no need to choke me i'm already breathless

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NO NEED TO CHOKE ME I’M ALREADY BREATHLESS

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I wonder what she thinks like with no clothes on? “the work” spent time a long time along, time hey there sunshine how do we get married? “effortless,” she says our lives in order or just the words describing it? follow your dreams small, manageable dreams is it valuable just because I think it is? or valuable because I commit it to paper? choice, stress “I wish I had what you have.” the way you personally, worry things happen quickly falling in love with life achieved with admirable ease

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statement of intent quality assurance missions thunderous applause irony, empathy, affection often anxiety visual prompts photographic reality genetically useful neurotypically handsome American noses changed tense, preserved tense veneer of emotion never been missed rarely achieved lewd smirk is this a foreplay question? a question of tone paralyzed with pleasure empowered sexiness openness, intimacy surely, relentlessly smoking less, how does that happen? southern hemisphere chardonnay looking like a nap

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the cocktail bar newspaper dulling club soda stain removal methods methodically touching nothing of consequence it doesn’t need to be remarkable or amusing what, exactly, is going on here? the better version dream vacation a little place, away perceived wrongs inefficient, undesirable on the brink of all sins bug bites we need a new apartment first, foremost looking at the world taking pity slight, sweet committed to the vision tragedy, sin a complex hoax bad imitation truly dreadful

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the world series re-imagined maybe a technicality duplicate recording the present tense presently, tense another round of drinks personality quizzes killing time cnn.com nobody is interested arrival, departure no guarantee reading about yawning makes me yawn we should go back to work expecting someone? yes, but later alt-ctrl-del or is it ctrl-alt-del?

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explaining the concept means of explanation instantly analyzed “green initiatives” or a smoothie flax seeds? something natural seeming much quieter a disaster the buffer zone chilled it’ll cost you not the price, but the cost google search result impressive abilities entropy, laziness boredom, luxury triumph, human spirit unprecedented, history I’m sorry, who? suddenly everyone leaves coincidences that might have happened but never did

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always pay attention serious aesthetic consideration nothing bad happens in a miracle I don’t believe we’ve met meanwhile skincare routine, immaculate the world changes, us genuine biological reasons probably everyone else presumably everyone else french grammar dior glasses how does this happen? again, it happens another, so slow if I may interject the only reason time exists I will not tease licked lips, fingertips continually automatic the story already exists ready?

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I’m at the bar with two bundles of tulips at my feet happy place, my a to b to c a list paintings, on the other hand ideal for life pretend you’re dead cause and effect death the succession of reveals sequencing abilities I’m not sure why I called, I should have sent a text technically I have three b**ks coming out in march technically unemployed no need to erase the past despite the seeming apocalypse such as right now aim low, brother you’re missing nothing

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no more middle class but what’s in Winnipeg? this, my sister working best when not depressed the outside world soothing, successful genetic dumpster exposure sober up before heading home fortified adrenalin caloric assessment normalcy training I want to go home but I don’t want to distract you a man orders a drink for a disinterested woman oysters would you like a shot? no, but I’ll have one anyways. gesturally bored, boring gestures, boredom a spectacle cut ties, losses

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take a left on eastern blvd. what kind of person I am or can be “what are you working on?” currently eating a clementine talking myself out of being frightened blood on the barricades backing up quickly Dylan Thomas me? I didn’t learn much ok, very well your new life like 9/11 I’m on a roll making connections working well it’s important to make good work always ask me but yes, I love you

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no means of thawing out tired, perhaps drunk has the narrative changed?

I can’t get through “who we are now we’ll always be” leisure, theft enemy of promise pornhub title rhetoric firm, unforgiving I slouch too much I’m already short yet here I am slumped in a chair slowly getting tired it’s not even 9pm but let’s go to sleep hands sticky nerds drinking bourbon ugh yes I am making fun of you where does this specific narrative end? it’s already finished, silly!

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the indicator of success just love love, success I never thought of it that way not handsome, maybe smart smart? the capacity to be alone tractatus: a) “practical” b) “dragged” good research makes good work booking flights rice in my teeth ok, bye no, let’s have a cigarette first time frozen photocopies mathematical certainty all possible true life poison the well almost charming the rest of us

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reflective thinking trophy taking hard to imagine chemical cues I think I can do this ambivalent most people variations of confusion what a burning book most resembles collectively cut tension slight tactical advantage change your life when your life is good passion, crime, betrayal, loyalty a cautionary tale contamination double-dipped chip witness relocation program get rich quick scheme crippling fear Kinsey scale y2k virus controlled obsolescence you must be new here

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darling, honey muffin, sugar baby now I am sleepy officially distracted for a little while a series of statements opinion doesn’t matter my conclusion everything I can think of inevitable conversation faintly like lavender completive reflection zero commitment thirty seconds slightly apart soft focus equals love? love rapid memory loss February 18, 2014 I don’t even know what city I was in

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abandoned history, situations, landscapes not afraid, are frightened in trouble in the past you’re all of you praying your prayers a decision away from eternity everything, timing situational landscape from a certain angle richly satisfying ozone permanent accountability no eureka moment I’m staring at you, reading red pen, writing long pink nails flip pages I hope you’re happy or at least not unhappy mindful of worn leather couch

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Tommy Hilfiger ankle socks black skirt, panties (?) nose not broken but was Super Mario Brothers soundtrack or it sounds like it, anyways a prophet, alone posture, perfect evidence the way our parents punish us explain that to me life, endlessly human, vegetable, mineral practical knowledge the cat just kissed me, did you see? oh, she’s gone now nevermind is the housecat aware of continents? getting cosmic suddenly, I (not fit for print)

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am unaware of my face, reading taking photos of text for myself or someone else touching feet, singing in key “with your arms outstretched to me” day lilies greater glory, greater suffering erasing self impulses ok, I’ll leave no, don’t leave people leave all the time just like that really trapdooring, actually where am I going with this?

I’m sorry sweetie I stopped paying attention don’t take it personally a certain yellow of anxiety and jealousy maybe was it the drinking that made me sleepy, or was I just sleepy?

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softer sleep spiteful gestures smoking in bed sensitive to energy the seams in my jeans becoming obvious falling asleep fully clothed spiteful gestures should I continue? going back in time in a way that wasn’t good time, always how old am I now? easier to kill, hmm replaceable, identical, forgotten feeling unique, being unique protesting the unexpected all my life, not surprised the incident, without transition overdue I didn’t find any errors in my words and yet, the apocalypse? did we speak of that yet? déjà vu? worst concept, infinity

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whatever generic weekday is that what I mean sugar? my stuffy nose means I’ve been snoring I should work harder in case I get sick or rather “really sick” awareness, never ending you can do better for someone else vanish, avoidable future I didn’t check my horoscope this morning a pattern to be broken not recognizing poetry “ecstatic schoolgirl anti-style” something is always the matter and fate is for losers shattered glass ceiling

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one of those lives where you can’t remember your life before

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and now that you have everything you’ve ever wanted, what’s left to do? “you may not like the weather, but it has nothing to do with you.”

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DIMITRI KARAKOSTAS ABANDONMENT ISSUE NO. ONE SURVEILLANCE BOOKS

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