BIG LOVE AND MAGIC

By Julie Michels

Connecting with the magic and mystery within - Feeling is my Superpower!

As the world around me seems to be speeding up I have an urge to stop and be in the stillness within. So much has been happening in the external world that I have been more and more drawn to go within. To find more stillness, to access the love inside me and to then use this love as a lens to view the external world.

Going within is a common theme for me. I tend to feel a lot and when the feeling becomes too much it can trigger anxious feelings in me. A sensory overload of emotion. I tend to feel others happiness, joy, pain, judgement, elation, and the many emotions in between. Like when an ambulance drives past me with the sirens going, I automatically have a feeling that sweeps over me and sometimes it can bring on an instant flood of tears that I need to hold back. In those moments I remind myself to breathe and then I say a little prayer for those in need and the paramedics and then continue as I am.

Feelings of anxiousness can trigger when there is too much that I am sensing, and it can feel like a never-ending looping of conversations, ideas, and images in my mind. The classic monkey mind. For a very long time I thought it was all mine however the further I travel the spiritual spiral back to myself I am awakening to the realisation that it is not all mine and that what I feel is often the feelings of others. An empath at heart.

In gaining a better understanding of myself I am learning that I am not required to carry the weight of others on my shoulders. And I am becoming acutely aware of my space and my energy. Another lesson in boundaries, space, and the honouring of that. A knowing that I am not responsible for the energy of others.

A lot of my musings come to me as I walk in Nature. Often, I receive downloads as I walk, having to stop and write notes in my phone to later reflect upon. It is like I tap into the ease and grace of Mother Nature and the web of life. So many intricate threads that connect us all. I am compelled to drop my internal stories that I so often tell myself, shed the layers of aspects of self that are no longer for my highest good and connect to her magnificence which helps me tap into my Soul’s voice.

I breathe in the sweet essence of her love and allow it to fill my lungs, dance on my skin and settle into my heart like a warm embrace. As I deeply connect with the Mother energy, I feel her support and it holds me as I co-create with her.

In this space, I am open, vulnerable, protected, and safe. In this space I can trust that everything is as it is meant to be in this moment. In this space I can birth my ideas and nurture them with faith and belief. It is from this space of nothingness that I hear the inner voice of my Soul and see ideas and concepts float in.

My inner world is vast, just like the night sky. The dark of the night holds and highlights the stars, and all the stars feel like ideas just waiting to find a home in my heart, waiting for me to become the rainbow bridge that connects the Heavens to Earth. The feeling is expansive and yet grounding. In these moments I clear out the chaos in my mind. I am still, I am calm, and I am centred. I am focused only on the present and captivated by the beauty that surrounds me. I am connected.

This is when I have a lightbulb moment that my feelings are my Superpower!

How extraordinary is it that I can feel, sense, and have empathy on a deep level?

For so long I felt like there was something somehow wrong with me. Like I was too sensitive, that I cared too much about what others thought and that I should just ignore the confusion and get on with life. By changing my perspective and owning this as my superpower it has made me accept myself as I am and come alive with curiosity to explore how I can be of service to others as I journey through life. I understand and accept that I will still be triggered at times and I when I do, I see it as an opportunity to create understanding and to learn and grow.

So, for now I do the only thing I know and that is to drop deep within to my safe place. I tend to this place daily as a meditation. It changes, grows, or simplifies depending on what I need, and I remind myself that in any given moment this too shall pass.

What complex, beautiful, and mystical beings we are. Love all of you just as you are, because life is precious, and you are uniquely you.

Big love and magic. x Julie

Julie Michels