your own personal hell
a zine by andrew ramirez
your own personal hell is a zine on the past year or so of my life which dealt with a lot of negative feelings due to losing lots of friendships and connections w/ ppl whom i was very close with leading to a downward spiral filled with self destructive vices.
ultimately this is a zine about separating yourself from your past rejecting bitterness + growing in various ways forming new friendships + relationships + learning to appreciate the world around you. at times it can be contradictory but feelings don’t always have rationality.
dedicated to: din mrini aka @trashnymph jonathan desousa @lucifervibes tommy iacono @tmicn jason bard @jasonbard http://theshadesofcool.bandcamp.com/ every dog in the world that guy on grindr who called me vaporwave full communism + myself
thank you all
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RITSUKO AKAGI WAS ONE OF THE MOST UNDERRATED CHARACTERS IN EVANGELION
the way you manipulate people is so fucking funny i want to watch you burn
hahahahaha haha i am so deep wow
artwork by tmicn @tmicn on instagram
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overstayed your can die
welcome now
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to
do
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sun
today
sets
and
you
go
home.
+ everything comes full circle
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