In My Mind

By Jeremy Nava

I’m flesh and bones Sometimes referred to as a barking pomeranian Like glue when you are with me Like jenga when I notice But 100 like a true friend

Being alone with my thoughts is a gamble Not broken or fully assembled Not in the moment or in the past or future Not beloved yet not loathed Not happy but for sure not sad or mad I’m neither here nor there

I pronounce you the best actor I’m closer to your back than I am to your face As I cave in no rescue is waiting for me When you look at me what do you see? I’m done letting you walk all over me

Trial and error with dwindling results a product of suffering turned success A long battle for so little joy Too late to react to the punch I never saw coming. Makes me think about lil peep, X, and juice Did they make those songs about me?

Star Shopping, Sad, Changes, Wishing Well, All Girls Are The Same They’re all I see when I look in the mirror

The truth comes as if I was asleep for years I’m tied to you ‘til you cut the rope Once cut I’m tied to someone new, Each war fought is my own, There will be no allied reinforcements

I know who I am I have poison in me I know that How many of you jumps out at me I know that Who walks past me as I stand at the edge I know that Hey, but who cares right I’m stuck on factory settings, But are factory settings so bad? No, I won’t be reset What you see is what you get This is the application And believe me, I’ll know who signs the dotted line

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