Our Bri
Ellie Roberts
Alone
Adjective & Adverb
- Having no one present; on one’s own - Without other’s help or participation; single-handed - Isolated and lonely. - Being without equal.
When your Nanna died I was alright until the funeral, then after that and when I stepped in the front door I knew she was gone forever. Before that it still felt like she was here if you know what I mean, but it’s a terrible feeling.
Don’t get me wrong I enjoy Christmas but for me it’s just not the same. I miss the old times when everyone used to come here. Don’t get me wrong your Mams and Dads is brilliant but sometimes I just want to be on my own.
My favourite memory is dancing in the kitchen with the music being really loud, especially on a Sunday morning. Les and I would dance while getting the dinner ready.
I like to come see Dad to keep him company and come round for a cuppa and a sausage butt. I think he gets bored of being on his own all the time.
Our Bri’s got better at darts again, he got that dartitus where you go to throw and you can’t let go of the dart. No one knows why it happens but it does.
Do you know what it’s like before you were born? Does it bother you? Then that’s what death’s like. It doesn’t matter what age you are, as long as you’ve had a good life that’s all that matters. I don’t believe in Heaven, I don’t believe in Hell. You’re either good, bad or evil.
I’m not used to living on my own. I miss your Nanna terribly but there’s nothing I can do about it. You’ve just got to get on with it. It’s happened to hundreds, millions, thousands. No matter what’s happened they’re in the same boat as you and you’ve just gotta get on with it.
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