Too Tight Gym Clothes - Ally Crown

Too Tight Gym Clothes

ALLY CROWN

On Saturday morning, you skip breakfast to make time for a morning run. The bananas you bought will still be waiting on the counter for when you get back. But you’re sweaty, so you peel yourself from the too tight gym clothes you bought (and keep telling yourself you’ll lose enough weight to wear them properly) and letting the water wash away the morning. It’s noon, and the water is no longer enough to quiet your rumbling stomach, so you cave and make half a protein shake. It’s only a whisper now as you let Netflix distract you enough to forget the pains. Whatever energy sleep provided you with is gone by 3 pm, so you drink a cup of black coffee with two sugars. It’s now dinner time, and the smell from the food your family is making finds its way into your bedroom. The oversized hoodie hides your thinning arms and excess of body hair while you take the smallest dinner portion possible. Everything’s okay. You say “no thank you” to dessert and excuse yourself from the table. The water filling your bathtub perfectly muffles the sounds you make while hunched over the toilet. Everything is empty. You almost feel proud of yourself, but the spider in the corner of the ceiling seems to ask, “Did you eat today?”