Nervosa,KavyaBenush

Nervosa

KavyaBenush '25

Timidly,i shroudmyemptyover you Tell medearest;howshouldi feel today? Whenyouholdmeinyour armstonight Ami heavier thani wasbefore? Andif i am What doi deserve(if anythingat all) Leavingyour mahoganyapartment Thesalt swellsonmytongue Atastei havenot felt indays Andlongtonever feel again Thoughinpart i knowi must Thewalkhome, Oftenlonger thanmyheavyheart canbear

Forgivemylegsfor-givingout behindthedoor For theylikei cannot holdthiscursedweight muchmore But tell medearest doyoulovemeasyouknowi do Or doyou(i)hatemeasasinner hatesthetruth

Irrevocablelinesareyet theburdenof mylife

Irrevocablelinesareyet theburdenof mylife Mytoil strivestomendbut aneternityof strifeand Still i longtohear theunvariedchidingof their voice Perchance,thechoicetohoist thesebatteredbones Aboveyour unceasingtorment Isenough Tostumble,stagger, Achingjoints Home.