confessions of a crazy mind

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I dedicate this book to my family who believe in me, stood by me and supported me. To my friends who care and love me. To raya shukri (my cousin) and my grandfather wish you were both here to see this, this wouldn’t have happened without you.


These walls

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Searching

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Not an art

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Sorry

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Nothing left to be said

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Melody

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Seeds

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Chance

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Impression

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Dead friendship

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Criticism

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Cruelty

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Bright smile

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Malice

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That day

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Discrimination

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Wake up

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Soul sisters

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Future

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You have the key

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You part one

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From you

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The Birthday

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A dream

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Until We Meet

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Deceased

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Resentment

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The smiling sun

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My Way

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Joined in heaven

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My Love

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To be loved

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Its

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Gone

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You are

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Friends

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Fade away

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Fate

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True friend

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Love and Hate

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This is me

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07-12-2008

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Forgive me

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Sent from above

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Distraction

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Never said

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Suffer

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Angel

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You part two

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Here we go again

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Darkness

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Question of doubt

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Devotion

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These walls How do you describe the sun when the sun shines no more? How do you tell someone what you feel deep down inside when you can’t even talk any more?

brings insanity I turn my face away regretfully. How an act is always away from how it has to be.

How can you describe the smell of something so sweet when you can’t even feel the scents any more?

Here I am sitting on the same chair I always sit on in a room, a world of my own where I sit on my throne I layback and stare. As my eyes paint the restlessness and emptiness on these walls.

How can you answer all these questions when deep down your empty like a rock, empty just waiting for something that might never come your way?

standing still captive inside of me; all emotions start to hide all nothings getting through.

I see my life pass through my eyes it’s the screams and sours in my heart that I can’t hide anymore. Once I was strong, but the pieces of my broken heart lashed, left it weak and open. The core pulls me in very hard, making my heart shrink, it blinds me with a feeling that strikes my eyes making them tear, why is this happening? I am losing the touch? The taste

Watch me Fading I am losing all that I am Falling into darkness Tear down those walls for me Stop me from going under. You are the only one who knows

frozen so barren and cold. I close them and listen to that tune, where are these melodies taking me? Where o sot headed this time? Is it talking me to the same illusion, or to a world that fails to exist could be a delusion, I open my eyes and I am still the same bird in a cage.

I am holding back

Why is it becoming so hard to describe something so simple and true? Are we all shallow inside with no drop of pain, no drop of love not even a drop of forgiveness? I feel I am locked up in a room where I can’t even hear the birds sing nor even see the sun, I cant hear my laughter for all I hear are my cries. I can’t feel happiness because deep down I know I am sad even though I try so hard to hide it. I am a

me now) so much uncertainty

help, a candle that no longer can shine, a candle that somehow lost hope and faith in everything.

Crawl from

Dry my bleeding eyes, internally I am longing for my distant sanity Here I am all alone and still faithfully Holding on my private misery. Why must we live this drain that we hate, life is hell for a dreamer who’s seeking the shade. Give me something to kill the pain there’s no tomorrow and no today, my soul is not for eternity and I know I will fade away in memories. Cold and crystallized the world around me as the day of light

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It’s not too late for me To keep from shinning further

I don’t like this feeling, I am like a stone and each time I try to speak there’s a voice I am hearing and it changes everything. Watch me

The wreckage of my silence Conversation falling Tear down these walls for me Stop me from going under You are the only one who knows I am holding back.

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Not an art

Nothing left to be said

A writing that cannot even start

You just have to turn around and see for yourself

Is begging me to part

That deep inside there was nothing left to be said You kept on playing your nasty games

Though deep down I know its not art

Though I knew that I would be taking the blames

As heartless as anyone could be

Go on play as you wish

Never seen any of thee Though she smiled and I know it would be

Can’t believe you took all that time

One of the best things that I would ever see

To realize you were never in front of the line

Though her actions spoke louder than words

A game played with one person inside

Never knew that was what’s going to be

Would never be as what is going inside of my mind

Laughing out loud is what I did

A hypocrite sitting beside me is what I usually see

For the story that was just said

Begging you to stop though you would never listen to me

Couldn’t believe the words coming out of her mouth

How a person like you never listens with harmony

Though who said I ever did

A knife in the back is what I get

Days pass by as they always do

For being nice to you, that I would regret

Seeing her face

One day it will all come back and to you

Reminded me to run with a slow pace

Knowing it will make you blue

Though sometimes I feel as though

Play your games you little child

All I need is to know the dough

Though never forget you will remember me one day.

Though who said that I would ever know.

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Seeds

Impression

Endless songs stuck in my head

Come with me is what she cried out loud

Though deep down I know I am dead

Though my heart would not listen

Saying things that were already said

Come to me she cried again

Hearing their laughter inside my head

Though this time it was not hard

Feeling happy yet unable to speak

I am a person here to protect you

I am in a high mountain standing on its peak

I looked back and realized she was fake

Wishing on a star up in the sky

What is the impression that I gave? Could it be that I am that shallow and untrue

Watching people pass me by

Or could it be that my heart calls out for help

Could that be the day that I would actually die?

Come to me is what she said

Hearing things go round and round

Though this time with her arms wide open

Could it be that I am heading towards the ground?

My heart wept slowly telling me to walk towards her, but I couldn’t.

Reaching the ground, Was that really a sound? Blood all around me, is it really me who has died? I wondered what people were staring at, My cold dead body is it that? Feeling my soul get out of its place So I wondered would it ever be in space Hearing people shout all around Did anyone really care if I was dead? Life is too short to even know what it really means So while your still at it might as well enjoy the seeds.

I turned and walked the other way feeling secure and safe Though I could still hear her voice in my head saying, ‘come to me’. Criticism My heart and soul Is what ill give you Though you left and became untrue Criticizing me is what you did Knowing that ill never forgive. A soul so gentle and pure is what I saw in you Though you turned your hear and walked away Never judging a book by its cover Made me realize and discover That all what I would have given you would amount to nothing. Never regret something that once made you smile Knowing that one-day you will make me cry My love for you has washed away

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Since the say you walked away.

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Bright smile You brought my life back The day you said hello again You mean the world to me

You are the light in the morning The smile that is on my face

Wake up

The laughter and joy in my heart

Welcome ladies and gents

An honest, true and kind

Where everyone here wears a mask

When I am with you

A mask to cover their real self A self not known until the end A self so fake

A light that never dies.

Where there is only debate. Never be anyone but yourself That day A day has come for us to part Maybe forever but never in heart

to die. So here I am on my chair Sitting, staring and playing with my hair Thinking of things that I could say Though I was sure my heart would never dare.

Though no one would listen Don’t die a copy as everyone else Though again no one would listen.

Yet again no one would listen Oh! How sad, sad for them to be alive For I would rather kill myself by a knife Oh! How ignorant life may seem Though got someone that might be just a dream.

Pretending and coping with everything. The day has come for me to know the truth For a lie never reaches that high What more could I say

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Future Here is to the past To the memories unwanted To dreams trashed and gone To things I know where wrong. For I belong to the future For it is all mine I am living the days and forgetting about you You piece of crap

How could you? When you knew That was the thing I hated. Love, is something I could have given you Though I knew it would never be true You part one You blew it! You blew it big time Now its time for me to shine Move on with my life Forget about you For the future belongs to me.

I need you Like a needle needs a vain I need you Like the sand misses the rain I need you Like a soul needs a friend I need you I am no longer going to pretend I need you

I need you My heart cried out loud I need you For you are the best thing I’ve ever had.

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The Birthday

Resentment

My heart cries out loud with pain

A feeling inside I cannot hide

It’s like a candle getting inside my vain

What have I done that I might add?

I can’t handle the pain that’s inside my brain

To deserve all that has been done

A heart so sensitive and weak

Life is too short to sit and wonder

Has become careless and strong

What could have happened if I were a bit careful?

I really have no idea what is wrong

There is nothing more I can write

The wind is blowing hard on my face Making me walk in a very slow pace

Can’t think of anything at this moment

Hoping that my soul would someday walk among space.

For it is bared and cannot cope with the feeling

A year older I am going to turn

I am sick and tired of words with no action

No more pain or past memories are going to return

When I hear your words I feel like banging your head in a wall

A year older is nothing at all

I feel like shouting and screaming

Though you do feel much more secure A feeling that you’ve grown is something you cant explain

Though wondering is a disaster.

Though who said life was a game My Way

It passed by with a blink of an eye And I am going to live for the moments that make me the happiest thing alive. Until We Meet

You begged and pleaded so that ill stay Though it’s never going to end your way A time has lead to cry and weep

Sharing my life with you is nothing more I could ask for You are everything that I ever wanted and more

Time has taken us to a different stage

You make me feel alive with every second you’re beside me.

Knowing that would end in its own ways

I know you can see me for you are the air that I breathe

A pathetic person is what I saw

I know you can hear me and I am certain that you could be anywhere

Hoping and begging that one-day it will show

Having you a part of my life is nothing more I could ask for

Emotional yet very secure Believe me one day you will fall.

You are an angel sent from above Your soul swims in the ocean like a dove I wish I could see you for one more day To tell you how much I care There is nothing more that I could say

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Though I wish you could have stayed.

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Its You’re always wondering What this is all about Why things the way they aren’t And why they cant always be the way it should be If you ever wanted to know My Love You are the sunlight in the morning The moon at night You are a friend I could count on

What this is all about and for Just look around you and be there for a moment It’s about time It’s about trying It’s about love

You’re my smiles when I am feeling down

It’s about happiness It’s about sadness

Ill give you whatever you ask for Each day more and more

It’s about triumph It’s about hopes

My love for you would never go away

It’s about dreams

Hoping that you would never slip away

It’s about beauty

You are an angel sent from above

Blue skies that brings tears

Probably that’s why I love you so much

It’s about joy

My love for you is as strong as an ocean

It’s about freedom

Knowing that ill be here giving you devotion This love for you I could never hide

It’s about you and me But not exactly

What more can I say? There strolled a night of sadness, the passion and agony were silent for a moment The atmosphere was changing randomly in color My eyes were hypnotized My heart was in an unbalanced state of affection. How more could I describe that very second when I heard about the tragic loss. A warm wind caressed me deeply gently touched my soul.

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You are

This is me

You are my sunshine after the rain

This is me

You are the warmth after a cold day

Introducing myself to you

You are my cheerleader when I am feeling down

This is me

The light at the end of the road

Watching over you

You are my strength when I can’t move

This is me Writing all this for you

An angel sent from above, you are everything I wish I had

This is me

You are spring after winter

Apologizing to you

You’re like heaven on earth,

This is me Trying to convince you This is me Offering you love and prosperity

Fade away As I fade away in this empty room you are the only one that guides my way, you are the only light that shines what is left of me.

This is me Forgiving you This is me Loving you

True friend

This is me

You are what a true friend is all about. You are the sunshine in the morning

Trusting you

The moon at night

This is me

Distracting you

The ripples on a river and summer after winter

Caring about you

This is me

This is me

Lying to you

You are my light at the end of the road

Adoring you

This is me

My wall I can lean on

This is me

Hurting you

You are my eyes when I cannot see

Asking for another chance

This is me

A straight line guiding my way

This is me

All me

You are my red when I am feeling blue

Smiling to you

Nothing but me

A friend when I have no clue

This is me

Betraying you.

You are what gets me out of bed in the morning Thank you for not giving up on me.

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Forgive me

Suffer

Forgive me is what I cried to you

Regret is something

Knowing that the sky has already turned blue

Though fear is another

Forgive me is what I cried out loud with pain

Why even start to bother

Knowing that my love for you has gone down the drain

Love was handed to you

Forgive me I asked with passion

Though now I know you are untrue

Knowing that you are out of attraction

Care was handed to you on a table

As years passed by, day and night

Maybe one day you will be capable

I knew that this angel would never forgive me.

Trust was something hard to do Till I decided to take a hold of you Distraction

Torn between the truth and lies

Passion was everything I had to offer Though you turned your back and for that I suffer

Why do we have to live in disguise? When pain is all what has been offered

You part two

I guess people should have suffered

I have gained and lost a lot

Torn between your words and actions

Though I have lost you

All what is happening is distraction

You! A beautiful angel

Torn between life and death

You! A great friend I once had

Life is given hand in hand

You! Oh so great

That is where you have to stand

My deepest apologies written in paper

In the middle of it all

Knowing that I mean every letter

You should be standing oh so tall

Deepest apologies from the bottom of my heart

Looking beyond the ocean

Never wanted us to part

Handing you love and devotion

I am the victim of my choice

Torn between tears and sadness

Hoping that one day you could hear the voice

Why does it sound like madness?

Never meant for this to happen

Torn between hatred and love

Though the door opened and I have suffered

Hoping that one day ill swim in the ocean like a dove

Nothing more I could say

Staring at the sky above

To make this go away

Knowing that this could all turn out to be love.

I am sorry ill repeat it everyday Hoping that one day it would cast its way.

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Where as bright as the stars

Though you turned your back and my heart turned to sadness. You were the light guiding my way

Made it more daring to stare The way you hide in the darkness Made it seem like sadness

Though now I know the sun would shine someday Laughter and smiles where handed to you Now it seems like my face is turning blue

The way you walk with a gesture

How do you say goodbye to someone who loved you with a heart wide open

Made me always question

I guess by walking away and showing no devotion.

Your smile that shone oh so bright Made it seem like a bright light Oh how terrible life could be Only to people who can not see

Searching

The beauty and love inside of thee

I have been searching my soul tonight

Made me wonder how it could be

That I wouldn’t deny

That fear was handed all to you

I have been searching my soul tonight

In sadness you sat down and cried

Hoping to see you by the light

How a precious person could have died

I have been searching my soul tonight

Dead in the heart but not in soul Maybe one day you could stand tall

I have been searching my soul tonight

A smile on your face is what I am hoping for.

Looking for the moonlight I have been searching my soul tonight

Devotion

Though was awakened by a striking thunder light.

Forgive me Was the word I cried out loud with tears, Hoping that one day it wouldn’t become fears My love for you was strong as the ocean Offering you love and devotion Never regretting a word I said Knowing that one-day it would be dead With care I offered you happiness

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Sorry

Melody

Where do I begin to explain?

A melody, a song

That I am sorry for the pain

Stuck in my head

What am I supposed to say?

Though I know that I was somehow dead.

‘Sorry’ never made its way

Bells, birds are singing

‘Forgive me’ wasn’t even an option.

Could even hear them ringing

Forgive yourself and people would forgive you

Alone I am standing

Is what I have been told?

In the forest I am planting

For this I became cold Life is a place where people should know

Hoping that it would grow faster.

What they have done wrong

Dead or alive that I didn’t know

For them to be able to stand strong

What are the things that should show?

My love for you has never left sight.

My broken heart was calling out with pain

Your smile had a bright light

Knowing that it has taken apart of my brain

Shinning through every night Your kindness and support was everything to me, Hoping that one day you will hear me You’re sunshine after the rain Hoping that I haven’t caused pain You’re the warmth after a cold day Hoping that we will speak someday You are my laughter when I am feeling sad Knowing that I have made it look bad Apologies, even more than that I would offer Though I think you want me to suffer. Forgive me! Yes I will say it again Hoping that one day I will win I will remember you until the end of my life Hoping that one day I will see you smile A thank you from the bottom of my heart Is how I am going to end this poem

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Hoping that one-day it would matter.

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Chance

Dead friendship

A chance to speak has passed me by

No words shall appear anymore

Where do I start, when do I cry

You had your chance but lost your lore

My love for you is as strong as the ocean

Once we were friends and would talk all night

What more can I say for you to pay attention

But I lost my way

The time has passed by and it’s taking longer

My feelings lost the light

Give me a chance and ill make it better

As soon as I told you, you started to stutter

You were there for me once you could do it again

I hid I needed to shutter

Believe me it is no longer a game

For now I cannot even talk

The time is real and will be forever

Sorry for causing so much pain

Tell me what more I could say

But if I stay I would go insane

To make this pain go away

I made a fool of my self an embarrassment is no longer on the shelf.

What more can I do Probably start begging you You have been there through my ups and downs Happy moments and sad Now I really do feel bad. Please lets start again Open a book in a new chapter

Block me away from your mind, heart and soul Our friendship had to part I cannot explain why But if I stay inside I will die Maybe one day life would bring us to speak But right now I am more than too weak.

Probably it would look better Tell me, what more can I do My face has already turned oh so blue.

Cruelty Harsh words come out I don’t know why Do you always have to lie? Maybe you will hit till I am blue, or fake a cruel word to me from you It could be erased if you think How your actions are linked Could you bomb a whole country? Or is this all you can do Can’t you see, compared to many you aren’t strong Your cold heart wont last long.

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Malice

Soul sisters

As you sink in your chain and stare at the sky

When I hurt you feel the same

Do you ever ask yourself why you lie?

You understand that feels are not a game

Can’t you feel the pain you create

You help me when I feel there is nothing more

Or how you make people hate

And picked up my pieces when I tore

Actions may speak louder than words

Plane sisters is not enough to describe what I we share

But your evil thoughts are all heard Stop playing with people’s minds as you are taking away everyone’s shine. Cruelty to animal’s people unplanted

You may not be a blood relation But to me you are family from another creation We share out thoughts, giggles and tears

No one now is allowed to dance

Everything about you is just so dear

You took over each and everyone

That you for sticking by my side

One day you will shoot with your gun

You are a shining star my guide

Stop before you create a war

Nobody could replace you for you are my soul

Doing this wont make you gain more.

And without you there would just be an empty hole. Discrimination

The cruel words from you cannot be hidden For there mouths are rusted and ridden Their evil glares as you pass by

You have the key Nothing is heard so why do I speak

You are in front of the line, so they sigh You have a race it is your own But all you hear is them moan Maybe your skin Maybe another But inside we are the same as each other Racism a word so mean You have been somewhere they have never been A silent whisper from beneath

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Is it my fault that I stand and cry? Or could it be helped I wonder why Is this the end, will you leave? Will you stop to grieve? Why does one thing have to make everything change? Now that it’s happened, you’re acting so strange Can we live in a world that we love? Or so I have to send the message by dove?

They are angry because of your belief

We are at one with nowhere to go, all I am saying is making the law

A slap or kick is what you get

I want to go back to how it used to be

For being yourself

It is up to you, you have the key.

They will regret.

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From you

Deceased

Smiles from you cant be bought in a queue

The pain was too much so I took my knife

The ringing laughter so loud makes everyone proud

I am letting go out of touch

Secrets so deep can make a stranger weep

No one to hold my hand as I die

Your eyes so bright can make any dark room light.

Not a tear fall down

But when your tears that falls down, it seems like climbing a forbidden wall

Why would I cry? Life was a pain and as my knife cuts through

And to become so distant so far makes me want to crash in a car.

I will be away from this away from you

For you had a helping hand and would always understand

Letting go wont hurt anyone

And to lose such a friend

I hear you scream, die you son of a gun

Would seem like the end.

So now your wish is coming true Now the blood pours Thanks to you. A dream

A scream so loud could tear you apart But as a bullet is aimed you start to dart

The smiling sun

With the fear in your eyes, you start to run

The smiling sun looks down on me, but pain and wind is all I see

You then realize you are the one For today is when you know the truth

For time has lead to cry and weep All my fears are buried too deep And now I know the truth from you The trees tell your secrets too

You never knew this was how it was supposed to be

Never frown for life is not long.

You’re on the run, nowhere to hide

But how can I when everything is wrong?

You look around you, no one by your side

You keep on thinking but I hear no words

You hear a thud; you look around you and see

The singing is louder than the birds.

Everything that just happened was a dream

The evil stabs through my heart, laughs at me as it tears me apart

But maybe this could happen sometime So live life everyday let your love shine.

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But how can I when there is no one to hold?

A life so full you loved the days, the times you’d sit, stare and gaze

And my tears come though, secrets inside them hidden from you and me.

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Joined in heaven

Gone

Now we are joined from now till the end

Soon I will die and when I do

Our message has been delivered nothing more to send.

I will look back to the times spent with you

Hand in hand we stroll in peace

The times we laughed and the times we cried,

We were once real then deceased

In the end our friendship died

For we live in life, living in strife

For our thoughts were mixed and confused

But now we are safe with no more pain

Back then I felt so used

To be here now with nothing to gain

But now I will lay with no more to say

The love is spread, out past is gone all is said.

Maybe I will be sorry from now on

Joined in heaven we will be

But its too late I am gone.

Our life together is so much to me Friends To be loved

Like a star in the sky, they shine with no lies

The twinkle in your eyes like the stars too high

Like an angel by your side, they never hide

Makes me know that you are true How love is made by you

Like the words from their heart, they are true never to part Like the gift from above, there are full of love

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For you took your time and now we shine

Like a drop from a tear, their secrets are so dear

And the candle inside feels like a tide

When the night is near you have nothing but fear

To be loved and cared for is what we want and more

For your time has come for you to become one

The time is soon and we will look to the moon

When all is said after all I will be dead

And by our moon there are stars

Your dreams is sin, will be kept

Now I know they aren’t so far.

That’s when they all wept.

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Fate It is always got to be the same I say something and later regret it and feel the pain I have developed a habit of making everything worse, Maybe I am just a witch spreading a curse But I can’t help but despise, people living in their lies

Love and Hate To love is to love; to hate is to hate How can you love someone you hate? And how can you hate someone you love? Things are beginning to complicate Maybe I am crazy or even lost my mind

This of you I have never expected There you go saying your sorry though it ends up rejected To me you used to be like a prize The most valuable treasure was just looking in your eyes No one but you could dry my tears Tell me why did things change and how I miss sleeping when the last thing I heard was your voice,

Can someone answer the question I ask? Or is it an impossible task It is hard to explain love It is sent from above Look deep down the ocean of your pretty blue eyes, or over the mountains high up in the skies

Now I guess I just don’t have a choice Some say I love you that I already knew But the winds turned and everything’s through

That’s why people tend to lie While hate is easier to describe, has to do with the mood has to do with the vibe

All I can say is there is no more you and I

Love? Hate? You choose

All caused by your denying and negativity

You might gain and pretty much lose.

I am just going to let things be; I think it’s for the rest Fate would do the rest.

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07-12-2008

Sent from above

What more can I say

From where you are I know you can see us

To make this pain go away

You bless us with every move that you do

What more can I do

We will never forget you

To prove to you how much I love you

You have been a large part of our lives

A thing has been done

Always spreading love and smiles

An angel has gone

Laughter and tears are part of human beings

Up in heaven above

Though you treasured life like no one else

You would always be loved

And all what’s happened has caused us distress.

I hear your words echo in my ear

For you will always be missed

As lovely as a person could be

In our hearts and never apart

I know you are watching over us

You have been an angel from the start

Over the skies above us

Don’t cry my dear child, for one day everything will make sense

You have been sent an angel to protect us You have done a great job in advising us

But how could we an angel has been resent

Raya shukri, you will never be forgotten

A life so full you loved the days the times you’d sit start and gaze

I love you my baby sister

Oh how beautiful life could be it what I heard you say to me

Always in my heart and forever

You knew what life has in store for you and did everything

I love you and miss you deeply. (May you rock heaven like you rocked our world)

Oh how I wish you were with me right now For I cherished you with every beating of my heart The memories we shared will always be cherished For you are a very special person and will never be forgotten.

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Never said I never said it would be easy I only said it would be worth it I never said there wouldn’t be tears I just promised to be there if there was I never said it would be true love I only said you’d know it if it was I never promised it would be forever I only said to love unconditionally and generously with no recognition of time I never said to hold on at all costs I only said one day you’d have to let go and be free I never said you’d get to the rainbow without going through the rain I only said the sun is always brighter than the storm I never said that I want your tears because with me you wont have a reason to cry.

Angel You are something I cannot describe by words. You are an angel that has come to my life and made it complete. Angels never fail to help people around them; they come in your life leaving a place in someone’s heart that they can not describe. Words have failed me; I wouldn’t want a day spent without you being in it. When I have no strength to walk on my own to feet you You are the reason I wake up in the morning smiling You are the sun after a cold day You are my smiles when I have been in a bad mood. You are warmth after a freezing day You are my light at the end of the road. You are an angel sent from above. You are like heaven on earth, a person that is very hard to Thank you for being who you are The person that I always wanted in my life Thank you for never giving up on me.

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Here we go again I missed you like never before, please come back I need you even more. I missed you like the sand misses the water, like there is no But here we go again, all what we had was swept away. Saying words are very easy, yet actions are very hard to play. Missing you is a feeling but do I really feel this way, three things are very hard to say, saying you love someone then breaking their hearts, saying you care about someone yet leaving them to fall and saying you miss someone and then turning your back and talk about them. other soul dwelling in me. My heart sings out of happiness when you walked through that door, but the door has been closed, your presence has disappeared, and the candle has

Question of doubt A knife, cutting through my chest Ripping a full heart into two Eternally bleeding and would never stop And the sound of it goes drop. Tears are dripping of my face Can’t you see the sad face? The love you have given me was a question of doubt And now its time to part You speak you’re mind over and over again Though all I hear are fake words A shallow person is what I see Never thought that would come out of thee My respect for you has gone down the drain It feels like I am going to blow up my brain Reaching out to you, should never have been done Though I thought that it would be fun I thought that I could run fast But it couldn’t even last.

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