CANT BE A _ HERE
AMIR
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“Can’t Be A _ Here” was my healing process. It put a lot things in perspective for me, it was the mirror, through all the distraction & uncertainties, I regained my focus. Sometimes it’s necessary to have that conversation with yourself. I felt cleansed the moment I released it. The greatest joy to me was that some of you related. I’m more inspired than ever.
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MY FAVORITE GAME TO PLAY AS A KID WAS
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My favorite game to play as a kid was hide and seek And looking back, I understand why I wasn’t, so much a big fan of tag or cops & robbers But something about hiding, in anticipation of being found, was kind of like the most exciting thing to me as a child ’s. Almost like I wanted to get caught, wanted to be found I was always a shy kid It’s like I had an imaginary mask that I always hid behind It gave me a sense of comfort And now being, you know, kno “grown” that mask has took on like so many new personalities And at this point, uh, you know, I'm kinda done with the masquerade And I feel like it’s time to take that mask off
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I DON'T BELON
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I DONT BELONG HERE
WELCOME TO REHAB
I NEED REHAB I NEED AN INTERVENTION I NEED HELP I’M GOING THROUGH HELL JUST TO FIND HEAVEN I NEED AN INTERVENTION BROKE MY PROMISE, I'M NOT HONEST I USED TO HAVE IT, THINK I LOST IT WHIP, SLIT MY WRIST CRASHED MY WHI I LAUGHED IT OFF, I’M THAT LIT FORGOT TO CALL MAMA, FORGOT TO CALL POPS MY BABY ACTIN' JEALOUS, SHE JUST CALLED THE COPS GOT ARRESTED AGAIN I’M RECKLESS AGAIN YOU KNOW ME TOO WELL BY NOW I NEED REHAB I NEED AN INTERVENTION I NEED HELP I’M GOING THROUGH HELL JUST TO FIND HEAVEN I NEED AN INTERVENTION NEED AN INTERVENTION I JUST PLAYED MYSELF, I THOUGHT YOU NEED MY HELP I CAN'T HELP MYSELF, CAN'T PROTECT MYSELF MY REFLECTION NOW, BROKE THE MIRROR I CAN'T FACE MYSELF I THINK I HATE MYSELF WE’VE BEEN WYLIN’ OUT DOWNTOWN FIGHTING NOW IN PUBLIC CRYING NOW SOMEBODY CALLED THE COPS GOT ARRESTED AGAIN I’M RECKLESS AGAIN YOU KNOW ME TOO WELL BY NOW ] I NEED REHAB I NEED AN INTERVENTION I NEED HELP I’M GOING THROUGH HELL JUST TO FIND HEAVEN I NEED AN INTERVENTION I NEED REHAB I NEED AN INTERVENTION I NEED HELP I’M GOING THROUGH HELL JUST TO FIND HEAVEN INTERVENTION I NEED AN INTE
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AYE, THINK I NEED TO SLOW DOWN NEED TO PUT THE PHONE DOWN IT'S A SHAME BABE 'CAUSE IT'LL HURT YOU IF I FELT THE SAME WAY I'M NO COMPETITION IF WE'RE PLAYIN' GAMES THINKIN' YOU AND I WANT THE SAME THING, NO SITTIN' RIGHT BESIDE YOU I'VE BEEN LIVIN' WITH A LIAR AND IT'LL MAKE TWO IF I PROMISE NEVER GO PLAY AROUND FIRE LAST NIGHT I HAD A DREAM YOU WAS DRUNK WITH ME CONFESSING THAT YOU MIGHT BE IN LOVE WITH ME THE PAIN ALWAYS COME WITH YOUR COMPANY I'M AWAKE, I'M AWAKE, I'M AWAKE, I'M AWAKE HOLY SHIT, I'M AWAKE, HOLY SHIT, HOLY SHIT, WHY YOU ACTIN' HOLY? YOU AIN'T THIS HO WHY YOU ACTIN' HOLY? YOU AIN'T THIS I'M AWAKE, I'M AWAKE, I'M AWAKE, I'M AWAKE HOLY SHIT, I'M AWAKE, HOLY SHIT, HOLY SHIT WHY YOU ACTIN' HOLY? YOU AIN'T THIS WHY YOU ACTIN' HOLY? YOU AIN'T THIS YEAH, HEARTBREAK HOTEL NOW ROOM 911 I'M IN HELL NOW CLOSEST THING TO HEAVEN WHEN SHE COMES THROUGH LOOKIN' LIKE AN ANGEL, LET ME LOVE YOU THINK I NEED TO SLOW DOWN NEED TO PUT THE PHONE DOWN, AYY AYY, THINK I NEED TO SLOW DOWN NEED TO PUT THE PHONE DOWN, AYY LAST NIGHT I HAD A DREAM YOU WAS DRUNK WITH ME CONFESSING THAT YOU MIGHT BE IN LOVE WITH ME THE PAIN ALWAYS COME WITH YOUR COMPANY I'M AWAKE, I'M AWAKE, I'M AWAKE, I'M AWAKE HOLY SHIT, I'M AWAKE, HOLY SHIT, HOLY SHIT WHY YOU ACTIN' HOLY? YOU AIN'T THIS WHY YOU ACTIN' HOLY? YOU AIN'T THIS I'M AWAKE, I'M AWAKE, I'M AWAKE, I'M AWAKE HOLY SHIT, I'M AWAKE, HOLY SHIT, HOLY SHIT WHY YOU ACTIN' HOLY? YOU AIN'T THIS WHY YOU ACTIN' HOLY? YOU AIN'T THIS
PROPHECY TELL ME I’MA DIE IN A RARI
ROMEO I WON'T SHED A TEAR AGAIN WOKE UP ON A PYRAMID MAN IN THE MIRROR, OOH I SEE MIR AGAIN RIGHT SIDE PLEADING LEFT SIDE EVIL IF I GO AND GET EMO, I MIGHT NEED YOU MY BABY DON’T CRY NO MORE (MIRO DON’T LIE NO MORE) MY BABY DON’T CRY NO MORE (BABY DON'T CRY NO) ROSES DIE BEFORE YOU SEEN 'EM, YEAH (ROSES DIE) DOUBLE MEANING, YEAH WHAT'S LOVE WITHOUT THE FEELING, YEAH PROPHECY TELL ME I’MA DIE IN A RARI BLACK TUX, RUNAWAY BRIDE, I’M SORRY PROPHECY TELL ME I’MA DIE IN A RARI BLACK TUX, RUNAWAY BRIDE, I’M SORRY THINKIN' OF BUSTING A YOU ROLL ME A BLUNT UP OR TWO GET ME RIGHT BACK IN THE MOOD GET ME RIGHT BACK IN THE MOOD THINKIN' OF BUSTING A YOU ROLL ME A BLUNT UP OR TWO GET ME RIGHT BACK IN THE MOOD GET ME RIGHT BACK IN THE MOOD UNAPOLOGETIC, YEAH, SAID IT, OOH I JUST MIGHT BE WRONG THOUGH THOUGHT THAT'S WHAT YOU WANTED ROSES DIE BEFORE YOU SEEN 'EM, YEAH (ROSES DIE) DOUBLE MEANING, YEAH WHAT'S LOVE WITHOUT THE FEELING, YEAH
PROPHECY TELL ME I’MA DIE IN A RARI BLACK TUX, RUNAWAY BRIDE, I’M SORRY PROPHECY TELL ME I’MA DIE IN A RARI BLACK TUX, RUNAWAY BRIDE, I’M SORRY THINKIN' OF BUSTING A YOU ROLL ME A BLUNT UP OR TWO GET ME RIGHT BACK IN THE MOOD GET ME RIGHT BACK IN THE MOOD THINKIN' OF BUSTING A YOU ROLL ME A BLUNT UP OR TWO GET ME RIGHT BACK IN THE MOOD GET ME RIGHT BACK IN THE MOOD THINKIN' OF BUSTING A YOU ROLL ME A BLUNT UP OR TWO GET ME RIGHT BACK IN THE MOOD GET ME RIGHT BACK IN THE MOOD THINKIN' OF BUSTING A YOU ROLL ME A BLUNT UP OR TWO GET ME RIGHT BACK IN THE MOOD GET ME RIGHT BACK IN THE MOOD, PROPHECY TELL ME I’MA DIE IN A RARI BLACK TUX, RUNAWAY BRIDE, I’M SORRY PROPHECY TELL ME I’MA DIE IN A RARI BLACK TUX, RUNAWAY BRIDE, I’M SORRY PROPHECY TELL ME I’MA DIE IN A RARI BLACK TUX, RUNAWAY BRIDE, I’M SORRY PROPHECY TELL ME I’MA DIE IN A RARI BLACK TUX, RUNAWAY BRIDE, I’M SORRY PROPHECY TELL ME I’MA DIE IN A RARI BLACK TUX, RUNAWAY BRIDE, I’M SORRY PROPHECY TELL ME I’MA DIE IN A RARI RUNAWAY BRIDE, I’M SORRY BLACK TUX, RUN
JULIET HEY, I DON'T EVER CRY BUT THE SONGS DO RIGHTS NEVER STICK LIKE THE WRONGS DO I'M RIGHT HERE WITH THE SONGS BOO LISTEN UP, LISTEN UP PETTY ON THE WAY NOW PETTY ON THE WAY NOW HOW DARE YOU SHOW YOUR FACE NOW? I CAN'T SAVE HER ONLY GOD CAN I CAN'T SAVE HER ONLY GOD CAN I WON'T WASTE A PRAYER FOR YOU NO I WON'T WASTE A PRAYER I CAN'T SAVE HER ONLY GOD CAN I CAN'T SAVE HER ONLY GOD CAN NO I WON'T WASTE A PRAYER FOR YOU NO I WON'T WASTE A PRAYER FOR YOU GORGEOUS DON’T TEMPT ME I'M TAKEN BUT EMPTY I KISSED HER FOR THRILLS I KNOW THIS AIN'T HEALTHY, I'M SORRY I'M SOBER, I MEAN IT, I'M SORRY, HMM VICES WON'T HELP ME I TRIED IT'S TOO DEADLY DEAD I'M TRYING TO STAY UP I KNOW THIS AIN'T HEALTHY, I'M SORRY I'M SOBER, I MEAN IT, I'M SORRY
YEAH I'M SORRY I CAN'T SAVE HER ONLY GOD CAN I CAN'T SAVE HER ONLY GOD CAN I WON'T WASTE A PRAYER FOR YOU NO I WON'T WASTE A PRAYER I CAN'T SAVE HER ONLY GOD CAN I CAN'T SAVE HER ONLY GOD CAN NO I WON'T WASTE A PRAYER FOR YOU NO I WON'T WASTE A PRAYER FOR YOU SLURR ON THE PHONE SAY I LOVE YOU MURDER SHE WROTE SAYING I TRUST YOU I GET MORE SOCIAL AFTER CUP 2 I THINK WE VIBIN' SHE WANT A CUP TOO I MIGHT TELL HER TO SPEND THE NIGHT WITH ME SLIP UP ON PURPOSE JUST SO SHE FIGHTS WITH ME I CROSS MY HEART AND HOPE YOU DIE WITH ME HEA I CROSS MY HEART AND HOPE YOU DIE WITH ME ROMEO, JULIET, LOOK AT WHAT I DID, LOOKING LIKE A MOVIE SET LOOK AT WHAT I DID
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MONEY NEVER REALLY MADE ME HAPPY ANYWAY
ALCOHOL MAKES THE CONVO EASY WE DON’T SPEAK BUT THEY LOWKEY NEED ME USED TO CURVE NOW THEY WANNA COME SEE ME I AIN’T NEVER FOUND A HAND THAT FEEDS ME CALL STWO UP, YEAH I NEED SOUL IN IT MIKE BLUD IN THE CUT HOLD MY PHONE I'MA SEND TEXTS, SAY THE JAMESON DID IT S TRYNA CUT A CHECK BUT I NEED MORE IN IT I COULDN’T AFFORD A COACH BAG FOR HER SHE WANTED A KORS AND I’D HUSTLE FOR IT NOW IT’S LONELY ME IN A TWO-DOOR DROP 'LONE BUT I LOVE IT, WHAT’S LOVE ANYWAY? 1K, 2K, 100K, MADE 5 - MILLI' ON THE WAY MONEY NEVER REALLY REAL MADE ME HAPPY ANYWAY MORE SATISFIED TO SEE THE LOOK ON THEY FACE I BEEN SEEIN' SMILES I COULD TELL THEY ALL FAKE I BEEN SEEIN' STYLES SWITCH SINCE I BEEN MADE I JUST FOUND NEW VICE NEEDA BE SAVED I BEEN UP 5 DAYS NUMBING MY PAIN CLEARING MY MIND, LIKE THE SUN FOR THE RAIN LOSING MY MIND, JUST TRYNA STAY SANE, OH T I AIN’T NEVER BEEN SANE DEALIN' WITH THE THINGS I CAN’T EXPLAIN LIKE HOW SHE BEEN SIDE SHE AIN’T EVER BEEN MAIN LIKE WHY SHE AIN’T MINE, WHY SHE AIN’T... ACTING LIKE I’M SOBER BUT MY EYES BLOODSHOT I DON’T WANT THE CONVO WHEN I’M HIGH, DON’T TALK I KNOW IT AIN’T THE TRUTH WHEN THE EYES DON’T LOCK SHE BEEN THROWING STONES WHEN I USED TO BE HER ROCK NEVER LONELY I’M JUST LOWKEY PULL UP NOW THEY ACTING LIKE THEY KNOW ME (YOU DON’T KNOW, YOU DON'T KNOW)
BACKWOODS ON THE WOOD GRAIN, HOOD WAY BUNCH OF BAD BITCHES, MEAN IT IN A GOOD WAY I DON’T LIKE THE WAY THAT YOU MOVE (I DON'T LIKE THE WAY THAT YOU) FRIENDS TURNING FRAUDS AIN’T COOL I CAN’T EVEN TELL WHO’S WHO NAH DON’T LIE, SPEAK TRUTH (I DON'T LIE, SPEAK TRUTH) CUTTING BITCHES OFF WITH THE PROOF ACTING BRAND NEW (BRAND NEW) PAID DUES NOW IT’S OVERDUE (IT'S OVERDUE NOW) THINGS WISHING SHE COULD UNDO (THINGS WISHING SHE COULD UNDO) WE DON’T SPEAK NO MORE BUT MY NAME TATTOO’D I AIN’T BEING PETTY BUT I KNOW IT’S TOO SOON ACTING LIKE I’M SOBER BUT MY EYES BLOODSHOT I DON’T WANT THE CONVO WHEN I’M HIGH, DON’T TALK I KNOW IT AIN’T THE TRUTH WHEN THE EYES DON’T LOCK SHE BEEN THROWING STONES WHEN I USED TO BE HER ROCK NEVER LONELY I’M JUST LOWKEY PULL UP NOW THEY ACTING LIKE THEY KNOW ME (YOU DON’T KNOW, YOU DON'T KNOW) I DON’T WANT THE CONVO WHEN I’M HIGH, DON’T TALK I KNOW IT AIN’T THE TRUTH WHEN THE EYES DON’T LOCK SHE BEEN THROWING STONES WHEN I USED TO BE HER ROCK NEVER LONELY I’M JUST LOWKEY PULL UP NOW THEY ACTING LIKE THEY KNOW ME (YOU DON’T KNOW, YOU DON'T KNOW)
BLOODSHOT
FAMOUS
MOMMA,
I DON'T WANNA BE FAMOUS.
FAM
IT STARTED WHEN MY BABY DIDN’T NEED ME I PUNCHED MY FIST THROUGHT THE TV PUT IT IN MY SHIRT TO STOP THE BLEEDING AND WALKED TO THE TRAIN LOOKIN' EVIL I HOPPED THE GATE, I DON'T GOT CHANGE FOR IT I GOT ANGER ISSUES, I'MMA PAY FOR IT LOVE'S ONLY ON WHAT YOU GET TO TAKE FOR IT AND IF YOU AIN'T PATIENT, DON'T WAIT FOR IT ALL MY LIFE TRYNA BE SOMEBODY (ALL MY LIFE TRYNA BE SOMEBODY) ALL MY LIFE TRYNA BE SOMEBODY MOMMA, I DON'T WANNA BE FAMOUS I JUST WANNA GO HOME YOU KNOW I DON'T EVER FEEL SHAME BUT I'M ASHAMED, TAKE ME HOME I'LL DO BETTER, I PROMISE I'LL DO BETTER, I PROMISE I'LL DO BETTER, I PROMISE JUST FOR YOU IT STARTED WITH A CIGARETTE AND A WHISKEY ESCALATED WHEN SHE AIN'T MISS ME I GOT A GOOD FEELING I'M REPLACED NOW YEAH, I'M DRINKING STRAIGHT, STRAIGH I DON'T CHASE NOW DEPRESSION GOT ME PICKING UP THE PACE NOW THEY WON'T SEE ME TAKE IT TO THE FACE NOW I MIX IT WITH THE SMOKE FOR THE BALANCE ADMITTING ALL THIS MY BIGGEST CHALLENGE
MOUS
ALL MY LIFE TRYNNA BE SOMEBODY (ALL MY LIFE TRYNNA BE SOMEBODY) ALL MY LIFE TRYNNA BE SOMEBODY MOMMA, I DON'T WANNA BE FAMOUS I JUST WANNA GO HOME YOU KNOW I DON'T EVER FEEL SHAME BUT I AM ASHAMED, TAKE ME HOME I'LL DO BETTER I PROMISE I'LL DO BETTER I PROMISE I'LL DO BETTER I PROMISE JUST FOR YOU MOMMA, I DON'T WANNA BE FAMOUS YOU KNOW I DON'T EVER FEEL SHAME BUT I AM ASHAMED, TAKE ME HOME I'LL DO BETTER, I PROMISE I'LL DO BETTER, I PROMISE I'LL DO BETTER, I PROMISE JUST FOR YOU
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8 MISSED CALLS 17 TEXTS 5 IN THE MORNING, YOU AIN’T SLEEP YET, NO TAKE A DEEP BREATH NEED TO RESET EIGHT MISSED CALLS, SEVENTEEN TEXTS FIVE IN THE MORNING, YOU AIN’T SLEEP YET, NO TAKE A DEEP BREATH NEED TO RESET WAIT UP LATE FOR ME WE’VE BEEN UP AND DOWN ASK MY WHEREABOUTS I’M AT UP AND DOWN DON’T YOU HANG UP DON’T YOU DRAIN ME DON’T YOU CHANGE ME I’M THE SAME ME YOU SHOULD THANK ME YOU SHOULD THANK ME YOU UNGRATEFUL DON’T YOU HATE ME I DON’T HATE YOU H I JUST THANK YOU YOU KNOW IT, YOU KNOW AYO ALL WHITE VIBES WITH THE HALO LOST MY MIND IF YOU SAY SO I’LL BE RIGHT THERE IF YOU WAIT THO 8 MISSED CALLS 17 TEXTS 5 IN THE MORNING, YOU AIN’T SLEEP YET, NO TAKE A DEEP BREATH NEED TO RESET EIGHT MISSED CALLS, SEVENTEEN TEXTS FIVE IN THE MORNING, YOU AIN’T SLEEP YET, NO TAKE A DEEP BREATH NEED TO RESET
IF I
JUMP
IF I JUMP
IF I JUMP . . .
IF I JUMP
PINK SKIES HANGING OFF THE BALCONY FEEL LIKE EVERYBODY GOT IT OUT FOR ME WHAT’S THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A DREAM AND NIGHTMARE? CUZ EITHER WAY U WAS STANDING RIGHT THERE STARING AT ME ACTIN LIKE U CARE ABOUT ME EVEN IN MY COFFIN I’LL LOOK SEXY GUARANTEE YOU SCOFFING WITH YOUR BESTIE FAKE BITCHES ALWAYS MEANT THE MOST TO ME EVEN THO I LET EM GET THE MOST OF ME, I PLAYED DUMB LET EM CLOSE TO ME PINK SKIES HANGING OFF THE BALCONY JUM IF I JUMP, IF I JUMP.... IF I JUMP, AIN’T AFRAID OF DEATH LIFE IS BUT A TEST IF I JUMP DON’T CRY FOR ME JUST REWIND ME, THEY’RE TRYING TO NEVER MIND ME, IF I JUMP, LIVING THROUGH THESE SONGS SO YOU KNOW JUST WHERE TO FIND ME IF I JUMP DON’T YOU TAKE THE BLAME, DON’T YOU FEEL GUILTY, NOTHINGS GONNA CHANGE IF I JUMP (PLAYED DUMB LET THEM CLOSE TO ME) PINK SKIES HANGING OFF THE BALCONY FEEL LIKE EVERYBODY GOT IT OUT FOR ME WHAT’S THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A DREAM AND NIGHTMARE? CAUSE EITHER WAY YOU WAS STANDING RIGHT THERE. I KNOW IT’S NOT RIGHT.
Sounds from a Lucid Dream. Interpretations of a shared dream, the human exerience. We are consistantly changing, so it’s hard to find the right color.. the right word. Art is a visual representation of our emotions.. our minds. Our subconcious, is a resevior of desires, conflicting emotions, unprocessed thoughts. Let us process that. The heart is one of the highest forms of intellegence. He too speaks from the heart
Milo Matthieu
Now that all 3 chapters are out
and this specific story is told
a new one begins.
I appreciate all the love & everybody sharing my art.
Im proud to be working on my first album & focused to provide you with my best work yet.
My greatest realtionship is with you, the listener. Thank you again & I hope to meet you all on the road.
