Fall 2013

BLU EST AYE

FALL 2013

BLU EST AYE FALL 2013

FROM THE EDITORS Wes ay“he ar tands oul ”l i kewes ay“s al tandpe ppe r . ”Ani ne vi t abl epai r i ng.

Butt het woc oul dn’ tbemor edi f f e r e nt .Ours umme ri s s uef ol l owe dt het he meof he ar t .Thehe ar ti spas s i on.Thehe ar ti sbr i ghtc ol or sandf i r e .Thehe ar ti se as y t os e eande as yt ode s c r i be .The r e ’ sar e as ont hephr as ei s n’ tt o“we aryours oul onyours l e e ve . ” That ’ sbe c aus et hes ouli shar de rt ode s c r i be .I ft hehe ar ti ss hout e d,t hes ouli s whi s pe r e d.Fal li st hepe r f e c tanal ogt ot hes oul .I ti squi e t e r ,c al me r ,mor e s ubt l e .Af t e rwes oakupt hes umme rc ol or s ,t he yf adeaway,t aki ngt hewar mt h wi t ht he m.We ’ r el e f twi t ht hewar mt ht hatweke e pi ns i de .Thewar mt ht hat doe s n’ tc omeandgol i keaf i c kl ef r i e nd,c omi ngar oundonl yf orf un.Thes ouli s t hatt r ue rwar mt ht hatweal wayshol dont o,nomat t e rhowc ol dt heout s i de wor l dge t s .I ft hehe ar ti ss umme r ,t hes ouli sf al l .

Thanks for reading.

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ROY BEKEMEYER “Falling�

I nf al l ,i tal ls e e mst os pi r aloutofc ont r ol .Wet hi nkofaf oot bal l , be aut i f ul l yt hr own,butwi t hnoonedownf i e l dt or e c e i ve .Buti t doe s n' tmat t e r ,anyway-t hebal li sl os ti nt hec l ut t e rofaut umn' s l e ave s .Thede pe ndabl edaysofhe atandl i ghtgi vewayt oal t e r nat i ngc ur r e nt soff al s es umme r ,i ne ptwi nt e r .Or i ons t r addl e st heme r i di anasi fhec an' tde c i dewhi c hwayt ol e an.Thef al l i ngmus tbe t heke y-ol de ar t h,t i l t i ngove r ,bac ki ngawayf r om t hes un,gi vi ng he re ye saf e wmont hsr e s tf r om t hegl ar e .Soonhe rgl as s e swi l lf og ove rwi t hf r os t ,ands hewi l lbl i ndl ys i nki nt oas nowys omnol e nc e .

Eve nt ual l ys hewi l lt ot t e rbac kt owar dt hee nt i c i ngwar mt h.Butf or nows hei spas tt het i ppi ngpoi nt ,outofbal anc e ,noar mst obr e ak he ri mpac t ,pl ungi nghe ri ne vi t abl ewayt owar dwi nt e r .

ADRIAN FORT “Snorts”

Mar i ewasal waysbl ue .Bl ueandgr e e n,l i ket hes umme rs kyandt hes pr i ngf i e l ds .

That ’ showIr e me mbe rhe rbe c aus et hat ’ swhe r eIr e me mbe rhe r .

Weme ti nt hewi nt e r ,butIdon’ tr e me mbe rwi nt e rMar i e .

Outf i r s tdat ewasonVal e nt i ne ’ sDaybe c aus ewewe r ebot hbor e d.Bot hl one l y.And ne i t he rofusr e al l yunde r s t oodVal e nt i ne ’ sDay,di dn’ tbe l i e vei ni t .Weagr e e dt hati t wasas i l l yhol i day,ahol i daywhe r eyoul ove ds ome oneal lye ar ,bute s pe c i al l yon Val e nt i ne ’ sDay.Whe nIwe ntove rt ohe rmom’ shous et os e ehe r ,i twas n’ tadat e .By t het i meIl e f t ,wewe r e n’ tl one l yanymor e .Butt hat ’ snothowIpi c t ur ehe r -s t uc ki ns i de ands e e i ngmybr e at handdr i vi ngt hr ought hes now,t hat ’ snothowIr e me mbe rhe r .

Sundr e s s e sandmor edayl i ghtt hanyouknowhowt ous e ,t hat ’ showIr e me mbe r Mar i e .

Andhe rhai rc ur l e dl i kes mokebi l l owsandhe rs ki nwas n’ tl i ghtandi twas n’ tdar k,i t wasme di um l i kec ar ame l ,butIc al l e dhe r“c ooki e sandc r e am. ”Be c aus ehe rdadwas bl ac kl i ket hec ooki ei sbl ac kandhe rmom waswhi t el i ket hec r e am waswhi t e .And whe ns heas ke dwhyIc al l e dhe rt hatIs ai dbe c aus ehe rdaddywasbl ac kl i keas hadow atni ght ,andhe rmommawaswhi t el i kegodf or gott oc he c kt he“c ol or ”box.Ands he l aughe ds ohar ds hehadt os nor tf orhe rbr e at hi ngt oc at c hup.Laughe ds ohar dt hathe r e ye swat e r e dandhe rl ungss que e z e dands hes nor t e d.Laughe ds ohar dhe rc ar ame lf ac e t ur ne dpur pl eandhe rnos t r i l sgotr e albi g.Andhe rt e e t h,s owhi t e ,andt hef r ontone c hi ppe d.Shehat e dhe rc hi ppe dt oot h,buti twasoneofmyf avor i t et hi ngsabouthe r , andt hat ’ swhyIt r i e ds ohar dt omakehe rl augh.Ands heal waysl aughe dt hatl augh, t hats nor tl augh,whe ne ve ryoumadeaj okeaboutGodmaki ngami s t ake ,orf or ge t t i ng s ome t hi ng,orge t t i ngangr yandc ar e l e s st hewaype opl ege tangr yandc ar e l e s s .

Bluest Aye Fall 2013 Be f or eMar i eIal wayswonde r e daboutgod.I nt hemi ds tofMar i e ,Iwasdr agge dt o c hur c handbe c ameabac kr owBapt i s t .Eve r yday,Godwasgood.AndGodwasgood e ve r yday.Pr ai s eJe Sus .That ’ showMar i es ai dJe s us .Li kei twast woname s .Ge e .

Zuhs s .I ’ ds ays ome t hi ng,anyt hi ng,“gonnage ts omef ood”t he nI ’ d“pr ai s eGe eZuhs s ” wi t hal i t t l epul l i ngmot i onl i kewhe nyout r yt oge tas e mit ohonkhi shor nont hehi ghway.“Got t at akeape e ,pr ai s eGe eZuhs s . ”Ands he ’ dl aughandl aughands nor t .Whe n Mar i el e f t ,Idi dn’ tt hi nkaboutgodanymor e .

Thel as tt i meIs awMar i e ,i twasdar kandSe pt e mbe r ,andi twasmys e me s t e rof Shake s pe ar e .

Be f or eShake s pe ar eIal wayswonde r e daboutI ambi cPe nt ame t e r .Whi l et aki ngShake s pe ar e ,e ve r yt hi ngIs ai dc ameouti nI ambi cPe nt ame t e r .Af t e rt hes e me s t e rofShake s pe ar e ,t het houghtofI ambi cPe nt ame t e rwasl i kebe i ngs t uc ki ns i deands e e i ngmy br e at handdr i vi ngi nt hes now.

Wewe r eout s i deandmyShake s pe ar ehome wor kwasi ns i de ,ands hewasl e avi ngbutI wasgone .

Dur i ngt hats e me s t e r ,e ve r yt hi ngIs ai dc ameouti nI ambi cPe nt ame t e r ,e xc e ptf or t hatni ght ,be c aus et omakeI ambi cPe nt ame t e r ,youne e dt e ns yl l abl e s .

Shewasc r yi ng.Shewasc r yi ng,buts hewast heonel e avi ng.Is t i l ldon’ tunde r s t and t hat ,andIr e me mbe rt hi nki ng,youc an’ thavei tbot hways .Ands hewant e dt os aya pr aye r ,s hewant e dt opr ayf ormeandf orhe randf orus .Shewant e dt opr ayt hate ve r yt hi ngwoul dwor kt ogod’ spl an,butIdon’ tbe l i e vei npl ans .Pl ansar el i keVal e nt i ne ’ s Day.Tomeanyway.Butt he ywe r el i keGe eZuhs st oMar i e .AndGe eZuhs shadhi s pl ans .Pr ai s eGe eZuhs s .Ands hewant e dt opr ay,butIwant e dt ohavei tbot hwayst oo, s oIwast heones t ayi ng,butwhe ns hec l os e dhe re ye s ,ands que e z e dt het e ar soutl i kea s nor t ,Iwasgone .

ButIdon’ tl i ket ot hi nkoft hatMar i ee i t he rbe c aus eIdon’ tl i ket ot hi nkoft hatme .

Mar i ewasal waysbl ue .Bl ueandgr e e nl i ket hes umme rs kyandt hes pr i ngf i e l ds .AndI wasf unnye nought omakehe rs nor t .

BRYNNE QUINLAN “90 minutes on spring”

It ol dt hewomant os t opwat c hi ngmehe re yec ont ac tmademeunc omf or t abl eand idi dn’ te ve nknowwhos hewas ( Al t houghI ’ m nots ur et hi si sr e l e vantbe c aus eIwass t ar i ngatabr i c kwal lanyway) iwast heonl ype r s on t he r ewhos eagec oul dbedi vi de dbyf i ve ands t i l lbeas i ngl edi gi t if e e ll i kes hi f t i ngc ot t onpul l i ngapar taus e dqt i pwi t hac r yl i cf i nge r nai l s wi t hj us tr e gul arnai l sbe c aus et he nt hec ot t onwoul dge ts t uc kt ot hel aye r sofyourf i nge r nai l st hathadc omeof fi nf l ake ski ndofl i kes e as al tandt hewaxwoul dge tbe ne at h andyouwoul dbes oawar eoft hes pac ebe t we e n t hede adyou andt hel i vi ngs ki nofyou butnotal lofushavel i vi ngs ki nofusc ove r e di nr i f t sandr ange s s ki nt hati swar pe dl i keuns pr e adpl as t e rors ki nt hatl ooksl i ket hebot t omsofmyt e e t ht hat c an’ tbi t e ,s ot he ys t aye dasr i dge s ,notasl i ne s s ki nt hatgr e wt hewayt i s s uedoe swhe nabas e bal lbatc at c he syourgums i ti ss al mons c al e s i ti syourf at he rdoi ngc ar t whe e l si nc r ac ke dgl as s andbubbl e sunde radol l spl as t i cl e g ove ras t ove t opbe c aus eyouwe r ec ur i ous i ti sr unni ngourhandove rt her i bsofac atand f e e l i ngr ubi e sandr ubbe rbands andt ouc hi ngbr e at h be c aus ewhe niwas7iputac onc r e t ebari nbe t we e nmys hi nandmykne e c apand t her e donmyke dswass or i c h,ine ve rwant e dt owe arne ws hoe sagai n andbe c aus emyunc l et ol dmeimi ghtne ve rbeal e gmode landhewas n’ tmyunc l e andhewass t one d

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igue s st hats ki ngr owsl i ket hemoondoe s gr owswi t hc r at e r sandde pt h “Di dyouknows t e r oi dsc anRe duc eore ve nEl i mi nat es c ar s ? ”andis ai d, “Howdi dARodhur thi ms e l f ? ” butiwantt obe gi nt odr e am ne xtt ot hes moot hs ki nbe c aus e iwantt os hi f tandf e e ls i l knots pac kl ebe c aus eiwantt owal kbar e f oott hr ough t hehi ghs c hoolgymnas i um ofc ol orf i e l dswhe r et hats ki ni sl i keac ol dbe e ronat ongue madeofphi l l yc he e s e s t e aknots he e t sc ove r e di npi e c e sofpl as t e rorc atf oodbuts he e t sof s apphi r e be c aus eiwi l lt r adeyourwe i ghti ns apphi r e

RODOLFO MARRON III

Through the Blue, We Saw the Thruth

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JAN DUNCAN O’NEAL “Wings of the Soul” I nCai r o,Ki ngTut ’ ss oulf l ut t e r s .

I nvi s i bl ei nagl as smus e um c as e .

I nPl ymout h,unde radomeofwe e pi ngwi l l ows , Jos i ahLe vi t t ’ sc r umbl e sonhi sgr ani t et ombs t one .

Mi nec ome st omeannual l yi ndr e ams .Onc ei thove r e d ove rmyhe adl i keawhi t ebut t e r f l y’ sbe ne di c t i on.

Las twe e ki tc ameagai n,as hadowyc r e at ur e .

Apar tofmeand,ye t ,notqui t eapar t .I t sf e at he r s c ar r i e dmel i ght l youtoft hedar k.

t hes kyr ol l sby ac r e sandac r e s

JOHN THOMAS MENECINI

ofbl ue wi nds we pt s he e t s dappl e dby s ke l e t alwi s p t e as e dc ot t on c l ouds c l ums yf oot e d I downhe r e c ol l e c tt het e e t h l os tonmyl as tbe t ne ve rwasagoodgambl e r gol de ndaysbe hi ndme t hec ol dwhi s t l e s t hr oughdar kpi ne s br oodi ngonmyas s gummi ng ol dwounds i nmyne s tof or c hi ds r ac i ngf or ms &gl as s

“Ixnay”

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ROY BEKEMEYER “Centering�

Thebal anc i ngpoi nt i s ,af t e ral l ,notwhe r e youar e ,orwhe r eIam, buts ome whe r ebe t we e n, att hatpoi ntZe nos ai d wec oul dne ve rt r ul yge tt o, goi ngati tbyhal ve s .

Sol e t ' sdi vei nal l t heway,whol l y,e nt i r e l y, wi t hal lt heabandonwe onc ebr oughtt oe ac hot he r e ve r yday,i ns pi t eof al lt hepas tt hat ' spul l i ng atourhe e l s .Le t ' sr us h he adl ongt oge t he rasi f wehadne ve rt ur ne dourbac ks t ooneanot he ratal l .

SHANE MCKIGHT

“The Escape Route in the Dark” Whe nt hee l de r sc ameupwi t ht headag e ,' The r ei snone e dt of e aradar kne s swi t ho utl e o par ds , ' t he ydi dno tme ant hes i t uat i o ni nwhi c hMr .Bhi dl i z af o undhi ms e l fi n. . .

Onc euponat i met he r el i ve dave r ynot or i ousman.Hehadt hebe gui l i ngf ac eofa yout hf ulmode l ,gui l t l e s se ye sofat r i e dandt e s t e dde vout ,abe e t l i ngc hi nwhos ebe ar d l ooke dal i t t l et ool e ngt hyandt hi c kf orc omf or t ,ands ome t i me spr i e s t l y,andahands ome l yc ur vymout ht hats e e me dt omos e y,gyr at eandbe am e ac ht i meheut t e r e dor s mi r ke d.

I ti sr umour e dt hats omeadol e s c e ntHl at s hwayowome nf e t c he r sofwat e r ,atar i ve r we l l ,onc ee xc hange dr az or s har pbl owsaf t e rar gui ngove rt henumbe roft i me she bat he dpe rdayandwhe t he rhede vot e dmor et i met owar dmaki ngbabi e st hant hi e vi ng.

Uponbe i ngpr e s s e dt oc l ar i f ywhyhehadt oomanyc hi l dr e n,hewasqui c kt ounde r l i ne t hate ve nt heBi bl ee nc our age spe opl et opr ol i f e r at ewhi l s tt hehe al t he xpe r t shar pon c hi l ds pac i ng( whi c hi nhi sc as eandunde r s t andi ngt r ans l at e di nt ohavi ngc hi l dr e ni n di f f e r e ntvi l l age s ! ) .Whatwasnor umour ,t hough,wast hatwome nofal lage sands i z e s , i nge ne r al ,f e l love rt he ms e l ve sf orhi m.

I ti ss ai dt hatoneve r ydar kni ghtMr .Bhi dl i z ahads nuc ki nt ot hehome s t e adofa l oudmout he dme mbe rofpar l i ame nt ,andwi t hi ns e c onds ,t hehonour abl eMe mbe rof Par l i ame nt ’ sc l as s yc arwasc r ui s i ngatbr e akne c ks pe e donabumpyr oadwhe ni te ve nt ual l ye xpe r i e nc e dabr e akdown.Mr .Gwe bu— ( f ort hatwashi sr e alname )— al i ght e d f r om t hes t ol e nve hi c l e ,pr i e dope nt hebonne t ,andwasunmi s t akabl yi mme r s e di nt he ge ar boxwhe naf e mal evoi c es udde nl ye manat e df r om t hebac ks e at !Forawhi l ehewas t r ans f i xe d.

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“Whydon' tyoul ookatt henumbe rpl at e s ,Se kaNt ombi ?”Mr .Gwe bus hudde r e datt he que s t i on.

“Whydon’ tyoul ookatt henumbe rpl at e s ,Se kaNt ombi ?Havewegonepas touranc e s t r alc e me t e r y,Se kaNt ombi ? ”Thef e mal evoi c ec ameal i veagai n.Hi skne e ss qui r me d i ns i dehi sgol dde s i gne rt r ous e r s .

I ti ss ai daghos t l yappar i t i one ngul f e dandout s mar t e dhi m andhet or eaway,vani s hi ngi nt odi s t anc e ,i nt ot hec onc e nt r at e ddar kne s st hatal s oe ngul f e dhi m.

Ther e c e nt l yawake ne dol dwomani ss ai dt ohavef l e e t i ngl ys ne e z e d,s al i vat e dand s nooz e d,t he ndoz e danddr ool e dagai n;be f or ee ve nt ual l ys l i ppi ngi nt oaf ul l yf l e dge d s l umbe rc har ac t e r i z e dbyadr e am t hatgavehe ranal l s e e i ngr ol e : Anar ml e s sbe ar de dpr i e s tt al ksi nmonol ogue sofwal ki ngi mpe c c abl yc l e an,s e e kst o s c ampe rawayf r om whatl ooksl i keagl oomypal ac ei nf e s t e dwi t hnumbe r l e s smar c hi ng di s gr unt l e ds ke l e t onsandwhe e z i ngbe e s .Butal ongt heonl ypat ht hatpur por t e dl yl e ads t ot hegat eoff r e e dom l ur ksade e pdi t c h.Thepi ti spi t i l e s s l ydar kandawe s ome l ybl i s t e r i ng.

Thef ugi t i vec l e r i c ,he avyl ade nwi t hamount ai nousl ootofgol dands i l ve r ,c ar s ,c at t l e andc ur s e s ,gar me nt sandgr udge s ,wome nandwe akne s s e s ,f ar c i c alt r ut hsandgos s i psi n pl ac eoft hegos pe lofs al vat i on,br i be sandbr ut al i t yi ns t e adofbi bl e sandpe ac e ,human bone sandhumanodour ,andot he rpr obl e mat i cpar aphe r nal i a,l i t e r al l ygr ope sf ort he pat ht hatl e adst owar df r e e dom,buts l i psi nt ot hegl oomypi t !

Somevi l l age r ss oonc omet ot hepar t y,andLor dofLor ds ,s her e c ogni z e ss omeoft he m

“The Escape Route In the Dark” (cont.) ast hec hi e fpr i e s t sdi e har ds yc ophant sandmi s t r e s s e s !Shet r i e st odr i vet he m awayt o noavai last he yhur ldownonepar tofal ongr opei nt ot heabys sf ort hepal ac ee s c ape e t oc l i nc hwi t hhi sl ongmat ur e dbutt i r e l e s sandme r c i l e s st e e t h.Up,upt hef awni ngpoor pawnspul lt het oughl i ne .

Ont heve r geofr e ac hi ngt hes ur f ac e ,hi st hr i l lofant i c i pat e dr e l i e fandf orc ont i nue d r e i gngal vani z e shi mt opr e mat ur e l yut t e r ,“Thankyouc om…”andwi t hhi shor r i bl e he ap,hef al l st r agi c al l ybac k!

Conf ounde d,t heol dwomanwokeup.Fe e l i ngas t ar t l i ngme as ur eofr e l i e fandf r e e dom, s hewai t e di nvai nunt i ldawnbe c ameave r di c tt hatpr oc l ai me dt hats hehadbe e ns t ol e n aswe l l .Shec l ai mst hats uc hahor r i f yi ngme mor yi se ns hr i ne di nhe rhe ar tupt ot hi s ve r ymome nt .

RYAN WILKS

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RODOLFO MARRON III

Pull Me Up By the Roots of My Hair

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BRYNNE QUINLAN “To live and Die in LA�

Iam nowanac t or , Iwe arac os t umeandwal kar oundandpr e t e ndt hatIam nothuman, It akephot ogr aphswi t hs mal lc hi l dr e nwhi l ee xt or t i ngt he i rpar e nt s .

Ihaver e c e i ve dt hr e es ouve ni rs poons ,f our t e e nTagHue rWat c he s ,ahandf ulofc i gar e t t e s , onepai rofpant yhos e(wi t har un) ,andanI l l i noi sLi c e ns epl at ewi t he xpi r e dt agst hatI hadt or e movemys e l fbe c aus et he ywe r ei nl i nef orAs mal lwor l dandhads pe ntt hel as tof t he i rmone yone mbr oi de r i ngt he i rdaught e r snameonas mal lc apwi t he ar s ,t hi swe e k.

The yi nt ur nr e c e i vePol ar oi dst hatt he yhavet os hakef ore t e r ni t y.

Thef i r s tt i mei twass pe l ti nc or r e c t l y,butt he ywe r enotr e f unde dbe c aus et hemanc oul d notpr onounc ehi sT' s .He rnamewasE.Ti f f anyNao.I tr e adEpi phanyNow.Ti f f any di dn' tunde r s t and,buthe rf at he rdi danddi vor c e dhe rmot he rr i ghtt he r ei nf r ontoft he Chur r ove ndor .Hes ur r e nde r e dt heke yst ot hes he dwhe r ehehadaf f ai r saswe l lass t or e d hi spowe rt ool s .

Ial wayst houghtt hatde at hwoul dc omel i kec atc l awsonhar dwood,s me l ll i ker i nd.It e nd t oe att her i nd,af t e ripe e li tof fofor anges l i c e swi t hmyl e f tf i nge r nai l sandus emyr i ght i nde xt odi gi toutf r om unde r ne at h.Thedi r tmi xe swi t ht her i ndandbot ht ur ngr e y.Ie at t her i ndbe c aus eourr e l at i ons hi pl ooksne ut r al .

Iwe aral ar gemas k,t hatwr apsal lt hewayar oundmyhe ad.I thast hr e ebar st hatme e tat apoi ntatt het opofmyhe ad,t oke e pt hebal anc e .Whe ni tge t shotIc anf e e lt hebar s ,and ic anf e e lt hes we atf or m moat sar oundt heme t alandi ts t ar t st os l i p.Whe ni ts t ar t st os l i p Igas pal i t t l e ,Igas pandbi t sofnyl onr e dge ts t uc ki nbe t we e nmyt e e t h.Igas pbe c aus ei t , t oc hi l dr e n,l ooksl i keI ' vebe e nde c api t at e d.The ys t ar tt oc r y,andt he i rmot he r sge te xas pe r at e dandt e l lt he mt ogopl antt he i ras s e sonabe nc ht ot hi nkaboutr e al i t y.He r et he r ei s not hi ngt ot r ans c r i bebuts i ghsands c r e amsandt hehi s sofpi s t ons .

The r ei snoc avi arhe r e ,Ial wayst houghtt he r e ' dbec avi ar .

ROY BEKEMEYER “Peripheral Visions” al waysone dge i showwes e e he r ,whywel os e t r ac kass het ur nsi nt o andoutofourl i ve s ,s pi ns l i ket her i ngsofSat ur ns e e ne dge on, t hi nst onot hi ng,ye t war pst hec ur ve d r e ac he sofours pac e , s we e pst hepe r i phe r y oft hes t ar r e dandgyr at i ng gal axi e st hatar ee ac hofus , e ns nar e d,asweal lar e , bygr avi t y

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BRYNNE QUINLAN “Structured”

ane ve ni ngats e ve ni se qui val e ntt odawnbi r dwi s e ,ands pe aki ng abouti ti se qui val e ntbe c aus enoonei st he r et ohe ari tbe i ngs ai d. i fwor dsar et hi ngsandt hi ngsr e mai n whe r et he yar e i ’ m nots ur et hatmat t e r s . ort hi ngsr e mai nwhe r et he yar eunl e s syoumove t he m.t hi sdoe s n’ tc hangei ft het hi ngi si nt angi bl e myc ati st angi bl e t hewal li st angi bl ebutIc an’ tde c i dei fc l i mbi ngi ti s t angi bl e ,doyoune e d anadhe s i vet os t i c kt hi ngst oge t he rs ot hatyouc an t ouc h bot hatt hes amet i me . youus ewor dsl i kehandt owe l s ,youus ewor ds l i kemi nt sbe f or edi nne r l i keI ’ ms ur eWi l lI .Am us e dhi s mus i c alpr oduc t i onbac kgr oundt ode c ons t r uc tt hede f e ns i ves t r at e gyoft heCl i ppe r s andBl akeGr i f f i n’ sr e boundpe r c e nt age . ( I ’ m nots ur et hatmat t e r s ) s t abl et abl e s t abl et abl e s t abl et abl e doubl ec he c kt hes t r uc t ur als t abi l i t yoft hes ur f ac e ( I ’ m nots ur et hatmat t e r s ) t abl i ngt hedi s c us s i on:doe st apequal i f yasanadhe s i vee ve ni fi ti sonl yaf r ac t i onoft he mat e r i al ,andi ft her e s ti ss l i c k,doe st hatmakewhati t ’ sapar tofmor eunde r hande d?

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youus ewor dsl i ket he ywe r e n’ twe dt oge t he rwi t hs ome t hi ngyouc ans e e .

Davi dFos t e rWal l ac e ’ swr i t i ng,ye s t e r day,ove r s hadowe dbyc l os e dc apt i oni ngdur i nga boxi ngmat c h. hs ,has ,hs ad,hs ads ,hs ads s ht ,haSAHt r us k Iam goi ngt obe att hes hi toutofyou,s ot hatIc anmaker i ghtangl e soutofLi nc ol nl ogs .

Iwass i x,bute ve nt odayt her i ghtangl ehasi t si mpor t anc ei nat ur n,t ur ni ngr i ght .

Li nc ol nl ogsr e al l yhol dt he ms e l ve st oge t he r ,e ve ni ne ar t hquake s ,be c aus et he yar emadet o s i twi t hi nt he ms e l ve s .I nt he i rge ome t r i cc ons t r uc t i on,t he ys t i c kt oge t he r . ( I ’ m nots ur et hatmat t e r s )

SUE FERGUSON “Loose Ends”

Lunc hwasonl yt we nt ymi nut e si n,andal r e adyIwast i r e doft heuns ol i c i t e dadvi c e f r om t hi swoman/ t hi sr e t i r e dt e ac he rwhowasdr e s s e dpe r f e c t l y,downt ot hehotpi nk pl as t i cbe adne c kl ac e / r os ar yt hi ngt hatmat c he dt hehotpi nki nt heabs t r ac tpat t e r ni n he rbl ous e ,t hi swe l l me ani ngs oult e l l i ngmei nbe t we e nbi t e sofhe rs al adands ouphow s hewoul ddomyj obi fi twe r ehe rj obt odo.Hows hehaddonehe rj obal lt hos eye ar si n t hats ubur banwe s tL. A.c ommuni t yandhows hehadf oundgr e ats at i s f ac t i oni ni tbut t he ns hehadt or e t i r et ot akec ar eofhe rpar e nt swhowe r ebot hde adnowandhadl e f t he ratl oos ee nds .“I ’ m atl oos ee ndsnow, ”s hes ays ,he re ye sque s t i oni ng.Asi fl oos e e ndswe r eade s t i nat i ont owhi c hwear eal lonedaydoome dt oar r i ve .

It ur nt omyf or me rl ove r ,t hePr i nc eofLoos eEnds ,whoi ss i t t i ngac r os sf r om mei n t her e s t aur antboot h,ne xtt ot hi sNe wGi r l f r i e nd,ne xtt oal lt henoi s et hatke e psl e aki ngoutofhe r ,gr i nni ngwi t hde l i ghtt hatNe wGi r l f r i e ndandIappe art obehi t t i ngi tof f s owe l lde s pi t et hef ac tt hatIt ol dhi mi nadvanc et hatIf e l tt hatme e t i ngt hi spe r s on woul dbeawkwar dandIdi dnotwantt odoi t .

“So,whathaveyoube e ndoi ng? ”Ias khi m.

“Ihavebe e nhe l pi ngCandyc emoveout .SheandAndr e wgotahous ei nMe s a.The y havebe e nf i xi ngi tup.Thef l oor swe r ei nbads hape .Tor eoutt hef l oor i ng,r e pl ac e di t wi t ht hats ome t hi ngs ome t hi ngbl ahdi t t ybl ahl ami nat ef l oor i ngs ys t e mf r om Home De pot . ” Ofc our s e ,HomeDe pot ,whe r eAndr e wwor ke dl as tt i mewet al ke d.Dono tas ki fhes t i l l wo r kst he r e .

“The yar emovi ngout .Iwi l ls oonge tmyr oomsbac k.Ge tmygar agebac k.The yhavea

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dog, ”het e l l sme .

Ye s ,Ir e me mbe ryoume nt i oni ngt hedogbac ki nMaywhe nwehaddi nne rwhe nI dr ovet oPe or i at opi c kupal oadofdonat e dbooksf r om yourc hur c h.Youdi dn’ tl i ke t hedog,whi c hwasal ar gepuppybac kt he n,i fIr e c al l .Yout ol dmet hatCandyc e ’ sl i f t i ngoft hedogi swhatc aus e dhe rmi s c ar r i age .Dono tas ki ft he r ei sano t he rb ab yi nt he o v e n.Yo udono tc ar ewhe t he rCandy c eandAndr e w,whohav el i v e di nhe rf at he r ’ sho us ef o r f i v ey e ar s ,s i nc e2008,e v e rpr o duc eac hi l d.Yo udono tc ar ewhe t he rt he s epe o pl e ,whov i l i f i e d y o ue v e r yc hanc et he yc o ul dwhi l ey o uwe r el i v i ngwi t hhe rdadandhe l pi nghi mde alwi t hhi s g r i e fo v e rt hel o s so fhi swi f e ,e v e rpr o duc eany t hi ngl i v i ng .Ev e r .

“Iwi l lnotbes adt os e et hatpupgo, ”hec ont i nue s .“I thasl i t e r al l yc ove r e dmei n s c r at c he s ,j umpe duponmes omanyt i me s ,c ove r e dmei ns c r at c he ss ode e pt he yhave s pl i tmeope nl i keame l on. ” Aqui c kgl anc eathi sar msr e ve al snowounds .Hi sf l e s hi saspas t yandc ove r e dwi t hage s pot sase ve r .Iam hopi ngt os e es c ar s ,e vi de nc eofl onggas he st hathavebl e df r e e l yasa r e s ul toft hedog’ se xube r anc e ,butt he r ei snot hi ng.Jus tt hes ki nofanol dman,l i ket he s ki nofac ant al oupe .May b et hedo gj umpso nhi sl e g s .Ir e f r ai nf r om l e ani ngove rand gl anc i ngunde rt het abl e .Idonotwantt os e et hos epas t ywhi t el e gs .

“AndI ’ vebe e nt hi nki ngaboutr e pl ac i ngt hec ar pe ti nt hel i vi ngr oom andhal l . ” Re pl ac i ngt hec ar pe t .Youwe r et hi nki ngaboutt hati nt hes pr i ngof2010,s oonaf t e r wer e t ur ne df r om l i vi ngi nTe xas .Youwe r et hi nki ngabouti ts ode e pl yt hatyout ol dme s e ve r alt i me s ,s omanyt i me sIf e l tl i kei twass ome t hi ngyouwe r es ayi ngt oc onvi nc e your s e l f ,t hatIc oul dnotadoptane wdogbe c aus ei twoul dpe eal love rt hei magi ne d ne wc ar pe tandr ui ni t .Ir e c al lt hel as tt i meyous ai di tt ome :Se pt e mbe r14,2010.

“Loose Ends” (cont.)

Youwe r evi s i t i ngyourdaught e randhe rf ami l yi nnor t he r nCal i f or ni a.Iwasathome , wor ki ngasanadj unc tatt wos c hool st hr e edaysawe e k.Youc al l e dt os e ehowt hi ngs we r egoi ng.Ihadf al l e ni nl ovewi t has mal lbl ac kdogatt heani mals he l t e randI want e dt ogoge ti t ,adopti t ,br i ngi thomeandf al li nl ovewi t hi tal love ragai n.Ihad s e ntyoui t sphot o.Ihade xpl ai ne dt oyouhowt hedogwass mal le nought of i tt hr ough t hedoggydoori nt hel aundr yr oom andhowi twoul dge tal ongwonde r f ul l ywi t hyour l i t t l edogandhowi twashous e br oke nandal lt hat .Yout ol dmeyoudi dn’ tknow,you we r et hi nki ngaboutc hangi ngt hec ar pe ti nt hel i vi ngr oom andhal l .It ol dyouagai n t hatt hedogwashous e br oke n.Yous ai dt hatdi dn’ tmakeanydi f f e r e nc e .Youdi dn’ t wantt hi sdogoranyot he rdogpi s s i ngont hec ar pe ti nt hehal lwhe r eyourc at ,your mi l l i onye ar ol dc att hathaddi e dt hepr e vi ousye ar ,hadpi s s e df or e ve r .Ne wc ar pe t .

Ol dc ar pe t .Youdi dn’ twantanyot he rdogsi nt hehous e .“Andt hat ’ st hee ndofi t ! ”you s hout e d.Ir e me mbe ryous ayi ngi tasc l e ar l yasi fyouhads ai di tt hi smor ni ng.Be c aus e Ir e me mbe rt hi nki ng,y o uhav ene v e rs po ke nt omel i ket hi sb e f o r e .Yo uhav eno tt r e at e dme asi fIwe r eane ne myo raf o e .Yo uhav eo nl yr ai s e dy o urv o i c eac o upl eo ft i me s ,andt he n, o nl yb e c aus eIs ho ut e daty o uf i r s t .Thi swasane wt one ,ane wi nf l e c t i on,s ome t hi ngt hat hadt r ans pi r e ds i nc eyoul e f tf orCal i f or ni a.Pe r hapss ome t hi ngi ns pi r e dbyr e mar ksby yourc hi l dr e n.Pe r hapss ome t hi ngi ns pi r e dbyal lt hatt i meal onei nt hec arwhi l eyou dr ovet oCal i f or ni a,al lt hatt i meal onet hatyouhadt or e me mbe ryourl i f ewi t hMe gan, yourde adwi f e ,andwi s hs hewe r es t i l lhe r e .

Inodde di nac knowl e dgme nt .Soy o u’ v eb e e nt hi nki ngab o utc hang i ngt hec ar pe ti nt he l i v i ngr o o mandhal lf o rt hr e ey e ar sno w.Idi dn’ ts ayi t .It houghti t .

“Andr e pl ac i ngi twi t ht hes ames ome t hi ngs ome t hi ngbl ahdi t t ybl ahl ami nat ef l oor i ngs t uf f .Li keCandyc eandAndr e w’ s . ”

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“Loose Ends” (cont.)

“Okay. ”Is hr ug.

“Andl e avi ngt hel ami nat ef l oor i ngpl anksi nt hedi ni ngr oom,t houghti t ’ sadi f f e r e nt ki nd.Me gan’ sr oom. ” Idi s pe ns ewi t ht heOkayandj us ts hr ug.Igl anc eatt heNe wGi r l f r i e ndt os e ei fs he hasar e ac t i ont ohi si nvoki ngoft henameoft hede adwi f e .Shei swr angl i ngapi e c eof l e t t uc eont ohe rf or k.

Andt he ns i l e nc e .Si l e nc eoft hevar i e t yt hats e ndsame s s aget hatl i f ei ss oot he r wi s e s t ul t i f yi ngbor i ng/ or di nar yt hatt he r ei snot hi nge l s ewor t hme nt i oni ng.Not hi ng.And f oramome nt ,t hats i l e nc ef i l l st heboot hwhe r ewear es e at e dands pi l l soutl i keaf l ood i nt ot hes pac e sar oundus .Eve r yt hi ngs t ops .Thec l at t e roff or ksands poonsi nt headj oi ni ngboot hs ,t hec onve r s at i ons ,t hec r yi ngbabi e s ,t hel aught e rofs i xye ar ol ds .I tal l f al l saway.Andt he n,outoft hes i l e nc e ,r i s e sas l i ve rofs us pe ns e .Whatwi l lhappe nne xt wi l le i t he rbear at c he t i ngupofwhatwashappe ni ngpr e vi ous l yorac ompl e t es hi f ti n di r e c t i on.Iwantt obet hel at t e r .It akeabi t eofs oupwhi l eIwai tf ort heuni ve r s et o s or ti tout .

TheNe wGi r l f r i e ndpoi nt she rf or kt i ne si nmydi r e c t i on.“So,wehavet of i gur eouta wayf oryout oc onne c twi t hyours t ude nt s . ”Andt henoi s es t ar t sagai n.Thei nc e s s ant noi s e .

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