without realizing how much you were going to suffer and during their absence you felt alone and abandoned. Yet, there was someone who was always with you and never abandoned you, because he thought about you and his purposes for your life. This someone is Jesus. Perhaps you are a young or elderly person, or maybe you already have a family, but still feel pain for all the suffering you went through and a painful past chases you like a ghost. Yet, your maker, your creator, your helper, the one who formed you in your mother’s womb, the Lord says: “Do not be afraid my servant,

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I want to tell you, even though your parents didn’t love or desire you, there is someone who thought about you even before you were born. While you were at your mother’s womb he safeguarded you. Someone did not allow your mother to abort or kill you.

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because I chose you”. Perhaps when your mother got pregnant your parents were not planning to have you and you grew in the middle of a family who considered you the worst or you may have been a family member who was not taken into account. Even when you made an effort to do things right, no one took it into account. Your efforts were not valued and whenever something went wrong, you were cursed and rejected!

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Perhaps you were compared with others in a frequent basis which made you feel insignificant. Perhaps you received a lot of maltreatment and maybe you were punished regularly because of mischief. Perhaps no one expected something from you. Oh, regardless no one took you into account there was someone who fixed his eyes on you and he says: “Even though your mother and father abandoned you, I will gather you. Even though you were maltreated and despised, I saw the potential in you and since your childhood I was molding and preparing you”. It wasn’t your family who didn’t want you but the Devil himself who wanted to destroy you because he knows how important and meaningful you are to God.

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Today the Lord says to you: “I am your creator. I am your maker. Before your birth I gave you a name. You are mine. I am Jehovah, your God. I am your savior. In my eyes you were and are of great esteem. You are honorable and I love you. I took care of you every single moment even though you didn’t know me. I didn’t allow the Devil to touch you. I was caressing you during the painful moments of your childhood. Many times you wondered: “Where is the Lord, if he exists, where is he?” When you were punished, I was there with you. When you were hurt with offensive words I was there with you. When you were accused about things you were innocent of, I was there with you. When you misbehaved I was there with you. When you cried, I was there, consoling you. I saw when you were abused. When you tried to commit suicide due to

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pain, I also was there. When someone tried to kill you, I was there and my hands kept you safe”. The Bible says in Isaiah 44:21: ““Remember these things, Jacob, for you, Israel, are my servant.

The Lord chose you from your mother’s womb. He didn’t reject you. Why do you feel alone? Why do you belittle yourself? Why your self-esteem is so low? Don’t you know it is the grace of God that makes you look beautiful? The Lord your God will always help you. He loves you as you are. He didn’t choose you because of the qualities, intellect or beauty you may have. God simply loves you exactly as you are. If you wonder the reason you were born, the Lord formed you in your mother’s womb to be his servant and he saved you and allowed you to be born, because he will glorify his holy and blessed name through you. I know many times you were hit by life and even though you may have had family and relatives, there are still painful memories from the past. Perhaps your marital relationship is not going well and perhaps time has passed and your partner doesn’t value your efforts, doesn’t tell you nice and kind words, you may feel ugly or unattractive and it hurts when your partner maltreat you verbally or even respect, love and trust are lost and in spite of your effort you don’t see any positive results in your situation. You may feel you cannot stand anymore. God is also looking at your situation. He knows how painful has been the verbal and physical abuse you have received, but

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I have made you, you are my servant; Israel, I will not forget you”. In this moment the Lord says to you: “I didn’t forget because I dissolved your rebellions like clouds and your sins like fog. Turn yourself back to me because I redeemed you”.

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today the Lord says to you: “Afflicted city, lashed by storms and not comforted, I will rebuild you with stones of turquoise, your foundations with lapis lazuli. No weapon forged against you will prevail, and I will refute every tongue that accuses you”. Isaiah 54: 11 and 17. Give thanks to the Lord for your life, because he chose you from your mother’s womb. You have been through difficult times. Perhaps at present, you don’t have money or a job, but don’t allow anything to take the joy away from you because those who love God have an ineffable joy.

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The circumstances you are going through don’t have the final say for your life. It doesn’t matter whether there is economical scarcity or disease or if the enemy has come against you. You life doesn’t depend on man or a medical diagnosis or the word of a human judge or the opinions others may have of you. God is the one who has the final say for your life and he will fulfill his purpose in you.

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God knows the most intimate of you. Even when you haven’t said a word he knows and understands you. He will finish the work he has started in you. Regardless of the enemy’s tactics the forces of darkness and hell will not prevail against you. In spite of all the times we’ve failed our God has sent his angels to protect us. He has seen your struggle, your pain, the forces of hell trying to destroy you but God has intervened with his hands and has said to the Devil, that no one will take away from his hands any of his children and you have been sculpted in the hands of God. The Lord will not allow any forces of darkness to destroy you, because he chose you from your mother’s womb. The Lord takes care of us even before we are born and he is the one who helps us to do things even when we are without strength and in the middle of pain, sadness and aloneness he says: “Call to me and I

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will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know” Jeremiah 33:3. There are many stories in the bible about the great men God used but many of them wished to die at some point in their lives. One of them was the prophet Jeremiah. In the book of Jeremiah 20:14 he cursed the day he was born. He complained and felt sorry to be born but God’s response to Jeremiah’s complaint is found in the book of Jeremiah 1:1 “Before you were born I called and sanctified you as a prophet”. The same way God had plans with the life of Jeremiah before he was born, God also has plans with my life and your life.

There are difficult times when we feel we cannot go on and we say to ourselves: “I cannot go on anymore”. It is as if we lose the perspective of the wonderful things God has for us and the big promises he has for those who wait and trust on him. Perhaps you may feel as the prophet Jeremiah felt, i.e. discouraged, hurt, wounded, alone, betrayed, rejected, evaded and despised. In his despair, Jeremiah said he wouldn’t remember God or speak in his name. Perhaps due to the long suffering you’ve been through you have denied God and if you are Christian it may be you are considering to leave church, to stop preaching and to renounce to the ministry God has put in your hands and you complain about God’s promises for your life not coming to pass. Satan is the only one who wants you to believe you are worthless. He wants you to believe you are suffering because you don’t matter

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It doesn’t matter your actual life condition, doesn’t matter how much you’ve suffered. It doesn’t matter how many times you have asked God to take your life away just like the prophet Jeremiah did. The Lord will finish the good work he has started in your life.

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to God. The enemy wants you to believe that your work for the Lord has been in vain and no one will value the things you do. Still, remember that all negative things the enemy wants to minister to your mind is opposite to the real things God thinks about you. The Lord is preparing you to receive all the good things he has in store for you.

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God has put a huge potential in your life and you must develop it. The enemy knows it and he will make the impossible to prevent you from growing spiritually, to prevent you from recognizing the high position and authority we have in Christ Jesus, our Lord. The time has come for you to get up in the name of Jesus, shake off the dust of depression and proclaim victory for your life in Jesus name. Stand firm, speak positive words and say to the enemy: “Devil, I am not yet defeated, because I know my redeemer lives and even though my flesh and body are in anguish, I will wait upon the Lord”.

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My beloved, God will not fail you. Don’t run away from God, because wherever you go, he will find you. We cannot hide from God’s presence. Don’t you realize you have been chosen from your mother’s womb to preach the gospel of salvation? You have been anointed to proclaim the good news, to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind, to set the oppressed free, to heal the sick and to defeat the forces of darkness. God wants to make a difference in your life and he wants to rise up genuine men and women willing to be used by him. You are one of them! If you have been through several trials and don’t know why you have suffered so much, let me tell you that those trials and sufferings God has allowed in your life are part of your preparation. Through trials, God is able to mold our character, strengthen our emotions, remove the things he has not planted in us and put those things we are missing.

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The Lord is preparing an army of courageous men and women with a spiritual vision. These men and women donâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t allow the past to dictate lessons, destroy their present or ruin their future. God is looking for bold and courageous men and women willing to put an effort. What is to put an effort? It is to move past our limited strength. God is looking for those who praise and surrender their lives to him. God is looking for intercessors willing to be on guard. God is looking for warriors able to defeat the power of darkness. Whenever the church progresses, the power of evil forces is defeated. You are the church. Do you want to be one of those men and women the Lord is looking for? You may want to personally answer the Lord.

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The Lordâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s purpose is to make great things through your life, to send you through the nations to proclaim his greatness and the wonders he has mercifully and lovingly done in your life. Many people will receive a seed of faith and hope when they listen to your testimony, because they will believe in their hearts that God can have mercy on them the same way he had mercy on you.

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Chapter XXII

Farewell Words

Rescued from The Darkness

Before I continue with the last chapter I would like to give thanks to all those people who have had the patience and time to read each chapter. Should you don’t understand anything ask the Holy Spirit for revelation. I can only say that the spiritual realm is even more real than the natural world where we live. I love you much and I ask your prayers. I want to exhort you not to live in the past anymore. You cannot change your past but you can make your present to be different, and with God’s help you will have a good future. Should you decide to put your life in the hands of God, even the painful past you went through, God can work it out for your good. Follow the positive things you see in others and if there is nothing to follow from them, even from your family, then, don’t follow their mistakes in order to not repeat the same mistakes they made.

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Many people have found refuge in pills and painkillers in order to rest but they are being controlled by their nerves. Personally, I was almost destroyed by the nerves. Even though the medical science said I had to permanently depend on the pills the psychiatrists gave me, and even though I was almost addict to pills, I proposed in my heart to leave the pills and with God’s help I was able to. I didn’t let the Devil or the past to destroy neither my present nor my future, because I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

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God is my present and my future. To move on was not easy, I almost didn’t make it but with God all things are possible. You only need to really have a desire and will power to make it. If I succeeded, you can succeed as well, but you need to depend on the Lord Jesus Christ. Today I am living in Germany by God’s mercy. I am happily married. Sometimes I pinch my face to realize all this happiness I

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am living is real and not a dream. I have a wonderful husband and I can say the Lord himself loves me through my husband.

I feel joyful and fully blessed. For many people, being happy and blessed means to have money or all of the material things a human being can have. To me, happiness means doing the will of God and all other things being added by God. The Lord in his mercy has taken me to various countries to preach the gospel and share my testimony. As I mentioned before, many lives have been restored through my testimony. Today, I give thanks to the Lord because he allowed me to pass through all those sour moments, because they were the Lord’s training for my life so that I could bring hope and inner healing to other people’s lives and for the name of Jesus Christ to be glorified. The Bible says in Joshua 1:9 “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and very courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go”. The Lord knew that Joshua was going to have to face many battles and difficulties in order to conquer the promise land. Today

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At the beginning I felt afraid of so much happiness, because I had always heard that if a Christian was not going through a trial he had to examine himself. Truly, trials will arise, but the God I serve, is not a masochistic God who delights with the pain and suffering of this children. The Lord wants to see us happy, content, peaceful and joyful. Whenever I felt happy I couldn’t enjoy the moment, because at the same time, I felt frightened, thinking that anything bad might suddenly happen. Today, I ask you in the name of Jesus, to enjoy the moments of happiness the Lord gives you. You deserve those and even more. And don’t get worry about the trial because it will come when you are least expecting. Meanwhile, don’t allow little things to take your joy away, because those who love God always have an ineffable joy.

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the Lord also says to you: “Be strong and very courageous”. The Lord doesn’t want you to give up because there are still many battles to fight but victory is ours. When we humble ourselves into the presence of God, he can transform our failures in victories and blessings. God knows you are not a super man or wonder woman, but he sees you are doing your best to please him. He knows your weaknesses and whenever you have stumbled and fell down, he has sent his angels to guard you. The Lord fights for you. He is the one who shakes the home’s foundation and says to the family: “Without me, you can’t do nothing.” To the parents he says: “I will dry your tears and I will change your sorrow into joy. I am going to save your daughter. I am going to save your son. I am going to make possible what looks impossible, because I am your God.” You have a God fighting on your behalf. Surrender your battle to the winner. Surrender your problem to the Lord. God will fight for you. Don’t trust in your own strength or abilities. Trust in him who can give you victory during the most difficult times.

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Would you like to begin anew and give the Lord the opportunity to enter your life? The Lord says in Jeremiah 31:3 “I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.” Whoever comes to the Lord will be never driven away. Would you like to come to the Lord? I invite you to repeat with me this prayer of faith: “Heavenly Father, I come before you in the name of Jesus, recognizing I am a sinner. I confess my sin before you and I ask your forgiveness. I accept Jesus Christ as my only and true Savior and I ask you to cleanse me with your blood from all of my sins. Write my name in the book of life and baptize me with the fire of the Holy Spirit. I renounce to all sin, I renounce to any covenant with darkness, I renounce to any witchcraft my family or I might have done in the past and I break in the name of Jesus all of family curses since the first until the fourth generation. Now, I declare Jesus Christ is the owner and Lord of my life. In the name of Jesus, amen”.

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If you have sincerely repeated this prayer, I congratulate you and give you a warming welcome to the Lordâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;s family. Now, the most important step for you is to look for a Christian church of healthy doctrine where you can be helped in you walk with the Lord. Read the Bible and do not quit prayer. Remember, that prayer is talking with God and there is power in prayer.

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