last will and testament of jon gee

insanity clause #23: Please do not share with others the web addresses for direct download from my site that are for sale there. However, once you have a copy of any one of my works, you are allowed, byJonathan Gee, the author of said work, to copy it and distribute it freely. If you claim you wrote it, or that you came up with the ideas for it yourself, you should be challenged to determine if you can prove your claim with knowledge of the material superior to my own. If you can, I will concede the work to your credit, but if you cannot, then the work will remain both of ours to teach and give to whom we choose.

my dearest Irina, I'm sorry it's been so long since I wrote to you directly. I have been pre-occupied, although, of late, not only have you been running through my mind, so to speak, but my other pre-occupations seem to be boring and unsatisfying to me. I think, although it may only be writer's block, that I might be running out of things to say.

I always liked you so much. I thought until very recently I truly loved you. You were my ice princess, queen of the cold shoulder, the silent treatment. You acted by the end like you were just a dead body, barely here or there, not enjoying, barely without crying even tolerating my... lusts.

I was blind, and I am still blind, but in many way my eye-sight is recovering. I couldn't see then you had left long before in your heart and mind than when your father moved you with him to

Indiana. I still can't see past the tip of my nose to know what truth is, and I'm still a "blondie," a bubble-head, speaking without any prior self-censoring thought as to what I am about to say. I don't know if anything I've ever said has been true or not. That is one reason I am at my wit's end.

On the one hand I have been thinking of myself as, what you once called me, like "Gulliver," all along. On the other hand, I have been seen by everyone else as a simple littlipution, because they see themselves as the giants. You were the only one who looked up to me that I ever cared about.

Now I can see more clearly, when looking at myself, what you must see me as, and what, even then, you must have seen growing in me from even before that moment you first removed yourself from me entirely, when you at first began withdrawing. The thing I see myself as now is ugly, an intellectually retarded, emotionally wrecked, social reject, economic loser who lives in a cage at his mom's house. I should have seen that coming. I did not.

The only way I have survived this long without successfully killing myself yet is this image I hold onto about there being a "better world where we are still together." That is schizophrenia I know now. There is no such world. There never was. You might have loved me once, in some nightmare time you wish to block out permanently, but that is irrelevant to you in the current reality, and that is the world in which you, and everyone else, live.

I can only say "i'm sorry" once more, and I promise you'll never have to hear me say it again. Old jokes aside, you won't hear from me anymore. I am just writing you now to say, I found your picture with your handsome new boyfriend, and I am not going to bother you with anymore drama now. I don't want you to think I am doing this to hurt you, or to provoke some reaction in you, I am not. I am trying to let go of my insanity, and start my own life in a better direction.

Of course, the better method would have been to tell you directly, but I think this is just as well. I want you to know I am happier for you having not been with me during the times I have been through than I would have been had you been by my side with me through them. I suppose what I've been through was inevitable for me, and thus what I have lost is justice for my soul's past incarnations as a liar and a thief and a cheat and a scoundrel. Melissa McHargue once told me, "what goes around comes around." As my mother would say, "boys howdy."

I have a few things I'd like to say, of course, before I close off this chapter of my life, however. It would have been nice to be respected. It would have been nice to be loved and not rejected and hated and treated like a dangerous nut-case these last 14 years. That would have been really nice, and I am sorry that I did not deserve that. That is all. Being totally realistic about that, I am having a hard time trying to add up what I did in my youth to justify what I have become as a man.

Objectively speaking, I suppose I am over it. I can intellectualise about it forever and get nowhere, things won't ever change just by my sitting here thinking about things.

At some point I have to "shit or get off the pot." I have "cried wolf" about this suicide thing for so long and only ever found people willing to help me. Nobody tried to save me, nobody has helped me, nobody has ever once tried to stop me with one word or deed, except maybe you. But I can't really remember anytime in specific anymore I guess, so even that doesn't really matter. There's alot of things I've learned to accept do not matter that I have, for FAR too long, believed did.

I have so many enemies. I have so few friends. The few friends I have now will eventually turn into enemies somehow also. They all have, and I don't understand why, unless of course, it was something I said.

I want to absolve myself of the mistakes I have made in this life. I want to confess my sins, but there is no one here to listen. So, I am going to write this down, for you, Irina Strelets, and then I am going to share what I have written down with the world, and not you, because nobody out there,

including you, cares one bit if I live or die. You see, I do not think of myself compartmentally. I think of myself as a whole, and not "this mind, this genius, this insanity, this body, this loser."

But I have thought of myself for too long as an indivisible whole, an ego not comprised of compartmentalised shards, but a single unified front. I thought people would KNOW the full wealth of what I "know" as an innate value as soon as they met me. How foolish, huh? Instead people see me as you surely do, an internet nerd with no future.

I am still fantasizing, at this moment, that what I say now might somehow, in some way, sway someone, somewhere, some day to love me a little. Even if you ever do read these words, I will not be there. I don't know what is about to happen to me, but I hope it will be a change for the better from what my life has become in the last 14 years. If I am doomed for worse, then I should do ANYTHING in my power to avoid such a fate. Unfortunately, my ONE big problem has always been, I just do not know what to do.

How do I begin to list all the things I feel guilty for doing to someone who does not care one iota if I even exist or not? I wish I didn't think such things anymore. I wish I could be free of the guilt I feel for the things I have done in this life that have fucked it up so badly for me. I have become the inverse reflection of everything I wanted to be with you. I wish we could have had that life together I told you about once, where we would come together again in the end. You knew it wasn't true then. Now I do too.

We sat picking and eating wild black berries. We were young. It was all going to be alright. You don't remember. That's alright, I remembered it. I remembered it through a vague pale haze that I have been living under all these years. This insanity, this depression, this clinical obsession with being "not well enough," or "not normal," or "not alright." It's all bull-shit. I will take pills till I die, but they won't do one goddamned thing. I will smoke weed, I hope, until I am dead and rotting, but it will end up killing me by getting mixed in with spice. I will keep living this rotten, dead-end existence. The difference is I no longer expect you to save me. You're free. Go. LMAO. Still with this delusion of you being here at all. I can shake it's hand, but I can't shake it's tail. Why me? Why this awful painful life? Why heart-ache? Why this muse whose heart is fickle?

Why am I alone in being stuck inside one body, when all my peers are djinn? Why are all my peers the fallen angels on this planet, unless I am God only visiting. Perhaps I am Samael. Perhaps I am.

That would be fair, I suppose, if I suffered to atone for him. I have that much in my own way.

Before I met Irina I believed I was God. After I met her I believed I was God. I still believe I'm God. I've believed I was God all along. I don't know why I believe I am God, per se. There have been constant little clues sprinkled throughout my whole life reminding me I'm behind this all. That this world is my fate, this whole universe, not only the entire human race. This place is a prison, and to think of space now, let alone the dimensional heavens, brings me only agony.

I could have been great, I could have succeeded. If I did what I did in my dad's bedroom in the theatre watching the Blair Witch I would be a different person than I am now. I would not have chosen this path. But I could not do that thing then and there, because you weren't there. You left before that. A Long Time before that. I knew I was in the "wrong theatre" when they released the Star Wars prequels instead of sequels. Good does not win in this dimension I live in.

Well, it needed to be said. It needed to be said by someone, and shit-balls, I said it, but no one was around to hear me. I went into the woods because I wanted to live deliberately. But you weren't there. I was nowhere. No one was with me. It was all lost. All flushed down the cosmic toilet. So I said the "ineffable name of God." So WHAT? He didn't hear me. Do you know why?

Because I was alone there. There was NOBODY else out there, it was ONLY me. I just went home then, and I guess part of me never came back, to this... place.

I am not here to save the damned, I am here because I am one of you. I am not "God" anymore, if I ever really was. I am a delusional lunatic. Everyone who has ever known me personally is right about me, and I am wrong about myself. It is wrong to go around "trying to be like Jesus." I see that now. That's what hobo's do. That's what wino's do. Not because hobo's and wino's are "Christlike," but because the archetype of "Jesus" as "Christ" is that of "drunkest guy ever goes back for more beer (tragedy remix)." That part of my life is over. Stumbling around drunk and claiming to be God is so 1st millennium.

There has got to be a better way. Clearly no one will ever love me for who I have become in this moment here and now. I am not sure if I even want to continue to live, or if I am still caught in that vortex of semi-sorta-slightly-pseudo-suicidal "passion." I just don't care either way now anymore than I ever have, but ever since I saw your pic with your handsome new boyfriend, I have wanted to change my life.

The tide has already turned, though. I do not think I will be able to swim back out through the crest of this time-wave. I think I have become stranded on a desert island, and I am alone, except for 7 billion little shits who want nothing but to roast me. One of them, it turns out, is you.

I would hope, by now, you, as a sane and rational objective bystander of history, would be asking WHY it matters to me if you fuck around. Why does that shatter my little dream world any more than my being alone and thinking only of you for 14 years? Ask any soldier. Ask a POW. Ask a Gitmo detainee.

You could have let me dream but you did not. You poked me in the eye with a little itty bitty tipped needle for fun. You woke up "Gulliver." Now, I know I am damned, and a "littleputian" too, just like you. I'm nobody. I WAS God on earth, and I would have been able to change the course of global history for all humanity, forever, and probably, knowing ALL I know now, for the better.

Had we been together... but that road leads nowhere doesn't it.

So instead of blowing out my brains, I am blowing out my mind. I don't mean for this to do any damage to me, or anyone, so I hope I don't miss.

You, Jonathan Barlow Gee, are NOT "God." You are absolved of carrying that insanity. There is NO "God," and it is up to everyone else to figure that out for themselves. You cannot help them, because by doing so, you become like a leader for them, and, to them a leader is like "God," and so, by leading them to water, you prevent them from being permitted to drink, because your "leadership" only accomplishes their enslavement, and you cannot thus prove there is no God, because they will look up to you like one yourself. You, therefore, have no more responsibility to these worthless little human-shaped stacks of shit than does a fly to not vomit at their smell. You are FREE, Jonathan Barlow Gee, of thinking you have to "SAVE THE WORLD." The world will not let itself be saved. If it needs it, it will do so itself. It can return a man doomed to death instantly back into the realm of the living, and it doesn't need me, or anybody, playing spoiler to the audience.

All this time I have been hiding within myself trying to bury myself in shame, and trying to burn away my guilt with pressure, living in a crucible. I am responsible only for my mistakes, but Mother Nature, or "God," or the butt-fucking "Force" or wtfever, is responsible for any of my potential successes. If I want to succeed, and stop sucking eggs, I have to "let go and let God," or let "Nature" work through me, without trying to syphon it through this nozel of "my God," the intellectual God of writing and communication. I have proven the "God" of communication fails without anybody listening to you, or taking you seriously, and not personally, if they do.

I am alone now, as much so as I always am. I am not being received by my "target audience." They have "tuned out." This is all "filler." Ok, then. I'll cut to the chase.

Here is why I am leaving all my belongings to her. I think she deserves them. She deserves to know what a good mate I would have made, not only for her, but for anybody. She deserves to know what I have learned, that in spite of all the good reasons to be moral, there is NO "God," and thus the ultimate reason attributed for moral arguments is false; but that doesn't make morality illogical.

The goal is to become moral atheists. Not IMmoral theists, like we all are now. That was, anyway, the last shard of light there will be for me shining down from the better dimension. I foresake ever being able to attain that heaven. I accept the unconditional terms for my surrender to your "Reality."

As I say, and will from now, I am NOT "God," there IS No "god" and anything I, or anybody else, tells you to the contrary is illogical conjecture alone. If you talk to yourself when no one else is around, do you really believe the sky listens, or that some imaginary mind behind the veil of the universal brain thinks down on you lovingly or not and says, "my son, in whom i am well pleased?" This is not religion, it's simply delusion. There is nothing up there, folks, sorry to say.

It's not that our species is alone in the universe, we're just each of us so god-awfully alone in this whole universe.

I thought love was possible. I was wrong. The truth is that love is a lie, too; just like "God." It doesn't make "loving" wrong; it's like a little "white lie" that way, I guess. Loving is necessary for survival. It's no different from taking a shit. We all take shits, we're all alive. We all fall in love, we can't help that. We're just little people running around on the surface of this dirt-ball, with never enough time to look up or stop and think about the long-term future.

No force from above is going to intervene at the last possible second to save us all. Is it? Perhaps so. Perhaps I am wrong, and there IS a God. Perhaps, but either way, to me now, it's irrelevant. I won't be the first man to blow my brains out on ustream, nor the first monkey in space, but I will be among the laziest of the elite no more. You may be wondering, then, if this isn't just another one of my thread bare cries for sympathy, for help, but only from you, then why HAVE I called you here today?

This won't just be another pointless rant. This time, I mean business. You made me foresake the God of humanity. Their delusion could have been my crown. But no, now I am a meal fit for a dog and no better. So, I have called you here at this time to tell you why I want to give you my property, not as though you weren't in the room and I were being forced to gossip ABOUT you, but TO you. For that reason, I have to do something that will attract your attention toward this document. But I won't. I'll talk in one last circle.

I told you once you were MINE, you were my PROPERTY, every inch of you. You betrayed that, like a whore, and I foresook my God for you. THAT is how I want to be remembered, if I am to live in this wretched insect-hive of insignificant humanity's lost judgment. That my life was STOLEN from me, that my potential for Greatness was Robbed, by you, specifically. So, I want you to know, when I die, you get my stuff.

Following my official documentation to this effect, you will find enclosed an inventory of MY stuff, that could have been OUR stuff, that will someday be YOUR stuff. I know you don't want it, and I know you don't care, and I know you do not get me or where I get off, but there are those out there who have and who do. They will see this list as priceless beyond compare. Yours they are now, Irina, OUR Children of the Damned.

- Your Lover, Jonathan Barlow Gee, Tallahassee, Florida, USA June 26, 2012.

:: Table of Contents :: (page 1) cover illustration by Jonathan Barlow Gee. (page 2) “Insanity Clause� disclaimer by Jon Gee. (page 3) Introduction to this edition, dedication to Irina. (page 9) Last Will and Testament of Jonathan Gee. (page 15) The All Purpose Bibliography of benpadiah.com (page 71) Misc. Inventory in out-dated pictures. (page 100) back-cover picture collage panoramic of property.

the last will and testament of jonathan barlow gee

the last will and testament of jonathan barlow gee Be it known this day (written May 27, 2012) that, I, Jonathan Barlow Gee, of leon county, florida, being of legal age and of sound and disposing mind and memory, and not acting under duress, menace, fraud, or undue influence of any person, do make, declare and publish this to be my Will and hereby revoke any Will or Codicil I may have made previously.

ARTICLE ONE Marriage and Children I am single and have no children.

ARTICLE TWO Debts and Expenses I direct my Personal Representative to pay all costs and expenses of my last illness and funeral expenses. I further direct my Personal Representative to pay all of my just debts that may be probated, registered and allowed against my estate. However this provision shal not extend the statute of limitations for the payment of debts, or enlarge upon my legal obligatoin or any statutory duty of my Personal Representative to pay debts.

(Personal Note on ARTICLE TWO: At the time I write this (5-27-12) I have no outstanding monetary debts to anyone.)

ARTICLE THREE Specific Bequests of Real and/or Personal Property I will, give and bequeath unto the persons named below, if he or she survives me, the Property described below: Name: Irina Victorovna Strelets Address: 2218 Crystal Reef Ln, Pearland, TX 77584-5515 Relationship: highschool girlfriend Property: all books listed in "benpadiah's all purpose bibliography" and all misc. and sundry personal property as is to be found in my room (much of which, though incompletely, is depicted in the photo-album section).

In the event I name a person in this Article and said person predeceases me, the bequest to such person will lapse and the property shall pass under the other provisions of this Will. In the event that I do not possess or own any property listed above on the date of my death, the bequest of that property shall lapse.

ARTICLE FOUR Homestead or Primary Residence I will, devise and bequeath all my interest in my homestead or primary residence, if I own a homestead or primary residence on the date of my death that passes through this Will, to my Mother, REBECCA BARLOW, if the named person survives me. If the named person(s) does not survive me, then my homestead or pirmary residence shall pass under the residuary clause of this Will.

ARTICLE FIVE All Remaining Property - Residuary Clause I will, devise, bequeath and give all the rest and remainder of my property and estate of every kind and character, including, but not limited to, real and personal property in which I may have an interest at the date of my death and which is not otherwise effectively disposed of, to: The USA Library of Congress (in the case of all unwanted books), and/or to the Florida Department of State, Division of Library and Information Services, State Archives of Florida (in the case of all remaining personal affects).

ARTICLE SIX Appointment of Personal Representative, Executor or Executrix I hereby appoint, my mother, Rebecca Barlow, as Personal Representative of my estate and this Will. In the event my Personal Representative shall predecease me, or, for any reason, shall fail to qualify or cease to act as my Personal Representative, then I hereby appoint my father, Gerald Gee, to serve as successor Personal Representative of my estate and Will.

The term "Personal Representative," as used in this Will, shall be deemed to mean and include "Personal Representative," "Executor" or "Executrix."

ARTICLE SEVEN Waiver of Bond, Inventory, Accounting, Reporting and Approval My Personal Representative and successor Personal Representative shall serve without any bond. However, I hereby DENY to waive the necessity of preparing or filing any inventory, accounting, reporting, approvals or final appraisement of my estate.

ARTICLE EIGHT Powers of Personal Representative, Executor and Executrix I direct that my Personal Representative shall have broad discretion in the administration of my Estate, without the necessity of Court approval. I grant unto my Personal Representative, all powers that are allowed to be excercised by Personal Representatives by the laws of the State of FLORIDA and ot the extent not prohibited by the laws of FLORIDA, the following additional powers: 1. To excercise all of the powers, rights and discretions granetd by virtue of any "Uniform Trustees' Powers Law," and/or "Probate Code" adopted by the State of FLORIDA. 2. To compromise claims and to abdandon property which, in my Executor's opinion is of little or no value.

3. To purchase or otherwise acquire and to retain any and all stocks, bonds, notes or other securities, or shares or interests in investment trusts and common trust funds, or in any other property, real, personal or mixed, as my Personal Representative may deem advisable, whether or not such investments or property be of the character permissible by fiduciaries, wihtout being liable to any person for such retention or investment.

4. To settle, adjust, dissolve, windup or continue any partnership or other entity in which I may own a partnership r equity interest at the time of my death, subject, however, to the terms of the partnership or other agreement to which I am a party at the time of my death. I authorize my Personal Representative to continue in any partnership or other entity for such periods and upon such terms as they shall determine. My Personal Representative shall not be disqualified by reason of being a partner, equity owner or title holder in such firm from participating on behalf of my estate in any dealings herein authorized to be arried on between my Personal Representative and the partners or equity owners of any such partnership or other entity.

5. To lease, sale, or offer on a lease purchase, any real or personal property for such time and upon such terms and conditions in such manner as may be deemed advisable by my Personal Representative, without court approval, aside from where contested by any interested third party.

6. To sell, exchange, assign, transfer and convey any security or property, real or personal, held in my estate, or in any trust, at public or private sale, at such time and price and upon such terms and conditions (including credit) as my Personal Representative may deem advisable and for the best interest of my estate, or any trust. I hereby waive any requirement of issuing summons, giving notice of any hearing, condicting or holding any such hearing, filing bond or other security, or in any way obtaining court authority or approval for any such sale, excahnge, assignment, transfer or conveyance of any real or personal property, unless if contested by any interested third party.

7. To pay all necessary expenses of administering the estate and any trust including taxes, trustee's fees, fees for the services of accountants, agents and attorneys, and to reimburse said parties for expenses incurred on behalf of the estate or any trust hereunder.

8. Unless otherwise specifically provided, to make distributions (including the satisfaction of any pecuniary bequest) in cash or in specific property, real or personal, or in an undivided interest therein, or partly in cash and partly in other property, and to do so with or without regard to the income tax basis of specific property allocated to any beneficiary and without making pro rata distributions of specific assets.

9. To determine what is principal and what is income with respect to all receipts and disbursements; to establish and maintain reserves for depreciation, depletion, obsolescence, taxes, insurance premiums, and any other purpose deemed necessary and proper by them and to partite and to distribute property of the estate or trust in kind or in undivided interests, and ot determine the value of such property.

10. To participate in any plan of reorganization, consolidation, dissolution, redemption, or similar proceedings involving assets comprising my estate or any trust created hereunder, and to deposit or withdraw securities under any such proceedings.

11. To perform such acts, to participate in such proceedings and to excercise such other rights and priveledges in respect to any property, as if she or he were the absolute owner thereof, and in connection theretih to enter into and execute any and all agreements binding my estate and any trust created hereunder.

12. To compromise, settle or adjust any claim or demand by or against my estate, or any trust, to litigate any such claims, including, without limitation, any claims relating to estate or income taxes, or agree to rescind or modify any contract or agreement.

13. To borrow money from such source or sources and upon such terms and conditions as my Personal Representative shall determine, and to give such security therefore as my Personal Representative may determine.

All authorities and powers hereinabove granted unto my Personal Representative shall be excercised from time to time in her or his sole and asbolute discretion and without prior authority or approval of any Court, and I intend that such powers be construed in the broadest possible extent.

ARTICLE NINE Construction Intentions It is my intent that this Will be interpreted according to the following provisions: 1. The masculine gender shall be deemed to include the feminine as well as the neuter, and vice versa, as to each of them, the singular shall be deemed to include the plural, and vice versa.

2. The term "testator" as used herein is deemed to include me as Testator or Testatrix.

3. This Will is not a result of a contract between myself and any beneficiary, fidicuiary or third party and I may revoke this Will at any time.

4. If any part of this Will shall be declared invalid, illegal, or inoperative for any reason, it is my expressed intent that the remaining parts shall be effective and fully operative and it is my intent that any Court so interpreting same construct this Will and any provision in favor of survival.

ARTICLE TEN Misc. Provisions I direct that this Will and the construction thereof shall be governed by the Laws of the State of FLORIDA. (I have placed my initials next to the provisions below that I desire to adopt.

Unmarked provisions are not adopted by me and not a part of this Will) If any person named herein is indebted to me at the time of my death and such indebtedness be evidenced by a valid Promissary Note payable to me, then such person's portion of my estate shall be dimminished by the amount of such debt. JG Any and all debts of my estate shall first be paid from my residuary estate. Any debts on any real property left herein shall be assumed by the person to receive such real property and not paid by my Personal Representative. JG I desire to be buried in the Roselawn cemetary on Piedmont Drive in Tallahassse, Leon County, Florida State. Confer cover document for my headstone’s engraving. JG

I, Jonathan Barlow Gee, having signed this Will in the presence of X and Y who attested it at my request on this the X day of Y month, Z year, at (address), declare this to be my Last Will and Testament. signature: Jonathan Barlow Gee. [to be executed on May 31, 2012] Testator / Testatrix The above and foregoing Will of Jonathan Barlow Gee was declared by Jonathan Barlow Gee in our view and presence to be his/her Will and was signed and subscribed by the said Jonathan Barlow Gee in our view and presence and at his/her request and in the view and presence of (notary), and in the view and presence of each other, we, the undersigned, witnessed and attested the due execution of the Will of Jonathan Barlow Gee on this the X day of Y month, Z year.

Witness Signature: Print Name: Address: City, State, Zip: Phone: Witness Signature: Print Name: Address: CIty, State, Zip: Phone: SELF-PROVING AFFIDAVIT STATE OF FLORIDA, COUNTY OF LEON We, Jonathan Barlow Gee, [witness 1], and [witness 2], the testator / testatrix and the witnesses, respectively, whose names are signed to the attached and foregoing instrument, having been sworn, declared to the undersigned officer that the testator/testatrix, in the presence of witnesses, signed the instrument as the testator's/testatrix's last will, that the testator/testatrix signed the will, and that each of the witnesses, in the presence of the testator/testatrix and in the presence of each other, signed the will as a witness.

Testator/Testatrix signature: typed name: Jonathan Barlow Gee Witness 1: Witness 2: Subscribed and sworn to before me by Jonathan Barlow Gee, the testator/testatrix who is personally known to me or who has produced (type of identification) as identification, and by (witness 1), a witness who is personally known to me or who has produced (type of identification) as identification, on the X day of Y month, Z year.

Signature of Notary Public: (Print, type or stamp commissioned name of Notary Public)

the “all-purpose bibliography� of benpadiah.com

incl.

Stack 1 (from the top down)

Eastern Magick Speculative Stack 2 (from the bottom up)

Egyptian & Mayan Free Masonry Apocrypha QBLH Stack 3 (from the top down)

philosophy politics sciences Stack 4 (misc.)

psychology (novels) history & text-books

Eastern

The highest state of attainment is enlightenment, as Leary defined it, the nervous system devoid of all mental conceptual activity. It has also been said that you shall know the truth when you are calm, at rest. In the east the serpent is associated with Kundalini, the rising power that passes through our chakras.

Chinese Written Characters.

Book depicting the monographs of the letters of the Chinese alphabet.

Hagakure: the Book of the Samurai.

I Ching. Sam Reifler.

The sixty four hexagrams with commentary by the three Chinese sages Ariha, Kama and Moksha.

Tao Te Ching. Lao Tzu. Penguin edition of the classic interpretations of the hexagrams, basic translations.

Psychadelic Prayers and other meditations. Timothy Leary.

The Tao Te Ching as modernized by Dr. Timothy Leary to refer to psychoanalysis.

Tao Te Ching. Aleister Crowley.

The Tao Te Ching as modernized somewhat earlier in the century by Crowley.

Tantra For Westerners. Francis King.

Author of historical introductions on the Golden Dawn and OTO, tackling tantra.

The Practice of Kalachakra. Snow Lion.

An authentic text on the Tibetan Bohn origins of Tantric Yoga.

Book of Hindu Imagery.

Explaining the rudras and sudras of the Hindu pantheons.

The Rig Veda.

Penguin edition of the oldest religious myth in the orient.

Bhagavad-Gita. the equivalent to the "new testament" for the Rig Veda's "old testament." Ancient.

The Upanishads.

The collected additional myths included with the Rig Veda and Bagghavad Gita.

The Rubayyat of Omar Khayyam.

Love poems.

The Tibetan Book of the Dead. greta translation with intro by Carl Jung.

Buddha: His Life and His Teaching. Walter Henry Nelson. a brief biography of Siddhartha Guattama Buddha.

The Dhammapada. ed. Ananda Maitreya. the short sayings of Buddha.

Buddhist scriptures.

The Middle Length and Long Discourses of the Buddha.

Teachings of the Buddha. ed. Jack Kornfield.

Shambala Pocket Classics.

Teachings of the Compassionate Buddha. ed. E.A. Burtt.

The Threefold Lotus Sutra.

A Popular Dictionary of Buddhism. ed. Christmas Humphreys.

The Four Noble Truths. His Holiness the Dalai Lama.

Metaphysical Meditations. Pranayama Yogananda.

Be As You Are: the Teachings of Sri Ramana Maharshi. ed. David Godman.

Sri Isopnisad. Swami Prabhupada.

Zen and the Birds of Appetite. Thomas Merton.

An Introduction to Zen Buddhism. D.T. Suzuki.

Foreword by Carl Jung.

Zen Flesh, Zen Bones. Paul Reps. ed.

The Way of Life. Lao Tzu. Zen Comments on the Mumonkan. Zenkei Shibayama.

Raja Yoga. and Karma Yoga and Bhakti Yoga. Swami Vivekananda.

Kundalini: the Arousal of the Inner Energy. Ajit Mookerjee.

Occult Tibet. J.H. Brennan.

Magick

The Great Work of the magician is simple: One must learn first to harness and to calm the lesser aspects of the self, to bring the base instinctual into line with a hgiher purpose. Following this the sense of self itself must be abolished, leaving only the purpose. In this crucible the Gold of the Heart will be transubstantiated into the Philosopher’s Stone. When this is imbibed as the Elixer of Life from the Grail Chalice, the magician will have accomplished the goal of the Great Work, an eternal life of egolessness.

Egyptian Mysteries. Lucie Lamy.

From which I learned the correpsondence between the ba and ruach and akh and nefesh.

Books of the Dead. Stanislav Grof.

A post-modern analysis of ancient books read to the dying as guidebooks through hallucinogenous psychotropic states of altered consciousness. A good book to have around in case thereof.

Astrology. Warren Kenton.

Reviews of the psychological traits commonly attributed to each sign. Does not go very far in depth regarding the rising sign as opposed to the birth sign, the roles of the planets ascending or descending, the decanates, or precession.

Sacred Geometry. Robert Lawlor.

Geometry of sacred religious art and architecture from Egypt and India to Rome and England, as well as patterns in nature and certain wave forms, with full color

diagrams.

Alchemy. Stanislas Klossowski de Rola.

Large glossy prints of many of the symbolism rich paintings and plates done on this mercurial science in the middle ages. Tends to take the more psychological approach than that of hardline mettalurgy.

Freemasonry. W. Kirk MacNulty.

Beautiful tyling boards that reveal none of the finer mysteries of the craft.

Beyond Death. Stanislav and Christina Grof.

A book about historical concepts of the afterlife, including eastern and western heaven and hell and reincarnation.

Kabbalah. Zev Ben Shimon Halevi.

Lots of diagrams, very little explanation. the Magus. William Barrett.

An essential work for studying the shemhamforash. Not without its inaccuracies.

Isis Unveiled (in two volumes). and an Abridgement of the Secret Doctrine. Madame Helena P. Blavatsky.

The primary works of Theosophy. Madame Blavatsky claimed to have studied under a school she called the “Secret Chiefs” while travelling in the far east, and brought back their teachings on yoga, tantra and kundalini, as well as reincarnation to mix together with existing western mysticism, creating new ideas such as “the Akashic Records.” If the Golden Dawn had not fallen all over themselves to claim contact with these same “Secret Chiefs,” it is unlikely either that they would have adopted the unsubstantiable new notion of the “Akashic records” either.

Knowledge of the Higher Worlds and its Attainment. Rudolf Steiner.

Steiner was one of those who contacted the Golden Dawn after Madame Sprengel crossed the veil of the abyss forever, and he became actively involved in what he called “anthropism” or the scientific study of humanity. While this seems to have made little impact on the philsophies of occult orders of the day, his participation in the push to create a global occult bund is still making waves to this day, at least among the enlightened and hopeful.

The Book of Secrets. Osho.

A book of eastern yogic practices.

The Woman’s Encyclopedia of Myths and Secrets. Walker.

An invaluable tool for referencing almost any mythological character or symbol known to wo/man.

Standard Dictionary of Folklore, Mythology and Legend. Funk and Wagnels.

A solid reference tool.

The Magician’s Companion. Whitcomb.

The modern day equivalent of William Barrett’s the Magus, this work is essential for teaching the tools of the craft as well as answering some of the more difficult preliminary questions of speculative philosophy. I found it helpful with the shemhamforash.

Summoning Spirits. Konstantinos.

A helpful book for making talismans, beforming the aforesaid art, with pictures rendering the appearances these conjurations might take on.

Necronomicon Spellbook. ed. Simon.

These entities were designed for use in combat, but can also answer many questions regarding the nature of the universe.

The Magician's Work-Book. Vol. 1. Steve Savedow.

Preparation of the set and setting for theurgic invocation and goetic evocation.

Goetic Evokation. Steve Savedow.

A truly indespnsible book. The only source I’ve found for the tree of death and order of qliphotic princes besides 777, and the only source for the demonic dekans of the zodiac.

The Goetia. The Lesser Key of Solomon the King. Mathers/Crowley.

The illustrations notwithstanding, this work is a cornerstone of understanding the precession of the equinoxes.

The Key of Solomon the King. Mathers.

The spirits ruling over the planets and their signs and sigils.

The Book of the Sacred Magic of Abramelin the Mage. Mathers.

Magic letter squares whose mystery is unlocked by gematria.

The Grimoire of Armadel. Mathers.

A much less known work, there is much enlightenment herein awaiting.

A Dictionary of Angels. Davidson.

A very thourough reference book listing almost every angel ever known to man by name and describing their history in brief. Particularly of interest is a list of fallen angels that does not not tally either with the 200 angels of Enoch nor the 1/3 of the heavenly host accorded by the Catholic Church in their interpretation of Revelation.

The Archangel Michael. Rudolf Steiner.

An expostualtion on the coming to reign of the seventh regent and the end of the kali yuga.

Three Books of Occult Philosophy. Henrich Agrippa.

One long work with alot of olde-english warnings, a few magic-number squares, and copious commentary including comparative renditions of said squares.

Nostradamus: The Complete Prophecies. John Hogue, ed.

Includes all quatrains arranged by decades and centuries, with copious commentary on each.

Nostradmus: the Lost Manuscript. Ramotti.

The secret key to interpreting his prophecies, Nostradmus collection of drawings illustrate the final count-down to the anti-Pope.

Alchemical Writings of Paracelcus.

A thick book of old englishe writings about the transmutation of base elements into

alchemical gold (ie. white-powder gold, of super-conductive ORMEs).

The Book of the Sacred Magic of Abramelin the Mage. Mathers, ed. an incomplete, but workable, collection of all the magic number-squares of this sytem along with instructions on how to handle summoning one's "Holy Guardian Angel."

Understanding Crowley's Thoth Tarot. Lon Milo Duquette.

A longer, more simplified edition of the Book of Thoth, with descriptions for every card of their comparative attributes using the standard Golden Dawn tarot system.

The Secrets of the Tarot. Barbara G Walker.

By the same author as the "Women's Encyclopedia of Mysteries and Secrets," this is the only interpretation of classical gypsy tarot cards I would ever want to own.

The Pictoral Key to the Tarot. A.E. Waite.

Diagrams and descriptions. Not the standard revised Rider-Waite pack though, but the original Golden Dawn deck. The differences are subtle, especially in black and white.

The Enochian Magick of Dr. John Dee. James.

The four watchtowers, thirty ayres, seven princes, et al. of the Enochian system devised by magician John Dee. The Hieroglyphic Monad. John Dee. A very theosophical translation from Dee's original treatise for HRH Queen Elizabeth 1 of the basic axiomatic premises for assembling Dee's own monicker.

On the Akashic Records. Edgar Cayce.

The Sleeping Prophet on from where his own visions come.

Skrying for Beginners. Tyson.

Where I learned about Nephotes.

The Projection of the Astral Body. Muldoon and Carrington.

The full and conscious activation of the atman and its smudging out of the body.

On the Akashic Records. Edgar Cayce.

The Sleeping Prophet on from whence his visions derived.

Remote Viewing Secrets. McMoneagle.

Most interesting for a correlation between accurate remote viewing “hits� and a certain time of day (i.e. position of the earth).

Remote Viewing. Tim Rifat.

An indespensible manual on the methods practised in Project Stargate by a member of the team of psychic spies.

Enochian Magic for Beginners. Donald Tyson.

The easiest and most approachable yet most complete explanation of Dee's complete system to date. Second most indespensible book for studying it besides the Geoffrey James edition of Dee's own writings on it.

An Advanced Guide to Enochian Magick. Schueler.

The magickal ceremonies associated with working the Enochian system.

Golden Dawn Enochian Magic. Pat and Gerald Zalewski.

Enochian Sex Magick. Crowley, DuQuette, Hyatt.

Copulation while in God form; the core point of producing a moon child.

The Golden Dawn. Regardie.

The Outer Order Rituals as they were when Regardie was a member.

The Secret Inner Order Rituals of the Golden Dawn. Regardie, Zalewski.

The inner Order rituals which were not changed due to Regardie’s having printed the outer Order rituals.

Ritual Magic of the Golden Dawn. Francis King.

Lots of flying roles. I don’t remember what else.

The Essential Golden Dawn. Tabitha and Chic Cicero.

A basic history and introduction to the Golden Dawn's latter days of practise.

The True and Invisible Rosicrucian Order. Paul Foster Case.

Primarily one of the all time classic works on Tarot, this new and expanded edition also includes a history section on the grave of our beloved and departed frater C.R. Self-Initiation Into the Golden Dawn Tradition. Cicero.

The modern Golden Dawn’s enlistment brouchure.

Inner Order Traditions of the Golden Dawn. Pat Zalewski.

Authentic, and some colour, diagrams and rituals relatin to them practised continually by the northern European branches of the, originally French and British, Golden Dawn.

The Complete Magic Primer. David Conway.

Instructs in the right proper creation of ritual space, mood, atmosphere and finally practise of consecration.

Zolar’s Encyclopedia of Ancient and Forbidden Knowledge.

A crash course in the occult and mystical.

The Dictionary of the Esoteric. Neville Drury.

Very modern and recent. Good for looking up subjects that have only lately come to light, such as characters from the apocrypha, etc.

A Beginner’s Guide to Constructing the Universe. Scheider.

Mathematically based number systems from one through ten.

The Black Arts. Richard Cavendish.

Describing a brief history of magicians, following the liberal generalisation of the term given by JG Frazer. Published originally in the 1970's, this book provided an introduction to the concepts from a self-proclaiming "magician's" point of view.

The Book of Black Magic. A.E. Waite.

A collection of sigils by which to summon “countless” numbers of underworldly sevrnats to do as to which they are bidden.

The Magic Circle. Rev. Yaj Nomolos.

A small pamphlet about organizing a group of magicians for the purpose of performing ritual ceremonies.

The Magician: His Training and Work. W. E. Butler.

A short course in the essentials of ceremonial practise.

The Great Secret. Maurice Meterlinck.

On the occult.

Transcendental Magic and The Great Secret. Eliphas Levi.

On chaining the Great Beast. Contemporary magical philosophy to Freudian Id/Ego/Superego dialectics. Transcendental Magic is a thick tome full of Alphonse Constant's blustery proclamations, with little content I found of direct or immediate value, and I have mainly only refered to it to cite quotes about the topic from the author since many consider him a more serious figure-head than do I. The Complete Book of Spells, Ceremonies and Magic. Gonzalez-Wippler.

A very helpful book with thin pages and small print, describing the bridge in ceremony between the pagan, green witchcraft, wicca and the black/white dualism of traditional sorcery. Not to be engaged in by the inexperienced aspirant.

Modern Ritual Magic. Francis King.

A very helpful, first hand history of the occult trends throughout the various different orders and splinter organizations of the last century.

A History of Secret Societies. Arkon Daraul.

The introductory work for most young initiates seeking entry into the higher mysteries shrouded in the veil of arcane mystery schools.

Keepers of the Secrets. Siblerud.

An updated version of Daraul’s Secret Societies that focuses more on the positive, public personae of the organizations it discovers.

Initiation. Elizabeth Haich.

A treatise on the sacred art from a feminist’s point of view.

The Equinox Volume III. Number 10. Crowley, et al.

In which the right proper organisation and structure of the OTO is described.

Aleister Crowley and the Hidden God. Grant.

A rather unflattering portrayal of Crowley in his Great Beast persona.

Aleister Crowley: The Nature of the Beast. Colin Wilson.

A shorter history of Crowley by the author of the "Occult," which also contains a section on Crowley as a modern shamanic magician.

The Eye in the Triangle. Regardie.

A biography of Crowley by his secretary and friend.

The Illustrated Beast: the Aleister Crowley scrapbook. Robertson.

Some amusing excerpts from the yellow journalism and hot button trials of the day.

The Magick of Thelema. Don Luis DuQuette.

The simple rituals of the pentagram, invoking, evoking, etc.

The Confessions: an Autohagiorgaphy. and The Blue Equinox: the Vision and the Voice. and 777 and other QBLHistic writings. and Magick in Theory and Practise. and Magick Without Tears. and Book Four. and The Book of Thoth. and Little Essays Toward Truth. and Liber Aleph vel CXI. and The Holy Books of Thelema. and The Equinox of the Gods. and The Heart of the Master. and Eight Lectures on Yoga. and The Book of Lies. and The Book of the Law. all by: Aleister Crowley.

Speculation

These books are generally considered fringe thinking. It should be noted, however, that no truly dangerous idea to the establishment would ever be able to make it into print in the popular media, and even the writings of modern conspiracy researcher David Icke are so interwoven with “far out� extraterrestrial associations that his

average reader would probably be led by kneejerk reaction to even disbelieve those aspects of his well researched writings that are, in fact, exactly accurate. Similarly, because Atlantis has an air of mythology surrounding it, most people would shy away from a serious and scholarly investigation of the subject even in spite of it dealing specifically with well documented evidence and factual data. While it is necessary to take the style of most of the speculative writing with a grain of salt, there are, at the same time, many nuggets of gold in every one of these types of books. It only requires enough interest in the subject matter to put up with the irrelevant positioning of opinions in between the interesting new information.

Timeas & Critias. Plato.

Containing the myth of Atlantis, as well as a short dissertation on the, later so-called, "Platonic" solids.

Atlantis. and The Destruction of Atlantis. Ignatius Donnelly.

The original resurgance of interest in the trend of the mystery of lost land mass was initiated in the mid nineteenth century by Ignatius Donnelly, and many of his ideas found their way directly into the movement of Theosophy.

The Lost Continent of Mu. and The Cosmic Forces of Mu. and The Second Book of the Csmic Forces of Mu. and The Sacred Symbols of Mu. and The Children of Mu. James Churchward.

Written around the time of Thor Heyerdahl, the Mu series represents an increasing trend in fringe archaeology towards the speculative. Mu, also known as Lemuria, is the counterpart of Atlantis connecting India to Australia where modern day Oceania and New Zealand are located. These books deserve much greater recognition in the world of speculation on lost land masses than they receive because it is now an accepted fact that such a land bridge actually existed during the last ice age.

Mu Revealed. Tony Earl.

Another in the Mu series.

Unexplained Mysteries of the Twentieth Century. Bord and Bord.

Mostly about frogs raining and other inexplicable incidents, some crop circles.

The Maldive Mystery. and Fattu Hiva. Thor Heyerdahl.

From the writer of Kon Tiki who sailed across both oceans on boats made of river reeds, thus proving intercontinental migrations might have occured for primitive peoples even only given the simplest means. The Maldive Mystery describes a find that appears to have been a storehouse for various religions throughout the world built all at the same time.

The Mysteries of Easter Island. Schwartz.

An excellent analysis of Rongo Rongo writing, the mysterious petroglyphs found

throughout Easter Island.

Stonehenge Decoded. and Beyond Stonehenge. Gerald Hawkins.

In Stonehenge Decoded, Hawkins describes for the first time Stone Henge as an enormous astronomical clock. In Beyond Stonehenge he surveys other neolithic sites in the surrounding countryside and finds similar conclusions.

Path of the Pole. Charles Hapgood.

Exploring the prior positions for the location of earth's north and south polar axis.

Uriel’s Machine. Christopher Knight and Robert Lomas.

In Uriel’s Machine these two thirty third degree free masons speculate that Enoch might have travelled to stonehenge, and postulate that there might have been other such neolithic sites that retained pilgrimage among the wise men of ancient antedeluvial societies.

Gateway to Atlantis. Andrew Collins.

Introduction by David Rohl. Collins proposes, similarly as I do, that the center of the great Atlantean civilization was in modern day South America, and, as do Christopher Knight and Robert Lomas, he proposes a comet struck the site. His date, however, is in agreement with that of Graham Hancock. He even goes so far as to speculate, in my opinion quite rightly, that the descriptions of angels such as the Annunaki as men with wings derived from the Atlantean tradition, preserved in South America to the time of the conquistadors, of wearing robes of feathers.

The Atlantis Blueprint. Colin Wilson and Rand Flem-ath.

The angles of ancient cities and monuments indicate alignment to previous locations of the north pole and the equator. Must Read.

Atlantis. Andrews.

A purely speculative book about Atlantean society and culture.

Edgar Cayce on Atlantis. and Mysteries of Atlantis Revisited. Edgar Cayce.

Channeled teachings on Atlantis by the sleeping prophet regarding the Law of One and the Children of Belial.

Atlantis: the Eighth Continent. Charles Berlitz.

Atlantis in Antarctica. Probably true, among other places as well.

The Sirius Mystery. Temple.

Explaining some of the mysteries regarding the alignment between the sphinx and the dog star, representing Isis. the Sign and the Seal. and Fingerprints of the Gods. and the Mars Mystery. and Underworld. Graham Hancock.

In the Sign and the Seal Hancock traces the theft of the ark of the covenant by Menelik, the son of Solomon and the Queen of Sheeba, to modern day Axum. In Fingerprints of the Gods, Hancock introduces the concept of precession to modern archaeoastronomy. This is a classic of the genre. In the Mars Mystery he ponders the similarities between the face on Mars and the sphinx and pyramids. Underworld chronicles all the submerged ruins of pre-historic coastal cities, and it is a thick book, with only a few colour picture insert pages.

Message of the Sphinx. Hancock and Bauval.

Hancock and Bauval’s take on the alignments of the sphinx 12,500 years ago with the helilacal rising of Sirius.

Genesis of the Grail Kings. and Lost Secrets of the Sacred Ark. and Bloodline of the Holy Grail. and Realm of the Ring Lords. Laurence Gardner.

The ultimate turn of the millennium revisionist/conspiracy theorist history series.

Following from descriptions of the Annunaki and the Nefilim, shems as upward fire stones and shewbread made of monatomic gold to rex deus, to the mythology of dark ages Europe, written by a mason and derived from voluminous research over masonic and rosicrucian documents. I only found these after I had written my history section, but, upon seeing it agreed with my theory that Moses was Akhenaten, I had no problem making brief mention of the shewbread.

Hamlet's Mill. De Santillana & Von Dechemd.

The original text on archaeo-astronomy's role in ancient religions.

5/5/2000. Richard W. Noone.

A book speculating the world would end on this date with the grand cross alignment of the planets that occured then. It has some interesting factoids of speculation, like that the King’s Chamber of the Great Pyramid might have been used as a mechanical pump.

The Orion Prophecy. Patrick Geryl and Gino Ratinckx.

Speculation based on pression and the Mayan calendar that the world will end in December, 2012 due to a solar storm. the Time Travel Handbook. and Anti-Graviy and the World Grid. and Technology of the Gods. David Hatcher Childress.

More from adventures unlimited press. The time travel handbook has only a little about the nature of spacetime and is mostly dedicated to ufo ship designs. Antigravity and the world grid talks extensively about what I call the Enochian Communications System, connecting all ancient petraglyphic sites with the locations of all modern satellites in a giant electromagnetic net. In technology of the Gods Childress explores ancient electricity, Brown’s gas, lasers, etc.

Lost Science. Gerry Vasilatos.

Comparing several suppressed avenues of R&D during the industrial revolution.

Cosmic Trigger (vol. 1). and the Illuminati Papers. Robert Anton Wilson.

This is where I originally learned about Leary’s eight circuits of consciousness model. The Illuminati papers is just silly.

Philadelphia Experiment — UFO Conspiracies. Brad Steiger.

An actually fascinating book about multiple realities on intersecting dimensions and the US military versus the denizens of this realm.

Montauk Project. and Montauk Revisited. and Pyramids of Montauk. Preston Nichols and Peter Moon.

A little stretched in terms of characterization, but according to a strict interpretation of Einstein’s theory of relativity, particularly that regarding wormholes, an entirely believable scenario. Proposes the interesting concept of temporal signatures, unique to our personal em fields, and temporal locks, the pulse phasing of tractor beams through wormholes to beam these signatures back and forth in time.

Nothing in this Book is True but it’s Exactly How Things Are. Bob Frissell.

Purports that the flower of life mandala of Drunvalo Melchizedeck was taught as the Left Eye of Horus mystery cult in ancient Egypt. Tré new age wishy washy.

New World Order. William T. Still.

You can’t find this book on shelves under a republican president. Only under a democrat. It is masonic propaganda posing as religious right wing anti-masonic propaganda. Gives quite a good history of American masonry.

World Revolution. Nesta Webster.

Once the only source for quotes by Adam Weishaupt, now largely debunked.

Dialogue in Hell Between Machiavelli and Montesque. Joly.

At one point this was believed to have been the main inspiration for the Protocols of Zion. Having read it, I cannot see how.

The Protocols of the Learned Elders of Zion.

This book should be called "the conspiracy to hoard gold and blame the jews" instead, but nevertheless, it is a sound piece of geopolitical strategy for a NWO. Behold a Pale Horse. William Cooper.

The essential tome connecting The Protocols of Zion to the leaked document, "Silent Weapons for Quiet Wars," proposing Cooper's own theories of alien contact as the motive for the creation of the underground military base he had been a construction worker on.

The Watchers. Raymond E. Fowler.

One of a series of knock off abduction scenarios that flooded the market after Whitley Streiber. This one stands out, however, as its description of the little gray aliens gives the name for them of the Watchers, the same as the word Annunaki translates to.

Perhaps it is just coincidance.

Dreamland. Phil Patton.

Excellently written book revealing almost nothing new about Area 51.

Rule By Secrecy. Jim Marrs.

Traces the origins of modern conspiracies back to the originally alien bloodlines of the Anunnaki in ancient Sumeria. ....And the Truth Shall Set You Free. and the Biggest Secret. and Children of the Matrix. and Alice in Wonderland and the World Trade Center Disaster. David Icke.

Despite his conclusion that everyone he doesn’t particularly care for is a reptile from the Plaidies, David Icke is probably, along with Jim Marrs, the best conspiracy theory researcher in the business right now.

Underwater and Underground Bases. Richard Sauder.

In depth study of their secret construction with maps and pics from inside.

HAARP: the Ultimate Weapon of the Conspiracy.

Describing its genesis from the Eastlund Patents and its use in MK and EMPs. Mind Control World Control. and Mass Control. and Secret and Suppressed. by: Jim Keith.

An indispensible guide for the devoutly paranoid.

Liquid Conspiracy: JFK, LSD, the CIA, Area 51 and UFOs. George Piccard. particularly good for its speculative sections on underground bases, a subject I don’t go into very deeply in the MPDR. Blowback, 9/11, and Cover-Ups. and Iraq, Lies, Cover-Ups and Consequences. and Explosive Secrets of Covert CIA Companies and Defrauding America (Vol. 2) by: Stitch. heavily researched works from a man formerly inside the intelligence community.

Body of Secrets. James Bamford.

Dissecting the NSA, by a former spook.

The Secret Archives of the Vatican. Ambrosini.

An investigation of the depth of information locked away in the building beside the Vatican library.

Beginning of the End. John Hagee.

exploring the political and religious implications of the assassination of Yitzak Rabin.

The Occult, A History. Colin WIlson.

A historical bio-pic of each magician and their movement comprises each chapter of this tome, as thick as JG Frazer's "Golden Bough," and as informative as any typical book by Colin Wilson.

Secrets of Rennes Le Chateau. Lionel & Patricia Fanthorpe.

An excellent field-guide introducing a novice to the topic of the mysterious French castle, supposedly dedicated by its builder to the Merovingian dyansty of the area, and the history of how these mysteries have spread and why in the 20th century.

The Golden Builders. Tobias Churton.

A rather dull, but elaborate, elementary history of the earliest, feudal-era Gothic cathedral stone-mason worker-guilds, and the influence of their signs and seals on the foundations of Free Masonry a few generations later.

The Rosicrucian Enlightenment. Frances Yates.

Simply the best written and most entertaining to read book I have read in years, unveiling the earliest history of the Familist "cult of love's" influence on John Dee, and of John Dee's influence on the German Palatinate prior and leading up to the 30 Years War. The Perfectabilists. Terry Melanson.

A must-read for anyone interested in the topic of the original Bavarian Illuminati, founded by Adam Weishaupt, its membership, their beliefs, and the manner in which their group's symbolism influenced later cult groups such as Skull and Bones and the Bohemian Grove.

The Bilderberg Group. Daniel Estulin.

A complete history of the alignment by the CFR under the Trilateral Commission to create a public-interface and media-mogul oriented wing of the "military industrial complex," allowing the bankers to command a large number of their CEO proxies directly.

Remote Viewing Secrets. and Memoirs of a Psychic Spy. Joseph Mcmoneagle.

Remote Viewing Secrets reveals many tactics for the practise, as well as some findings from the CIA's elite team; particularly interesting is the section on the influence on the psyche of the person's place on planet earth relative to which side of the planet is facing galactic core. Memoirs details the work done under "Project Stargate" for the CIA, names, places, dates, results, etc. and when it was originally released was forced to change its title to exclude the word "Stargate."

Remote Viewing. Tim Rifat.

A concise introductory manual to the topic in general, some specific tactics, history of both US CIA and, later also, DOD "remote viewing" programs, the latter of which was (in 2007) parodied in the film "Men Who Stare at Goats."

Channeled/Divine These works are those of the new age movement that are written by people who claim to be other people. I have explained how this is possible in the MPDR, but it can be

explained just as easily by saying that the prophets they channel are sentient programs that can access all the software connected to the mainframe of the computer program we call reality.

Starseed, the Third Millennium. Carey.

This is really the one that started all the others. Received some time in the mid seventies, I think, it supposedly originates from outer space. It is really little different than Tesla’s claims in the twenties or Herman Hesse’s Strange News From Another Star.

The Celestine Prophecy. and the Tenth Insight. James Redfield.

After the writing of “the Prophet” by Kahlil Gibran, a series of works claiming to be divinely inspired followed from a variety of sources, foremost amongst which was the offering by James Redfield.

Revelations of the Metatron. Anonymous.

Whoever wrote this was wise to keep their name off it. A retelling of the war in heaven and the fall of the rebel angels with a hollisitc, sophistic spin in high English, immitating biblical writing, poorly.

Maitreya’s Mission (vol.2). Benjamin Creme.

Comes shrink wrapped and I haven’t opened it yet. The person claiming to be the Maitreya, or last Buddha, also claims to have predicted the tech bubble burst, and also made a speech at the United Nations.

Scientology: the Fundamentals of Thought. L. Ron Hubbard.

L. Ron Hubbard doesn’t really claim to be channeling, but he does claim divine origins for his religious front the Church of Scientology. His writing style is desperately cultish.

Many Lives, Many Masters. Brian L. Weiss.

The prmeire western offering on the eastern concept of reincarnation.

Egyptian & Mayan

These are grouped together for no better reason than that I have so few of them. The Mayan and the Egyptian sections kind of run together, and the Egyptian section is almost entirely only one author.

Egyptian Myth and Mankind: the Way to Eternity.

A particularly pretty Barnes and Noble picture book.

Chronicle of the Pharaohs. Clayton.

Contains the names and dates of all the dynastic era rulers of ancient Egypt.

The Serpent in the Sky. West.

Discusses the snake symbolism of Egyptian myths and alphabetic letters.

The Oxford History of Ancient Egypt.

A textbook with lots of illustrations.

The Secret History of Ancient Egypt. Herbie Brennan.

The Great Pyramid. Tom Valentine.

This is that book that started the religious inches = years to the second coming movement among new age Christian eschatologists. Short and thin.

The Great Pyramid. Piazzi Smythe.

A detailed book containing intricate measures of every detail. Long and thick.

The Ancient Kingdoms of the Nile. Fairservis.

A Mentor book from 1962. Shows how rapidly the fringe speculations change and how slow and dodgey the establishment is to make corrections.

The Truth About Egyptian Magick. Gerald and Betty Schueler.

Egyptian and occult equivalency diagrams.

The Seven Souls in the Mysteries of the Ancients. Gerald Massey.

A pamphlet concerning the seven baw of Re. The Giza Death Star. Joseph P Farrell.

Modern speculative history about the pyramid being a power-plant and laser.

Osiris. and Egyptian Religion. and Egyptian Magic. and the Egyptian Book of the Dead. and the Egyptian Heaven and Hell. and the Gods of the Egyptians. and Legends of the Egyptian Gods. and A Hieroglyphic Vocabulary to the Book of the Dead. and Egyptian Language. by: EAW Budge.

Sir E. A. Wallis Budge is, and has been for almost the past fifty years, the foremost

western authority on the antiquities of the Egyptians. Most of these books include reprints from texts in their original hieroglyphic with the phonetic as well as literary translations running along underneath like clef notes.

Hieroglyphics.

A brief field-guide type book about the ancient Egyptian alphabet and language.

Descriptions de l'Egypt. Taschen books.

A thick art book displaying colour plates of all the original drawings by Napolean's troops, the first on the scene to explore Egypt in the 19th century.

Invisible Landscape. Terrence and Dennis McKenna.

A psilocybin trip in Mexico reveals a hidden numerical system in the I Ching lunar calendar synchronized to the Mayan sunspot cycle calendar, counting down what the gonzo McKenna boys call “novelty” — the first cause for all trivia.

Popul Vuh. Dennis Tedlock. trans.

The Mayan book of the dawn of life and the glories of Gods and kings.

Secrets of the Ancient Incas. Langevin.

The natives of Peru, where the Nazca lines and Ica skulls were found.

The Cherokees.

A historical compilation of data collected from the writings of settlers in the 1700's.

The Cherokee Sacred Calendar. Raven Hail.

Includes ephemeris.

Earth Ascending. and Time and the Technosphere. and The Mayan Factor. Jose Arguelles.

A truly unique, original and innovative concept: the Mayan Loom, similar to the galactic circuit of the Enochian Communications System. It is based on a number system, but integrates with the evolutionary stages of the brain, as given in the MPDR as Oc, Chiccan and Men. The Mayan Prophecies. Adrian G. Gilbert and Maurice M. Cotterell.

How the Mayan calendar, by measuring the sidereal rotations of Venus relative to the phases of the moon, also measures the eleven year sunspot cycle.

An Introduction to the Study of Mayan Hieroglyphics. Morley.

The Mayan days of the month and the Mayan calendrical numbering system. the Mayan Calendar. Calleman.

Unravelling novelty as the factors of evolution relative to galactic position.

Secrets of Mayan Science/Religion. Hunbatz Men. Descriptions of shamanic rites and rituals by a descendent of the tribe. the Maya. Edgar Cayce.

Predictions about archaeological and anthropological finds by the sleeping prophet.

The Hidden Maya. Brennan.

Describing the Mayan equivalents to the Vedic and Hindu "rudras" or hand-signs.

Drums, Totems and Rattles. a field-guide type book about their crafting and use.

Hopi Kachinas.

Lists many types with their attributes, copious black and white pictures of old dolls.

Hopi Kachinas: the Complete Guide to Collecting Kachina Dolls.

Explains the traits of the various generations of dolls from the 1900's to the 1950's.

Kachina Doll Carving.

Demonstrates the methods with numerous colour pic examples of finished dolls.

Freemasonry Symbols of Freemasonry. Barnes and Noble.

A colourful, but otherwise uninformative, little picture book on the Craft.

The Secret Architecture of Our Nation’s Capital. David Ovason.

Much astrology was built into the monuments of Washington D.C. by master free masons.

Duncan’s Ritual and Monitor.

The York Rite through the Royal Arch.

Mystic Masonry. J.D. Buck.

A treatise on the subject by an initiated brother.

Mahabone. Anonymous.

A different working ritual than the Yorke Rite with which I am unfamiliar.

Book of the Ancient and Accepted Scottish Rite of Freemasonry. McClenaghan.

The complete history lectures and degree cermonies for the entire Scottish Rite.

Lodge of the Double-Headed Eagle. Fox. A history of Scottish Rite Masonry during the 20th century. Excellent resource.

Freemasons' Guide and Compendium. Bernard E. Jones.

Contains multiple Masonic Encylcopediae.

A Dictionary of Freemasonry. Macoy.

A comprehensive and affordable Masonic encyclopedia.

A New Encylopedia of Freemasonry. AE Waite.

A comprehensive encyclopedia of Masonic terms, people, groups and events by a Masonic member of the 20th century Golden Dawn.

Morals and Dogma. Albert Pike.

Explains some history (editorially) behind each degree of Scottish Rite Masonry.

The Secret Teachings of All Ages. MP Hall.

Amazing reference and historical introduction to the finer points of ancient cults.

Freemasonry and its Ettiquette.

A short encyclopedia explaining many of the York Rite symbols.

Freemasonry and Its Ancient Mystic Rites. Leadbeater.

A sophisticated examination of the different schools of Masonry and to what each traces the Order’s origins.

Ancient Masonry. CC Zain.

Volume 4 of a series on ancient cults, this ties Masonry to many ancient cults of the era of Solomon's Temple.

Freemasonry of the Ancient Egyptians. and the Lost Keys of Freemasonry. Manly Palmer Hall.

Two excellent treatises on the philosophical origins of the high craft by a thirty third degree member.

The Mysteries of Mithra.

The Roman cult of Adonis contemporary to the origin of Christianity.

The Elusinian Mysteries and Rites.

Describing the Greek and Roman planetary - Olympic deity ritual cermonies & cult.

Secret Societies of the Middle Ages. Thomas Keightley.

Contains an excellent section on the Knights Templar, as well as one on the assassin cult of hassan ibn sabbah. Almost the only source, besides Idres Shah (as Arkon Daraul), for such quality researched information.

The Hiram Key. Knight and Lomas.

Examining the identity of the historical person Hiram Abiff was based on.

The Second Messiah. Knight and Lomas.

Relating the crucifiction of Jacques De Molay to the origins for the Shroud of Turin.

The Hermetic Tradition. Evola.

Tracing the study of alchemy from Egyptian origins of Hermes Trismegestus to the early Rosicrucian era.

The Chemical Wedding of Christian Rozenkreutz.

A goo dtranslation of the original narrative relating the story of Frater RC, mythic founder of the Rosicrucian movement.

Thrice Greatest Hermes. GRS Meade.

Containing the complete Corpus Hermetica and Hermeticum, both by and about.

The Emerald Tablet of Hermes Trismegestus.

The original Alchemical treatise long prior to the 20th century Kybalion, yet as much a precursor to modern chemistry as was the Kybalion to particle physics.

The Hermetica. Freke and Gandy.

A short collection of modern axioms attributed to the "thrice greatest" thoth.

Ancient Future. Chandler.

Relating the Hermetica to the Egyptian deity Thoth.

The Kybalion. 3 Initiates.

The most indispensible little volume on occult physics ever written. Must Read.

On Alchemy. St. Germaine.

Modern trance-channeled sayings about alchemy collected into one long volume.

Apocrypha

These are works of significant religious impact and antiquity that have been excluded from the canonized vulgate and from the Torah. the Book of Jasher. trans. Flaccus Albinus Alcuinus.

Contains an alternative description of Genesis and a first hand account of Moses at Mt. Horeb.

Inanna. Wolkstein and Kramer.

Inanna and the God of Wisdom. Inanna and Dumuzi. The Descent of Inanna. Seven Hymns to Inanna.

The Lost Book of Enki. Sitchin. composited together from a cosmogony, an Epic of Creation called the Eridu Genesis, and the Atra Hasis.

The Babylonian Genesis. Heidel, Alexander.

The Enuma Elish, remnants of the then oldest known holy scriptures.

The Epic of Gilgamesh.

The classic poem thought for a while to be the oldest writing in existence.

Necronomicon. attributed to Abdul Alhazred.

The Seven Gates of the Zones. The Fifty Names of Power of the Elders.

The Book of Enoch the Prophet.

A nice edition of Ethiopian 1Enoch with notes for Ethiopian Coptics.

Forbidden Mysteries of Enoch. Prophet.

The Book of Enoch and the Book of the Secrets of Enoch.

The Old Testament Pseudepigrapha, Vol. 1. James H. Charlesworth, ed.

Contains dozens of OT apocrypha, incl. the elusive 3Enoch.

6th and 7th Books of Moses. Tice.

Containing the magical charms and spells used by Moses and Aaron.

Mysteries of the Long Lost Books of Moses.

Another edition of the 6th and 7th books of Moses.

Kebra Nagast. Brooks.

Describing the thaking of the ark of the covenant to Axum by Menelik the son of Solomon the King with the Queen of Sheeba.

The Nag Hammadi Library. Robinson.

Prayer of Paul. Apocryphon of James. Gospel of Truth. The Treatise on the Resurrection. The Tripartite Tractate. Apocryphon of John. Gospel of Thomas. Gospel of Philip. Hypostasis of the Archons. On the Origin of the World. Exegesis on the Soul.

Thomas the Contender. Gospel of the Egyptians. Eugnostos the Blessed. Dialogue of the Savior. The Apocalypse of Paul. 1st Apocalypse of James. 2nd Apocalypse of James.

Apocalypse of Adam. The Acts of Peter and the Apostles. The Thunder, Perfect Mind.

Authoritative Teaching. The Concept of Our Great Power. Plato’s Republic. The Discourse on the Eight and the Ninth. The Prayer of Thanksgiving. Aesclepius. The Paraphrase of Shem. Second Treatise of Seth. Apocalypse of Peter. Teachings of Silvanus. Three Steles of Seth. Zostrianos. Letter of Peter to Philip. Melchizedek.

Thoughts of Norea. Testimony of Truth. Marsanes. Interpretation of Knowledge.

Valentinian Exposition. Allogenes. Hypsiphrone. Sentences of Sextus. Fragments.

Trimorphic Protennoia. Gospel of Mary. Act of Peter.

The Dead Sea Scrolls Translated. Garcia Martinez.

Rules 1. Halakhic Texts. Literature with Eschatological Content (War Scroll and New

Jerusalem). Exegetical Literature. Para-Biblical Literature. (Book of Giants, PseudoMoses). Poetic Texts. Liturgical Texts. Astronomical Texts, Calendars and Horroscopes.

The Copper Scroll.

The Dead Sea Scrolls: A New Translation. Wise, Abegg and Cook, ed.

A revised and expanded collection of scroll translations from 2005.

The Dead Sea Scrolls Uncovered. Eisenman and Wise.

Fifty new fragments with transliteration. Messianic and Visionary Recitals. Prophets and Pseudo-Prophets. Biblical Interpretation. Calendrical Texts and Priestly Courses.

Testaments and Admonitions. Works Reckoned as Righteousness — Legal Texts. Hymns and Mysteries. Divination, Magic and Misc.

The Gnostic Scriptures. Bentley Layton, 1995.

A collection from various schools of gnosticism contemporary to early christianity. the Other Bible. Willis Barnstone.

Creation Myths.

Secrets of Enoch. Book of Jubilees. Haggadah. Manichean Gnosis. Secret Book of John.

Hypostasis of the Archons. Apocalypse of Adam. Gospel of Philip. Paraphrase of Shem.

Second Treatise of Seth. Mandaean Gnosticism. Kabbalah.

History and Narratives Martyrdom of Isiah. IV. Maccabees. Perpetua and Felicity. Ahikar. Genesis Apocryphon, Manual of Discipline, Damascus Document, War Scrolls (Dead Sea Scrolls). Letter of Aristeas.

Wisdom Literature and Poetry Psalm 16 of Solomon. Dead Sea Scroll Psalms. Odes of Solomon. Gospel of Truth and Valentinian Speculation. Gospel of Thomas. Hymn of the Pearl. Manichaean HymnCycles. Coptic Pasalm Book.

Gospels Gospel of the Hebrews. Gospel of the Ebionites. Secret Gospel of Mark. Apocryphon of James. Gospel of Bartholomew. Gospel of Nicodemus.

Infancy Gospels of James. of Pseudo Mathew. of Thomas. Latin Infancy Gospel. Arabic Infancy Gospel.

Acts Acts of the Apostles and John. Acts of John. Acts of Peter. Acts of Paul. Acts of Andrew. Acts of Thomas Apocalypses 1 Enoch. 2 Enoch. Sibylline Oracles. Apocalypse of Baruch. Apocalypse of Ezra.

Ascension of Isaiah. Apocalypse of Peter. Apocalypse of Paul. Apocalypse of Thomas.

Christian Sibyllines. Hermes: Poimandres. Hermes: Asclepius. Hermes: Hermaphroditism of God. Thomas the Cntender. Trimorphic Protennoia. The Thunder, Perfect Mind.

Diverse Gnostic Texts Simon Magus. Valentinus and the Valentinian System of Ptolemaeus. Ptolemaeus’ Letter to Flora. Basilides. The Naassene Psalm. Baruch by Justin. Marcion. Carpocrates.

The Cainites. The Sethians. The Sethian-Ophites. Ophite Diagrams.

Manichaeans and Mandaean Gnostic Texts Mani and Manichaeism. Faust Concerning Good and Evil. Augustine’s Letters Against the Manichaeans. Evodius Against the Manichaeans. The Kephalaia of the Teacher.

Diverse Manichaean Documents. Mandaean Salvation and Ethics.

Mystical Documents The Divine Throne Chariot. The Zohar. The Mystical Theology of Pseudo-Dionysius.

The Complete Works of Jospehus. Flavius Jospehus.

Includes epistles by Josephus as well as the histories and wars of the Jews.

Christianity: the Apocrypha and the New Testament.

A collection of numerous apocrypha from Judith and Tobit to Hermas, plus the NT. The Lost Books of the Bible. Testament Books.

Mary. Protevangelion. I. Infancy. II. Infancy. Christ and Abgarus. Nicodemus.

Apostles’ Creed. Laodiceans. Paul and Seneca. Paul and Thecla. I. Clement. II Clement.

Barnabus. Ephesians. Magnesians. Trallians. Romans. Philadelphians. Smyrnaeans.

Polycarp. Philippians. I. Hermas — Visions. II. Hermas — Commands. III. Hermas — Similitudes. Letters of Herod to Pilate. Last Gospel According to Peter.

The Other Gospels. Cameron.

Gospel of Thomas. Dialogue of the Savior. Gospel of the Egyptians. Papyrus Oxyrhynchus 840. Apocryphon of James. Secret Gospel of Mark. Papyrus Egerton 2.

Gospel of Peter. Gospel of the Hebrews. Acts of John 87 - 105. Gospel of the Nazoreneans. Gospel of the Ebionites. Protevangelium of James. Infancy Gospel of Thomas. Epistula Apostolorum. Acts of Pilate.

The Secret Teachings of Jesus.

Excerpted sayings of the Master from various apocryphal and cannon sources.

The Apocrypha. Edgar J, Goodspeed.

I. Esdras. II. Esdras. Tobit. Judith. Additions to Esther. Wisdom of Solomon. Baruch.

Susanna. Song of Three Children. Bel and the Dragon. Prayer of Mnasseh. I. Maccabees. II. Maccabees.

The Gospel of Thomas. Dart and Riegert.

One hundred fourteen sayings of Jesus.

Reading Judas. Elaine Pagels.

Inlcuding a translation of the then-newly discovered Gospel of Judas.

The Gnostic Gospel of Mary of Magdala. Karen L. King.

One translation of the Gospel of Phillip, attributed to Mary Magdalene.

The Gospel of Mary Magdalene.

Another translation of Phillip from the Coptic version in the Nag Hammadi.

The Lost Sayings of Jesus.

A collection from multiple sources both apocryphal and cannon of parables.

The Unknown Sayings of Jesus.

Another collection of stories about Jesus from multiple sources in the region.

The Gospel of Judas. Kasser, Meyer, Wurst, ed.

The first released definitive translation of this then newly discovered Apocrypha.

The Essene Gospel of Peace (parts 1 - 4). trans. Edmond Bordeaux Szekely First published from the secret Vatican archive in 1928.

About Apocrypha

James the Brother of Jesus. Robert Eisenman.

This book was put out right before they released the story to the media that they had found a tomb bearing this inscription.

The Meaning of the Dead Sea Scrolls. A. Powell Davies.

1956, barely ten years after they were discovered, this book describes the conflict of the Dead Sea Scrolls to existing Christian dogma. Since this time we have seen a massive relaxation and liberalisation of the papacy.

Secrets of the Dead Sea Scrolls. Price.

Historical context to their finding and an interpretation of their content.

Secret Books of the Egyptian Gnostics. Doresse.

A book describing the archaeological finding and an interpretation of the anthropological context of the Nag Hamadi library in Chenoboskion.

The Nature of Faith. Gerhard Ebeling.

The Holy Book of Women's Mysteries, part 1. Budapest.

The Sacred Prostitute.

The Book of Lilith. Barbara Black Kultov.

The World's Sixteen Crucified Saviours.

Lost Continents.

The Flood Myth.

Ancient Cosmologies.

The Dead Sea Scrolls and the First Christians. Eisenman.

The History and Religion of Israel.

The Old Testament: A Guide To Its Writings.

The Book of J. Harold Bloom and David Rosenberg.

The Lost Gospel: the Book of Q & Christian Origins. Mack.

Edgar Cayce's Story of Jesus. Jeffrey Furst. ed.

The Lost Years of Jesus. Elizabeth Prophet.

The Essene Odyssey and The Pentecost Revolution. Schonfield.

Caesar's Messiah. Joseph Atwill.

Yeshua the Hebrew Messiah or Jesus the Christian Christ?

Jesus and the Judaism of His Time. Zeitlin.

The Jews in the Time of Jesus. Wylen.

Documents of the Christian Church. Bettenson & Maudner.

QBLH

The running and returning that typified QBLHistic experience is the oneness with the flow of a higher dimensional energy. This energy is active and passive; when it is active, we must learn to be passive relative to it; when it is passive we must learn to be active relative to it. In the west the serpent of the teli is associated with tsimtsum, contraction; the descent from the heights.

Magical Alphabets. Pennick.

Runes, Futhark, Linear A and Linear B, Masonic Cipher, etc.

The Greek Qabalah. Barry.

Gematria of the Greek alphabet.

Jesus Christ: the Number of His Name. Gaunt.

Gematria with Greek phrases from the new testament.

Magdalene's Lost Legacy.

Exploring the numerology relating to feminist apocrypha.

Amulets and Talismans. Budge.

The complete book of hexes, charms, fascinations and how to ward them off.

Hebrew-English Dictionary.

Travel-guide version of a cross-referenced Hebrew to English and English to Hebrew alphabetical dictionary.

Ancient Pagan Symbols.

A collection of pre-Christian Chaldean and Gnostic amulets, each explained.

Ten Luminous Emanations Vol I. and 2. Rabbi Yehuda Ashlag.

A short version of the Zohar. A must read.

Sefer Yetzirah. Aryeh Kaplan. ed.

The traditional QBLHist’s Bible, metaphorically speaking.

Sefer Raziel Hemalek. Steve Savedow.

The first book of Adam, written in Eden, lost at the exile, and returned by the angel.

The Bahir. Aryeh Kaplan. ed.

A first century school of rabbis instructs in the round. Illuminating!

Zohar: annotated and explained. Matt.

Some myths and parables.

Zohar: the book of Splendour. Gershom Scholem.

Some myths and parables.

The Essential Zohar. Rav P. S. Berg.

Some myths and parables.

The Kabbalah Unveiled. Mathers.

Translated, with tediously redundant commentary, by Mathers. An essential.

Hebrew Book of the Dead in the Wilderness. Zhenya Senyak.

Proposition the Torah can be compressed into a "book of the dead" for the Nation of Israel and the Hebrew tribes.

Ecstatic Confessions. Buber.

An edition of writings attributed to mystic wisdom schools throughout history.

Hassidic Tales.

Folk tales of extreme passion for wisdom and the love of God. Must read.

Folklore of the Holy Land: Moslem, Christian and Jewish.

Modern old wives tales among the indigenous peoples about their origins.

Hebrew Myths. Robert Graves.

Collection of anectdotal apopcryphal stories from ancient times.

Legends of the Bible. and Legends of the Jews, Vol. 1. by Louis Ginsberg.

Essential apocryphal parallel to traditional Torah, from the 18th century oral sects.

The Cosmic Octave. Cousto.

Explains the finer principles of Pythagorean music theory concisely.

The Dimensions of Paradise. John Michell. “the porportions and symbolic numbers of ancient cosmology.”

The Tree of Life. Regardie.

The book that got Israel Regardie into the Golden Dawn.

The Secret Doctrine of the Kabbalah. Leet.

The tree of life as a physics lattice.

The Sacred Magic of the Qabbalah. Manly P. Hall.

A short pamphlet overflowing enlightenment.

The Chicken Qabalah. DuQuette.

By drawing associations between the left, right or middle pillars, the first, second, third or fourth world planes, etc. different lessons can be learned from the sephirot on the tree of life diagram.

Qabalah, Tarot, and the Western Mystery Tradition. Bias.

Essentially a work of Tarot, this book spills over stylistically to touch on many topics of QBLH and mysticism.

On the Kabbalah and Its Symbolism. and Kabbalah. Gershom Scholem.

Two reknowned works on the QBLH by one of the twentieth century’s premiere Jewish mystics.

The Early Kabbalah.

Traces the history of QBLH through saffhardic Spain.

The Essential Kabbalah. Matt.

Parables for meditation.

Judaic Mysticism. Davis and Mascetti.

A thorough book about the different applications of QBLH throughout history.

The Truth About Cabala. David Godwin.

A short, but instructive, pocket book.

The Work of the Kabbalist. Z’ev ben Shimon Halevi.

Straightforward talk to those practising the mystical arts. Honestly refreshing.

The Guide for the Perplexed. Moses Maimonides.

A sixteenth century biblical scholar and Jewish mystic instructs.

Meister Eckhart, From Whom God Hid Nothing. Eckhart.

A mideval German Dominican Catholic mystic.

Life Is Real Only Then, When I Am. GI Gurdjieff.

Russian Christian mysticism from the mid 1800's.

The Protestant Mystics. Fremantle.

Very short, and a little old.

The Teachings of the Mystics. Walter T. Stace.

A short journey among past masters.

Mystic Christianity. Yogi Ramachakra.

From the Yogi Publication Society, who also published the Kybalion, this work on the "mystical" aspects of the Christian religion takes an orientally oriented view.

The Mystical Christ. Manly P Hall.

The concepts of the "mystical" Jesus and mystics in Christianity examined by 20th century Free Mason and esoteric historian, takes a western perspective.

The 23 volume Zohar set released by the Kabbalah Center. 2003 ed.

23 volumes, hard-backed, in Hebrew and english, with commentary.

JPS Hebrew-English Tanakh. Jewish Publication Society.

The Old Testament in Hebrew and English.

Cathehism of the Catholic Church. Libreria Editice Vaticana.

The official rules for the Catholic faith.

The Oxford Concise Concordance. Revised Standard Addition.

The Catholic prayer book.

The Koran. Attributed to Muhammed.

The Penguin Classics edition.

The Book of Mormon. The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.

Given to me on my own doorstep by some friendly strangers, or maybe they were just strangely befrienders.

The Satanic Bible. and the Satanic Rituals, and Satan Speaks! and The Devil’s Notebook. Anton Szandor LaVey. You can’t keep a good man down.

Philosophy

Most of these titles I read in high school, when I decided I wanted to be a philosopher.

Metaphysics is just a specialisation of that career, which, if one thinks about it, is not only the only one idealized by the greatest thinkers from the Classical world through to modern times, but also the only one that goes without payment or recompense of any kind.

Looking at Philosophy. Palmer.

A cartoon book from which I learned the history of philosophy. Particulalrly good for studying the pre-Socratics, who have no writings of their own, that I have ever found, to study.

Dialogues of Plato and Timaeus and Critias. attributed to Socrates.

I read the section on Atlantis. It was very short. I recommend it for anybody studying Atlantis, since there never was such a thing by that name before Plato called the global coastal civilizations wiped away at the end of the last ice age that.

Selections. Aristotle.

The father of Metaphysics. For someone who wrote when writing was young, Aristotle’s style certainly is voluptuous. He knows how to draw the reader in, and how to change the subject just before things get truthfully enlightenning.

On the Nature of the Universe. Lucretius.

It astounds me how much classical philosophers knew about quantum mechanics without having any sort of aparati by which to make measurements thereof. Truly an inspiring book.

Discourse on the Method and the Meditations. RenĂŠ Descartes.

The discourse on the method was the inspiration for my rant in the introduction to the style section about the methodology of philosophy. Descartes essentially sets out to question reason by denying everything that appears empirically true. All he is left with is an abyssmal void of his interior self and the still small shining spark of his ego, or soul, and even this, he argues, might be only the dream in the mind of a sleeping monster.

Critique of Pure Reason. Immanuel Kant.

A Kierkegaard Anthology. Bretall.

Kierkegaard is a Christian apologist for Kierkegaard.

Being and Time. Heidegger.

Heidegger is a Christian apologist for Christ.

Philosophy in the Age of the Greeks. and The Birth of Tragedy and the Case of Wagner. and Genealogy of Morals and Ecce Homo. and Beyond Good and Evil. and Thus Spoke Zarathustra. and Twilight of the Idols and the Antichrist. Friedrich Wilhelm Nietzsche.

Philosophy in the age of the Greeks deals with lots of philsophers I’ve never heard of in any other book. Nietzsche was an epistemologist who finally concluded that there is “no roiginal text.” For a while there was Gilgamesh, but that was after his time. In Philosophy in the Age of the Greeks, he searches for truth by dissecting the minutia of classical reasoning. It is diffucult to say if he was really crazier at the beginning of his career or the end. Nietzsche is one of those philosophers who is eminantly quotable. My personal favorite is: “the same effects in man and woman do not cease to differ in tempo.”

Existentialism from Dostoevsky to Sartre. Walter Kauffman.

Walter Kauffman was the translator of most of my editions of Nietzsche, so when I saw this book I immeidately picked it up. It is excerpts from the different writers of the late nineteenth to middle twentieth centuries, including Dostoevsky’s “the Grand Inquisitor.”

Irrational Man. William Barrett.

Barrett is a Christian apologist for Nietzsche.

Origin of Geomtry. Edmund Husserl.

Introduction by Jacques Derrida; my favorite topic by Sartre’s mentor and creator of the epoché.

Being and Nothingness. and Truth and Existence. and The Psychology of Imagination. and The Emotions. and The Words. Jean Paul Sartre.

While most of Sartre’s shorter writings are almost as unapproachable as my own writings, with sentences in length paralleled only by the paragraphless writing of Franz Kafka, his longer works are quite the opposite: engaging and entertaining.

Like Jack Kerouac, if one can decipher the rhythm of Being and Nothingness, one will find themselves transported even more directly into Sartre’s world than in Nausea. Most of his metaphors for existence are lifted directly from the coffee shop

set in which he was sitting and writing, so the sense of immediatism is strong, and one wonders if it was only necessary to argue the humanism of existentialism to those people who had never read any.

The Second Sex. Simone de Beauvoir.

Existentialism as a humanism from a feminist’s standpoint.

The Myth of Sisyphus and other essays. and Notebooks 1942 - 1951. Albert Camus.

The myth of Sisyphus is considered required reading in some scholastic settings, both preperatory and collegiate. Seeing as how it only describes the torture of a damned soul, one wonders at what it would be like if DantĂŠ, or even story of O, were taught in place of Dr. Seuss or Dick and Jane?

For the New Intellectual. Ayn Rand.

Rand advocates smoking cigarettes as a liberty. If she were alive today and were informed about both sides of the issue in modern times: cigarette additives being addictive and causing cancer and the clean-living fascist no-public-smoking laws, I wonder what she would think.

The Myth of the Eternal Return. Eliade.

Examines the philosophical concept of a permanent moment or event.

Madness and Civilization. and This is Not a Pipe. Michel Foucault. and The Foucault Reader. Rabinow.

In Madness Foucault, as only a philosopher could get away with, concludes by comparing living conditions in victorian era mental asylums with the paintings of Goya. On the other hand, This is Not a Pipe, about the painting of the same name by Magritte, manages to examine the piece from every angel except, as it makes note, the purely aesthetic.

Illuminations. Walter Benjamin.

Parabolic wisdom, soothing to read.

The Pleasure of the Text. Roland Barthes.

An essay for its own sake about writing for its own sake.

Theory of Reigion. and Literature and Evil. Georges Batailles.

One of my favorite authors of fiction in terms of style, bordering on expressionistic surrealism. Here he analyzes a handful of authors throughout history who have dealt with the subject of, or been accused of being, evil. What stands out in my mind is the section on the Marquis De Sade, since I was reading him at the time, and I found that I disagreed with almost every point Batailles made. De Sade is just puncturing the aristocracy. On that point, alone, I think we agreed.

America. and Cool Memories.

and the Ecstacy of Communication and Forget Foucault. and Simulacra and Simulacrum. Jean Baudrillard.

I don’t care much for America, which reads like a family slide show after a cross country winnebego trip, but the ecstasy of communication and simulacra / simulacrum are to live and die for.

Immediatism. and Temporary Autonomous Zone. Hakim Bey. Hakim Bey, an anomolous modern Muslim philosopher, has some new ideas, such as immediatism, which I make repeated reference to in the MPDR, as well as the T.A.Z. or Permanent Autonomous Zone, where anarchy reigns, as well as an excellent literary style, but his works are rare and hard to find. the Electronic Disturbance. Critical Art Ensemble.

Interesting critique of modern dub and sampling media as derived from the cut-up method of Burroughs and collages of Picasso. Goes on and on about “the Body Without Organs.”

The Matrix and Philosophy. William Erwin. ed.

Some essays by modern philosophers, mostly professors or grad students, about the metaphysics of the movie the Matrix and its impact on the media of today.

The Psychopath's Bible. Christopher Hyatt.

21st century anarcho-chaote Nietzschean moralism. Toxic magicians discussed.

Principia Discordia. Robert Anton Wilson.

The basic manual for chaos magic, originating from 1960's Berkley LSD use.

Politics

This is the section with the greatest number of books I haven’t read. All the books about communism, I mean.

Steal This Book. Abbe Hoffman.

But the book told me to steal it. More timely in the sixties, with references to radical groups and happenings long outdated. A worn out version of the anarchist’s cookbook. the Federalist Papers. Alexander Hamilton, James Madison and John Jay. The first yellow journalism in American history. Hamilton and Madison go back and forth with Jay as the voice of moderation, discussing the concept of a national bank.

The fact that the rich controlled the media even at this early time proves what DeTocqueville forewarned. the World in the Twentieth Century. Louis L. Snyder.

Written in the sixties.

Class. Paul Fussell.

About the class structure in America at the time of its writing.

Brave New World Revisted. Aldous Huxley.

An anaylsis of his fictional narrative by one of the founders of the LSD movement.

Capitalism: the Unknown Ideal. Ayn Rand.

Capitalism supports independence by competition. I never understood this.

The Prince. Machiavelli.

The rules of ettiquette for acquiring and maintaining power in hierarchies.

Levithan. Thomas Hobbes.

Proposes the idea that the ruler is a sort of demiurge instinct within the multi-headed hydra of the state.

Report of the Warren Comission on the Assassination of President John F. Kennedy.

According to Jimmy Carter this is not a fabrication. the Kennedy Government. Stan Opatowsky.

A list of heads of state under Kennedy before the CIA firings. the Words of Martin Luther King Jr. Quotes from the king. This book can only be found at the memorial museum in Atlanta, Georgia. the World as I see it. Albert Einstein.

Thoughts ranging from atomic potential to antisemitism. the Abolition of Work and other essays. Bob Black.

An essential for all generation x-ers and echo-boomers.

Let’s Abolish War. Tom Hudgens.

A well intentioned but not well reasoned treatise on one of the most important issues facing the united planet.

Civil Disobedience and other essays. Henry David Thoreau.

More about retreatism and escapism, boycotting and banning than Ghandi’s applications of the idea in mass protests.

Finite and Infinite Games. James P. Carse.

A finite game has a goal and a winner. An infinite game has no winner, though it may have many goals.

The Outline of History, in 2 Volumes. H.G. Wells.

Not a textbook, but it could be. Wells, author of many books about the conspiracy to instill public anarchy, has herein set down his entire chronicle of history. A valuable resource.

The Fate of Man. HG Wells.

Predictions for the future (the latter half of the 20th century) by the author of "The Open Conspiracy."

Today’s Isms. Ebbenstein.

Fascism, Socialism, Communism, Liberalism. Written in the fifties.

The Imperial Animal. Lionel Tiger and Robin Fox. Human biology and behavior analysed in the realm of politics.

Social and Political Philosophy. John Somerville and Robert Santoni.

A book of excerpts of the writing of famous political philosophers, from Locke and Hobbes to Marx and Hitler. An invaluable resource to anyone studying the original expressions of the ideas that actually shaped the political battlefield for the past four hundred years.

International Security Systems. Gray.

NATO, the IMF, OPEC, the UN and security council. Predated NAFTA and the EU. The Civil War in the United States. and The Communist Manifesto. Karl Marx and Frederik Engels.

For the Marxist view on how banks orchestrated the civil war,; and what the unions can do to stop them.

Das Kapital. Karl Marx.

The dialectical view of history reveals the real motivating factor behind all politics: money.

Socialism: Utopian and Scientific. Friedrich Engels.

The idealist of the team, Engels rhapsodizes on the past and future of socialism.

Wage-Labour and Capital / Value Price and Profit. Karl Marx.

Explaining more about the concept of fair wages and the scales of pay.

Essential Works of Lenin. and Imperialism. Vladimir Illich Lenin.

Lenin’s nationalised communist apology. Hard edged.

The Communist Party of the Soviet Union. Leonard Schapro.

About the structure of the duma and the history of the Bolshevik and White Russian parties.

History of Russia. Walter Kirchner.

From tsarism to Stalinism by way of revolution and castrated Trotskyism.

Colonial New England: the Cashless Society. Landmark Series Publishing.

How the colonies of New England survived exclusively on funding for the governors by the Queen’s royal account. A working welfare state and cashless utopia. the Wretched of the Earth. Franz Fanon.

A scathing description of living conditions on par with Studs Terkel.

Community/Peasant Society. Redfield.

How the other half really live. Only partially propagandistic.

German Social Democracy. Bertrand Russell.

The Bertrand Russell, political philosopher, writing at the time immediately prior to the rise of what would become the Nazi party.

Varieties of Fascism. Weber.

Totalitarian dictatorship to Kafkaesque bureaucracy.

Mein Kampf. Adolf Hitler.

Simply the worst written and least logically legitimate book ever written by the "Great Dictator" of the 20th century.

Rise and Fall of the Third Reich. William L Shirer.

I confess to reading this only up until the Reichstag Fire Decree and purge of the SA once the NAZI party had assumed control of the German social democracy and implimented their "ideal" police state.

NAZI Doctors. Robert Jay Lifton.

A fascinating examination of the biologists behind the popularisation of eugenics and the human experimentation done during the Holocaust, with an appendix describing the effect of their work on the minds of the doctors themselves, resulting in personality "twinning" or MPD. To Resist or to Surrender? Tourier.

An actual pre-NAZI, pro-Aryan idealism work, translated from German.

The Global Public Management Revolution. Kettl.

Modern. Based on changes in information processing dynamics and the quickening pace of the rate of business exchange.

Propaganda and the Public Mind. and Language and Mind. and On Power and Ideology. and Language and Responsibility. and Secrets, Lies and Democracy. and What Uncle Sam Really Wants. and The Prosperous Few and the Restless Many. and

the Umbrella of U.S. Power. and Media Control. and Acts of Aggression. and 9-11. Noam Chomsky.

One of the best modern writers on propaganda and the media. A professor of language, his writing is often befuddled and at other times crisp and witty, but always scathing and accurate. He is prone to quoting without citing from his encyclopedic repetoire of research.

The Spirit of Terrorism. Jean Baudrillard.

How terrorism in effect cuts both ways by forcing the terrorised regime to raise the stakes of its security and in essence terrorize its own citizens by enforcing patriotism.

You Are Being Lied To. and Everything You Know Is Wrong. Russ Kick. editor.

Collections of essays by modern thinkers about pop-culture propaganda and American social ills.

The Mortgage Meltdown. Stan Kazwell II. The realtor father of a guy I know who owns a shop in town wrote this, and it is a simple and honest breakdown of the sub-prime mortgage crisis of 2007 leading up to the bail-out bill being passed by Congress just prior to the 2008 election.

Science

This is my favorite subject, but I probably understand it less than any other. I was never that good at it in school, so I decided to teach myself from what books I could find on the shelves at book stores.

Mysticism and the New Physics. Michael Talbot.

Explores links between ancient shamanic techniques for transcendence, eastern cosmologies, and modern quantum mechanics and relativity.

The Way Things Are: Basic Readings in Metaphysics. W. R. Carter. ed.

A compilation of essays on the mind/matter dilemma, including one by Rene Descartes I haven’t yet found elsewhere, as well as a particularly bemusing one by Richard Swineburne entitled “Body and Soul.�

Mathematical Magic. Simon.

Topology, statistics, number squares, card tricks.

The Geometry of Art and Life. Ghyka.

A book of some of the finest porportions in art, architecture and nature, dealing at length with phi, the Golden Ratio or Divine Porportion.

The Divine Porportion. Huntley.

A history of phi and tens of beautiful examples from nature, incl. formula.

Platonic and Archimedian Solids. Sutton.

Beautiful art depicting some of the mathematical nuances of the only regular solids.

Geometry, Relativity and the Fourth Dimension. Rucker.

Proposes the interesting notion, diagrammed elsewhere as lightcones by Hawking, that space and time might actually run perpindicular to one another, and only appear to us to be parallel because we are only looking at their intersection along the line of the plane’s edge; stops short before going too deeply into the toroidal model of spacetime by saying that the only thing that could distort spacetime to the singularity at the centerpoint of a torus is matter, but that then only energy could pass through it, essentially taking the model far too literally.

Principal of Relativity. Alfred North Whitehead.

Preceding Einstein, Whitehead had developed what Einstein later applied as "relativity" between moving objects to re-define space and time as relatives.

Selections from The Principle of Relativity. Einstein, Hawking.

Einstein's original notes with interpretations for the lay-man by Stephen Hawking. the Principle of Relativity. and The Meaning of Relativity. and Sidelights on Relativity. Albert Einstein.

Presented first as a visualization, followed by several thought experiments, this is the source of what is probably the most elegant formula for the matter-energy exchange of entropy ever devised. A must read for anybody who is interested in either physics or why the world is the way it seems to be.

General Thoery of Relativity. Dirac.

One of the masters of quantum mechanics picks over the formulae of general relativity. The section about scalar waves boils down to zero point energy, though it avoids saying so, and the next logical leap from there is the spin of the tachyon.

Theory of Relativity. Pauli.

Another master of quantum mechanics who gave us statistics for waves goes over the special (entropic) and general (gravitational) theories of relativity with formulae.

Einstein’s Theory of Relativity. Born.

Another contributer of statistics for subatomic particles rhapsodizes on the formula of special and general theories of relativity.

About Vectors. Hoffmann.

A book that explains what I have herein called the conservation of dimension for matrices as the parallelogram law of vectors.

Thermodynamics. Fermi.

A book about very slight temperature variations in subatomic perturbation systems by the man who discovered quanta, or wave-packets, of energy. Essentially, a book about Fermions by the man after whom they were named.

The Physical Principles of the Quantum Theory. Heisenberg.

One of the pioneers of atomic energy discusses with minimal formulae the essential factors of quantum theory such as uncertainty and exclusivity.

Elementary Particles and the Laws of Physics. Feynman and Weinberg.

A good book, it essentially just talks about fermions (eaves of energy) and bosons (particles of matter), listing all known of each kind, and giving their properties, etc.

The Nature of Space and Time. Stephen Hawking and Roger Penrose.

A very good book about the geometry of spacetime and the possible histories of world lines depending thereon.

Quest for a Theory of Everything. Stephen Hawking and Kitty Ferguson.

Hawking’s answer to string theory before he began speculating with M-theory and branes.

The Elegant Universe. Brian Greene.

An excellent introduction to the cosmos described by string-theory. This book is, to string-theory, the same as "hyperspace" by Kaku was to 4th dimensional ideas about time. the Holographic Universe. Michael Talbot.

A very good book that talks about the hologrpahic nature of the brain and speculates about the holographic nature of the light upon which we base our view of the universe.

Faster than Light. Nick Herbert.

This book came out long after I had completed writing the MPDR. It’s the first book I’ve seen that deals seriously with tachyons, and I even had to go back and double check every time I mentioned the word in the MPDR to make sure it didn’t disagree with the definition he had given. This is also where I learned the term “transcendent” tachyon.

Faster Than The Speed of Light. Maguelio.

A somewhat disappointing true life narrative story about how tachyon and VSL research is being systematically thwarted in the private sector by large corporate military interests.

Hyperspace. and Visions. Michio Kaku.

The primary modern spokesperson for superstrings talks about them in no uncertain terms as being tightly coiled histories of multiple dimensions in Hyperspace. In Visions he talks about the possible breakthrough discoveries that can made in the next fifty or a hundred years in science.

Millennium. Vivololdo and Dychtwald.

A book from the late seventies essentially the same as Visions by Kaku. An edited

compilation of essays by verious different scientists and speculative scholars about what scientific breakthroughs they might expect by the year 2000. Many are the same as in Visions.

Reasoning with Statistics. Williams.

Teaches exactly nothing about quantum mechanics.

Understanding the New Mathematics. Ray Kurzwell.

This book is from the sixties, and so is probably a little dated.

Future Shock. Alvin Toffler.

A book after my own heart, whose style immitates its subject matter: the everchanging face of ultramodernity. the Naked Ape. Desmond Morris.

From the author of the Human Zoo, in this, his original work, Desmond Morris explores the connections between man and his primate ancestors in such areas as gesture, personal space, facial expressions, etc.

Origin of Species. Charles Darwin.

The premier book on evolution. Contrary to the popular opinion prevalent since the Scopes monkey trial, Darwin’s evoltuon does not contradict creationism. He doesn’t deal with fossils at all, only with already existing species, mostly exotic, and traces how they adapt from one generation to the next as they struggle for survival.

The Double Helix. James D. Watson.

The true story of the discovery of the DNA double helix by one of the two scientists responsible. A fascinating plot, made dull by being written by a scientist, is almost amazing in spite of it due to its brevity and quick pace. A much more approachable work than Crick’s grandiosities.

Human Origins. Abrams.

Probably not available. A mini text book about evolution and palentology.

Apes, Language, and the Human Mind. Taylor, et al.

An Oxford thesis work on overcoming verbal communication barriers.

The Cosmic Connection. and Dragons of Eden. and Cosmos. Carl Sagan.

One of the only very few serious scientists to speculate about extraterrestrial life, interstellar germination, the levels of the human brain, and other “far out” concepts.

Colorado Springs Notes. and The Inventions, Researches and Writings of. and the Complete Inventions (patents) and My Inventions. Nikola Tesla.

This represents the greater part of the collection of works by the foremost proponent

of free energy broadcasted wirelessly as well as extraterrestrial communications systems, subterranean death rays and torus shaped energy coils.

Stephen Hawking’s Universe. Filkin.

A picture book too beautiful for them to keep on stands, this will probably not still be around after a few years, but it has great pictures of clusters as well as several research projects being conducted at super colliders.

The Force of Symmetry. Vincent Icke.

This is about the force that seems to govern the dualities we see in nature, from the greatest galaxies to the smallest vectors on quanta. In particular of interest are the concepts of spontaneous symmetry breaking, which pertains to quantum level jumping by electrons, and supersymmetry, the concept that when symmetry is broken it is only to conform to a greater or deeper symmetry we cannot perceive.

4-Manifolds and Kirby Calculus. Gompf and Stipsicz.

4-manifolds, discussed in the MPDR, are fourth dimensional metaforms whose topography can be measured by vector sets in neighborhoods, a process known as Kirby calculus.

Dreaming the Future. and the Zen of Magic Squares, Circles and Stars. Clifford A. Pickover.

It is from this book that I give the formula for finding the sum of any magic number square with sequential constituent numbered cells given only the number of cells and first number in sequence. This book has some really beautiful forms of magic shapes, and I would highly recommend the study of this to any would-be mage. the Essential John Nash. Kuhn and Nasar.

This book gives Nash’s full post collegiate work on 4-manifolds, and is truly essential for a study thereof, as he demonstrates how symmetry can be gleaned from topography and how topography can be gleaned by the fewest possible vectors possible.

Black Holes and Time Warps. Kip S. Thorne.

A work by the co-discoverer of the exact mathematical proof for the existence of the previously theoretical black holes, long before one had ever been observed or it had been speculated they occupied the centers of spiral galaxies, Kip Thorne gives a fascinating look into the worlds of no escape gravity wells and the conservation of information.

QED. and Essential Lectures. by: Richard Feynman.

Aside from a few diagrams I never got too deeply into his works. His models have, however, helped in providing a visual reference to understanding the complex maths of quantum-reactions and nuclear decay.

Cellular Automata and Complexity. Wolfram.

An interesting book, though dauntingly thick, about self-replicating micro-mini shapes, studying how they propagate to fill different given spaces.

Chaos. James Gleick.

A fascinating look at fractals such as the snowflake, Mandelbrot and Julia sets, as well as “sponges” with infinite volume and zero mass which I compare in the MPDR to magic cubes.

Q is for Quantum. John Gribbin.

A very useful encyclopedia of terms and their cross-referenced meanings in QM. Relativity for Scientists and Engineers. Skinner.

The most helpful guidebook I've ever found in terms of translating Einstein's matrix equations into graphic diagrams I can visually comprehend.

Physics of Waves. Elmore and Heald.

This is where I got most of the information about perturbation theory in the section on entropy.

The Big Bang. Joseph Silk.

A qualified look at the few minutes around the first quantum fluctuation.

The Structure and Interpretation of Quantum Mechanics. Hughes.

Formulae in text book form.

Princeton Guide to Advanced Physics. Tribble.

Formulae and diagrams in text book form. the Secret Life of Quanta. Han. A very lay-person friendly look into some of the mysteries of quanta such as tunneling, superposition and the double slit experiment.

Classical Mechanics. Corben and Stehle.

Formulae and diagrams in text book form.

Atom. Isaac Asimov.

A detailed history of the discovery of each different aspect of the atom and of quanta.

The Universe in a Nutshell. and A Brief History of Time. and Black Holes and Baby Universes and other essays. Stephen Hawking.

The Universe in a Nutshell, Hawking’s latest on physics, introduces M-theory, or the theory of branes, two dimensional superstrings. A brief history of time describes the four elemental forces, and Black Holes and Baby Universes describes the way in which singularities accumulate more information than they lose to entropy, and may therefore be negentropic, forming bubble universes.

Knotted Doughnuts. Gardner.

A book about tori and 4-manifolds that approaches them from the angle of topology.

A better book for the lay-person.

Tapping the Zero-Point Energy. Moray B. King.

An Adventures Unlimited Press book, so a fringe publication. This describes different electronic devices that can create null fields. Some use scalar wave dispersion fields to create an interference pattern where zero point energy is achieved. Others use counter-rotating electromagnetic fields around differentially coiled wires.

The Hunt for Zero-Point. Nick Cook.

An excellent narrative true-life report about researchers into ZPE. Secrets of Anti-Gravity Propulsion. Paul A. LaViolette.

Research into the skunk-works dual task designs for the stealth B-2 Bomber.

A History of Pi. Beckman.

Just what it says, this book traces the number from its earliest applications in Egypt and China through the Age of Reason to modern supercomputers.

The Golden Ratio. Mario Livio.

The same as the history of Pi, only for Phi. A more recent book, as certain west coast controversies have rekindled new age interest in this transcendental shape.

E: the story of a Number. Maor.

Tracing the concept of transfinite counting sets in its history and potential.

Godel, Escher, Bach. and Fluid Concepts and Creative Analogies. and Metamagical Themas. Douglas R. Hofstadter.

Very large books which tend to hop from subject to subject in a way that might at first appear random but which is meticulously preplanned.

The Reflexive Universe. Arthur M. Young.

Most cited author by the Philosophical Research Foundation, established by Manly P. Hall, 33rd degree Scotch Rite Masonry, Arthur Young introduces his concept of an arch in the structural complexity of organisms that peaks in molecules between quarks and spirit.

Dreams of a Final Theory. Weinberg.

A history of scientific reductionism over the past one hundred years.

Masters of Time. Boslough.

Working on a cyclotron.

Handbook of Current Science and Technology. Gale.

A little dated, but a thick and thorough reference work.

A Little Book of Coincidence. John Martineau.

With beautiful diagrams, plots the retrograde sysles of the planets and explains their eliptical orbits. magazine articles 100 Top Science Stories of 2001. Discover. Special Issue. physics Simple Rules for a Complex Quantum World. Michael A. Nielsen. and Quantum Teleportation. Anton Zellinger.

and Frozen Light. Lene Vestergaard Hau. The Edge of Physics. Scientific American. Special Edition.

100 Years of Quantum Mechanics. Max Tegmark and John Archibald Wheeler.

Scientific American. Feb. 2001.

That Mysterious Flow. and How to Build a Time Machine. Paul Davies.

Scientific American. A Matter of Time. Special Issue.

Was Einstein Wrong? Tim Folger.

Discover. April 2003. astronomy The First Stars in the Universe. Richard P. Larson and Volker Bromm. and The Life Cycle of Galaxies. Guinevere Kauffmann and Frankvan der Bosch. and Cosmological Antigravity. Laurence M. Krauss. and The Quintessential Universe. Jeremiah P. Ostriker and Paul J. Steinhardt. and The Fate of Life in the Universe. and Is Space Finite? Jean-Pierre Luminet, Glenn D. Starkman and Jeffery R. Weeks. and The Universe’s Unseens Dimensions. Nima Arkani-Hamed, et al. and Echoes From the Big Bang. Robert R. Caldwell and Marc Kamionkowski. and Exploring Our Universe and Others. Martin Rees. and Ripples in Spacetime. W. Wayt Gibbs.

The Once and Future Cosmos. Scientific American. Special Edition.

Inflation in a Low Density Universe. Martin A. Bucher and David N. Spergel.

Acientific American. January 1999.

Making Sense of Modern Cosmology. P. James. E. Peebles.

Scientific American. January 2001.

Mapping the Universe. Stephen D. Landy.

Scientific American. June 1999.

Making Metallic Hydrogen. William J. Nellis.

Scientific American. May 2000.

The Gas Between the Stars. Ronald J. Reynolds.

Scientific American. January 2002.

The Brightest Explosions in the Universe.

Neil Geherls, Luigi Piro and Peter J. T. Leonard.

Scientific American. December 2002.

Gamma Ray Bursts herald Black Hole birth.

Magnetars. Chryssa Kouveliotou, Robert C. Duncan and Christopher Thompson.

Scientific American. Feb. 2003.

The Race to Find Out How the Universe Will End. Corey S. Powell.

Discover. Sep. 2002.

Black Holes Spin? Robert Kunzig.

Discover. July 2002.

Searching for the Golden Ratio. Mario Livio.

Astronomy. April 2003.

Will Dark Energy Steal all the Stars? Steve Nadis.

Astronomy. March 2003.

The Universe Takes Shape. Ken Grimes and Alison Boyle.

Astronomy. Oct. 2002.

Give Peas a Chance. Tom Yulsman.

Astronomy. Sept. 1999.

Hunting Planets Beyond. Geoff Marcy and Paul Butler.

Astronomy. March 2000.

A Century of Astronomy. William Sheehan.

Astronomy’s Explore the Universe. 6th edition. 2000.

A Trip to the Galactic Center. Angelle Tanner.

Sky and Telescope. April 2003.

The Race to Map the Microwave Background. Joshua Roth. and The Lives of Stars. Carolyn Collins Petersen.

Sky and Telescope. Sept. 1999.

Dark Energy. Stephen Battersby.

New Scientist. April 2003. biology How the Brain Creates the Mind. Antonio R. Damsio. and The Problem of Consciousness. Francis Crick and Christof Koch. and Vision: A Window on Consciousness. Nikos K. Logothetis. and New Nerve Cells for the Adult Brain. Gerd Kempermann and Fred H. Gage. and The Puzzle of Conscious Experience. David J. Calmers.

The Hidden Mind. Scientific American. Special Edition.

The Power of Memes. Susan Blackmore.

Scientific American. Oct. 2000.

The Machinery of Thought. Tim Beardsley.

Scientific American. Aug. 1997. archaeology Nabada: the Buried City. Joachim Bretschneider.

Scientific American. Oct. 2000.

La Marmotta. Robert Kunzig.

Discover. Nov. 2002.

Psychology

The criteria for books I have included here, as the first serveral will no doubt strike the average reader as belonging more to the psychology section, is the rigorous application of scientific method, which depends on a lab setting unavailable to most psychologists, or to a sample test group kept under complete constrol and absolute observation, a feat beyond most philosophers.

Dream Symbolism. Manly P. Hall.

Included in science rather than speculation becuase of Hall’s application of the hueristics to trace the history of dream prophecies.

Info-Psychology. and Self-Determination. and the Psychedelic Experience. Timothy Leary.

Despite his reputation as being far out I find much of Leary’s writing to be very conventional from a scientific standpoint. He analyzes every event and experience using arduous and rigorous methodology, and formulates systems based on his data.

Info-psychology introduces the eight circuits of consciousness model I make reference to in this work. Self-Determination is a must read for anybody who is opposed to behaviorist determinism. The Psychedelic Experience is where I first read about ylem and the primary clear light, although these are real Buddhist concepts.

Altered States. James Hughes.

A picture gallery history of drug scenes from the beginning of the counter-culture to the present.

Human Survival and Consciousness Evolution. and The Cosmic Game. and The Holotropic Mind. Stanislav Grof.

Stan Grof, founder of the breathwork movement, in which I am certified to teach, was a disciple of Tim Leary during his Haight Ashbury days in the late sixties.

Coincidance. Robert Anton Wilson.

A more serious and in-depth look at synchronicity.

Your Psychic Powers and How to Develop Them. Carrington.

A serious look at ESP as being an innate instinct which, with practise, can be honed into a fully functioniing sensory skill.

Psychic Phenomena. Bradley and Bradley.

A somewhat less scientific approach to the same subject matter.

The Truth About Psychic Self-Defense. Keith Randolph.

Although it gets a little side-tracked talking about strange voodoo vampires, this pocket-sized book does demonstrate how to visualize armor and other defenses to protect oneself from other peoples’ ill intentions.

Drugs and the Mind. Robert S. De Ropp.

This book came out in the early to mid seventies, when drug experimentation was

highly prevalent. It contains sections on all the drugs that were popular before crack cocain was introduced, and the history sections on marijuana and psychedelics are particularly enlightening.

The Doors of Perception and Heaven and Hell. Aldous Huxley.

“When the Doors of Percept are cleansed, the world will appear as it truly is: infinite.” — William Blake. Early experimentation with psychadelic substances, probably hallucinogens, led Huxley to make the first inquests into the fine line between psychology and religion in the 1940’s.

Civilization and it’s Discontents. and Psychoanalytic Psychology. Sigmund Freud.

In this work, which I think is a posthumously re-edited compilation of several disperate essays, Freud introduces his theory of the nervous system. It is from this I have borrowed the term “cathexis,” meaning the amount of residual electrochemical substance that passes through a nerve which remains contained therein, and “hypercathexis,” which means the sudden release of this surplus electrochemical substance. Freud thought that cathexis was equivalent physiologically to the psyche, and that the ego, or choice making faculty, only came into play when hypercathexis occured. Interestingly, Freud called the electrochemical substance in his model of the nervous system “phi.”

The Silva Mind Control Method. José Silva.

In this book, Silva, supposed by some conspiracy theory authors to have been connected to the CIA, proposes that the best angle for rolling back the eyes while meditating is about fourteen degrees. He describes different optical effects which occur. Experimentation with this method will produce comparable results at varying angles.

Psychoanalysis and Religion. Erich Fromm. the Edinburgh and Doré Lectures on Mental Science. Thomas Troward.

Interesting lectures from two scholars, the first from the early twentieth century, the second from the mid to late, on the nature of mind as it relates to creation and to spiritual matters.

About Behaviorism. Burrhus Frederic Skinner.

“A scientific analysis of behavior must, I believe, assume that a person’s behavior is controlled by genetic and environmental histories rather than by the person himself as an initiating, creative agent; but no part of the behavioristic position has raised more objections. We cannot prove, of course, that human behavior as a whole is fully determined, but the proposition becomes more plausible as facts accumulate, and I believe that a point is reached at which its implications must be seriously considered.”

— B. F. Skinner, chapter 12 “the question of control” Man and His Symbols. and Synchronicity. Carl Gustave Jung.

Jung proposes an acausal connecting principle that underlies otherwise seemingly unrelated events. His definitions leave something to be desired, as his concept of a synchronicity is broad enough as to include events that occur at disperate points in time, and are only familiar to one another in trivial ways. For the purpose of this text

I have endeavored to make a synchronicity a more direct link between two simultaneous, or nearly simultaneous, events, rather than allowing, as does Jung, the definition to border imaginatively on the, in my opinion unrelated, phenomenon known as dejá vu.

The Hero Within. and Awakenning the Heroes Within. Pearson.

Essentially just personality tests that use mythological archetypes instead of psychological disorders. I was a “wanderer” when I took the test many years ago. Not alot of method to it, but very romantic, and definately uplifting and inspirational.

The Hero With a Thousand Faces. and Myths to Live By. Joseph Campbell.

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History

I have a sufficient number of books in this genre that I thought I should make a separate category for them, even though most of them classify as what I would call text books.

World History. Heath.

The Lost Civilizations of the Stone Age. Rudgley.

The inventions and explorations of neanderthal and clovis man.

The Global Past. Fields, Barber and Riggs.

One of the first text books to reflect the new, corrected dating for the pharaohs based on comparison to the Sumerian records instead of to the Hebrew Bible.

Annual Editions: World History, prehistory - 1500. Fifth edition.

A brief pamphelt of updates from archaeological finds.

Great People of the Bible and How They Lived. and Atlas of the Bible. Reader’s Digest.

Tourist guide-like text books.

Guide to the Bible. Isaac Asimov.

Quotes, cross references, contextual explantions and contemporary comparisons.

James the Brother of Jesus. Robert Eisenman.

This book was put out right before they released the story to the media that they had found a tomb bearing this inscription.

Handbook to the Old Testament. and Handbook to the New Testament. Westermann.

Cross references to text and location with maps.

The Ancient Near East. Prichard.

A cultural atlas from before the release of the Sumerian records to the public.

Old Testament Theology. Von Rad. A clerical text book.

The World’s Great Religions. Life.

An oversized picture book.

Mythology. Paul Hamlyn.

An invaluable resource of world mythology, particularly comparative flood mythology.

Cultural Atlas of Mesopatamia. Roaf.

Including the King’s List and a description of Sargon. A new edition it isn’t on most stands yet.

The Times Atlas of World History. Hammond.

The source for the location of the garden of Eden.

Text Books

This is the only section of books you can be reasonably sure that I’ve read all or most of, even if it was only because these ephemeral ideas called “grades” dependended on it. You see, we pay good money to participate in our own institutionalization, in the form of education and in the name of self-betterment, whether the institution succeeds in educating us or not. The point is simple: an “F” costs the same amount of actual cash as an “A.” I guess the moral of this fact is that you don’t have to believe I’ve read any of these books. The truth is even worse: I did read them, cover to cover, got excellent grades on the tests about the material they contain, and then, after the pressure to remember them for testing purposes, I have forgotten everything I

learned in every subject. Go figure.

Psychology. Wade and Travis.

Psychology and Adjustment. Cohen.

Sociology. Applebaum and Chambliss.

History of the Theatre. Brockett.

American Government. Wilson.

Invitation to social psychology. Philip Chalk.

A Short History of Western Civilization. Harrison, Sullivan and Sherman.

United States Diplomatic History in two volumes. Clarfield.

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