Line Tjørnhøj Anorexia Sacra
(2006)
5 female voices, 1 male voice & double-bass Dur. 60’
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Line Tjørnhøj Anorexia Sacra
(2006)
5 female voices, 1 male voice & double-bass Dur. 60’
ABOUT ANOREXIA SACRA ... Trusting in no one and agreeing with no one insofar as he might want to dissuade you from pursuing your founding purpose or might place a stumbling block in your way, preventing you, in that perfection with which the Spirit of the Lord has called you, from fulfilling your vows to the Most High. (Saint Clare of Assisi to Agnes of Prague 1235 translation Joan Mueller) Background: Clare of Assisi - founder of the most extreme ascetic medieval order “Poor Clares” - died in 1253 from anorexia. At the time of her death she was highly respected and admired. She is the most well known of a group of medieval female ascetics who - according to contemporary psychiatric understanding - practiced behavior commonly associated with eating disorders. They were strongly connected to the mysticism of the time as a religious movement and they saw strict asceticism as the only true way to unify with Jesus Christ as his heavenly brides. Our contemporary western culture - in a cult like manner - pays tribute to the perfect appearance of the body, personified by models on catwalks and becoming evident through Hollywood presenting infantile “thin”-looking “superstars”. In the context of western “abundance” anorectics fear to drown in their own fat and they present their “holy icons” as “thinspiration” on the proana websites (pro = professional – ana = anorexia). Back then and now “control” and “willpower” are the keywords for the anorectics and back then and now they exchange proana tips – existential and spiritual thoughts and written poetry. Leaving family, the psychiatric system and friends behind in a completely powerless and voyeuristic position, anorexics take a tour de force often for years - alone with their pain and suffering – and quite frequently tragically ending in death. In her work, Line Tjørnhøj strives to confront this tangible, human-caused “pain” and transforms that energy into a reconciling and creative musical expression.
Human suffering can take so many forms and the only “instrument” that is truly capable of displaying this wide spectrum of emotions is the human voice - both staging the drama, forming the words and simultaneously bringing comfort and healing. This is possible when singers dare to extend their vocal expression beyond pure singing and integrate basic authentic sounds of their voices into the expression: sounds that normally express extreme conditions such as pain, great joy, satisfaction and devotion. This is how the drama – Anorexia Sacra - comes to life on stage. The libretto of Anorexia Sacra consists of extracts from Clare of Assisi’s letters and other medieval writings that were blended with Line Tjørnhøj’s lyrics. She got her inspiration from the writings on the proana websites and attempted to build a poetic bridge, and a textual collage, respectively, spanning more than 800 years of time. The libretto is especially pointing out the powerless situation parents and treatment initiatives found themselves in when confronting the enormous power and will of self-starvation. It displays the aspects of thoughts and feelings expressed through compulsive self-destructive behavior. But mostly it is the story of a father who watches his beloved daughter starving herself to death.
“ANOREXIA SACRA” Libretto by Line Tjørnhøj 1. (Death Knell) (text: LT) The Nuns are comforting and praising Clara lying on her “deathbed” on the table. They drink their coffee. Nuns: “Drinking coffee, heavenly, shimmer... shimmering light - take a cup of coffee. Wonderful, shimmering light, one should not be afraid of death, for death will come to Wonderful Trust – entrust it all to mama Sound the Death Knell Welkin, well Hell seems to be on earth, well, one should not be afraid of death Ecclesia, lactans mama mater, Magna mater, Ecclesia.” Flash Back 2. (Entering) (text mosaic from web & bible: LT) Clara finds her inspiration on the world wide web and is confronted with her fathers view on her. Web friends: “Entering the disordered nation. Welcome in a disordered nation, this is a disordered nation. ProAna for you...thin...thinspiration...you are just starvelous. ProAnaNation for you. It is beautiful...the pure truth... Get fascinated...get you thinspiration...thin...thinner.... thinnest... Fat cow...fat disgusting cow...take a look at yourself... “leave...leave this disordered nation” “Angel.... angel.” Father: “I want my little girl...shave, shave your pubic hair... shave... (God): “Carrier of light – beloved of thee Father – The dying and the reborn light of heaven.... Defying your Father?? Mating with sin?? Breeding death!!!” Clara: “Feedings through a nasogastric tube, vomiting, exercise regime, control, laxative abuse, cramps and gas” “Leave...leave this disordered nation” 3. Adipisci (textmontage: from web & Clara of Assisi Letters: LT) Clara writes a letter to her internet proana friends – her father is watching. Trying to stop her. Father: Venerabilis et sanctissimae Virgini (venerable and most holy virgin) Clara!
Clara: Clara indigna, Clara inutilis adipisci cum reverentia aeternae felicitatis gloriam O soror- immortal domina (I unworthy and useless Clare, writes you with respect and wish that you oh sister will attain everlasting glory) Web friends: H2O is, without a doubt, the dedicated Ana’s best friend. It neutralizes stomach acids, quells tummy growls, cleanses your entire system of toxins, flushes out fats Drink your water ice cold to burn even more calories as your metabolism must exert extra energy to balance body temperature and gets you through the next hour or two. Starving, stuffing, cutting, purging, running, stuffing, cutting, binge.... Control! The only truth - true power, great, great enough to create order, order in life ...starving, stuffing, cutting, purging, running, stuffing, cutting, binge chaos life - in control, life chaos life chaos - controller - beyond power chaotic life great power. First thing you’ve got to remember is liquids to have a successful purge. Most people use their fingers – one probably won’t work, three is for more advanced, ...so start with a nice easy two. Insert fingers into throat. Now what you’re trying to do is recreate “reverse peristalsis” - this is the opposite of swallowing which involves contractions of the esophagus. Massage the back of the throat or make a kind of jabbing motion. Long nails? Cut ´em. Hurt like hell unless you know what you’re doing. Clara: I am beautiful - I am perfect - I am the implication of the “thing”: thin! Hunger is a feeling - taste the feeling - taste the hunger feeling - the thin thing Fucking ignorant wanarectics - how dare you insinuate that any of us photo shopped our pics???? Clearly you know nothing about anorexia. Because if you did you’d have known that the way I look is not even that thin for a fucking anorectic!!! My body is a piece of artwork - it displays “pain” in a visual esthetic way Here is your dose of reality............you sad little ignorant wanarexic.... this is me...........this is anorexia .........this is what I look like 4. Speculum (Text: Clara of Assisi & LT) Clara stands for the mirror Nuns: Pone mentem tuam in speculo aeternitatis Pone animo tuam in splendor gloriam (place your mind in the mirror of Eternity, place your soul in the radiance of Glory) Clara: My breast, a big black hollow, hold me, proana wisdom, I am pure. Let me be my body.
Nuns: Amor suavior, et omnis gratia elegantior (His love is sweeter and his grace more elegant)
have overcomed your pangs of concience, atoned your sins, and left you earthly desires, your soul will be touched by heavenly confidence one sweet dawn“)
Father: You are just, just a child. You will die for this? Shimmering – you are my light – Satellite, Celestial body, My shine is a poor reflection of you.
Clara: The pure power of hunger enables me to produce oils, wine and other miraculous substances from my pores. I defy the limits of human suffering through extreme physical austerities and transcend the mortal world through my miraculous talents. Food is a substance that transit the boundary between me and not me... And this is a struggle to resist an ascribed identity I found my lover - I am the only person who will enslave me completely.... I am seductive and sadistic ...enjoying to manipulate my mind and brutalize my body...I surrender to suffer humiliation and indignity abuse and punishment And I confess.... confess it all to me...
Nuns: Quem cum ameveritis casta estis, virgo estis. Pone cor cor tuum figura divinae, et transforma te ipsam totam in imagine dimagin divinitatis ipsius. Pone cor tuum figura divinae et transforma te ipsam totam in imagine divinitatis ipsius ei. (If you love him, you are chaste, you are a virgin. Place you heart in the figure of the divine substance and transform your entire being into the image of divinity through contemplation) Father: Reborn light. Divinity – pure force, like a star. Radiating beauty. 5. The Vow (Text: LT) Clara takes a Vow on her loyalty to Anorexia Anorexia: Never underestimate my power. I can make you feel high. Invincible. Clara: Everyone lies. They say I am too thin. They say I don’t eat enough. See them! See them laughing, behind my back. Anorexia & Clara: (the Vow) Lei di kee due is the due, due i kelek rulesion lek, a de tomp le le mes tomp, yt row em ho mu it ho (Nonsense) Anorexia: Obedience, or I will make you feel guilty as hell. Clara: I have nothing but you. I won’t let you down. I am an inept and fumbling slave. Satiate my desires! I need to surrender to suffer pain. 6. Minne (Text : Mechtild v. Magdeburg & LT) Clara’s moment of self-realization Nuns: Eya minnen dú, wilt du wisen wielich din weg. Ja lieber heliger geist. Lere mic da. Eyya minnen du. Seele. Du kúmest ´ber die not des rúvens. Úber die libin der welt morgens in dem sussen touve das ist inne keit. („Eya, beloved soul, would you like to know your lot?“ „yes holy spirit – tell me“ „Eya beloved soul! When you
7. Dies Irate (Text: Dies Irae & LT) Clara’s father tries to get her into “control” again. Making himself a shameful victim. Father: Dies irae – Dies illa. Solvet saeclum in favilla. Quid sum miser tunc dicturus? Ingemisco tamquam reus. Culpa rubet vultus meus Judex ergo cum sedebit quidquid latet apparebit: nihil i nultum remanebit. Clara: Lacrimosa Father: Mihi quoque spem dedisti 8. Ave Maria (Text: Ave Maria & LT) Clara is brought into a psychiatric hospital – calling her mother for help and flirting with and manipulating the psychiatrist calling him “god”, well aware of her own beauty. Nurses psychiatrist: Ave Maria gratia plena, dominus tecum benedicta tu in mulieribus et benedictus fructus ventris tui Jesus, Sancta Maria mater dei ora pro nobis peccatoribus nunc et in hora mortis nostra amen. Clara: God is present in his power of manhood, the desire of the loins, gathered in two brooding tabernacles. God stands before his creation, excited...two brooding tabernacles holding the trunk, erect strong and upright...God ploughs his field...God breeds his seed, his sacred breath.... she gives herself. “My creation be of thee.... and the word became flesh.
9. Angel (Text: LT) Clara’s mother comes to visit. She admires Clara as an angel that she needs. She cannot face the facts, and is unable to help in any way.
Clara: This is my hostia humana, Where is the loo, I need to kneel, till the eats? comes up. Love me! Look…I atone for my sins. Love me!
Clara: She loves me...she loves me not.... she loves me...she loves me not
Anorexia: You broke our pact! Kneel! Spit blood and slime. Fingers in throat. Atone my girl …atone!
Clara’s mother: Lightning angel – golden shadow – softly spreading protecting wings Tender tough – close to my heart – sore and open I give in and cry Angel – how come you chose me – Angel – close to my heart Angel – ease my heartache – Angel – don’t leave me tonight Blissful lips – golden shatter – in my darkness you lit a light Like a kiss – close to my heart – golden shadow – you tempt me to fly Angel – how come you chose me – Angel – close to my heart Angel – ease my heartache – Angel – don’t leave me tonight
Nuns: O filia, benedicta quoniam dilectionem. Nulla Nullatemus posset exprimere lingua carnis filia (O my blessed daughter! The love I feel for you is for me not possible to express with my carnal tongue)
Clara: I promise to love you, to respect you, to be always faithful to you – and never to forsake you till death do us apart! I promise to respect you, to give you matrimonial obedience, to be always faithful to you – and never to forsake you till death do us apart. What God has joined together, let no man tear asunder Clara’s mother: Daylight coming – morning breeze – hear you whisper soft in my ear Lightning light – stay in my heart – Golden Angel don’t fade away Angel – how come you chose me – Angel – close to my heart Angel – ease my heartache – Angel – don’t leave me tonight 10. Binge (Text: Clara of Assisi & LT) Clara is released from psychiatric hospital and her compulsive behavior increases dramatically and takes her on a tour de force between refrigerator and toilet. She binges Clara: I am binging; purging…food…more I need more Nuns: Hostia humanae, o paupertas, O beata paupertas. (Human sacrifice. O poverty! O beautiful poverty!)
Clara: I am binging….I am binging. Anorexia: Kneel …Fat cow… Binge! – purge! – binge! – purge!.. Nuns: Filia benecita ad te habeo dilection o pia Lingua carnis Clara: Loo….love me! Loo…. love me… 11. Valete (Text: Clara of Assisi & LT) Clara is back on her deathbed surrounded by father and nuns Nuns: Valete in domine et oretis pro me. Toto animo et cordis afectu magis sanctisimam. (Fare well with the Lord and pray for me. You have indeed with whole heart and soul chosen the holiest) Father: Self-starvation, Holy war. Tormentor...Purify! Clara: I am starving – my jihad is starvation – Nuns: Self-starvation – it is holy war. Victorious holy war – she sacrifices.... sacrilegious.... she sacrifices.... Purification... Clara: Sin...sin.... sin.... Father: She dies for me. She did choose a holy path.... cry my heart out... Nuns: Paupertatem et corporis penuriam elegitis. Sponsum nobili quivestram virginitate immaculatam custodiet
custo illaesam immaculatam. (You have chosen poverty and physical want. Accepting a noble spouse, who will keep your virginity always immaculate) Father: Cry my heart out!! Don’t.... don’t you dare.... I can’t let you die.... My heart...my “Morningstar”.... “Quod tenes teneas....” my “Heart” “Morningstar”.... let go of your crusade.... Cross! Cross! Cross! ”...“quod tenes teneas...” Clara: ....illaesam immaculatam...
Scene 1: "Death Knell" - nuns doing a coffee ritual. Soundscape: turning spoons slowly in cups, hitting cup with spoon, slurping coffee, placing cup on teller, changing place for the cup. This in a percussive way.
arco leggiero flautando ponticello estremo
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Double Bass
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8
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poco accel.
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leggiero arco
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mp molto legato
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"reinforced harmonics"
23
/ua/ /si/ /njo/ /i/
/kua/ /di/ /ja/ /jo/
29 S1 Db.
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/je/ /ki/ /jo/ /i/
/moi/ /y/ /nau/ /ja/
/sjo/
/io/ /my/ /o/ Drin - king cof - fee sotto voce mp
/mjo/ /kjo/ /lai/ /dy/
/sje/ /mo/ /i/ niyou/
/aa/ ad lib.
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for death will come
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/hell/
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sound thedeathknellsound thedeathknellsound the deathknellsound the death knellsound the deathknell
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well
/moaro/
"speech"
Welkin,
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sound
be afraid
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death knell
of death
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death
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"heartbeat" hitting DB body with handpalm lunga
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Flash back Scene 2 "Entering" Dagmar finds her inspiration on the "world wide web" and is also confronted with male view on her.
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ca. "20"
"taking ice cube with 2 hands into mouth"
"pouring water into mouth"
ppp "breathing" (a hiiii) X 10
sul ponticello estremo (s.p.e) ca. "20"
Double Bass
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heartbeat hand on body
pulsefeeling:
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lento
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walking on stones
gliss. "sotto voce"
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*ProAna for you? Thin... thinspiration. You are just STARVELOUS
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my lit - tle
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rub stone against mirror
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fas - ci - na - ted
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girl
shave shave
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mp
In - spi - ra - tion
your pu - bic hair
shave your pu bic hair shave
ca "10"
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throwing stones
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Dagmar
gasping
IT IS
BEAUTIFUL !! .........
s.p.e.
gasping
THE PURE THRUTH
feedings through a nasogastric tube, vomiting, exercise regime, control laxative abuse, cramps and gas
shave
Db.
sounds of vomiting
Proooo proana nation FOR YOUUUU
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B.
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pp
pu - bic
shave you pubic
hair pu - bic hair pu - bic
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pu - bic
leave the
shave your
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ff a hiii
thinspiration
disorder disorder disorder
hair hair
pu - bic shave
hair
l.h. Bipizz.
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molto vibr.
arco
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"herdcall"
An - gel
An
imperativ leave this nation!
leave this disorder !
Do - mi - ne Do - mi - ne Do - mi - ne Do - mi ne
molto vibr.
gel
disorder disorder disorder disorder
mp sotto voce
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"whisper"
Leave!
freely quasi sweedish "kulning"*
calling sotto voce mp
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airy multiphonics
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a hiii
leave the disordered nation
pp
47
thinner thinnest
trilling glissandi in crescendi with subito stops in accentuato
s.p.e.
thin
ff
"sprechstimme"
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thin
Fat cow.......... Fat disgusting cow aaaaad ...take a look at yourself!
Dagmar
hiii
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"speech" agressive
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thinspiration
"speech" quasi commercial
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"multiphonics" with throatsounds p ff
sul tasto molto lento arco
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kjo
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ru
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of heaven.....
ru
arco
ru
Carrier of light - Beloved of thee Father.....The dying and the reborn light
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mp
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quasi "bells" p
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thin thin
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lento "operatic"
Defying
quasi vibrato or tremolo "ornamental"
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arco
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your
Father??....
pppp
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pp "crying thin and soft falsetto"
B.
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s.
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mating...mating with sin. Breeding death...death....death
death
molto slow vibrato molto pontic.
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molto lento
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gliss
Scene 3: "Adipisci" Dagmar writes a letter to her internet proana friends - her father watching, trying to stop her. mp
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q = 80 with rubato free feeling, respecting the character of the inhales
/a/ /hmm/
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sempre
/o/ /o/ /o/ /o/ /hmm/
/o/ /o/ /o/ /o//hmm/
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/o/ /o/ /o/
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/hn/ /år/
/a/ /hn/ /år/ /hmm/ mp
/o/
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/o/ /o/ /ah/
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et
bi
-
-
/a/
/o/ /o/ /ah/
mae
/o/
/o/ /o/ /ah/
/o/ /o/ /o/ /hmm/
/hn/ /år/
/hmm/
-
/hn/ /år/ /hmm/
/o/
-
/o/
/hn/ /år/
/o/
/a/
/hmm/
/o/ /o/ /o/
/o/
/hmm/
/hn/ /år/
/hn/ /år/ /hmm/
/a/
/o/
/hmm/
-
Dagmar
B.
/o/ /o/ /o/ /hmm/
/hn/ /år/ /hmm/
/o/ /o/ /o/ /hmm/
/o/ /o/ /ah/
ra
/o/
/hmm/
/o/
A2
/hn/ /år/
/hmm/
A1
"operatic"
/o/ /o/ /o/ /hmm/
/hmm/
/hmm/
M-S
/a/
12 S1
S2
/o/
/hmm/
M-S
mf
f
Vir
-
gi - ne
Dag-mar
in - dig -
16 S1
S2
voiced implosive
Dagmar
B.
na
[ß]
pp
i - nu
Dag - mar
mf
vir
-
gi
-
-
3
ti - lis
/o/
pp
ne
pp
vir
gliss.
gliss.
vir
gliss.
A - di
pis
-
gi
-
-
-
gin
voiced implosive
ci
[ß]
pp
ne
/o/
S1 S2
M-S
/a/
pp
22
/hmm/
gi - ne
vir - gi
/a/
pp
Vir
pp
/hn/ /år/ /hmm/
-
/au/
/au/
-
O
ne
O
/hn/ /år/ /hmm/ /hn/ /år/
Dagmar /au/
/hmm/
pp
cum re - ve- ren - ti - a
ae
ter
-
nae
/hmm/
ae ter
pp
O
4
S1 26
/a/
/hmm/
S2
Vir
-
/o/
Dagmar
pp
ci
/a/ /hmm/
mf
li
/a/ /hmm/
/hn/ /år/ /hmm/
fe
-
M-S
"falsetto" mp
ta - tis O
mf
glo -ri - am
gliss.
/o/ glo - ri - a
ornamental Dagmar
"reinforced harmonics" b.c. with tongue flutter and velum vibrato "lament" gliss.
31
/mm/
Db.
pp
/moaae/
Dagmar 37
B.
Db.
f
q = 40
/o/
ff
mf
Dag
sul pont.
ppp
q = 40
mar a
lunga "multiphonics"
so - /o/ - ror
arco l.h.pizz
41 Dagmar
im
B.
m
m
mi
mor - tal
Do
-
A
-
mi - na
na
na
ni
ni
p "sotte voce"
Db.
5
-
-
-
-
-
di
-
-
-
pis
-
S2 42
mf
Vir
-
-
-
articulated in slowmotion
Dagmar
ni - mi - mi
" fry" f
/au/
"multiphonics" "lament"
B.
mf
ci
arco l.h.pizz
Db.
ff
a
mp
Ae
ter
gliss.
6
S1
All should be placed "aside" so that the ear can zoom in on individually text DB follows Clara
gin
O
quasi instruction "speech" mp So in order for you to purge, your esophagus has to contract several times
"recitando" "speech" p
A2
starving, stuffing, cutting purging, running, stuffing, cutting, bing
Dagmar
/au/
Db.
first thing you´ve gotta remember is liquids to have a succesful purge.
M-S
B.
H2O is, without a doubt, the dedicated Ana´s best friend.
quasi instruction "speech" mp
"falsetto" pp
ff
S2
quasi commercial "speech" q = 40 mp
mf "falsetto" pp
/au/
"speech" with vibrating vocals subito
Feel the thing - the thin thing - feel the real thin thing -
O
ff
ni
starving, stuffing, cutting purging, running, stuffing, cutting, bing
"falsetto" pp
O
gliss.
voiced implosive
[ß]
spatial notation - related to text all rest "relative" aproximate tempo q = 40 sul pont.
mp
S1
7
S2
A1
A2
Dagmar
It neutralizes stomach acids, quells tummy growls, cleanses your entire system of toxins, flushes out fats,
Most people use their fingers – one probably wont work, three is for more advanced, ...so start with a nice easy two.
before the food can come back up – it can take a while, but dont worry you will improve.
I am beatyful -
pp
S1
S2
A1
B.
Db.
mp
f
Insert fingers into throat. Now what youre trying to do is recreate ”reverse peristalsis”
Massage the back on the throat or make a kind of jabbing motion.
quasi commercial "speech" mf Control! the only thruth - true power, great, great enough to create order, order in life
f
Dagmar
I am the implication of the "thing": thin!
Drink your water ice cold to burn even more calories as your metablism must exert extra energy to balance body temperature
A2
I am perfect -
Db.
starving, stuffing, cutting purging, running, stuffing, cutting, bing
starving, stuffing, cutting purging, running, stuffing, cutting, bing
Hunger is a feeling - taste the feeling - taste the hungerfeeling - the thin thing
ironically "speech"
what is lanugo - ladies and gentlemen - lanugo ladies and gentlemen is hair - long black hair -
pp
mp
accel.
f
8 S2 A1
Dagmar
- this is the opposite of swallowing which inwolves contractions of the esophagus.
A2
Db.
and gets you through the next hour or two
Long nails?
ff "shouting" Fucking ignorant wanarectics - how dare you insinuate that any of us photoshopped our pics????
mp
mp
mp
q = 40
mp
ff
mf
my body is a piece of artwork - it displays "pain" in a visual esthetic way
Here is your dose of reality........
f
mp
this is me..........this is anorexia............this is what I look like
you sad little ignorant wanarexic....
p
mp
Dagmar
Db.
clearly you know nothing about anorexia. Because if you did you´d have known that the way I look is not even that thin for a fucking anorectic!!!
Dagmar
Db.
mf
accel.
q = 40 s.p.e. flautando
f
56
Hurt like hell unless you know what your doing.
chaos life - in control, life chaos life chaos - controller - beyond power chaotic life great power.
Dagmar Db.
Cut ´em.
rit.
4. Speculum (Text: Clara of Assisi & LT)Dagmar stands for the mirror Nuns:Pone mentem tuam in speculo aeternitatis Pone animo tuam in splendor gloriam (place your mind in the mirror of Eternity, place your soul in the radiance of Glory) Dagmar:My breast, a big black hollow, hold me, proana wisdom, I am pure. Let me be my body.Nuns:Amor suavior, et omnis gratia elegantior (His love is sweeter and his grace more elegant) King:You are just, just a child. You will die for this? Shimmering – you are my light – Satellite, Celestial body, My shine is a poor reflection of Nuns:Quem cum ameveritis casta estis, virgo estis. Pone cor cor tuum figura divinae, et transforma te ipsam totam in imagine dimagin divinitatis ipsius. Pone cor tuum figura divinae et transforma te ipsam totam in imagine divinitatis ipsius ei. (If you love him, you are chaste, you are a virgin. Place you heart in the figure of the divine substance and transform your entire being into the image of divinity through contemplation) King:Reborn light. Divinity – pure force, like a star. Radiating beauty.
Alto3 Double Bass
= a short audible inbreath meant to give a percussive effect
q. = 60
q. = 60
fz pizz.
fz
fz fz fz
Po - ne men
A.1
7
A.2
Po
te - m tu
-
ne men
fz
po - ne men
fz
te
-
m tu
men - tem
po - ne men tem
p
te
-
m tu
po - ne
A.3
Db.
in
spe -
tu
am
in
2
A.1
12
po
A.2
A.3
Db.
-
ne men
S.2
A.1
cu - lo
ne men
molto vibrato
spe-cu lo
ae
ter - ni
te
-
m tu
po
Po
-
ne men
leggiero
po
A.3 te - m tu - am
po
Po
-
tu - am in spe - cu
-
cu
-
m tu
tu
po
arco
-
ne men
leggiero
te
am
-
in
m tu -
ne men
ter
gliss
-
ter
.
ae
te
-
ae
tu - am
men - tem
men-tem
ne
ne
ne
-
po
ne men
ne men - tem
ne men
-
po
stringendo
te - mtu - am po
arco fz
tu - am
Db.
-
ae - er - ni po ne men-tem tu am in
te - m tu
A.2
Po
molto vibrato
17
S.1
te - m tu
po
-
-
ne men
po
am po
ne
-
men - tem
ne men
3
S.1 21
ni - ta - tis
S.2
ni
A.1
A.2
po
po
te m tu molto vibrato b.c.
Po
spe - cu - lo ae - ter - ni
Po
A.3 te
Db.
ta - tis
gliss.
-
m tu -
ne
men
ne men - tem
-
ne
men
ne
-
men -
ne
men
te
-
m
-
am po
tu - am
te
m tu
te
am
in
-
m tu -
ter - ni -
men - tem
tu
ae
ae
-
po
ter
ni -
-
ne
men
po
am po
ne
-
men - tem
ne
men
4
S.1 25
A tempo
tas
S.2
M-S.
A.1
tas
A.3
po
-
ne
-
-
-
spe-cu - lo ae- ter - ni
te
A tempo p
ne men
ne men
po
-
sf
/ah/
a
-
ni - ma
te
-
m tu -
m tu - am po
-
-
ni - ma
ma
3
a
-
ni
ah
gliss.
/ni/
/ni/
a
ter - ni
-
ma
ne men
ae
a
ni -
te
ma
ni
-
ne men
-
-
a
-
a
am po
ter
ni
-
/ni/ /ni/ /ni/ /ni/
-
spe-cu - lo
/ni/ /ni/ /ni/
ne me - tem
a
-
p
tu - am in
a
m tu
men - tem
ni
po
B.
Db.
tem
Dagmar
gliss.
a
te
A.2
-
a
ni - ma /ah/
-
5
S.1 29
/ah/
S.2
a
M-S.
te
A.1
-
-
ni
A.2
A.3
a - ni
Dagmar
a - ni - ma
ma
a
m tu - am po
-
-
ma
ni - ma
-
ne men
ne men
/ni/ /ni/ /ni/ ter
-
te
-
B.
/ah/
gliss.
a
a - ni
3
a - ni - ma
/ah/
-
-
3
a
ma
-
ni - ma
a - ni - ma
a
te
-
-
ni
-
m
-
3
ma
a - ni
-
-
ma
ma
ter
ma
ter - ni
a - ni
a - ni
ae
ae
tu - am po
m tu - am po
-
ae /ni/ /ni/ /ni/ /ni/
ni - ma
Db.
ma
ni - ma
m tu - am po
-
ter - ni
-
ne
men
ne men
te
-
/ni/ /ni/ /ni/
a - ni
ma
a - ni
/ah/
/ni/
ma
ae
ter
-
6
S.1
ter
S.2
M-S.
A.1
-
ni
-
ae
-
ter
A.3
Dagmar
-
ae - ter
ni
ne men - tem tu - am in spe - cu
.
gliss -
a
-
ni
-
ni
ae
men
po
-
-
tem
ne men - tem
po
-
ne
gliss.
ni
ni -
ne
po
m tu - am
B.
Db.
-
m tu - am po
A.2
po
ae
te
33
-
ma
gliss.
/ah/
/ah/
ae - ter - ni
ni
gliss.
ma
a
a
ni -
ae - ter - ni
ae -
ter - ni - tas
ae
ae
ae
-
ta
ae
ae
ae
ae
ae
ae
ae
ae
ae
mp
gliss.
ma
-
7 38 S.1
tu - am inspe - cu
S.2
men
M-S.
-
tem
/ah/
a
ae - ter - ni - ta -
A.3 ae ae ae
Db.
po
-
a
ne
-
gliss.
-
ne
men
-
ni -
ma
ma
/ah/
/ah/
ae ae
ae
a
ae
tem
ae
ae
am in
spe - cu
po
-
ne
3 3
3
ae
gliss.
ae
ae
ae
ae ae
-
3
ae
ae - ter - ni - tas ae - ter - ni - ta -
ni
po
po - ne men - tem tu
/ah/
A.2
ma
A.1
po - ne men - tem tu - am inspe - cu
gliss.
mp
ae
ae
8 3 3 3 3 S.2
fff
43
M-S.
A.1
A.2
A.3
B.
Db.
3 3 3 3
ae
ae
ae ae
ae
ae
3
9
46
M-S.
A.1
gliss.
gliss.
/ih/
A.2
A.3
ae
q = 90
ae
ae
p b.c. (bocca chiusa) sempre
mm
mm
p b.c. (bocca chiusa) sempre
ae
mm
mm
a tempo e=e "velum-vibrato"
Dagmar
/o/
Db.
c. tongueflutter
/ng/ /o/ /ng/ /o/ /ng/ /o/ /ng/ /o/ /ng/ /mmm/ my soul
B.
b.c.
quasi bells
q = 90 pizz.
p leggiero
3
arco
richochét
3
pizz.
arco
richochét
10
A.2 50
mm
A.3
mm
mm
mm
mm
mm
sim Dagmar
pizz.
Db.
hol
low
mm
mm
b.c.
/g/ /g/
arco
mm
mm
sim.
black
/k/ /k/
arco
pizz.
mm
unvoiced
big
mm
/mmm/ my breast
/a/
a
-
na
arco
3
pizz.
3
richochét
3
richochét
richochét
A.2 55
A.3
mm
mm
mm mm
Dagmar wis- dom
Hold
mm
mm
mm
me
Db.
hold
3
mm
richochét
mm
arco pizz.
mm
me
trill feel
arco
pizz.
pizz.
3
richochét "trilling"
arco
3
richochét
e=e
59
A.1
A.2
A.3
mm
my
S.1 S.2
M-S.
A.1
65
pizz.
mm
mm
mm
mm
mm
mm
mp
pain
see
arco
my
pizz.
soul
A.3
Dagmar
Db.
arco
pp pizz.
3
po - ne men - tem tu - am in spe - cu po - ne men - tem po - ne men - tem p
po
ne men - tem tu - am in spe - cu po - ne men - tem
I am
po - ne men - tem tu - am in spe - cu po - ne men - tem tu - am in spe - cu
pure
e=e
richochét "trilling"
p
love me
sul G arco s. s gli
p
tu - am in spe - cu po - ne men - tem po - ne men - tem po - ne men - tem p
A.2
mm
p
mm
f Dagmar
mm
Db.
po - ne men - tem
11
p
e=e q. = 60
po - ne
men
ne
po
po
e=e q. = 60
-
-
ne
f
12
S.1 70
M-S.
A.1
A.2
A.3
B.
Db.
ff
you
S.2
mp
mp
will die
you
mp
die
you are just a child
will
die
for this
men
mp
Ga
mp
men
Ga
bri
Ga
"sotto voce" mf
You
Ga
bri
-
Ga
bri
Ga
-
bri
are just
You are just a child
-
/el/
bri
-
el
/el/
You will die
13
S.1 74
bri
A.3
Db.
-
bri
die
ff
die
An
el
/d/ /d/ /d/
Die!
Die
B.
3
/el/ Ga
/el/
Dagmar
An
Die!
A.2
3 gliss.
A.1
An
M-S.
-
el
-
bri
gel
Ga
Ga
Ga
-
bri
An
-
-
-
gel
-
gel
gliss
.
-
gel
Ga -
/el/
bri
/el/
/d/ /d/ /d/
/h/ /i/ /h/ /i/ /h/
/h/ /i/ /h/ /i/ /h/
/i//h/
/i//h/
for this?
14
S.1 78
S.2
M-S.
gliss.
gliss
A.3
Die
/el/
/h/ /i/ /h/ /i/ /h/
Db.
/i//h/
f
Ga
/ah/
Quem
gliss.
gliss.
mf
Quem
mf leggiero
3
po - ne cor
Ga /ah/
/h/ /i/ /h/ /i/ /h/
/i//h/
et
po - ne cor
Quem
f
Shim
mp
et
mf
mf
3
mf
Quem
Die
B.
gliss.
Quem
3
3 Die
/el/
Dagmar
.
3 Die
A.2
Die
Die
A.1
mf
3 Die
mf
-
me -
leggiero
15
S.1
82
cum
S.2
cum
M-S.
cum
A.1
cum
A.3
a
a
cum
Db.
a
-
-
-
-
me- ve
ve
me- ve
ve
me- ve
ve
me- ve
ve
-
-
-
-
ri- tis
ri - tis
ri- tis
a
-
me- ve
ri- tis
/ah/
ri - tis
ve
-
ri- tis
/ah/
my mor - ning
star
ri- tis
trans -form et trans-form et trans-form po - ne cor et po - ne cor et et
A.2
B.
a
"falsetto"
ring
a
-
me- ve
ve
you
are
my
light
-
ri- tis
a
My
sta
es
tis
heart
16
S.1
87
pp
mp
gliss
.
Lumen
pp
S.2
mp
gliss
.
Lumen
A.1
gliss.
ord.
gliss.
lumen
A.3
Db.
et trans et trans - ma -form for et trans for - ma
A.2
B.
lumen
lumen
M-S.
vir
go
es
tis
vir
et trans -ma for po - ne cor et
go
Lu
my Mor - ning- star
17
S.1 92
f
M-S.
A.1
Sa
"falsetto"
/a/
-
/a/
/moar"
mf
"falsetto"
"reinforceds harmonics"
/a/
"reinforceds harmonics"
/moar"
"falsetto"
/moar"
"reinforceds harmonics"
/a/
mp
po - ne
cor et
A.3
te - lite
po - ne
cor
et
f
men
Db.
"falsetto"
ce - les
-
ti - al
bo
dy
A.2
B.
/moar"
S.2
mp
po - ne
cor
et
et
Sa
-
et
trans for - ma
mf
trans for - ma
te - lite
Ce - les
-
ti - al
18
S.1
97
"reinforceds harmonics"
/moar/
/a/
/moar/
A.1
/a/
My
/nyi/
/yo/
/nyi/
shine
po - ne
A.3
Db.
mf
cor et
po - ne
/yi/
mf /yi/
re - flec tion of you
A.2
B.
/yo/
"reinforceds harmonics"
S.2
cor et
et
mf
re - flec tion of you
trans for - ma
et
trans for - ma po - ne
cor et
mf
re flec tion of you
bo dy
My
shine
re - flec tion of you
102 S.1
S.2
A.1
A.2
B.
Db.
Po
ne cor
cor tu
um fi
Po- ne cor tu
cor et
po - ne
cor et
vi - nae
et
col legno battuto avec un poco "crins"
p
sim.
trans- for - ma te ip - sam to - tam in
et
p mf
sim.
mf
arco p mf
S.2 fi - gu-ra di - vi - nae
um
e=e
19
gu - ra di -
107 S.1
Db.
-
mf
po - ne
A.3
e=e mf
i
ma gi ne
di - vi- ni ta- tis ip - si- us
trans
for ma
p mf
sim.
20
S.1 112
Po - ne cor
S.2
ip sam
mf
Po
A.1
ne cor
um fi
to - tam
gu - ra di - vi - nae
in
i
-
cor
et
trans- for - ma te ip - sam to - tam
ma - gi ne
i - ma- gi ne
tu - um fi - gu - ra di - vi - nae
et
mf
A.3
ne cor
cor
tu - um fi -
ra di - vi - nae
et
mf
et
mf p sim.
p mf
sim.
di -
trans - form
et
Po
Db.
tu
mf
A.2
cor
te
M-S.
vi
trans - form
te ip - sam
trans - form
-
di -
te ip - sam
trans - form
p mf
sim.
di -
21
S.1 118
in
S.2
ni
M-S.
-
i
A.2
A.3
in
vi
B.
ta
-
-
i
-
-
Ey
ma
i - ma - go di - vi- na
Ey
ip - si - us
ma
na
i - ma - go di - vi- na
ip - si - us
p mf
Quem
na
Ey
mf
e=e mf
tis ip - si - us
sim.
Db.
vi
ma gi ne di- vi- ni - ta- tis ip - si- us Ey
in
A.1
i
Ey
po - ne cor
Ey
et
po - ne cor
mf
Re
e=e mp
et
-
born
leggiero
22
S.1
123
cum
-
me- ve
ve
-
ri- tis
light
Di
-
vi
-
S.1 128
pp
ni
-
ty
.
pure
Lumen
force
lumen
et trans- form et trans for - ma et trans for - ma et trans for - ma po - ne cor et
A.2
Dagmar
Db.
ri - tis
mp
gliss
-
ne cor et et trans- form
Db.
B.
ri - tis
et trans- form et trans- form po - ne cor et po
A.2
B.
a
mf
/moarniy/
like a star
"falsetto"
f
p
/moar/
/a/
/a/
Ra
-
di -
"falsetto"
23
S.1 133
Dagmar
et
"reinforceds harmonics"
/a/
"falsetto"
/moar"
/a/
et
po - ne
cor
et
"reinforced harmonics"
ate
cor
p
/a/
/a/
mf
/moar/
/a/
et
trans for - ma
/yo/
ah
-
-
/yi/
beau
trans for - ma
fff
/niy/
et
ty
Db.
S.1
138
"reinforceds harmonics"
/moar/
A.2
po
Db.
po - ne
/moar/
cor
"falsetto"
mf
B.
"falsetto"
/moar"
po - ne
A.2
B.
mp
f
-
ne
/a/
/yo/
cor
et
po -
di
mf
/nyi/
ne
cor
/yi/
et
et
trans- for - ma
vine
24
141 S.1
A.2 et
Db.
trans- for -
ma
q= 40
Bass
mp
"sob"
Ne ver -
Double Bass
Anorexia:
un- der es - ti mate
my
po - wer
I
can make
6
Dagmar
you feel high
in vin
ci -
say I dont eat
18
Glass.
e = 180 alle unisont
/lei/
e- nough
/di/
/kee/
See them
/due/ /is/
mp Anorexia: leggiero (quasi "mass")
B.
/lei/ /di/ /kee/ /due//is/ /the/ /due/ /due/ /i/
e = 180
Db.
gliss. mp
ry- one lies They say I am to thin
They
ble
12
Eve
B.
Dagmar
"sob" mp
See them laug- hing
/the/
be- hind my back
/due/
/due/
/i/
/ke/
sounding inhale
/lek/
/ke//lek/ /rule/ /sion/ /lek/ /a/ /de/ /tomp/ /le/ /le/ /mes/ /tomp/
gliss.
gliss.
2
Glass. 21
/rule/
B.
/yt/ /row/
/sion/
/lek/
/a/
/yt/
27
/is/
B.
Db.
/due/ /i/
/le/
/row/
/em/
/the/
/due/
/ho/ /mu/
/it/
/le/
/mes/
/due/
gliss.
/ke/ /lek/ /rule/ /sion/ /lek/
/lei/
/di/
/kee/
/du/
/em/ /ho//mu/ /it/ /ho/ /lei/ /di/
/kee/ /due/ /is/ /the/ /due/
/i/
/ke/
sim.
/ke/ /lek/ /rule/ /sion/ /lek/
/tomp/
s. glis
/ho/
gliss.
sim.
gliss.
/a/ /de/ /tomp/ /le/ /le/ /mes/ /tomp/ /yt/ /row/
Glass.
/tomp/
/kee/ /due/ /is/ /the/ /due/ /due/ /i/
gliss.
Db.
/de/
/em/ /ho//mu/ /it/ /ho/ /lei/ /di/
sim.
B.
24
richochét
Glass.
sim.
gliss.
Db.
gliss.
/lek/ /rule/
/sion/
/lek/
/a/ /de/ /tomp/ /le/ /le/ /mes/ /tomp/ /yt/ /row/
gliss.
/em//ho//mu/ /it/ /ho/
gliss. richochét
3
Glass. 30
/a/
B.
Db.
/lei/ /di/
/de/
/tomp/
/le/ /le/
/mes/
gliss.
/tomp/
/yt/
/row/
/em/
/ho/
sim.
/kee/ /due/ /is/ /the/ /due/ /due/ /i/
/ke/ /lek/ /rule/ /sion/ /lek/
gliss.
/a/ /de/ /tomp/ /le/ /le//mes/ /tomp/
gliss.
Glass. 33
/mu/
/it/
gliss.
/ho/
(voice break)
Dagmar
Ah
B.
/yt/ /row/
Db.
"lament" f
ff
f
/ai/ /ai/
sim. ff
/ai/ /ai/ /ai/ /ai/ /ai/
/em/ /ho/ /mu/ /it/ /ho/
gliss.
mp
gliss.
f
gliss. mp
f
4
Glass. 36
mf
Dagmar
mp
gliss.
/mo/
B.
Db.
-
gliss.
/a/
/mo/ - /a/
gliss. f mp
/due/
B.
/due/
O
/lei/ /di/
/kee/ /due/ /is/ /the/ /due/
/lei/ /di/
/kee/ /due/ /is/ /the/ /due/
s. glis
A tempo pp "sob"
O
ff
/i/ /ke/ /lek//rule//sion//lek/
/a/ /de/ /tomp//le/ /le/ /mes//tomp/ /yt//row/ /em/ /ho/ /mu/ /it/ /ho/
/i/ /ke/ /lek//rule//sion//lek/
/a/ /de/ /tomp//le/ /le/ /mes//tomp/ /yt//row/ /em/ /ho/ /mu/ /it/ /ho/
A tempo pp "sob" q = 40 42 Anorexia: B.
mp
s. glis
/le/
39
Db.
/ne/
Glass.
Dagmar
be
gliss. "falsetto" mf mf p
-
gliss.
di
ence
gliss.
f
f
"falsetto" mp
or I will make you feel
5
52
Dagmar
"sob" mp
I
B.
guil
mf
ty
guil
"sob" mp
ty
as
I have
hell
61
Dagmar
no - thing but
you
3
I wont let you down let you down
I
e = 120
q = 140 f "sprechstimme"
wont let you down
Db.
Dagmar
fum
81
Dagmar
need
p
75
I am an
rit.
-
bling
to
sur
slave
-
Sa
ren - der
-
to
ti
-
suf
ate
-
my
fer
de
-
pain
I
have no - thing
rit.
68
Dagmar
in - ept and
q = 140
si - res!
to
I
suf
-
fer
Soprano1
q = 90
Alto2
Dagmar
mf
ya
min
dú
nen
dú
Ey
mf
Ey ey
ey
ya min
nen
ya
dú
"speech" The pure power of hunger enables me to produce oils, wine and other miraculous substances from my pores
mp S.1 6
min - nen dú
S.2
Ey - ya min - nen
Ey
mf
Mezzo-soprano
Dú
Soprano2
mf
p
min
dú se - le wi - ilt du wi - is - sen
wie - lich din
f
weg
min - nen dú
M-S.
min - nen dú
A.2
Dagmar
min - nen dú
Wilt
du wis - sen
min dú
Wilt
du
wis
sen
wie - lich din
weg
wie lich din
I defy the limits of human suffering through extreme physical austerities and transcend the mortal world through my miracoulos talents.
weg
2
13 S.1
Ja lie- ber
he - li
M-S.
Dagmar
he li
20
he - li - ger
ger
Dagmar
Ja lie- ber he - li - ger le - re mich
geist
Ey
f
ya ey
mf
Ey
min
-
ya
min
dú
nen dú
Se
Se
Se
nen
dú
mf
Ey
ya ey
ya
min
nen
dú
-
-
nen
mf
min
dú
f
ord.
es
geist
es
A.2
mf
he - li - ger
f
es
M-S.
Food is a substance that transit the boundary between me and not me......and this is a struggle to resist an ascribed identity
S.1
S.2
mp "falsetto"
Ja lie- ber
ger
Ja lie- ber he - li - ger
A.2
he - li - ger geist
S.2
Se
Se
-
26
S.1
ff
p
le
S.2
Du
ff
ff
Du kum
p
ú - ber
mf
le
Du
ku
p mf le
die
ú
ber
die
not des rú
ber
-
wen
not des rú wens Ú - ber die
ú
ber
ú - ber
ü - ber
mp
die
f
Du kum
Ú -
f
ú - ber
mf p Dagmar
Du kum
le
3
mp
not des rú - wen
mest
f
A.2
ú - ber
mf
le
M-S.
ku- mest ú - ber
p
f
mf
ú
rú -
wen
f
S.1 33
S.2
M-S.
pi
gliss.
-
ne
pi
A.2
die
Dagmar
die
te
pi
ne
bi
ne
I found my lover -
ber
der
die lie
mp
bih
I
die lie - bin
mp
ú - ber
ne
-
pi
pi
mp
Ú
mp
ff
am the only person
te
ú - ber
die lie - bin
who will enslave me completely....
4
S.1 39
der
welt
S.2
Des
bin der welt
A.1
der
Dagmar
A.2
Des
mor- gens in dem su
mf "sotto voce"
M-S.
"sotto voce"
mor- gens in dem súes
tou
sen
tou
mf
mf
sen
ve
ve
welt
....I surrender to suffer I am seductive and sadistic ....... .....enjoying to manipulate my mind and brutalise my body......
S.1 45
S.2
Dagmar
Db.
das
das
ist
ist
die
die
humiliation and indignity - abuse and punisment
be- sclos - sen
in - ne
keit
die be- sclos - sen
in - ne - keit
and I confess .... confess it all to me...
mf
Ey
pp
-
50
S.1
A.2
Db.
M-S.
ya
min
A.1
A.2
Dagmar
-
nen
nen
dú
Ey
ya
min
dú
Ey
p
-
nen
dú "sotto voce" mf Shekhinah: 3
An - ji ha
Mun
dú
dú
gliss.
vatt
nen
se
dus
-
nen
se- ne scit no men il li mors
dus
min
mp
ya
min
pizz.
dú
Db.
ya
gliss.
nen dú
mp
min
M-S.
Ey
min
mf
"sotto voce" mf
Mun
ya
54 S.1
S.2
Ey
S.2
Dagmar
5
mf
lett
. gliss
-
nen
nat ha am sho sha ma kim
ha - sha - ron
se ne scit no men il li mors
Wilt
du
wis
-
sen
wie - lich
din
weg
6
S.1
mf
58
S.2
A.1
A.2
Db.
Vi
M-S.
A.1
A.2
Dagmar
Db.
-
ber
na been- ha - ho
/ah/
sempre
- him
Ja
lie
-
ber
he
wie
3
hab
li
-
li
mp "falsetto"
keen
Ja
been
-
ger
he - li - ger
sin
óv
ah - ha
-
geist
-
-
gen
-
ber
he - li - ger
sint
es
ba
sa -
rose
lie
ra, - aj - ja - tiib
Ke ta - bo
schoen
ba - nåt
mors
ger
se - ne - scit no men il
sin
Sich
wie schoen´
óv - gen sint
Sich
he - li
dus
Mun
spon sa!
3
sho Ke shan
/ah/
lie
61
ei!
Ja mp
S.1 S.2
de
M-S.
Dagmar
le - re
Sha -
mich
es
64
S.1
S.2
M-S.
A.1
A.2
Vi de ei!
ha ja
tiib
been
M-S.
A.1
A.2
be
of
the
-
Ey
-
had
et
Se
min
dú
-
val
-
le
-
ff
val
leys
le
di
ya
a-i
ff
all
ly
min
3
nen
dú
-
and the li
mf
p
Du
kum
al - la - ji. ja - ji - in väd- dig - lå
-
nen
mf
Vi de ei!
Häd
f
Se
hab ba - nåt
3
Dagmar Db.
ord.
67
Ey ya ey
ro
S.1 S.2
spon sa!
f
rose
ron
Dagmar Db.
3
p
mf
Du
7
ku
8
S.1
70
Mun
S.2
M-S.
A.1
A.2
A.3
-
a
-
I am
ha
min
-
va
-
ne
3
ú
mest
the rose
no
ber
die
not des rú
sol(l)
sin
of
Sha
mort
- ron
-
wen
il
3
ja - tiib
aj
men
ber
Die
Dagmar
Db.
al - la - ji
-
se - ne - scit
dus
ú
not des rú -
been
hab
ba -
rose
f
wens
Ú
-
73
S.1
li
S.2
M-S.
A.1
mors
A.3
ber
B.
Db.
/ah/
lich
Mort
mp
die
pi
val
3
ly
of
the
mp
bih
/a/
bi
the and li
se - ne - scit
dus
Dagmar
der
Mun
nåt
A.2
9
te
10
S.1 76
S.2
M-S.
A.2
no
Dagmar
Db.
li
mors
Mun
dus
te
Vi
de
ei!
Vi de
ei!
ú
B.
il
lich
A.3
men
A.1
val
-
Vi de ei!
leys
ber
die
Vi
ei!
de
3
lie
-
Vi de
Vi de
Vi de
ei!
ei!
ei!
bin der
welt
S.1 79
S.2
A.1
A.2
A.3
B.
Db.
A.1 A.2
A.3
rose
/ah/
p
/mm/
p
/ah/
p
I
Sha -ron
"humming" freely (sweedish feeling)
"humming" freely (sweedish feeling)
83
of
Db.
11
pp
am
3
the rose
pizz.
pp
and the
12
A.1 87
A.2
sim.
sim.
3
A.3
li
Db.
ly
of
the
sim.
val
val
leys
3
gliss.
M-S. 90
Tran
sim.
A.1
A.2
A.3
leys
Dagmar
Db.
-
my
f
arco
fix
trans
fix
molto legato molto ponticello
heart
my heart with the wounds /a/
fix
13
M-S. 93
trans- fix
Dagmar
my heart
my
heart
/a/
M-S. 97
Dagmar trans - fix
my heart
my
Db.
M-S. 100
glis
s.
re - pen- tance re - pen tance re - pen- tance
heart
trans fix
my
my
pp
heart
lullaby
trans- fix
my heart
trans - fix
heart
my
Db.
re
re
gliss.
molto vibr.
pp
A.3
re - pen- tance re - pen - tance re - pen- tance
re
re
Dagmar sempre
Db.
14
freely
"lament"
102
Voice2
M-S.
A.2
A.3
/ae/
sempre
lullaby
-
ma
Voice2
A.3
Dagmar
Db.
sempre
104
sig
-
ger
re
re
"fry" molto vibr.
gliss.
du
A.2
/ae/
M-S.
re - pen- tance re - pen- tance re - pen- tance
Dagmar
s.
pp
"lament" "æ" ff freely
Db.
glis
ma
"æ"
ff
skal
so - ve
nu
ma
-
ma
si
-
ger
106
Voice2
M-S.
A.2
A.3
Dagmar
Db.
15
gliss. du skal so - ve nu ma - ma ger gliss. si -
Voice2 108
M-S.
f
A.3
Dagmar
Db.
gliss.
du
A.2
skal
so - ve
nu
ma
-
ma
si
-
ger
f
16
Voice2 110
A.2
A.3
Dagmar
Db.
du
skal
so
-
ve
nu
M-S.
111 A.2
A.3
Dagmar
re
-
pen
-
tance
re
-
pen
-
tance
Dies Irae scene 7
in "comments on the score" you will find the explanations on special voice effects.
Soprano1
this notehead means "airsound" - exhale sound around the tone. like just before an airy onset It should create the effect that the tone dissapears in air and come back in a soft onset (analog effect for DB - very noisy tone quality)
molto lento
q = 40
Alto1
ppp
/i/
ppp
/i/
Voice
voicing on inhale
whisper
as - hes
/o/ /o/ /o/ voicing on inhale
"reinforced harmonics"
Alto2
/o/
Mezzo-soprano
/o/
ppp
Soprano2
ppp
/o/
mp
whisper
as - hes
/myior/
ff
Dies
i
pppthis is exampels of sound depending on the possibilities on site
Dagmar
Bass
walking in wooden shoes dragging an iron shovel percussive sounds scraping sounds
ppp
"reinforced harmonics"
/o/
mp
2
S.1 4
/m/
whisper
S.2
as - hes
M-S.
/o/
/m/ /o/
/a/
/s/ /a/
Voice
/s/
/a/
/u/
/K´iiyu/
/K´iiyu/
"velumbell" pp
/ning/
rae
Di
es
i
stop walking scraping wiht shovel
Dagmar
B.
whisper
/u/
as - hes
whisper
/u/
/o/
A2
whisper
/a/
A.1
ppp
/myiour/
mp
p
S.1
3
8
/K´iiyu/
S.2
/a/ /m/ /a/ - /m/
Voice
rae
/ss/
mp
Dies
/ss/
il - la
i - rae
il - la /rr/
/a/
/o/
/o/
/o/
/di/
/es/
il -
Sol
ol
es
/i/
dies
Dies
Dies
-
es
di
di
/o/
whisper
whisper
/a/ - /m/
A2
Dies
/i/
/a/ /m/
A.1
M-S.
whisper
/i/
/es/
vet
/rae/
Dagmar
B.
senza vibrato
/K´iiyu/
mp
Dies
mf
i - rae
p
Dies
mf
il - la Dies
s.p.e. Db.
arco
pp
gliss.
/t∫/
4
S.1 12
la
di
S.2
/i/
M-S.
/i/
A.1
/i/
et
-
/o/
et
3
mp
/rr/ /rr/ /rr/ /rr/ /rr/ /ei/ /ei/ /ei/ /ei/ /ei/ /ei/ /ei/ /ei/ /ei/
molto vibrato
/i/
/a/ /a/ /a/ /a/ /a/ /a/ /a/ /a/ /a/ /a/ /a/ /a/ /ei/
molto vibrato
es
/i/
di
Voice
/rr/ /rr/ /rr/
A2
-
/rr/
mf
/rae/
pp
-
-
es
/o/
et
kneeling at stones hitting them against each other scraping with them
Dagmar
B.
Db.
mp
sol
p
"sotto voce"
3
vet
s.p.e. mp
5
S.1 15
gliss.
/ht/
mp
(i)/n/
/ht/
ppp
M-S.
ppp
sol
sol
vet
-
-
-
Sol
sol
gliss.
in
vet
/a/
et
/ht/ /ht/ /ht//a/
Voice
sol
vet
A2
vet
sol
A.1
sol
ppp 3 gliss.
S.2
ppp
mf
sol
gliss.
vet
in
kneeling at stones - still
Dagmar
B.
Db.
f
mp
mp f gliss. sae
-
-
clum
(i)/n/
/t∫/
sol
mf
p
ve
vet
6
S.1 18
vet
S.2
/ay/
/t/ /t/ /t/
(i)/n/
sol
/ay/
/ss/
sol
B. 3
ve ve
/o/
/ht/ /ht/ /ht/ /i/(n)
ve
3
/i/(n)
/t/ /t/ /t/ /i/(n)
/i/(n) /o/
vet
/ss/ /o/ /o/ /ay/
in
Db.
/l/
ppp
3
ve
Voice
3 3 3 p
A2
/o/ /ss/ /ss//ss/ /o/
ve ve ve vet /ht/ /ht/ /ht/
A.1
3
/ss/
/so/
M-S.
f
vet
in
p
in f mp
/i/(n)
/t∫/
pp
f
(i)/n/
pizz.
mf
/t∫/
f
21
S.1
vet
sol
S.2
sol
ve ve ve
M-S.
/o/
A.1
Voice
sol
vet
p
ve
3
3
sae
sol
sol
vet
/ei/
p
-
-
sol
mp
B.
Db.
Dagmar
sol
/sol/
flautando s.p.e. arco
p
mf
stop sound
gliss.
p
vet
stop sound
gliss.
/ay/
ff
sae- clum
sol
sae- clum
p
/o/
sol
vet
molto vibrato
/d/ /d/
mi - ser /f/
mp 3
/o/
vet
-
mi - ser
sol
vet
3
ff
ff "shouting"
Fa
s.p.e.
mi -
7
8
S.1 mi
-
A.1
-
ser
/f/
mi
-
wrath /o/
ser
/o/
/oh/
/f/
mi - ser
mp
mi - ser
Voice
mi
ppp
ser
A2
/f/
mi
M-S.
ser
whisper ppp
S.2
ppp
25
mi
f
/an/
/f/
/o/
mi - ser
mi
ser
/f/
mi - ser
/ger/
rage
/rr/
/d/ /d/
/o/
/f/
ser
mi
mi
-
ser
/rr/
mi - ser
-
ser
/ai/
/ai/
/ai/ /i/
/o/
mi
-
/o/
ser
/f/
mi - ser
mi - ser
mi - ser
ser
ff actions throwing scraping etc
Dagmar ff mp dolce
B.
Fa
Db.
“multiphonics"
/a/
(f)/a/
Subharmonics!!
gliss.
"glottal onset ingressiv (f)"
pp "falsetto"
lunga
29
S.1
mi
-
ser
/rage/
mi
-
ser
/mm/
mi
-
S.2
/år/
M-S.
A.1
Voice
Dagmar
B.
Db.
/ah/
/o/
/o/
/f/
/tai/
/o/
/tai/
mi - ser
/f/
mi
ser
gliss.
mi - ser
mi - ser
mp
/o/
-
ser
mi
MORIBUNDUS!
sim.
mp
/fii/
/di/
"speech" p
pp
/mm/
p
/ah/ /ah/
/f/
mi
ser molto vibrato
molto vibrato
p
stop sound
3
9
/f/
mi
/o/
-
ser
still
10
S.1 32
/di/
mi - ser
/di/
molto vibrato
S.2
di
M-S.
-
sol
/d/ /d/
A.1
/f/
ser Db.
Voice
mi
solves
/o/
-
ser
/f/
mi
whisper
/o/
as
in
mi - ser
-
ser
in
ppp
sim.
mi
mf
ves
/f/
mi
/o/
-
-
hes
as - hes
in
ser
ser
/f/
/o/
mi - ser
S.1 35
mi
S.2
M-S.
-
ser
sol
-
act
mi - ser
/o/
mi - ser
/f/
death
death
mi
-
/mm/
mi - ser
p
/o/
mi - ser
/o/
act
/o/
ser
whisper
/f/
mi
-
ser
11
mi - ser /ah/
whisper
act
whisper molto vibrato
ve
/f/
in
in
A.1
whisper
mf
/mm/
/o/
/mm/
/o/
mi -
/f/
“multiphonics"
Voice
B.
A2
"glottal onset ingressiv (f)"
mi
/am/
ser
-
-
-
/am/
sae
-
-
-
-
-
-
"reinforced harmonics"
/tam/
-
-
-
-
12
38 whisper S.1
mi
S.2
se - ri
se - ri
se - ri sigh
/ei/
whisper
sigh - ing
/g/
sigh
molto vibrato 3 /o/
stop sound
/mm/
M-S.
death /o/ death
ser
A.1
A2
Voice
/n/ /n/ /n/ /na/
/o/
mi - ser
mi - se
/am/
-
ri
-
mi
na
ture
-
ser
/ture/
nat.
/tam/
-
/o/
-
/quam/
-
tam
-
l.h. pizz. arco
mp
co
-
ing
/ff/
3
In
-
mi - ser
sae
mf
/quam/
be
mf
sae
B.
whisper
/o/
sae
Db.
/u/
tam
-
ff
l.h. pizz.
f
S.1 42
S.2
whisper
/g/
wrath
A.1
na
ture
whisper
/ff/
Voice
rage
mf
B. leggiero
sum sum /tnk/
Db.
/fo/
whisper
mf
mi -
rise
se - ri
mi
/o/
of
-
3
/o/
/ai/
ser
p
mf
mi - ser sum sum /tnk/
arco
/rr/
blush
/o/
/o/
13
whisper
mi - ser
sigh - ing
M-S.
sum sum
/tnk/
dic- tu - rus dic- tu - rus
arco sul pont. mf p l.h. pizz.
sum sum /tnk/
molto pontic. arco
mf
14
S.1 48
q = 100
q = 90
S.2
mf
gliss.
er
-
er
go
-
go
"falsetto" ord. "operatic" er go er go in in pp mf f B.
Voice
In
-
ge- mis -
Ju- dex er - go
er
-
go cum
Zbpizz arco pp sul pont.
Db.
-
q = 100 arco s.p.e. gliss .
arco
l.h. pizz.
In
f
se- de
mf leggiero
S.1 52
cum
S.2
B.
Db.
se
bit
la
quid - quid
-
gliss.
-
tet
gliss.
re
-
bit
-
tet
la - tet
la
gliss.
cum
gliss.
ap- pa - re - bit
gliss.
15
S.1 55
ni
Db.
-
hil
S.1
59
hil
tam
gliss. -
quam
cul
B. me re
-
us
bit
gliss. gliss.
f
mf
/t∫/
cul
3
-
/tam/
-
/quam/
rit.
q = 90
mp
ff
ff
pa ru - bet
pa
harmonics" "reinforced
cul - pa ru - bet ru - bet
rubet
senza vibrato ord.
Db.
re - ma ne
gliss.
-
i nul tu
S.2
gliss.
ni - hil
ni
S.2
B.
gliss.
q= 90
rit.
mf
"reinforced harmonics"
/vul/
-
-
f
16
63
B.
/tus/
Db.
me
leggiero pp
molto vibratorit.
ord.
-
us
sum sum /tnk/
rit. p f p f p
mi - ser sum sum /tnk/
q = 40
S.1
69
A2
Dagmar
e = 160
standup
mf
er
-
go
cum
gliss.
se -
mf mi - ser mi - ser
mf
er
"operatic"
-
go
cum
se- de
senza vibrato
ff f mf "operatic" B. sum sum /tnk/
Db.
Mi - hi
quo - que
spem
de- dis - ti
e = 160
de- dis - ti
col legno battuto
er
-
gli ss
go
p
.
cum
se- de
g liss.
leggiero
gliss. gliss. S.1 75
de
bit
quid
mi - ser
bit
quid
-
tet
bit
S.1
quid
80
ni
gliss. -
-
quid
hil
ni
quid
gliss.
gliss. -
-
la
-
ss.
ni
bit
mi - ser
re - bit
-
-
gliss.
gl iss .
hil
re
ap- pa - re - bit
tet
gli
gliss.
tet
-
pa
mi - ser
la
-
gliss.
ap
mi - ser
gliss.
Db.
hil
gliss.
ni
gliss.
mi
gliss. -
ser
A2
mi - ser
Dagmar
mi
Db.
la
mi - ser
Dagmar
B.
ss.
A2
B.
quid
gli
17
-
mi - ser
ser
ni - hil
mi
ni - hil
ni - hil
gliss.
mi - ser
gliss.
-
gliss.
mi - ser
mi - ser
ser
mi
ni - hil
ni
hil -
-
ser
- ni - hil
gliss.
gliss.
18
S.1 85
ni
-
hil
mi ser
ni - hil
mi
-
-
se - ri
mf
A2
mi - ser
ni - hil
mi
-
ni - hil
ni
Dagmar
B.
Db.
ni - hil
mi
hil
ni - hil
ni - hil
ni - hil
mi - ser
mi
mi
B.
Db.
-
ni
-
mi - ser
ser
90
Dagmar
mi - ser
mi - ser
S.1 A2
mi - ser
hil
-
-
ser
ni - hil
ser
ni
-
hil
ni
-
hil
ni
-
hil
Scene 8: Ave Maria Dagmar is brought into psychiatric hospital - calling her mother for help, and flirting manipulating the psychiatrist calling him "god", well aware of her own beauty
Bass
Double Bass
3 mp 3
Psychiatrist: q =70
A
arco
ve Ma ri a gra
ti a ple na
do mi nus te e cum be ne dic ta tu in
q =70
pp
Dagmar 4
mp
A
a
ve
Ma
ri
B.
mu li e ri bus et bene dic tus fruc tus ven tris tu i je sussanc tama ri a ma ter de i o ra pro no bis pec ca to ri bus
Db.
Dagmar 7
a
A
a
ve
3 3 B.
nunc et in ho ra mor tis nos tra a
Db.
men A ve Ma ri a gra mp
ti a ple na do mi nus te e cum be ne dic ta tu in
2
A1 10
mp
g l gli i ss. s s . ma ma ma ma
Ma -
a B.
Dagmar
Ma
ri
a
A
mu li e ri bus et be ne dic tus fruc tus ven tris tu i je sus sanc ta ma ri a
Db.
A1
13
ma
Dagmar
gliss. ri
-
a
ri
a
ma ter de i o ra pro no bis pec ca to ri bus
Ma
-
ri
-
a
a 3 3 B. ve
Ma
nunc et in ho ra mor tis nos tra a
Db.
men A ve Ma ri a gra ti a ple na do mi nus te e cum be ne dic ta tu in mp
A1 16
ri
ord. mp
ma - ma
/ja/
Ma
"falsetto" p
ri
a
A a ve Ma ri B.
Dagmar
mu li e ri bus et bene dic tus fruc tus ven tris tu i je sussanc tama ri a ma ter de i o ra pro no bis pec ca to ri bus
Db.
3
S1 19
/ja/
/ja/
Ma
i
Ma
a
i
a
Db.
23
a
Dagmar
B.
Db.
3
Ma ri
ma
be
ne dic ta
vibrato f
Do
gliss.
ri
a
mi nus te
a ri
a
a
A
ri
ve
Ma
ri
ma
a
3
ri
a
Gra ti a ple e na
ri
a
ri
a
ve
ri a
A2
S1 A1
men A
a
ri
Ma
A
B. nunc et in ho ra mor tis nos tra a
Ma
a
Dagmar
A2
Ma
A1
mf
a
ve
sanc
ta
ma ter
de
i
ho
Ma
ra
mor tis
A
ri
a
ve
ma
ma
4
S1 28
cum
Dagmar
B.
ve
ne di ic ta a
Ma ma ma ma ri
be ne dic ta
Db.
Be
A
tu
Ma ri
a
Ma ma ma ma ri
Sanc
ta
ma
ter
a
Ma ma
i
Ma ma ma ma ri
de
a
i
ho
ra
mor
tis
S1 32
ri a
Dagmar
B.
Db.
a
ra
f
ve
Ma ma ma ma ri
no
a
Ma ma ma ma ri
stra
a
3
men
ri a
a
a
Ma ri
mor tis
Ma
A ve
f
ve
vibrato
A
Ho
A
S2
vibrato
Ma ma ma ma ri
a
3
a
a
S1 36
Sa
Ma
ma
ri
a
a
a
a
Dagmar
Ma ma ma ma ri
A1
Dagmar
a
a
Ma ma
ma ma ri
A
ter
de
i
Ma
mp
a
a
a
Ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ri
a
a
a
a
a
A
a
ve ma ri a gra
f
De
De
a
Ma
f
i
men
a
men
ter
S2
a
39
S1
a
ta
Sa
p
San
i
o
ve
ti a ple na
ff
a
a
mp
a
a
ff
a
Ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ri
a
a
B. Db.
do
mi nus
te
e cum be ne dic ta tu in
5
rant
f
A1
Db.
3
o
p
B.
f
S2
stringendo f
mu
li
e
ri
bus
et
be ne dic tus fruc tus
S1
6
41
mf
ra
Ma ma
ra
i o
mf
Ma
Db.
je sus sanc ta ma ri a Ma
S1 ra
mo
tis
A1
ra
A2
a
B.
Db.
3
Ho
a
ma
a
ra
mor
tis
no
de i o
ra
No
ma
ma
stra
A
stra
men
A
men
men
men
a
a
Ma ma ri
Dagmar
A
ra
S2
Ho ho
ma
44
Ho
a
a
ff mf B. i
a
Ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ma ri
ven tris tu
Dagmar
Ma ri
Ma ma a ter de
a
A2
mf
mf
A1
a
S2
Ma ri
A
a
A
ve
a
A
.
ss gli
gliss. men
gliss.
7
S1 48
A2
q = 80
mf
skipping a rope creating the "beat"
Dagmar
mand
doms kraft
"speech" mf
/go/ /go/ /go/ /go/ /go/ /go/ /go/ god is sempre
his po- wer of man
-
the /de/ /de/
hood
continue skipping till bar 311
B.
Db.
left hand pizz. arco
q = 80
gliss.
mf
"reinforced harmonics"
51
S2
A2
mf
p
/mm/
/de/ /de/ /de/ /de/ sire
Light
Dagmar
Db.
senza misura pp
of Gods
loins
8
A2
56
/moar/
Dagmar
Db.
/mm/ /mim//mim/
mp
ex ex
ex
Dagmar
Dagmar
-
ci
He stands
be fore his cre - a- tion /ex/ /ex/
mp
lust mp
f
ted
ff
lust
loin
ff
lust
lust
his loins
the lust of
ta- ber - nac - les
Db.
ci - ted
/g/ /g/ /g/ god lust
in two broo- ding
64
S1
gliss.
ex- ci- ted
Db.
/moar/
/moar/ /mm/ /mim/ /mim/ /moar/ /mm//mim//mim/
ta- ber nac- les
f
ex
/mim/
ex
A2
mp
60
in two broo ding
/mim/
gat - he- red
S1
S2
two
broo- ding
/ta/
/ta/ /ta/
ta- ber- nac - les
"falsetto" mp
/ta/
hol - ding the trunk
e - rect
68
S1
S2
A1
A2
Dagmar
Db.
trunk
strong
mf S1 72
ppp
/moarniyor/
ppp
/moarniyor/
Dagmar
breed his seed
Db.
"reinforced harmonics"
pp "reinforced harmonics"
/moarniyor/
f
God ploughs
his field
gliss.
God
mf
God
ppp
A2
/moarniyor/
and up- right
/moarniyor/
pp
/bree/ breed his seed
his sa cred breath
/moarniyor/
A1
/bree/ /bree/
S2
pp "reinforced harmonics"
"falsetto" mp
strong and up- right
up - right
9
letting go of skipping rope
his seed
"falsetto" p
his
sa cred
breath
10
S1 76
S2
mp
be
thee
mp
thee
she gives her she gives her
Db.
be
"speech" mf
Dagmar
to
be
of
be
thee
80
S1
f
f
S2
A2
Dagmar
Db.
mp
word
/moarouniyor/
ff
Ga- bri- el
God
svin -ging lil
mp
85
S1
wo - man
S2
wo - man
A2
B.
Db.
wo - man
89
Dagmar
God
B.
Db.
mp
- ly
bri
/a/ wo
gliss. -
God
gliss.
-
man
/a/ li - ly
/a/
gliss.
/a/ wo - man
el
li
/a/ li - ly
p
/a/ li
gliss.
ff
"reinforced harmonics"
gliss. -
ly
p
/moaroar/
gliss. gliss.
man
ff
/a/
breed
gliss.
/a/ /hi/
breed
Ga
God
/a/ wo - man
/a/ wo
gliss.
breed breed
God
/a/ li - ly
/a/ li
God
/a/
/hi/
S1 A2
Dagmar
li - ly
A1
/a/
ff
gliss.
breed
gliss. -
ly
/a/ wo - man
gliss.
11
12
ppp
S1
mp
92
Ga bri
"reinforced harmonics"
f
gliss.
b.c. vibrato: velum + tongue
gliss.
/mm/ ad lib. ppp
el
"reinforced harmonics"
mp
S2
gliss.
gliss.
f
b.c. vibrato: velum + tongue
gliss.
/mm/ ad lib. ppp
seed
"reinforced harmonics"
A1
A2
Dagmar
/a/ li - ly
/mm/ ad lib.
gliss.
gliss.
mp
gliss.
"reinforced harmonics"
B. gliss. Db.
/a/ wo- man
thee became flesh
99 gliss. S1 S2 A1
A2
b.c. vibrato: velum + tongue
f "speech" My creation be of thee -
gliss.
/mm/ ad lib. ppp
B. Db.
b.c. vibrato: velum + tongue
gliss.
gliss.
b.c. vibrato: velum + tongue
/mm/ad lib. gliss.
gliss.
gliss.
gliss.
gliss.
gliss.
gliss.
gliss.
gliss.
gliss.
S2 105
accel.
Db.
glis
s.
q = 90
mf
13 poco a poco crescendo e stringendo a fine mf
A ve Ma ma
q = 90
S2 112
ma ma
B.
Db.
ri
a
A
ve
Ma ma
ma ma
ri
a
A
mf
A
ve
ve
Ma ma
Ma
ma ri a
S2 116
ma ma
B.
Db.
A
ve
Ma ma
ma ma
ri
a
A
mf
ma
A
a
A2
ri
ve
ma ma
ri
a
ma
ma
mom
ma
ve
ma
A
Ma ma
ma
S2
14
120
ma ma
A2
Dagmar
B.
ma
ma
a
A
ma
ma
ve
ma
Ma ma
ma
ma ma
ri
ma
ma
a
A
ma
ma
ve
Ma
Ma ma
ma
mf "sob"
/mor/
ve
Db.
ri
Ma
ma ri a
mf S1
A
ve
ma ma
ri
a
A
ve
Ma
ri
a
A
ve
124
mom
A
S2
A ve Ma A ve Ma ma ma ma ri a ma ma ri a
A1
A2
Dagmar
A
ma
B. Db.
mf
ve
ma
ma
Ma
ma
ma
ma
ma
A
ve
ma
/i/ /jord/
A
ve
Ma
Ma
ma
ma
ma
A
ve
ma
ma ri a
A
ve
ma
ma
ma ma
ri
a
A
ve
128
S1
ve
Ma
ma ma
ri
132
Ma ma
ma
ma
ma
/mor/
ma
ve
ri
ma
Ma
ma
a
A
Ma
-
ve
ma
A
ve
ma
ma
ma
A
ma
Ma
ma
ma ri a
Ma ma
Ma
ve
A
a
ve
/i/ /jord/
ma ma
A
S1 ri
ve
mom
Db.
A
Dagmar
A
ve
ma ma
ve
Ma
ri
a
ri
a
A
ve
S2
ma ma
A1
ri
ma
A2
ri
a
ve
Ma
ma
ma
A
ve
ma
Ma ma
a
A
Dagmar
Db.
A
a
ma
B.
a
a
Ma
A2
ri
A1
ri
S2
B.
15
ri
ma
ma ma
a
ma
A
ma
A
ve
mom
/mor/
ma
ve
ma
ma
Ma
ma
ma
ma
ma
/i/ /jord/
Ma ma
A
ve
Ma
ma ri a
16
S1 136
S2
ma ma
A1
A
S1 139
S2
ma
ma
ma ma
ri
ma ma
ri
ve
Ma
ma
ma
a
a
ma
A
ve
mom
mor
a
/i/
/jord/
i
a
ma
/mor/
a
ri
ri
A
ma
Ma
Ma ma
a
ve
Db.
a
A2
ve
B.
A1
Dagmar
A
A
Db.
ve
a
ma
Ma
A
ma
Dagmar
ri
ve
A2
B.
Scene 9: Angel Dagmar´s mother comes to visit. She admires Dagmar as an angel that she needs. She cannot face the facts, and is unable to help in any way
Dagmar
Dagmar at the table waiting for her mother to come
Dagmar sets the table for the "eucharist" - preparing her "deathbed" with coffee cups, spoons, coffeepot etc for the nuns - letting the activity of the setting creating a soundscape
q = 140 mp "speech"
Dagmar 9
ca "120" quickly
spoken while plucking the petals of an ox-eye daisy she loves me.... she loves me not..... she loves me.... she loves me not ......she loves me...... she loves me not
q = 140
col legno battuto
Db.
Dagmar
Db.
ff
she loves me.... she loves me not..... she loves me.... she loves me not ......she loves me...... she loves me not
arco
S.1 25
Db.
p
Mother:
"speech" altered with "sprechstimme" & "falsetto" free pitch anchored to note: d
Light - ning an - gel gol - den sha - dow
col legno battuto "walz"
Soft - ly
spre- ding
10
S.1 34
S.1 42
Db.
Ten
-
der touch
close
give in
and
cry
to
my heart
51
An
An - gel
close to
my heart
Glass gliss.
sore and
o - pen I
ord.
mf
-
gel
how come you chose me
p
gliss.
gliss. gliss.
/a/
arco gliss.
"falsetto" f p
mf
S.1
Db.
pro - tec - ting wings
Db.
Glass
col legno battuto
An - gel
sempre
gliss.
ease my heart- ache
An -
11
S.1 60
gel dont leave me to
Glass
Db.
S.1 70
Glass
Db.
arco gliss.
In my dark - ness
Bliss - ful lips
gliss.
light
fly
arco gliss.
gliss.
kiss
close
to
my heart
p "falsetto"
gliss.
gliss.
gliss.
An - gel
mf
col legno battuto
Like a
Gol - den sha - dow you temp me to
gol - den sha - dow
how come you chose me
Db.
f
g liss.
you lit a
Db. 87 S.1 Glass
78
night
gliss.
S.1
Glass
sim. p
close to
my heart
An
-
gel
col legno battuto
An - gel
gliss.
ease my
12
S.1 96
heart - ache
Glass
Dagmar
Db.
Dagmar
Db.
leave
me
to
night
arco
gliss.
f
gliss.
gliss.
love you, to respect you, to be always faithful to you, and never to forsake you
I promise to
What God has joined together, let no man tear asunder.
. gliss
until death do us part.
dont
121
Dagmar
gliss.
"speech"
Db.
S.1
pizz.
Db.
An - gel
p "falsetto"
An -
pp
ff
gel
how come you chose me
col legno battuto
An - gel
close to
my heart
131
S.1
Db.
An - gel
S.1
141
Day - light co- ming
Glass
Db.
S.1
150
Light - ning light
Glass
Db.
mor - ningbreeze
in
my heart
freely ornamentet ff
gliss. freely ornamentet ff gliss. Glass 160
S.1
Db.
S.1 168
Glass
gliss. gliss.
night
Hear you whis - per
stay
An - gel dont leave me to
arco gliss.
ease my heart - ache
13
Gol - den sha - dow
in
soft
my ear
dont fade a - way
arco gliss.
gliss. gliss.
gliss.
gliss.
Scene 10: Bing Dagmar is released from psychiatric hospital and her compulsive behavior increases dramatically and takes her on a tour de force between refrigerator and toilet. She binges.
grace notes: "multiphonic fry"
q. = 70
mf
ff
Dagmar
Bing
I
am
mf q. = 70
Double Bass
Dagmar 5
more
Db.
S.1 10
S.2
A.3
Dagmar
Db.
Hos
ff
bing
me more more /b/ bing
-
Hos - ti
hu
-
/b/ /b/ purge
hu
-
more
I
purge
/p/ purge
more
f
mf
O
pau per tas
3
be -
ma - nae
-
ti - ae
/b/
f
3
Hos - ti - ae mf
mp
/b/
mp
/f/ /f/ food more I´m pur ging
bing
ae
ma - na
O
O
pau
be - a
-
ta
3
per
tas
pau per tas
f
3
This is
mp
my
ornamental
hos - ti - ae hu ma
10
15 S.1
be - a - ta
S.2
a
A.3
Db.
/o/
O
sanc
hu
ma - na
/o/ 3
ta
Hos ti - ae
Dagmar
pau - per - tas
ta
/o/
/o/
/o/
mp
Where is the loo
ff
s.p.e. con molto vibrato
mp
I
ord.
p
need
21
Dagmar
mf
to kneel now
Db.
till all my "eats" comes up
mf
sotto voce mp f
mf
Love me! Look I /a/ a - tone for
Love
me!
3
11
S.2 26
pp
Love
sempre ad lib.
p
me
agitato con dolore Anorexia: mf
mf
You
Db.
sempre ad lib.
/ah/
Dagmar
/ah/
A.3
B.
pp
you broke
our
pact!
S.2 32
A.3
B.
Db.
Kneel
Dagmar
mp
g liss. Spit
blood
blood
mp
gliss.
and
slime
molto pontic.
gliss.
p
f
ff spit - ting
12
S.2
37
A.3
mp
Dagmar
gliss.
blod
B.
mf
Db.
fingers in
mp
gliss.
blod
mp
blood
f
f
mf
ff
ff
throat
your
43
S.2
A.3
B.
Db.
pp
mp
A - tone
pp
my girl
gliss.
gliss.
"belting" senza vibrato fff
"belting" con vibrato ff
´tone
ff
my
girl
p "falsetto"
pp
S.2
e=e
49
M-S.
Be
O
sotto voce mp
-
sotto voce mf
fi
li
a - ta
fi
a
be - ne
-
li - a
13
be
dic - ta
-
ne
dic
quo - ni - am
e=e
Db.
mp
S.2 54
in
my own fat
-
ta
O
be
li - a
O
changing character to:
Dagmar
Db.
Anorexia:
I /b/ binge I
f
o
"speech" & "sprechstimme"
On
your knee
60
Purge!
Db.
re
lin
-
gu
Bing!
Purge!
Bing!
a
car - nis
ff mp
fi - li
ord. Dagmar: mp
Bing!
3 mp
a
p
fi
li
a
Love
3
pri
-
ff
mf
-
pos - set ex
gliss.
I /b/ binge
Fat Cow!
S.2
Dagmar
(shouting)
me
f con dolore
Nul - la - te - nus
fi
a - ta
I need some food
ti - o - nem 3
M-S.
lec
Hun - ger - pain
di -
3 Dagmar
I am drow - ning
14
66 mf S.2
be - ne- dic - ta
Dagmar
Db.
ad
Love
Love
gliss.
te
ha
be - o
di
me
I
70
Dagmar /m/ /m/ /m/ /m/ me
Db.
3 M-S.
75
love
f
mp
w - c
Love me
I
gua
car
nis
mp sotto voce
joyfull humming
mp
Dagmar
Db.
Love /m/ /m/ /m/ /m/
/m/ /m/ /m/ /m/ me
-
Lin
-
me
gli ss.
pi
a
M-S.
o
Love
gliss.
S.2
lec - ti - o
mf
Loo
Love me
gliss.
loo
I
molto pontic. con molto vibrato
ff
15
leggiero
81
Db.
85
Db.
pp
3
3
gliss.
Scene 11: Valete Dagmar is at her death bed surrounded by father, mother and nuns
Soprano1
Double Bass
pp
"lament" "falsetto"
q = 100 Mother:
O
q = 100
O
S.1 10
S.2
A.1
A.3
Db.
mp
pp
pp
pp
Va
p
Va
le
Va
pp
te
-
te
-
te
p
le
-
p
le
mf
Self - star- va- tion
p
2
S.1 20
in
A.1
in
in
et
mp
Dagmar
I
am
mp
or
Do - mi - ne
It
star- ving
is ho - ly
pp
ho- ly war
self
star
/oo/
or
star - ving
et
She
war
self - star- va - tion
Db.
A.3
B.
Do - mi - ne
S.2
my ji - had
/oo/ dy - ing /oo/ my ji had
-
mf"sob"
star- va
va - tion /oo/ Ah
3
S.1 28
f
re
-
M-S.
ly
f
pp
war
-
p
ly
war
f
sul pont. glis s.
fp
me
pp
mp
p
pro
f
mp
pro
ord.
Ho
pp
tis
tion
f
Dagmar
war
re
war
pp
A.3
A.1
tis
f ho
Db.
S.2
B.
p
me
"sob" f
s.p.e.
mp
/ah/
p
4
S.1
36
A.1
A.3
Vic
B.
Db.
mp
-
to
-
ri - ous
pp
mf
ho
ly war
Cry
3
for her
She sa - cri fice
/ah/
men - tor
mp
mp
Tor
Pu
/ah/
p
ri - fy!
p
mf
S.1 44
A.1
A.3
Db.
Sa - cri
li
gi - ous
She sa cri - fices
Pu
ri -
f
p
5
S.1
51
fi
Dagmar
B.
ca - tion tion
mp
p "falsetto"
Sin
/ah/
Self
-
Sin
Sin
star
-
gliss.
va
-
60
me
Db.
She did choose a
ho - ly
mf
mf
leggiero
S.2 69
mf
To - to a
mp B. cry my
Db.
path
arco
f
ppp
f
cor
dis
heart out
m.v.
ho - ly
p
et
a ho - ly path
mp
ni mo
/ah/
mp
Dies for
B.
tion
pizz.
Db.
very slow performed onset from "airsounds" into "falsetto" into ord. pp
mf
6
S.1 79
a
A.1
A.3
Db.
S.2
B.
fec
tu ma - gis
sanc
-
/i/ /(h)a/
ti - si -
mam
/i//(h)a/
Pau mf
-
/(h)i/ /(h)a/
/(h)i/ /(h)a/
mf
Pau f
-
Cry
cry
mp
88 S.1
/(h)a/ /(h)a/ /h)i//(h)a sempre
S.2
per
A.1
-
ta
-
tem
et
cor
-
po
-
ris
pe
-
/(h)a/ /(h)a/ /h)i//(h)a sempre
A.3
per
-
B.
my
Db.
ta
-
tem
et
cor
-
heart
out
Dont!
po
-
ris
pe
dont you dare! I
-
7
96 S.1
S.2
nu
A.3
Dagmar
Db.
ri
-
am
E
-
le - gi
-
tis
spon
-
A.1
B.
-
nu
-
ri
-
am
E
-
le
-
I can´t let you die
mp
gi
tis
spon - sum
mp
My
heart
Mor
mp
-
104 S.1
S.2
Dagmar
li
qui
ves
f
no - bi - li sum
A.1
no - bi
B.
ning
Db.
star
-
ves - tram
qui
Quod
f
-
te - nes
tram
ff
te- ne as
8
113 S.1
S.2
mf
A.1
Vir
A.3
B.
mp
Db.
gi - ni
ta
-
te
mf
Vir
f
-
gi
heart
-
My
mf
-
ni
-
Mor
-
ta
ning
-
121 S.1
S.2
f
mf 3
A.3
im ma
te
Db.
f
gliss.
mf
A.1
B.
star
Im
cu
-
ma
let
go
of
Let go
cu
-
-
mf
-
la
-
tam
cu
la
-
-
sto
-
tam
your cru -
sade
Cross!
9
129 S.1
S.2
di
A.1
-
Dagmar
B.
cu
-
sto
Cross!
Cross!
S.2 138
Quod
ma
-
A.3
-
la
-
im -
-
ma
-
la
tam
cu - late
B.
ff
la - e
te - ne as
im
mf
te - nes
e - sam
gliss.
Star - va- tion self - star- va - tion Star Star Star - va - tion du
mf
Dagmar
il
A.1
Il
Db.
et
ff
10
S.2 145
im
A.1
Dagmar
-
ma
-
cu
-
la
-
Self - star va
Self Star
Self - star va
tion
tam
mf
B.
f
Star
f
ff