europeans said some something about binaries by soledad con carne

europeans said some something about binaries

poetry by soledad con carne

24 I’ll never be a mother I whisper in a room filled with anarchist chatter

I hold my ideas like the children I'll never have

Cuz, ideally, i’d have some little house on the prairie shit me my lover our tribe our babies Our children growing in love and stability roaming through strawberry patches and cat farms

but I sold my womb out for freedom A skewed version of freedom Where I try to hide the beautiful parts of myself In exchange for a colonized sense of masculinity

Deprivation of heart The silencing of the soul Selling feelings as fallacies that says we’re nothing going nowhere and life can’t be celebrated with kisses and lavender

what is my masculinity apart from a brutish sensibility on pride and how I can out drink every fool on the block where is my femininity when I’m drowning in loneliness and an inability to connect to some sense of “we,” like, community, like, I know what it is to love every definition of you as you love every definition of me and what can be created out of a love that exudes what is sacred in magnolias and honeybees and sharing a smoke on the bleachers at the park at 3 a.m.

I am the mother, the giver, the lover I am my father, the drinker, the runner

I am skewed in my own vision of Compassion I only birth what it is to question your own action

Anglos said get rid of the magic in creation I was given Overpopulation and the quote/unquote human condition,

they say my kids will just add to statistics

But, I am the god(dess) Coatlicue I am the creator With my serpent head I am the destroyer With my taloned feet

I am all masc and femme energies I am what it is to be of the earth.

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