Strike Magazine Miami Issue 05 by Strike Magazines

REFLECTION

GRAPHICS DIEGO FRANCO

COVER + INSIDE COVER PHOTO ISABEL BARROS

COVER DESIGN FRUZSINA PAPP

GRAPHICS ALBXLU

ABOUT THE ISSUE

STRIKE MIAMI’S ISSUE 05: “Reflection” is a reminder to slow down, to reflect on everything you have and the people who have gotten you to where you are. There is beauty in the past. This is why we have photo albums tucked away in our closets, preserving snapshots of life and love. Some memories are so profound, they can almost be reached out and touched with closed eyes.

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However, the past may not always be picturesque, but it’s not synonymous with failure or something to be erased from memory. We often overlook the lessons learned from our faults- lessons that empower us to get back up for the things that truly matter, to gracefully walk away from situations unworthy of our energy, and to care for ourselves, despite the darkness that surrounds us. Be present, that’s imperative but occasionally, remember what once was. The following pages are stories of nostalgia, unfulfilled dreams, prospicience, and growth. Reflection is a hard journey, but the most rewarding.

STAFF DIRECTORS

PHOTOGRAPHERS

EDITOR IN CHIEF

PHOTOGRAPHY DIRECTOR

ISABELLA MENENDEZ

ASSISTANT EDITOR IN CHIEF

ISABEL BARROS

THE TEAM

ANDREA VICTORIA

MARLA MCLEOD, KIANA SEIN, ALBXLU SOPHIA BOLIVAR, MELANY GONZALEZ

CREATIVE DIRECTOR

VIDEOGRAPHERS

ALBXLU

ASSISTANT CREATIVE DIRECTOR LOGAN CHI

EXTERNAL DIRECTOR

VIDEOGRAPHER DIRECTOR CESAR SANCHEZ

THE TEAM

SEBASTIAN ROCHA ALVAREZ, ANDREA MITCHELLE SANTIAGO 7

CAMILA BATRES

GRAPHIC DESIGN TEAM CREATIVE TEAM STYLING DIRECTOR MARLA MCLEOD

THE TEAM RYLEE STALLINGS, AVA WEHRLIN, JASMINE PIERRE, SAYANNI JANAYA FLU, PRISCILLA POZO, LIA BATRES

STAFF WRITERS THE TEAM AILISH FONTANEZ, KAITLYN EDEN IMANI DOSS, ANDREA VICTORIA ISABELLA MENENDEZ, DIEGO FRANCO

MAKEUP ARTIST HANEEN SIDDIQUI

GRAPHIC DESIGN DIRECTOR DIEGO FRANCO

THE TEAM

LIDIA DELGADO, FRUZSINA PAPP ROSA MENDOZA, DANIELA VALERIO GENESIS MILLINGTON, KAYLA VALDEZ, MABEL SURIEL, JADACUS SANTOS, CAMILA BALLESTEROS

SOCIAL MEDIA TEAM SOCIAL MEDIA DIRECTOR ALESSANDRA G. YARLEQUE

THE TEAM SAMANTHA AGUILAR, KC DOMINGUEZ MELISSA BERNARDO

PHOTO MELANY GONZALEZ

LETTER FROM THE EDITOR To our Strike Community, This issue holds immense significance for me. To me, the word reflection means seizing opportunities that come one's way, waiting for the moment to look back, and being proud of what one has accomplished. As I look back at my time being Editor-in-Chief Assistant for the previous two issues, I have noticed how much I have grown alongside our inspiring team. I’ve become more bold, confident, and true to myself. The shy girl who initially would write a couple of pieces for the magazine is now attending photoshoots, leading meetings, and having a voice. Strike gave me a voice and I have no one to thank but the creative minds who brought this magazine to life and pushed me like I haven’t been pushed before. I feel extremely humbled writing this letter, knowing that an opportunity like this is rare. Not just my position, but to constantly be able to fully embrace our creative passions is a blessing.

Thank you to my fellow directors, Alba and Camila for wearing your creative hearts on your sleeves, having such incredible patience, and filling in the gaps as the months went by. A special thank you to my right-hand girl, Andrea Rivera, for being such an amazing EIC Assistant. You were my rock through this all. When first introducing this concept, I pictured a mirror. Simply looking at oneself and either not quite liking what one sees or feeling prideful of one's journey. However, Strike showed me much more than that. Reflection could be contemplating how the future of the world appears hundreds of years down the line, reminiscing on nostalgic memories that humans universally experience, or recalling a dream that one once had but now is lost. So, I invite you all to see what reflection means to us. With pieces and photographs highlighting personal stories and milestones, catching glimpses of our hearts.

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It's not solely about the reflection you observe, but rather what lies beyond it that truly matters. Strike Out, Isabella Menendez, Editor-in-Chief

Thank you to my Strike Team for taking a chance on me. My first time leading this project could not have been more nerve-wracking, but knowing I had such a strong backbone of leaders, always brought me a sense of calm. Additionally, thank you for consistently raising the bar on every issue and having the same spark to foster such a supportive community, never losing drive or focus, it's inspiring.

LETTER FROM THE DIRECTOR Dear Strike Magazine Team,

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As I reflect on my two semesters with Strike Magazine, I’m grateful for the incredible enhancement it brought to my university journey. Collaborating with diverse creatives has been a joy, and the kindness of everyone in the agency has made it truly special. A big shoutout to my cousin Lia (stylist) for being a fantastic companion on this journey. Starting from a marketing role and growing into the External Affairs Director has been a tremendous learning experience. I can’t wait to see where this valuable experience with the magazine will take me in my future career. Thanks to each and every one of you for making this journey so memorable.

Xoxo, Camila Batres, External Affairs Director

LETTER FROM THE DIRECTOR I consider myself a very nostalgic person. Many times I get lost in my mind going back to the past; to who I was, to the people I loved, my old house, my childhood … I think a lot about what I could have done if my life had taken other paths if I had made different decisions … and my bad decisions are the ones that weigh on me more than they should. The passage of time overwhelms me, since I feel that it slips out of my hands without realizing it, and I feel that, although I am only 21, I am constantly running out of time.

That is why this concept is very dear to my soul, since I feel it very close to my way of overthinking both my past and my future. The fear of not achieving the life I want to have and finding myself in a situation where I have to settle for something that doesn’t make me happy (Lost Dreams). The realization and pain of knowing that I will never be a child again and that my childhood is forever gone (Girlhood). The uncertain future that awaits us faced with a past that cannot be changed (Future Nostalgia). The constant fight with myself about how I feel about myself (Mirrored). And in all the hours lost in my head thinking about things that either will never happen or that I can do nothing to change them right now (Soulshine). The beauty of this issue is that I, the Strike team, and you, can see ourselves reflected in it. Between photo sessions for Issue 05 we have had many conversations of our life experiences that we saw reflected in the concepts, and we want to convey those conversations to you, in case they can help you feel a little less alone in this chaotic and uncertain world. We have put a lot of heart and soul into this edition, so I hope you enjoy it. From me to you,

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Albxlu, Creative Director

CONTENTS 19 25

PURPLE AND PINK GIRLS WHISPERS OF “THE” GIRLHOOD

DON’T BE A COPYCATAMERICA’S EVOLUTION OF FASHION TRENDS. TWO WAY REFLECTION A TRACE OF WHO I USED TO BE

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A NOTE TO SELF SLEEP UNTIL MY DREAM TAKES ME... ...WHERE I KNOW WHO I AM. THE INFLUENCE OF AURA ON FASHION: A SHORT INSIGHT OF THIS TIMELESS COLLECTION ... TO A BETTER WORLD...

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A LETTER TO MY FUTURE SELF SEWING THROUGH TIME

GIRLHOOD MIRRORED

LOST DREAMS FUTURE NOSTALGIA GRAPHICS DIEGO FRANCO

SOULSHINE

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GIRLHOOD

CREATIVE DIRECTOR ALBXLU

PHOTOGRAPHER MELANY GONZALEZ

STYLISTS

PRISCILLA POZO + RYLEE STALLINGS

ON-SET PRODUCTION ALBXLU + ISABELLA MENENDEZ

LIGHTING ISABEL BARROS

VIDEOGRAPHER ANDREA MITCHELL

MUA

HANEEN SIDIQUI

CONCEPT

MELANY GONZALEZ + ISABELLA MENENDEZ + LIDIA DELGADO + ALBXLU

MODELS

BEATRIZ MUELAS + ORIANA PAEZ + MARIA CRUZ + ASHLY VIVAS

GRAPHICS

LIDIA DELGADO + ROSA MENDOZA

Purple and Pink Girls By Isabella Menendez Ever since I was a little girl I loved the color pink. I would graze the aisles of malls that had rows of multi-color, flashy, and sparkling children’s clothes just to spot the perfect dainty pink dress. I always believed pink complemented my personality: lost in wonderland, never quite being focused on one thing, and assuming that every mistake I made was minor and that the world simply ignored them. I’d leave my room messy, trust and forgive too easily, and cry at every minor inconvenience. Pink is gentle. Purple is the color I despised.

I have purple in my life. Her work ethic is unwavering. Never letting anyone see her struggle, flaunting her confidence. Her past is engulfed by hardships, she carries them like invisible boulders on her back. The purple in her would tear me down to see me rise like she did. She’d douse me with her expectations for me. She’d make me question “my best.” When disagreements would arise my pink would cry and her purple would yell. But in certain moments, her purple would soften. In those moments of loss, grief, and disappointment in herself, I’d see her glimmer of pink. As I got older, it was in those moments where I noticed purple could be vulnerable too. There is beauty in purple. Purple is my mother.

While disguised with femininity, purple is tough, demanding, and persistent.

Whispers of “the” Girlhood by Andrea Rivera

By Andrea Victoria

If I could describe girlhood in three words they would be: innocence, self-discovery, and resilience. The innocence radiates off your skin, and the excitement and joy one feels upon seeing your best friend at school or having your first sleepover is like no other. Being naive to all these new feelings is something I mourn and yearn for to this day. As a young girl, one views the world through a lens of innocence and wonder, with a lightness of curiosity and resilience. “Everything is heightened and new. Wish I could view the world with such innocence again.” - Paola Rivera, my sister.

As I settled into intimate conversations with the remarkable women who have shaped my life, we went on a nostalgic journey down memory lane. The echo of laughter and shared secrets in the air. Hand in hand, we strolled through the vivid recollections of our girlhood, where the bonds of friendships consisted of shared dreams and whispered confidences. Friendships in your girlhood, vibrant and unique, are more than companionship; they are the stitches that intricately entwine the fabric of our shared experiences. My grandmother, Olga Díaz, shared vulnerable moments from her girlhood that emphasize how friendship is one of the purest loves there is. Olga described how when she had nothing, her best friend was everything. Even years after their girlhood, her best friend helped out with tuition and took care of her children when necessary.

Yirelis Hernández, one of my best friends, reflected on the invaluable life lessons she gained through her girlhood. She emphasized that the best friendships are cultivated during one’s girlhood, where vulnerability and love intertwine. “I’m lucky enough to have experienced girl love my whole life, and hope I get to do so till I’m old and wrinkly.” In my own journey, I often struggled with societal expectations and my individuality. Conflicts not only happened to be external but internal, a tug-of-war between the girl I once was and the woman I aspired to become. Questions frequently echoed in my head, ‘Who am I?’ and ‘What do I want?’. As I stood at the intersection of girlhood and womanhood, there was pressure pulling at the threads of my identity. I quickly understood that it was just about mastering the art of balance, and learning how to preserve the genuine essence that defined my girlhood while navigating the demands of womanhood. Womanhood is about self-acceptance, recognizing the beauty and strength that we carry with us while appreciating the uniqueness of our individual journeys. Womanhood provides an opportunity for self-reflection and personal growth, enabling us to cultivate a strong sense of identity and purpose. One should look forward to the freedom and autonomy that go along with womanhood, it allows us to explore our full potential and contribute to the world in meaningful ways. It’s important to embrace this transition with open hearts and minds, recognizing the beauty and resilience that come with stepping into the fullness of womanhood. “I was scared and overwhelmed, but so free.” - Catherine Colón, my mom.

Transitioning from girlhood to womanhood is parallel to navigating uncharted waters. Such a profound journey with unpredicted challenges. Not only does this transition involve physical maturation but also a profound evolution of identity, relationships, and responsibilities. It’s a journey that unfolds uniquely for each one of us, painting a rich and special box of experiences. Exploring these profound feelings can be overwhelming as well as exciting. A Pandora’s box waiting to let all emotions and feelings fly out and swirl around you.

Genuine love from friends outside of our families shapes our capacity to love profoundly. The care, love, support, and appreciation one gets from your best friend does not compare to anything else.

“Girls are THE best friends to have.” - Yirelis Hernández

“Cuando no tenía nada, miraba hacia al lado y ella estaba ahí. En las altas y las bajas.” - Olga Díaz

GRAPHICS DIEGO FRANCO

MIRRORED CREATIVE DIRECTOR ALBXLU

PHOTOGRAPHERS MARLA MCLEOD + KIANA SEIN

STYLISTS

SAYANNI JANAYA + LIA BATRES

ON-SET PRODUCTION VIDEOGRAPHER

SEBASTIAN ROCHA ALVAREZ

PROPS

SAYANNI JANAYA

MUA

HANEEN SIDIQUI

MODELS

AILISH FONTANEZ + EMILY MARIA PEÑA

CONCEPT

ISABELLA MENENDEZ + ISABEL BARROS + ALBXLU + SAYANNI JANAYA

GRAPHICS

MABEL SURIEL + GENESIS MILLINGTON

LOGAN CHI + ALBXLU + ANDREA VICTORIA

PHOTO MARLA MCLEOD

Don’t Be A CopycatAmerica’s Evolution of Fashion Trends. By Ailish Fontanez Going shopping in today’s time has drastically changed over the past several years. With the evolution of social media and the fashion industry, clothing has no longer become just an essential but a form of selfexpression. Consumers and brands have both been part of this change, working hand in hand to create more available styles, sizes, and designs in mainstream production. Overconsumption can become a problem, however, as Americans are going back to dressing the same as each other, similar to how it was in the past.

Department store chains were big sellers that focused on supplying the necessities, their evolution emphasizes how fashion retailers have drifted from their original products. The first American department store originated as early as the 1800’s focusing on selling the bare necessities to civilians and even military equipment during times of war. Around the 1920s factors such as the start of shopping malls made for a boom in retail. Catalogs were a popular way for people to see what was in style. It would showcase all the latest clothing for men and women of all classes. While these catalogs would feature different items, there was a certain style that would be followed that was appropriate or popular for that time. If people did not have the money to buy the original product, they would gather materials to make it themselves. Most people in America could only afford the DIY versions, creating original patterns and designs. A prime example is during the 1950’s when women would design their own dresses from potato sacks. So many women started wearing the garment that the company making the product started designing fashionable patterns on the sacks to be more appealing. DIY was the only way many people could

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afford fashionable and personalized clothing for a while and still is seen today but at a much smaller scale.

Gathering fabric and sewing your pieces was no longer needed once factory work took its place. Instead of DIY creations, fast fashion now dominates for being able to purchase cheap and trendy clothing that is like the original. Fashion started becoming a want instead of a need. People are not opting for petticoats and structured garments anymore because it does not align with the current preferences of modern Americans. A shift in how people view and utilize fashion is the most apparent reason the market keeps increasing in sales. Convenience became more important and Americans wanted that. The fashion retail industry is valued at around 350 billion dollars today, with the addition of eCommerce spiking its sales. The growth of production and higher demands mean many changes in the fashion industry, but in customer’s eyes, they are only seeing more options. This has its perks as it puts more products on the market but not all companies promise good quality or original designs. Transparency is not featured many times when advertising products, having the consumer believe that they can get affordable clothing quickly and for an inexpensive price. This idea comes from the rise of social media and how marketing has changed the speed of trends. Trends and hashtags are seen every day on social media platforms, coming and going quickly. TikTok is a main factor in this as its short-form video content has popularized microtrends, the new way style phonemes are now formed. Microtrends used to arise every month to a few years, depending on influence, but today they can be forgotten in as short as a few days. People experimenting with style can benefit from this if they pick up certain things to add to their own personal wardrobe. However, lost in the want to keep up with trends, people now feel the need to wipe out their whole closets. The fastest of trends was thought to allow for personal style to flourish, but it left many feeling like everyone was dressing the same once again. Retailers profit from this, especially since fast fashion allows them to make the manufacturing process much quicker so they never miss a deadline. Other tactics such as influencers being given clothing to promote are used commonly, as brands know that consumers will be more likely to purchase an item if worn by someone they admire. As microtrends develop fast revenue, many wonder if it is worth the harm they cause. Not only does it contribute to mass production growth, which causes many environmental and economic problems, but it also doesn’t allow people to find their identity like subculture groups were once doing before. Many major companies even go as far as stealing designs from smaller businesses or designer brands. Malls and online retailers have thrown away the need for creativity and quality clothing for what they

know is trending now. Retailers are reaching a point back where all the racks look the same, but now the longevity is no longer there. Subcultures are a smaller category of a cultural group, on style and beliefs when discussed in fashion. In the 1900s subcultures and groups of people with alternative beliefs were not accepted in the mainstream. Using alternative styles such as punk, emo, goth, hipster, and other variations is not as simple as seen today. Most people who identified with a certain style group had a stereotype placed on them. Many raids and crimes were even committed for people who dressed alternatively even if they were not part of a movement, since anything that was not mainstream fashion was misunderstood. The rise of alternative fashion shifted with the increase of social media. It allowed for people of different communities to see themselves represented online. Overall, creativity and originality are now being admired rather than restricted. People who don’t know about certain styles can explore to figure out what they enjoy as well. More diverse products and companies are getting the appreciation they deserve for being authentic. A lack of identity in style can feel isolating for someone who is looking to find themselves. Being told that what you are wearing is “not in style” is more common than ever today, however, many people don’t even know what is considered “in style.” The evolution of clothing only keeps advancing, but the past is a major inspiration for many of the clothing that is popular today. While everyone has their own opinions on what looks good and what doesn’t, subjecting it to just what is “trendy” is not a true indicator of style. The lack of authenticity in the fashion industry has become notable and people are no longer standing for it. The rise of small businesses, handmade, and local brands is being seen and appreciated. Fast fashion brands have been exposed, showing consumers what happens behind the scenes in the making of their clothing. Originality and timeless clothing are becoming more accessible to create a wardrobe that will last years. Quality is being appreciated again with the expansion of materials being available to more people and not just the rich. Thrifting and vintage stores rising in popularity is a great factor for many reasons. The societal stigma of having previously owned clothing is being erased by the realization of how it decreases a person’s carbon footprint. Thrifting has become a social event, featured in vendor markets and done to find one-of-a-kind items. These companies and small businesses providing second-hand clothing are a cheap and easy way to build a unique wardrobe. Fashion is always evolving, but it must be done thoughtfully so people can have time and space to find their independent style.

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IN EVERY REFLECTION OF US THAT WE NOTICE WITH INDIGNITY THERE WILL ALWAYS BE A PART OF OURSELVES SMILING BACK WITH RESPECT AND SUPPORT.

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A habit I’ve learned about that helps is celebrating all my small wins. This helps me change my way of thinking, so instead of focusing on the

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TWO WAY REFLECTIONS By Kaitlyn Eden

By reducing screen time, our generation can reintroduce ourselves with fewer expectations on perception and remove the obstacle of comparison to strengthen confidence.The road towards quieting our inner critic and becoming the most positive version of ourselves relates to our self-treatment and internal dialogue. The practice of positive self-perception helps prepare oneself to receive positive outcomes, just as self-manifestation goes. “Many research studies illustrate that if an individual thinks more optimistically about themselves, they tend to have greater self-esteem and overall well-being,” Lucien mentions when on the topic of manifestation. Although it’s been a recently embraced idea, manifestation links heavily to the law of attraction or the concept that energy and outcomes precede manifestation.

A recent conversation with Chelsea Lucien, a practitioner and senior in the FIU Department of Psychology, offered a lot of insight on this topic. “A person's self-perception has a big correlation and impact on self-esteem because it weighs into our sense of self-worth,” she says, in a discussion about confidence and ambition. How we treat ourselves may tend to mirror our internal sense of assurance. In Druckman and Robert Bjork’s publication entitled “Learning, Remembering, Believing: Enhancing Human Performance,” they discuss self-confidence and performance by saying, “A growing body of evidence suggests that one’s perception of ability or self-confidence is the central mediating construct of achievement strivings.” This shows that as confidence relates to our actions and feelings, it remains a learned behavior that can set us up for success.

A study by the National Science Foundation found that 25% of those who practice manifestation have found higher resulting success rates in what they wish to achieve. In this case, it is proven that the process of training our brains to be conditioned for positive thoughts can result in increased experiences and a sense of self. Self-reformation should come from the love and aspirations we hold for ourselves, and not from our perceived incapabilities or faults. The natural desire to better ourselves and reinvent who we are outweighs what, in most cases, we need the most: to appreciate who we are in the present day. Building the habit of changing our inner voice to play a more supportive role involves a lot of active work.

In the presence of social media, research has proven a correlation between self-esteem and daily online usage. Platforms such as Instagram, YouTube, and TikTok can project unrealistic standards of beauty or living that we, as consumers, may experience when comparing ourselves to others. Generation Z has been recorded to spend the most time online, and in a survey conducted by research company Morning Consult, a statistic of 54% of Gen Z adults and teens spend four hours or more on social media daily. This constant immersion tends to subconsciously wire our idea of success and beauty around what we perceive online, thus furthering the notion of beauty and living standards.

As Lucien advises on developing self-esteem, “A habit I’ve learned about that helps is celebrating all my small wins. This helps me change my way of thinking, so instead of focusing on the ‘what if I fail?’ I focus on what if I don’t?”. From this perspective, we can begin to appreciate who we are on a personal level, and learn to judge ourselves objectively. Loving our self-image may take time, but the actions that get us there will always remain once we start admiring every imperfection and every wonderful facet of ourselves in all our brilliance. In every reflection of us that we notice with indignity, there will always be a part of ourselves smiling back with respect and support.

In our experiences of self-reflection, we frequently alternate between self-critique and the pursuit of personal growth. Human nature in all of us notices the constant state of change or stagnation in ourselves, and it’s only normal for us to always evaluate and oftentimes be hypercritical of our actions. Looking at our reflection, what may stand out to us is what we don't like personally. Impurities, flaws, and weaknesses may be the easiest for us to recognize, overshadowing the admirable traits that are more discernible by the outside world. Our sense of confidence and self-efficacy is one of the most pivotal factors in how we perform and treat ourselves. About 85% of our population has or currently struggles with low self-esteem, according to a study found by Dr. Joe Rubino in “The Self-Esteem Book.” The accumulation of low self-esteem comes from excessive negative self-talk and feelings of inferiority.

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A TRACE OF WHO I USED TO BE By Andrea Victoria In a vision of another time, Salty skin and wind blowing, Wish I would’ve gone with it, To somewhere I could breathe, Be free, perhaps. Picture-perfect framed for everyone to see, Blush on my face and in the air, Wish I could’ve cut it. Innocence swimming confused, Begging to be seen, to be heard.

A daisy beneath the sunset, yearning for its season to bloom. I brush the glass, wishing I could go back, To tell her that she’ll be alright, That her curls and smile will come back.

Standing next to a ghost and a mimic, Wish they liked me better. Grinding my teeth and holding back my tongue, The breeze heavy with unspoken words, Swimsuit clinging to me like a second skin, Wish I could’ve burned it.

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A lack of identity in style can feel isolating for someone who is looking to find themselves. PHOTO MARLA MCLEOD

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...creativity and originality are now being admired rather than restricted.

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SOUL SHINE CREATIVE DIRECTOR ALBXLU

PHOTOGRAPHER SOPHIA BOLIVAR

STYLIST

SAYANNI JANAYA

ALBXLU + ANDREA VICTORIA

VIDEOGRAPHERS

ANDREA MITCHELL + CESAR SANCHEZ

VIDEO EDITOR

SEBASTIAN ROCHA ALVAREZ

MUA

HANEEN SIDIQUI

MODEL

MELISSA BERNARDO

CONCEPT

KAYLA VALDEZ + ISABELLA MENENDEZ +ALBXLU + ANDREA VICTORIA

GRAPHICS

KAYLA VALDEZ + CAMILA BALLESTEROS

ON-SET PRODUCTION

A NOTE TO SELF

By Imani Doss

I lay here, surrounded by the comfort of my dark room. The hum of the fan drowns out the world while my mind refuses to stay silent. Man, today was a rollercoaster. Wish I could hit rewind and do it all over again. There were moments when I knew I could've been more patient. That heated exchange with a customer, resulting in a write-up, plays on a loop. They were upset about the early closure of the fitting rooms, a decision COMPLETELY out of my control. I offered alternatives, but of course, they were irrational and incredibly stubborn. If I wasn’t so wrapped up in my worries about work and school, I would’ve turned the other cheek, but hey, we’re all human, right? The write-up doesn’t matter, I can always get another job. What stings is losing my level-headed demeanor in front of the new trainee? Stress from work and looming finals, mixed with financial worries, created the perfect storm.

Now, the eternal struggle: what to wear for tomorrow’s bonfire. This bonfire is special and personal, we are letting go of the weights on our shoulders and burning them into the sky. I want to slay and send a “new year, new me” vibe into the sky. The outfit needs to pop, especially for those group pics. Balancing school on top of everything is my ongoing struggle. Exams are coming up, and let’s be real, I haven’t cracked a book. That reminds me, it's almost midnight, and I have yet to respond to the discussion posts. My procrastination problem has always been bad, I say I’m going to do something and I never do. Tomorrow, I promise myself, it will be different. This blanket is so nice and toasty but my dog’s hair keeps getting all over it, making my allergies worse. It’s getting late and I have a long day tomorrow, but first, gotta scroll through TikTok. Priorities, right?

I’m craving some serious quality time with Mikey and Dani. It feels like forever since we last hung out, and jeez, scheduling is like cracking a code with how crazy different our lives are. Mikey’s love life? Oh boy, a Tinder rollercoaster- he found someone cool but, plot twist, he’s juggling chats with five others. Classic Mikey. Dani went to a Bahamas getaway which I was hoping to tag along with, but I’m stuck with Dollar Tree dramas instead. These two feisty old ladies were gossiping so loud that I couldn’t help but overhear. It was truly the highlight of my day, well let’s be honest, of my week. I have to plan that coffee date, I can’t wait for the laughs and catching up, a much-needed break from my dark room.

Sleep Until My Dream Takes Me... By Ailish Fontanez The pillow pulls me deeper into dreams I won’t remember. Thoughts that wander from past to future. Ending up in a spiral of confusion. I’m intertwined with my bed. My headphones are too loud to notice. Unless someone taps my shoulder. I’ll stay in a state of limbo.

Reality mixes into something blurry I can no longer make out. Walking in between crossroads in a realm I haven’t been in before My feet take me to trails that end up at the same place I started. Looping around memories and fantasies. A street that's familiar finds its way to me containing the place I was warned about in stories. I stare into the water from the fountain of youth. My reflection is something I can’t make out, my mind not remembering its own features. Contorted in my vision each time the wind blows. Desires I wish to come true before they turn into nightmares. I wake up abruptly to the sound of a fan that was a moment ago a singing bird.

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By Ailish Fontanez Orange hues fall on the horizon. The smell of coffee energizes me. Paint strokes cover a white canvas with illustrations hiding secrets I'll have to explain hundreds of times. Different people have certain pieces to the story, some of which I don’t yet know myself. I'll collect anything I can find along the way. Tossing what doesn’t fit. Until I complete the puzzle. A game I know I'll win every time. Unexpected routes show me the truth in a road trip I know will end. I don’t have to worry about gas, I'll just keep driving until my own fuel runs out. Everything feels warm under the sun of Miami hitting me through the sunroof. My window is down, my hair blows. Worries of the unknown are past me, the waves crash against each other as I float on my back. Peacefully.

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the ever-changing landscape of human expression and identity

The Influence of Aura on Fashion: A Short Insight of this Timeless Connection By Isabella Menendez

Fashion is an ever-evolving art form, serving as both a reflection of societal values and an avenue for personal expression. Through the years, one facet of fashion’s evolution has been the notable influence of aura, an ethereal quality that emanates from individuals and forms their fashion choices. Aura’s impact on fashion dates back to ancient civilizations such as Greece and Egypt. Although clothing was seen more as a necessity, it also displayed one’s social status and in some cases their spiritual beliefs, or “aura.” Pharaohs bedecked themselves with lavish garments, symbolizing their divine aura and presence, while ancient Greek philosophers embraced modesty to project an aura of intellectual prowess and wisdom. During the modern era, the relationship between fashion and aura continued to evolve. The 20th century observed a myriad of fashion movements that were profoundly intertwined with the aura of the times. The Roaring Twenties exuded an atmosphere of defiance, and fashion followed suit with flapper dresses and audacious, carefree styles. The countercultural movements of the 1960s ushered in an ambiance of love, peace, and liberation, reflected in the psychedelic and bohemian fashion trends of that era. Throughout the subsequent decades, the spotlight was claimed by the spirit of individualism and self-expression. Punk fashion emerged and represented a rebellion against conformity, having staple pieces such as leather jackets, torn garments, and provocative accessories. The grunge fashion of the 1990s projected an aura of indifference and disconnection, accentuated by distressed jeans and loose-fitting flannel shirts.

In the 21st century, the impact of aura on fashion remains as potent as ever. However, it has altered to a more inclusive and diverse dimension. Due to the surge of social media and the democratization of fashion, individuals have greater agency in shaping their true style. Celebrities and fashion influencers leverage their personal auras to set trends and encourage self-expression through clothing choices. The aura of eco-consciousness and sustainability have permeated modern fashion as well. Numerous consumers are now drawn to eco-friendly brands and sustainable materials projecting an aura of ethical consumption and environmental consciousness. Likewise, the popularity of gender-neutral fashion reflects a progressive aura of acceptance and inclusivity. In essence, fashion is not merely about clothing; it is a dynamic form of artistic expression that captures the spirit of our times and the distinctive aura of societies and individuals. As fashion continues to advance, so too will its relationship with aura, reflecting the ever-changing landscape of human expression and identity.

...to a better world... By Ailish Fontanez Artificial intelligence will always lack morality, but how many among us will even care. Automatic thoughts are what fills machines. Flesh and blood mix with hard metal into a cyborg that kills us both. So much hate amongst a world that was created for sustenance. Through screens that work as mirrors. People are scared when faced with their own reflection. We’ll keep repeating mistakes over and over until we finally reach something new. Where mechanical hearts no longer rule. Instrumentality won’t erase insecurities. Carry ourselves over to a better world, with crystal balls. Decisions come from soil, gardeners ask nicely for their food. Hammocks surround the trail, the sun doesn’t struggle to shine through. Big problems sometimes seem so easy to fix, but every time justice tries to speak it’s ear gets pulled on. A population will never hold hands again, only in childhood drawings that are discarded when a parent decides there’s no more space in the fridge.

We were never meant to see this much of ourselves.

GRAPHICS DIEGO FRANCO

LOST DREAMS CREATIVE DIRECTOR ALBXLU

PHOTOGRAPHER ALBXLU

STYLISTS

AVA WHERLIN + JASMINE PIERRE+ PRISCILLA POZO + RYLEE STALLINGS

ON-SET PRODUCTION

LOGAN CHI + ALBXLU + ISABELLA MENENDEZ

LIGHTING

ISABEL BARROS + CESAR SANCHEZ

VIDEOGRAPHERS

ANDREA MITCHELL + CESAR SANCHEZ

MUA

HANEEN SIDIQUI

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ROCKSTAR - ANDREA VICTORIA FOOTBALL PLAYER - ANDREW INNOCENT BALLERINA - KABREY E. BETTIS PAINTER - LISA GONZALEZ

CONCEPT

ALBXLU + ANDREA VICTORIA + ISABELLA MENÉNDEZ + LIDIA DELGADO + JASMINE PIERRE + ANDREA MITCHELL

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JADACUS SANTOS + DANIELA VALERIO + DIEGO FRANCO

Notes Unplayed By Isabella Menendez I recall my obsession. I had to be better. The grand piano, a centerpiece in our living room, would rarely experience a moment of silence. Its ebony and ivory keys bore the testimony of my relentless pursuit of perfection. My grandma would often pause her daily chores, loom over from the kitchen door, and just listen to me play. Her eyes would gleam with pride and affection. My participation in piano recitals and competitions became an integral chapter of my life’s story. They wove themselves into the fabric of my formative years, marking milestones of growth.

Despite its elegant appearance, the piano is a formidable beast that is difficult to tame. Tears would blur my vision, frustration boiling over when my fingers stumbled and faltered, refusing to glide across the keys with the grace and precision I so desperately sought. Those were the times when my arms would throb with deep, aching fatigue, a physical manifestation of my inner turmoil. My dream was to go to music school. In those moments spent in audition waiting rooms, surrounded by young pianists, I couldn’t help but notice the complexity of the pieces in their hands, each one seemingly more intricate than mine. It was apparent they were familiar with the judges, understanding their preferences and expectations. The dedication they exhibited was palpable; for every hour I devoted to practice, they seemed to have invested twice as much. My light dwindled. My love dwindled. My passion dwindled. Now, when I walk past my piano, I do so with a nostalgic gaze, hesitant to touch its keys for fear of noticing how much I have regressed. My house now experiences silence Now and then, I find myself drawn to the piano bench. As I play a simple piece, I recall my lost dream.

People say you should have everything together, but nothing e ver really feels like it. You are still figuring out stuff each day.

YOU REFLECT ON WHAT YOU THOUGHT MADE YOU A FAILURE, BUT WITH TIME YOU THINK ABOUT HOW SOME THINGS JUST TAKE TIME.

You never truly let go of your inner passions though. Even if it is not the main career path.

NEVERLAND By Imani Doss

When I grow up I want to be a Popstar, President, Gymnast, Veterinarian, Actor.

Having the ability to dream big can be both a blessing and a curse. It’s a blessing because the possibilities are endless. If you grew up watching Disney, you are shown that if you believe hard enough your wishes will come true. The curse is realizing faith, trust, and pixie dust only work in Neverland and not in reality. As a little kid you play with your toys, imagining what life will look like once you’re older: playing with your Bratz dolls, riding bikes with your friends, and envisioning a life of partying, fun, and hanging out with your besties. You portray it as an adventure buying pop and chips from the “Candy Lady House.” You paint whatever comes to your mind and then it feels like the greatest accomplishment when your picture is hung up on the refrigerator by your parents. Everything was so much simpler then.

You are now in middle school and have let go of the dream of being a princess and a fairy altogether. You realize that if you were a princess, you would have already been born into it or would’ve had a Princess Diaries moment where you had long-lost relatives tell you that they need you to rule a small country. That is not the only change that has happened, you started to replace your toys with electronics and to experiment with makeup. You notice everyone around you wants to become older. Their idols are older brothers and sisters, or teen singers and heartthrobs. Being just a kid seems lame. Everything that you do seems childlike and makes you a target of bullying. If you don’t follow and conform, you will become a laughing stock. You start to feel a new kind of emotion from deep within. It feels like sadness, but much heavier and you feel as though nobody would understand.

When I grow up I want to be a Princess, Fairy, Popstar, President, Gymnast, Veterinarian, Actor.

Everything was so much simpler then.

When I grow up I want to be a Veterinarian or Actor.

You realize that if you were a princess, you would have already been born into it or would’ve had a Princess Diaries moment.

When I grow up I want to be a Veterinarian or Actor. At this point, you are now in high school and it’s not what they displayed on television. High school has its ups and downs, but navigating it starts to feel hard. You try to hang on to the little bit of youth you have left but it’s quickly shut down when you must worry about scholarships and test scores. Parents start to tell you to care about your future more. The dreams you once had dwindled because you must focus on what you can actually achieve and what can make you money. With friends and relationships, life starts to change. Some for the good and some for the bad. Everything feels like its own season. People grow together and some grow apart especially when you overcome your first breakup. Uncertainty continues to pound your mind. What you think you should have control over, you realize you don’t have. You wonder if you can really achieve any of the goals you set in place. Another thought appears: what if you fail at college, then what is the plan? You start to remember Neverland once more and remember Peter Pan’s warning “Once you’re grown up, you can never come back”.

When I grow up, I want to be---You are now officially an adult; you are in your twenties, and you are confused. People say you should have everything together, but nothing ever really feels like it. You are still figuring out stuff each day like learning how to cook or working a job that was never a part of the initial plan. It feels as though your job is just something to bring home income, but it’s not anything you’re truly passionate about. You never truly let go of your inner passions though. Even if it is not the main career path point you squeeze it into your routine because it is something that brings you joy. You reflect on what you thought made you a failure, but with time you think about how some things just take time. You learn to have more gratitude for yourself and where you are in life. Sure, you may be at your parent’s house but at least you have a roof over your head. You may have an apartment and not a home yet, but at least you have independence. Finding the bright side of things can be difficult at times but it is not impossible. Although things may be mundane, we are always “growing up” with every year that passes. The bright side is we can still be whoever we want to be, just with more responsibility and no bedtime. When I grow up, I want to be whatever makes me happy.

Everything feels like its own season.

You bury your feelings down because there is no time to waste. Now you must worry about getting good grades to prepare for high school.

Photograph By Diego Franco

These last few months haven’t been easy, adulthood has managed to creep in and bite me leaving me with a taste of harsh reality. However, scrolling through my phone I stumbled upon this image. An image that teleported me to a different, simpler time. Eager smiling faces, goofy expressions, and peace signs all around. I could almost feel my sweaty palms and could just about hear our fast-beating, drum-like heartbeats.

Those smiling faces. I wonder where they are now? Over time, we may have drifted apart, yet, in that fleeting moment, the essence of it all remains. We could do anything, we were superheroes. We had the ambition and preparation to make that performance the best of the best. We spent months rehearsing to perform our 3 or so minute-long song. While it might seem cheesy, reflecting on this moment I realized that I had and have privilege. Privilege since I’ve been able to share laughs and cross paths. Right now I may feel flat, but looking at this photograph reminds me of a time when everything was intact. Singing and reading staffs. This build-up of emotions, will at some point pass. My stale melody will pick up once more and while life may not be a clear path the superhero in me will soon bite back.

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In my mind, I was on that staircase just seconds before we embarked on, what was at the time, one of the biggest accomplishments of our lives: performing on the grand stage at Carnegie Hall in New York City.

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GRAPHICS DIEGO FRANCO

FUTURE NOSTALGIA CREATIVE DIRECTOR ALBXLU

PHOTOGRAPHER ISABEL BARROS

STYLISTS

RYLEE STALLINGS

ON-SET PRODUCTION LIGHTING

ISABEL BARROS + CESAR SANCHEZ

VIDEOGRAPHER CESAR SANCHEZ

MUA

HANEEN SIDIQUI

HAIR

ANDREA VICTORIA

CONCEPT

JASMINE PIERRE + CESAR SANCHEZ + LOGAN CHI + ANDREA VICTORIA + ALBXLU + ISABELLA MENÉNDEZ + RYLEE STALLINGS

MODELS

JULIAN MEDINA + ALEJANDRO MEDINA

GRAPHICS

DIEGO FRANCO + FRUZSINA PAPP

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A LETTER TO MY FUTURE SELF BY KAITLYN EDEN Dear Future Me, To the person who knew me the most, carrying my ambitions, secrets, passions, and identity. How are you? It’s been a while, hope all is well.

I also trust you still share the belief that each year helps us grow into more of ourselves. Time serves to teach us new ways to figure out and embrace who we are. With each hardship, lesson, and blessing, you’ve persevered and emerged as a more confident and self-defined person. Maturing and evolving takes courage and perseverance, and because of that, I want to thank you for looking out for us and keeping strong despite the world’s challenges. I’d also like to remind you to take some time to enjoy the here and now, and the great people you're sharing this journey with. The future is always changing, full of endless possibilities and sometimes a few bumps in the road. My curiosity will keep me driven towards our goals, and I couldn’t be more impatient to experience the life we’ll live, and the music we’ll create. I know little Katie would be delighted to learn that she’ll grow up to chase her dreams. To the future version of me, I want you to know how proud and excited I am for us. Our world will change for the better with every experience. With love, Your Past Self

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I can imagine it’s been some time since you’ve stopped to reflect on life, but I’m writing to remind you of how far you’ve come, especially with the years gone by. It must feel so strange to think about the person you were when writing this; to be someone in college with so many ambitions, so little time, and yet an optimistic attitude through everything. I think now you can look back and admire our tenacity. I wonder what music or fashion is most trending these days? A lot can happen in 7 years, and although aspects of us might be different, the fundamental parts of us will always be something I believe is worth appreciating. Throughout each change, we experience our determination, integrity, and creativity always shine through. Life probably feels very different after the turn of another decade, and I can only wish that the world is becoming a better place to live in. I hope you’ve become a musician that your 22-year-old self would be obsessed with. Music will always be there for us in life, especially since it means writing, playing, or listening to our heart’s desire, and I know how happy you must be to make a living out of it. It took a while to admit, but singing has always been the foremost way we express ourselves. Life can dissuade us from our passions, but we’ll always find our way back to what we love.

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NOW, IT GLEAMED WITH METALLIC BRILLIANCE, AND THE FUTURE UNFOLDED BEFORE HIM. A SPECTACLE OF INNOVATION.

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SEWING THROUGH TIME By Andrea Rivera

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“Don’t touch that,” warned the store owner, his eyes widening as if he had just seen a ghost. “You don’t want to take that home; I can promise you that.” He gestured to the vintage sewing machine, the only thing in the whole store that caught Alex’s eye. His heart skipped a beat as soon as he stumbled upon it. He had been hunting for inspiration, and he had a gut feeling that this sewing machine held the key. Ignoring the eccentric store owner, Alex approached the machine, his fingers lightly tracing its intricate details. “It’s fascinating. What’s the story behind it?” The store owner hesitated, then sighed. “That thing’s got history. Stitched dreams of “rebels”, they say. But it’s not something you want to mess with. It’s got a mind of its own.” “Stitched dreams? What does that mean?” Alex raised an eyebrow, now intrigued. The store owner nodded, “You can’t control what it shows you. It takes you places and times. It’s not just a sewing machine; it’s a portal. A doorway to the past and future.” Determined, Alex decided to take the risk. After all, the dude is pretty old and crazy, how bad can it be? “I’ll take my chances. I need something like that in my life anyway.” As he smuggled the machine home, he couldn’t shake off the warning the owner gave him. As he set it on his worn-out wooden table, he traced his fingers over it, somehow already feeling connected to it. As he started sewing, a soft hum filled the room, and he found himself conversing with the machine. “This is crazy, right? Talking to a sewing machine.” Alex chuckled nervously. With each stitch, the room transformed. Colors burst and the machine seemed to narrate tales of rebellion. Alex found himself amidst a crowd of free spirits, the air was thick with the spirit of the 60s. The transition to Greenwich Village was seamless, and every stitch he made felt like a nod to those who had dared to be different.

Before he had time to settle, the room shifted again. Now, it gleamed with metallic brilliance, and the future unfolded before him, a spectacle of innovation. While Alex was shocked by the innovation of the future, the machine reminded him that no technology could replace the warmth of human connection. In the silence between stitches, Alex discovered himself. The machine became an extension of his spirit, with each creation he not only found inspiration but a profound connection to his own identity. “Where are you taking me next?” asked Alex. The machine’s noise was playful, “Back to the present, my friend.” The conversation with the machine became a dialogue of emotions, a silent understanding between the two. In the quiet hum of his studio, Alex continued to sew. Each stitch now carried the weight of history and the promise of a future yet to unfold. The room, once filled with the vibrancy of time travel, settled into a peaceful sanctuary. Where creativity thrived and every creation told a story- a story stitched into the very fabric of himself.

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ALEX FOUND HIMSELF AMIDST A CROWD OF FREE SPIRITS, THE AIR THICK WITH THE SPIRIT OF THE 60S.

Each stitch now carried the weight of history and the promise of a future yet to unfold.

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