2020 2020 a quarantine zine briana van koll
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Photographs by Briana Van Koll. Asfen Typeface by Ines Davodeau. Gilroy Typeface by Radomir Tinkov. Film Development by Underground Film Lab and Oscars Photo Lab.
Just a couple words.
I always considered myself a pretty put together person. It wasn’t until 2020 took a dump on the world, that I realized I was more of a hot mess than I realized. My quarantine journey did not go without copious amounts of sleep, shower cries, cigarettes, online shopping, therapy, photography, video games, plants, wine, postmates ...you get the picture. Without the distractions of the outside world, my tiny studio apartment turned into my own reality tv show. Time slowed down and I morphed into a hairy, half drunk loner who played zelda, called friends at odd hours and practiced tarot. I had to deal with issues of heartbreak, isolation, grief, self-love, mental health, substance abuse and more. It was a very difficult year and I had no choice but to grow. So in an act of appreciation, I decided to create a visual diary of my 2020 experience. This book is the result. Hope you enjoy.
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The months
January February March April May June July August September October November December
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JAN
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the month of pain, loss and breaking.
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In January, I went through a very difficult breakup. I lost myself in the grief.
Someone I loved dearly.
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My therapists wating room.
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Old home. 2019.
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Treasure Island, CA 2019..
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San Francisco, 2019.
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Greece, 2019.
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My favorite taqueria. Oakland, CA 2019.
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Self portrait. Oakland, CA 2019.
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Lake Merrit. Oakland, CA 2020
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Berkeley, CA 2020.
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feb
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the month of depression.
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Lake Merrit. Oakland CA 2020
In February, I continued to struggle with the breakup and my own mental health. I also moved to Oakland, CA and started my journey of living in my first solo apartment.
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Greece 2019.
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Berlin 2019
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Lake Merrit. Oakland, CA.
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Oakland, CA.
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mar
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march
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the month coronavirus hits.
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In March, the Coronavirus hit the U.S.. I bought more toilet paper than ever before and photographed only in black and white.
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Self portrait. Oakland, CA 2020.
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San Francisco, CA 2020.
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april
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the month of exploration while in isolation.
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In April, I bought a bike and used it as my escape. I rode all around the bay area, photographing as I went.
Alameda, CA 2020.
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Oakland, CA 2020.
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may
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may
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black lives matter.
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In May, George Floyd was murdered. Amidst the global pandemic, Americans were faced with the reminder of social injustice and racism.
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BLM protestors. San Francisco, CA 2020
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BLM protestors. San Francisco, CA 2020
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jun
jun
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the month of unrest, community and growth.
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In June, the fight for justice continued. Oakland became a battle ground and I made it my mission to document life within it.
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Oakland, CA 2020
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Oakland, CA 2020
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july
jul
jul
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the month of escape and appreciation.
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In July, I escaped to nature and released myself of the pain from the breakup.
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Oakland, CA 2020
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Big Sur, CA 2020. 1 03
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Big Sur, CA 2020.
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august
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the month of travel and perspective.
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In August, I traveled to see family and new places. I was in need of change.
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Louisville, KY 2020
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Louisville, KY 2020
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Louisville, KY 2020
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Nashville, TN 2020
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Nashville, TN 2020
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sept
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september
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the month of self isolation and care.
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In September, I self quarantined and documented my days during those boring two weeks.
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Self portrait. Oakland, CA 2020
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Self portrait. Oakland, CA 2020
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Self portrait. Oakland, CA 2020
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My favorite coffee shop. Oakland, CA 2020
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Self portrait. Oakland, CA 2020
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Self portrait. Oakland, CA 2020
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My apartment. Oakland, CA 2020
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Self portrait. Oakland, CA 2020
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My apartment. Oakland, CA 2020
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My apartment. Oakland, CA 2020
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october
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the month of gratitude.
In October, I photographed the people I love most. The following portraits are meant to capture the nature of those who hold my heart.
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Lo. Big Sur, California. August 2020.
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Lancelot. Big Sur, California. August 2020.
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Rachel. Crater Lake, Washington. October 2020.
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Amelia. Lake Merrit Oakland, CA. October 2020.
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Lancelot and Sally. Lake Tahoe, California. October 2020.
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Sydney. Lake Merrit Oakland, CA. March 2020.
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Stephanie. Lake Tahoe, California. November 2020.
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Belinda, Lancelot and Sally. Oakland, California. November 2020.
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Kelso and Yvette. Oakland, CA. November 2020.
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Me. Oakland, CA. September 2020.
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nov
nov
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november
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the month of appreciation.
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In November, I realized how lucky I was to live in such a beautiful place. I got back on my bike and continued to document my surroundings.
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Lake Merrit. Oakland, CA 2020
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My apartment building. Oakland, CA 2020
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december
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the month of new beginnings.
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In December, we celebrated new beginnings as Joe Biden won the presidency and a new year was upon us.
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Damn, I survived.
What a humbling year. Thank you to everyone who hugged, facetimed, danced, cried, laughed, cooked, watched tv, sent memes, walked, bike rided, talked, giggled, and loved me during this year. You made 2020 bearable. 2021 here we come.
2020 2020 a quarantine zine briana van koll