Daddy Issues

By Faith White

Daddy, I blame you

For not being my first love

Because I’ve had one too many heartbreaks

When push comes to shove

I blame you

for the fractures in my heart

I blame you

for me constantly seeking

what tears me apart

For being the only one

shot by Cupid

And the unrequited relationships

That had me looking stupid

I blame you

for being the first

to cause me pain

And not having you as my friend

to withstand the rain

For questioning my worth

when people just weren’t worthy of me

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I blame you for

this hole in my heart

For looking to men

to play your part

For putting people

in winning positions

only for them to lose

For giving my all

and still coming up short

For putting all my balls

in the wrong court

For being the full package

at the wrong address

For holding onto things

when my arms needed rest I blame you

Because I rode for people with

others in the passenger seat And

I look to others

to make me feel complete

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But most of all

I blame myself

for constantly loving others more than I love me

And I apologize F

or not making me a priority

But these daddy issues

Have caused me

to view love morbidly