I WANT YOU

BY KABEER GARBA

REALATIONSHIPS ARE KIND of a funny thing. You put so much effort into looking your best and only showing the positive sides of yourself just to get the other person to like you, then once you are comfortable, you just let loose and expose all of those traits that are not so pretty.

This is where things get shaky, and you either make it through or you do not. The thing I do not understand is why. Why hide who you are at the beginning? You know eventually, that special someone will find out those negative things one way or the other, and if it is a deal breaker later in the relationship, it will definitely be a deal breaker now. So, why wait? Why not jump into something fully ready to speak your mind? If they like you, they still will, and if they do not…did they ever?

Dating is like a game at the start, with both parties acting how they think they should rather than how they might actually be. As enjoyable as playing pretend may be, sooner or later the game has to stop. I want you. Really badly, actually. I want to tell you about my day in full detail, I want to hold you close, I want to make you smile, I want to kiss you, I want to be vulnerable around you, I want to tell you all the things that I love and hate about this world and most of all I want to treat you like the beautiful person you are.

I do not want to be afraid to be myself. What is holding me back is this little voice in the small of my mind that says to slow down. It tells me that you are not ready for that sort of commitment, that you will not like me anymore if I text you again though you have not replied, or that those key features that make me myself, are not okay with you.

I have a past, I have history, I have so much to tell, and I am sure things are the same way with you. So, can we just agree to be comfortable around each other? What do you say?