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72. Walk in the park 78. An Evening with Zhong 84. What To Do When Overwhelmed By Reality?
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I'LL BE OK. Photographer William Bündchen @williambundchen Model Feaven Abera @lafae_ Agency Angie's AMTI Toronto @angiesmodelstoronto
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WHAT TO DO WHEN OVERWHELMED BY REALITY? Jessica J. Lockhart - humanology - www.jessicajlockhart.com
At times, life feels like an overwhelming letting themselves get lost in their Feeling inadequate or insecure: many affair. There's too much to do, too thoughts while disconnecting from reality. people suffer from low self-esteem or inmuch to think, too much to worry What soon becomes a habit is almost in- securities which are the result of weak beabout. What can we do to fight that variably paired with negative projections liefs and convictions. When a person feeling? of that future, as we learn to worry about holds strong beliefs, there is no insecurity. what may be or what may happen. Very It comes from uncertainty and doubt. Sometimes life seems to be too much to few people ruminate about positive, hap- Those who feel like they're not good bear. Some people feel overwhelmed by py things; most do about negative, worri- enough or insufficient, tend to find it hard the constant rush and the many things to some or painful ones. Constant thinking to cope with their circumstances and the do. Others just can't stand the incessant about negative aspects quickly becomes a reality around them, not because it is posmurmur of their never-ending thoughts. way of life and those who embark on it ing them too many challenges but because Some, still, can't cope with their feelings find it difficult to change the pattern. Any they think they are not capable or strong of inadequacy or insecurity. They all try form of rumination, be it focused on the enough. Everything becomes complicated different solutions, among which maybe past or the future, yields certain chemicals and one problem piles on top of the next meditation or mindfulness could be tested, and sensations that our brain soon beuntil people feel completely overbut that is often just not enough to coun- comes addicted to. Not having them can whelmed. teract the feeling. cause withdrawal-like symptoms and result in a permanent need to recreate them. So, what can be done? Let us go over some of the causes of such Thus, the rumination continues, grows feelings, first, to then study some possible and becomes never-ending. First of all, take a deep breath. Nothing tools and solutions. will change if you can't stop for a second Living in the past: when human beings and focus on the task at hand. The more Too many things to do: most of us have ruminate, they usually do so focused on unfocused you are, the harder it will get. grown up in societies in which competi- two different scenarios, and only those This applies to all the possible causes tion and success are paramount and the two: the past or the future. When in the mentioned above: the more you worry, the true measure of our value. As a consepast, they are trying to make sense of more anxious you get and the less energy quence, we feel obliged to constantly aim something that happened that still makes you then have to really face up to your at greater, higher goals. Being good is them feel guilty, sad or hurt. Not being problems. By the time you need to overnever enough, as excellence and suprema- able to change whatever happened then come them, you are exhausted. cy are the only acceptable levels. This often overwhelms them and makes them type of belief, inherited from our environ- feel powerless. Second, focus on the HERE and the ment, pushes us to constantly seek more, NOW. The more time you spend either in do more, expect more of ourselves. Living in the future: when in the future, the past or in the future... There's a whole world to impress in front people are trying to ready themselves to the less time you have to focus on the of us and that demands that we devote face something that scares them, constant- problem at hand; most of our time to doing things that will ly asking themselves, 'what if...?' The the less energy you have when you finalget us closer to our goal and that any free more time they spend in those scenarios, ly decide to tackle the situation in front of time we happen to find, we also use pur- the more often they need to return. People you; suing our constant improvement. who spend so long in the future in their the less aware you are of the real circumminds become overwhelmed by the wide stances around you and the less resources Too many thoughts: rumination starts in range of possible difficulties and hurdles you are then able to perceive and find; most human beings as a form of daythey may encounter and by the growing and dreaming. Already in childhood, some belief in their failure to succeed. the less you learn for future, similar situpeople devote quite a lot of their time to ations.
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BLOUDER In order to be in the here and the now, you need to make the conscious effort to do so. You need to fight the habit that drives you away into the past or the future. A good tool to use is any form of mindfulness: focusing on one object around you and assessing it using your 5 senses: smell, touch, taste, hearing and sight; focusing on feeling your ten toes without actually moving them; engaging on any type of activity by totally submerging yourself in it through your 5 senses.
Another important tool to be used is drastically stopping whatever you are doing and doing just the opposite or something completely different. For instance, if you're sitting and you suddenly realize you're ruminating or getting carried away into your mind, stand up and start moving. Or, if you're walking, just sit down anywhere or start dancing. Changing our actions forces us to be in the here and the now.
Third, use the Kaizen technique. We often feel overwhelmed, as was already discussed above, when there's too much on our plate. We have important goals to reach and those feel unreachable. Kaizen implies reducing our goals to more manageable steps and taking those steps, one by one. So, if you for instance, need to exercise because the doctor told you to, running or cycling for one hour everyday might sound like an impossible task. Applying this Japanese technique, you would start by only doing it for 5 minutes the first day and celebrating achieving that little milestone. The second day you would do it for just 10 minutes, then celebrate it, and so on until reaching the desired 60 minutes. Celebrating the small steps is a fundamental part of the process because it helps us change our beliefs and boosts our selfesteem.
Fourth, identify and question the beliefs that make you doubt yourself. In order to do this, I usually recommend using a "self-talk diary," a notebook (or recording system) in which to note down any negative or critical self-talk we catch ourselves using. All those messages to ourselves hide our deepest beliefs. An example would be you telling yourself... 'I will never get the promotion because nobody likes me,' which is another way of telling yourself that you're not likeable or worthy. Identify all the labels you give yourself in order to understand why your selfesteem is so low. Those are the messages you keep on telling yourself. Are you surprised you feel insecure? Do this for at least a couple of weeks.
Once you identify your beliefs (through those labels and messages), ask yourself wether they empower you or limit you and if you wish to keep them. If you decide to let them go, you will need to find a replacement, as no belief can be simply erased. In order to find a replacement, look for a message that cancels the previous one and start repeating it to yourself. There is one important rule here: the new message can not be the opposite of the previous one, because your brain will just not believe it. It needs to be one that partially cancels it, opening a new avenue for you. Using the same example as before, you might have been telling yourself that you're not likeable. Your new message could be something like, "some people like me," or "I sometimes like myself," or even, "there's a lot in me to be liked." Once you repeat it often enough, you might start feeling it come true. At that moment, celebrate the feeling. The more you do this, the easier it will be for you to start accepting the new belief and replacing the old one. Warning: question and change only one belief at a time and don't start on a second one until having worked on the first one
for at least two weeks. Questioning too many beliefs simultaneously can lead to crises. Fifth, use tool number 4 to also question yourself about your beliefs regarding competition and success. What do you believe about them? What are your expectations? What messages do you give yourself? Do they empower or limit you? Do you want to keep them? Feeling overwhelmed is extremely prevalent and limiting. Use this information to start understanding and managing the reasons behind your feelings and things will quickly start changing for you. You have the power to change the way in which you interpret your circumstances and your reality. Start letting go of those limitations and take better control of your life. The process described above is a summary of many of the techniques and strategies used in humanology and should best be implemented with the help of expert humanologists, the professionals that study and explain human beings.
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