The Raven 2021

I was struggling to write this. I wasn’t sure how to feel about you after all the pain that you caused me. I forgot about you until I had to remember pain. I forgot about you until I had to describe a crippling feeling. I started thinking about you late at night again. Every night it was different this time around.

I can see why I was put in this situation and why it had this outcome. Although I didn’t expect it and my friends did. I believed they were crazy for thinking that you could’ve hurt me.

I wish more people were able to see both sides of you. Yes, you were a sweet and trusting person, but you were also a manipulative person, and I couldn’t see that. I don’t miss you anymore, and I forgave you a long time ago because, yes, you hurt me even though you were the person I loved. I was a different person when I was around you, but it also made me realize how much our relationship hurt both of us and how I could be so much better without you. I’m grateful to have met you and have made some fantastic memories. Even though some weren’t as good, I learned from them, and I forgive you. I hope that you are doing good and continue to.

I know I carry our memories and release those that no longer serve me.