Lingering Thoughts, Sydney Hainy

Lingering Thoughts By Sydney Hainy

reach inside myself with gloved hands careful do not disturb fragile this side up your words written across me hot to the touch lather it on always get burnt

i found a letter from my father to my mother

it read it seems like just yesterday we kissed for the first time, but then again, i feel as though we’ve always been together

i never stand still today i did at a draw with my mind i held my breath searched pleaded words sickly sweet on the tongue the door I so patiently wait behind has nothing beyond it. yank tension point collapse tumble fuck

how do i end up apologizing for what hurt me do i hold the knife does it twist into my skull on its lonesome? i beg for time to stop

i take my walks at 4 pm now when i knew you it was 9 pitch black scratchy against the skin i try to remember

i always do i wish i didn’t