Trapped Inside Myself

nonfiCTion

TrappeD insiDe myself

by raven nobles

Hi.

Did you know when you said those words to me 13 years ago you would trap me inside my own body?

Because that’s what you did. You trapped an eight-year-old girl inside her own mind. A prisoner to herself.

When I tell you that “I love you,” the words are empty. They mean nothing. They fall out of my mouth like an afterthought. I wish they were true; it would be better that way.

You’re a lesson I had to learn. You do make me laugh, but I don’t think I’ll cry when you leave. Those tears have already happened.

----Not your little girl