Volume IV : All Of We by Funeral Parade

If I were to tell my 6 month ago self what a beautiful issue Volume IV would be, I’d have no idea I meant to this extent. The vulnerability, inspiration, creativity, and different minds that have come together to make the 4th issue of Funeral Parade come to life has me feeling beyond fed. Funeral Parade is growing.. and growing.. and growing. And, more and more of you kooky art kids are using it for what it’s meant/ a place to throw yourself into. (Cue the butterflies) We plan to continue supporting the concept of pushing boundaries, breaking self-imposed limitations, and tearing down walls with each step forward on this parade of life. And, for those yet to speak up, whats the hold up? Get out of your comfort zones! Share your insides with us. Take part. And most of all, rid your poor little thoughts of those moonlight driven demons. Art is meant to heal, support, build, inspire, and above all, connect.. so, come say hi : Sheeluv@FuneralParade.com In closing, I do sincerely hope you enjoy this issue as much as we did in creating it. To the featured artists, submittors, and collaborative artists, thank you for your energy & support. You’ve made Volume IV everything it is:

- S h e e n a Ed i tor-i n-Chi ef & Crea tive Dire cto r Funeral Parad e.c om : Artist Suppo rting Artist

T his ye ar h as b een a b i g year i n a rt a nd music fo r me . My b a n d C h im e s has d one a l ot of g rowing this ye a r. We a re re a lly d i scove r in g o u r sound , an amazi ng ex pe rie nce . I wo rke d with Oculus Ar t C o llabo r ati ve to c reat e a w hol e insta lla tio n show a s pa rt o f Newar k ’s an n u a l Open Doors event for the a rts. I t wa s a huge succe ss. I a m s u r r o u n ded b y amazi ng arti sts and to discove r a nd le a rn mo re a b o u t t h e m t h roug h Funeral Parad e has be e n a be a utiful e xpe rie nce . As fo r m y p h o tog raphy, I have ex pl ored a n e ntire ly new, da rke r, mo re et he r e al ae st heti c . I feel more of a c o nne ctio n with my a rt this time a r o u n d. I love b ei ng a p art of the Fune ra l P a ra de fa mily be ca use i t co n t in u ally i nspi res me to ex pl ore wha t’s a ro und a nd within me . I t ’s am az in g r eal l y b ec ause t he memb e rs o f F une ra l P a ra de a re so d i sbu r se d, ye t our l ove and passi on for a rt a nd cre a ting bring us so c l o s e to g e t h e r. - E l le

In the very fi rst i ssue, S heena & I inte rviewe d o urse lve s (ha !) a nd ta lke d a bo u t ts, o u r ve ry sec ret b ook or journal we fill e d with sto rie s, po e ms, pho to gra phs, co lla g e s, a n d dr aw i ng s. No ed i ti ng , w i th the e xce ptio n o f a to rn pa ge o r two , but mo stly s c r a tc he d o u t word s we mi sspel l ed or fumble d. F o r me , it wa s my way o f be ing ho ne st w ith m yse lf be cause I c onst ant l y l i e to myse lf, o n a da ily ba sis. Neve r in ts. S o w hy am I now shari ng ts with yo u? C o nside ring no o ne ha s se e n the co n te n ts o f t h ese p ag es, i n fear I’ d need to ce nso r my wo rds, which de fe a ts the purpo se o f ts, w hy n ow ? B ec ause I’ ve l ost i nte re st. I ’ve lo st a ll co nce rn fo r wha t yo u think o f m e , o r m y wo rd s. Perhaps b y i sol at i ng myse lf the se pa st few ye a rs I ’m no t re a lizing w ha t a big m ist ake I’ m maki ng . B ut mo stly, I ho pe by sha ring ts, it ca n spa rk a bit o f c r e a tivity an d i nsp i re you to d o t he sa me . F o r thi s i ssue’s spread I d ecide d to go e a sy o n ya ’ll a nd sha re with yo u som e p a g e s f r om my summer t hi s past ye a r. Yo u se e , summe r a nd I do n’t ge t a lo ng ve ry we ll. On e o f t h e perks of wav i ng g ood b ye to C a lifo rnia , but eve n in Ore go n I ca n’t e sca pe the he a t. I h o p e you c an fi nd the humo r in my ts’ing (ye s, I ’ve ma de ts jo urna ling a ver b) . I ’ d like to keep i t an ong oi ng seri es a nd ple a se no te , I neve r ta ke myse lf to o se riou sly. -tk

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A s m a ll g i r l w ith th ough ts in th e clouds , La za r i n a N e d e lc h eva, better known as Zina, h as a lwa ys h a d h e r own way of looking at th ings . “I feel everything and everyone is just a little bit different than they look or present themselves.” Zi n a b e g a n p e rfo r ming clas s ical ballet at th e age of 7 a n d c o n t i n u e d o n for 13 years . Tour ing E urope at s u c h a yo u n g a g e , h er eyes were increas ingly opened to d i ffe re n t c u lt u re s , pers onalities , and wor lds of h er ow n . “ A s a n a r t i s t I ’m s till young in th e field but I h a ve a lwa ys h a d a s oft s pot for creating.” S h e s t u d i e d a r t i n h igh -s ch ool in Plovdiv , B ulgar ia and c o n t i n u e d h e r s t udies in Sofia, B ulgar ia at th e N a t i o n a l A r t A c a d e my . W ith a M as ters in Graph ic A r ts a n d a s e m e s te r of Fine A r ts , Zina h as grown to lear n to d ra w fro m h e r h ear t with h opes th at s om eone, s o m ew h e re , w i ll e n joy it.

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What influen ces ar e yo u t aki n g i n a t t h e m o m e n t ? Yo u r wo r k i s ve r y whimsic al an d d r eamy, I t r u l y l ove t h e a l m o st - c i r c u s - v i b e t h r o u g h o u t . Whe re do yo u gat her i n spi r at i o n ?

My i n spira t i o n c o u ld b e wo k en up by m any th ings , jus t th e th ou g h t of n ot h a v i n g my s k etch book with m e m akes m e want to draw l ik e c ra z y . B u t, th e b a s i c s a re m u s i c , p eople, odd th ings and creatures o n th e si d e of t h e ro a d , a r t m ater ials , old fabr ics . L ittle th in g s th at mi g h t b e s i t t i n g i n th e cor ner , unnoticed by oth ers , o l d an d fo rg ot te n , t h e s e a re often s tar ting points for m y wo rk. I refe r to t h e o d d n e s s i n ever y th ing. Why art, as an o u t l et ? What keeps yo u c o m i n g b a c k fo r m o r e ?

T h e su m m e r a fte r I g ra d u a te d I s tar ted creating m y Rabbit pe o pl e wh i c h wa s p a r t of a fas h ion line I did with KN A PP A B u l g ari a n fa s h i o n h o u s e . Th e gir ls wh o own it & m ys elf , fo u n d eac h ot h e r by c h a n c e , fe ll in love with wh at we did, and de c i de d to c o lla b o ra te i n c re ating s om eth ing really beautiful fo r peopl e to we a r . I wa s s o excited wh ile prepar ing th e c o l l e c ti o n . S e e i n g a h a p py fa ce on a pers on wear ing cloth es with m y ar t o n i t wa s a h i g h , I gues s . I beg an wi t h o n e p i e c e a n d w hat kept m e, and keeps m e going i s th e j oy of k n ow i n g p e o p le appreciate wh at I do and th at th ey m ig h t h a ve i t o n t h e m, o r in th eir h om e to s h ow oth ers .

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Not eve ry d a y i s “ a d a y fo r s cience” but wh en it is I jus t enjoy h av ing so m e m u s i c , s u i ta b le fo r m y m ood s o I can recreate it on paper I ’ve c h o sen . M y wo r k p la c e u s u a lly looks ver y m es sy , th ere are loads of sm al l figu re s - I c o lle c t t h e m and I h ave m os t of th e th em in front of m y si g h t c a u s e t h ey d o h elp m e finis h ar twor k s om etim es - boxe s, m ateri al s , c u p of wa te r o r c a cao, m y cat and m y com puter of cours e. I l ike m y wo r k p la c e to h a ve a par ticular atm os ph ere - war m , cute , bri g h t, a b i t me s sy , b u t a t t he s am e tim e ever y th ing in its place. Whe n look i n g at yo u r ar t wo r k I f i n d m yse l f z o n i n g o u t i n to d ay d r e a m s. Te l l u s a bit about a few o f yo u r dayd r eam s . G i ve u s a l o o k i n to t h e m i n d o f Z i n a fo r a 2 minute span .

I do fi n d mys e lf d a yd re a mi ng a lot; th inking of wh at I m igh t do in differe n t s c e n a r i o s . O t h e r tim es , wh en I ’m watch ing a m ov ie fo r exam pl e , I te n d to p u t m ys elf in th e m om ent and deal with the si tu ati o n s t h e ma i n c h a ra c te r is exper iencing, but I gues s ever yone doe s th at fro m t i m e to t i me … I d o n ’ t know, daydream ing us ually takes m e awa y from m y wo r k b e c a u s e i t d i s t racts . M y wor k com es from good, long and foc u se d t h i n k i n g a b o u t w h a t I want to do and h ow, and I th en express it o n th e p a p e r . How do yo u ho pe o t her s to vi ew yo u r wo r k ? W h a t e m o t i o n s d o yo u h o p e t h o se to e xpe rien ce?

S om e o n e o n c e to ld me a g ood wor k piece is th e one th at gives the v i ewe r an y k i n d of e m ot i o n , wh eth er good or bad; it is an em otio n th e work g a ve . I ’ d p refe r t h e em otion to be a good one of cours e but in both wa ys I re c e i ve i t a s I created s om eth ing oth ers notice. Every si n g l e pe rs o n lo o k i n g a t m y ar t wor k can decide for th em s elves wh at th e sto ry i s a n d h ow to fe e l.

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What ar e yo u r o pi n i o n s o n t h e a r t wo r l d / o r wo r l d i n g e n e r a l / i n t h i s mom e nt? How do yo u feel we, as a r t i st s, a r e i n fl u e n c i n g o u r g e n e r a t i o n wh e t h e r it be posi t i ve o r n eg at i ve?

I’ ve a lwa ys b e e n a fa n of th e old m as ters , for m e th is tim e of a rt wil l al wa ys b e t h e re a l fi rs t, one and only , but today we h ave s om e ama zing art a s we ll. I li k e t h e way th ings are going - ever y th ing is mo re c o lo rfu l, m o re c ra z y lo oking; s om e ar tis ts today can literally blow yo ur m ind . I a ls o ve r y mu c h adm ire th e s treet-ar t. Art i s t s eve r y w h e re a n d in th eir own tim e and generations , I think, a re o r h a ve b e e n g i vi n g p o s itive inf luence. A r t can only give pos itive eve n wh e n i t s h ow s s o me o n e’s s adnes s or tears . We find th e beauty we a re l oo k i n g fo r . As a r ecen t gr ad u at e, w ha t r e a l i t i e s a r e yo u fa c i n g wi t h l i v i n g a n , “Ar t life ” ?

Wh i le I wa s a s t u d e n t I gues s I could s ay it did feel like I was l iving an a r t li fe . I n Bu lg a r i a to be in an ar t s ch ool or A r t academy is a c o m p lete ly d i ffe re n t t hing com pared to all th e oth er educational p l a ce s. Fo r exa mp le , i f s t u d y i ng His tor y th ere are 2 00 h undred new st ud e nt s e n te r i n g e a c h ye a r , i n th e A r t academ y , in one s pecialty (whicheve r yo u c h o o s e – p a i n t i n g , pr intm aking, s culpture, fas h ion, A r t histo ry, i n te r i o r d e s i g n ) t h e re are 12 or 10 or les s s tudents per ye a r, p e r spe c i a lt y . W h i c h me a n s we know each oth er . We live at one b uil d ing. It fe e ls n i c e , c o m fo r ta ble, as if you’re a par t of th is place, pl us yo u g et to d o w h a t yo u love wh ile liv ing it. If th at m akes s ens e. T h e re a li t i e s I fa c e d after I graduated were bas ically all rel a te d to fina n c i a l of c o u rs e . B u t th at was s om eth ing I h ad to deal with whil e a stud e n t s o I wa s p re p a red. I knew it wouldn’t be easy and it’s st il l not , bu t I j u s t n e e d to t r y and m ake it wor k. W h y ? M y tim e is now , whe n i t’ s a ll s t i ll fre s h i n m y m ind and I s till h ave love for ar t in my he a rt .

Choose a f avo r i t e pi ece yo u ha ve c r e a t e d & t e l l u s wh y t h i s yo u r fa vo r i te . What was go i n g t hr o u g h yo u r m i n d wh i l e c r e a t i n g ?

I’ ve th o u g h t a lot w h i c h o n e is m y favor ite but I ’m not s ure if I can c h o o se o n e - n ot b e c a u s e of th e way th ey look but becaus e of wh a t eve ry si n g le o n e m e a n s to me. T h e “ Red dotted bunny ” is one of my favori tes b e c a u s e w i t h i t , a lot h appened wh ich h elped m e get th rough on e ve ry lo n g s u mm e r , i t a ls o gave m e a ch ance to h ave m y ar t on fash ion p i e c e s . It al l bega n o n e d a y w h e n I woke up. I h ad th is im age in m y m ind of a h u m a n d re s s e d a s a ra bbit; a wh ite bunny with red polka dots. I m an ag e d to c re a te i t exa ctly as I h ad im agined it; wh ich does n’t h appe n ve r y ofte n . W h e n I draw s om eth ing I rarely h ave th e exact idea bu t m o re s o a fe e li n g , th es e em otions I need to get out of m e. S o th at ra b b i t - h u m a n i s a p o r trait of wh at felt like th at s um m er . Al l of th e bun n y p e o p le I d ra w are feelings I h ad. Ever yone, or at least m o st peo p le , t h i n k i t ’ s a h u m an dres s ed as a bunny but if you take off th e co s t u m e yo u ’ ll s t i ll h ave th e ears , th e weird s tar ing eyes and th e fe e l ing i t c a r r i e s w i t h i t . What are yo u cu r r en t l y wo r ki n g o n ?

A pro j e c t h e re i n Bu lg a r i a , i t ’s th e N ational A utum n E xh ibitions 2 013, wh ic h are h e ld i n P lovd i v. I h ave a few m ore days until th e opening wh ic h i s S u n d a y , S e pte m b e r 1s t. I don’t us ually par ticipate in m any ex h i bi ti o n s b u t t h i s t i m e I t h ough t it would be a great oppor tunity to m e et n ew p e o p le a n d ot h e r talented young ar tis ts . T h ere will be 10 arti sts tota l, s o t h e re ’ ll b e 10 s eparate exh ibitions . Each one of us wi l l h ave a p e rs o n a l s p a c e to s h ow ar twor ks and th is will actually be m y fi rst s o lo ex h i b i t i o n , s o I am excited for it. T h es e days I ’m just pre parin g fra m e s a n d mo u n t s and putting th e las t finis h ing touch es on m y drawi n g s . H o p efu lly p e o p le will like th e wor k and will like to s ee it ag ain . And for ou r l ast qu est i o n , t he i n fa m o u s F u n e r a l P a r a d e q u e st i o n . L e t ’s s ay i t’s your last b r eat h, What ’s yo u r [ hyp o t h e t i c a l ] to m b sto n e g o i n g to say to t h e wo r l d?

O h , n eve r t h o u g h t of t h a t … u m m , I don’t really know. It could be lots of th i n g s b u t i f I c o u ld ma y be give an exam ple with only one word…I th i n k I’ d c h o o s e , Love .

lazarina nedelcheva

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t h e red d otted b un ny

mounta i n m a n - m ou t hwi n gs

I’M A TRAVE L I NG G H O ST.

P H OTO G R A P H E R El l e C h e n MU S E Ash ley S i m o n

Cher r y Gl a zer r - Tra i c k or Trea t D a n c efl oor

LOV E LETTERS F RO M

DIA RY E N T RY & M U S E Dani Kowa lcy z k WEBS I TE Dani M Ka y . c o m

Al l p h oto g ra p h s © Dani Kowa lz yc k 20 1 3

For s om e it’s a pas s ing grade, a h ighe r wage, a yes to a firs t date, a new car , t he res er ved s eat to th e s eas ons “ m us t se e ” fashion show; for me’ it’s a ticket to the new. A one way f ligh t to an beyond; a tr ip to th e

adventure unknown.

A fter s pending tim e with old fr iends fro m years yonder and fam ily I barely eve r h ave tim e, it s eem s , to s ee.. I ’ve realiz e d th at alth ough m y pr ior ities are pol a r oppos ites to th e nor m , th ough m y ch oice s s eem foreign, m y path is a r igh teous one .

STOCKHOLM. LV II

It’s a rar ity th at I receive a genera l adm is s ion of real approval, of r e a l s a t i s f a c t i o n , but rath er , jealousy or cur ios ity of my travels . One is definitely greater tha n th e oth er . Hard to explain, but for th ose wh o h ave not been or h ave com e clos e to purs uing a pas s ion or path th ey love , it’s like ans wer ing a ques tionna ire . You can s ee a lot of th e details or , fo r s om e; th e obv ious jus t s wim s r igh t ove r h ead. S till, am azem ent h olds s teady in th eir eyes and wonder in th eir ques tions... but th eir unders tanding is far fro m. T h e reas on wh y people drop o ut of college, or leave a m ar r iage, o r th eir well pay ing jobs , or s ell all of th eir belongings .. It’s s om eth ing.

T h urs day , M ay 16 2 013 Jaco, C os ta Rica on

about 10 a m th e bea ch

Post

Monday,

May

2 0,

2 013

about

113 0am

(B rookly n , N YC a t a c la ss ic A m er ican diner around th e c orn e r fro m U n i o n Po o l b a r ) *

It’ s fu nn y h ow a t ta c h e d to th ings , places , people, oth ers can g et. I’ ve a lwa ys fo u n d a dis tas te for th e fam iliar , a s ligh t disc o mfo r t i n c o m mo n t h ings . B ut, people are different. I j u st d o n ’ t h o ld o n to eve r yone. For th os e th at I do, I never l et g o u n t i l fo rc e s b eyo n d me do s o. Per h aps a fault, per h aps a prom i s e . . . I d o a s I fe e l not as I know. U nfor tunately , so m eti me s yo u h a ve to b e s h own th at you’re h olding on to so m eth i n g . . o r to s o m e o n e , th at is n’t h olding you. A nd des pite th e anx i et y a n d fe e li n g of des pair th at you th ough t you’d feel fro m t h e lo s s , s o m et im es a let go is jus t th e dos e of freedo m n e e d e d to b e g i n a new ch apter . To s tar t looking in to ot h e rs m o re , re c o g n i z i ng th at th es e people could be th e n ex t “neve r let g o a lwa ys stay near to m y h ear t com panion.” I j u st h a ve to b e o p e n , u n a fraid, willing, and unclouded. Take c om fo r t i n s o m et h i n g c o mm on, in s om e com panions h ip not forse e n .

Post

Sunday,

Ju n e

2 013

about

10:4 5 pm

( Ch i c ag o , I L . . W i c k e r Pa r k ) *

A few d a ys a g o I h a d a convers ation with a fr iend, a si m il ar s o u l. . . o n e w h o m wanders wh ere th ey wis h and del i g h t s i n t h e u n fa mi li a r , blends in any s ch ool of fis h . We we re sp e a k i n g of fi rs t loves and los s es , m eeting s trangers , an d of s u m me rs i n la n d s unknown, feelings des ired. He th e n as k e d i f I h a d s e e n th e film , Sliding D oors , s tar r ing G wyn et h Pa lt row . I h a d n ot, th ough h e pleas antly des cr ibed th e m ovi e , b u t mo re i mp o r tantly th e m es s age. T h e fil m fo llow s o n e g i r l and two pos s ible lives bas ed on th e act of m a k i n g h e r t ra i n or m is s ing it by s econds , doors c l o sin g t h u s c h a n g i n g h e r cours e forever . I n a s entence it so u n ds d ra m a t i c , a n d a ll too obv ious if you as k m e. B ut, it g ot m e t h i n k i n g . . . h ow s i m p le decis ions to take th e inv itation from th e s t ra n g e r , o r to h ave breakfas t before th e m us eum in stead of a fte r , o r ta k e th at f ligh t des pite th e weath er , to tak e t h e j o b i n a la n d never h av ing s een. M y life is forever c h a n g i n g d ra s t i c a lly becaus e I do th es e th ings . I n eve r refu s e a n o p e n d o o r or extended h and. A nd th ough I l i ve a b i t mo re n o ma d i c t h a n oth ers , it is s till relevant to all. De c i di n g to m e et u p w i t h a fr iend of a fr iend. Or take th e c ity tra n s p o r ta t i o n i n s te a d of th e cab. Or go to th at par ty wh ere yo u re a lly k n ow n o one, in th e city all too new. W h o do yo u m e et ? W h a t d i d you m is s ? W h o did you date? Fall in l ove w i t h ? M ove w i t h ? Wh at do you s ee, feel, eat? I feel l i ke I a m ra m b li n g , b u t I am s o h um ble, s o grateful, and in so m u ch a we of t h e g ra v i t y exis ting with in th es e m om ents , th e se s li d i n g d o o rs .Â

Po s t

M onday ,

June

2 013

abo ut

9p m

(C h i c a go, I L m y bedroom ) *

It â&#x20AC;&#x2122; s h a rd to th ink of th e s un kis s ed blis s , th e sma l l ta l ks, t h e b i g dream s . Hard to im agine th ere were eve r l ove let te rs , war m walks in th e fields uns een, for b id d e n ha nd h o ld i n g, and th e bitter s weet kis s es goodbye. We fe ll m adly , deeply , tr uly . B ut tr ue is not eve r l a st ing. It n ever las ts th at long. C h a n g e is ever pres ent, ever evolv ing, ever fo rget t ing. I k n ow you will never h ave anoth er like th e one we ha d . I know d e e p d own, beh ind th e s h ades of grey youâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;ve grown to ta ke c o mfo rt in, you rem em ber it all. A ll is not los t. Tho ugh t his s e n s e of com for t is fals e, I us e it to s h ield the sickne ss I fa c e of your invalid pres ence. You can s ay t he sa me to t h e n ew but th e old will always rem ain.Â

love letters

066

Pos t

Wed n e s d a y ,

Ju n e

12 ,

2 013

about

1pm

( Chic ag o, IL par k e d i n fro n t of La ke M ich igan) *

W h e re o u r love e n d s m y end begins . Words I never believed so t r u e , s o p ra i s e wor th y , s o undoubtedly m y h ear ts exp la n a t i o n . N ow , a fter receiv ing a letter as king s om eth ing as k e d a ll to o ofte n as a buffer to s tar t a convers ation bet we e n t wo p e o p le wh o don’t really know one anoth er nor c a re to k n ow mu c h more th an jus t ‘h ow th ey are’. W h y a s k t h e n ? W h y both er ? W h y care? B ut th is pers on, th e o n e w h o m ma d e t h e puncture before and after , th e one wh o m a d e b i t te r ta s te s weet, wh o m ade tears s h ed. You as k h ow I a m ? Yo u re a lly want to know? To ans wer your tr ite que s t i o n w i t h a t r i te reply , “ I am doing fine, th anks .”

Post

Monday,

July

2 013

about

11pm

( O n t h e p la n e to E u ro p e) *

H ow c a n a o n c e s o fa m iliar th ing or idea or pers on becom e so i n s i g n i fi c a n t , n o r mal, routine, a bore? Repetition you re ply . R a r i t y c re a te s a s acredity th erefore s om eth ing c ovete d a n d u n fa mi li ar ; s om eth ing exciting. B U T .. wh at h app e n s w h e n t h i s s a cred th ing, th is coveted act - being( wh a t h a ve yo u ) s w i tc h e d s ides , trans for m ed to th e fam iliar ? Do we fo rg et s o i n s ta n tly h ow fres h , h ow foreign th e cur ves an d c rev i c e s , h ow d e e p , undetrem ental th e div ide? Rem em ber h ow n u b i le o u r b o d i e s were; h ow s weet th e s alt tas ted? Sure, sex i s o n e ve r y c o n ve rs ational and relic piece to dis cus s but wh a t a b o u t t h e ot h e rs , t h e firs t r ide, th e firs t tas te of s olid food , t h e fi rs t s i p of a liquid ir relevant of lucidity ? We fo rg et s o e a s i ly t h e m os t im por tant bas ic acts of being. T h e n h ow e a s i ly c a n i t be to forget an ex?

Po s t

Ju n e

12 ,

2 013

about

10:3 0pm

( Zu r i c h , S w i t z e r la n d ) *

As of la te , i t h a s b e en h ard to appreciate th e little th ings . To i m me rs e mys e lf i n th eir quiet com plexity , div ulge m ys elf wi t h i n t h e i r mys te r y . For exam ple, an unfam iliar yet all too fa m i li a r p la c e , a m o m ent of rem em brance, a feeling of n o s ta lg i a . . Ea r li e r i n t h e n i g h t I was caugh t s tar ing at th e buildings on t h e b lo c k I fre q u e nt for a fr iend. T h e ligh t in th e nigh t l amp c o u p le d w i t h t h e r is ing s um m er h eat, gave it’s ancient Euro p e a n a rc h i te c t u ra l appeal an even greater v is ual aura to t h e A me r i c a n ’ s eye . I ’ve been h ere before. I ’ve s een th is befo re . M a n y a t i m e s . B ut th is m om ent, now, h ere...I realize. I re a li z e my p la c e o n t h e ear th , m y place in m y univers e and th e o n e we a ll li ve i n . A nd it all felt r igh t. I felt wealth y .

A NA BAGAYAN I n te r v i ewe d by : S h e e na S nyde r Ar t wo r k © A na B ag ayan 2 0 13

Bo r n i n A r me n i a a nd m oved to C alifor nia at th e age of 6 , A n a h a d a n open eye to ch ange. “ M y parents we re p ret t y t ra d i t i o nal and protective, s o m os t of m y c h i ld h o o d a n d e a r ly teenage years were s pent drawing a n d p a i n t i n g o n my own.” A na loved ar t, and always k n ew s h e wa n te d to be an ar tis t s o h er illus tration s t u d i e s a t t h e A r t C enter of Pas adena was no real s u r p r i s e of eve n t s . A n a h a s b e e n s h owing wor k in galler ies for th e pas t te n ye a rs a n d i s c ur rently liv ing with h er h us band and t wo d o g s i n a s m a ll m ountain town, focus ing on and p re p a r i n g fo r h e r next s olo s h ow. W h en I was firs t i n t ro d u c e d to h e r ver y dream like, “ extrater res tr ial” i n fu s e d i llu s t ra t i o n s and paintings , I knew I h ad to get a b i t mo re i n s i d e t h is ar tis ts m ind.

IV. A R TIS T FEATU R E NA M E L OCATION M ed i um of Choi c e M aki ng A rt

A na Ba gaya n Califo rnia , USA Graphite & O il P a ints A s lo ng a s I ca n re me mbe r

Web si te A naBa gaya n.co m

The dre am y, et her eal , an d “ o u t o f t h i s wo r l d ” v i b e yo u r p a i n t i n g s p o r t r ay a re what c aptu r ed my eye. How l o n g h a ve yo u b e e n p a i n t i n g t h e se c r e a t u r e s, g h o s ts, and spirits?

Wh e n I m et m y h u s b a n d a few years ago, h e was really interes ted in th e su bj e c t of ex t ra te r re s t rials and U FOs , h av ing s om e exper ience s h i m se l f. It wa s s o m et h i n g I was open to, but didn’t know m uch about an d I wa s c u r i o u s to le a r n m ore about h ow th is was pos s ible. I ’ve fou n d th a t t h e re a re m a n y as pects and th eor ies s ur rounding the su bj e c t of ex t ra te r re s t r i a ls , including th e s pir itual nature of life and wh at we a re u n d e rs ta n d i n g about th e s tr ucture of ph ys ical exis tenc e . Wh at we t h o u g h t of a s s c ience fiction at one point is becom ing a re al ity . M a g i c i s a n a t u ral par t of ever y day life, created by perc e ptio n . I t h i n k of t h e s e inter -dim ens ional beings as no different th an th e mo re s o c i a lly - a c c e ptable-to-believe in ph enom ena like gh os t s an d spiri t s . Th e s e e n e rg i e s a re all around us , exis ting s im ultaneous l y in th eir ow n re a lm t h a t ove r l ap ours . If you c oul d descr i be yo u r ar t i n o n e wo r d , wh a t wo u l d i t b e ?

Futurealis m.

It ’ s a wo r ld I m a d e up for m ys elf and it can be inter preted h owever yo u wa n t . Fo r m e , it m eans th at in order to m anifes t the ki n d of wo r ld I wa n t to li ve in, I m us t live like it already exis ts , bot h th rou g h my a r t a n d a ll ot h e r as pects of m y life. Explain.

What might b e g o i n g t hr o u g h yo u r m i n d wh i l e c r e a t i n g a n ew p i e c e ?

I tal k to t h e t h i n g s I ’ m p a i nting as I paint th em . I will as k a litt l e c ate rpil l a r i f i t li k e s t h e g reen I ch os e for it, or I will as k for a c ertain ty p e of b e i n g to s h ow its elf to m e wh ile I draw it. I like my work be s t w h e n I let i t b e wh at it wants to be, th e end res ult is al ways a s u r p r i s e .

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078

ca l l i s to

i nte rd i m en s i on a l p a n g ol in i

I f yo u c o u l d t r a ve l to a n o t h e r p l a n e t , wh i c h p la ne t wo u l d yo u c h o o se ?

I â&#x20AC;&#x2122;d like to v is it one of th e oth er e a rt h-l ike planets we h ave recently dis covered so I ca n s ee wh at kind of life exis ts th ere.

great v i s i tor

Give us a vi su al descr i pt i o n o f yo u r c r e a t i ve p r o c e ss .

I’ ve h ad to re a d j u s t a fte r mov ing out of th e city to th e m ountains . My n ew stu di o i s a ll wo o d , wa lls and ceiling. I h aven’t put any th ing up on m y wal l s b e c a u s e t h e wo o d looks s o peaceful as is . It balances the m e ss o n m y d e s k a n d f lo o r . A ll I really need to wor k is focus , s o I l i ke to e i t h e r h a ve c o mp lete s ilence or s om e nice m us ic play ing. I love l i ste n i n g to e le c t ro n i c mu s i c or m editation tracks . M us ic puts m e in a tran c e - l ik e s ta te a n d h e lp s m e s tay calm and focus ed dur ing th e ear l y stag es of ma k i n g a r t , w h e n I feel v ulnerable and am extra s ens itive to so u n ds an d e n e rg y a ro u n d m e . T h e ri g h t s ta te of m i n d a c c e lerates m y proces s and I ’ve lear ned th at wh en I l o s e c o n c e n t ra t i o n , i t’s bes t to do s om eth ing els e for a wh il e an d c o m e b a c k w i t h a fre s h pers pective. What influen ces do yo u g r ab o n to , to i n s p i r e a n ew p i e c e ?

I ac t on my i d e a s a s I g et t h em , even if it’s in th e m iddle of anoth e r piec e. S o met i me s i t s e e m s like I ’m being er ratic but th at is h ow my m i n d work s a n d I d o n ’ t wa n t to res is t wh at com es naturally . For exam ple , m y in verte d wo r k s lo o k d i ffe rent th an m y oth er wor k, but togeth er th ey l o o k l i ke o n e s t y li s t i c re p re s e ntation of m y s elf and were s om e of my favori tes to wo r k o n . What is th e mo s t co m mo n r eact i o n yo u r e c e i ve fr o m yo u r a r t ?

It’ s been p ret t y i n te re s t i n g a fter I s tar ted incor porating th es e eth ere a l ideas an d ex t ra - te r re s t r i a ls into m y wor k. It’s been m os tly pos itive on th e part of m y lo n g t i m e fa n s, s uppor ters , and new ones . Som e peop l e c on n ec t w i t h m y ex t ra - te r re str ial ar twor k ver y deeply , eith er because th ey th em s e lve s h a ve h a d ex p er iences with th em , or th ey res onate wit h th e en erg y t h a t t h o s e i d e a s em body . It’s really wonderful th at peopl e h ave th at k i n d of e mot i o n a l connection to ar t, its ver y powerful.

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a m e eti n g w i t h m ysel f

a za l ea

co n ve rg en c e of a l ter nate real it ies

b irth of a u n i vers e

How ofte n do yo u f i n d yo u r sel f cr eati n g a r t ? W h a t m i g h t yo u b e d o i n g i n yo u r down time whe n n o t i n f r o n t o f a can va s/ sk e t c h b o o k ?

The l ast c ou p le of mo n t h s , s i n c e m ov ing to th e m ountains , I ’ve h ad to rea dj u st a bi t to a n ew li fe s t y le . I love being in nature and th e fores t ha s bec om e o n e of m y p a s s i o n s. N ow th at th e days are s tar ting to get sh o rte r, I li k e to b e o u t s i d e hiking, foraging, lear ning about edible p l ants, etc . I wo r k i n t h e eve n i n g s and over nigh t wh en ever yone (and eve ry dog ) is s le e p i n g . I c a n g et m ore wor k done in s h or ter , m ore foc u sed pai n t i n g s e s s i o n s , t h a n longer per iods with inter r uptions . W h ich pie c e th at yo u ’ve cr eat ed , ha p p e n s to b e a fa vo r i t e ? I f yo u h a d to ch oose , whic h o n e wo u l d i t b e an d w h y?

I t h in k th e o n e I ’ m wo r k i n g o n n ow is m y favor ite. I ’ve be e n i n c o r p o ra t i n g p re s s e d plants into m y wor k and I ’m really exc ite d abou t t h e c o mb i n a t i o n of painted f lowers and real ones . Its lik e a tran siti o n a l d i me n s i o n fro m th e wor ld ins ide th e painting to m y p hysic al wo rl d . W h at is to c ome fo r A n a Bag ayan ?

I ’m workin g o n m y s o lo s h ow r i g ht now with T h inks pace Galler y , wh ich w il l be i n 2 0 1 4 . I h a ve a few m o re group s h ows planned for th is year in t h e u pc o m i n g m o n t h s b u t my main focus is getting m y s h ow ready . For Fune ral Par ad e’s i n f am o u s qu est i o n , l e t s s ay i t s yo u r l a st b r e a t h . . . wh a t ’s you r tombstone go i n g to say to t he wo r l d ?

ana bagayan

A n d d o n’t bur y m y body .”

088

s an c t u a r y

“ Always fo l l ow yo u r g u t !

c a nd y gi r l - t ra i l er t ra sh t ra cys

A LOO K I NTO TS . XC

JO U RN A L I N G & M U S E Tai de Ke n n e d y B LO G Wh e re Tu m b le We e d s G row . com

Artwo r k ÂŠ Tai de Ke n n e d y 20 1 3

wh y do e s it have to be summer in o r e go n maybe its so twenty-fir st centur y of me but i ju st ca nt with o ut air condit i o ni ng.

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the clouds are refusing to rain i’ve grown dependent on them im not supposed to love the fog and the rain, they say. i shouldn’t cry when the sun wakes up, they say. what they don’t realize is how much i need sad winter days so i don’t have to be.

donâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t understand what words are supposed to mean. eye contact is more direct and are less synonyms, conjugations, and punctuation to hide behind.

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I h a ve k n ow n M i k e for about 2 years now I gues s . We m et t h e wa y m os t people m eet, in a s m all I r is h p u b o n a d r i z z ly evening in M unich . A fter dr inking a n d ta lk i n g w i t h M i ke about m us ic for a few h ours I re a li z e d h e wa s a sh ar p kid capable of pulling off big i d e a s . A b o u t s i x month s later im pos s ible c o l o u r s wa s fo r me d a n d s ince th en th ey â&#x20AC;&#x2122;ve recorded a new E P (w i t h t h re e a d venterous ar rangm ents wr itten and p ro d u c e d by M r . Bur ns h im s elf ), been play ing wh ere eve r t h ey c a n fi n d a s tage, and are prepar ing to h it t h e ro a d t h i s m o n t h with fellow M unich psych edellics Ka ra b a b r i n g i n g t h e ir s ound to A m s terdam , Vienna, and ot h e r ma j o r E u ro p e an cities . T h e m us ic of im pos s ible c o l o u r s c a n e a s ily be labeled as psych edellic, but I p refe r to t h i n k of it as a s or t of Prog- Weed M etal w i t h s o me Pr i m u s and Pink F loyd th rown in...oh ya a n d s o m e Ja z z . . . we ll s or t of ...okay s o th eir m us ic is p syc h e d e lli c fo r s ure, but m ore like if th e Grateful D e a d h a d b e e n i n f l uenced by Tool.

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Why do yo u t hi n k m u si c b ecame i m p o r t a n t to t h e h u m a n c o n d i t i o n ?

I g u ess s i n c e t h e b e g i n n i n g of m ankind, ar t & creativ ity h ave been an o u tl et fo r a ll h u ma n fr u strations . M us ic com bines v is ual ar t and in m an y c a s e s a u d i o a r t , s o we h ave th is audiov is ual concept. Peopl e re l ate to m u s i c , t h ey c a n wa tch & h ear . It innovates all of th e s ens es an d al l ow s a re le a s e of t heir own wor r ies , th ough ts , and feelings abou t m a n k i n d . What do yo u pr efer : i n t he st u di o o r o n st a g e ?

Defi n i tel y o n s ta g e . Th e re i s th is energy th at h appens with th e m us ic you pl ay, t h e n ote s yo u p la y , th e energy you give on s tage. Even if th e re i s n o b o d y t h e re . T h e ro om and th e people give you th at energy ri g h t bac k a n d yo u c a n u s e it, as par t of your own, s o its kind of a l aser, ac t u a lly . A la s e r ex i sts from an em pty h ole, wh ere th e light en erg y th a t i s n ot b e i n g p ro jected out, bounces around in its elf and g oes back i n , fe e d i n g i t s e lf . So, in oth er words I would s ay we are not a ban d, we a re a fu c k i n g la ser . What is it yo u l ove t he mo s t abo u t m u s i c ?

I e n j oy be i n g a b le to li s te n to a m om ent in tim e, wh en a m us ician m ade m u sic . W h e n I â&#x20AC;&#x2122; m li s te n i n g to a piece of m us ic, I really like to th ink wh at m i g h t h a ve b e e n g o i n g on in th at per iod of h is tor y ; th e par t of th e wo rl d w h e re t h ey w rote it, or wh y . It could be a jam s es s ion or h ow were t h ey fe e li n g i n t h a t m om ent and h ow it trans lated. For in sta n c e , i f yo u li s te n to a record with h eadph ones , you ca n h e ar th e d e s i re a n d t h e h e a r t th e m om ent th ey did th e m ix downwh ic h pa r t s a re g o i n g to t h e left s ide wh ich par ts are going to the ri g h t. An d , yo u c a n re a lly f lip th ings up by jus t ch anging around the h e adph one s a n d t h e n yo u g ot a different s ound. Its in spi r i n g , li s te n i n g to mu s ic. It can ins pire you to play s om eth ing si m il ar o r ma y b e w h a t yo u h ear is s o bad you want to do th e com plete opposi te to p rove to t h e wo r ld th at th is is nâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t th e bes t th ing out th ere .

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T h e ve r y i d e a of a p ro gres s ing m ovem ent is to progres s forwa rd . I don ’ t s e e h ow t h a t s h o uld be any different in m us ic, or in any ot he r fo rm of vi s u a l o r c o mu n i cative ar t. Wh en t r y i n g to m ove fo rward you always h ave a bit of res is ta nce bu t it s ex p e c te d a n d i s als o needed in order h elp and encourage yo u to m ove i n a fo rwa rd d i rection. W h at people don’t realize th ough is th at mov i n g fo rwa rd d o e s n’t neces s ar ily m ean m ov ing in a s tra ight di rec t i o n ; yo u c o u ld a ls o go zig zag, left and r igh t, you m ight b e stan d i n g to g a t h e r e n o u gh energy and m om entum to continue forwa rd . We se e i t i n p h ys i c s a ll th e tim e and accept it for tr uth , s o I d o n’t see a n y re a s o n we s h o u ld not accept it in s ociety , in m us ic, and i n a rt . What o r w ho i n f l u en ces t he I m p o ssi b l e Co l o u r s m u si c ?

P i n k F loyd , To o l, Fra n k Za p pa, Led Zeppelin, B ootsy C allings , th e Might y B u sh , D a vi d C o p p e rfi e ld , D jango Reinh ard, Stevo and th e M onth y Pyt ho n. What ar e yo u cu r r en t l y wo r ki n g o n ?

We a re t r y i n g to g et o u t th e wides t var iety of s ongs we’ve writ te n u p u n t i l k n ow , i n a n i n te lligent m anner th at can be unders too d by prom ote rs , p ro d u c e rs , a nd lis teners ever y wh ere. We are really t rying to h i t t h e h e a v i e r p a r t s, th e com plicated par ts , and als o th e fre e fl oati n g p a r t s . We wa n t to give th e lis tener an exper ience as if t hey wh e re t h e re , o n s ta g e w i th us , as we are play ing our m us ic. De sc ri b e Im po s si bl e C o l o u r s i n o n e wo r d :

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We ll, I t h i n k w h o I am as a pers on and wh o I am as a n a r t i s t a re ve r y clos ely linked. T h e paintings I m ake c o me fro m re a l li fe exper iences and em otions th at I h a ve . I fi lte r t h e s e exper iences and em otions th rough m y m i n d a n d c h a n ge th em into little s tor ies th at can b e e n c a p s u la te d i n to an im age. I am generally a pretty q u i et p e rs o n t h a t likes to keep to h im s elf . I wo r k i n a li b ra r y wh en I am not painting. It is th e p e rfe c t d a y j o b fo r m e.

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M atthew J. P rice Califo rnia , USA Oils A r o und 8 ye a rs

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What influ en ces ar e yo u t aki n g i n a t t h e m o m e n t ? I k n ow yo u r a r t wo r k t a k e s o n a more e ther eal , al mo st “ dar k” i n fl u e n c e , wh a t i s c u r r e n t l y i n s p i r i n g yo u ?

I am very i n s p i re d a t t h e mo m ent with v intage ph otograph s , h is tor ic a l fash ion , a n i ma ls , n a t u re , a n d ch em is tr y . I am finding m ys elf always l o o kin g ba c k i n to h i s to r y a n d feeling m ore com for table th ere. T h e m odern ag e is mov i n g to o fa s t , a nd I am res is ting by s eeking s im plicity. B u t, I am a ls o lo o k i n g b a c k to uncover h idden s ecrets of th e pas t.

What origi n al l y go t yo u i n to ar t ? W h a t h a s k e p t yo u h e r e ?

Makin g a r t i s a la n g u a g e of it’s own. It’s anoth er way of c om m u n ica t i n g w i t h t h e wo r l d. W h ich is exactly wh at I needed wh e n I starte d p a i n t i n g , a n d s t i l l do. S ince I h ave m y own lim itations, c re ati n g a r t i s a p e rfe c t wa y for m e to expres s m ys elf , wh ile feeling c on n ec te d to s o m et h i n g la rg e r . It is s om eth ing I could never give up. Give us a vi su al descr i pt i o n o f a d ay o f c r e a t i o n i n t h e eye s o f M a t t h ew P r i c e .

Typi c al l y m y ro o m i s fa i r ly dim ly lit. I lis ten to a lot of clas s ical and m ov i e s sc o re s w h e n c re a t i n g ar t. W h en s tar ting a piece I generall y start wi th t i n y t h u m b n a i l s k etch es , and I wr ite out s trange lis ts and l i ttl e sto r i e s d e s c r i b i n g s o m eth ing I am s eeing com e togeth er in my m i n d. I am a lwa ys d ra w i n g a nd painting from m y gut. Choose a f avo r i t e pi ece o f yo u rs t h a t yo u h a ve c r e a t e d & t e l l u s wh y t h i s is your favori t e. W hat was go i n g t h r o u g h yo u r m i n d wh i l e c r e a t i n g ?

My favo ri te p i e c e to d a te i s “ E lladrem ora” . It illus trates th e clas s ica l feel i n g I a m h o p i n g to p o r t ray with a s ens e of confidence. T h ere is a se n se of mys te r y i n t h e vis ual elem ents , wh ich is wh at I h ope to ac h i eve i n m o s t of m y p a i ntings . I created th e nam e “ E lladrem ora” spe c i fic a lly fo r h e r .

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It is a fa n ta s t i c g a lle r y , a nd th e owners Kim and B radley are very ac c om m o d a t i n g . S i n c e I li ve quite far from th e galler y I h ad to pack an d sh i p t h e p a i n t i n g to t h e galler y before th e opening. I wan te d to p a r t i c i p a te i n t h e “ M ona” exh ibition becaus e I h ave a dee p appre c i at i o n fo r c la s s i c a l a rt. I felt I could add m y own touch to the in te rpreta t i o n of t h i s h i s to r i cal por trait. However , I don’t jus t want to pay h o m a g e to t h e D a Vi n c i p or trait, or jus t tack on a s pin of m y own. As al ways , w h e n c re a t i n g a painting I look inward. How does th is piece m ake m e fe e l? W h o i s my M ona? Tr uth fully , I believe th ere are m any Mo n a’ s i n s i d e my h e a r t . I h a d to pick one, and h ere s h e is . Share an i n secu r i t y yo u ex per i en c e i n vo l ve d wi t h yo u r a r t .

I c an n eve r s e e m to fi g u re o ut wh at I need to do to m ake m y ar t m ore ac c essibl e to t h e g e n e ra l p u blic. I want to s tay h ones t with m y v is io n an d n ot j u s t ma k e c leve r i m a ges to h ook an audience. Per h aps th is is to m y ow n d et r i me n t . It ’ s i mpor tant th at an ar tis t goes h is /h er own way, an d s p e a k t h e i r ow n s tor ies . I’ m al so wo n d e r i n g w h a t s ets m e as ide from oth er ar tis ts th at h ave ac h i eved t h e s ta m p of a p proval from th e ar t wor ld, and overal l c el e brati o n by t h e ma s s e s . How does an ar tis t m eas ure s ucces s ? By m o st peo p le ’ s s ta n d a rd s , yo u h ave to m ake a liv ing at doing ar t. So it takes a t r u e d e s i re , a n d s t u b bor n deter m ination.

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I wou l d h a ve to b e d o i n g s o meth ing creative in s om e for m Eve n i f i t wa s j u s t o n t h e s ide. I n s ch ool, s cience was favori te s u b j e c t . I wo u ld h a ve purs ued it m ore v igorous ly , m e in an ot h e r d i re c t i o n . M y grandfath er was a ch em is t, th at wo u ld h a ve b e e n g o o d foots teps to follow.

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How do yo u ho pe o t her s to vi ew yo u r wo r k ? W h a t e m o t i o n s d o yo u h o p e t h o se to e xpe rien ce?

I g u e ss my h o p e i s t h a t t h ey can put down th eir judgm ents and c ri ti c i sm s , a n d s ta r t e n j oy i n g th e ar t for wh at it is . Ever yone car r ie s aro u n d suc h a la rg e b a g of opinions , th at th ey fail to s ee th ings a s th ey are . Th ey d o n ’ t let t h e i r guards down long enough to exper ience th e m om e n t . Pe o p le n e e d to exper ience ar t th rough th eir own lives, th e i r own e mot i o n s , a n d m a y be th ey will s ee a connection or s im ilar ity wi th in th e a r t i s t s i n te n t i o n s in th e wor k. What do yo u have i n sto r e fo r t he c o m i n g ye a r ? W h a t c a n we e xp e c t fr o m M a t thew Pric e?

I am c u rre n t ly wo r k i n g ve r y hard on a new body of wor k, but taking my tim e to m a k e s u re i t ’ s t h e b es t and m os t h ones t I ’ve done yet. S o, I ’m n ot m aki n g a n y c o m p ro m i s e s th is tim e. I h ope wh en ever yone gets to se e th e new wo r k t h ey m a k e a connection, and feel s om eth ing. I woul d l i ke i t to b e a b le to re a c h more people on a pers onal and universa l l evel . You c a n ex p e c t to s e e th is in th e new year . L ast bre ath, “ What ’s yo u r to m b s to n e g o i n g to r e a d to t h e wo r l d ? ”

“I was n e i t h e r li v i n g n o r d e a d, and I knew noth ing, Lo o kin g i n to t h e h e a r t of li g h t, th e s ilence.”

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A s a fu ll- t i me m om , contr ibuting wr iter for We A re Ju x t . c o m, a nd th e A pp W h is perer , as well as fo u n d i n g a r t i s t of N ew E ra M us eum , an organization p ro mot i n g m o b i le a r tis tr y , Jennifer B racewell is never s h o r t of i n s p i ra t i o n. G row i n g u p w i t h a ph otograph er for a dad, Jennifer wa s i n t ro d u c e d to an entire wor ld of v is ually s t i m u la t i n g o p p o r t unity . “ M y dad is a ph otograph er , s t i ll a t a g e 8 0 , a nd h e taugh t m e th e ropes wh en I wa s yo u n g . We h ad a dar kroom in our back yard and I c a n s t i ll re me m b e r th e s m ells , th e s ligh t fear th at I ’ d r u i n s o m et h i n g p recious , th e anticipation, and th e fi n a l j oy of s e e i n g th e finis h ed ph oto. T h at, for m e, wa s fa lli n g i n love . ”

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What, in th i s mo men t , i s i n spi r i n g yo u ?

T h ere ’ s a lwa ys a c e n t ra l i n s piration th at revolves around m y ch ildren, ou r pets, a n d o u r h o m e . I ’ m ins pired by th e obv ious beauty I s ee in m y c h i l dre n . Wa tc h i n g t h e m play in wh atever lands cape or even city sc ape , th e s e a ll d a n c e a ro u n d to evolve into th eir own ins pirations and stori e s. S o met i me s I wa lk by an em pty doorway and it alone s peaks to m e, o r i t m a y b e c o me a n elem ent in a collage. I ’m als o attracte d to th e da r k e r s i d e of t h i n g s . If you c oul d descr i be yo u r ar t i n o n e wo r d , wh a t wo u l d i t b e ? N ow, e xp l a i n .

Narrati ve . - i t ’ s a b o u t te lli n g a s tor y with th e v iewer being forced to l o o k in to t h e i r ow n s o u l to dis cover h ow it m igh t open, or even close th e i r own d o o rs . It ’ s a b o u t m y wor ld yet I inv ite you to feel wh at it m i g h t be b r i n g i n g u p i n yo u rs. Explain a day o f cr eat i o n . Gi ve us a v i su a l d e sc r i p t i o n o f yo u r c r e a t i ve p r o c e ss.

It’ s l ike I ’ m a lwa ys o n a u to p ilot. I s h oot pictures with m y ph one o r c am e ra t h ro u g h o u t m y d a y . It m ay be of m y daugh ter , or s om eth ing eph e m era l t h a t c a tc h e s m y eye. From s im ple to com plex. T h en anoth e r part is m e b e i n g i n m y s o r t of quiet, Zen m ode. I get to th is place often th ro u g h m u s i c , a n d I a uto pilot m y way th rough different im age s. I so m etim e s li g h t ly t we a k w h ile oth er tim es I ’ll s pend a long time c om bi n i n g i m a g e s a n d u s i n g different proces s es I ’ve developed ove r th e past s eve ra l ye a rs to c reate s om eth ing. I do h ave a d eta c h e d s t u d i o and love th e nigh ts I can lock m ys e l f away i n t h e re , e i t h e r e d i t i n g ph otos or m aking jewelr y ; anoth er of my passion s. I u s e my p h oto g ra p h y in th e pieces .

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I love the dar k yet et her eal vi be yo u t a k e i n , i n e a c h o n e o f yo u r p i e c e s. W he re doe s t hi s en er gy co me f r o m ?

We l l , i t c o me s fro m m y q u i et p lace but th ere’s ver y loud m us ic p l ayi n g th e re . I ofte n g et i n to a dar k s pot in life, in m y h ead. A rt i s m y re le a s e . Bla r i n g s o me m us ic and getting into alm os t a t ran c e - l ike s ta te a n d c re a t i n g is m y th erapy . W hy c ollagin g ? What abo u t i t keep s yo u c o m i n g b a c k fo r m o r e ?

For m e , c o lla g i n g i s o n e s e e m ingly , never - ending piece th at is eve r- evo l v i n g . I love to c o m b i ne odd th ings , th at m igh t s eem crazy at fi rs t , by fi n d i n g wa ys to m ake th em fit, m ake th em a ppeal i n g . I ’ ve c o lla g e d w i t h pictures from m agazines as far b ac k as I c a n re me m b e r . I h ad a wh ole collaged wall in m y b edro o m . Ju x ta p o s i t i o n b et we en dis parate item s com bined to make a c o h e re n t p i e c e i s m y fun s tuff . Share an insecu r i t y yo u have w hen c r e a t i n g . Sh a r e a st r e n g t h .

Jesu s. T h is i s fu n n y ! We a k n e s s, feeling like I don’t know if it’s fi n i sh e d. I ofte n fe e l s e lf - c o ns cious putting m y wor k out th ere b ec au se so m u c h of i t i n c lu d e s par ts of m e, m ys elf and fam ily . It’ s ve ry pe rs o n a l. M y s t re n g t h com es wh en I feel jus t pure love a n d c e l ebra t i o n , w h e n I a m i n a powerful place. Share a rand o m d ayd r eam yo u ’ve h a d , g i ve u s a p e e k i n si d e yo u r m i n d for a few seco n ds.

Ye ste rday, a fte r b re a k fa s t , ever yone at m y h ous e was s itting a ro u n d th e b re a k fa s t ta b le c h e cking into th e wor ld on th eir cell p h o n e s. As my fa mi ly wa s Fa c ebooking, Tweeting, and ch ecking t h e n ews, I d e c i d e d I wo u ld dr ink th e res t of m y coffee and make an ot h e r c u p . I t h o u g h t to m ys elf h ow I wis h ed we were a l l at a Pa r i s i a n c a fé , s i p p i ng coffee and watch ing people wal k down t h e s i d ewa lk . I wo uld take th e s eat away from th e s i dewal k so I c o u ld s e e t h e m os t people. I would look at th e p eopl e wi th o u t b e i n g to o o bvi o us and tr y to decide wh at th ey dow h ere th ey li ve - w h e re t h ey a re going. I wis h ed I lived in Par is .

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T h at p o i n t i n t i me w h e n I am cer tain I can take an idea in m y h e ad a n d p ro d u c e a p i e ce th at m aintains th e integr ity of m y idea w h i le a llow i n g ot h e rs to s h are m y v is ion. Random objects I see i n m y n o r m a l d a i ly routine will find a way to get into m y th o u g h t s a n d toy w i t h m e all day long. I s ee glim ps es of th em in so m ew h a t a lte re d s ta te s a nd th en th ink, “ wh at if … ” At th is point I try to fi g u re o u t h ow to m ake m y v is ion a reality . Once I m ap ou t th e p ro c e s s a n d re a li z e I can do it, m y h ear t races into th e m ot inc re d i b le fe e li n g of contentm ent. T h is m us t be th at “ h igh ” ! Whe re d o yo u see yo u r ar t go i n g ? An y sh ows, eve n t s, n ew p i e c e s?

I am a lwa ys lo o k i n g fo r c reative outlets . I tr uly enjoy people as you c a n s e e t h e ma j o r i t y of m y pieces are bas ed on s om eone I kn ow . B u t , I a m p la n n i n g to wor k m ore with inanim ate objects an d m a y b e mo r p h t h e t wo ? I love to paint and wor k with ceram ics as we ll. I a m c u r re n t ly i n volved in th e M OBAG s h ow in Par is , as we l l a s a s h ow a t BWAC i n B rookly n, N Y. I lead a ver y busy life wi th my la rg e fa mi ly a n d tr y to fit in wh at I can, wh en I can! And, fo r Fu n er al Par ade’s i nfa m o u s q u e s t i o n , l a st b r e a t h . . wh a t ’s yo u r tombsto n e go i n g to r ead to th e wo r l d ?

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1 . Fric tion . The body do e s n ot li e . It i s a map r iddled with language and a collect io n of image s an d m e mo r i e s . S o m et i m e s th ere is n’t enough language to explain wha t I fe e l in si de . T h i s i n t r i c a te sys tem is a language in and of its elf . T h e p a st , p rese n t, an d fu t u re a re a ll h e ld i n th e body . Som e m em or ies s tored in bo d ie s a re n ot al ways me m o r i e s t h a t a re awakened, but th e body rem em bers . I ’ve b e e n s u rp ri sed to l e a r n w h a t m y b o d y k nows ; h owever , I am not m y body . M y b o d y is onl y te m porar y . It i s a fi n i te re s o urce to th e infinite s ource. I ns ide of m e t he re is a S park th a t c a lls , “ C o me to m e. I am your beginning and I am your e nd .” A l t h ou g h , som e of i t s la n g u a g e I cannot proces s with th e m ind, it can o nl y b e fel t i n th e bo d y . I bel i eve i n t h e p owe r of words like h ow people believe in th e powe r of God . I be l ieve i n G o d to o . I n fa c t , I owe th e auth or of th e B ook of Joh n a t ha nk you for spark i n g t h e b e g i n n i n g of m y s pir itual cur ios ity with : “ I n th e beginning wa s th e Wo rd , a n d t h e Wo rd wa s with God, and th e Word was God. T h e Wo rd b ec am e fl esh a n d ma d e h i s d we lli ng am ong us .” W ith out th e f les h , words wo ul d mean n oth in g. M e a n i n g s g et t w i s ted, contor ted and dis tor ted, but th e b o d y cl ar i fies. T h ere i s o n ly s o mu c h I can tell you th rough m y words , but th e re st I w il l tel l yo u w i t h my b o d y .

2. F l i c ker. I ha ve a c o n fe s s i o n to m a k e . I have probably danced naked in front of yo ur b oy fri e n d, c ous i n , h u s b a n d , ex - h us band, ex- boy fr iend, fath er , broth er , mot he r, gir l fri e n d, bo s s , c o - wo r k e r , s o n , daugh ter , grandfath er , grandm oth er (yo u’d b e su rprise d). A n d , to b e h o n e st, I don’t really care h ow you feel ab o ut it . I un de rstan d i t m a y ma k e yo u u n com for table and I already know wh at you wa nt to ask m e. Yo u r b o d y d o e s n ot li e . Here I stan d n a k e d b efo re yo u . Raw, unlocked, objectified. At firs t you’re in a we , bu t n ow, I s e e m to o n a k e d . You find it s ad. You feel a little s or r y fo r me . A n d yo u wo n d e r , w h a t h a p p e n e d to th is beautiful wom an wh o ch oos es to b e nak ed in fron t of me ? S h e d o e s not care wh o s ees h er . W h y is s h e objec t ifying herse l f? For th e re c o rd , I e n j oy o b j e c t i fy i ng m ys elf . I know we live in a s ch izop hre nic cu l tu re wh en i t c o m e s to s ex , a n d no, it’s not any religion’s fault. I don’t p l a y t he bl am e g am e a n d I d o n ’ t t h i n k you s h ould eith er . So, let’s s tar t with yo u, why d o you c h oose to o b j e c t i fy yo u rs elf ?

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M e g etti n g n a k e d i n a c lu b i s n ’ t any m ore objectify ing th an you bragging a b o ut how m an y g ir ls o r g u ys yo u ’ ve s lept with . It is n’t any m ore objectify ing t ha n t he e n dl ess nu m b e r of s ex u a lly induced ads tr igger ing feelings of lonel ine ss, d es p e ration a n d e n v y to s e ll m i llions of products th at you buy . If I ’ m not mak i n g m yse lf c le a r , let m e b re ak th is down even m ore: W h en you dress to impre ss an ot h e r p e rs o n , yo u are objectify ing yours elf . W h en you sp e nd cou n tl e ss h ours a t t h e g y m to lo ok good in a s wim s uit, you are objec t ifying yourse l f. Ac to rs , m o d e ls , te levis ion pers onalities all objectify th em se l ve s. We al l do . T h i s i s o u r n a t u re . So, ye s, I’ ve o b j e c t i fi e d mys e lf a nd I ’m not apologizing for it. You als o s h o ul d n’t feel sorry for m e b e c a u s e w h o really h as th e power h ere? T h e pers on ut il izing t heir o bj e c ti fi c a t i o n , o r t h e o b s e r ver ? D on’t be s o pres um ptuous to th i nk it ’s one o r th e oth e r . T h e o b s e r ve r h a s th e ch oice to deny th e reality of th e anima te hum an be i n g , t u r n t h e m i n to a dream figm ent, a gh os t. Is th e object ifie d p ers o n or th e o b s e r ve r a wa k e ? Are th ey wh ole? C an th ey look into th eir own eyes, o r th e eye s of a n ot h e r , a n d s ee wh o th ey really are, or are th ey lo o king t hro u g h a bro k e n le n s ? I ’m n ot g etti n g n a k e d fo r yo u b e caus e I want to h ave s ex with you. I wa nt to s how yo u th e b e a u t y t h a t i s a ll of m e: v ulnerable, open, pas s ionate, m is tre a te d , mis un derstood a n d , s o m et i m e s , m is guided. Loved and unloved, s exua l yet p rudish , c arn a l yet d i v i n e . I wa nt intim acy with you, but, rem em ber , intima cy d oes n ot be g i n i n t h e b o d y . I n t im acy is not s eeing m e naked. I ntim a cy is s har i n g m y tr u t h . I wa n t to s h a re m y tr uth with you, and for ever y th ing e l se I c an n ot say i t w i ll b e fe lt i n m y body , wh en th e S par k draws m e clos e to it s flame an d says , “ C o m e to me . I w ill give your words m eaning.”

3. Fl am e . I ofte n wo n d e r , w h a t i s t h e meaning of all of th is ? I don’t doubt th e p a t h I’ve c h ose n ; alt h o u g h , i t m a y s e e m faulty at tim es . N o path is perfect – a t l e a st in th e way we v i ew p e rfe c t i o n , and I unders tand th e negative repercussio ns to ex po sin g o n e s e lf i n wa ys t h a t are often deem ed pr ivate. A ll I can sa y is... I do n ’ t kn ow . . . I wa s me a n t to . You m ay not unders tand th is r igh t now, but I invite yo u to c om e i n s i d e . Let m e feel your eyes on m y nakednes s . Open the d o o r to m y c ag e , re a c h i n a n d offe r your h and, touch m y fire. A llow m y words to ta ke resi de n c e i n t h e la n g u a g e t h a t is your wor ld. I will pleas e you like nothing yo u’ve ever fe l t o n Ea r t h .

E xc erpt: E ri n wri tes a nd ed i ts for a li vi ng ( yea h s o m e p e o p l e s ti ll d o th a t) . S h e rep ea ted ly g ets h er h ea rtb roken . Th i s wa s a p i ec e of i t.

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Ta t to o e d & p i e rc e d, 2 5 year old “ Ham burger D eer n” , a ls o k n ow n a s Anne-C ons tanze B as tian, creates w h i ms i c a l i llu s t ra t i ons you m igh t find yours elf h av ing s ta r i n g c o n te s t s with . “ I love s wing m us ic, v intage fa s h i o n , g o i n g o u t for a coffee with fr iends , and I ’ ve g ot a n u n h e a lth y pas s ion for ch ees ecake and pancakes.” W i t h a love of a rt s ince as far back as s h e can re me m b e r , A n n e - C ons tanze officially began s tudy ing C o m mu n i c a t i o n D e s ign in 2 005 followed with a t ra i n e e s h i p a t a s m all, full-s er v ice agency . Finis h ing i n 20 1 0 , s h e d e c i d ed to give h ers elf s om e tim e to fi n e t u n e h e r s k i lls . “ I p refe r a fe mi n i ne and s oft s ty le. M y digital and t ra d i t i o n a l I llu s t ra t ions h ave a s ketch inf luence, wh ich m a k e t h e m a p p e a r ligh ter . I often draw gir ls wh o s eem to b e c u te a n d s we et, but I th ink th ey are als o ver y s t ro n g a n d s ta n d o n th eir own, pus h ing th e fact th at eve r y c u te lo o k i n g gir l can als o be a tough figh ter .”

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I do n ’ t re a lly k n ow w h a t g ot m e into ar t. I was always drawing and pain tin g b e c a u s e i t m a d e me h appy . M y dad m entioned to m e th at he al ways wo n d e re d a b o u t my i nteres t becaus e nobody els e in m y fam il y sh ows in te re s t s i n t h e a r t s . I went to A r ts ch ool to s tudy C om m unication De sig n and e n j oye d d o i n g mo re detailed, v intage like projects . It was n’t u n til m y t ra i n e e s h i p i n 20 0 9 th at I found m y pas s ion for I llus trations. Give us a vi su al descr i pt i o n o f a d ay o f c r e a t i o n i n t h e eye s o f An n e B a st i a n.

I’ m n ot a mo r n i n g p e rs o n . Bu t I als o like to s tar t th e day ear ly , m ainl y bec au se I te n d to wo r k u n t i l 3 or 4 am , wh ich ends in overs leeping into th e n ex t d a y . Bu t , i f we p retend I woke up ear ly , m y day s tar ts wit h a c u p of c offe e , m y fa vo u r i te radio with alter native rock, and s ome warm - u p s k etc h e s . S o met i mes I give m ys elf a breake to v is it C afés in H am bu rg s S z e n e - Q u a r te r S te r ns ch anze to watch th e people. Or , I go to S t. Pau li , w h e re I c a n e a s i l y get to by bike. My il l u stra t i o n s a lwa ys s ta r t with a s im ple idea; a s m all brainwave , a dai l y s c e n e o n t h e s t re et , a ph oto on m y tum blr das h board.. W h e n I work d i g i ta l I d o eve r y t h i ng in Ph otos h op, even th e s ketch . I like th i s bec a u s e I c a n c h a n g e t h e colours eas ily , in s econds . Traditiona l piec es are d o n e w i t h a s i mp le ballpoint pen on ch eap A 4 Paper . I s can th e m an d e d i t t h e e n t i re p i ece with digital elem ents , or s m al icons I’ ve do n e w i t h a fe lt t i p . What and/ o r W ho m i n s pi r es yo u ?

O th e r art i s t s , mov i e s , b o o k s , fas h ion. I love to watch people on the streets. I k e e p 2 a r t b o o k s next to m y laptop, I love th em , and I love to se e h ow ot h e r a r t i s t s wo rk! It’s s uper interes ting and ins pir ing. My favou ri te A r t i s t i s R a p h a e l Vicenzi (m ydeadpony ).

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O h , I re a lly love S w i n g a n d Rockabilly M us ic, but als o M etal. I lis te n to an yth i n g t h a t s u p p o r t s my m ood enough to draw. I often lis ten to S wi n g re c o rd s of t h e 1 9 3 0 s and ‘40s , and nice rock from th e ‘60s an d ‘ 7 0 s w h i le I d ra w . It ’ s ver y relaxing. Funny enough , I wor k fas te r wh il e l iste n i n g to M eta l. B o o ks are nice too. I ’m ver y into books . I love th ril l ers, fa n ta sy , a n d s c i - fi . I ’m cur renty reading “ Red D ragon” fro m T h om as H a r r i s , a n d “ D a r k b o r n” from A lis on Sinclair . Share an i n secu r i t y yo u ex per i en c e i n vo l ve d wi t h yo u r a r t .

Art th eft a n d re u p lo a d s o n tum blr with out giv ing s ource credit, o r edite d c o lo u rs . I ’ ve ex p e r i e nced th is a few tim es . I als o dis covered several o n li n e s h o p s (m o s t ly in A s ia) wh o are us ing m y I llus trations for th eir c o m me rc i a ls . How do yo u ho pe o t her s to vi ew yo u r wo r k ? W h a t e m o t i o n s d o yo u h o p e t h o se to e xpe rien ce?

I j u st h op e p e o p le li k e w h a t th ey s ee. I ’m kind of a fem inis t. I don’t n eed to s p e a k a b o u t i t eve ry day , and don’t always like to because it al ways e n d s i n h a rs h d i s c us s ions , but I th ink m y gir ls , even wh en I draw wi th p a s te l c o lo u rs , f lowers and pas tel h air , are s till independent c h arac te rs . Favorite thi n g to do asi d e f r o m a r t .

S ewin g an d re a d i n g . I wa s wear ing Lolita fas h ion for a ver y long tim e, bu t c ou l d n ’ t a ffo rd b ra n d c lot h ing. So I s tar ted to teach m ys elf h ow to sew. O h , a n d I s ta r te d s t i tc hing again. It keeps m e calm and is s uper re l ax in g .

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I do n ’ t th i n k I h a ve a re a l c oncept. I do wh at I like to do, it pleas e s m e ( an d ot h e rs to o , I g u e s s ? ) and th is is wh at I ’ve always done. I g ot i n to t h i s s t y le b e c a u s e I s aw oth ers doing it, s o I tr ied it too , an d deve lo p e d my ow n s t y le over tim e. I firs t s tar ted with s oft br us h e s an d soft o u t li n e s , b u t t h i s s ketch y s ty le s uits m e better . What is in s to r e fo r A n n e- C o n sta n z e B a st i a n i n t h e n e xt ye a r ? W h e r e d o yo u plan to take yo u r ar t l i fe?

I’ d l ike m o re I llu s t ra t i o n j o b s . I ’m doing m os t of m y wor ks for m y own portfo l io r i g h t n ow , a n d t h a t needs to ch ange. I als o h ave th is diar n eed to t ra ve l! I wa n t mo re inf luences , to m eet new people and s ee n ew in spi ra t i o n s . I ’ m g o i n g to Kopenh agen next m onth , m ay be I can m an ag e to vi s i t Pa r i s n ex t year , after near ly 5 years of planning I m i g h t add ! If you c ou l d cho o se 3 o t her ar t i st s to e xh i b i t wi t h , i n a g a l l e r y se t t i n g , who would they b e an d w hy?

Adam H u g h e s : I ’ m ve r y i n to com ics , and I love h is s ty le and tech nic. Ch ic h e rova O lg a : S h e ’ s a n a dorable pers on, and h er I llus trations are so c o l ou rfu l a n d p la y fu l. m ydeadp o n y : B e c a u s e of m a ny reas ons . His ar twor k is f lawles s . For our la st an d f i n al qu es t i o n, l e t s say i t s yo u r l a st b r e a t h . . W h a t s your tombstone go i n g to say to t he wo r l d ?

“Do n ’ t di s t u r b . ”

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A s A lex W i s n e r , Adam C ude, and D aniel D onay re k n ow n a s A K W , p repare for th eir L iveacre tour th is w i n te r , we fi g u re d th ere’d be no better way to h ear m o re a b o u t t h i s u nique plan th an in th e com for t of t h e i r “ to = b e ” s ta g e , th e liv ing room . “ It’s a weird th ing, s et t i n g u p a h o u s e tour .. we don’t really know any of t h e h o s t s , t h ey ’ re fans offer ing up th eir h om es . T h ey s a y t h ey h a ve a h o us e but wh at does th at m ean? D o t h ey h a ve n e i g h b o rs? W ill it get s h ut down? ” T h e d re a m h u n te rs and freedom s eekers beh ind A KW & L i ve a c re t r u ly li ve th eir days pus h ing th e concept of p u rs u i n g d re a ms . “ One m ain reas on we do m us ic is to i n s p i re ot h e rs i n following wh at th ey feel th ey were b o r n to d o , yo u k n ow at an ear lier age. T h e 14 & 15 ye a r o ld p h a s e w h e re its like, “ I want to be an arch itect” a n d yo u j u s t g et s o put down by th e wor ld telling yo u t h a t yo u c a n ’ t or its too h ard or your SAT s cores a re n ’ t h i g h e n o u g h o r you jus t h ate h om ewor k becaus e yo u ’ re a n a r t i s t . Th es e are wh o ins pire us to do m ore, a n d t h i s i s j u s t o u r beginning.”

IV. A R TIS T FEATU R E NA M E A KW Drums: Da nie l Do nayre Guita r: Ada m C ude Voca ls: Ale x Wisne r L OCATION Your living ro o m, USA M ed i um of Choi c e M usic & Dre a ms M aki ng A rt A s lo ng a s we ca n re me mbe r Web si te A b outMe .AKWMusic.co m L i veAcre .o rg

Te ll us a litt l e m o r e abo u t Li veacre .

L i ve ac re i s b a s i c a lly t h i s c o mpany Jes s ie W illner s tar ted to group peo p l e tog eth e r to d o w i ld , ra m b u n c t ious , s pontaneous th ings to m ake th e worl d m o re be au t i fu l I g u e s s ? It s a n o n-profit bas ically , s elling ar t & t-s h ir ts w it h a pe rc en ta g e g o i n g to d i ffe re nt ch ar ities ; m ainly env ironm ental ch ar iti e s. You bu y a t s h i r t a n d i t ’ ll p la n t two trees in th e wor ld for ins tance. Ri ght now we ’ re t h e o n ly b a n d i n vo lved. We put togeth er a launch par ty fo r o u r EP re l e a s e , La s t L i n e s & to launch s om e of th eir t-s h ir ts .. over 20 0 p e o pl e sh owe d u p to s u p p o r t . It was beautiful. So you plan to ju st show u p to peo p l e ’s h o u se s? H ow d o e s t h i s a l l wo r k ? W h e r e w ill you be gin?

Th ere ’ s a s u b mi s s i o n fo r m th at requires ph otos and s ignatures of p e rm i ssi o n , e s p e c i a lly i f t h ey’re like 14 year old kids . We don’t wa nt to m ake it to o c o n t ro lle d o bv i ous ly . T h ere’s a guy in Or lando, wh o live s r ig h t be h ind D i s n ey wo r ld a n d h e s aid ever y nigh t th eres a firewor k s h ow. We i m m e di a te ly t h o u g h t i t was perfect. If th e neigh bors can deal w it h fireworks eve r y n i g h t t h ey c a n deal with a 3 0- m inute s h ow. We plan to d o an ywh e re fro m 3 0 mi n u te s to 2 h ours , all depending on th e energy of t h e n i g h t. T h e b e a u t y i n t h i s i s we can do wh atever feels r igh t. Fi rst sto p o n to u r i s t h e Ea s t c oas t. F lor ida th rough Ver m ont was our first respo n se. Bu t n ow i t ’ s g row n to S eattle, Por tland, Texas . Our firs t to ur d ate i s i n S e a t t le i n c o lla b w i t h Falling W h is tles on Febr uar y 15 th . So how long have yo u al l kn ow n ea c h o t h e r ?

A dam an d I (A lex ) h a ve k n ow n each oth er for 3 years , little m ore m ayb e . We’ ve wo r k e d to g et h e r fo r a bout a year and h alf until we realized we s h o u l d m ak e o u r b a n d a re a l band and get a dr um m er . Adam : We m a d e o u r EP an d t h e d a y we re le a s e d it we got offered a s h ow at, T h e Hous e of Bl u es, a so ld o u t s h ow a c t u a lly . We were like, yeah , we need a dr um me r. We pl aye d w i t h D a n i e l o n e t i m e before th at and tr ied out different peopl e . So we c al l e d h i m u p a n d a s k e d if h e wanted to play Hous e of B lues w it h us, i n a we e k s t i me . Daniel: I rem em ber it like it was yes terday , I got a n i n v itati o n to t h e s h ow fi rs t a n d was like, “ I can’t wait to h ear th is alr ight , let m e c h e c k t h i s o u t . ” A n d li terally 5 m inutes later I got a call from the m a ski n g i f I wa n te d to p la y t h e s h ow. I h ad to lear n all of th e s ongs wit hin t h at week. ”

Daniel: In s te a d of h a vi n g p e o ple com e to th e venues we go to th em . It’ s n i c e , t h e o p p o s i te of s t re s s really . You jus t s h ow up, no wo rri e s, n o c ove r , yo u c a n we ar s weats if you want to. Branden: It s o u n d s a s ra w a s pos s ible, no room for f luff . Daniel: Its li k e h a v i n g a p e rs o nal convers ation with s om eone.

Alex: Its alm o s t li k e t h a t i n fa mous ques tion ar tis ts as k th em s elves , “ How d o I g et pe o p le to a p p re c i a te th is , h ow do I get people to appreciate my a rt? An d th e re ’ s t h i s c o n s ta n t anxiety about wanting people to apprecia te yo u . Not i n s o me we i rd , e g ot i s tical way but, you’re m aking s om eth ing a nd i t’ s as if yo u ’ re s c re a m i n g , “ Wo r ld! Look at it!” T h e only way you’ll ever get t h at i s i f yo u a p p re c i a te t h e people. S o, wh at better way to apprecia te t h e pe o pl e t h e n to ma k e t h e m a par t of it. Its like, you like us ? We’re gon n a c o m e to yo u . We ’ re g o nna give th is to you pers onally and m ake it a l l abo u t yo u .

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Do yo u t hi n k yo u ’r e r ead y fo r t h e to u r ? M u si c a l l y, p h ys i c a l l y?

Alex: N o , n ot a t a ll. (la u gh ter ). Do an y o f yo u have st age f r i g h t ?

Adam: We h a d a s h ow a t Hem ingways one tim e. It was n’t a b ig d e a l bu t I d o n ’ t k n ow w h y , I jus t got weird. I got th at pit in m y sto ma ch. Branden: D i d i t g o a wa y or s tay for th e wh ole s h ow? Adam: It we nt a wa y after a few s o n g s b u t i t didn’t m ake any s ens e as to wh y it ca me o n. Alex: I k n ow t h e o n ly t i me I really get s tage fr igh t is if th ere’s a n e l it ist th ere , t h a t o n e p e rs o n i n th e room th at is alm os t judging m y eve ry move at eve r y s e c o n d . I n s te a d of jus t enjoy ing it.

It se e ms b y t aki n g o n shows l i k e t h i s, b o u n c i n g fr o m h o u s e to h o u se , pe rform ing for ran do m st r an ger s i n su c h a n i n t i m a t e se t t i n g , i t ’s a l m o st a se n se o f p re p p ing you fo r an y s how yo u d o go i n g fo r wa r d . Yo u h a ve t h e e xp e r i e n c e o f, we p laye d he re and ki l l ed i t o f co u r se we c a n p l ay Co a c h e l l a , t h a t ’s n o t h i n g n ow. I s t h a t how you fe e l? A r e yo u r ead y fo r t hat?

Alex: If we c a n b e fu ll e nough as a band, th e 3 of us , in a fuckin’ b a ckya rd an d c a n c re a te e m ot i o n . (interject) Daniel: B e com for table in any sit ua t io n an d c o m mu n i c a te w h a t we want to com m unicate. Alex: Yeah , and get t he pe o p le to fe e l i t j u s t by th e 3 of us in th at fucking backyard th e n we ca n do i t a n y w h e re , t h a t ’ s for s ure. Daniel: If people are interes ted in wha t we’ re d o i n g we ’ ll b e re c eived th e way we’re h oping. What ar e yo u ho pi n g to g et o u t o f t h e to u r ?

Alex: A n ex p e r i e n c e .

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JASM IN GARC I A-VE RDI N I n te r v i ewe d by : E l l e Ch e n Po r t ra i t P h oto g raph e r: Paul B e l l ardi ni Ar t wo r k ÂŠ Jasm i n G arc i a- Ve rdi n 2 0 13

A 23 - Ye a r o ld re cent college graduate. One m igh t d e s c r i b e Ja s mi n ’ s ar t as a cros s between Japanes e a n d t ra d i t i o n a l Wes ter n illus tration. “ I incor porate tex t u re a n d c o m p o sition of Japanes e block pr ints , and s o m e i llu s t ra t i ve c om ponents found in m anga.” W ith a w h i m s i c a l fa i r y ta le v ibe, Jas m in h as been rewr iting h e r ve rs i o n of a “h appy ending” s ince s h e was s ix ye a rs o ld a n d c o n t inued on to begin wr iting h er own o r i g i n a l s to r i e s by th e tim e s h e was 12 . “ By m y Ju n i o r year I near ly com pleted a novel e n t i t le d , “ Q u e e n I ndeed” ; a com edic s tor y about a lo o py g i r l s u d d e n ly crowned queen wh o m us t wor k with a g r u mpy , c o n s e r vative, adv is or y council.” Sh e h as fo u n d t h e e n t i re p roces s of wr iting alter nate endings to h e r fa vo r i te s tor ies as a s or t of s atis fy ing e s c a p i s m, b e c a u s e after all, “ W h o does n’t enjoy a g o o d s to r y ? ”

IV. A R TIS T FEATU R E NA M E L OCATION M ed i um of Choi c e M aki ng A rt

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So I se e tha t yo u t r avel ed to Fr anc e to st u d y st u d i o a r t . H ow h a s t h i s e xp e r i ence influe nc e d yo u r ar t an d m ayb e, yo u a s p e r so n ?

It was a wo n d e rfu l s u m me r for m e. I exper ienced m y firs t tas te of in de pe n de n c e , m et o n e of my bes t fr iends , s tood at s everal s igh ts t ha t Vi n c e n t Van G o g h , (o n e of my favor ite ar tis ts ) painted at, and re a l l y en j oye d th e q u i et , g o ld e n war m th of th e s outh er n French lands c a p e . Art- wi se, it wa s a wo n d e rfu l o p p or tunity for m e to wor k with oils . I ’ve alwa ys be en in tim i d a te d by t ra d i t i o n a l paint m edium s ; th is was th e m om ent fo r m e to ex pe r i m e n t w i t h i t a s m uch as I could, with out feeling em bar ras se d . Ove ral l , i t wa s a n ex p e r i e n c e with a profound effect on m y s pir it mo re di re c tl y th a n m y a r t . I re a lly n e eded th at. A s artists, we ar e al l i n spi r ed by so m e t h i n g . I t i s wh a t h e l p s d r i ve u s to e xpre ss ourse lve s thr o u g h a cr eat i ve o u t l et . Te l l m e , wh e r e d o yo u d r aw yo u r i n s p i r a t i o n from ?

I ’ m first and fo re mo s t i n s p i re d by s tor ies . Since I was ver y little I ma d e ar t m o re to i llu s t ra te t h e s to r i es I created. A s a teenager , I cons um e d a l ot of fan ta sy n ove ls , m a n g a , h is tor y books , folk tales , and found th at i t a l l expan ded m y re a lm of i ma g i n a tion and creativ ity . What do you u l t i m at el y w i sh to do w i t h yo u r a r t ? W h e r e d o yo u wa n t to t a k e i t ?

Al l I kn ow i s , I ’ ll n eve r s to p c re ating s tor ies and illus trating. W h eth er the re be an au di e n c e fo r i t , h oweve r , is a different m atter .

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B D a y Pa r t y

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Whe n did you r eal i z e t hat yo u wan t e d to b e a n a r t i st ? Wa s t h e r e a p a r t i c u l a r m om e nt in your life that set yo u r pat h as an a r t i st ?

I was brou gh t u p to n eve r c o n s i d er ar t as a legitim ate career , unfor tunate l y. Th ere was n eve r a d efi n i t i ve p oint in m y life wh ere I adopted th e title of ‘artist; ’ it wa s a lwa ys a h o b by . A n all-cons um ing h obby , at one point, ha ha . Th ere are s o me d a ys w h e re I even forget I ’m s uppos edly an ar tis t. Be it bec au se of my b o u rg e o i s u p b r i nging, it’s s im ply not s om eth ing I neces sa ril y have a ti tl e fo r i n m y h e a d . E ve ryone is i n cl i n ed to so met hi n g, wh y a r e yo u i n c l i n e d to d o a r t ? H ow d o yo u stay motivate d to cr eat e?

I did it be c a u s e I fo u n d s o much enjoy m ent in it. I was a ver y lone l y, an d so m eti me s u n h a p py k i d , s o creating s tor ies and illus trating t he m was a way to e s c a p e t h e i s o la tion. For years , I ’d retur n from s ch ool a nd im m ediate l y d ra w ; i t wa s t h e ra peutic. B ut th at’s not th e cas e any m o re . I m ake art m o s t ly fo r my fr i e n d s or clients , and I ’ve been approach ing my ow n sto ries mo re t h o u g h t fu lly , w ith a wr iter ’s m ind. D es igning entire worl d s wi th l ovel y c o s t u m e s - - - i t ’ s j u st a deligh tful proces s . I find s o m uch joy workin g i n t h a t p r i va te s p a c e . What do you ho pe t he au d i en ce to wa l k away wi t h u p o n l o o k i n g a t yo u r wo r k ?

I n eve r th o u g h t of t h e a u d i e n ce’s pers pective, and now I cons ider it to o m u c h an d i t h a s s t i f le d m y wor k and creativ ity . I want th em to co me away wi th w h a teve r t h ey wa n t , h opefully enjoy th e beauty and es capism I ex peri e n c e . What is your cr eat i ve pr o cess l i ke? W h a t p a r t o f t h e p r o c e ss d o yo u e n j oy m o st?

I start al l m y wo r k w i t h a s to r y, be it a long, epic one, or jus t a s cena rio . Th e part I e n j oy t h e mo s t i s d ra wing it, with s om e m us ic appropr iate to t he m o o d. I al so li k e t h e la s t p a r t , wh en it’s com plete, h ah a. T h e par t I disl ike t h e m o st is s ta r t i n g to c o lo r . I abs olutely h ave no idea wh at I ’m doing a t t h at poin t a n d p ro g re s s i n g i s mos tly a painful proces s of tr ial-and- e rro r.

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What do you d o w hen yo u f al l i n to a c r e a t i ve b l o c k ? An y r i t u a l s yo u p a r t a k e i n to ge t t he c re ative ju i ces f l ow i n g ?

Th ey h appe n , a n d I ’ m m i s e ra b ly s tuck. M onth s will pas s and th en s udd e nl y I fin d m yse lf re lu c ta n t ly p i c k i n g up a pencil and being excited about w ha t I ’ m drawin g a g a i n . T h ey ’ re m a r kers of intens e, pers onal tur m oil for me , probabl y. Art may be a bi g par t o f yo u r l i fe, b u t t h e r e o b v i o u s l y a r e o t h e r t h i n g s t h a t yo u love a nd e njoy. Wh at ar e o t her t hi n gs yo u a r e p a ss i o n a t e a b o u t ?

I l ove spend i n g q u a li t y t i m e with m y fam ily and fr iends . I s pent my ad o l esc e n c e s t u c k i n b o o k s a n d fantasy wor lds , I gues s I ’m tr y ing to ca tch u p o n wh at I ’ ve mi s s e d . Let’s say its yo u r l as t br eat h, w hat ’s yo u r to m b sto n e g o i n g to r e a d to t h e wo r l d ?

“Be kin d to yo u rs e lf , ” I t h i n k . Mo st of u s d o n ’ t li k e to a d m i t it but we are delicate, and we h ave all be e n hu rt. I’ ve alwa ys b e e n te r r i b ly h ard on m ys elf , s o th e firs t tim e s om e o ne to l d m e th a t , i t h a d s u c h a p rofound im pact on m y perception of m yse l f and th e wor ld a ro u n d m e . It ’ s great to want to be a better pers on, but yo u won ’ t pro g re s s u n le s s yo u d o i t by recognizing th e par ts th at need wo rk po sitivel y a n d n u r t u r i n g t h e p a rts you like. N obody els e is going to do t ha t fo r you . An d , u lt i m a te ly , yo u don’t regret th ings wh en you do th em wit h k i n dn ess, l e a ve t h e h a t i n g fo r oth ers to do. Fi n a l 4

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A p ro u d , s i n g le m oth er with a need to m ake h er m ar k a s a n a r t i s t , S a ra h Jar rett h as th is powerful belief in t h e c a p a b i li t y of being any th ing th e h ear t des ires s o lo n g a s yo u t r u ly believe in yours elf. T h ir teen years a g o S a ra h s ta r ted a weekly ar t project, deliver ing A r t i n t h e m e a n s of painting, collaging, textiles , and 3 D s c u lpt u re to p r im ar y s ch ool ch ildren in r ural areas w i t h h o p e s of e n s ur ing a continued acces s to creative o u t let . “Tw i c e a year we h ave a big exh ibition of a ll t h e c h i ld re n s a r twor k, it’s ver y well s uppor ted by t h e lo c a l c o m mu nity and gives th e ch ildren a lot of c o n fi d e n c e a n d p r ide in th eir wor k. Its h ugely rewarding a n d fe e d s my ow n creativ ity and ideas too.”

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If you c ould descr i be yo u r ar t i n on e wo r d , wh a t wo u l d i t b e ? N ow, e xp l a i n .

U n i qu e . Hav i n g an i n d i v i d u a l vo i c e i s s o im por tant in a wor ld f looded with im age s. M y po rtrai t s a re d efi n a te ly s t range, quir ky , eccentr ic, bizar re, s om etime s d ark, som et i m e s b e a u t i fu l. I ’ ve wor ked h ard to develop a unique s tyl e . M y l an dsc a p e s a re c o mp lete ly different, ver y dream like, eth er ial, gh ost l y, b e au ti fu l , vo i d of p e o p le , s te e ped in lands cape tradition. Give us a v i su al d escr i pt i o n o f yo ur c r e a t i ve p r o c e ss .

I work with a n i p h o n e a n d i p a d and I m anipulate m y ph otograph ic im age s usi n g apps to e d i t . I u s e d to wor k with Ph otos h op but now us e apps to d o al l of my e d i t i n g . Th e Po rtrai t s ofte n h a ve e le ments collaged onto an exis ting picture to a l te r i t an d I u s e a lot of d i gital painting in th e m aking of an im age . A pps are a n e n d le s s c re a t i ve toolbox. M y favour ite apps to wor k with a re Su peri m pos e , i C o lo ra m a , Pro c reate, Glaze, Repix, and M oder n Gr unge. You have su ch a w i d e r an ge o f st yle a n d t e c h n i q u e . H ow h a s yo u r p e r so n a l p r o g re ss be e n from the day yo u f i r st pi cked u p a c r e a t i ve to o l , to wh a t yo u a r e c r e a t i n g now, grown?

I th in k I’ m a n a t u ra l ex p e r i m e ntor , a v is ual m agpie. I take s atis factio n fro m ex pe r i m e n t i n g w i t h d i ffe rent m edia and s eeing wh at I can do with it . D eve l opin g te c h n o lo g y h a s h u g ely inf luenced m y s ty le and wor k- kit. Whe n I fi rst be g a n fre e la n c i n g , I was literally painting and collaging s traight o n to th e s u rfa c e of t h e b i g colour pr ints I m ade; now I am doing t he s am e th i n g , o n ly , d i g i ta lly . A p p s are at a ver y exciting s tage, tech nology i s m ov in g a h e a d c o n s ta n t ly a nd at a rapid rate. I ’ m fierc e ly c r i t i c a l of m y ow n wor k and tr y to s et th e bar h igh , m a ny i m ag es afte r h o u rs of wo r k a re dis carded. T h ere are ver y few im age s I a m real l y h a p py w i t h .

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T he portraits yo u cr eat e ar e al l s o d i st i n c t l y u n i q u e fr o m t h e o t h e r ye t a l so c arry a similar trait th r o u gho u t . W hen I vi ew, I fe e l a s i f a m i l l i o n d i ffe r e n t p a r t s o f yo u a re coming toge ther i n o n e s i t t i n g , o r c o m i n g o u t . Wo u l d yo u a g r e e ? W h a t i n sp i r e s this visually stimul at i n g yet chao t i c st yl e ?

I th i n k th ats a re a lly i n te re s t i ng des cr iption. I find it ver y difficult to sit d own an d an a lys e m y ow n i ma g es . T h e proces s is ver y ins ular yet intuit ive . I rarel y pl an a n i ma g e . A s e r i e s of exper im ents often dictate th e path t ha t leads to a fi n i s h e d p i c t u re , s o m etim es a line in a s ong I h ear or an idea in a s to ry i s so vi s u a l, I h a ve to m a k e it into a picture. S om etim es I h ear a s nip p et of c o n ve rsat i o n t h a t b e c o m e s a picture. I ’m ver y m uch a lis tener , and all t ha t inform ation I a b s o r b t ra n s la te s into v is ual im ager y . D ream s do th e s ame . I love th e i de a of q u i r k y , u n re a l p ers pectives and ideas becom ing im ages. How do you ho pe t he vi ewer to r ecei ve yo u r a r t ? An y d i st i n c t m e s sa g e ?

M y wo rk is ve r y o p e n e n d e d and not pres cr iptive but th ere are dist inct t hem e s ru n ni n g t h ro u g h o u t . I n m y por traits I am interes ted in ‘beauty ’ a nd w h at i t is, h ow i t s ofte n a ma s k , a facade. A s a wom an in m y for ties I ’m a l so rea l l y drawn to h ow o ld e r wo m e n are v iewed and perceived, h ow we cannot ha n g o n to be a u t y a s i t fa d e s . S o m e of th e wom en I por tray look s uperficia l l y b eau ti fu l bu t t h e re i s a n ote of dis cordance, an em ptines s , a s adnes s . I li ke ex pl o ri n g w h a t i t i s to b e a wom an and h ow our im age is often th e first t hin g we are j u d g e d o n . I ’ m a s i nteres ted in ‘uglines s ’ as I am in ‘beaut y’, I find i t fasc i n a t i n g to ex p lo re . I ’m probably m ore inf luenced by a lifetime of rea din g fi c ti o n t h a n a li fet i m e of explor ing ar t. I like to m ake th ings app e a r p ossi bl e bu t i m p o s s i b le a t t h e sam e tim e. You’ve shown yo u r ar t at var i o u s m u se u m s, sh ows, a n d h a ve b e e n p r i n t e d a s we ll a s publishe d yo u r ow n bo o k. Ver y i m p r e ss i ve ! H ow h a ve e a c h o f t h e se e xp e r i e nce s in flue nc e d you as an ar t i st as wel l a s p e r s o n a l l y?

I t h in k every t h i n g yo u ex p e r i e n ce s h apes you as a pers on. Publis h ing t he landsc ape b o o k , ‘ A La n d s c a p e of D ream s ’ was a h uge and ver y valua b l e learn in g c u rve . It s g o o d to c h a lle nge yours elf and go outs ide com for t zo ne s. You ofte n find yo u c a n d o t h i n g s th at s eem initially daunting and th at give s a lot of c o n fi d e n c e . I a lwa ys we lcom e new exper iences .

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You we re re c e n t l y vi s i t i n g t he Hebr i d e s, wo r k i n g o n l a n d sc a p e s. H ow wa s t h i s e xp e r i e nce ?

Th e tri p to t h e H e b r i d e s i n t h e S um m er was a s em i-wor king h oliday . Gre a t fun to g o so m ew h e re s o re mote . I wor k really h ard and am ver y prolific a s a n a rt i st bu t wo r k d o e s re a lly ta k e over , s o once a year I tr y to h ave a comp l ete b reak fro m te c h n o lo g y a n d re s tore m y batter ies and well being. I went wit h my son an d we t ra ve lle d by t ra i n, boat and th en bikes s tay ing in a M ongo l ia n Yu rt. We h ad lot s of a d ve n t u re s and s aw s om e incredible places , th e co a st in partic u l ar wa s a b s o lu te ly s t u nning. W hat are you d o i n g w hen n o t maki n g a r t ?

M y c h il dren a n d my fa m i ly a re a t th e centre of m y life. M os t of m y free t ime is dedic ate d to my wo r k a n d t his takes a h uge am ount of effor t. W h e n I’m not wo rki n g I love wa lk i n g a n d r unning in th e countr ys ide, going to th e se a , w il d swim m ing , t ra ve lli n g , c o o k i ng, I ’m an av id reader , v is iting galler ies a nd a rt sh ows. W hat is to c om e fo r S ar ah J ar r et t ?

Th e re’ s l ots i n t h e p i p e li n e , s o m e projects I cannot talk about yet but which a re ve ry exci t i n g to b e i n vo lve d in. T h ere are s om e m ore exh ibitions und e r d isc u ssion . A fte r w i n n i n g t h e A r tis t/Ph otograph er of th e Year at th e Mo b il e Photo Award s I ’ ve b e e n a s k e d to do s om e judging th is year wh ich wil l b e inte resti n g . I w i ll b e j u d g i n g t h e 2 013 GoPix Awards , an inter national mo b il e p hotog raph y c o m p et i t i o n . Final que stion.. l ast b r eat h! W hat ’s yo u r to m b sto n e g o i n g to say to t h e wo r l d ?

“ Al ways be l i eve i n yo u rs e lf . ”

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