Juelz Santos, From Target to Archer

From Target to Archer by Juelz Santos

for the majority of my life, I was targeted, made fun of, pushed to the side, and was told I’d never amount to anything, and how I’d always be the little ignorant kid everyone knew me as .

For the majority of my life, I was picked on for my looks, lack of intelligence, weight, about how sensitive I was, how I’d cry over any little thing, the way I talked, my shyness, and my height .

For the majority of my life, I was the butt of everyone’s jokes from pre-K all the way to eighth grade until the lockdown happened, and then I guess the streak was finally broken because ever since I started school again, I’ve seemed to fit in perfectly .

Recently, I’ve become this archer who puts people in his crosshairs for harsh jokes because, for once in my life, I fit in . Instead of people laughing at me, making fun of me, I know to laugh with them . I know not to make fun of other people or subjects, no matter how insensitive the topic is . I am no longer the butt of people’s jokes . Instead they are now the butt of my jokes . Are my jokes harsh? Yes, the majority are, but as long I’m not being made fun of, I’m okay . I know it might sound selfish, but if you were picked on the way I was for as long as I was, you’d most likely do what I have done to not be picked on either .

I do sometimes fantasize about a world where I don’t need to be a bully to be able to fit in, but in all honesty, I’ve been like this for so long that I doubt I can stop even if I wanted to .