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ANNALOG DECEMBER 2021

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OUR CONSCIOUS AND THE WORLD

photograph by Ralph Andrew D'Souza

ANNALOG ANNALOG is an e-magazine dedicated to young and new found artists and the various perspectives of life. We help to bring out the best in one-self and help grow and build a strong and supportive community. Small businesses, bloggers, musicians, poets, photographers and all other artists are welcomed here with love and respect.

ISSUE NO. 01 DECEMBER 2021 Editor and Founder - Joanna Fernandes

annalogbyjo@gmail.com

All photographs belong to the artists and have been published with their permit. DO NOT copy without permission from the ANNALOG magazine.

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CONTENTS 5 Letter from the Editor

8 digital art - Delroy D'souza

6 Flame

17 recipe - Aasma Khwaja

12 The world in my eyes

22 little pieces - Luke

15 The art of gratitude

27 art & cookies - Muhammad T

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Keeping touch

mandala - Gredel Almeida

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Rose colored glasses

poetry - Aryak Srivastav

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Letter from the Editor Greetings to all,

As a child, I would always wish to be a writer; however as time passed, that dream began to fade away, until I finally put my mind to it and decided to gear up and make my dreams come true.

Putting my values, thoughts and believes into making something that comforts everyone who reads it. I hope you find your peace somewhere in this magazine and continue to be a reader of the ANNALOG. I want to impose my gratitude to my family and my friends who have been immensely supportive and helpful. Believing in me and my work is one of the best gifts I have received this year. Not only supporting me but also improvising and taking your time to submit your work and help me find my pace and knowledge. The love I pour into this magazine flows from the love YOU are the source to. Thankyou for being wonderful the way you are!

I decided to start this magazine to inspire and built a community of love for oneself and strength for each other. I have put my heart and soul into this magazine and I hope to make each and everyone of you feel at peace. I hope to pour out my comfort and peace to you, dear readers, that you may have your peace, joy and happiness. To enlighten and bring in the good words someone needs to hear. Have a wonderful time!

Regards, Joanna Fernandes

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FLAME

OUR CONSCIOUS CHANGES US. It unknowingly makes ourselves distance away from the things we know could harm us. Thus leading to the change in us as a whole.

do you burn? does it hurt? why do you burn? why does anybody burn? will you stop when your flame is put off? or will you burn even brighter?

I was the always the type of person to be the happiest and grateful for every little thing that happened to occur in my life.

Joyous little being, not thinking twice who I engaged with, just appreciative of every little blessing I was bestowed with. We all know how that ends for the warm-hearted.

It wasn't in my mind that I would be cautious next when it came to newer things and newer opportunities. Even though the wounds I had endured were bandaged by my hearts gratefulness for the moments that were enough to let me be happy. I lit a candle within my heart even brighter for the people I had in my life now. Burnt everyday, until I'm jus wholly melted, burning with passion because it makes someone happy.

Even so, what can one do when some of their most blissful flames are put off?

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Let me inquire you; Why are you often afraid to create to friendships, to talk to new people? Is it because you were scarred in the past? Or because you have not enough light left burning inside you? Are you afraid they'll blow off your shine? No matter how much you'd burn for someone, they'd just let you melt? Is it because you do not have any more bandages left for yourself?

At times, we find peace being alone. Our soul forces us to not engage anymore; it unknowingly protects us. It unknowingly changes us. It saves us from even the slightest hint of dispair.

It burns and burns.

It shimmers with love in this epitome of hatred. It lights up with the sight of your peace, it lights up in flames for your please.

Not knowing when the flame will be put off by another one's mischief, for all I know the cared for, will light up my flame once again. My soul loves and so it burns for another soul loves and burns for me.

Despite all of it, our conscious, our soul and our heart blaze with love. We know that maybe not all, nevertheless, someone's soul blazes with love for us. I know. I know they burn for me, you know they burn for you.

And so I, will forever be beholding to them.

-Joanna Fernandes

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digital art by Delroy D'souza

food illustration by Delroy D'souza

Hii, I'm Delroy, I am a 16 year old artist, living in Mumbai. I love creating art in my free time, creating art brings me peace and offers me a place to meditate on the beauty of the world and the grace I feel while living in it. I create digital art, food illustrations, paintings (seascapes), realism art etc.

-Delroy D'souza

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photograph by Ralph D'Souza.

iris

And when we die, we'll decay as moss flows through our veins and mushrooms grow on our ribcage, we'll know that I loved you and your lavender soul truely though never reciprocated like the deep blue ocean...someday I'll be okay.

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photography by Joanna Fernandes

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THE WORLD IN MY EYES -by Joanna Fernandes

The alluring sites of the magnificent blue sky. The tense heat of the sun, the warmth of the sunlight wrapping my face into a content heart of intensity and comfort. The time as it goes my clicking, calming down my nerves and yet bringing me at an edge as to how it runs by so quick, that nobody can outrun it. The softness of the beaming light of the moon, oh! so pure.

The hasty breeze on a windy day and the delightful flowers along the paths. They always bring me peace. They always make me love life more.

There is always something you can learn from anything in this world. It is just a matter of perspective and interest. At times, when our days are dull, we forget about the brighter things of our existence. We dwell upon the weirdest and saddest parts of reality that we neglect a whole side of the beautiful masterpiece we are accustomed to.

To be specific, the little curl a person shares before they're about to burst out with laughter, or the kind smile a stranger walking by bestows me with. The little well of tears in the eyes of someone who is muted up because of the fear of situations turning bad; projecting that they care deeply about the littlest things. A plant-parent, a gardener nurturing their plants to aquire the appropriate growth they need; they believe they're listening, which they do, they talk to them as if they were their own child. It fills me with tenderness and solicitude.

What are the little things that you notice around you? Does it inspire you like it does to me? if you haven't yet, one day you will, and it shall not stop. You will always find peace and will always have comfort within the little but greatest things this world has to offer.

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It's not about what you see.

It is about in what perspective you view it in

Viewing the world in different perspectives, cherishing the moments, embracing this life is what will make it memorable and wonderful.

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photography by Ralph Andrew D'Souza

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The art of gratitude.

It is choosing to be thankful for the many blessings, embracing happiness; considering the negative parts and yet looking forward to rejoice for the graces of life. Knowledge of what you aldready have and accepting your wonderful epitome as it is. Pushing yourself towards betterment and a dignified and wonderful life.

Life

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hardships and dispair, burn you down, tear you apart. It shall bring you downfalls every moment you pick up. It

One finds it difficult to find their peace

is when we give into the ill effects,

and gratitude in deprivation. Although,

forgetting the honorable parts, being

it is not unfeasible. One needs to force

ignorant towards the love and care we

themselves to view onto their biggest

attain daily and only being reliant on

blessings and show gratitude. Telling

someone to come and save you because

your loved ones you love them will only

you "need to be saved"; it is then when

make them help you get stronger. Being

nobody but you can save yourself.

thankful and thanking someone for their littlest effort towards you is what will give them the assurance of being good and you will be content.

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photography by Ralph Andrew D'Souza

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Heart Warming Winter Staples -by Aasma Khwaja

A fuzzy blanket and a marathon of Christmas movies are the only plans I ever have during the winter. All the time spent snuggling in brings me nothing but sheer joy.

Although something that never fails to brighten my day up even more is a cup of piping hot coco and a couple of my all time favourite classic drop cookies. I always like to add a little something here and there to make the recipe my very own so i decided to spice things up with my cuppa hot coco! And trust me, it's the best you'll ever have.

To make my spiced hot coco, here are a few things you'll need :(Serves 2)

Ingredients : 1 cup of milk 2 tbsp of cocoa powder 2 tbsp of sugar 1 tsp of instant coffee powder 1/4 tsp of cinnamon 1/4 tsp of nutmeg 1/2 cup of fresh cream (photograph from pinterest)

Lets get started!

Grab a saucepan and add in milk of your liking. I've used full fat but skim or plant-based work too. On medium-high heat, let the milk simmer for a little bit and add the cocoa powder. Whisk it well. Now add in your instant coffee. What the coffee does is it really wakes the cocoa up and gives it a beautiful taste. Let that infuse for a minute and then drop in your spices. Already sounds like a feast to me. Now add in your fresh cream and whisk until well combined. Increase the flame to high and let it boil.You can top it off with whipped cream or mini marshmallows. Note that the hot coco will gradually start to thicken once it is taken off the heat. Serve it in your favourite mugs and pair it with biscotti or as i do, with some freshly baked drop cookies.

This recipe is a celebration of flavours that you would totally regret missing on. So try this luscious delight and watch a marathon of Home Alone and you can thank me later!

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keeping touch.

-Joanna Fernandes

Maintaining relationships and friendships need a strong bonding, which in most cases happen through communication.

Although, it is not the only element required for it.

It is a big factor to always be talking, texting - in today's generation. If two do not communicate everyday, the relationship per say, is not "valid" and the two are "drifted". If we learn the mannerisms of how relationships work; Always having contact isn't necessary, neither are they the strong molds for a bond. Instead, love, value and respect to the other person are the important foundations for a relationship to be built well.

Nobody owes anybody any explanation of their whereabouts or actions, their plans. One can do as they wish like and tell it to anybody they would wish to say it to. The other does not have a right to know everything. They might think it's a need for them to, but in reality; no it's not. You do not have the right to react differently just because one hasn't kept contact.

In some instances, people have phases of depression, due to various reasons, and might need their alone time. Just because the other has a problem with them not reasoning their silence, they decide to blame them for it and start demanding reasons and impose various accusations. It just adds salt to the wound. Instead, ask them if they're doing okay.

Sometimes, people do not like to communicate, introverts enjoy being on their own and do not take "not communicating" seriously. If one finds the need to speak about it, they should for they wouldn't know if one wouldn't speak up.

Hence, one needs to be considered of the various reasons another is being silent, place themselves in the others shoes and reflect. Be vigilant and kind and remember that, keeping touch isn't always necessary for a relationship to work.

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photograph by Myron Pinto

ROSE COLORED GLASSES

We wear our own rose colored glasses to view the various dealings of life.

Sometimes we are forced to, sometimes we do it unconsciously. It is when we deny it that we are foolish

A person wearing rose colored glasses..what do we think of it? A naive person only viewing the crazy and comforting aspects of life. We wonder how foolish a person could be to leave off the dark sides of entity and by thinking this we forget the glasses we put on everyday to escape our dispairs in life. A person who's had difficult relationships with people but yet, a warm-hearted one with a single person.

Hence they know that there are things to look forward to that are delightful. A person always having complications due to several reasons would find comfort in an escape reality. Always giving someone the 'benefit of the doubt' is a choice some of us choose to live by, believing that everything and everyone has good in them. Labeling a person who uses rose glasses and not knowing their genuine reasons makes only one out of the two the foolish one; you. And if you wouldn't know, you wear your own type of rose-colored glasses in disguise.

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It is good that they wear those glasses, in the view of fact that tomorrow they would believe in you and trust in you when nobody else would. They're the ones with most pain but held hopes for the brightest days.

So who are you? The 'speck'tacular person or the foolish one in denial.

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LITTLE PIECES. -by Luke

1/2 I'm a little broken. I used to let people take advantage of me. I used to let them walk all over me. I thought I was just doing the bare minimum and was "being nice" by letting them control my life. It broke me. Little pieces of me were lost at different ages. When I go back in time, I see those pieces. Still broken, still fallen. As if they were never a part of me. Like it didn't matter. Like it should've never even existed.

But, I know. I know how important those little pieces were. I know how much better I would be today if I was still holding on to those pieces. I would be better. I would be healthier. But, now, it's just a thought. I just think about how I should've given up on that relationship when I was 5. But then I get mad at myself because I shouldn't let the past affect me so much.

And I should find ways to just live with it. Because that's all I've been told to do.

It used to be a big picture. Now, it's broken. A person is broken. The pieces are fallen everywhere.

I'm a little broken. I'm a little empty. There are many holes in me. Many moments of emptiness. So much is missing. I know what is missing. It's the little pieces.

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2/2 Guys, I did it.

I really did.

I found love.

And no, this is not something that'll last for maybe a week. This time, it's here to stay.

It's not an object, or an experience.

It's a person. And I know what we used to say about people before. But it's not the same. This person changes everything.

They give me hope. They care. They love me. They make me feel things I've never felt before. They give me life. They make me happy. They make me feel Whole.

They make all the emptiness go away. They make me feel like I'm so much. I want to grow. I want to explore. I want to be adventurous, and not dumb. I want to be careful and carefree at the same time. I want to drown myself in this person.

I want to lose myself in them. But I want to lose myself by being myself. I want to be the person who I truly am. I want to be that person with them.

I want to truly let go of my broken pieces. And instead of trying to fix them, I want to build myself again. I want to fill myself again. I want to fill myself with them. I want everything to revolve around them. And at the same time, I want us to have our lives as individuals, so that we have more to share. So that we have more to be happy about.

They make me feel good. They show me I matter. They show me why I should live, and not survive.

They make me better, everyday. Slowly and patiently.

She holds and protects me. Fills me with little pieces.

She loves me. Lets me experience moments of joy.

She shows me that nothing is missing. She completes me, with her little pieces.

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photography by Ralph Andrew D'Souza

photography by Ralph Andrew D'Souza

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Comprehension over Communication -Joanna Fernandes

One can communicate with another till endless limits, but nothing can be accomplished if they do not understand you.

WHAT DOES THIS MEAN? We often discuss our issues with people seeking for help and advice from the other end. We blindly trust that the person knows what we are trying to talk about. But in reality, they are just not paying attention to what we have to say. One might even claim the other to be difficult or heartless, when in reality it might be an unseen issue, which can be solved easily if one puts their mind to it.

HOW TO EXPLAIN YOURSELF BETTER Talk to the person face-to-face. Let them know that you are not happy with their actions. Get into the details of what has happened, what has caused it and what can they do to help you. You have to let the other know in what ways can they help you; Everyone has their own need and thus is can be tacky to help oneself if they do not know how they can contribute to it.

HOW TO UNDERSTAND SOMEONE BETTER?

Listen to them attentively. Tell them that you are not able to understand what they converse about and suggest that they should give you more insights on what the issue is. Focus on one and only one topic, dive in deeper to acquire more knowledge and if not clear, clarify it with them. Look for problem-solving methods and help them through it. Make the other person comfortable and do not impose your feelings until they are done talking, people sometimes have similar experiences but that does not mean they should neglect the person who needs help to speak up their stories. You can let them know how you got out of the situation once they're done talking but do not interrupt them as they vent their emotions.

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Art by Muhammad Thakur

Classic Chocolate Chip Cookies -Muhammad Thakur INGREDIENTS (FOR 15 COOKIES) : granulated sugar (100 g) brown sugar (165 g), packed 1 teaspoon salt ½ cup unsalted butter(115 g), melted 1 egg 1 teaspoon vanilla extract all-purpose flour(180 g) ½ teaspoon baking soda milk or semi-sweet chocolate chunks(110 g) dark chocolate chunk(110 g), or your preference PREPARATION In a large bowl, whisk together the sugars, salt, and butter until a paste forms with no lumps.

Whisk in the egg and vanilla, beating until light ribbons fall off the whisk and remain for a short while before falling back into the mixture.

Sift in the flour and baking soda, then fold the mixture with a spatula (Be careful not to overmix, which would cause the gluten in the flour to toughen resulting in cakier cookies).

Fold in the chocolate chunks, then chill the dough for at least 30 minutes.

For a more intense toffee-like flavor and deeper color, chill the dough overnight. The longer the dough rests, the more complex its flavor will be.

Preheat oven to 350°F (180°C). Line a baking sheet with parchment paper.

Scoop the dough with an ice-cream scoop onto a parchment paper-lined baking sheet, leaving at least 4 inches (10 cm) of space between cookies and 2 inches (5 cm) of space from the edges of the pan so that the cookies can spread evenly.

Bake for 12-15 minutes, or until the edges have started to barely brown.

Cool completely before serving.

Enjoy!

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mandala art by Gredel Almeida

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photograph by Myron Pinto

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EYE TO EYE

FAKE A SMILE

-Aryak Srivastav

-Aryak Srivastav

I have walked long enough

As the sun went down As the darkness rose I felt reality crawling nearby I feel alone I feel fake

The wind doesn't blow anymore The Sun doesn't glow anymore The rain doesn't pour anymore I don't have a way home anymore I feel alone I feel fake

I remember the dreams I don't have anymore I regret the path I can't change anymore I can't believe this reality anymore I feel alone I feel fake

Wasn't a hand supposed to guide us?

Wasn't love supposed to be with us?

Wasn't I of any important?

I feel alone I feel fake

I walk paths with no directions I climb ladders with no destination I solve puzzles with no conclusion I feel alone I feel fake

I close my eyes in pitch darkness Hoping I'll find a light inside of me As I know there is no light left outside anymore I feel alone I feel fake

Midst of Chaos, midst of confusion Midst of anger, midst of pain All I can do is Fake a smile :):

But I can't get rid of this fog With every step it gets thicker With every breath it dawns Have I walked the wrong path?

Is it too late for me?

Everytime I turn back I see myself in misery After all the promises After all the lies I can't see him eye to eye For he looks at me with hope in his eyes Praying that I'll claimb up high What he doesn't know That it's all been a fall I don't know how I'll ever see him eye to eye I started cause I just wanted to make him proud Wanted to get him out of the crowd I vomit my guts out everytime I remember I have let him down I can never see him eye to eye I knew it was my time to go There was no longer a goal I'll take him with me To finally a peaceful pled Who is he you ask?

He is me He and I are one For He is my younger self For I am his future I wonder what went wrong I wonder what changed As I questioned our existence The Knot was complete A rope that will set us free I shed my final tear knowing that he'll die with me :):

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photography by Soham Sawant

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photography by Ralph Andrew D'Souza

It is our first issue and the support has been overwhelming. Thankyou for reading the ANNALOG.

edit by Joanna Fernandes

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