CAMILLE FERGUSON Sonnet for Feel Good

CAMILLE FERGUSON | SONNET FOR FEEL GOOD

The oil-slicked seagulls have moved to my head,

& they’re flocked behind my eyes—if you look close

you can see them, inverted, behind my pupils.

As you do this, know the ringing in my ears

is a siren. I’ve kicked all my addictions save

you, but do I have to? Come here, let’s lie

under the bed, let’s leave the past in a box

& stay busy in each other’s eyes. I don’t want

to be what’s happened to me, but the birds

are sticky, getting stuck & twisted to my veins.

Please, tell one person my name. Don’t

attach addict to the end of it.

Let’s fuck away our ghosts.

If you scream loud enough they can’t haunt us.