Bailey Elizabeth Rogers

in a painful sky she flies. "what am i supposed to tell people when they ask me what i do for a living? am i really supposed to say, 'well actually, i am in the process of recovering from anorexia'? if i go that far i might as well delve fully into the discussion. why not give people a more complete view of what my life has been like these past years, trying to recover from an illness i've had for over five years? i may as well tell them every day is like an eternity, full of fear and trepidation about being left alone in a cold, shadowy world where winter is always approaching, without my greatest source of solace: my anorexia. i may as well tell them i have seen over twenty psychiatrists, therapists, doctors, and nutritionists in the past couple years, and have often been left feeling more stranded, frustrated, and secluded. i may as well say that some mornings i wake up and think that without my anorexia i am at risk of vanishing into a sea of faceless, anonymous people, as though i never even existed.