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Sun Alumna Runs for Mayor

By SOFIA RUBINSON

Editor

When Katie Sims ’20 first started at Cornell, she was determined to uncover the mysteries related to environmental science. But instead, she discovered her passion for political advocacy that led to her campaign as an Independent for city mayor.

Sims is running as a progressive candidate to the left of current Acting Mayor Laura Lewis, who is run ning on the Democratic ticket after being appointed when former Mayor Svante Myrick ’09 stepped down from the position in February. Local conservative Zachary Winn is running as a Republican, and the winner will only serve for one year, finishing off Myrick’s term.

Sims dedicated much of her time at Cornell to The Sun, serving on the editorial board as the arts editor, associate editor and then senior editor.

“That was really my first big political campaign ing experience,” Sims said. “Cornell presents itself as a progressive, compassionate, supportive institution. But that doesn’t necessarily come across in all of its actions.”

A little over a year after graduation, Sims campaigned to fill the Common Council seat for Ithaca’s fourth Ward after the seat became vacant in August 2021

Cornellians Prepare For Family Weekend

By MARISA CEFOLA Sun Contributor

With this year’s Family Weekend kicking off on Friday, first-year students are eager to show their families a piece of their Cornell experiences thus far.

An expected 3,000 family members and guests will visit campus this weekend. Director of Parent and Family Programs Lindsey Bray noted that this year’s lack of COVID-19 restrictions allows for expanded programming compared to the past few years.

“We are excited to bring back a more traditional and highly engaging experience for our families,” Bray wrote in an email to The Sun. “Families will have even more opportuni ties to connect with faculty and staff throughout the weekend this year.”

Parents, siblings and grand parents are traveling from across the country to Ithaca, some for the first time since move-in day.

The weekend provides fam ilies the opportunity to expe rience campus alongside their students. First-year students, who have spent the semester settling into their routines, can tour campus with their families without the added stress of ori entation week events.

“[I’m looking forward to] getting to show my parents the new life that I’ve been build ing for myself here and show them what it’s like to live here on a daily basis,” said Maya Weisberg ’26.

Popular events include climbing to the top of McGraw Tower to enjoy a Chimes Concert and view of West Campus, walking through the Botanic Gardens and watching the sunset on Libe Slope. Firstyear students expressed partic ular excitement at visiting the slope with their families.

“Whenever I sit [on the slope], especially during the sunset, it makes me realize how grateful I am to be here, and I want to show my family that,” said Katie Conley ’26.

”The Sun was really formative to me, putting down roots in Ithaca, coming downtown and working at the office covering stories in the art scene in town,” Sims said. “It introduced me to a lot of Ithaca, and was one of the main reasons why I decided I wanted to stay here long term.”

Sims also was involved in Climate Justice Cornell and helped coordinate an ultimately successful cam paign to stop the University’s investment in fossil fuels.

Alumni Face Financial Conficts of Interest

By AIMÉE EICHER Sun Assistant News Editor

A recent investigation by The New York Times disclosed that 97 current members of Congress reported that they, their spouses or their depen dent children traded financial assets within companies directly impacted by their congressional work, including three Cornell alumni — Rep. Katherine M. Clark ’89 (D-Mass.), Rep. Dan Meuser ’88 (R-Pa.) and Rep. Kurt Schrader ’73 (D-Ore.). Clark, who serves as assistant speaker of the House, sits on the

Congressional Subcommittee on Labor, Health and Human Services, Education and Related Agencies. The committee decides funding for the Department of Health and Human Services, which has negotiated contracts with several health care compa nies in which Clark’s husband traded stocks.

contract. Several days after the contract’s announcement, the shares were sold.

In a statement to The Times, Clark’s office said that she “sup ports strengthening current rules to ban individual stock trades directed by members of Congress during their tenure and measures to reduce even the appearance of a conflict of interest.”

The investigation noted the purchase of two shares of Hologic in 2020, about a week before the U.S. Department of Health and Human Services and U.S. Department of Defense awarded the company a $119 million COVID-19 testing

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In addition to showing their families around campus, firstyear students look forward to spending time with their fami lies amidst the stress of prelims, classes and adjusting to a col lege lifestyle.

“It’s been, really, the first time where I’ve gone through long stretches of time without seeing [my family], so it’ll be nice to do some activities with them once they’re here,” Nick Paslar Bunemer ’26 said.

Family Weekend fun | This weekend, visiting families can enjoy many activities across campus, such as climbing up McGraw Tower, with their students.

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From columnist to candidate | Katie Sims '20 is running as an Independent in the Ithaca mayoral election.

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Berger International Speaker Series with Leslie Glick: Trump and Biden: Is This the End of Free Trade

As We Have Known it?

12:15 p.m. - 1:15 p.m., Cornell Law School, Zhu Faculty Lounge

From Camouflage to Composition: Papermaking Workshop

3 p.m. - 6 p.m., Johnson Museum of Art

Inequality Discussion Group with Barum Park And Cristobal Young

3:30 p.m. - 4:30 p.m., Uris Hall G08

2022 Zoetis Research Award Seminar: Carolyn Adler

4 p.m. - 5 p.m., Schurman Hall, Lecture Hall 4

Harry Caplan Travel Fellowship Information Meeting

4:30 p.m., Goldwin Smith Hall 122

The Belitung Shipwreck: Connections to the Ancient And Modern Muslim World

4:30 p.m., Morrill Hall 404

Economics Internship Panel: Finance, Banking And Consulting Focus

5 p.m. - 6:30 p.m., Uris Hall 498

Shop Talk: The Ins and Outs of Working With a Literary Agent: From Query Letter to Book Deal

5 p.m., Goldwin Smith Hall 258 Dutch Conversation Hour

5:30 p.m., Stimson Hall G24A

Interesting Plants in Unexpected Places

7 p.m., Cornell Botanic Gardens’ Nevin Welcome Center

Professor Gil Anidjar

Columbia University

The Sovereignty of Mothers

October 24 Mother and Slave 5:00pm—A.D. White House, Guerlac Room

October 25—The Mother’s Two Bodies 5:00pm—A.D. White House, Guerlac Room

October 25—The Sovereignty of Mothers 5:00pm—Goldwin Smith Hall, Room G76

Cornell Prison Education Alum Shares Path

By XINYU HU

In the summer of 2014, Jodi Anderson Jr. attend ed his first Cornell classes through the Cornell Prison Education Program as an inmate at Auburn prison, hoping to change his life inside the dark cell room.

Six years later, Anderson completed his bachelor’s degree in Political Science and Government and master’s degree in Education at Stanford University, now return ing to Cornell to inspire and motivate Cornellians.

Motivated to establish a pipeline of steady employ ment and opportunities for formerly incarcerated indi viduals, Anderson founded his own business, Rézme, to help and encourage justice-impacted individuals to transition back into society.

Anderson spoke to the Cornell community on Wednesday, Oct. 12 at Ives Hall. The event was spon

sored by Cornell Prison Reform and Education Project, the Advocacy Project and the Spanish Debate and Argumentation Society.

Early in his life, Anderson was separated from his birth mother and forced to wander across the country homeless, finding beds at dusty shelters, until he reunit ed with his siblings in Brooklyn, New York. His foster brother introduced him to the underground economy and ways to make money, motivating him to work hard and escape poverty.

Growing up, Anderson had a prior belief that impov erished people would always lack access to educational resources and social capital, creating the idea of “pov erty of the mind.” According to Anderson, this state of mind dissuades impoverished individuals from seeking education and become stuck in a downward cycle until they end up in prison, self-reinforcing their poverty.

In 2009, Anderson was arrested for car theft and

Family Weekend to Begin Events Friday

Some students, like Weisberg, look forward to showing their families the pock ets of nature around campus.

“I’m excited to walk them around and show them the

beautiful fall foliage, the waterfalls and just be in the nature aspect of the campus,” Weisberg said.

Students also plan to explore the natural offerings of the surrounding Ithaca area with their families. Conley and Manraj Singh ’26 look forward to visiting local waterfalls.

“I’m excited to just show my family how ‘gorges’ Ithaca is,” Singh said.

Marisa Cefola can be reached at mrc258@cornell.edu.

imprisoned at a juvenile correctional facility. During his time in prison, Anderson realized he craved a better and more meaningful life and was eager to attend school again.

“The only way to make some change in life is to put them inside of a cage, no sunlight, food, water, books, and human interaction,” Anderson said. “Coming into a [new] space is terribly cool.”

After passing an entrance examination, Anderson started taking classes through Cornell Prison Education Program, where he found a community to support him.

“[My academic breakthrough] inspired the whole team,” Anderson said. “Some professors literally launched a campaign to the parole board and governor to get me out of prison.”

Three weeks after getting out of prison, I began to

Katie Sims ’20 Runs for City Mayor

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However, the selection committee ultimately picked Cornell student Patrick Mehler ’23 to serve on the Council.

Despite her defeat, Sims remained motivated to stay involved in city politics. Sims was a member of the Ithaca Tenants Union and campaigned to get good cause eviction legislation passed, which would prevent landlords from terminating a tenancy except in the case of a lease violation. A couple of weeks after the legisla tion received the final ‘no’ from the city’s Planning and Economic Development Committee, Sims received an email from her land

lord informing her that she could not renew her lease.

“This was an arbitrary non-re newal. I didn’t break any terms of my lease,” Sims said. “I planned on trying to run for office, but in those next couple of months, I was spend ing so much time looking for hous ing, I didn’t know if I was actually going to be able to stay inside the city boundaries, or if I was going to have to move out beyond the edges of the city.”

Sims eventually secured rental housing in Ithaca, but only after missing the deadline to petition to run on the Democratic tick et. So, she decided to run as an Independent.

“Since Ithaca is such a strong progressive city, I knew that there wasn’t really a risk of splitting the vote and letting a more conserva tive candidate win,” Sims said. “I thought it was still important that I run, that I get these issues out here and that we don’t just accept the status quo candidate without having a real conversation about what the issues facing Ithacans are and what we can do to address them.”

Sims’s platform is centered around housing, the climate, eco nomic justice and public safety. Passing the good cause eviction pol icy is Sims’s top priority to ensure that Ithacans can have secure hous ing.

“In this city rents are rising so fast, and there is such a scarcity of housing, that being pushed out

of your house might mean being pushed out of the city, or might mean trying for months to find a new place,” Sims said. “It’s under mining tenants’ ability to have stable lives.”

Sims said the majority of Common Council is made up of homeowners, which does not reflect the population of Ithaca, as 73 per cent of households in Ithaca were renters in 2015. Sims aims to repre sent renters’ needs.

Ensuring Ithaca has a commit ment to environmental justice is also high on Sim’s priorities, as she was a supporter of the Ithaca Green New Deal and believes it provides a good framework for addressing climate change. Sims would also like to see more sustainable transporta tion options and more investments in local community organizations when it comes to addressing envi ronmental issues.

In terms of public safety, Sims envisions programs that address the root cause of crime and divert residents from incarceration into the healthcare system, especially for incidents involving substance use.

“We really need to approach public safety in a proactive way instead of just responding when vio lence or crimes happen,” Sims said.

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Sofa Rubinson can be reached at srubinson@cornellsun.com.

“I’m excited to just show my family how ‘gorges’ Ithaca is.”

50,000 Bulbs Planted

Garden Club ‘daf-a-dazzled’ local trail

By SAM JOHNSTONE Sun Contributor

Ithaca Garden Club and Ithaca Children’s Garden came together on Thursday to plant 50,000 daffodil bulbs along the Cayuga Waterfront Trail.

The effort, dubbed “Daff-aDazzle” by the Ithaca Garden Club, began three years ago when the club brought forth a vision of blooming flowers lining the trail. The most recent planting was the third planting event, part of the five-year plant ing plan.

“The end product would be to make sure that we have flow ering bulbs along the Waterfront Trail from beginning to end,” Ithaca City Forester Jeanne Grace said. “We’re focusing a lot at Cass Park right now, but there’s spaces we have to fill at Stewart Park as well.”

While the city is working with the Ithaca Garden Club to help organize the project, all the funding comes from the club directly. The recent purchasing of 50,000 bulbs cost around $15,000, most of which the club fundraised themselves.

The Garden Club also takes donations from the public, some of which were brought in by scannable QR codes placed around the trail.

The city’s goal in supporting this project is to brighten up the community, especially as the weather transitions from winter to spring.

“It’s so uplifting and cheerful after a long gray and cold winter to have all these bright, cheery yellow and orange flowers coming right out of the lawn,” Grace said.

The club chose daffodils for a number of reasons, includ ing their reliable sprouting each season and the fact that deer, a common problem for flora in the area, don’t eat them.

The event lasted just over two hours and was attended by at least a dozen volunteers and club members, some of whom were Cornell University stu dents working under the guid ance of Prof. Bill Miller, integra tive plant science.

Miller assisted with the plant ing of the bulbs through the use of a Dutch planting machine.

“This machine plants the bulbs under the grass,” Miller said. “It’s pulled along by a trac tor and it cuts the sod, lifts the sod up and then the bulbs drugs under the ground. As the machine goes forward, the sod comes back down and it gets pressed into place by wheels in the back.”

The machine has successfully transformed a typically labor-in tensive process into one that only requires people to reload bulbs into the bed.

Miller estimates that there are only a handful of these machines in America — his was a gift from a Dutch bulb export company that he has been work ing with for nearly 25 years. Miller was a graduate student at Cornell during the ‘80s and returned to work at Cornell as a professor.

“I got my research program going when I came here again, in 1998, and that was a prog gram involving flower bulbs,” Miller said. “We just stopped it

this summer after 24 years, but we have been working with the Dutch flower bulb export indus try on flower bulb usage in North America and Canada, mostly for greenhouse production.”

And six years ago, the com pany sent him the bulb planting machine, which has proven to be extremely beneficial to the Ithaca community.

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Sam Johnstone can be reached at scj54@cornell.edu.

Path From Prison to Stanford

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audit classes. I took Chinese courses, govern ment courses and tons of ILR courses … That really gave me the confidence that it changed my own fate. I think life has changed drasti cally for me at that moment.”

Despite the warm support he received from most of the faculty, some of the Cornell community weren’t convinced of his new path, which inspired Anderson to seek a new environment to reach his full potential. With the help of Cornell professors, Anderson transferred to Stanford.

Coming into Stanford, Anderson was exposed to Palo Alto’s technological atmo sphere, inspiring him to further learn the subject area.

“There are robots moving around and

drones flying around. All these technologies really captured my mind,” Anderson said.

“And then, instead of focusing on the defi ciencies in the system that I have already encountered, I started shifting my attention to all the opportunities that were in front of me at the moment and how I’d like to stop those [deficiencies].”

Palo Alto’s technology inspired Anderson to launch Rézme, a technology compa ny aiming to provide incarcerated people with employment opportunities and help build their professional development after prison.

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Xinyu Hu can be reached at xh285@cornell.edu.

An Afternoon With Solmaz Sharif — Worth It?

On Sept. 29, Klarman Hall welcomed Solmaz Sharif for a reading of selected works from her books of poetry, Look and Customs, as part of the 2022 David and Barbara Zalaznick Reading Series. Sharif was born in Istanbul, Turkey to Iranian parents and is a naturalized American citizen. Her debut collection Look was a finalist for the 2016 National Book Award, and her new collection Customs was published in March of this year. For poetry newcomers and seasoned enthusiasts alike, Solmaz Sharif’s reading was delightfully provocative in its presen tation of beauty, oppression and violence in cultural and political landscapes.

Dressed in a dark green gown, Sharif began with her poem “Look.” “Whereas I felt the need to clarify: You would put up with / TORTURE, you mean and he pro claimed: Yes;” she read. “Whereas what is your life.” In fragments, Sharif presents jarring accounts of daily encounters to capture the realities of trauma and exclu sion that leave individuals feeling trapped in a perpetual state of dislocation.

Continuing with “Deception Story,” Sharif framed more concretely how such uncertainty is tied to barriers of language and of government in ways of state-spon sored language and immigration policies.

As a poet, she has had to bear a palpable level of disillusionment, and Sharif emphasized how the elusive uncertainties of identity have left her questioning both cultural and literary customs.

Despite the many awards she won, Sharif maintains caution in a whole hearted embrace of such literary suc cesses. She explores these ideas in Customs and provided the audience with insights into her process.

“What started as customs of the US and of the borders very quickly became about the customs of liter ary production and the customs of English itself and what it means to be a poet and what is asked of us in a quiet and not so quiet way,” she shared.

She transitioned with a seasoned ease to further explore these customs in “Patronage” and “The Master’s House” and found herself meditating on the life she might otherwise have had in an excerpt from “An Otherwise.” She ended on “Solmaz, have you thanked your executioner today?” from “Social Skills Training.”

With a collected disposition and a bal anced delivery used to spectacular effect, her poems weave effortlessly between the personal and political themes for which she is known. Attention to Sharif’s vis ceral and honest depictions of imperfect

realities held an emotional heaviness felt by audience members.

An afternoon with Solmaz Sharif dis played the numerous aspects of poetry to be appreciated as a genre. For listeners, Sharif’s astute insights capture façades, realities and complexities in American contemporary society. For students, her poems force us to question our coher ence to the loudest considerations and contemplate the significance of silence in marginalizing individuals. And impor tantly, for skeptics, Sharif’s work rep resents why poetry as a medium remains significant today.

Reminding the audience that poetry is a vital tool for social progress, Sharif

shared the inextricable link between poetry and activism. “It made sense that poetry and politics go together because language and politics go together,” she said. “And for me, the poem was the most capacious space to hold all that.”

Professor Valzhyna Mort, Department of Literatures in English, the moderator of the reading, also described poetry as a necessary space for “socially inappropri ate and communicatively impossible sub jects.” Without a doubt, Sharif’s portraits of exile, war and trauma do precisely that in striving to express the inexpressible.

Anna Ying is a sophomore in the College of Arts & Sciences. She can be reached at ay328@cornell.edu.

A Stylish Sophomore Slump of Cinema

VIOLET GOODING SUN STAFF

In an intimate conversation between Don’t Worry Darling’s central couple Jack (Harry Styles) and Alice (Florence Pugh), Jack reveals his desire for a child. “I want more of you. I want a little you. I don’t know, I think I’d be fun,” he says. For Jack, a baby is an aesthetic choice, a toy to suit his whims, but for Alice, it’s the disintegration of her daily life and her identity rather than a tiny lookalike. In a film that tries to be both an erotic thriller and a femi nist commentary, small moments like these encapsulate Jack’s char acter: he means well, but doesn’t care to listen. Perhaps director Olivia Wilde’s execution of the film is similar: the shiny surface is beautiful, but the message gets shattered after too many cracks.

Don’t Worry Darling follows Alice, a 1950s housewife living in the Victory Project, a suburban idyll with something despicable under the surface. Pugh and Styles work convincingly well as a cou ple, but as expected, Pugh acts circles around Styles, especially in the film’s more dramatic scenes. In my movie theater, a gaggle of teenage girls even started laughing every time Styles was given a dra matic line.

As a setting, the film renders Victory in pristine detail and deftly walks the line between a caricature of a 1950s utopia and a

real, familiar Southern California suburb (something I know inti mately!). I’m tempted to say the seamless production design and costumes are what carry the film — when the dialogue is question able and Alice is yet again confid

crafted it into something slightly more instinctive, a few moments in the script are a little predict able and don’t help to quicken the more than two-hour run time, such as Jack telling Alice she’s “being hysterical” during a

end up being relevant to the plot besides the general messaging that the “separate sphere” ideology is damning. Maybe this would have been groundbreaking during the rise of Second-Wave feminism but at this point has just become

but there’s no denying it was mar keted as such. Wilde repeatedly proclaimed the film’s emphasis on female pleasure, which, frankly, seems out-of-place and misguided in a story that is so deeply about female control.

ing in someone and being gaslit, the viewer can bask in Bunny’s (Olivia Wilde) Rita Hayworthesque wardrobe, the mid-century modern finishes of the Victory homes or the freshly waxed pastel convertibles in the driveways. As for me, I can’t stop thinking about that dark wood record player/ armoire in a dinner party scene.

While Wilde and screenwriter Katie Silberman took an admit tedly hairbrained screenplay and

fight, and the “boys club” leading a chant of “Whose world is it? Ours!”

As a director, Wilde prioritiz es looks over content. You may have seen the film’s trailer, a high light reel of Stepford Wives visual gags: eggs breaking with nothing inside, Alice wrapping her head in saran, Alice getting pressed to death while cleaning a win dow. They’re visually satisfying and no doubt creative, but don’t

shorthand for a very limited view of women’s liberation. Even as the film’s more contemporary messaging emerges (no spoilers here!), too much time has passed in our Palm Springs fantasyland for us to delve into the true impli cations and consequences for the women in Wilde’s scenario.

This brings me to my next question: is Don’t Worry Darling a “feminist” film? Obviously that’s a loaded and multifaceted question,

On a lighter note, Wilde’s first feature Booksmart and Don’t Worry Darling share a few key similarities. There are the pool scenes as moments of clarity, the ongoing motif of dance and of course, the fantastic needle drops. However, the two films differ in their treatments of an ensemble cast. In Booksmart, even the love interests of the love interests were portrayed with precision — who can forget Billie Lourd’s unhinged Gigi, in all her feathered, ayahuas ca glory? Here, though, major comic players like Kate Berlant and Nick Kroll are criminally underutilized, left to play amica ble, gossipy neighbors. Chris Pine is a decently slimy antagonist, but his storyline is sidelined too much for him to become truly threatening.

Don’t Worry Darling may not be subtle, but it is gorgeous and compelling. When it tries to find nuance, it lands perfectly, but look closely and you’ll find that like Victory, the necessity of the film dissolves into smoke and mirrors.

Violet Gooding is a sophomore in the College of Arts and Sciences. She can be reached at vbg22@cornell.edu.

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There are maybe a dozen world-renowned “Billion Dollar Brands” in U.S. higher education — actually priceless brands in many cases.

Three that come quickly to mind are Harvard Business School, Wharton School of Business and The Cornell Hotel School.

This third renowned brand was recently purchased for $50 million, and its name was changed for the selling. Once again, Cornell failed at valuing its own brands that have been built up and made to stand for something over decades.

To Cornell, if everything has a price, like seats in theaters and buildings on campus, why not extend the process to even priceless college names? Fifty million dollars for the opportunity to rename the world class Cornell Hotel School. The purchasers got a real bargain. Did Cornell? Did the Hotel School alumni?

At the 2022 reunion this September I attended the “One Hundred Year Celebration of The Hotel School.” To find out that it was labeled “100 Years of the Nolan School” came off as a pedantic cry for attention, underwritten with money that turns Cornell administration heads all the way around like Lewis Carroll cartoons.

To have my name tag say: “Jim Quest, 1956 graduate of The Nolan School” (which has existed for perhaps three years) was nauseatingly inaccurate and creepily presumptive.

You can’t buy heritage or respect. And Cornell can’t really sell it either. But they tried. I will forever respect the Cornel School of Hotel Administration. The Nolan School? As for the Cornell brand itself … I suppose it depends on how much they get for its name.

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Daniela Wise-Rojas is a sophomore in the College of Arts and Sciences. She can be reached at dwise-rojas@cornellsun.com. She currently serves as Dining Editor on the 140th Editorial Board. Anything But MunDANIties runs periodically this semester.

Being Honest With a Counselor

Trigger warning: this piece contains exten sive discussion of suicidal ideation, depression, self-harm and hospitalization.

come back,” I said.

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my knees to my chest, tears rolling down my cheek, I sobbed into the phone; “I dreamed that I jumped off a bridge and killed myself the other night. I can’t stop thinking about it.”

I only called the Cornell counseling line because a trusted adult told me it would be good, considering that my therapist took the week off, and dying was on my mind. Bombarded with questions I didn’t know the answer to, I couldn’t answer confidently that I felt safe. I just wanted to die.

Struggles with depression are common, especially at Cornell. However, no one (or at least very few) discusses their struggles pub licly. I think I’m writing this because I need to, as a form of therapy and to inform peo ple about what happens when you disclose wanting to end your life in some way to a counselor. I’m so sorry if you can relate to anything I’m saying. I hope things get better and you know that you’re loved.

That day, Cornell police were called. They were required to take me to the hospi tal — they had the right to take me against my will. I felt a strong, gut-wrenching sense of shame as I walked through the halls of my beloved dorm (where I’m a Resident Advisor), accompanied by a close friend and followed by two Cornell police officers. Tears streamed down my face as I gave my coworker the on-call phone and climbed into the ambulance; it was almost as if some one pressed “pause” on my voice. I could barely form sentences.

Upon arriving at the hospital, they gave me the option to walk inside. I refused, knowing that I would lack the motivation to step inside. They had me change into scrubs and grippy socks and stripped me of all my rights and belongings, allowing me to keep my glasses and teddy bear. CUPD followed the ambulance, and my friends had my car and were following CUPD. This was my first time going to the hospital for depression, and it wouldn’t be my last. Luckily, I wasn’t admitted, and I think it was just being in the hospital alone in a room for seven hours that scared me. I told myself I was better. I did the hard work of asking for help, but now I was scared and wanted to go home to my dorm.

A week later, it happened again. I don’t know what triggered it. It’s all fuzzy to this day. I felt numb. Sitting in my bed, a plan started to slowly formulate. I was paralyzed with fear. I had an urge to overdose on my medications and jump off the bridge near my dorm. I texted a trusted adult. She told me to get my friends to take me to the hos pital immediately.

I didn’t want to get help, but I was so empty with emotions that I knew I needed help.

My friends decided we should get some food at my favorite Korean restaurant in Collegetown and then go from there, constantly keeping an eye on me. My friend asked me how I was feeling after eating; “Better, but I know once you leave, it will

Back to grippy socks we go. This time, I walked inside, not afraid of the hospital, escorted by my friends who drove me there. I learned last time how helpful the nurses were, how caring they are and how the more honest you are, the more likely you are to get the help you need. Being dishonest only gets you so far.

“Maybe it’s Cornell.” It’s not. Cornell is one of the best things that’s ever happened to me. I’m the first in my family to go to college. No, I didn’t write about this in my admissions essays. None of it was processed, and I wasn’t ready to share that with the world. It’s the fact that I’m on my own in college, finally left to my own devices, strug gling to cope with my past trauma.

I should have been honest when I was in high school. My mom asked me if I ever thought about taking my own life after a friend died by suicide during my freshman year of high school. I was too distraught to know what any of it meant. I lied when she asked me again during my senior year when another classmate died from suicide. I was scared. I heard the

fear in her voice. By this point, I’ve seriously considered suicide more than once for reasons related to my family/personal life.

Like last time, they had me change into scrubs and grippy socks, stripped me of all my rights and belongings and allowed me to keep my glasses and teddy bear. This time, I voluntarily complied. The same social worker talked with me the last time I was in the hospital. Luckily, she knew all my history. I was honest. I told them my plan, then curled up into a ball under the hospital blanket, in a room intentionally stripped of anything I could hurt myself with and a table where someone could watch me 24/7.

The social worker evaluated me, telling me she would let me know what the psychi atrist said and would be back in a few min utes. Ten minutes later, she told me, “The doctor recommends that you be admitted to the behavioral unit.” I asked to write down some phone numbers from my phone, signed some scary paperwork, acknowledged I’m mentally ill and am voluntarily commit ting myself to the psychiatric ward and was given a guide handbook to being inpatient in the Cayuga adult behavioral unit.

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I’m writing to inform people about what happens when you disclose wanting to end your life in some way to a counselor.

Where does a hotelie alum now say he graduated from?

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Fill in the empty cells, one number in each, so that each column, row, and region contains the num bers 1-9 exactly once. Each number in the solution therefore occurs only once in each of the three “directions,” hence the “single numbers” implied by the puzzle’s name.

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Football Tops Lehigh

Cornell completes a sweep of its non-conference schedule

By AARON SNYDER

Sports Editor

In a sport with huge rosters and 22 players on the field at a time, it’s not often that one player — especially one who isn’t a quarterback — single handed ly changes the outcome of a game.

But on Saturday, junior lineback er Connor Henderson was the differ ence maker in Cornell’s 19-15 win over Lehigh at Schoellkopf Field.

Two key plays by Henderson - a fum ble recovery in the first half and a pick-six in the second half, were critical to lifting Cornell (3-2, 0-2 Ivy) over the Mountain Hawks (1-6, 1-1 Patriot League).

“[He] loves the game, loves his team mates and plays with tremendous pas sion,” said head coach David Archer ’05. “It’s not surprising to see him step up and make a momentum changing play… He was the difference in the game.”

The significance of Henderson’s big plays was amplified in the context of a tight and low scoring affair. The two teams combined for two offensive touch downs and went five for nine on field goal tries in a game that never saw more than a possession of separation.

Henderson’s big plays and Cornell’s strong red zone defense ultimately put the Red on top. On six trips to the red zone, Lehigh only found the end zone once.

“We were in the red zone the major ity of the game,” Henderson said. “Everything we do in practice, we’re preparing for that. We pride ourselves on swarming the ball, and that’s what we did.”

The strong red zone defense made up for a sloppy start to the game. Lehigh opened the game with a 17 play, 61-yard drive down the field, but the Red’s defense firmed up in the red zone and forced the Mountain Hawks to settle for a field goal.

On Cornell’s first offensive play of the game, sophomore quarterback Jameson Wang fumbled while trying to get rid of the ball in a collapsing pocket. Wang’s arm appeared to be moving forward, but the replay review system was not working, so the call stood as a fumble and Lehigh took over on the Cornell 15-yard line.

Once again, the defense came up big in the red zone and held the Mountain Hawks to a 21-yard field goal that gave Lehigh an early 6-0 lead.

“I said to the guys after the game, remember this day for future games and for your life because sometimes the day just doesn’t feel like it’s your day,” Archer said. “Somehow these guys found anoth er gear to come away with the victory and I’m proud of that.”

On its second time on the field, Wang and the Cornell offense erased the early deficit. A 29-yard completion to junior wide receiver Nicholas Laboy set Cornell up on Lehigh’s 10-yard line. On the next play, Wang scrambled and took it in himself to give Cornell a 7-6 lead.

Lehigh had no trouble marching down the field on its ensuing possession. The Mountain Hawks methodically put together a nine play, 63-yard drive into the red zone, but Cornell once again stopped the drive and forced Lehigh

to attempt a field goal. The Mountain Hawks’ 19-yard field goal missed, which left Cornell’s 7-6 lead intact.

“[Lehigh] was taking the top off and sliding people underneath for the short gains,” Archer said. “But you can’t take the top off in the red zone, and all of our coverage was condensed.”

After a three-and-out by the offense, Henderson came up big with a fumble recovery midway through the second quarter.

“We got heads on the ball and swarmed to the ball, and then someone punched it out,” Henderson said. “That’s just another example of us swarming.

Cornell capital ized on the turnover with a field goal on its next drive to take a 10-6 lead.

Lehigh answered with an 82-yard run deep into Cornell territory, but was once again forced to settle for a field goal to cut its deficit to 10-9.

Cornell took over with just over two minutes left and a chance to add to its lead before halftime. Instead, a fumble by Wang at midfield set up a touchdown drive for the Mountain Hawks and it was Lehigh that led, 15-10, at half.

“I had a few words at halftime… about picking up our entire operation because I was not happy with how we were playing,” Archer said. “It was slop py. We didn’t dictate the tempo the way we wanted to.”

Cornell got the ball out of half and had a chance to reclaim the lead, but junior kicker Jackson Kennedy’s field goal try hit the left upright.

Once again, Henderson picked up the offense. Lehigh quarterback Dante Perri rolled out of the pocket on second down, and Henderson crept up to contain him. Perri tried to find a man downfield, but Henderson intercepted the pass and ran it back 31-yards for a touchdown.

“It was amazing,” Henderson said. “It was a surreal feeling.”

Cornell could not convert a two-point attempt, but led 16-15 after the pick-six.

The defense forced a punt on Lehigh’s next possession, but Cornell failed to add to its lead after Kennedy missed a short field goal try.

After driving into Cornell territory, Lehigh had an opportunity to regain the lead in the fourth quarter when it lined up for a 29-yard field goal attempt. Junior defensive lineman Manny Adebi reached up and got a hand on the ball, and the attempt fell short.

With eight and a half minutes left in the game, Cornell put together a brief field goal drive to extend its lead.

Lehigh took over trailing by four with four minutes left. The Red’s defense quickly forced a third and ten, but a questionable pass interference call against Cornell set the Mountain Hawks up in Cornell territory. Lehigh converted a

third and eight to enter the red zone with 54 seconds left.

“I think that was indicative of the whole day,” Archer said. “I’m so proud of our response to us not playing well, maybe some calls not going our way… but we dug deep to win the game. That feels awesome.”

With the game on the line, the defense once again stood tall in the red zone. On first down, senior defensive lineman Max Lundeen hurried Perri and forced an incompletion. On second down, Perri dropped back a step before rushing up the middle for six yards. On third down and four from the Cornell twelve, junior safety Brody Kidwell got a hand in front of his man to break up a pass and bring up fourth down.

With the game on the line on fourth and four, junior cornerback Anthony Chideme-Alfaro broke up a pass to seal the win for Cornell.

The win was Cornell’s first at Schoellkopf Field in a full year, and snapped a five game home losing streak. At 3-2 Cornell has already surpassed its win total from last season.

The win also gave Cornell a sweep over its non-conference opponents this season. It is the fifth time in program his tory that Cornell has finished 3-0 against non-conference opponents.

The Red will hope its success trans lates to Ivy play when it faces Brown next Saturday in Providence, Rhode Island.

Aaron Snyder can be reached at asnyder@cornellsun.com.

AARON SNYDER / SUN SPORTS EDITOR

Cornell beats Lehigh | The Red pitched a shutout in the second half to best Lehigh, 19-15, on Oct. 15 at Schoellkopf Field.