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I = 32 u n c r e c e d e n t e d d i s c l a y o f c r e a t i v i t y and c o l o u r , t h e c e l e b r a t i o n of t h e Winter Sols t i c e transformed t h e h a l l s of C a r n e g i e i n t o a v i s i o n o f hope amid p e a l s o f l a u g h t e r . B e g i n n i n g qn t h e t h i r d f l o o r , t h e p e a g e a n t named "Main S t r e e t Rhapsody" b l o s s o m e d u n t i l v i r t u a l l y everyone i n t h e Centre was i n v o l v e d .

Beauty, entranced w i t h h e r own image, i s wooed by t h e M o t l e y F o o l b u t he s o o n e n c o u n t e r e d a r i v a l intthe S i n g i n g Cowboy. Sweep, broom i n hand and w i s e i n w o r d s , e n t i c e d o n l o o k e r s t o become p a r t o f t h e p r o c e s s i o n down t h e s p i r a l stone staircase. " T h e r e ' s f o o o o d down t h e r e . " On t h e second f l o o r , t h e Old Woman a c c u s e d t h e Motley Fool o f f a t h e r i n g a misbeg o t t e n w a i f , f a l s e hope, ugly beyond w o r d s . The hope o f t h e F o o l seemed t o be l o s t . The S i n g i n g Cowboy a g a i n t o o k t h e arm o f B e a u t y and t h e growing p r o c e s s i o n advanced t o t h e f i r s t floor.

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v i c t o r y o f s w e e t e v i l a n d went r o u n d gnd t h r o u g h a l l p a r t s o f t h e main f l o o r w i t h l o u d s h o u t s and l a u g h t e r t o f r i g h t en a n d c o n f u s e t h e demons o f d a r k n e s s . The l o n g e s t n i g h t i s t h e p e a k o f d a r k n e s s , and l i g h t grows s t r o n g e r t o a s sume command o f t h e d a y .

I n t o t h e T h e a t r e came a l l a n d s u n d r y , t h e Motley F o o l again a supplicant t o the f o r c e o f l i g h t , B e a u t y . The e v i l d a r k f o r c e s were p r e p a r e d and e n t e r e d t h e s c e n e i n a h o r d e . Only t h e Motley F o o l , t h e h o p e s and dreams o f humankind, could stop t h e i r victory o v e r L i g h t . He c h a l l e n g e d t h e P r i n c e o f Darkness t o a d u e l . c o n l t . on-page 1 6

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s p o n s i b i l i t y . Sound f a m i l i a r ?

Not s u c c e e d i n g i s n o t h a v i n g money i s n o t c o m p e t i n g i s n o t making y o u r c o n t r i b u t i o n t o s o c i e t y i s not conforming t o t h e g e n e r a l l y a c c e p t e d norms a n d mores o f e v e r y b o d y e l s e !

And on and o n . . . a n d o n . . .

The uneven d i s t r i b u t i o n o f w e a l t h and r e s o u r c e s i s making a n e v e r 1 a r g e r number n f ynung people not take p a r t i n t h e c o m p e t i t i o n o f w e s t / e a s t . But t h o s e on t h e downside on t h e s k i d s a r e n o t t o be admired f o r being t h e r e (or h e r e ) .

L i v i n g on w e l f a r e a s an i n t e g r a l p a r t of your p e r s o n a l philosophy i s defendable only i n a bar.

Everyone l i s t e n i n g i s j u s t a s d r u n k a s you and deep t h i n k i n g i s n o t expected.

A f t e r a period of time, d i f f e r e n t f o r each of us but d e f i n i t e f o r a l l who a r e w a i t i n g , the l i f e s t y l e p a r a l l e l with l i v i n g on h a n d o u t s p a l l s ; t h e g u t t e r s m e l l becomes a p p a r e n t .

Ideation is essential f o r maintaining s p i r i t u a l p r a c t i c e , y e t l i v i n g day-by-day w i t h a s few h a b i t s and s t a t i c i n t a k e a s p o s s i b l e - t h e round of f r e e p l a c e s c a n f i l l y o u r g u t s i x o r s e v e n t i m e s a day b u t t h e r e must b e more t o l i f e t h a n e a t i n g and c o f f e e o r t e a ?

The p r i n c i p l e s o f A l c o h o l i c s Anonymous , f r a m e d and u n d e r glass, are so simple: "First t h i n g s f i r s t , " ; "Live and l e t l i v e . " ; "Take i t e a s y . " ;

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T h i s w r i t e r c a n ' t l i v e by o t h e r s ' r u l e s w i t h o u t knowi n g t h e r i g h t n e s s o f them; c a n ' t g i v e l o y a l i t y upward and downward w i t h o u t t h e r e a so11 u a i i i g s e l f - z - i S < ~ r ; t ; C Z Z ' ~ demand t h a t o t h e r s l i v e a c c o r d i n g t o my way: Can d i s a s s o c i a t e from c o n t a c t w i t h p e o p l e who a c t u a l l y p r a c t i c e being stupid.

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"One who h a s no i n t e l l i g e n c e i s an i d i o t .

One who h a s i n t e l l i g e n c e b u t doesn't use it i s stupid.

One who h a s i n t e l l i g e n c e b u t misuses it i s a fool."

What must b e k e p t c l o s e t o o u r e v e r y a c t i o n and thought i s a s p i r i t of being s p e c i a l and o p e n , t h a t S p i r i t i s t h e s o u r c e o f o u r e v e r y move, i d e a , a m b i t i o n and g o a l .

T h e r e w i l l b e no a c c e p t a b l e changes u n l e s s your c a r i n g o r s t r o n g f e e l i n g s i n s p i r e you t o work w i t h l i k e - m i n d e d groups o f p e o p l e and push f o r changes t h a t w i l l h e l p .

Chantges h a p p e n : c h a n g e s t h a t someone p u s h e s f o r .

Struggle i s t h e essence of life.

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Trying t o accept o f a u l t s i s h a r d a t t i m e s . I1*m not p e r f e c t , but it r e a l l y b o t h e r s me t o h a v e t o l i s t e n t o a woman s c r e a m and c r y f o r the s o l e reason of g e t t i n g a t tention that others present are not giving exclusively t o h e r when s h e w a n t s i t .

I f nothing e l s e , the s t a f f o r d e r s t o b e q u i e t o r more o f t e n s i t s down,and s o o t h e s , clams, gives a t t e n t i o n ; while having t o l e t everything e l s e go t o h e l l u n t i l t h e r e i s some q u i e t a n d a r e t u r n t o normal i s e v i d e n t .

T h a t t h i s woman i s a l l o w e d t o practice this bullshit c o n t i n u o u s l y i s making m a t t e r s w o r s e . Any c o n v e r s a t i o n , any m e e t i n g , a n y work o r program i n t h i s C e n t r e must come t o a h a l t when s h e d e c i d e s t o p l a y h e r game and g e t a t t e n t i o n o r s c r e a m and c r y . can _L

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Anyone who may h a v e t a k e n some s u c c e s s f u l p i c t u r e s o f t h e Winter S o l s t i c e Celebration: Please leave a note a t t h e F r o n t Desk o r c a l l VERN CLARE: 251-1589

Our Cub S c o u t g r o u p h a d a w o n d e r f u l t i m e camping o u t i n t h e w i l d e r n e s s o v e r on t h e s u n s h i n e c o a s t . To g e t t h e r e , we h a d t o c a t c h t h e f e r r y a t Horshoe Bay, a n d a f t e r b o a r d i n g we were t o l d i t would t a k e 4 5 min. t o g e t t h e r e .

On r e a c h i n g G i b s o n , we went by v e h i c l e t o t h e w i l d e r n e s s c a m p s i t e . The f i r s t c h o r e d i d was t o make a c o s y f i r e i n t h e l o d g e 1s f i r e p l a c e . We s a n g s o n g s and h a d a b e d t i m e s n a c k .

Our camp was b a s e d on a n a t i v e theme, making u s e o f n a t u r e h i k e s and c r e a t i n g d i f f e r e n t c r a f t s t o go a l o n g w i t h t h i s . We w e r e i n t r o d u c e d t o a n e i g h t y y e a r - o l d man who comes up h e r e e v e r y summer t o help c l e a r the wilderness t r a i l s . He l a b e l s t h e -t r e-e-s : - - 3 - 1 -----I.d l ~ u3111 U U

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The c o o k s were excellent i n preparing the meals, including r o a s t turkey with a l l t h e trimmings.

The Beachcomber e p i s o d e s were f i l m e d a t o u r c a m p s i t e l a s t summer, b u t when we d r o v e p a s t M o l l y ' s Reach w h e r e t h i s was d o n e , i t was a l l b o a r d e d up f o r t h e w i n t e r . We came home v e r y t i r e d and b a d l y i n need of a b a t h and c l e a n c l o t h e s .

By WAYNE JOSEPH SCHMIDT

Fund r a i s i n g i s a n o n g o i n g f u n c t i o n t h a t many o r g a n i s a t i o n s hi're p r o f e s s i o n a l s t o do f o r them.

This has i t s dark s i d e though.' A c a s e i n p o i n t : I n t h e lower mainland an a t h l e t i c group needed f i f t y t o s i x t y thousand d o l l a r s and h i r e d s u c h a p r o f e s s i o n a l company t o c o n d u c t t h e phone camp a i g n . The c o n t r a c t f o r t h e t h r e e week p e r i o d s t a t e d t h a t i f t h e g o a l was r e a c h e d , t h e company would k e e p % I 0 0 of what + L - - - --- c l l G y ~ d i s e 11 1 w-Fitl'r t h i s ~ n ~ i . 1 t h e t h r e e weeks were u p . T h i s seemed f a i r , a s t h e g r o u p f e l t t h a t i f h a l f o f t h e money was r a i s e d t h e y would be v e r y l u c k y . However, t h e p r o s made t h e s i x t y grand i n j u s t over a week a n d c o n t i n u e d t o b l i t z by phone u s i n g t h e a t h l e t i c ' s . name a n d p o l i t i c a l e n d o r s e m e n t s t o l i n e t h e i r own p o c k e t s . The g r o u p f i n a l l y h a d t o go t o V i c t o r i a ' t o g e t t h e c o n t r a c t cancelled.

Muggs S i g u r g e i r s o n t o l d of her e f f o r t s t o s o l i c i t supp o r t m e e t i n g w i t h t h e word "No", f i n d i n g t h a t f u n d i n g might be a v a i l a b l e f o r a p r o j e c t o r program b u t n o t f o r t h e Carnegie Association a s a whole.

"People w i l l n o t fund an e n t i r e c e n t r e . " A number o f p e o p l e f r o m t h b Learning Centre a t t e n d e d t o f i n d o u t ways t o g e t b a s i c s u p p l i e s l i k e paper and pens It's and p o s s i b l y a VCR. l u d i c r o u s t h a t such a v i t a l service a s education hasn't got e s s e n t i a l basics.

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R'ecipes for Security The s i g n s a i d , "Want t o Make Money?", and was c a l l i n g f o r a l l interested i n fund-raising t o a t t e n d a workshop a t t h e Carnegi.e on Dec. 9 a n d Dec. 11.

L a r r y Duckworth, who o r g a n ; i z e d and r a i s e d s u p p o r t f o r t h e Walk-a-Thon F o r L i t e r a c y , t a l k e d about planning t h e app r o a c h and what m i g h t b e e x p e c t e d i n t h i s t y p e o f work.

Companies and c o r p o r a t i o n s a r e c a l l e d r e g u l a r l y by p e r s o n s p h o n i n g "on b e h a l f o f . . " by t h e s c o r e a s k i n g o r p l e a d i n g f o r f r e e goods and s e r v i c e Consequently t h e y a r e c a r e f u l t o r e s p o n d e v e n when t h e r e q u e s t i s v a l i d and s i n c e r e .

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Between C h r i s t m a s and New Y e a r , many p e o p l e a r e a l o n e w i t h o u t a f a m i l y , and a t t h i s t i m e more t h a n a n y o t h e r , emot i o n a l c r i s i s c a n occllr - frez Szpressing thoughts about t h e s t a t e o f t h e h e a r t . . a b o u t fami l e and f r i e n d s broken u p . . n o t b e i n g t o g e t h e r . . t h e human fami l y destroying i t s e l f through war and a l l t h e c r i m e s c o m i t t e d i n t h e world.

Death i s o f t e n v e r y c l o s e t o t h o s e a l o n e a t Christmas- and s o m e t h i n g h a p p e n s b e t w e e n Xmas and N.Y.Day t h a t b r i n g s d e a t h and r e b i r t h o u t o f f a i r y t a l e s a n d myths i n t o t h e s t r e e t s o f the c i t y a s d i r e c t experience.

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Sometimes y o u r h e a r t i s o p e n e d up a t t h e e n d o f t h e l i n e - i n t h e dark night of the s o u l - t e a r s f l o w - wounds heal - transgressions are forgiven.

Sometimes l i f e i s r e b o r n i n t h e l a s t few d a y s o f t h e y e a r . M i r a c l e s c a n happen t h a t help us leave p a s t problems b e h i n d and b e g i n a g a i n i n t h e new y e a r w i t h e n e r g y 4 hope f o r t h e f u t u r e .

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L a t e r on my e y e s w e r e opened - g r e a t e r i n s i g h t i n t o what was b e i n g stressed.

The s o n g i s r e f e r r i n g t o everything - t h e world, i t s g o v e r n m e n t s , s o c i e t y . The h a r l o t may change h e r p r i c e s f o r s e r v i c e s r e n d e r e d and s o d o e s s o c i e t y . The w o r l d govPrCmeCr,~z r e

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A t f i r s t e v e r y t h i n g was f i n e ; suddenly greed, d e c e i t f u l n e s s a n d e v i l come i n t o f o c u s . The p r i c e s h a d gone up s o s h e c o u l d be recomp e n s e d . Now t h e b i t c h h a s gone t o o f a r . Unable t o t u r n t h e c l o c k back o r s t o p , s h e starts to prostitute herself.

Her r u l e o f thumb ( f o r a l l o f U S ) , "DO a s I s a y o r e l s e , n o t a s 1 do."

Self-centered egomania i s h e r t r u e c o l o u r .

She i s u n a b l e t o c u r b o r c o n t r o l h e r own i n s i d i o u s a c t i o n The p a r a d e o f f o o l s p a s s i n f r o n t o f h e r d a i l y and s h e comes e v e r c l o s e r t o h e r demi s e , c a u g h t i n h e r own wab o f harlotry.

Unable t o s h a k e t h e s t i g m a s h e becomes a l o s t child - crying, fighting, cursing H u r t a s s h e may seem, s h e c a l l s o u t t o h e r faithful contacts, living without regard or respect f o r others crossing her path.

Such a p i t y ; t h i s h a r l o t and t h e g o v e r n m e n t s ( f e d e r a l , provincial, municipal), her friends (high society, fed-

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Being n o n - v i o l e n t i s an i d e a l t h a t i s very d i f f i c u l t t o honestly maintain The p r i n c i p l e o f n o t d o i n g harm t o anyone' i n t h o u g h t , word o r d e e d i s a f i n e b a s e f o r psychic development..accepting humanitv a s f a m i l y . . t h a t h u m a n i t y i s one a n d i n d i visible rhe s p e c t r e o f being a victim of violence i s e v e r - p r e s e n t i n t n e downtown e a s t s i d e . The i n creasing Pressures of p o v e r t y . . a l m o s t alwavs h a v i n g a n y a t t e m p t t o make n n r c n n m 1 U ~ eL > > S t o i i e w a l l e d . . p e o p l e on t h e downside o f t h e s y s t e m l a s n out a t t h e tirst ava i l a b l e person.

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Never i n i t i a t e t o r c e a g a i n s t anyone; This s n o u l s be t h e u n d e r l y i n g p r i n c i p l e o t your l i f e .

But i f someone d o e s v i o l e n c e t o y o u , you s h o u l d r e t a l i a t e without hesit a t i o n , without r e s e r v a t i o n , without q u a r t e r u n t i l you a r e s u r e t h a t he w i l l never wish t o harm o r be c a p a b l e o f harming you o r y o u r s a g a i n .

By PAUL TAYLOR

Ar. a v e r a g e d a y i n P a r a d i s e t h i s t i m e o f y e a r t a k e s me b a c k ~ i n Peru along with t o t h Andes t h e i r f e s t i v a l s . My f r i e n d , Pamela, a German b l u e - e y e d b l o n d and m y s e l f had b e e n t r a v e l l i n g t h e Andes f o r a few week and n e e d e d a h a r d e a r n e d r e s t . we c a u g h t a r i d e I n liu_auay w i t h t e n o t h e r s and baggage i n a s i x - s e a t e r van (normal) and went t o a p l a c e c a l l e d San Miguel d e l Quacar - by a r i v e r , o u t o f t h e c i t y and no t o u r i s t s p l e a s e . Upon a r r i v i n g I f e l t l i k e i t was a s e t t i n g f o r a n 01 S p a n i s h movie: c o b b l e s t o n e , o l d c o l o n i a l b u i l d i n g s and no h o t e l We f o u n d a s m a l l r e s t a u r a n t n e a r t h e Zocalo, o r l o c a l square with t h e family running it i n back w i t h mucho r u g r a t s . Pam h i t i t o f f w i t h them a t o n c e and I t e s t e d t h e " p i s c o w , t h e l o c a l l y p r o d u c e d b e e r , and s t a r t e d s t r u m m i n l my s i x s t r i n g .

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Four h o u r s l a t e r we'd met h a l f o f t h e 600 p e o p l e , a l l r e - Q l a t e d , and I was shown how s u g a r c a n e becomes brew.

The d i s t i l l e r y was a hand beaten copper p o t , 3 0 f t high, b u i l t sometime i n t h e 1 7 t h Cen. A song from t h e s i x t i e s k e p t r u n n i n g t h r o u g h my h e a d : llUp on C r i p p l e Creek" a n d t h e l i n e "A d r u n k a r d ' s dream i f I e v e r d i d s e e one!"

For t h e n e x t two weeks, I was making i t and my p a t r o n was , s e l l i n g it i n the jungle - i n forty-five gallon barrels coated with c o a l t a r t o p r e s e r v e the ",spirits.

I n t h e two months t h e r e , we saw a number o f r e l i g i o u s hobidays..processions, l i g h t s , costumes..it looked a l o t l i k e t h e W i n t e r S o l s t i c e we had h e r e r e c e n t l y . They b u i l t a n i n c r e d i b l e f i r e w o r k s tower t h r e e s t o r i e s t a l l o u t o f bamboo, t h e

e l e c t r i c i t y was s h u t o f f , a n d f i r i n g t h e f u s e made t h e wheel s p i n and s h o o t f l a m e s a n d e x plosions i n every direction!

The f i n a l e was t h e t o p beeomi n g a roman c a n d l e - t h e l o g i s t i c s o f t h e whole c o n s t r u c t i o n made me p i t y a n y m i l i t a r y f o r c e who m i g h t t r y t o t a k e o v e r t h e s e p e o p l e who had made t h e t h i n g f r o m s c r a t c h A t m i d n i g h t on t h e e v e o f my b i r t h d a y , my l o v e and I w e r e i n o u r m a t r i m o n i a l Q a x a c a hammock t h e s e c a t s j u s t barged i n and w i t h " c o u p l e ' ANNOS" (happy b i r t h d a y ) g a v e me a c o u p l e o f h o t s h o t s . and laughed a s t h i s f i r s t r u n from t h e s t i l l burne d i t s way down, making my e y e s w a t e r and l i t e r a l l y t a k i n g my b r e a t h away.(l50 Proof!)

I was d r a g g e d o u t a n d my b i r t h d a y p a r t y b e g a n . Here t h e way i s t o s t a n d up and d r i n k a s l i t t l e o r a s much a s you w a n t , b u t you must d r i n k : No wimps a l l o w e d . The f o o d w a s G u i n e a p i g s t e w e d i n s w e e t b e e r and whenever I s t a r t e d t o f l a g , I ..lr,,n CLrr +able aiid "L-UIA"U w a a t a n ~ l r L ~ L G t o Eat, period.

Here you d r i n k t o o much a n d you d i e ; t h e r e f r i e n d s t a k e c a r e o f you a n d you s u r v i v e .

A t l e a s t l o n g enough t o w r i t e a n o t h e r s t o r y - shaky t o s a y t h e l e a s t - but " i n dere."

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J A jewel of honesty C l a s h i s good! I f e v e r y t h i n g i s g o i n g w e l l , no c o n f l i c t among t h o s e whom e a c h s i t u a t i o n f o r c e s c o n t a c t w i t h , how l o n g c a n i t go on b e f o r e you f r e a k o u t f o r l a c k of p r o g r e s s ?

Physical c l a s h i s t h e foundd a t i o n o f e v o l u t i o n : Cosmic Mind c r u d i f i e d i n t o i n o r g a n i c m a t t e r - u n i t mind e v o l v i n g from t h i s s t a t e v i a p h y s i c a l c l a s h , p s y c h i c c l a s h and a t t r a c t i o n o f t h e G r e a t . When a human v e h i c l e becomes n e c e s s a r y f o r f u r t h e r growth, each e n t i t y moves c l o s e r t o t h e I n f i n i t e w i t h more s u b t i l e x The pressions of i t s nature. l i n k a g e w i t h Cosmic Mind i s t h e f i r s t "I" i n t h e s e n t e n c e " I know t h a t I e x i s t . " This i s t h e dominate f o r c e governi n g t h e "I" t h a t does - t h a t p e r f o r m s a c t i o n . The ' d o e r - I ' . i n t u r n , r u l e s over t h e c r u i a \ i ~ e i . i i,: i t-l&iiii&ii&Ii 6 e n t i t y , t h e c o n s c i o u s mind.

To a d v a n c e i n s p i r i t u a l e v o l u t i o n t h e f a s t e s t way i s t o meet t h e P r i m a r y C l a s h !

I n t u i t i o n i s f a r s t r o n g e r and t r u e r t h a n i n t e l l e c t , n e e d s no indulgence i n i n t e l l e c t u a l ex- ' t r a v a g a n z a f o r e x p r e s s i o n , and a c t i o n b a s e d on i t s i l l u m i n a tion never degenerates i n t o t a l l t a l k . A s u n i t mind e v o l ves through being crude, s u b t i l s u b l i m i n a l and s u b l i m e t o a t t une w i t h c a u s a l , d e a l i n g w i t h i n t e n s i f y i n g c l a s h must b e t a k c o n t . ~P.14

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My name i s F r a n k , and I'm a n a l c o h o l i c a n d d r u g a d d i c t . How d i d A.A. h e l p me - I f i r s t had t o h e l p m y s e l f b e f o r e A.A. c o u l d e v e r r e a l l y work f o r me.

A s a m a t t e r o f f a c t A.A. d o e s n o t do a n y t h i n g f o r you.

If you w i s h t o g e t on w i t h y o u r l i f e , i t ' s up t o you t o make t h e f i r s t move - A.A. d o e s n ' t do t h e t h i n k i n g f o r you.

I s t a r t e d drinking as a child. l n o u g h I w a l k a r o u n d now p r o f e s s i n g t h a t I e b s t a i n from a l c o h o l , l e t me t e l l y o u , i t ' s s u r e a s h e l l rough.

I ' v e more t h a n enough s h a r e s i n m i s e r y . . i t ' s no d i f f e r e n t t h a n b e f o r e I became a s o b e r p e r s o n b u t now I ' m f a c i n g r e a l i t y a s I s h o u l d have been doing i n t h e f i r s t place sober.

Why i s i t d i f f e r e n t now?

L e t me t e l l you a g a i n - i t ' s not - b u t I ' m s o b e r , n o t drunk.

Even now, I ' m i n t h e mood t o t a k e t h i s avenue of e s c a p e once more b u t I ' m s i c k o f t h e b u l l r.7.

shit.

I c a n ' t though.

There i s someone o u t t h e r e who r e a l l y l o v e s me, my f o s t e r Mom. I d o n ' t intend t o break h e r h e a r t again.

L i k e a n y t h i n g e l s e , a s George H a r r i s o n s a n g , " A l l t h i n g s must No m a t t e r how l o n g o n e pass." may be i n a n y o r g a n i z a t i o n , powe r goes t o t h e heads of f o o l s .

I w a i t i t o u t b u t i f t h e r e i s no c h a n g e , I l e a v e . T h a t ' s why I ' m not going t o meetings everyday:, I ! v e n o n e e 6 o f g a r b a g e from them..my l i f e i s my own and n o t t o b e e x p l o i t e d by a s s h o l e s who t h i n k t h e y know e v e r y t h i n g .

I know one t h i n g f o r s u r e : i t i s how much money I ' v e g o t a t any g i v e n t i m e . A.A. i s a f e l l owship, a g a t h e r i n g o f a s e l e c t body o f members, a n d t h a t v s i t .

I ' v e almost f i f t e e n years of s o b r i e t y . A.A. h a s b e e n p e a c e f u l t h e l a s t two months a s I ' v e s t e p p e d down I find that I c a n s t a n d on my own two f e e t a l o n e and s t i l l n o t d r i n k .

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By FRANK H. PARKER

THE NEWSLETTER I S A PUBLICATION OF THE CARNEGIE COMMUNITY CENTRE ASSOCIATION

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When you walk i n t h e d o o r t h e f i r s t q u e s t i o n asked i 9 "Do you know how t o u s e ? 11 I f you answer "Oh, s u r e , " you may be a l i t t l e s h a k e n when Kel Baker s a y s , "You d o n ' t know a n y t h i n g . " As t h e most e x p e r i e n c e d and knowledgable p e r s o n t h e r e , Kel does t h i s a s a m a t t e r o f c o u r s e . The s a f e t y o f t h e p e o p l e and p r o p e r u s e o f t h e c u t t i n g and s h a p i n g machines a r e h i s main c o n c e r n / r e s p o n s i b i l i t y - t o ensure t h a t t h o s e u s i n g t h e shop l e a v e a s whole a s t h e y were coming i n .

T h i s i s a Hobby/Do-it-Your s e l f o r i e n t e d woodworking s h o p , f o r women and men. K e l , as supervisor, w i l l a s s i s t and i n s t r u c t u s e r s on a p e r s o n a 1 b a s i s . The a n n u a l members h i p f e e i s $15.00, but u n t i l t h e end o f A p r i l i s o n l y $5.U0 Non-members pay a u s e r - f e e o f $2.50 an h o u r . open t o members. A l l s h o p u s e r s must a w a i v e r and p a s s a general safety auiz before u s i n g shop e q u i p m e n t .

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Snooker i s a game o f s k i l l and s t r a t e g y . Being b r o k e makes r e g u l a r p r a c t i c e h a r d t o m a i n t a i n , b u t t h e 'amazi n 1 d e a l of $5.00 a y e a r a t t h e C a r n e g i e Pool Room i s drawing many good p l a y e r s .

Tournaments a r e now ongoing monthly w i t h an e n t r y f e e o f $2.00 and a d o u b l e e l i m i n a t i o n f o r m a t . (Losing t h e f i r s t game d o e s n ' t p u t you o u t of t h e running).

The Blake Denham ~ e m o ; i a l .

Tournament was h e l d on Dec.11 w i t h l{ic t o r Munroe w i n n i n g , J o e Hunter coming second and A l b e r t a Williams p l a c i n g third.

On S a t u r d a y , J a n . 1 7 , t h e n e x t tournament w i l l t a k e p l a c e and i t w i l l be a b i g one. P r i z e s w i l l be: F i r s t $100.00; Second - $ 5 0 . 0 0 ; T h i r d - $ 2 5 . 0 0 . Because of t h e s e much h i g h e r p r i z e s t h e e n t r y f e e f o r t h i s one e v e n t w i l l be $5.00 and a members h i p must be v a l i d f o r a l l p l a y e r s . There w i l l be r e f e r e e s f o r a l l games.

The bittersweet scales of justice A c o u p l e of b u l l e t i n s from t h e war zone, a b o u t p e o p l e a l o t of you know..

B e v e r l e y - J e a n n e Whitney, a Carnegie v o l u n t e e r , got s i x months r e c e n t l y . She t o o k a Molotov c o c k t a i l - g a s o l i n e i n a b o t t l e w i t h a wick i n it i n t o a Red Hot v i d e o s t o r e , planning t o burn i t , a f t e r a fx-iend of h e r s was r a p e d and b e a t e n -by a. - man1who had been ~~~~c,~i2#T VL-.A +LAIUUVCUvbJ.

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Because t h e w e i g h t o f j u s t i c e sometimes cames down h a r d e r on one s c a l e t h a n a n o t h e r - u s u a l l y when p o o r p e o p l e l i k e Bev, without a lawyer, a r e involvedt h e evidence of h e r f r i e n d t h e v i c t i m was r u l e d i n a d m i s s a b l e .

But t h e s c a l e s t i l t e d when a bunch of p e o p l e w r o t e l e t t e r s and g o t up on t h e w i t n e s s s t a n d t o t a l k a b o u t M s . W h i t n e y ' s work i n tL2 community, a b o u t h e r g u t s h e r humanity, h e r e n e r g y , t h e h e l p i n g hand s h e h a s e x t e n d e d t o many.

And i t was good, t o o , t o s e e Beverley-Jeanne r e p r e s e n t h e r s e l f w i t h t y p i c a l t o u g h n e s s and i n t e g r i t y . She d i d n ' t back down, d i d n ' t accept the Judge's i n v i t a t i o n t o r e p e n t , e x p r e s s remorse.. she repeated t h a t Pattison s e l l s t h e a d u l t m a g a z i n e s . Good f o r you Bev. See you s o o n . .

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h e a r t , t o a guy a s b i g a s a h o u s e , who may have t a k e n on a bigger f i s h than Pattisont h e b u r e a u c r a c y ! Wayne Delnea, sometime doorman a t B r a n d i z (and a g e n t l e man i f you d o n ' t h i t him f i r s t ) i s t r y i n g v e r y h a r d t o do w h i t weak-kneed governments have n e i t h e r t h e gumption, e n e r g y o r savvy t o do - c r e a t e j o b s " He s t a r t e d h i s P e o p l e Mover -< -~ r - - , r j ~n~z t ~f h : ~ c-k12 r~;; room, wheeled and d e a l e d i t i n t o a s t o r e f r o n t i n Gastown But h i s p r o j e c t n e e d s g r a n t money. The i d e a i s s i m p l e .

He f i n d s employers who want t o h i r e p e o p l e f o r a few h o u r s o r a few d a y s , and t h e j o b s he f i n d go t o p e o p l e whe need them i n o u r a r e a . I t ' s s i m p l e and i t i s working. Bue t h e guy i s t r y i n g t o f i n a n c e t h e t h i n g o u t of h i s own . w e l f a r e cheque, r a t h e r t h a n t a k i n g a c u t o f t h e employees pay. H e ' s t r i e d f o r f u n d i n g b u t w h i l e 'governments throw money down e v e r y c o r p o r a t e r a t - h o l e they can f i n d , a guy l i k e Wayne, from t h e s t r e e t , a guy w i t h a good i d e a , c a n ' t g e t a few t h o u . . *

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from p a g e 4 t h a t make money, b u t i n doing so cautioned t h a t the p l a n m i g h t b e g r e a t b u t none c a n b e done a l o n e o r w i t h , j u s t a handful of people.

One s u g g e s t i o n by Wally B a r d y s h was t o h a v e a b e n i f i t done by a l o c a l Vancouver c e l e b r i t y .

However a n d w h a t e v e r i s p r o p o s e d , many v o l u n t e e r s w i l l be n e e d e d t o make e a c h e v e n t a s u c c e s s . I f you h a v e an i d e a o r can help, p l e a s e s e e Muggs o r a Board member.

By PAUL TAYLOR

PRE-CHRISTIAN NEW YEAR CELEBRATIONS! L o c a t e d i n C a j u n , Mexico, i s a seven-storied step-pyramid b u i l t by t h e a n c i e n t Mayans, w h i c h h a s 365 n i c h e s b u i l t i n t o its structure.

Archaeologists speculate t h a t t h e Mayans may h a v e p l a c e d 365 l i g h t e d c a n d l e s i n t h e s e n i c h e s i n c e l e b r a t i o n of t h e new y e a r .

The a n c i e n t E g y p t i a n s l i g h t e d 365 c a n d l e s i n b o a t s a n d s a i l e d them on a s a c r e d l a k e on t h e n i g h t o f t h e a l i g n m e n t of the s t a r S i r i u s with t h e r i s i n g s u n , which marked t h e s t a r t o f t h e new y e a r .

Tuesday Mourning B l u e s ( f o r Henry)

I ' v e u s e d a l l t h e words t h a t c o u l d e v e r e x p r e s s L_-..LL LIULIIS, my l i e s , my h e a r t a t b e s t .

To p a p e r I r a n w i t h i n k and p e n To p u r g e t h e g u i l t t h a t w r i t h e d w i t h i n .

C o n s i s t e n c y i s n o t my t r a d e .

T h a t w i l l come w i t h a s h o v e l and s p a d e .

Only t h e r e i n t h e e a r t h w i l l I f i n d t h e p e a c e T h a t was l o s t f r o m my s o u l i n t i m e s o f n e e d .

I once knew a c a l m t h a t e n g u l f e d my s o u l .

The p a s t was c l e a r .

I c o u l d w i s h f o r no more.

To o n c e more l e a v e t h e w o r l d b e h i n d .

T h a t i s my g i f t t o a l l mankind.

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