Uncertain Times.
BY CHRISTIAN ADRIAN BROWN
FIT LIT Body, Mind and Quill
ABOUT THE COLUMNIST
Quadragenarian fitness model, lifestyle coach and bestselling author of the critically acclaimed Feast of Fates, Christian A. Brown received a Kirkus star in 2014 for the first novel in his genrechanging Four Feasts till Darkness series. He has appeared on Newstalk 1010, AM640, Daytime Rogers, and Get Bold Today with LeGrande Green. He actively writes and speaks about his mother’s journey with cancer and on gender issues in the media.
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"I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it without knowing what's going to happen next. Delicious Ambiguity." –Gilda Radner
Gilda's mindset mirrors mine. When I was young and idealistic, I had a "perfect" vision of my life, successes, and accomplishments. But unfortunately, adulthood served as a painful lesson for me and many as a contrast between fantasy and actualization. We can't have everything we want, do everything we want to do and be everything we dream of being; our finite time won't allow that. So, early on, we're forced to make decisions that grant or deny us access to opportunities. There's no rewind button, no going back or "doing better" unless that "betterment" comes from future decisions. I believe that's part of what our society grapples with: how to lead meaningful and fulfilling lives while reconciling wants with needs in a world rife with desire. Look around, and all you see are red, burning flags. Our economies have imploded, and food and energy are in scarce supply. Our politicians appear detached, at best, and involved in Machiavellian oversight, at worst. It is difficult to know who you can trust, what you can say or even what information you receive
