By Randos Korobacz
Coming out of the tunnel LONELINESS AND APOCALYPTIC MOVIES ARE MOTIVATORS FOR CHANGE IN THE AGE OF COVID-19. IT WAS LATE FEBRUARY AND MY INNER GERMO-PHOBE HAD MAXED OUT ITS CAPACITY FOR TOLERATING PEOPLE. I HAD BEEN FOLLOWING THE DEVELOPMENTS OF THIS MYSTERIOUS DISEASE SINCE THE NEW YEAR. I ONLY SAW IT COMING BECAUSE I’VE HAD A LIFELONG FASCINATION OF ‘APOCALYPTIC’ MOVIES. CONTAGION, WATERWORLD, 12 MONKEYS, THE MATRIX, 28 DAYS LATER, ELYSIUM. YOU NAME IT, I’VE SEEN IT.
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Red thread Magazine - Winter 2020
With a healthy dose of realistic pessimism and a chronic lung condition, I shamelessly horded food, household supplies, medications and went into isolation. After talking about end of days scenarios my entire life, I felt prepared and ready to bear witness to this global calamity. But nothing prepared me for the smash of heartbreak, grief, regret, and selfhatred in my hours of loneliness. There has been plenty of talk about how bad loneliness is, but there has been little talk of how loneliness reveals the unaddressed wounds of our life’s that need healing. I was so heartbroken from the end of a relationship that I had put off dealing it with it for years.
