Carl Simmons

CARLCARL SIMMONSSIMMONS

Sucka Free World

Only thing I think about is staying sucka free. I have to remind myself to pay attention when someone is really talking to you. Cause if you talk to someone long enough, in a lot of words, they will tell you their heart.

I have to stay sucka free in this world. Cause you can’t trust a soul.

I refuse to fail. I’m going to win in everything I put my mind to.

I’m going to continue to get out my own way and work on my mind, body and my money.

Dark Times: The Rising Of A King

A dark time in my life is when I got locked up my first time. I had never been locked up for too long, and I was gone 14 months. It was a depressing time, but when they released me I got better because I was lost in jail. Over thinking, worried about my kids, but I moved past that time. Now, I’m better and I can look back like, “I needed to go through that to get to the next level.”

My ride back from prison, when I got out 6-28-21, it was like an hour drive. My Little cousin and friend picked me up. Driving back with them was different this time. It was different because this time, I was getting off papers. No cases, no nothing, complete freedom is back. That’s all I can think of. Also the opportunity I have to do whatever I want to do whenever I want. So this ride changed me cause it also humbled me.

I can look back on some of the times in jail and say it made me better, but it also hurt me. Now, I feel more alone even though I have people who care for me. It made me an angry person. At times when I get angry, I feel unpredictable. I don’t know what I will do, so I try to stay in a good mood. I feel everyone be against me at times. When I think about being in a cell, I think about being alone, forgotten.

I don’t even like closing my room door, if it’s only me in the home. I feel like we in a cell; I be having to open the door. Jail helped me as far as reading people and noticing the signs when someone has another agenda. I play dumb sometimes and try to act like the old me, that’s when I notice a lot of things and the way people act around me.