Our Ansyr to Prayer: A true testament of courage and faith

Our Ansyr to Prayer Feburary 6, 2018

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Ansyr Blue Collins

God’s Promises are YES & AMEN

The beginning of what became a journey of Faith.

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Our Ansyr To Prayer Magazine

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OUR FAITH JOURNEY

THE BIRTH FEBURary 6, 2018 3.4 lbs

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family love, family time

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growing strong stages

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Sibling love

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precious moments & (40-41) Dedication

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Our Story

When I was 11 weeks pregnant with my 7th child, I was driving to soccer practice. I felt a pop, looked down and I was covered in blood. Like I am talking a pool of blood pouring all over the floor. I called the emergency line to my OB and was informed by the on call doctor that I would lose the baby and they couldn't do anything for me. To go home and miscarry there. He was a sweet doctor. He kindly told me to bring the baby in the office the next day if I didn't know what to do with it.

As I cried my eyes out on the way home, God told me to stop. To get in the bath and start reading the Word.

To build my faith in His promises.

I proceeded to get into the bath for around 4 hours. I prayed and read His Word the entire time. When I felt confident that God would save my baby I got out. ( Sidenote. Just a week earlier while I was in prayer, God gave me the name Ansyr. At the time, I thought it was a cute name but it didn't make much sense to me.)

The next morning I went straight to the doctor's office for a sonogram and they confirmed that my baby was doing great and they couldn't see any reason for the bleeding.

Praise God. Just one week later at my next appointment, I got the news. There was a subchorionic hemorrhage. A large one. And the likelihood of me miscarrying was high. These usually resulted in miscarriages.

My doctor gave me medicine, bed rest restrictions and pretty much said life must now be put on hold. I had the busiest photography season booked already and didn’t know what to do. As I drove home, God told me to pray for healing. He told me to study Scripture day and night and then in two days at our small group pray for complete healing. So that is exactly what I did. I had to remove fear completely and replace it with faith in God’s promises alone in order to receive His healing.

My husband and I agreed that we would pray for healing and then continue on in life as normal. I wouldn’t take any medicine and I wouldn’t cancel any sessions.

My hardest thing to overcome while I was in the Word was the possibility that I might not get to see the healing on the sono but still had to believe God has fully healed me. And God warned me this would happen. And of course two weeks later at my next sono that is exactly what happened. While it showed the bleed shrinking a tad, it was not fully healed in the sono. But I knew that God had healed me and I continued to walk in that healing.

Every time I took my head out of God’s Word, the attacks came. There were constant messages and people telling me about their friends and family and themselves losing babies to subchorionic hemorrhages. If I focused on other people’s experiences then believing my outcome would be different sounded impossible and quite frankly dumb. But God continued to tell me to put on blinders. To read only His Word and believe Him. At 24 weeks pregnant, on my birthday, my placenta abrupted. I was rushed to the downtown hospital and told I might be delivering a baby and the chances of survival were slim. It was scary but I knew God was with me.

I prayed and prayed. When I got to the hospital, they were able to stop the bleeding and the contractions. After a week in the hospital they let me go home.

And then at 26 weeks, I went back into labor with uncontrollable bleeding yet again. They stopped labor and bleeding and I was hospitalized until she arrived.

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"It is the same with my word.

I send it out, and it always produces fruit.

It will accomplish all I want it to, and it will prosper everywhere I send it."

Isaiah 55:11

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She came at 29 weeks. And in those 4 weeks in the hospital my faith grew so much. It wasn't the outcome I had hoped for. It wasn't what I expected. It wasn't easy to see your baby rushed to the NICU and know you did that.

It wasn't easy to be away from my other six children for that long. But God worked in me in ways I can't explain.

He grew my faith. He taught me. He spoke to me. It was, in a sense, a mountain top experience where I got to dedicate my entire days to Him. When Ansyr was in the NICU, I couldn't stay. I had to return home to my other children. It was the hardest thing leaving her there. I had never given birth and not brought a child home. It was torture and I did experience some serious postpartum depression and anxiety attacks. As I was preparing to leave, God spoke to me. He had given me the number 40 while I was in the hospital. I thought He would let me go to 40 weeks before delivering her. But as I was packing up my stuff, God said she would be in the NICU for 40 days. (I even have my journals of prayer with the number 40 in huge writing as God's promise to me.) That just didn't seem possible. The doctor told me the least amount of time she would spend in the NICU would be until her actual due date. That would be 77 days. And God is cutting that number almost in half?

But this is what gave me hope to leave her. This is what I stood on.

As Ansyr was in the NICU, things would fluctuate from being great to being hard. My family got sick and we weren't allowed to see her until we were better. She got a fever and we couldn't see her. She was so tiny and helpless. It was like nothing I had ever gone through. But there were so many amazing miracles. She breastfed sooner than any baby they had ever seen. And I have never been able to breastfeed any of my children and had prayed that I could breastfeed Ansyr. And I was doing it. It was a huge answer to prayer. As day 38 approached Ansyr was still not eating enough through a bottle. The doctor informed us that she would be staying for a few more weeks. Wait! What? No. That isn't what God said. I began to doubt that I could hear God. After a weekend of photography sessions, I drug myself into the NICU at midnight the next day to breastfeed her on day 39. I was exhausted and defeated. The nurse said..."Did you hear?" "She is going home tomorrow!"

And that is exactly what happened. We got to bring Ansyr home at day 40!

God's promises are Yes and Amen!

She will forever be a testimony. She was born smiling. She never stopped. She is full of so much joy and has such a fight within her. Every day that I look her, she gives me joy. She is a reminder of God's faithfulness and that His Word does not return void. The Word of God is true. And when you believe it and experience it, no one can take the power of God from you!

She is our Ansyr to prayer in many ways!

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Dedication Sunday

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