Honest Liar

by fmvc

It is okay to tell you it’s red when I see blue, To see you hanging around with another guy, Still, I’m fine that I’m with you, albeit not chosen I feel no pain to lock at the back of my mind. I am alright, just bad at lying.

A marionette messily entangled

With everything that you do, Every gasp between your laughs, and Every blinding flicker in your eyes

These genuine smiles cannot hide - I am bad at lying.

All I wish is to escape This feeling beneath the abyss of space.

I do not want to hold back these tears.

I do not want to restrain these stares.

Truly, it hurts because I am bad at lying

Ahh! I still want you to count on me

Be your friend and grant you what you need. In the end, my words remain, "I am okay"

Though deep inside, It is me, a bad liar.

If I could turn back time, I should have kept it all by myself for the meantime. If I could turn back time, Maybe, we should have not been friends at all

‘Cause I realized hiding my pain hurts me more.

But if I told you what my heart wanted, If I told you what dreams I had in mind, If I told you that I did not want to lose you, Would you at least have considered looking my way? At the very least, on second thought?

I have always been saying it is okay But like what Taylor said, “I might be okay, but not fine at all."

Maybe this is the time I need to stop chasing I knew my place, and I cut it here. After all, I am an honest liar.