Spoken Magazine: Winter 20/10 by Spoken Magazine LLC

THE FUTURE OF POETRY AN INTERVIEW WITH ED “FUTURE” WILSON

PASS IT DOWN PLAY BY EMERGING WRITER SIDDEEQAH POWELL

Johnathon Blanchard MEMPHIS BASS VOCALIST GIVES BIRTH TO A NEW GENRE

Ayinde Almin

TALKS RELATIONSHIPS AND MUSIC

MARIAN COLLIER

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Atlanta Editors Editor-in-Chief Derico D. Dabney

Publishing Editor Theresa Horne

Associate Editor Emily Wright

Entertainment Editor Fellissia McDonald

Birmingham Editors Publishing Editor Shermika Dunner

Associate Editor Maranda Davis

Contributing Staff Music Reviews Alfred â&#x20AC;&#x153;Nfaredâ&#x20AC;? Vines

Theater Arts Sylvester Little Jr.

Fashion Parron A. Edwards

Wellness/Prosperity Wendy Kay

Contributing Writer Brian D.P. Hawkins

Contributing Writer Melanie Richardson

Contributing Writer Tonya Grace

Contributing Writer Shaunteka LaTrese Curry

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In This Issue

The Future of Poetry An interview with spoken word artist, Ed “ Future” Wilson. Future talks about his beginnings, where he is now, and where you can find him in the future.

Pass It Down

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A new stage play written by Siddeeqah Powell, is a work of art that opened the eyes, ears and minds of all those in attendance.

Tonya Grace sits down with Atlanta fashion designer, Marian Collier to discuss what sets her apart in the industry.

18 A Moment of Clarity The first installation in a series of short stories. (follow each issue to get the full story)

Negro Funk Shaunteka LaTrese sits down with bass vocalist Johnathan Blanchard and explores the foundation of his unique, soul stirring sound.

31 Spoken Idioms

Melanie Richardson talks relationships and music with a rising “ATL” artist, Ayinde Almin.

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Theater Review by Derico D. Dabney and Emily Wright

Writer Steven Barnes states “art is self expression” and “successful art is self expression and communication.” It is the ability of the artist to successfully and vividly paint a scene that connects with us on multiple levels: psychologically, emotionally, and spiritually that determines how successful the artistic rendition of life will be. We are often drawn to artistic creations that cause us to reflect upon our own lives, creations that appeal to our senses à la dancing on a wave of human emotions that allow us to become part of the work itself, and creations that conjure a sense of oneness as they remind us of our similarities. These similarities bind us by reinforcing that we all share similar desires, triumphs, failures, and have similar aspirations. Existing as a publication that thrives on shedding light on untapped talent, it is always an honor to witness beauty in the making, and a privilege to see raw talent unbridled by small stages. The cast and crew of “Pass It Down” surely unshackled their creative souls and allowed them to shine brightly through the rain speckled night that canvased Morrow, GA as many gathered at the Family Life Center of Travelers

Rest Missionary Baptist Church. For those of us in attendance, the cast truly resonated as stars. The cast were stars that warmed our hearts with their portrayal of characters that seemed all too familiar to some as they depicted the lives of four generations of women connected by family ties, joy, pain, and hope. “Pass It Down” is a work of art that opened the eyes, ears and minds of all those in attendance. The matriarch of the play, Marlene (Tiffany Wade), whose quick wit and timeless wisdom comes across as crass at first, but proves to be words to live by. It felt as though we were sitting in her living room listening in on the “grown folks” conversations of four beautiful women that span four generations-all who are dealing with their own issues in life. They all felt real in their interactions and powerfully conveyed their feelings verbally and non-verbally: the weariness of Lenny (Erica Lemons) who is dealing with the loss of her cheating alcoholic husband; the loneliness of Ruby (Latoya Haynes) who is trying to climb down off her high horse and finally find love with a good man; the free-spirited Liz (Beliria Sims) who is involved in a biracial relationship. Marlene bestows her opinions on her girls if they want to hear it

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Picture, L to R: Liz (Beliria Sims), Lenny (Erica Lemons), and Marlene (Tiffany Wade)

or not. There were topics discussed that are racy, yet relevant. Everything from religion to homosexuality to death was explored by these very multi-talented actors. The “everyday” talent of these actors range from modeling and cooking to poetry and politics. Many of them can be seen in productions by Tyler Perry and other independent filmmakers and playwrights. This play was brilliantly written and produced by Siddeeqah Powell. She is a down-to-earth young woman, who wants nothing more than to catapult not only her, but also the actors that she works with to the next level in the entertainment business. She is very driven and determined. The direction was done by the “industry crusher” Bianca Houston. The play was seamless and very well organized. Keep your eyes out for these two young ladies-they are definitely on a extraordinary voyage to

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By Derico D. Dabney

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Currently we are facing dire economical and ecological times. Recent changes and breakdowns in several industries have left millions unemployed; as they are forced to watch their finances dwindle or disappear altogether. In addition, our reluctance to embrace a burgeoning emphasis on finding sustainable methods to supply our needs has placed an ever increasing drain on our environment and natural resources. Many have suggested that going green is the way to economical and ecological recovery. Some see it as a way to decrease their carbon footprint, and others see it as a means to create new job opportunities in a waining economy. Going green is a concept that has been receiving a lot of attention lately. I’d be lying if I said the concept was gaining rave revues. The truth is, that many are at odds with regard to the impact that going green could have, with regards to it’s timeliness to effectively impact our environment or it’s ability to save those who choose this option any money at all. While it’s true that going green often presents hefty up front pricing with promises of savings on the back-end, all endeavors to go green don’t have to break the bank. What I have to offer won’t provide economical recovery, unless you consider the dollars you chance to save by using some of these tips for going green, but it will offer you an opportunity to

begin to consider “green” with your next design project, which may direct you in a path to consider “green” as a way of living, and could decrease your ecological impact on the environment. Here are a few things to consider that may give you the green thumb of approval. 1. Recycled Goods - This isn’t just limited to paper and plastic or our traditional concept of recycling, but also includes the re-use of products. If your redesign requires wood products, consider reclaimed lumber or reclaimed flooring as an alternative. (this is often wood that has been salvaged from old buildings) 2. Painted Floors - This could be a very inexpensive step towards going green. If your floors are in desperate need of new life consider painting them. If you choose this option, make sure you do your homework to find the most appropriate technique to ensure your painted floors last, and remember to purchase paints that are low VOC’s. (VOC stands for volatile organic compound) 3. Green Building Supplies - If your home redesign is a bit exhaustive, you may wont to consider finding Spoken Magazine

local designers or architects that specialize in green design. If you’re into doing it yourself, you can always do a little digging an find companies that provide green products. Here’s one that I found while doing a quick Internet search. (www.slogreengoods.com) Green building supplies are typically those that are considered eco friendly, natural or organic products, are easily renewable, and omit low to no VOC’s. 4. Green Energy - While this is more mechanical, it may very well be a component of your home redesign. It could be as simple as improving the insulation of your home to decrease your energy

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consumption, or considering geothermal or solar energy as an option for heating and cooling your home. 5. Awareness - Lastly, the most important step you can take in going green is becoming aware of what you options are and exploring the many avenues for going green. Seek out local agencies that may be able to better direct you and educate you in your effort to go green. If you’re in the Atlanta area and considering Green options for living, here are a few links to get you started; (Go Green Atlanta- www. gogreenatlanta.blogspot.com , Earth Craft House- www.earthcrafthouse. com and Living Green Pages- www.

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Tonya Grace with Designer Marian Collier

“Clothes that I make, make you dance” I was ﬁnally able to catch-up with this very pleasant individual, Marian Collier, fashion designer and “ar"st”. I really enjoyed speaking with Marian as she made frequent references to her age and how she just really wants people to not misconstrue the idea of older folks as fashion designers. She voices that age has nothing to do with crea"vity and having an “eye for fabrica"on”.

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Marian Collier: I am going to be ﬁ"ythree this year. I have been doing this for a living ever since about ‘93. My husband was transferred here, and I couldn’t get a [permanent] job at the place that I had been working at, so I just started sewing for my beau#cians, and you know word of mouth, and so I just never went back to my other job. I consider myself to be truly blessed. I get to wake up every morning and go down to my studio which is on the bo$om level of my home and play with bu$ons and feathers all day.

make people feel good. I think that a lot of the #mes what you wear helps with that. My thing that I say a lot is that the clothes that I make, make you dance. A lot of people put on my clothes and they dance around and they get so excited, and it just makes them feel good. The top of my website [even] says “Clothes That Make You Dance”. TG: What was the ﬁrst ar"cle of clothing you ever designed? MC: Back when I was about twelve years old, I couldn’t ﬁnd pants that

TG: What does fashion mean to you? MC: Fashion is something that makes you feel good. I love to

The Art of were long enough. I am almost 6 feet tall and a friend of [my] mother sewed a lot, and I told her that I couldn’t ﬁnd pants long enough and people were making fun of my high water pants. I can remember playing with Barbie from the age of six or seven and I believe I started with making doll clothes. TG: How long does it usually take you to construct one piece? MC: It depends. A lot of my best garments are drapes. I really like more construc#ve type garments. I don’t like tailored garments that take too long; they always take about a week or so to make, but I do like things that ﬁt together nice so the whole garment just goes together. TG: What do you feel makes you Spoken Magazine

different? MC: My fashion is a li$le trendy. I look at what’s in; I kind of pull from that, but not completely. I like, you know the younger style looks, the “trendy” looks, but I also know that my client is the regular woman. So, what I like to do is take those colors or something that’s trendy and incorporate it into my own style, and that is Bohemian. I think the best part of what I do or what makes me different is my eye for fabrica#on. Most people like my fabric because a lot of my things are very basic, but the fabric is so different that it makes the garment, and it makes it unique.

me, and I let them do the picking of the models. I just want to make them (the models) look beau#ful and look at the picture. You have to look at the body type and sort of ﬁgure out what you have and what’s going to really make it “pop”. TG: Do you consider yourself an ar"st?

MC: Yes I do. When I ﬁrst started out, I did a lot of vests. I think that most of TG: How do you select your models? them looked like pieces of art. I used a bunch of vibrant fabrics that were kind MC: They usually come to me. of picturesque. I loved anything that Usually the photographer will call

had a face on it, just anything that looked like a piece of art, and that I would turn into a piece of art. I use that (picturesque fabrics) a lot for a lot of dresses now, too. I like things that you just don’t ﬁnd everywhere. I have a gown that was a piano cover. When I saw it (the piano cover) I thought, Wow, it’s just so beau"ful. I’ve got to make something out of it. It’s just visualizing what a piece of fabric can be. Everything I see, I see as a design or a poten#al garment. I can look at something that somebody else throws away that I wouldn’t throw away.

Yo couture . A Yo Yo is something that (and probably the older ladies will know, I’m just telling my age all over the place), But Yo Yo’s they look like li$le round circles that’s made out of li$le scraps of fabrics. Back in the old days, women use these Yo Yo’s out of li$le scraps of fabric and sew them all together. My second favorite is patch work. If you look on my Etsy site, you can see my diﬀerent designs. There are not two garments that are alike. There are not two Yo Yo’s that are alike. Those are my two favorite because there is a li$le bit of history in both of them.

TG: Which piece of yours is your favorite?

TG: What is the most diﬃcult aspect of running your own business?

MC: I have two favorites of what I call my signature look. One is a Yo Yo dress. I do a lot of what I call Yo

MC:The most diﬃcult part is the paper work and running it as a business. I can’t #de oﬀ doing things

for free, so I have to make people understand that I love what I do, and it is a business that I love. Deﬁnitely looking for the fabric is my number one thing to do. TG: Have you ever worked with a fashion company? MC: Before I moved here, I worked for Macy’s and I had about ﬁ"een people under me. TG: What do you wish people would understand about the business? MC: That I am a person who is doing this job for you. TG: How does one go about ge%ng their pieces into stores? MC: Atlanta is pre$y easy. There are so many entrepreneurs here that you

f Fashion can just walk into a bou#que, and if you have a professional looking line or just a couple of pieces, they are open to looking at it. If you are somewhere in New York or Philadelphia or places like that, they have buyers that buy for all their stores, so they are not as open to walk ins. I have pieces in Greenbrier African Treasures.

but always keep what you feel is your own self in your design. Never give up. It’s a very, very hard business. It’s very hard to do it as a living, and you might have to do something along with it, but never give up just keep pushing.

www.mccollec#ons.etsy.com

TG: What advice would you give to aspiring designers to help them avoid some of the “bumps in the road”? MC: I would just say be true to yourself. And I know a lot of us like to see what’s out there right now and what’s selling, and you know what you can make money at right now, Spoken Magazine

Trends of Winter 2010 By Sian Chisholm The first one apparent to me is drapery/layers on garments and accessories. This refers to the Grecian style of lots of layering and bunching on the torso of garments to create the ultimate floaty yet shaped look. This requires light fabrics such as chiffon. Another future look for next season is knitwear, so dig out your knitted cardigans and shrugs and wear them with pride! In particular, knitted garments with a sheen woven into them or ones with shiny decorations such as sequins or beads. This look could be achieved by hand sewing some decorations on or by simply buying vintage garments. Relating to the previous trend is delicate bead work in pale colours used as decoration on garments, be sweaters, cardigans or bags. Again, this could be done by hand if you have the skills (and patience!) or you could buy vintage items from a vintage shop or even online! Lace and burlesque styles are about to be huge so stock up on satin bodices edged with lace, beautiful heels with lace incorporated into them and delicate mini skirts edged or decorated with panels of lace. Think sexy yet delicate, feminine yet confident, show-stopping yet subtle. Lace will also be used to accentuate patterns on garments, for example only using lace on certain parts of the pattern being used. Furs or mock furs, animal skins, leathers, feathers and mohair are to make a come back too as they are all textured and luxurious, and various fastenings will be big as well, adding interest and delicate touches to garments that may otherwise be bland. So get ready to purchase lots of mock croc patent leather handbags with buckle fastenings, coats with oversized buttons and zips, and shrugs of furs (be it real or mock) decorated with feathers and unique fastenings. Lots and lots (and lots) of layering one fabric over another to create a mixed up explosion of textures and colours in one place on garments. For example, pin striped material where the stripes are furs, or felt over the top of knitting, or tartan with bright colours running through it, or several layers of fabric to create 3-Dimensional decoration. Again, this could be achieved by adapting garments by hand or by buying vintage items where this technique has been used. Of course, these are just some of the styles set to return in Autumn/Winter, this is not exhaustive at all. If you like the ideas expressed here and would like to try them out before the shops why not visit a vintage clothes shop or better still buy vintage online, let them do all the leg work for you! http://www.vintagetreats.co.uk/ Article Source: http://EzineArticles.com/?expert=Sian_Chisholm http://EzineArticles.com/?Trends-of-Autumn-Winter-2009-

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two minutes in length on a random subject given by the Host. The poet to win “The Underestimated” title will stand to receive the $1500 Cash Prize, a souvenir 30 inch chain with pendant and their performances broadcasted on Underestimated Entertainment’s WebTV site: www. The-underestimated.com, as well as pending broadcast on a national television network. The show is located at Studio 1775. The art studio is owned and operated by Derrick Spivey. An African-American sculptor and artist, who opened his space to others to express their own artistry.

entertainment is an organization that provides the Atlanta area with quality entertainment at various venues. Currently, the team at The Underestimated Entertainment is hosting a Poetry/ Spoken Word competition. The Underestimated Entertainment hosts a series of 7 shows. Over a series of six showcases, 1 poet will be eliminated each week until the reigning champion “The Underestimated” has become victorious! The final round of the competition is a BATTLE round. The two remaining contestants will be led to a designated area and allowed 15 minutes to write a poem of up to

The Underestimated Spoken Word and Poetry Competition was created by Executive Producer, Sakina Kaleak and inspired by the omnipresence of Derrick’s sculpting technique which is exhibited throughout the venue. Many thanks to Roget Holman, President of Rabble Rouser Studios and his staff who helped make this competition a reality. Underestimate (un-dr-es-t-mate ) - to misjudge the worth of somebody or something; to judge people or things as being inferior to their real value or ability

“NEVER UNDERESTIMATE THE COMPETITION”

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Christopher Ussery, known to all as the infamous Chris Flame, is steadily emerging as an original voice in production. Though still early in his career, his work is vastly favored by industry critics. An EMI producer, Chris Flame lends himself to his own creativity and live instruments rather than mix machine samples and for that, he is often compared to a young Swizz Beats. His early tenure at widely known Radio One gave him a sharp sense of musical supply and demand. In A&R at Atlanta’s Hot 107.9, Flame quickly jumped on the fast track with input on David Banner’s 2005 track “Take Yours” released on his highly anticipated album, Certified.

His beats are distinct, infectious and ahead of the trend. Garnering massive neighborhood fame for taking promising artists under his wing. He linked with childhood friends Jasiel Robinson and Alonzo Mathis also known as Bad Boy South’s Yung Joc and Gorilla Zoe. Producing both demo tapes for the famed artists and personally walking them to Block Entertainment, these unions begot Flame’s next singles, “I’m Him,” a highly regarded single on Joc’s Grammy nominated New Joc City, and the summer banger “Hood Figga” on Gorilla Zoe’s 2007 album Welcome to the Zoo. As a Headshell Management artist, Chris Flame also co-produced the intro on Jay Z’s historic American Gangster album, and produced “I’m a G” for Yung Joc’s Hustlenomics. The list of Atlanta ties could go on forever. Chris Flame has made a way in the industry with a keen ear for the hottest music and great eye for undiscovered talent. He solidified his spot as Atlanta’s hottest producer in the streets. So where do you go to talk to Chris Flame? How do you find the man, the myth, the soonto-be legend? He currently is working with DMR Entertainment based out of Atlanta, Georgia which hosts some of the newest, ho$est singers coming out of the A. You can also ﬁnd Chris Flame on all the social networking sites. Don’t sleep on your dream...get a master producer like Chris Flame and make it a reality!

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Atlanta’s own

Who is Rahsheda Stamps? Born in the beau#ful strength of New Orleans and cradled by Atlanta, Georgia into womanhood, Rahsheda Stamps embodies beauty, brains and ambi#on. As an aspiring triple threat (model, singer and actress), she also wears the hat of entrepreneur. Rahsheda is the CEO of Jane of All Trades Marke#ng and creator/host of the soon-tocome “On The Scene” internet video blog. She features new and upcoming businesses in Atlanta to help the average newcomer or seasoned Atlanta na#ve ﬁnd what is fresh “On The Scene”. Where would you most likely run into Rahsheda? Jazz Clubs, Museums or Traveling What’s a quirky thing about you that you wouldn’t want anyone to know? I used to be a band geek...oh, and I love classical music! Interesting Fun Fact: I love seafood and anything prepared with cheese and I love to dance and sing in the mirror!

“So, do I think I’m the best. . .that’s up is that I am guaranteed to get it in

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reparing to interview any artist always presents its own set of challenges. You want to make sure you’re asking questions that readers want to know, are off the beaten path, as well as toss in a few that the artist can kind of just run with. A lot of pressure is eased when you actually know the artist.

I met Edwin “Future” Wilson about five years ago. This was back when I was still very much involved with the poetry/spoken word scene from a performance aspect. The spot was this lil’ hole in the wall joint in Lithonia, GA. If you’re familiar with the whole underground performance scene, you know the place. You can find one or a few in just about every city you visit. It’s that dark, smoky club or bar that opens its arms once a week to embrace the world of performance poetry.

The night was typical. The host brought out a vast array of performers who had signed the open mic list. The night was complete with beer sipping, cigarette ash flicking, oh, and let’s not forget the all you can eat wing buffet that lasted all of 15 minutes. Midway through the show, they brought up this young cat, “Future,” from Flint, Michigan. I had heard the name before, but had never heard him spit before. At the time, I had been on the scene a minute, and I’m not really impressed by most individuals who grace the stage or claim the title of poet or spoken word artist, but Future definitely had talent. During the show, he and I chopped it up a bit and discovered that the stage wasn’t the only thing we shared in common. We’re brothers in the same fraternity. So naturally, we exchanged contact information. Before the show ended, we exchanged CD’s, and as always, I popped it in as soon as I got in the car. While I was listening to the CD, his true talent was exposed. “This brother was the real deal,” and was a true performer. A lot of cats get out here, win you over with their live show, and then their CD is garbage. This definitely wasn’t the case with Future. His content was on point, the production was professional, and the brother just had these crazy tongue twisting rhyme schemes. I was like damn....rewind. Of course this brings us to present day and you know this artist had to make my list of potential interviews, so here we go...

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D.Dabney:What’s up Frat, thanks for taking time out of your busy schedule to complete this interview. I know we both have crazy schedules, so I’m just going to jump right into it. I’ve known you a while now, but I want to start with the basics for our readers who may not be followers of your work. How long have you been engaged in the art of spoken word or performance poetry as you like to call it?

Ed (Future): I have been writing and performing for about 6 years now.

D.Dabney: As a follow-up to that ques-

D.Dabney:How has the spoken word

tion, how did you get involved in this art form?

scene changed since you first became involved with it, and what changes are you pleased and displeased with?

Ed (Future): I was working at the University of Michigan Flint’s rec center, when a guy walked in and asked if he could post flyers for his poetry slam. I asked him what it was and he ran it down to me, and said that the winner would get a $50 gift certificate to Border’s books! Being a college student, I wanted that $50! Needless to say, 2 weeks and 3 poems later I was on stage, and my career just snowballed from there.

Ed (Future): For me the scene has changed. I like how the art form has climbed the “entertainment” ladder so to speak, but EVERYONE thinks they can do it, or do it well. So the market is kind of saturated these days. That can make it harder to find good gigs or find people with a great appreciation for the art. I can only imagine how the artists who were here before me feel!

“My only goal with this art form is to be the best thing people need to see when they see me. Everything else will fall in line as it should.”

D.Dabney: Now, we all know the life of

ences and global stages.

any artist is hard, but to choose spoken word as a profession seems to be an even greater challenge considering it’s not an art form that garners as much attention as other forms of artistic expression.

D.Dabney:Now, on stage you go by the name “Future”; exactly where do you see yourself in the future of poetry?

What are some challenges that you have had to overcome as a performing artist?

Ed (Future):

promoters, club owners and people in general taking the art serious enough to write me a decent paycheck. The colleges and universities have been VERY good to me, but i am looking for a larger platform. I need a hot booking agent/manager that can open more doors for me to push my craft to larger audi-

Ed (Future): Honestly its hard to say. I think its a blessing that I have been able to book as many shows as I have. Lately I have been getting more calls and the shows are getting bigger, so who knows. I hope to be able to make a great living as a performance artist, but with entertainment you never know. At the very least, I will open up a few minds and make it known that poetry/spoken word is a viable tool regardless if you’re on stage or writing for therapy.

D.Dabney: As a poet, who or what inspires you the most? Ed (Future):

I don’t even consider myself a poet per se. I feel I have been blessed with a gift to write and perform, its that simple for me. I’m inspired by a myriad of things. What I see, what I hear, sometimes thoughts just jump in my head. After that I just try my best to be as creative as possible in relaying what it is I am getting in my head. The most important thing for me is being relevant to the people I’m standing in front of, that’s my focus.

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D.Dabney:Do you consider yourself the best at

Ed (Future): : I enjoy acting. I have been in

what you do?

a few stage productions and the energy is great! Back in 2005, I had my first shot at acting for a BET short called, “Multitudes of Mercies.” GREAT experience! I learned that the making of a movie is an experience all by itself. The schedule can be very demanding, learning to work with others under stressful conditions is something everyone should experience. Trying to say lines with the same vigor when you are on take 47 is a JOB, but it was great! I have always been interested in doing the modeling thing. Lately a few people have been showing interest in me as a model so, don’t hold your breath lol. I am looking to get into song writing. I have been teaching myself how to write song lyrics, so hopefully you see my name in the credits of one of your favorite singers album liners.

Ed (Future): : I don’t believe there can be a “best” when it comes to poetry/spoken word or rap or hip hop or whatever. I believe that anyone can be out-written or out-performed at anytime so, who is to say?

D.Dabney: I share a similar approach, would you care to elaborate on this a bit? Ed (Future): : I feel that we as artists can be consistent, but we can also talk and argue ourselves in circles when it comes to our performances and our material. I think as people in general, we all do things better than the next person, but that’s a two way street. Maybe I’m a great performer and a poor writer, but the show is still good. What if you’re a great writer but not so good on stage, but the show is good? Who’s to say? One thing I always hear is, “Man, when you say that one line in that one poem!” We have all heard this before. I have talked with plenty of my peers and shared that, “I wish I would have wrote that..” moment. So, do I think I’m the best. . .that’s up for the people to decide. All I can say is that I am guaranteed to get it in on stage like you have not seen!

D.Dabney: You get around quite a bit, I’m sure that has to open doors to new creative arenas. While traveling to spread the “Future” brand to varying markets; what is the most challenging thing about being on the road?

Ed (Future): : The most challenging thing about being on the road is being away from family. I love being around my people, so if anything was tough it would be that.

D.Dabney: Out of all the cities you’ve been

“ As for the Canadian crowds, all I can say is WOW! The show of love and appreciation for the art form there is something unlike I have ever seen! I still can’t describe it, all I can really say is they made me feel like what I am doing is a necessity, period.” D.Dabney:Aight’ aight’ that’s real talk. What other creative projects have you been involved in? I know most creative individuals rarely limit themselves to one form of creative outlet, they usually extend themselves to multiple forms of expression. What other creative credits have you earned over the years? Spoken Magazine

blessed to perform in, which city is your favorite and why?

Ed (Future): :

Favorite city to perform would be a toss up between Los Angeles, Miami, Cleveland, Amarillo, Texas, and Charlotte, North Carolina in the States, in Canada it’s Toronto and Ottawa. I have been blessed to perform for great crowds, so it would be wrong of me to choose just one. The US crowds I chose are because of the way they support me when I come to town, not just the hospitality, but they way they are able to keep up with what is being said and done on stage. As for the Canadian crowds, all I can say is WOW! The show of love and appreciation for the art form there is something unlike I have ever seen! I still can’t describe it, all I can really say is they made me feel like what I am doing is a necessity, period.

D.Dabney:

With regard to composing something that has a sense of necessity, I often find myself intertwining the relevancy of today with biblical parables. Personally, I rarely know where the stuff is coming from. Okay, I know where it’s coming from, but often as an artist you simply have to avail yourself to being a vessel and relay whatever message has been given. When artists do this some tend to view their work as prophetic.

Do you view your work as prophetic or as having the ability to speak to the conditions of a mass of people?

Ed (Future): My only goal with this art form is to be the best thing people need to see when they see me. Everything else will fall in line as it should.

Ed (Future): : Art is interpretive. All I can do

D.Dabney:

is try my best to relay my feelings and passion as I get them. After I put it out into the atmosphere it grows its own legs. So if someone feels i am speaking directly to them, then that means I’m saying something to them that they need to hear at the moment. We have all felt that way before, whether in church or talking with an elder family member. You can never go wrong with seeking wise council, the trick is knowing when you should be listening.

D.Dabney:

As with any form of expression, particularly those that are seen as forms of entertainment, they often grow their own legs, and become something else. Now, as artists, we often sit around and talked about the pitfalls of conformity and commercialism in Spoken Word. What are your thoughts on the art form becoming more commercial?

Ed (Future):

I have said a few things in my work about where I felt the game was going commercially or what was going to happen in the “future” of this art and it did indeed happen, but predicting markets isn’t a very supernatural thing (He chuckles a bit), you just track consistencies in people. I will say this, I will never say anything that I don’t feel I should say, I will always speak from the heart, I will never compromise my art for fame or money or any reason someone will tell you they do what they do. If you want something authentic... I got it.

D.Dabney: Thanks for putting your thoughts out there in a straight forward manner. I know artists are often very open when discussing their beliefs. How do your beliefs factor into your art?

Ed (Future):

I think my beliefs are my art and vice versa. I don’t make anything up. I say what I want and what I feel. Makes it easier to talk to people about my work because it is indeed me. I write only when I feel like writing and only what i feel like writing about

D.Dabney:

What would you say your purpose is as it pertains to your chosen profession?

Before we wrap this up, and considering approximately 60% of our readers are female, I have to dig into your personal life a bit. Are you single, dating, and what type of woman does it for Ed Wilson?

“I will never compromise my art for fame or money or any reason someone will tell you they do what they do. If you want something authentic...I got it.” Ed (Future): I’m single, I think any real man is looking for his queen so you can take that how you want (He chuckles again); what type of woman. . .loyal, hospitable, great personality, takes great care of herself. D.Dabney: What does the future hold for “Future”? Where will you be performing next, how can our readers stay linked in with new occurrences with you? Ed (Future): Well my availability and where I will be next is always up in the air. The best way to stay tuned with me is to connect with me on facebook, twitter or by email: www.facebook.com/ WhereIsFuture www.twitter.com/FutureThePoet www.facebook.com/FutureThePoet futurethepoet@ gmail.com and my BIZ Cell # 810 449 9897

Ed (Future): : To use this gift God blessed me with to be a blessing to other people. With the way people talk to me after shows, I am told I am doing just that.

D.Dabney: Well, ‘brethren’ thanks for taking

D.Dabney:

Ed (Future): : Thanks for reaching out FRAT

Tell us something...... (anything that we may not know, that I haven’t asked, that you would like us to know)

the time to share a bit of who you are with our readers.

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“Well, I don’t like Gospel first of all. Not the music that’s being called Gospel today, it’s not Gospel, It’s like calling dancehall, reggae…It’s not the same.” Bass Vocalist

Johnathan Blanchard

ne gro funk .

J O H N A T H A N BLANCHARD

By Shaunteka LaTrese Curry The pick of the bass fills the room, overwhelming my sound receptors; the beat breaks into a repetitive drop (Thump, thump, thump, thump, thump, thump) unique to the stroke of a G chord on an upright bass only this “thump” wasn’t fingers tapping the strings; but the progressive vocals of newcomer Jonathan Blanchard belting the lyrics of his single Priorities… “Your priorities are all out of order...” Breathless hands lifted above my head, rocking and nodding in amazement. One dimensional at first glance, but in the deepest depths, he is the epitome of a southern gentlemen; courteous, well spoken, educated, opinionated and engulfed in his history. Simply Spoken Magazine

stated, Blanchard is a soulful singer that happens to be a classical/opera trained Bassist, with a voice that will make you want to smack yourself and say…”where have I heard this before?” With remnants of Memphis’ most influential musicians such as Isaac Hayes, WC Handy, and the Bar Kay’s, pouring thru his passion , the surface is just the first layer of this uniquely crafted musician who’s being coined “NEGRO FUNK.” His roots are deeper than the average artist making him relevant, current and refreshing all at the same time. Recently, I sat down with this beautiful spirit to have a chat about his new album Freedom’s Soul, and the journey to this moment. SL: Are you an Architect or Bricklayer? JB: I’m the mortar keeping the bricks together. I’m adding bricks and filling to the foundation that has already been set. Continuing a legacy!

SL: Freedom’s Soul is your new Release. It’s the first studio CD and the first CD as an Indie Artist. How does it feel being an Indie Artist compared to being an artist signed to a major label?

JB: Creativity flows easier, I am able to work and create at a pace of comfort. There are some sacrifices that come with it; everything falls on me. I have to bank roll myself, and I’m responsible for the marketing and other business related things. However, with family and friends helping it allows me to be who I am and do what I love. “Jonathan loves music and doesn’t know what he’ll do without it!”

JB: As a kid I had thoughts of growing up and being in the business, as I got older those dreams faded. My interest turned, entered Tennessee State University as a Molecular Biology Major, I had a serious love of science. At the end of my freshman year, I lost my scholarship and had to find alternative funding for school and the Music Department was giving away money. So, that put me back on the path that I’d dreamed of as a kid.

SL: Did you always want to be a performer?

SL: Okay, I already know of the serious Memphis influence. What are some other artists that influence you and why?

McFerrin and Rachelle Ferrell, Your vocal range and quality makes your sound unrivaled in this time. How do you feel about that comparison?

is on the counter next to the register!

JB: I’m honored. I’ve listened and studied their music, others also like Al Jarreau, and Will Downing because their vocal range is similar to mine.

JB: No. I’m not that mature. (Laughing) Seriously, I’m very honest and opinionated, frustrated with what I’m seeing in the community; (which you can hear in my music) But, an artist should never have to make the choice not to express who they truly are.

SL: When I walk into the music store looking for the artist Jonathan Blanchard, will I find him in Folk or Gospel? JB: Well, I don’t like Gospel first of all. SL: (Laughing) JB: Not the music that’s being called Gospel today, it’s not Gospel, It’s like calling dancehall, reggae…It’s not the same. To answer your question, my CD

SL: Have you ever thought about censoring yourself?

SL: What’s a typical day? JB: A lot of non-music things. Blanchard Music Group is the entity in which I conduct business so I make phone calls, sending and returning emails, etc. SL: In five years…

JB: William Warfield, Roy Ayers, Sly, Parliament, Earth Wind and Fire, Kool and the Gang, Marvin Gaye…these artists all are influential, because they had a message, the words of the songs meant something. They were concerned about the well being of black people, civil rights and they knew how to party. SL: From the Traditional Negro Spirituals of “Wade in the Water” and “Motherless Child,” to the very hip and current “Priorities” and “Tired of Waiting,” You are bridging gaps that make you comparable to Bobby

the US, will have toured over seas, will no longer be making phone calls, and will have released 2 more albums comparable or better than Freedom’s Soul. SL: How can the people keep up with you? JB: We just updated JonathanBlanchard. com, Myspace.com/jonathanblanchard Reverbnation Facebook Jonathan Blanchard’s music transcends, age, genre, and will speak to generations bridging the gap between who our parents listen to and the music we most enjoy. Freedom’s Soul is available for purchase, in-stores and online.

JB: My music will be known throughout Spoken Magazine

A Single Girl’s Adventure in Dating W

e have all tried to bundle our courage on a night out with the girls to lock eyes with a temp#ng stranger. We doll up our faces with the ho$est and most current eyelash extender or no-fade lips#ck in the hopes that Mr. Right will be at Luckie Lounge sipping on a chilled beer, ready to buy our next mojito. Unfortunately, the da#ng scene in Atlanta has le" the single girl’s taste buds yearning for something more refreshing. Follow me on a journey as I indulge in my latest fancy of the da#ng realm. I have gathered unique stories, many told over mul#ple glasses of wine and raucous laughter to somehow try to resurrect the dying breed of “the southern gentleman.” Maybe in the end, we can all ﬁnd our soul mates and live happily ever a"er. But, in the meanwhile…

a man with decent looks and a hidden gold tooth. Eddy was what my friends call an “industry guy.” He was at the swankiest par#es, hob-knobbed with the rich and stuffy, and carried the backlash of arrogance on his shoulders. Most industry guys have this unspoken en#tlement to the pre+est girl in the room and most are really just pawns to get closer to the king, so to speak. Eddy and I went to one dinner that ended with him trying to grab handfuls of my behind as he “helped” me enter my truck. I wondered to myself, does a gentleman really try to feel you up on the first date? I guess in his mind, it was #me to pay up. Mind you, the dinner was not expensive enough for me to feel the least bit sacrificial. Paying up would have been the equivalent of buying the bum off Hollowell Parkway a few bucks and a nice lunch.

As I ended the date earlier than I met Eddy* in Miami for a expected and sped away into the holiday weekend spent with the brisk evening warmth, I realized girls. Eddy was deﬁnitely not that I hate da#ng. I hate the not my type but had charisma and knowing, the mysteriousness conﬁdence that bodes well for of who I was mee#ng, or what

their inten#ons are. So I vowed to myself to stay away from “industry guys” and try my hand at the regular Joes. So, as I drench the feel of his grimy hands from my skin, I sing loudly in the foggy shower… ”what’s love got to do, got to do with it?” The moral of this thankfully short experience hopefully has not eluded the up and coming gentlemen. Lesson 1: Please don’t touch a woman’s hind parts on the ﬁrst date. It’s guaranteed to end the date immediately without a second date to follow.

*Name changed to protect the innocent.

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Yin Yang Economic Condition and Public Health

By: Wendy Kay

Currently, we are experiencing the longest recession our country has seen since the Great Depression. According to the 3rd Quarter Report of the Index of Coincident Indicators put out by the Conference Board*, the indicators are continuing to signal that the economy is exiting the current recession that began December 2007. Overall, it’s not the absolute worst we’ve ever seen, but a close second as concluded by The

New York Times in April of 2009. Bottom line, we are on the path to recovery.

recessions to follow.

respiratory illnesses. Social isolation and a lack of social support can be experienced due to insufficient time and energy, which can lead to a malefic impact on society’s physical and mental health.

These facts are attributed to different factors, with work conditions and its effects being the most significant. For example, in times of expansion, businesses are very busy and demanding of its workers: to work more hours and at a faster pace. This typically results in less sleep time and a decrease in nutritional diet for individuals. With increased stress and money, people tend to show an increase in smoking and alcohol consumption. Environmental pollutants produced with industrial expansion, creates a prevalence of cardiovascular and

The Yin-Yang of It On one hand, most people would think that during economic expansions the general public is happier and healthier. On the other hand, they may think that the many occurrences of economic

On the contrary (not to negate the emotional stress of the losses of job, hours, and ultimately income), with less work or a slower pace of work, less environmental pollutants, consuming more homemade meals, having more time to sleep, to make social contacts and find support systems, and less money to spend on tobacco and alcohol, health and longevity

recession over the years, including the Great Depression, would bring much unhappiness and ill-health. In reality, vital statistics show that when the economy increases, life expectancy decreases, and vice-versa. That’s right, the life expectancy for the population as a whole increased by over 6 years during the years of the Great Depression, and similar effects of typically “fatal” morbidity has decreased during the many

increases. That’s the Yin Yang of our present situation. Balancing Solutions Stress is an ongoing concern during any economic cycle, yet during expansion, apparently more fatal. Stress management does not have to be extremely time-consuming; it just has to be done with some regularity. Below are some simple ways to relieve and reduce stress to create wellness in your life (stress managed/health promoted): 1)

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By: Maranda Davis your physical health/fitness that will easily fit into your schedule: • Learn and do The 5 Tibetan Rights (An easy, no-impact exercise with tremendous positive impacts on your body’s health). Resource: Check out YouTube demos • Walk 15-30-60 minutes, preferably outside. (Good for your body & mind!) • Do some fun outside activities with family or friends: throw around a basketball, play some tennis, ice/roller skate, skate/snow board, anything! 2) Plan and make a meal/pack a lunch, making sure that you know what’s going into your body. Gradually give up fried foods, potatoes, and white bread for good! It’s really not that hard. (The whiter the bread, the bigger the spread, the sooner you’re dead!) 3) DRINK WATER: Take your weight, divide it in half. Consume that many ounces of water/day. Your body will function more efficiently and will not be drained of its energy. 4) REST your body 7-9 hours/day. 5) Get creative in free/inexpensive recreation: An art/craft you enjoy or want to try, card or board games, go to the library/bookstore to read something you’ll enjoy or want to learn about. 6) Learn more about managing/ growing your money to be able to live within a budget and gradually build your savings account/ investment portfolio. It can be a fun and rewarding challenge! 7) Daily Meditation (best in the morning or as a mid-day break): Meditation is simply continued thought; reflection; contemplation; or spiritual introspection starting with a cleared and quieted mind. Learn a simple technique for meditation on the Soul Food page at: www.WellnessInProsperity. com, along with other helpful stress management tools throughout the site. Spoken Magazine

If you have ART for sale, here are a few tips to help you move some of your product from the trunk of your car to someone’s home or business. Even in tough financial times, these tips may provide the boost your small business needs. Before you make any business moves, it’s important that you DO YOUR RESEARCH. Research what? You may say. It’s important to research the market. In your case, the local art scene. Find out where other artists like yourself hang out and start building and networking with like minded individuals. This information can be used to trade tips and ideas or to collaborate on projects and exhibits. Pooling your collective resources is a way to decrease your individual expenses.

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1st Suggestion: Visit local art supply stores and check for advertisement boards that promote networking events or the opportunity for commissioned art projects. 2nd Suggestion: Pick up your phone and call people. At this point in your career you may have a few contacts that you haven’t spoken to in a while. Call them, and see what’s up. Find out if they know someone who may need your services. Word of mouth is still one of the best and least expensive forms of advertisement. 3rd Suggestion: Think outside the box. I have found that a lot of realty agents hire home stagers who help stage homes for open house events. They would be glad to showcase a painting or three, if it would aid in them dressing up the home, which could lead to a potential sale. That open house opportunity could be the start of a contract for leasing your work or the potential for future sales. Start calling a few home staging specialists or realty agents to see if they could use some of your art. 4th Suggestion: Have you visited your doctor’s office lately? I have yet to see something in a doctor’s office that isn’t the $19.99 Walmart special. Of course they have the money, but they don’t have the time to decorate. This could be one avenue for artists to display their work and potentially attract new clients by making the waiting room an extension of their personal gallery. One way to do this is to contact the office manager of the practice and see if they would be interested in displaying your work. It would be no cost to them, and it would add to the decor of their waiting room. (I would suggest you change your paintings out monthly, to give them a view of many pieces.) At the end of the viewing time agreement, you more than likely will have had a purchase by someone in that office. The tips in this article are just a few ideas, but finding the information that you need may come from someone who may have more experience in your line of work. Perhaps a gallery owner can provide insight as to what sells and what doesn’t. This is vital information to help identify your market. One phone call to the right person could probably answer all of your questions at this early stage in your career. Good luck!

“With a solid friendship and open communica#on you’re good, but you can’t forget the romance. Whatever I did in the beginning, I’ve got to make that happen. People can get too caught up in day to day life. I want my woman to understand that if I had to choose all over again, I would s#ll choose her.”

Ayinde Almin Photography by Marvin Striggles

I’m speaking with music artist, Ayinde Almin. We’ve attempted to get together several times over the last months, but our schedules haven’t permitted a face to face interview. Even now as we talk over the phone, Ayinde is en route with some friends to a local night spot in Atlanta. I pick his brain for the answers that his fans want to know.

Mel: Let’s start out with the basics, for those who may be new to your presence in the music industry. What is your background? Ayinde: Not-so different from others in the business, I grew up in the church. Started singing in choir in the 5th grade, found that I had a love for it and I haven’t stopped. I’ve been a full-time musician since 2005. Besides performing 2-3 times a month, I write and produce for other artists. My performances mainly encompass singing and piano, but I also play the trumpet. Mel: Wow – Musician/Singer/Songwriter/Producer. What would you say is your main focus, are you looking for a major label to pick you up? Ayinde: My main focus is on songwriting and producing. I spend a lot of time in the studio. I’m enjoying my work behind the scene – developing some great relationships.

I’m in this – I’m establishing myself as a songwriter/ producer, proving my skills, then I’ll release my solo project. I’m looking to release my EP, then CD under an independent label. It gives you more creative control, higher return on your investment. Mel: Who are your musical influences? Ayinde: (you can hear him scanning his mental rolodex, the list must be long) The main ones would be Stevie Wonder, Michael Jackson, Babyface, and R. Kelly. That’s the main four. Mel: Wow! So, when I tweeted you the video of Stevie Wonder’s Happy Birthday song that was right on point. I didn’t even know. Ayinde: Yeah, it was. Mel: Describe an Ayinde Almin fan. Ayinde: That’s a wide range. Other musicians… people who love music… women. My music caters to the realist, whether it is melodically or lyrically – my fans can relate to my music. It deals with everything from my personal experiences to things I hope to experience. It’s inspirational, enlightening, soulful, sexual… covers many subjects and feelings. (The background quiets as he tells the crew he will catch them inside.)

Mel: So, how do those personal experiences translate… you know, an artist’s life and the dating scene? Ayinde: Man, it’s non-existent mainly because as an artist you need a woman to understand what you do. It takes a lot to be successful and she needs to be there and be supportive. Honestly, my success has made it more difficult. It’s very easy to get the lines blurred. Musicians are funny about vibes, too. (He laughs) I meet more women going off the stage than I do going on. It’s forced me to take my time… be selective but, I would make time for the right person. Mel: So, you were raised in the church. What are your views on premarital sex? Ayinde: I don’t agree with it, but I’ve missed the mark. Looking back now, I can understand why it’s better to wait. It took me engaging in it to understand the magnitude of going that route. Mel: What is the foundation of a successful relationship? Ayinde: God comes first. When there is nothing else you can say to your partner, you must both know how to pray. Seek God in the decision. God loves us through it all. Hmm… friendship is the foundation. It’s imperative. You learn a lot when you are friends and a romantic relationship

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can blossom out of that. Communication is key – that’s so cliché, but it’s the truth. You never want to be in a situation where you have to guess what’s going on. With a solid friendship and open communication you’re good, but you can’t forget the romance. Whatever I did in the beginning, I’ve got to make that happen. People can get too caught up in day to day life. I want my woman to understand that if I had to choose all over again, I would still choose her. Mel: Can you repeat that one? Ayinde: (He laughs…) I want my woman to understand that if I had to choose all over again, I would still choose her. Mel: How do you feel about divorce? Ayinde: If you’ve not been in a situation where it’s possible, then it’s hard to put yourself in those shoes, but

I’d rather see someone single, then see them remain in a situation that isn’t healthy. Mel: Some marriages are passionate, some are partnerships, and some are straight business. What are you looking for? Ayinde: (He laughs and you can hear him thinking “Do I have to choose?”) I’m looking for all three. Men are particular about their choices. See that’s why men like sports. It’s about that team effort – I’m looking for a teammate, not only someone who we can pass the rock to, but someone that can pass the rock back. Mel: Ok, so what is a rock? Ayinde: (Laughing again…) Mel: I mean I know what I’ve heard it to be, but I just want to make sure that we are comparing apples to apples.

Some of this is for the ladies. Ayinde: Nah, that’s ok (still laughing). A rock is a basketball. Mel: Describe a recent date, favorite date. What does Ayinde enjoy? Ayinde: Wow, my last date was about a year ago. We went out for my birthday to a live jazz spot called Sambuca’s in Atlanta. Great music and food – had some shrimp. Shrimp is my favorite. We had a good time. Mel: Was it romantic? Ayinde: No, not real romantic, but it was nice. We had a good time. Mel: With the recent media stories about infidelity and so much speculation on how these situations arise, how do you feel about your partner having friends of the opposite sex? Ayinde: Oh, I have no problem with that. Any of my female friends will know who I have in my life. They will know her and she will know them. You know, Mel… I’ve got to get your 2 cents on the lady in my life. My friends would respect our relationship. I would expect the same in return from her (that I know her friends). It’s all about respect. Mel: One last personal question and then I want to be

sure that people know how to reach you. You’ve heard of the Five Love Languages? Affirmation (words – hearing the reasons behind love that sends your spirits skyward), Time (full, undivided attention from your partner), Gifts (not materialistic, but you thrive on the love, thoughtfulness, and effort behind the gift), Acts of Service (Let me do that for you is what you want to hear) and Touch (Not all about the bedroom - Hugs, holding hands, thoughtful touches on the arm, shoulder, or face). Without taking the quiz, which 2 would you say speak to you? Ayinde: Touch and Affirmation Mel: Cool, so now that we know what makes you, you… how do we find you? Ayinde: I’m on all the major networking sites. You can look me up on Facebook, Twitter (AyindeSings), or myspace. For bookings you can call Area Sound Studios at 404.478.6417 (www.myareaatlanta.com). I have new material coming out in 2010, so keep a look out. Follow me on Twitter and I will keep everyone posted.

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“I lunged at him. I don’t know where that strength came from. I surprised not only myself, but him as well. I pushed all his 280 pounds of muscle down on the sofa. I knocked the keys out of his hand. “You ain’t going nowhere.” I heard a car pull up. I pulled back the curtains and saw Erique get out of a black car from the driver’s side. No he didn’t just drive her car to the place where we live together. His face was emotionless. He chirped the alarm with the remote and strolled to the door. I don’t know what came over me. It was this eerie calmness. I sat on the edge of the chair with my eyes fixed on the door. Two clicks and a turn of the knob. He looked at me with the same rigid look. It was as if he actually had no excuse or reason for such a level of disrespect, which he didn’t, but I had never seen it so plainly written across his face. And for the first time in a long time, he honestly looked as if he really didn’t care how I felt. He had acted like it for such a long time, but now I could read it all on his face. “Why are you still up?” He tossed the keys on the coffee table and walked pass me into the kitchen. “Waiting on you.” I wiped away the single tear that dropped like a boulder out of my eye onto my cheek. “Well, I’m here now. You can go lie down.” He yanked open the refrigerator and scanned its contents aimlessly. “We need to talk.” I got up, walked over to the other entrance of the kitchen and stood in the doorway. “Talk about what now,” he asked, still staring into the fridge. “You always over analyze shit.” “What is up with you, E?” I looked down at his shoes and then back up to his bent back, the fridge door hid the rest of him as he reached in for something. “What are you talking about now, Taye?” He stood up straight, slammed the fridge door and twisted open a bottle of beer. “You always want to talk about something. Ain’t

nothing going on with me. I’m tired and I ain’t in the mood to be questioned.” “Is that right?” I could feel myself getting hot all over, the madas-hell kind of hot. “One question.” “What? Shit!” He walked back over into the living room and plunked down on the sofa. He propped his feet up on the coffee table and took a long swig of his beer. I walked over and stood in front of him. “Who’s car is that?” “What car?” “The car you drove here in. I know it’s not yours.” “Why? What difference does it make? You won’t let me borrow yours anymore so what did you expect me to do? I got to get where I’ve got to go and I ain’t going to beg you for your car.” “Is that her car?” “Why? Does it matter? It’s a car.” He finished his beer in one long gulp. He slammed the bottle down on the table. “I know you didn’t drive another woman’s car to our apartment. What in the hell is wrong with you?” I began to sweat and everything around me was going in and out in a blur. I could no longer see him clearly. My anger and my sadness were taking me over. I could no longer cry. The heat of my anger dried up my tears. “Drop it ok.” He sat up, put his feet on the floor and his elbows on his knees. He never once looked at me. He just stared down at the floor. “We can talk about this tomorrow. I don’t feel like going back and forth with you tonight.” “No the hell I won’t drop it this time. I keep damn dropping it and you keep doing more and more. Why don’t you just leave?” I paced

the floor again. “Is that what you want me to do?” “If you are going to do shit like this, then yes. I want you to leave. You need to leave. The sooner the better.” “Fine. I’ll go and look for a place later this week.” He sat back on the sofa and propped his feet back up. “No. You can go tonight. You have her car. You can throw all your shit in the back of it and go stay with her. You don’t have much so it won’t take you that long.” “See, there you go again with that. I ain’t gonna do that. I ain’t going no where.” “And why not? Oh, she won’t let you stay with her, right?” I put my hands on my hips and stopped in front of him. This time, he looked at me. “I don’t want to stay with her. I want to stay here, if your ass would stop acting so crazy. You are forever flipping out about something. You wonder why I’m never here. It’s because you always go off the deep end about shit. It’s always something with you. Stop stressing me and maybe I’ll be around more.” “Oh no. That’s not working on me this time. Don’t put your shit on me and make me feel like the guilty one. And I ain’t acting crazy. You keep doing stuff that hurts me and if you paid any real attention to me, you would see that. I don’t want to do this anymore.” I sat down on the edge of the coffee table and looked right into his once loving brown eyes. “I don’t want you anymore. Let’s just end this and then you can do whoever, whenever and I won’t be a factor in your life anymore. Let’s just end this before this gets worse-”

“See! There you go with that flapping of your jaws. You always damn talking. Just shut the fuck up.” He had a fire in his eyes that I had never seen before. “What? Who in the hell do you think you are talking to like that? I have been there with you since the beginning. When you didn’t have a thing. Shit, you still don’t have nothing, but do I complain. No. I’m still here. Doing for you. You moved in with me. I take care of you and this is how you treat me. I even fought with my parents over you. They won’t even speak to me anymore. When I was living with them, I snuck you into their house so you wouldn’t have to sleep on the damn street or in your car after your ex threw you out of her house. This is the thanks I get from you. If that girl can do it better… if she treats you better, then go to her. Leave me the hell alone.” I moved in closer to him. “Get the fuck out of my face. If I wanted her, I would be with her.” “Oh, I can’t tell. ‘Cause every time I turn around, you out with her or somebody. I’m here all the damn time by my damn self.” He stood up and tried to walk around me. I jumped up and stood in his way. “Oh you not getting off that easy. Where you going?” “The hell out of here.” He looked down at me. The smell of his beer breath invaded my nose. “Move.” “I’m not moving,” I screamed. I grabbed him by his arm. He easily slung me away. “Get off me, Taye. I mean it.” He cut his eyes at me. He grabbed the keys and reached for the door. “No.” I lunged at him. I don’t know where that strength came from. I surprised not only myself, but him as well. I pushed all his 280 pounds of muscle down on the sofa. I knocked the keys out of his hand. “You ain’t going nowhere. Not until we get an understanding.” I straddled him. “What understanding? I’m leaving and I’ll be back after you’ve calmed your happy ass down. What is your problem?” He gripped my arms and picked me up and moved me off of him in one smooth move.

He sat up and searched the floor for the keys. “You are my problem. It’s like you don’t even care about me anymore. Like you wouldn’t even care if I died. You used to show me that you loved me. You used to say it. We used to do things together. Go out and have fun together. You act like you don’t even have time for me anymore.” “Died? Where is that coming from?” He looked at me in a confused way. “Do you know the nights that I have sat up here and thought about killing myself just to end the pain that you make me feel? That’s just how bad you make me feel. That’s how fucking insane you have made me. I miss you. I miss how you used to be. Why can’t you be that man I fell in love with?” “Whatever. You can be so damn dramatic sometimes. I haven’t changed. You have. You been stressing me more and more over stupid stuff.” He started to scan the floor for the keys again. Right then, I ran toward the bathroom. I remembered I kept a straight edge in there. I grabbed it out of the medicine cabinet and ran back into the living room. “See. I’ll do it. I swear. Then you’ll be sorry. You’ll know that you are the reason why I killed myself. Then what will you do? Huh? Will you feel something then?” The tears filled my eyes and poured out like a gusher. I couldn’t see through the tears. Strands of my hair stuck to my forehead. At that instant I knew I had reached my limit. Something had taken over me and I was no longer myself. He laughed at me. “What are you going to do with that? Put that blade down before you hurt yourself.” “E, I’m so serious. Would you even care,” I yelled at him. He stood up and walked over to me. I could tell now that he was pissed. “What do you think? I love you, Taye. I always have. You just push me to the edge with all your questions and going through my stuff all the time. Looking for stuff. You always accuse me of doing something. Even when I wasn’t, you swore to me up and down that I was. I’m tired of that

shit.” He took a step towards me. His eyes were fixed on mine. “You know I’ve been trying to get myself together, but you keep questioning me about other people. Stop worrying about other people and worry about us.” “You treat me as if I don’t mean anything to you.” I started to sob again. “You act like you don’t

give a damn anymore.” “Will you stop acting like that? Damn.” He walked closer to me. “Would you care if I died, Erique? Answer the damn question.” I stepped back from him and lifted the blade to my wrist and pressed it to my vein. “What did I just tell you? You don’t listen to me. You never hear what I have to say.” “Fuck that bullshit! Would you care if I died?” I don’t know what answer I was looking for. In my mind, I wanted him to reach out and pull me close and promise me that it would all be better and that he would change his ways. In my mind I wanted him to pull a ring out his pocket. My life was much better in my mind, but my reality was something very different. “No! I wouldn’t care. You want to be stupid and kill yourself, fine! Do it! I don’t give a shit anymore!” His voice vibrated the walls. As his words hit my ears, the blade crossed my wrists like a warm knife into butter... I didn’t feel a thing.

Emily Wright, Associate Editor Spoken Magazine

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