BIG LOVE AND MAGIC The Story of the Perfectionist
Sharing my inner world through writing is challenging me to go beyond my comfort zone. I feel so triggered, yet it feels so safe to keep going. 42
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thought I could control my life. I thought I could control those nearest and dearest. I didn’t know I was disempowering them and me. I wanted safe and predictable. MY predictable.
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myself down and hide my true self. If I strived for perfect on the outside, then I wouldn’t have to face what I was feeling on the inside. There was an underlying feeling of not being good enough, and I constantly kept moving the goal posts that kept me in a state of striving, pushing and controlling.
I wanted to hide my true self behind the guise of perfectionism. When I was so unsure of myself, I wanted to be sure of my circumstances. Gosh, didn’t the Universe push back, giving me lessons and opportunities to learn, grow, expand and let go. Why perfectionism? It was a way to dull
Sharing my inner world through writing is challenging me to go beyond my comfort zone. I feel so triggered, yet it feels so safe to keep going. It prompts and nudges me to go deep within, to shine light on the dark and buried aspects and to ask myself those questions that I am now ready to
