Enough for Them

Sarah Hegg

[Verse One]

They said, “follow the rules and you’ll find a life that has meaning to you.” Life that has meaning to them. They said, “follow your dreams and you’ll find a light in the darkness, light that leads to greatness,” Light that leads to you.

[Chorus]

But I must admit, I can’t find where I fit. I don’t know what I love, I don’t know how to love. I followed all your rules, I tried to find my use, I tried to love myself, but you said that wasn’t enough. When will I be enough? When can I be myself?

[Verse Two]

I live day by day but still can’t find the thing that’s my purpose, the thing that will make me not worthless. I live day by day but I can’t see where my path is leading I can’t find my meaning.

[Chorus]

But I must admit, I can’t find where I fit. I don’t know what I love, I don’t know how to love. I followed all your rules, I tried to find my use, I tried to love myself, but you said that wasn’t enough. When will I be enough? When can I be myself?

[Verse Three]

I tried to find a meaning in this life, meaning that isn’t rooted in others desires. I tried to find a reason not to listen to the voices in my head so I could finally be okay.

[Bridge]

I gave you all my flowers in the middle of winter because you said you’d come back and return the favor. It’s still winter and you are nowhere you took all I had and still raised your demand. My garden is empty. You took what made me. You lied and said you're sorry. And I’m supposed to be sorry they didn’t grow in expense so you can come back and take it all again.

[Chorus]

...I’ll never be enough. Never myself.