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2. MASTHEAD 5. EDITORS LETTER 6. NEW WORLD ORDER Generation unapologetic AF.
7. STYLE SNOOPS
A look into Blac Chyna’s favs.
8. TAKING HER TIME
20 -year- old Comedian and Actress Sydney Park isn’t in a rush.
12. POWER UP
From Nickelodeon to Netflix, Camille Hyde is a girl on a mission.
14. ALL EYES ON...
Normani Kordei… & yet she still remains humble.
18. PASSION. CONFIDENCE. DRIVE. Alyssa’s Story.
21. NOTE 2 SELF
Khala Jones pens a letter to herself that inspired us all.
22. BO$$ MOVES
Media Maven Sharon Carpenter does it all.
24. SELF MADE
Blac Chyna is all about her business.
32. LADIES FIRST
Three of NYC’s rising DJ’s share their stories in an “All Boys” club.
36. WHO’S THAT GIRL
Maliibu Miitch is the future of rap.
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Rulers of Self “But what’s your overall goal?” If I had a dollar for every time I heard this question last year, I would be so much closer to getting Sallie Mae off my back once and for all! Truthfully speaking, my reply to this question has changed so many times that I’ve lost count! Not because I don’t know what my exact overall goal is but more so because I never believed that dreams were supposed to have a final destination. The only thing I’ve ever been certain about is going….as far as I can, communicating with people from all walks of life as often as I can, and being a witness to this ever-evolving cycle that we call life. The icing on the cake; documenting and sharing the stories of people I’ve met on this journey with whoever has an ear to listen. Conservative thinkers deem me as being unstable, liberals; another confused millennial, my peers; a creative. But as this journey in my twenty-something years of life..I’ve realized the only viewpoint of myself that matters is my own. A little corny? Maybe. But it’s my truth. Which bring us to Issue 20-Rulers of Self. In a society that’s constantly telling us to be more “ladylike” , there’s something beautiful, unique and intriguing about the girls who do whatever the hell they want. As you flip through the pages in this issue, you will find stories from young women who have opted out of the whole conforming shindig and instead chose a path that seemed fit for their purpose and that purpose solely being defined by only themselves.
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...Simply A Generation Geared By Individuality and Non-Regret. w e N d l r o W r e d r O Now that societal rules of thumb are being executed and run by the new age “Millennial Mob,” the world as we know it is shaping up to be a very unconventional yet colorful place to call home. The world has been hit with a fearless tidal wave of nonconformity. Our realm of normalcy has vastly shifted further left passed the imaginable than ever realized. We now exist in a new realm. It’s a space where pure, God-given good looks could be deemed boring, or even uninteresting. Meanwhile, plastic is rated with a plus and reigns supreme. That’s not to suggest that the age of the millennial is that of a superficial one. It’s simply a generation geared by individuality and non-regret. A breed of creative thinkers that loath judgement and embrace freedom above anything else. They blaze their own trails and make their own rules. Hence, birthing the new standards of beauty. Whether organically rooted or synthetically manufactured, beauty in this day and age, has taken on a whole new shape... LITERALLY! This is a subject matter that no longer calls for definition through inventory such as age, gender, color, 6 ISSUE 20 2018
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size or physique. As of late, the guidelines once set in place to help define the standards of beauty has since been expounded upon, now leading us all into an untapped and versatile genre that so many have been patiently awaiting. Still not convinced? Well, let’s take a closer look at beauty icons from our past and compare them to those of today. The 1970’s “Most Desired Woman of the Decade,” Raquel Welch, was known for her slim and super trim beach body, full brunette locks and petite frame. Holding a special place on every young man’s wall. The Chicago, Illinois native was truly a force to be reckoned with in her prime. The beauty standout for the 80’s era would have to go to none other than the beautiful Cindy Crawford. Gracing countless magazine covers, television stations and billboard signs, Cindy was the epitome of allure and, by God, was determined to make her mark. As for the genesis of the 90’s, the world was gifted with the unparalleled presence of Ms. Tyra Banks. It was here, during this mark in history, where
beauty’s definition started to broaden. Tyra was the first woman of color selected to grace the covers of the renowned publications known as GQ and Sports Illustrated (The Swimsuit Edition). Also deemed top supermodel of the 90’s, Banks was where the top prong on the beauty bar rested for all women. And no one questioned that! During the era of the 2000’s, there was only one woman who reigned supreme. You guessed it; her name is Beyoncé Knowles! Also known as Queen Bey, this astonishing young lady took the world by storm (and is still doing it, might we add). Beyoncé’s curvaceous body broke the mold in terms of the woman’s perfect form and even influenced those who emerged after her to pursue any means necessary to get it. The NEW standard of beauty is no longer determined by way of critical checklist. It no longer needs to fit within specific categories or frame unrealistic banks of physical attributes. Whether dark or light, slim or shapely, born female or transitioning, all of the above to the new version of our world is, and will never be, anything less than beautiful.
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BEST DRESSED MEN IN HOLLYWOOD? I would have to say Migos ! They have such a unique look. Super trendy and Fun. I look forward to seeing their looks they come up with at every event. HOW MANY TATTOOS DO YOU HAVE? WHAT ARE YOUR TOP 3 FAVORITE TATTOOS ON YOUR BODY? It's too many to count-I consider them pieces. I love them all but my favorite is King’s Name on my hand. I'm going to get something really cute for Dreamy soon, I haven't decided where or what. BEING PESCETARIAN WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DISH TO MAKE AT HOME? Salmon or Shrimp on the barbecue
TOP 3 GO TO BEAUTY PRODUCTS? Lashed lipsticks Lamer Moisturizer Body blendz Body Oil SECRET GEMS TO MAINTAIN FLAWLESS SKIN? NEVER, and I can’t emphasize this enough , NEVER sleep with your makeup on. And take days to let your skin breathe. FAVORITE FASHION DESIGNER? Dare to be vintage by Shane Justin. YOUR FAVORITE RED CARPET LOOK? Something Simple & flawless. Like the look I wore to my Chy Moji event.
WILDEST THING A FAN HAS EVER DONE? Try to kiss me as I'm walking into a club appearance. lol there was a meme going around , & my facial expression was so funny. I'm like "no shade but don’t touch my face , I have makeup on ! " lol ONE THING YOU CAN'T LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT My Cell Phone(s). GUILTY PLEASURES? Eating ! I love good food! SNAPCHAT OR INSTAGRAM? SnapChat for sure! I love to play with the cute filters with the kids and the weird ones. Lol!
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Sarah Silverman dubbed six-year-old ‘Syd the Kid’ an “evil genius” back when Park was the youngest comedienne to grace the Hollywood Improv with her stand-up act. “My mom was working there as a server, it was the first job she got in LA when we moved here. I would do pre-shows in the dining room. I looked like a little Filipino boy, I was spunky and I had a little short pixie cut.” This raw comedic genius proved herself on screen in the 2010 Tribeca Film Festival favorite, “Spork”—on which Sydney simply comments, “If I could play an adult version of Tootsie Roll, I totally would.” At twenty, young adult Ms. Park has booked box-office thrillers, a Dwayne Johnson YouTube Red series called “Lifeline”, and is enchanting families as ‘Pru’ in the Net8 ISSUE 20 2018
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12 flix/DreamWorks animated collaboration “Spirit Riding Free.” “As an actress, it’s magical when people come up to you, especially these little girls who look up to me—I’m so thankful for that. Because I’m like...I know that I am their melanin queen right now!” *laughs sincerely* “I gotta serve, I gotta come through! You know? You almost have an obligation to do your best. That’s when I feel most in my black girl magic for real.” The captivating beauty was raised by her African-American mama Kelly Park and Korean-American “Papa John” in the Bay Area and the trio are beyond bonded. Inscribed via her chic hip tattoo is the John Mayer lyric, “Keep me where the light is” and doubles as one of her parents’ teachings.
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hips, your stretch marks, just everything, as beautiful!” “I am learning as a young woman to really take my time. Being patient with myself, taking time with relationships, with friendships, with different projects I get attached to.”
“One thing I will say about being a black girl in the industry...I’m so tired of people appropriating our culture. And for these young women to be getting fake lips and fake butts—it can be hard to be true to yourself. I know how hard it is to look at Instagram and to see the Jenners. So, acknowledge your skin, acknowledge your hair, your
“I have always been comfortable with my solitude and just being independent. Taking time for yourself as a young woman, especially in this day and age where everything is so quick, it’s so important for us to acknowledge the time that we have and to be mindful of it in the best way that you know how.
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After her first theater experience at the age of four, Washington D.C native, Camille Hyde knew exactly what she wanted to do—become an actress. Since then it is safe to say that Camille has lived out every girl’s dream. Not only by having acting, dancing, musical, and horseback riding talents and abilities, but also by carrying on the legacy of the Pink Power Ranger. Let’s not forget to mention that she is the first African American to ever don the pink suit. Now at 24 years old Camille has taken on the role of Gabi Granger in the new Netflix Original Series, American Vandal, created by Dan Perrault and Tony Yacenda. This eight-episode series is a comically satirical spin on the true-crime story of student, and resident class clown, Dylan Maxwell (Jimmy Tatro), who may or may not have vandalized twenty-seven faculty cars with images of male genitalia. Throughout the series Hyde’s character is always there to help her two best friends, driven documentarians that are trying to uncover the truth, while dealing with her own personal drama. During our conversation she opened up to us about her introduction to acting, thoughts on the transition of acting for younger to more mature audiences, dreams for the future, and her mischievous, yet rightheous side!
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When did you start acting? I started acting when I was super-young. I did my first play when I was four. I’ve been doing theater productions, drama camps, and everything that I could get my hands on to stay active in theater and performing arts since I was in kindergarten. It’s always been in my life. I started doing it professionally when I got out to California when I was 17.
I REMEMBER A T IME WHERE I WOULD T HINK, “I HAVE TO DO T HIS RIGHT.” AND T HEN, I T HINK ABOUT A YEAR AGO, RIGHT BEFORE I START ED T HE AUDIT ION PROCESS FOR VANDAL, I WAS LIKE, “YOU KNOW WHAT? SCREW IT. I’ M GOING TO DO WHAT FEELS RIGHT.
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Did you decide to go to Cali on your own, or did your family come with you? I moved to California for college. That was the deal; I would come to college and I would study science. If I wanted to pursue acting then I could. So that’s what I did. On days I didn’t have classes I’d come to ballet, audition, and study acting separately from college. I was balancing everything at once for a while.
Wow! How were you able to stay focused while juggling school and your passion? I always reminded myself every morning of what I wanted and I was constantly inspired by other actors’ and actresses’ work. Every time I would see a show that really got me drawn in, or a movie that inspired me, those things really kept me focused. Every time I would walk out of a movie that would inspire me I would go, “I have to do that!” I’m always extremely emotionally moved by watching TV and film. I’ve always been hyper sensitive just watching stories and I knew that one day I wanted to be one of the best storytellers possible. So, that’s really what kept me on my path of what I really wanted for my life. That’s awesome. Do you think you’d ever want to go into producing, writing, or directing? Well, you never know! There really are no boundaries now-a-days. I think once I get to a certain point with my acting I could be super-selective about what projects I take part in, and I have had a good amount of time on my own to develop my own thing. I definitely want to start my own production company one day and tell stories that I really want to tell. That is an actor’s dream; to choose things that really inspire you and be able to put yourself into a story that you can create. That’s my ultimate goal. I see that you are also quite accomplished, not only in acting, but you’re an equestrian and a dancer. Do these talents help you a lot in your acting career? Honestly, having other hobbies and activities helps me. Obviously if I were to have a role where I would have to ride a horse, or dance, or play piano, but the biggest part that it plays is keeping me grounded. It’s a safe ground for me. Being able to go to the barn and ride horses, get myself out of the hustle and bustle of Hollywood, and just be out there with those majestic animals is so humbling. It’s for your soul, you know? And that is what keeps me sane. It’s a safe place to really express myself and to clear my head because things get super tense in Hollywood. As you can imagine everyone is always on their grind, and going from one meeting to another, going from an audition to a coaching session, getting great news or sucky news. It’s like being in a dishwasher. So having all of those different activities allows me to remove myself from the craziness and find
my inner peace. Speaking of craziness, you got to be a power ranger! What was that like? It was so much fun. We filmed in New Zealand, which was an amazing country. There is no place on earth like it. It was a huge blessing to be able to live there for so long—almost a year. It’s such a cool franchise to be a part of. Power Rangers have been around longer than I’ve been alive, and not a lot of TV shows can say that. It’s just so humbling to be a part of such a huge influence for children. Our generation, the generation before us, and after us, they all have their group of Power Rangers that they remember. Right now the 12 or 13 year olds are either watching my phase, Dino Charge, or the one that came out right after on Nickelodeon. It’s really a franchise that kids grow up with. They learn lessons from the show and it’s like their first superheroes. It’s really cool to be a part of that. I saw the trailer for American Vandal and I loved it. I could not stop laughing! Explain to us what this show is about? (Laughs). It’s an eight-episode series on Netflix, and it is basically a satire that explores what happens after a prank of someone drawing d*cks all over the faculty’s cars. So, you can imagine the controversy that is surrounded upon that. One kid gets framed and my character, along with her two best friends, goes on a quest to see who the vandal was, and tries to get all the facts possible. It’s taken extremely seriously, and there are a lot of plot twists and some drama here and there trying to figure it out. It’s a really fun series and there is nothing really quite like it, so I am excited to see what everyone thinks. It looks so funny! How is this different than anything you have done before? I do a lot of Nickelodeon and Disney kid-centered shows, and I love doing that. It’s super fun, especially because we get to be a part of peoples’ childhoods and their memories. They’re so impressionable at that age and when they are super young coming up to you that is so endearing. I absolutely enjoy that and it is something that I will always treasure, but it is very different from something that is for an adult audience. It [American Vandal] was for a more young-adult, mature audience and that gave us a lot of freedom. There was really no filter on set, so everything was su-
per-raw, super-real, and super-true to how we thought the character would act. There was no holding back. There was so much freedom. It was always exciting. You talk about freedom in your acting. At what point in your career did you feel comfortable, and just really go for it on set? I remember a time where I would think, “I have to do this right.” And then, I think about a year ago, right before I started the audition process for Vandal, I was like, “You know what? Screw it. I’m going to do what feels right.” If I do what feels wrong, it doesn’t matter what they want, because no one is going to believe it. If you don’t believe it yourself, no one is going to believe you. Screw the nerves. Screw what people want you to be. When you get a character, you know that character better than anyone else does. In that moment you bring that truth to the character and you just do it, you know? Just do the damn thing! When I had that turn in my mentality I started getting a little freer with my acting, and it was super liberating for me as soon as I started working that way. What would be your dream role? There are a few. I would love to be in a signature, generational comedy for teens; a coming-ofage story like Dazed and Confused, Superbad, or Mean Girls. That would be incredible! I can’t even conceive how excited I would be if I was part of an ensemble cast like that. I would love to be part of a trilogy, like one of the book trilogies. It would be amazing to be the lead in a trilogy like Divergent or Hunger Games. I love action. I think action combined with drama is extremely fun to do. Colombiana with Zoe Saldana is literally what I would love to be a part of. Yeah, that’s one of the character-driven action movies I would love to be a part of. If you could vandalize something what would it be? You know, all I can think of right now is something to piss off our current president (laughs). I would never want to deface the White House because it’s beautiful and majestic, and it’s been a home to great presidents as well. I would draw an equality sign on all of the Trump hotels. I think that would actually, if there were no repercussions, be a message to the whole world. It wouldn’t be just vandalism, but it would mean something. BOMBSHELLBYBLEU.COM
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Beginning with the group's X Factor collaboration in 2012, Fifth Harmony has graced the music industry with one of the few truly personable female vocal groups of our day. Engaging the masses & connecting with fans through each progressive step of their journey thus far, the group has shown dynamics in staying true to form & unique to self. With fun filled lyrics reflective of women empowered, we couldn't help but wonder about the individual perspectives of a group that embodies the sentiments of so many. All things considered, Bombshell engaged Fifth Harmony member Normani Kordei to discuss her swift rise to stardom, potential solo career and the group's future success! In an intimate interview, The Fifth Harmony beauty candidly dishes on all there is that keeps her humble, from stage fright to boys to Netflix & not so chill. 14 ISSUE 20 2018
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What is that feeling like when your millions of fans refer to you as a God? I think that the sound of it is bizarre. I only know myself as Normani the human that enjoys roman noodles a bit too often, showers with flip flops and still sleeps with a night light. I don't see myself as this unreachable being. I'm honestly just a girl living her dream. Every morning when I wake up, I work hard to be the best that I can be. Don't be fooled, I'm just like you. What keeps you humble? I grew up having a very stable foundation. I was raised with three strong minded, independent, hard working individuals. There morals mean absolutely everything to them. I have been blessed to be able to learn and mimic them over the years and they have always taught me to keep in mind what's really important. I remember being told to treat others the way I would like to be treated. With the lifestyle I now live there is always something going on. I have a very busy schedule and there are many people that walk in and out of my life within the industry; but I know that at the end of the day I'll always have God, my family and my peace of mind. I'm grateful that I'm able to do what I love while blessing others. I can never get use to having fans, winning awards, being on the radio and being the face for more people than just myself. I'm forever humble. PATRICIA BONALDI dress NORMANI’S OWN & ALEXIS BITTAR earrings
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The biggest influencers in your career? I appreciate Michael Jackson and his love for the art. He paved the way for so many people that are now artist. The connection that his heart made with his music was always clear. His mind worked in a special way and he always fed those around him with knowledge. I adore Adele so much. I listen to her albums and notice that I can’t find a single song that I don’t connect with. There is a definite difference between being a singer and an artist. She is the definition of an artist. She carries herself with such humility and grace. I’m sure these next two are oh so predictable of me. Beyoncé is a replica of whom I’d like to become (the Normani Kordei version of course). She wears so many hats which entails her to be the artist, the businesswoman, the mom, the wife, the humanitarian and much more. I love how involved she is when any move is made. She knows what she wants her performance to look like and how to execute it. I think that she is beyond admirable. There’s only one Beyonce but I hope one day to be everything that she is and more. Chris Brown is one of the most talented human beings I have come across in my lifetime. He gives his all with everything that he does. Not only is he an incredible vocalist but a phenomenal entertainer which most in the industry lack. I’m just being honest. I don’t want to go to a show and just hear a voice come from your body I want A SHOW. That doesn’t necessarily mean dancing but show me some sort of passion and mesmerize me. I think that he’s a visionary. These are just a few. How do you prepare for shows? I call home to talk to my family, crank my speaker, drink throat coat, pray and pound fist with my bodyguard. If I forget to see him before I hit the stage I actually freak out a bit haha. Oh, and whether he’s there or not, I keep the words of our choreog-
grapher Sean Bankhead embedded in my head. His ause not only are outside opinions flooding in hype words are “F*** it up”. Soon as that one foot hit but four really important opinions, wants and the stage I am completely zoned out. It’s SHOWTIME! needs are as well. I would say that we always have to sacrifice but at the end of the day we Do you ever get stage fright? keep the train moving which is all that matters. I get butterflies before I perform but when I hit the If whatever decision is made is in the best interstage it’s something special. I become someone else est of the group, then everything is fine. It’s not and I know that the stage is home. I feel untouchable easy for any of us and we’re not asking it to be; and everything feels right. I’m so into my performance but it’s manageable because the group success that when I get off of stage sometimes I can’t rememis the main goal. When we signed that contract, ber any part of it. I’m myself when I’m on stage. we knew it wasn’t going to be easy but we agreed and made a commitment to each other. You’re talented, ambitious and beautiful.... Are I’m grateful and I have no regrets because everythe boys in the industry blowing you up? thing that I have been able to learn and absorb I have friends. That’s it. I take with me so I’m better prepared the next time around. So let’s say it’s #MCM who are you posting? I honestly don’t post about my #MCM lol. I guess What is a normal day like for you or is that you’ll know whenever I decide to. :) non-existence these days? I think that if I’m given the opportunity to have some sort of normalcy, I take it. Work days are a bit hectic but we have off days where I sit inside all day and watch Netflix (by myself of course! Ain’t no Netflix and chillin with me going on lol). SOON AS THAT ONE FOOT It’s about finding your balance. Everyone is different and adjust to this lifestyle differently. E G A T Will Normani go Solo? HIT THE S Wow! The question I always hear! Before the girls and I were put together we all had the intentions I AM COMPLETELY ZONED OUT. of being solo artist. Our destiny had something different in mind for now at least. Going into this I was fully committed to the girls and I still am. Someday we all aspire to venture out and grow individually with our artistry. It’s impossible for four people to have the exact same ambitions all around. So to give you a more direct answer to your question and inquiring minds, the answer is yes one day but Fifth Harmony has tons of work to do until then.
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Being in the music industry requires a huge sacrifice, especially when you’re in it at such a young age. What have you had to sacrifice for the sake of your career? Do you ever have any regrets? Particularly in this industry it most definitely calls for making sacrifices. I don’t think that the outside audience sees it or understands it the way we do. It’s a big difference in hearing about it and actually going through it. I don’t see my family as often as I’d like to. Sleep has become an occasional treat to us haha. We all love different styles of music but have to meet in the middle for the sake of the group. It’s also super easy to your individuality within a group. Being in this field is definitely tricky at times bec-
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New York City journalist, Nicole Gorritz, had the opportunity to speak with one of the many scholastically driven young women in the country, Alyssa Miree. “I’m usually responsible, but when it comes to car keys I’m not,” she self-deprecatingly said shortly after answering the phone as she dealt with a locksmith in the background. A true professional, she did not let this distract her, and before long was excited to tell her story.
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The 21-year-old student at Loyola Marymount University (LMU) in Los Angeles is now a senior studying the eclectic world of communications. “I’m really passionate about my major,” she declared, “The more I learned, the more I loved it.” In addition to almost graduating, Miree is the Vice President of Lambda Pi Eta, the National Honor Society for four-year communications study programs. Originally from Maryland, she moved with her family to the suburbs of Chicago where she attended high school. It was there that she realized that the Windy City was not for her. “I was like, ‘Forget the cold. I can’t do this anymore.’ And so I went as far west as I could,” she recounted. Her alluring exterior is complemented by her intellect, proving that beauty is truly skin deep. In fact, from the moment that she touched down in LA she has been left to her own devices. Miree has had to navigate through an entirely different culture than she is used to, battle the stresses of living on her own, and the harsh beauty standards that feed into the “Hollywood mentality.” Despite it all, she has remained on top of her game both in and outside of the classroom. Miree admits that although it is never easy, she is more confident, fortified, and ready for the future than ever before.
Alyssa's Story
What were some of the challenges you faced when you moved to LA? There’s a lot. Since I moved around a lot in my life it’s pretty easy to see changes in regions. Moving from the East Coast to the Midwest was such a culture shock for me in high school. Moving from the Midwest to the West Coast is definitely a culture shock as well. One huge thing is that we don’t realize how far the coasts actually are. The mentality and the culture are also just really different. I was 18 when I moved to LA so a big thing for me was for my parents to trust my independence and my ability to make good choices. They raised me well enough. [I like] having that independence and trusting myself. There have been times where I have been tempted to do things that are out of character, and there have been times where I have done things that are not typical of me, but that has shaped me as a person. It’s made me the person I am today. I think keeping my values and morals is the biggest challenge because you want to be like everyone else. You want to show off that you have money because that’s a huge thing here, but then you also want to be humble.
How do you stay focused? You have to just know what’s at stake. Knowing how much money, and time, and effort I’ve spent just to come out here for school is enough for me. At first my motivation to come here was just to get away. It was more of a way for me to show my friends and family, that I could be on my own and independent. That’s always been my internal struggle; showing people that underestimate me that I could be everything they didn’t expect. I think the older I get and the more I learn and realized that it’s not all about showing other
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people, it’s about showing yourself what you can do. You don’t have to prove anything to anyone. So that has been the real lesson here. I don’t think I would have learned this much if I had stayed home. How do you not get caught up in the “Hollywood Mentality”? That’s a great question! As a young woman you have to be aware of the people you surround yourself with. You feed off of them and you become like them in a way. Are you seeing a shift in LA of people staying true to themselves? I think being a 21-year-old and living in a world where media is constantly shoved down your throat and influences you to be a certain way, vanity becomes the example of what we should look like and be like. I think every girl struggles with body image and confidence. I see more vanity in people that are insecure and don’t see themselves as beautiful because they’re trying so hard to be what society thinks is attractive. I just take care of my skin, my hair, and body in a natural way instead of having fake nails and lashes all the time. If I want longer lashes I’ll go online and find natural ways to do it. If I want long nails, I’ll grow my natural ones and make sure they are strong and healthy. I tell my friends it’s a marathon, not a sprint. I’ve been taking care of myself regularly for years. Who is Alyssa Miree underneath it all? I’m a normal 21 year old. I spend a lot of time on social media. I don’t really like to admit that, but I do [laughs]. I spend a lot of my time lying in bed watching Netflix. I listen to a lot of music, and when I have the money to I go shopping as much as possible because that’s one of my passions. It’s fun!
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ENTRY 01
It has been a very interesting journey so far. The lessons I’ve learned within this short period of time have been life changing. I started my brand with a few hundred dollars and a desire to be better. I’ve learned that in order to have the mind of a business woman , I must al ways believe in myself and trust my instincts on any design that I do. There is NO SECRET FORMULA to success and everyone’s path will al ways be different, but staying positive and working hard will always bring back results. As I’m growing, I’m learning and I appreciate the consistent support as I’m doing so.
NOTE 2 SELF
Being a designer wasn’t something that I knew I wanted to do my entire life. I knew that I had a passion for it, but I didn’t know exactly what realm of the design world interested me the most. As I have pursued my journey as a designer further, I have noticed 3 important things: 1 You can’t look for validation from everyone
around you about what you’ve created. Have confidence in your work.
2 Not everything will go as planned. You have to
stay level headed, roll with the punches, and learn how to make something out of nothing.
3 Efficiency and networking can go a long way.
Now that I am approaching the real mark of when I created GRAYSCALE I can clearly see how far I have come, but I also know that there is still so much for me to learn! I’ve committed myself to embracing the process and enjoying the journey ahead. You’ve got it from here.
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2017 was the year of the woman. Women demanded their voices be heard and stopped at nothing to achieve their greatest destiny. Sharon Carpenter, reporter, television personality, producer, and designer, is the epitome of this revolutionary woman and a true boss! It wasn’t until she moved to New York City where she discovered her passion for telling stories. Since then, her career has housed names like BBC News, BET, CBS Market Watch, The Wendy Williams Show, Empire and her most recent solo project- WireTapped. MICHELLE LEE Where did it all begin for you? SHARON CARPENTER I guess it all started back in England
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*laughs* which is where I’m from. I have a big passion for music and right before I moved to America I had a dream of being in the music industry. Being in the U.K., you sort of grow up on American pop culture. When I eventually moved here [America] for school, I started interning for a woman (she’s now my best friend) who was working at a small indie label. I loved being involved with music and dealing with artists, but I realized it wasn’t quite what I wanted to do. From there I jumped at different opportunities from hosting on public access shows, which led to an opportunity with Channel 9 News.
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I love how you were fearless when you moved to NYC and tried so many different things! I’m passionate about the creative side of things and at the end of the day that’s what really drives me; the opportunity to get creative with my storytelling and things that I put out.Ultimately I believe it’s difficult to really know what you want to do unless you immerse yourself in it first. And now that you’ve gained success in the entertainment industry do you think that you have a responsibility to become a role model for young girls who want to be in your field? Definitely. It’s something that has become more apparent as the years have gone on. It’s so important to me to encourage young women to stay true to what they believe in and follow your passion. I feel that even aside from young women who are looking up to me, I think there is an audience watching and listening and I think it's my responsibility to bring them stories that are accurate, that are fact checked, real journalism at the end of the day. You’ve recently started an online network called Wiretapped. What will it consist of? Wiretapped is an interactive website focused on pop culture new that I’ve created with my business partner Chris.
We’re allowing people to be more than just spectators by creating an element that allows viewers to chime in and create a live dialogue. You’re also an ambassador for GEORGE [St. George’s Society]. What has that experience been like? It’s a really fantastic charity and it’s the biggest British charity here in New York. I love getting involved with charities! I truly believe that to whom much is given much is required! GEORGE helps out members of the Commonwealth who are in the U.S. and going through a difficult time. Whether it’s someone who needs financial assistance, health care or a child has cancer and wants a special treatment, GEORGE will help with the financial side of things or help bring the family over and assist them with accommodations and things they’ll need to get through their situation. You’re passion is admirable and inspiring. What does being passionate about what you love mean to you? Passion is the key to any and every thing you do. You’re not going to be able to put in the effort it takes to reach success if you’re not genuinely passionate about what you’re doing. The only way for you to get ahead is to out work most people and that requires real passion. BOMBSHELLBYBLEU.COM
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I ALWAYS REMIND MYSELF THAT IT’S NOT WHAT YOU’RE CALLED BUT IT’S WHAT YOU ANSWER TO. EVERYONE WILL ALWAYS HAVE THEIR OWN OPINION OF YOU, AND THAT’S FINE.
It’s less than 24 hours before our next cover shoot with Blac Chyna and as I boarded my flight from JFK to LAX my thoughts were focused solely on making sure everything was perfect on set the next day. The 7 hour ride from NYC to LA served its purpose; as one can always appreciate escaping the commotion of NYC and soaking up all the laid back vibes of LA. ….. As our time to shoot neared and the crew hustled to fulfill any last many preparations, pandemonium began to unravel outside of our set location and “the paps” surrounded the studio as an all black Audi coupe pulled up. She hops out the driver side with her team not too far from her side, flirtatiously smiling for all the cameras now surrounding her...our cover girl had arrived. Walking into set with her crown in tact and every strand of her unicorn hair in place , she flashes a smile and simply states, “I’m ready”. Sitting flawlessly under a set of lights, her lashes flutter with every tease to the camera. The images are striking. The styling, impeccably done. The model turned entrepreneur comes alive with every flash of the camera and each look is a perfect depiction of the alluring and confident woman she is. Yes, Blac Chyna is soft spoken and sweet but she’s proven repeatedly that she’s not to be fucked with. And even in the midst of drama she remains unbothered; collecting checks and laughing all the way to the bank. Though her life has caught the attention of the world, Chyna
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is still far from being an open book. And while being the best mom to her son King and daughter Dream are her top priorities, she still manages to balance being a boss. “I have some cool projects in the works, but I’m keeping them top secret for now.” With Lashed Beauty Bar and Cosmetics, her online clothing store 88fin, and the recent launch of The Blac Chyna Doll all under her belt, it’s safe to say that Chyna is on winning streak. “Lashed is my baby and of course I want to see it grow! I definitely want to expand my brand and open more lashed bars. 88fin is doing really well online, I’m not sure as of yet if I’ll be opening a physical store but it’s a possibility in the future.” Coming a long way from her hometown of D.C. , she has unquestionably become a well rounded and established entrepreneur, embarking on anything that she feels serves her purpose. And while living life in the public eye comes with its highs and lows, Chyna has mastered the art of not giving a f*** about what people say. “I always remind myself that it’s not what you’re called but it’s what you answer to. Everyone will always have their own opinion of you, and that’s fine. But you can’t cry over something that never belonged to you in the first place.” Whether you’re calling her a new age Icon, or simply a bad b***h, Blac Chyna is undeniably a staple in pop culture and a representation of “girls out here doing whatever the hell they want”, while recognizing the power in simply being a woman. -Ebony Allison
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Ladies First DJ WHITNEY DJ OLIVIA DOPE DJ MISS MILAN
It’s no secret that the world of music and entertainment is congested with mass amounts of testosterone making it somewhat tricky for women to get their shine on!
Case In Point: The Female DJ. Though legendary DJ’s like Beverly Bond and modern day phenoms like Alison Wonderland, have gained global success it’s still no secret that this is a lane where ladies aren’t always first. We had the chance to catch up with three of NYC’s rising DJ’s breaking barriers and proving that GALS never fall short of rising to the occasion.
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Her history? Whitney: Music has always been in my life. My mom was in a band and I would go to practice with her. When I moved to NY, I got connected to Source Life Media, a radio station, hosting with my sisters. When the radio station threw parties that had DJS, there were always so many dope female radio hosts but they weren’t being represented. I think that’s when I realized I wanted to be a part of this culture. Her hustle and motivation? I was raised in a place where women became nurses and men became doctors and lawyers. There was no sense of individuality or making something of your own or making a business out of what you love. That pushes me a lot. Being able to show people that you can absolutely make a career out of your passions. Her struggle:Did you experience people doubting you or not interested in giving you a shot? In early events when I first started, venue owners and managers would assume that the I was just there with the DJ’s. They would disregard me. I remember when I opened up for Pro Era and when I walked into soundcheck someone assumed that I was the girlfriend because the other fe-
males in the room weren’t there to perform. It gets frustrating but I love proving people wrong with my talent. Her Sound/Style? I play a mix of things always! Lots of throwback Hip-Hop, Rap, Trap, Reggae, R&B! Anything to keep people moving! Her musical Influences? As much as I love strip club bangers and all that for the club, I grew up singing to Whitney Houston, Celine Dion and Toni Braxton. I listen to H.E.R. , Sabrina Claudio, Majid Jordan, dvsn, Tangina Stone-really any R&B smoothness. Her defining moment? I always struggle with this question because I think every moment is a defining moment in my career. I find value in every gig not in the number of people who show up, but the number of people who are letting themselves go at events just being in the moment. I remember I did a party in a basement in LES and it was tiny and hot, but everyone in the venue danced their ass off and enjoyed themselves. It was such a magical moment for me...I remembered thinking ‘wow I curated this’. BOMBSHELLBYBLEU.COM
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OLIVIA DOPE Her history? Olivia Dope:I’ve been Djing for 7 years now. I realized I wanted to really pursue it after it became a postpartum hobby when my daughter was born 9 years ago. Something about creating brand new sounds by merging different songs together really intrigued me. Her hustle and motivation? My daughter (of course) motivates me to be a great role model but I feel it’s more important to do it for yourself first and foremost. Push to be the best version you can be on a daily. We only have one life to make all our dreams come true and be the light we want to see in the world. That should be enough motivation to never give up on yourself. Her struggle:Did you experience people doubting you or not interested in giving you a shot? My parents doubted me for a long time. They understandably couldn’t see DJing as a successful career when they don’t personally know any-
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one else (and a woman at that) that has successfully done it. They kind of get it now but they’re still not all the way on board but my dreams and aspirations aren’t for everyone to get. [Shrugs] Her Sound/Style? Being a lover of all things 90s, that’s where my foundation is. From there I intertwine old school with new school and everything in between. Picture a DJ set featuring Taylor Swift, Trillville & Travis Scott... yeah, thats Olivia Dope. (lol) Her musical Influences? Prince, Michael Jackson, Sade, Missy Elliot, Radiohead, Nirvana, TLC, Timbaland, Pharrell Williams, Lil Kim, Barry White, Donny Hathaway. The list goes on and on. But I am an R&B lover, first and foremost. Her defining moment? Being able to DJ full time and take care of home solely from that. Very defining moment.
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Her history? Miss Milan: I would say about three and half years ago it was literally just a thought in my mind like hmm maybe I’ll be good at this because I really do love music and how it makes me feel. I was working a bartender job which I ended up saving all my coins to purchase my own little set-up and pay for the lessons. I quit my job two years ago to pursue this dream full time. Her hustle and motivation? The motivation for me to never quit is knowing that I’m capable of achieving all things, even when it gets tough I know to expect a greater outcome. Anything you want in this world can be achieved with positive thinking, radical faith and hard work. If I quit now I would’ve failed myself & stopped myself from receiving what’s really meant for me. Her struggle:Did you experience people doubting you or not interested in giving you a shot? GIRL! YES! But that was meant for me to step my game up and become the best so I won’t be denied any longer. It hurt at first because you be-
MISS MILAN lieve in your work and when people don’t, it can cause a-lot of self doubt, but you have to keep working at your craft and learn to accept “no” as something better coming your way. Her Sound/Style? I’m still working on my sound to be honest, I haven’t gotten it down pack yet, but my style developed really from just being myself. When I’m out I like to have a great time and make sure the people I’m around are on the same level. So when I DJ I give performances by dancing and singing; really bringing the fun out of people. Her musical influences? Queen Bey of course, Rihanna, SZA, Prince, Michael Jackson, Janet Jackson, so many too name. Her defining moment? Honestly speaking, I’m grateful for everything that has happened so far in my life so I would have to say everything has been a defining moment for me because I truly love what I do no matter if there’s 5 or 5000 in a crowd “I’m just happy to be living my dream.
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SOUTH BRONX NATIVE RAPPER, AND SELF PROCLAIMED ‘LIT MAMII,’ MALIIBU MIITCH IS TAKING NEW YORK BY STORM, AND SHOWS NO SIGN OF SLOWING DOWN. SHE HAS US ASKING: WHO’S THAT GIRL? PHOTOGRAPHER OTHELLO BANACI STYLIST BIANCA ARIELLE BAILEY HAIR SHANA PARSONS MAKEUP CATAANDA JAMES
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The anticipation was palpable as I waited to catch up with rapper, Maliibu Miitch. As the phone rang I was expecting to hear her husky tone that is reminiscent of some of the greatest female MC’s to ever come into the game such as, Lil’ Kim, Remy Ma, and Eve. Instead, I was surprised by a sweet, soft-spoken, “Hi,” laced with the unmistakable Bronx accent, on the other end of the line. Growing up as a tough kid in the South Bronx, pint-sized Maliibu Miitch has an attitude and style that has given her a certain je ne sais quoi that fits the duality of her stage name. Her classic New York vibe and creativity, in both her songs and music videos, show that she is the epitome of authenticity. At the age of 26, Maliibu has had quite the career so far. Formally signed to Ruff Ryders and Island Deff Jam, she has taken her career solo, and has been steadily making moves to solidify her position as an artist ever since. Most recently, Miitch created a series of tribute tracks that pay homage to some of the hardest female rappers that came before her. Some of the songs include remixes to Eve’s ‘Who’s that Girl?’ and ‘Crush on You,’ by Lil’ Kim. Throughout the tribute the listener, and true rap fanatics, can hear how she effortlessly gives the iconic 90’s New York City flow a modern edge. Miitch is more than a pretty face that can spit bars with the best of them. She aspires to explore her creativity across many different avenues including acting, fashion, and even cosmetics. Be sure to keep an eye out because we have a feeling that she will be gracing the billboards in Time Square, representing and empowering female rappers everywhere. Keep reading to find out how she feels it is possible for females in the industry to stay strong and united, the way her stage name came into being, and who sparked her interest in music.
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Who were you before Maliibu Miitch? Oh my god. I was a troubled teenager (laughs). I used to fight a lot when I was younger, so that is basically what my activity was on the daily. I would just go with my girls and fight.
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Tell me about growing up in the Bronx. Growing up in the Bronx, I always did a lot of things. In the Bronx it’s cool to start up teams, or a group of girls, and stuff like that. In the Bronx, being younger and poppin’ in the streets is different, and you get into fighting, and just a bunch of stupid stuff, you know? I was basically in the center of all of it.
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So, how did you come up with your stage name? ‘Miitch’ came from Paid in Full. I would say seven to eight years ago I was watching it, and when I saw Mekhi Phifer I just loved everything about him in that movie. So I said that I was just going to call myself Mitch. Then a couple of weeks later I was smoking and I was just like, “What would go right with Mitch?” Then I was just like, “Oh Malibu!” It was completely left field. It didn’t go together. It sounded ridiculous, but I was like, “I’m going to change my name to Maliibu Miitch,” and I did. Everybody was f*cking with it, so I was like, okay. And Maliibu Miitch fits both of my personalities. I’m mad bubbly. I’m mad goofy. I’m mad funny. That’s my Maliibu side. But some days I’m mad rough. What was it like growing up with both a black and Asian background? It’s funny because when I was younger I didn’t know I was Asian until my mother told me. My dad is Vietnamese and Filipino, but he’s darker. He got the Vietnamese color. I still didn’t really understand it until I moved to North Carolina. I got in trouble with my mom, so she sent me down south to live with my dad, and that’s when I realized. It was like—the south is just different. You’re either black or you’re white, but everyone was like, “Who is this little Asian girl,” and that’s when it kind of hit me. I was like, “Oh sh*t,” but I guess in the Bronx it’s just regular because everybody is mixed in the Bronx.
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“I HAVE TO WAKE UP WIT H MYSELF EVERY SINGLE DAY, SO I’ M NOT GOING TO BE SELF-CONSCIOUS ABOUT MYSELF BECAUSE I HAVE TO DEAL WIT H IT, YOU KNOW”
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What was it that sparked your interest in music? Well, it started with 50 Cent. That’s still my favorite rapper since I was younger. I never used to listen to rap or anything like that before him. I started listening to rap because of him. I used to listen to 50 Cent when I was younger, because I used to have a crazy temper, it was relaxing for me. His music was always relaxing. It just chilled me out. That was about the only thing that chilled me out. I was listening to your music and your speaking voice sounds different than when you rap. How would you describe your rap style and tone? It’s crazy because as long as I’ve been rapping I would use my natural voice. I will always say some real sh*t when I rap, but I don’t think that anybody could really understand me. I felt like my accent was colliding, and I just felt like I had a little baby voice. I felt like guys wouldn’t want to listen to it or relate to it. I just wanted to beef my voice up. I wanted guys to be able to f*ck with my voice. I wanted guys to actually hear me. They always heard me and liked me, but I wanted respect too. I used to hang out with guys and I wanted them to be able to f*ck with my music too, and having a small voice I don’t think that it got through. I was like, “You know what? Let me switch it up and change it up for a little bit.” And I did. Now I’m getting mad love from guys, females, and older people. I have people on my Instagram that are 40 or 50 commenting, “You sound like the rappers that I used to listen to.” So, I just wanted respect from both sides. Another thing I noticed is that you exude confidence. How are you able to reach that level of self-assuredness?
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I would say when I was very young in elementary school I used to be very timid. I have two sisters and we’re back-to-back in age. I used to always turn up with them and be all crazy with them, and then I would get to school and be so quiet. I would be mad chill and reserved. I always had my sisters around. They were so outgoing, They played sports and everything. BOMBSHELLBYBLEU.COM
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They were super smart. I had glasses (laughs), so when I was younger I just felt like the trash one. That’s why I started being bad. That’s why I started fighting. I always had confidence in myself, like, “Alright, you’re the one that is mad cool. You’re the one that everybody is just cool with. You’re chill. You’re funny.” I kind of got my confidence from that. Then in high school I felt untouchable and that boosted my self-esteem. Now it transferred into my music. I used to be self-conscious about my music when I used to rap with my voice so small, but I think that was the only thing I had to get over, and I found a solution for that. Sometimes I feel self-conscious. Before a show I’ll start freaking out, but I get rid of that by practicing. I’m doing something every single day. I have to wake up with myself every single day, so I’m not going to be self-conscious about myself because I have to deal with it, you know? Right! With shows and stuff like that, I don’t do too many shows so I kind of psych myself out sometimes, but then I’ll be like, “You’re scared for no reason.” It’s just all over, but I don’t psych myself out too much. I think that is where lack of confidence comes from: when you doubt yourself. I don’t ever doubt myself. As you get more of a following and gain more success, how are you able to stay grounded?
to battling? It’s crazy because I’m like, yes, female empowerment! I’m fully all with that, but I don’t think everybody understands what it is like to be in the industry. It’s a male dominated industry, first of all, and left and right these guys are trying to put us against each other. It’s not us. It’s the situation that only one female can get in. It can only be one female. It was Nicki Minaj for so long, and, not to be shady or anything, the women that were coming up after her, not to say they weren’t good, were not up to that Nicki Minaj level. So, she was getting compared. When someone comes up that is good it’s like you have to beef, you have to fight. I don’t think it is females doing it to each other necessarily. I just think that when there is one female coming up and then another, of course it might happen. The beef might start because look at all these male rappers. They beef and they are all regular. When it’s females it’s crazy because there are only about two of us. That’s what I felt they did with Nicki. I feel like everyone tried to attack her because she was the only one there instead of everyone getting in together, and getting their sh*t up. I would never hate on the next female and I would never try to tear the next female down, but I can see situations where someone would put that in someone’s head to do that. If one person is winning and you feel like you can’t get in the door I can see where that can come from. But there are mad n*ggas in the game and people don’t talk about when they beef. They don’t be like, “Male empowerment!” They don’t do that. It’s just a real beef. Yes! There is a double standard in the industry.
Coming from New York, like I said before, we used to make our own teams. When everybody was on Myspace, me and my friends were dumb poppin’ on Myspace. Not for doing music or anything like that, but for literally just being stupid. We literally did the stupidest things, being stupid ignorant, and I’ve always been hood poppin’. It’s kind of the same thing. I’ve always had a big following on Myspace, Facebook, and Twitter. I’ve always been like that. That’s how my mother raised me: not to get beside myself. I never got beside myself. I have an attitude problem, but I don’t ever get beside myself. I know that it could be here, but it can be taken away fast too because I was signed to Ruff Ryders and I had my song on the radio. I thought I was there, but it got taken away. I was signed to Island Deff Jam and it felt like I was on top of the world. I’ve come up on money and then been dirt broke. I’ve had to do stupid ass sh*t for money, so I don’t ever let anything overpower myself. That’s not in my nature. I thought it was so dope that you did a tribute to all female MC’s. What made you want take on that type of project? I wanted to do it because I feel like females rappers; we don’t get talked about enough. The female rappers that came out before me, they don’t get talked about like that ever, you know? I wanted to bring back a good feeling so people could go back. Even for the young generation too. Also, I wanted to pay homage because I wanted to do something that would impact, and I wanted to do something that would show love because you know how it is between female rappers. If you go in and you don’t pay homage it can be taken as something else, and I didn’t want to do that. I just wanted to show love. That’s where it came from. Are you all about females working together in this industry as opposed
Exactly! I just hate that sh*t. I hate it a lot actually. Well at least you got that tough side if you ever need to handle something like that. (Laughs). No. I be minding my own business. I would try my hardest. Trust me. What can we expect to see and hear from you in the near future? I want to put out a mixtape with a few original songs so that people can get a little taste of me. After that I’ll probably drop an album. I want to start doing a bunch of shows, but I have to get this project out before I can do that. Is there a picture in your mind of what your ultimate goal as an artist is? I hate to compare myself to people, but I want to have the same success that Nicki has. She’s the biggest female rapper that ever was. Nobody has ever crossed over the way she did it. Nobody ever did it as close as she did it. I want to do that. I want to be like that. I want to be bigger than that. I want to crossover and still be able to be myself. I don’t want to conform to what people think. You know how Cardi got Bodak Yellow? I don’t think anybody knew it was going to be like that. I don’t think anybody knew she was going to crossover with a hood-ass record like that. I want to be like that. I just want to take it to the heights of Nicki Minaj, but still stay myself. Not that she’s not herself or anything like that. I just want to be myself because I’ve had so many people try to change me saying, “You’re too ghetto, you’re to this, you’re too that.” I want to be all of that and become a household name. BOMBSHELLBYBLEU.COM
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