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ISSUE 3: HANDY

MAY (IN ANIMAL CROSSING: NEW HORIZONS) Monday

Tuesday

Wednesday

Thursday

Friday

Saturday

May Day event starts

Sunday

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Tarantulas spawn

Gulliver washes up on May Day event ends the beach

Nature Day event ends

Crazy Redd sells you a forgery

Mother’s Day Daisy Mae sells turnips

Cherry’s birthday

Pink hyacinths grow

Biskit’s birthday

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Crazy Redd sells you a genuine painting

Museum upgrades to Wisp loses his spirit conttain an art gallery

Rodney is evicted from the island

Resident’s house gets upgraded to a mansion

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Marina’s house is relocated

Daisy Mae sells turnips

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Sea bass go extinct due to overfishing

Daisy Mae sells turnips

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CONTENTS 7 NEWS 8 PAINTING THE TOWN RAINBOW 10 PAN(dem)IC ATTACK 14 SOBER QUEER SPACES 17 UNIVERSITY RESPONSES TO EVERYTHING AS OF LATE 19 DISCRIMINATION IS THE NEW BLACK

21 REGULARS 22 THE CHALLENGE: BECOMING A TIK-TOK DANCE STAR 24 IN YOUR COMFORT ZONE: SELF-ISOLATION 26 POP CULTURE REWIND: QUEERNESS IN POP CULTURE

28: ILLUSTRATED: WHAT YOUR FAVOURITE “ALLY” CATCHPHRASE SAYS ABOUT YOU

45 CREATIVES

30 WRITING ON THE WALL: ALONE WITH MY IMAGE

50 PICK A SIDE

31 YOU ARE HERE: MY HOUSE

33 FEATURES 34 AM I A BAD PERSON FOR USING AN APPLICATOR TAMPON? 36 GUESS WHO’S COMING TO DINNER? 38 FINDING YOUR WEIRD FISH 40 OH WHAT A SHAME… 42 SEXUALITY: THE HINDU EXPERIENCE

46 ART BY ELIZABETH LAUGHTON 51 YOU

53 REPEAT OFFENDERS 54 RUPAUL’S DRAG RACE 56 ANIMAL CROSSING: NEW HORIZONS 58 TIGER KING 60 ORLANDO 61 HOROSCOPES

43 FEMALE DESIRE IN LITERATURE

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Editors’ Letters Why hello Grapey readers and welcome to your second online edition of Grapeshot! In light of COVID-19 we have made the tough decision to move online for the foreseeable future but will be providing you with physical copies of these wonderful issues as soon as we’re able. But for now, enjoy the beautiful words and designs encapsulated in this issue from the comfort of your screens! These are increasingly weird times we live in and here at Grapeshot we want to provide you with a bit of reprieve and distraction from the dreaded virus closing our precious pubs. So, while you won’t find a ton of corona coverage in here you will find a whole lot of SEXY and QUEER content! Hallelujah! This issue we’re focussing on all things sexy and LGBTQI+ focussed. Want to learn about sober queer spaces? Want to know what your ally phrase says about you? Finally want to figure out whether you’re a bad person for using an applicator tampon? The answers are all in here and waiting for you! We all are struggling to find our place and find meaning in this new phase of life we’re living in and if this magazine can help you feel a little less alone, make you laugh or get you excited and motivated about all the wonderful stuff still happening in our world, then we at Grapeshot are doing our job. We want to be a voice to and from the students at Macquarie, hearing your stories and telling your stories. And now more than ever, we want to interact with you and give you what you need from your student publication. With that in mind, don’t be put out that you may not get a physical copy of our beautiful matte pages for a while. Get in touch with us and get writing and contributing. Your voices are more important than ever and we’re so keen to hear them. So happy reading and stay sexy MQ! Katelyn x

This issue of Grapeshot Magazine was produced in its entirety with our team self-isolated and at the mercy of Zoom and the NBN. I agree with Katelyn, weird times. Weird sexy times because this is our yearly thirsty, sexy, queer issue! There were a number of Grapeshot’s regular articles that needed to be subverted to fit this new climate. Our ‘You Are Here’ article, which usually provides a snapshot of a Sydney suburb, instead became ‘You Are Here: My House.’ ‘Out Of Your Comfort Zone’ transitioned to ‘In Your Comfort Zone’ via a delayed government mandate. While the previous challenges that Grapeshot had proposed to its Regulars Editor involved outdoorsy feats of exploration and daring, this time around it was put to Harry to take on a new timely challenge: becoming a TikTok dance star. The Grapeshot team were treated to many fantastic dance videos during this process. You may notice that the calendar for the month of May displays many exciting events to look forward to – Nature Day with Leif, May Day, Crazy Redd’s arrival – got the Animal Crossing reference yet? Alongside the record breaking numbers of people who have bought this game, I am also obsessed. An unfortunate side-effect of social distancing has been its toll on mental health. I highly recommend reading our News Editor’s extensive coverage on this. Saliha interviews Nick Titov, Executive Director of the MindSpot Clinic, and Dr. Gemma Sicouri, from Macquarie’s Centre for Emotional Health, and suggests useful ways to maintain your mental health during this time. One positive to all this mayhem is that nature has been given the time to heal itself. Humans are destroying the planet, who knew! Jodie xx

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Paint the Town Rainbow The Sydney Gay and Lesbian Mardi Gras Festival returned with a bang once again in February, marking the 42nd year of this annual celebration. While it’s always important to step back and celebrate the progress that has been made, the popularisation of events such as Mardi Gras and Pride have unfortunately unleashed rainbow capitalism to its fullest extent. Rainbow Capitalism, also referred to as Pink Capitalism, is the “incorporation of the LGBTQ+ movement and sexual diversity to capitalism and the market economy.” This mainly consists of companies and brands using LGBTQ+ iconography and themes throughout their promotions in an attempt to draw in this audience. Though, these promotions and support only exist for short periods of time and never seem to extend to the companies’ wider values. A study conducted in 2015 in the US revealed that LGBTQ households make 10% more shopping trips in a year and spend 7% more on retail in comparison to non-LGBTQ consumers. In 2018, another study further discovered that 34% of LGBTQ respondents believed they had to improve their spending habits while 44% said they struggled to maintain their savings as opposed to the 28% and 38% of non-LGBTQ respondents respectively. This is amidst revealing that 62% experienced financial challenges because of their orientation or identity, usually in regard to experiencing workplace discrimination or bias related to marriage inequality laws and the lack of laws protecting their rights. This is all to say, queer communities have become a large segment in the consumer market that companies have become extremely eager to target. Early this year ANZ Bank, launched the #lovespeech campaign in support of Mardi Gras that included the release of a Google Chrome plug-in extension called The Hurt Blocker. The extension replaced “hurtful language” across the internet with “celebratory emojis,” which was met with intense criticism. This included many calling it a superficial solution that had no real helpful impact for LGBTQ+ people. Furthermore, to advertise the extension, they released posters sharing upsetting phrases that were then edited to be more positive. This included the phrase “trans people are sick” changed to “trans people are sick of being sooooo fabulous.” The campaign also included a short film/advertisement that featured an array of queer Australians saying all the slurs and offensive names they had been called. Many found these to be distressing and confronting. Nic Holas, a LGBTQ+ rights activist, specifically shared his disappointment in the campaign saying, “The first rule of effective campaigning is you don't repeat your opponent's argument.” Despite ANZ Bank being an official Mardi Gras sponsor since 2007, they still donated $100,000 to the Coalition in the 2017 financial year, the political party infamously known for demanding a plebiscite before legalising marriage equality. Despite ANZ promising that they’ve donated $200,000 to over thirty LGBTQ+ community groups in past years, this latest campaign is undeniably tone-deaf, hence why it was received so terribly. Internationally, similar examples are continuously emerging. The UK’s Marks and Spencer released a pride-themed “LGBT” sandwich last year which consisted of lettuce, guacamole, bacon and tomato. While the sale of these sandwiches went toward supporting the Albert Kennedy Trust, a charity for homeless queer youths, it still caused mixed reactions due to the gesture feeling quite demeaning, as though the community was being equated to a sandwich. Amongst the criticism, the company was called out for underpaying their workers and only donating a tiny fraction of the profits they make annually. Gilead Pharmaceuticals is another strong supporter of San Francisco and New York pride that has faced a lot of criticism from members of the LGBTQ+ community. As the manufacturer of Pre-Exposure Prophylaxis (PrEP), the only HIV preventative drug in the market patented by the US government, they

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charge up to $2000 a month for the product. This is despite manufacturing costs estimated to be only $6. With healthcare in the US being incredibly expensive, this makes it extremely difficult for many to access this important drug. This is especially the case for some queer communities who are already economically disadvantaged and for Black and Latinx LGBTQ+ people who are at the highest risk of contacting HIV. The way this pharmaceutical is profiting so heavily off many underprivileged queer people is therefore quite concerning considering how supportive they try to appear at events. Debates around the ethics of alcohol companies promoting to LGBTQ+ audiences have also been raised. Over the years, Mardi Gras has become associated more and more with partying and Australian drinking culture, making it a seemingly great event to increase promotion around. Though, studies from 2012 revealed that 20-30% of LGBTQ people were affected by substance abuse as opposed to 5-10% of the rest of the population. A more recent 2016 study also reported that 42% of people who identified as gay or bisexual drank at levels exceeding guidelines. Amongst other reasons, this is due to gay clubs becoming a key safe space for the queer community and the fact that discrimination and hardships can lead to excessive drinking as a form of escapism. This hasn’t stopped the large number of alcohol businesses sponsoring such events including Absolut Vodka being a key sponsor for Mardi Gras and Bud Light for Chicago Pride. Within Mardi Gras itself, there are also complaints of using and misleading LGBTQ+ consumers. Alongside the usual discussions of why certain brands are featured in the parade, the organisers themselves were caught in a controversy. This year they received a large handful of complaints from the ticket holders of this year’s After Party, which was set to include performances at the Hordern Pavilion from international musicians including Sam Smith, Kesha, Dua Lipa and Pabllo Vittar. Tickets cost up to $300 and many eager attendees were shocked to discover that this didn’t guarantee a place at the main venue, with the Hordern Pavilion having a 5500-person capacity when 10,000 tickets were sold. Due to the sheer volume of complaints, saying that advertising and ticket information had been misleading, the NSW Commissioner for Fair Trading has launched a full investigation. For the meantime, disappointed ticket holders will be receiving complementary tickets for Mardi Gras 2021. Some argue that any representation is still good representation, and walking around the streets of Sydney in February, there’s definitely a sense of empowerment at seeing all the rainbow memorabilia and support. This isn’t to say it’s impossible for brands to feature and uplift LGBTQ+ audiences without it being solely seen as exploitative. For example, Gillette has received quite a lot of praise from the community over the last few years for their inclusive commercials. Recently, one of their advertisements featured a black trans man being taught how to shave by his father for the first time. Many found this commercial uplifting and touching, especially following a number of other advertisements they have done regarding messages such as promoting positive masculinity. Lush cosmetics is another company continuously praised in regard to their LGBTQ+ inclusive advertisements. This is most likely due to all of their campaigns featuring this level of diversity constantly, as opposed to only once a year, allowing the representation to feel more authentic as opposed to gimmicky. It remains important that before praising companies and campaigns for their representation to first analyse their potential motives and past actions. When calling out companies for exploitative behaviour, it sets a precedent that holds others up to a higher standard. Brands truly looking to support LGBTQ+ causes should make attempts to do so year-round and consider undertaking actual helpful actions such as donating to charities. Your rainbows are cute, but c’mon, we know you can do better. By Gabby Edwards

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PAN[dem]IC ATTACK TRIGGER WARNING: The following article contains sensitive information about mental health, which some readers may find upsetting. Resources are available at the end of this article to provide help and support. As the final embers of the bushfires were put out, the nation prepared itself for one of the most unprecedented events in the history of civilization – the COVID-19 lockdown. It began as a minute joke with panic-stricken Australians emptying toilet paper and hand sanitizer shelves, but it soon turned into a post-apocalyptic lifestyle. From being able to eat out whenever to becoming Michelin star chefs in the confinement of our homes, this lockdown has taken a major toll in our fast-paced everyday lives. Amid concerns that social distancing is impossible to enforce in schools and universities, educational institutions have transitioned to online learning and individuals are working from home wherever possible. With all these drastic changes in our normal routine, we consistently find ourselves questioning the impact this lockdown has on our mental health. With everything turning completely upside down, it’s not shocking that in its eight years of operation, online mental health clinic MindSpot has never been busier. Developed by a team of mental health professionals and led by researchers from Macquarie University in partnership with the Australian Federal Government, this clinic service has had a 100 per cent increase in web visits and up to 75 per cent more social interactions. In fact, more than a quarter million people are accessing Instagram and Facebook advice every week and about 4000 people are logging onto the website each day, on top of a large volume of phone calls. Nick Titov, Executive Director of the MindSpot Clinic, said that users span the broad spectrum of society. Beyond emergency and health, they include non-traditional frontline workers, such as taxi drivers, supermarket employees, parents and people experiencing racial abuse. “The increase in anxiety and concern is normal,” he says. “A lot are just keen to learn how to manage their own conditions, to manage reactions and concerns. There are also a lot of people who have underlying existing mental health symptoms who are being very careful to look after themselves.” Dr. Gemma Sicouri, from Macquarie’s Centre for Emotional Health, also says the impact of school closures will be different for every family on a practical and psychological level but so far, there is not a lot of research available on the impact of school closures on children’s overall wellbeing. She believes the first step is to acknowledge school closures are a major life change and this could lead to a grief or a loss response. Students in years 11 and 12 are most likely to have particular worries around how it will affect their HSC. “They might be sad, anxious and overwhelmed and parents play an important role in supporting and validating how they are feeling,” Dr. Sicouri added. To understand more about the relationship between self-isolation and mental health, Grapeshot approached academics from Macquarie’s Department of Psychology to comprehend the evolving situation around us. Professor Blake Dear is the director of the eCentreClinic, which is a research unit that develops and evaluates a range of psychologically-based treatments for common health and chronic physical health conditions. He also has a strong interest in trans-diagnostic treatments for anxiety and depression.

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Upon asking him about some of the common issues young people are likely to face as they practice social distancing or self-isolation, Professor Dear says many of them will revolve around the disruption in our routines, daily activities and social interactions. “We know regular and healthy daily routines, such as meal and bed times, are essential for good mental health. Young people’s daily activities can be impacted, and these are also important because they give a sense of purpose and accomplishment. Then there’s relationships and social interactions, which are essential and are obviously affected by social distancing.” Amidst these chaotic times, many young adults talk about feeling a sense of calmness. To explain this, Professor Dear says, “It is very normal for people to have a wide range of responses to major changes and challenges in our lives. Some people will be calm because they’re largely unaffected by all the changes associated with COVID-19, and for some the changes will actually suit them. Others will be keeping a realistic perspective and finding ways (often without thinking about it) to keep up their routines, activities and social interactions- despite all the changes and challenges.” One of the other drastic differences which has taken place in our lives, is our inability to physically meet other people. Yet, even with numerous videocalling technologies easily accessible, such as Facetime and Zoom, people still prefer to physically talk to others. When asked to explain the reason behind this, Professor Dear responded, “We’re most used to talking and interacting with people face-to-face, so it’s natural to prefer and want to talk to people face-to-face, especially with our nearest and dearest. “However, it’s also true that talking online via digital technologies opens up lots of opportunities to connect and see each other – where we might not have been able to previously. For example, many people are now sharing drinks and meals (via video technologies) with their friends and family, where they might have previously done these things by themselves.” While it might feel like this period may never end, and that our mental wellbeing may never recover from this exhausting phase, Dr. Dear also commented on the matter and said, “This period of social distancing and social restrictions is unlikely to have lasting long-term impacts on most people’s mental health. People are actually pretty resilient overall, and short periods of distress and significant change are a normal part of life – people tend to adjust quite well in time.” Additionally, with people being at home more than usual, individuals are spending time on their phones or devices to engage with online activities and interact with more people online. However, it is important that we pay attention to the type of content that we are spending our time watching. Dr. Jasmine Fardouly is a postdoctoral researcher, who is working at Macquarie’s Centre for Emotional Health. Her research focuses on the effects of social influences on young people’s mental and physical health, and she is particularly interested in understanding how social media use may impact users’ body image, mood and anxiety.

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Dr. Fardouly says that it is difficult to really know the long-term effects of this social isolation because it is a very unusual experience. However, she mentions, “In regards to body image, if people are spending more time browsing idealized media, such as social media accounts or appearancefocused programs, then it could increase [young people’s] concern and focus on their own appearance.” It can also be thought that there might be detrimental negative effects in an individual’s mental health with an increased time spent on social media. Dr. Fardouly clarifies the issue by saying that it essentially depends on what people are doing while they are on social media. “Everyone’s experience on social media is slightly different because social media are usergenerated. Increased time on social media could negatively impact mental health if people are viewing idealized content from others and judging others to have happier and better lives than themselves. Viewing that type of content can also make people internalize societal ideas to a greater extent which can impact mental health if those ideals are deemed to be attainable. We need to be conscious of the content we are viewing that may cause harm.” In addition, to improve our general mood, Dr. Fardouly also suggests that spending less time on technology is helpful for our overall well being. “People could go for a walk, and leave their phones at home. [They] could also limit the time spent on technology to certain times in a day or leave phones in a separate room. Detoxing from technology can boost wellbeing, even if it is only for a short time.” Along with Dr. Fardouly’s advice to take time in the day to relax and disconnect from technology and media, Professor Dear also suggested a few basic activities to ensure we are staying healthy: 1. Keeping up regular and healthy daily routines – getting up, showering, eating, exercising, sleeping at regular times are important for our mental health. 2. Keeping up enjoyable tasks, and meaningful activities – these are what give us pleasure, and a sense of purpose and accomplishment. 3. Keeping our thoughts balanced and helpful – when we are distressed or dealing with difficult things in our lives, our thoughts can become more negative, unrealistic and unhelpful. 4. Keeping connected, and engaged – finding new, creative and safe ways to keep our social interactions and maintain your relationships with friends and family. 5. Dialing down the noise, and switching off regularly – distress can be infectious, and many people tend to focus and talk about their worries. The news media also likes to cover things people worry about and find distressing. While simple activities such as the ones mentioned above can help us maintain our sanity safely through this pandemic, one vital behavior we must all ensure we are practicing is kindness. In recent weeks, uncertainty around the spread of COVID-19 has brought out the worst in people – we have all seen footage of shoppers fighting over toilet paper in supermarkets. But we have also witnessed people doing remarkable selfless acts for those around them, whether friends or strangers.

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Professor Amanda Barnier from Macquarie University’s Department of Cognitive Science believes that actually, people are kind most of the time. “But perhaps when things are ‘normal,’ our acts of kindness are unconscious – we take them for granted. When things slide out of normality, as they have recently, we not only pay more attention to these random acts of kindness, but also do them more often. “Humans strive for meaning and a sense of control,” she says. “Naturally, we feel better when we’re in control, and some people can feel extremely anxious when we’re out of control. So in times like this, we should focus on what we can control. It gives us structure. “When you do something nice for someone else you see – immediately – that you can be effective,” she adds. “These acts of kindness we’re witnessing are one way to validate our sense of control and give us meaning. In making kind choices, we reassert who we are in the world and show we can still make a difference at a time when we are struggling to understand what we should be doing. "Being kind shows us that not everything is uncertain.” This need for kindness to protect our collective integration “doesn’t stop when times are not so great,” Professor Barnier says. “Social isolation is bad for our mental health – being kind helps strengthen social connections. But above and beyond that, in bad times, it helps give us a sense of purpose” – a sense that circumstances might have otherwise robbed us of. So as we all practice social distancing, it is important we take care of our mental health and check up on others who may be thousands of miles away from us. While a simple ‘how are you’ might not cure this pandemic, it could stop someone’s life from spinning out of control. By Saliha Rehanaz

Whatever you’re feeling during these challenging times, make sure you talk about it with someone. Here are a few places you can call, in case you need some additional help and support: MindSpot eClinic: 1800 61 44 34 Beyond Blue: 1800 512 348 Lifeline: 13 11 14 SANE Australia: 1800 187 263 MQ Campus Welbeing: 02 9850 7497, 1800 CARE MQ (1800 2273 67), or the MQ wellbeing app

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Sober Queer Spaces In January, I found myself at a queer cabaret called Woolf’s Speakeasy, which was organized by Sydney University’s Drama Society (SUDS). It was the first time I was in a queer theatrical setting which was not a drag or ping pong show. While I enjoyed the mesmerizing performances with my friends, I realised the event was promoting a sober space for queer people. As a heterosexual, this concept felt foreign to me and learning more about it, I was surprised to say the least. Even though Mardi Gras has been over for a while now, the need for safe spaces for queer people is still a prevalent one. Lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender (LGBT) rights in Australia have advanced since the late-twentieth century, however there has still been a question of what type of spaces are the most accessible to queer people. Historically, bars have long provided safe spaces for the queer community, where many could socialize and find entertainment. Nonetheless, there are certain issues concerning such settings, which include the disparity in numbers between queer bar settings catering specifically towards gay male demographics versus any other orientation. In 2017, an analysis of gay travel guides showed that out of 1,357 LGBTQ bars in the United States, only 36 catered specifically towards queer women. Whether this has arose out of the changing cultural dynamics of an ever-shifting community or because of the socio-economic advantages that comes with male privilege even within the queer community, finding commercial spaces geared towards female and non-binary patrons is a challenge in and of itself. Often, the LGBTQ+ spaces that are available tend to be inaccessible for a large number of people. For example, Laura Kate Dale, a UK-based author of the book Uncomfortable Labels: My Life as a Gay Autistic Trans Woman, is living at the intersection of gay, trans and neurodivergent identities. Dale explains in her book how numerous LGBTQ+ settings, such as clubs, parades and bars, can create an uncomfortable environment, including “loud music, flashing lights, crowds of people… a huge number of unknown variables mixed up to create a chaotic sea of sensory overload.” For individuals like Dale who experience sensory processing issues, or any other issue related to disability, such as wheelchair and deaf/hard of hearing accessibility, common queer spaces often do not consider the reality of those facing such difficulties. Numerous queer venues are also oriented towards finding romantic or sexual relationships, which makes it isolating for asexual or aromantic individuals. Moreover, queer venues involving alcohol are focused towards crowds over the age of 18, which means these spaces are not necessarily welcoming to queer youth, who are some of the most vulnerable members of the LGBTQ+ society and in need of a sense of community. On top of this, there is a high correlation between substance abuse and the queer community, which makes many of these spaces not the most optimal places for those struggling with sobriety. In October 2019, a study published in the journal of Psychiatric Services found that “multilevel minority stressors and associated coping via substance use in adolescence and young adulthood, coupled with LBTGQ-specific sociocultural influences, contribute to the development of substance use disorders among some LGBTQ young adults”. Jai Andrews* was born and raised in a strict Mormon family, and alcohol and drugs had never been a part of his life. However, when he entered his late teen years and started exploring his sexuality, he felt that “to be a part of the queer community, alcohol seemed like a major factor.” “While I knew my family and religion would not accept my sexual orientation, I started putting myself in queer venues to feel accepted and find others like me. However, even though I understood that

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my religion was not accepting of who I truly was, I still believed in the values of my religion and refrained from even trying a sip of alcohol. “At first, it seemed like I could still enjoy myself without drinking. However, I quickly realized that I was the black sheep in the crowd and seemed to be the only person without a drink in my hand. Also, the friendships or relationships I was making with other members of the community in bars and clubs did not feel authentic at all. People were completely different when they were drunk and it seemed like they were someone else the next day,” Andrews said. The places that Andrews had been going to in search of acceptance was making him feel worse and it made him think that there was nowhere he could go and “be himself.” After entering a period of depression, Andrews realised that he had had enough and started an ‘alcohol-free queer room’ in his apartment. “I still haven’t come out to my family and a large number of my friends. So, it was really difficult for me to not have someone to talk to about how I was feeling. It led me to think that there has to be other people who are in my situation, so after a quick search online and a shopping trip to Costco, I was ready to have my first hangout for other gay men that didn’t drink. “To this day, I still can’t believe 27 people showed up at my doorstep! After years of struggling, I had finally found a place to be myself, and managed to inspire others to take this initiative. Now, every month all of us alternate and have hangouts at our houses, where we just sit around, solve puzzles and eat chocolate. It’s the best!” There are many people out there like Andrews, who do not engage in substance use because of their religion. In contrast, there are also numerous people who are on a journey to recover from substance abuse.

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“I was only 15 when I came out to everyone.” Lisa Daniels* explained, who is currently in her second year of sobriety. “Queer bars and clubs have a life of their own and being so young and naïve, I quickly found myself falling into a lifestyle that was not only hampering me financially, but ruining my relationships with people that cared for me.” Daniels believes that she was lucky to have a supportive family that helped her through her alcohol addiction and rehab. “I sit down and count my blessings every day, because whenever I look back at the person I had become from consistently binge drinking at social gatherings to developing dependence on alcohol, I feel mortified. I see so many other people who are in my place and it breaks my heart, because all this could be different if we just had more queer spaces that did not involve substance. “Even now, I find it difficult to connect with others in the LGBTQ+ community because there aren’t many sober spaces available. And while I have been alcohol-free for the last two years, I cannot afford to put myself in a bar because I still don’t think I’m strong enough.” People are starting to become more considerate and in recent times, there has been an increase in events which promote sober queer spaces. One such event in Sydney from earlier this year included a queer cabaret called Woolf’s Speakeasy, which was directed by Sean Landis, a member of the Sydney University Drama Society. “The concept behind Woolf's Speakeasy was to create a space to showcase art and performance centered around queer stories. Similar events… had often been set in bars, and whilst this builds a wonderful vibe, we recognised that not everyone is comfortable in such an environment. Not all queer people drink, and a diversity of queer spaces allows for more people to find a place where they feel comfortable and involved,” Landis explained the motivation behind the cabaret. He also believes it is incredibly important to have sober queer spaces and higlights their value. “Party culture is such a wonderful and valid part of queer community that allows so many people to come into their own and come out of their shell. But in emphasizing it so strongly as a community, we tend to ignore those who don't feel comfortable in such a space. Sober queer spaces allow for community building in a different way that is incredibly valuable for those who don't want to be around alcohol.” As we move ahead as a society, it is time to consider and expand our understanding of members of the LGBTQ+ community that are impatiently waiting for the availability of sober queer spaces. These spaces not only provide a place for people to come together and enjoy themselves, but to also realise they are not alone. By Saliha Rehanaz *Names have been changed to protect the identities of the individuals.

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University Responses to Everything as of Late A recap on the Operating Plan, financial aid the Uni is offering, and how you can speak your mind productively. In early February this year, the Vice Chancellor announced an Operating Plan for 2020 to 2024. It slipped under most of our radars with the literal apocalypse that has been raging on for the last six months. Now that we’re kinda used to the apocalypse, we have the time to consider what the Operating Plan and other University initiatives mean for students. The Operating Plan emerges from the senior executives’ decision that Macquarie University needs to evolve and adapt to contemporary circumstances. As a part of this adaptation, the executives suggest these thematic priorities: students first, coursework suite and delivery, focused investment in research, our people, and ways of working. After announcing the proposed Plan, the university offered various platforms for staff and student consultation. Staff were offered inperson consultation with Professor Dowton or an online feedback portal. Students were also invited to similar in-person consultations. The University decided to incentivise student participation in these sessions with a $50 gift voucher following low engagement in the early stages of the consultation process. As a student who attended one of those meetings (and scored a sweet $50 bucks for my groceries last fortnight), I have some insight into what the hell those thematic priorities might actually look like. One example offered by the Vice Chancellor included more obviously structured degrees. In his words, Macquarie University began as a uniquely flexible alternative to older universities in Sydney. Today, that flexibility causes a lot of administrative weirdness and irrelevant unit selection by students (Drugs Across Cultures, anyone?). The 2020 curriculum shitstorm was their way of streamlining our degrees to resolve this. Another consultative move by the University was an international students webinar so that students could seek advice on online study and the University’s coronavirus response. The most frequent comment in the chat was a hashtag demanding refunds for international students. The University hasn’t issued refunds or tuition fee concessions for international students. NEWS | 17

Instead, they’ve released the Student Success Support Package. The Package offers financial aid to students affected by coronavirus. The package includes emergency $250 e-vouchers for groceries and rent, deferment of 25% of tuition fees, up to $2000 grants (no repayment) and loans (repayment required), and extended payment plans for tuition. All students need to do is fill out the expression of interest and within 48 hours they should receive some kind of communication about their request. It’s not a refund, but it’s still helpful if you’re in dire circumstances. The University has also begun a calling campaign to reach out to both international and domestic students. The campaign includes recording students’ impressions of online learning, any feedback about units that didn’t translate online as sexily as you might’ve wished, and whether you feel supported by the University. As well as this, the staff calling you will discuss a range of academic and support services offered by the University depending on your situation. If you’re feeling at all hopeless or pissed off by everything right now, please seriously consider the feedback you can offer in these calls. Obviously don’t be a dickhead to the person calling but do speak your mind if you’re unhappy. It’s a lot more productive than bitching in the Facebook discussion page. So, there you have it! A condensed version of the thousands of comms your student email account has received over the last few months. Now you don’t have to stress that you never read them – we’ve got you. By Anonymous

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Discrimination is the New Black In 2018, much of Australia celebrated the legalisation of marriage equality following the survey in 2017 showing over 60% of Aussies were in favour of the change. While most LGBTQ+ Australians rejoiced for a hard-won victory, conservative groups within the government and interest groups, such as the Australian Christian Lobby, sought a consolation prize. By the end of 2019, this prize began to take shape. Now under the leadership of the more conservative Scott Morrison, the government proposed a “package of legislation” that includes: Religious Discrimination Bill 2019 Religious Discrimination (Consequential Amendments) Bill 2019 Human Rights Legislation Amendment (Freedom of Religious) Bill 2019 The original bills sought to implement some of the recommendations made by the Ruddock Review into the state of religious freedom in Australia. The law reform aims to provide a ‘shield’ for religious Australians by prohibiting discrimination on the basis of religious belief in areas of public life such as work, school, medical services, etc. The definition of ‘religious belief’ includes those who hold and engage in a religious activity as well as those who do not. In other words, it protects those with and without faith. Where this bill goes further than other anti-discrimination laws is in regard to “indirect discrimination.” This has been dubbed the Israel Folau provision, where employers are not allowed to impose rules and guidelines around employee conduct if such rules restrict or prevent an employee from making a statement of belief any time they are not at work. This provision only applies to companies making more than $50 million per year. The bill also allows conscientious objections by medical professionals, where if their employer requires them to perform certain procedures that conflict with their belief, this amounts to discrimination. It would allow doctors to object to performing abortion and assisted suicide procedures, as well as prescribing contraception and abortion medication. Although the government states that these new laws do not intend to override existing state and territory anti-discrimination laws, you guessed it, that’s exactly what it does. Tasmanian law prohibits people from offending, humiliating, intimidating, insulting or ridiculing others on the basis of things like sexual and gender identity, disability and sex. The new bill proposed by the government says that the Tasmanian law has only been broken when a statement of belief is malicious or is likely to harass, vilify or incite hatred or violence against a person or group of people. According to the new law, statements of belief do not count as discrimination as it appears in any law in Australia. This means that state and territory anti-discrimination laws around race, sex and disability do not apply when it comes to statements of belief. The original bill was published in August 2019 for interest groups, such as religious organisations, business and medical associations, as well as human rights and LGBTQ groups to respond. I will summarise the responses from these groups. For the most part, business associations believed such a law would make life harder for companies, who are now unable to comprehensively develop rules and codes of conduct for employees. Health and medical groups said this would have a disproportional impact on marginalised communities, such as LGBTQ people, indigenous people and sex workers, who are most at risk for diseases. Where access to healthcare, particularly in rural areas, is already a problem, this law would make things worse for healthcare outcomes. Human rights and LGBTQ advocates condemn the bill for similar reasons to health and medical professionals. Such laws would have detrimental impacts for at risk groups in cases where timely access to medical services is vital. Many view these proposed laws as regressive when it comes to respecting the human rights of respect, recognition, equality and dignity for LGBTQ people. However, religious groups, except the Uniting Church, found that the bill didn’t go far enough. Yes, that’s

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right. Instead, they propose that the second draft of the bill extends protection to religious organisation’s commercial enterprises, such as hospitals, schools and retirement villages. Again, you’re hearing this correctly. Such commercial enterprises, from the perspective of religious groups, must be allowed to uphold their religious ethos. To do so, religious organisations should be able to discriminate during hiring based on religious beliefs. Interestingly, the Uniting Church responded to the first draft of the bill by stating that they do not support privileging statements of religious belief above others’ dignity and well-being. They go on to say that Christians are not persecuted in Australia and to cultivate a kind of victim status is dangerous. Following these responses, the Attorney General Christian Porter released a second draft in late 2019 that was labelled by some legal experts as a deeply flawed move. Porter listened to the response and appeared only to hear religious groups. Thus, the second draft enshrines the right for religious groups to actively discriminate in their commercial activities and keeps everything the same. Professor of Law at Sydney University, Simon Rice, suggests that the bill turns the entire legislative structure around anti-discrimination in Australia on its head. Rather than just protecting a person from discrimination, as all other laws do, the Religious Freedom Bill allows someone to actively discriminate on the basis of religious belief. This therefore moves from being a ‘shield’ to a ‘sword.’ The rationale here is that in facing consequences for saying whatever they want in regard to their belief system, regardless of whether it offends, humiliates, ridicules or intimidates someone, people are being discriminated against. This is the form of so-called ‘indirect’ discrimination that religious organisations appear to care about the most, as was the case for Israel Folau. Former justice of the High Court of Australia Michael Kirby argues that introducing such a law would lead to increased discrimination against all people, leading to legal battles in court over which belief system is superior, where an atheist is against a Christian. He says that it would leave our nation and our faith communities more divided than ever. To put into perspective what people would be able to say, here are some examples: A single mother dropping her child off to daycare being told that she is sinful for denying her child a father. A teacher telling a student with a disability that their disability is a trial from God. A waiter in a café promising a gay couple that they will pay for their sins. Under current laws, all of these would be examples of unlawful discrimination. I came across an intriguing article that flipped the scenarios on their head. Despite mainly being supported by Christian groups, this law protects all religions equally. Other scenarios were pondered: An employer during a job interview telling a Christian that their beliefs are like a mental disorder. A Muslim butcher intimidating a Christian customer by telling them they are an infidel who will suffer punishment. An employer putting a sign above a Christian employee’s desk saying, “Christianity is nonsense.” Evidently, this bill is an ill-conceived and unworkable law. It has yet to go through Parliament and become a law and it remains to be seen if it ever will. The push to protect religious freedoms embodies the propagation of a false identity for Christians in particular. It is built on the problematic premise that increased recognition of LGBTQ rights comes at the cost of others. I believe that it is key to remember one thing that one of my professors once told me, one can mistake the loss of privilege for oppression. By Harry Fraser

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Becoming a TikTok Dance Star Salutations readers, this is Harry Fraser, the Regulars Editor for Grapeshot. Welcome to the challenge, the part where I do something that challenges me for your edification. Due to Miss Rona, there were some obvious limits on what tasks I could undertake. However, if not for stage three lockdowns, this issue’s challenge would not have happened. You can thank all-consuming boredom and an attempt to subdue crippling mental illness. There are only so many times you can refresh Instagram and listen to Future Nostalgia before you start to lose it. It was at this point that I made the decision to download TikTok. I had resisted but I was starving for something, anything, to make the hours go by. Boy did I hit the jackpot, if by jackpot you mean another social media app on which I could waste my life away. Upon telling the Grapeshot team of this newfound co-dependent relationship, it was put to me to become a TikTok dance star. For those who have never seen a TikTok dance before, it is essentially 10-15 second routines set to popular songs. I couldn’t tell you where the routines originated or who choreographed them, but nonetheless they exist for me to learn. I set myself the goal of learning three dances. I will make a confession before I start, so that people don’t feel too discouraged. From the ages of 4-15 I trained as a dancer. As I wrote that, I felt how cringy it was. You don’t have to tell me. Nevertheless, I was a competitive dancer for the better part of my childhood, to moderate success. I learned and performed four dances in total, although two of them were the same routine with a pop culture remix, I’ll explain later. The first one was ‘Blinding Lights’ by The Weeknd. This one turned out to be the most intense. I didn’t use a YouTube tutorial for this because I didn’t yet know they existed, and it was a decision I came to regret. The routine is simple enough on the surface. It’s quite short and only has a few steps. If you haven’t seen it, go and have a look so I don’t have to explain it. Great, now that you’ve seen it you understand what I mean. As I tried the steps for myself, incoordination proved to be something you cannot grow out of. My legs and feet were always a beat behind the music and no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t quite hit the counts. The best I can describe the move was my left leg moving in front and to the side, with my left foot repeatedly touching in front of my right foot and then back to the side. I hope you can picture it; I know I won’t forget it anytime soon. I decided to put a bit more spring into it, so that my leg could move faster. It wasn’t long before my mother trotted upstairs to reprimand me for making the house shake. I’m sorry Melissa, but no one made history by not shaking houses. In the end, this routine was passable, but not up to the toxic perfectionist standards I had come to know since childhood. I will admit I didn’t dance for a week or so. To say that the Blinding Lights dance broke my spirit would be an exaggeration, but not by much. Tentatively, I moved on to the ‘Say So’ by Doja Cat dance. This time, I used a YouTube tutorial. It was almost enjoyable once you got used to the condescending tone of the instructor. Toxic masculinity ruins the party again. I spent about half an hour going through the choreography and let me tell you, confidence came flooding back as I picked up the steps in the tutorial like a duck to water. Turns out a decade of formal training and many thousands of dollars was, I was going to say worth it, but maybe not. Once I had learned the steps, I wanted to analyse the swathes of amateur TikTok users like the peasants they are. I wouldn’t say I’m a judgemental person. Other people would though.

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I was shocked at what I found on TikTok. I won’t lie. These people had neither talent nor commitment and it showed. While I practiced and sweated, these people didn’t even stand up or get out of their tie-dye hoodie. These VSCO girls had interpreted the dance like a game of Chinese Whispers. These people looked very different from the original. Every person I watched did it slightly differently, some looked like they were nonchalantly swatting a fly. The uniformity and passion that I had known as a younger dancer were nowhere to be seen on TikTok. It emboldened me, it made me want to be better. Because, let’s face it, I was better than these potatoes. So, I filmed my dance, and let me tell you, it was technically flawless. Every move was executed with sharpness and skill. The end result was a good dance. The only feedback was the serious look on my face. To them, I say that dance isn’t meant to be fun. It’s meant to be done right. But I’m a good sailor, so I tried to work some personality into the next dance, the Savage one. I returned to the casually misogynistic and homophobic tutorial because it was effective and like before, I successfully picked up these steps. For this dance there was a boy and a girl version. I would say that I picked the girl version because it’s meant to be a challenge, but it was a better dance in reality. The only reason a guy wouldn’t do that version, in my mind, is due to an insecure sense of their own masculinity. But hey, that’s just me. I’m not a mental health professional, just judgemental. I was most proud of this routine. I managed to balance execution with a bit more flair and charisma. As I threw it back and rolled my body, I actually had fun. Unlike me, my hips didn’t lie. They told a story of adversity and dedication, of a journey that lasted hours to get me to success. As a nod to what’s big right now, I did the Savage dance to the Joe Exotic version, from the hit Netflix original Tiger King. You’re all welcome. Throughout this experience I was reminded of what dancing can do. This isn’t some schmaltzy spiel about the power of dance, I’m not Antonio Banderas or Julia Stiles. However I will say that dance can give you a lot of confidence. When I danced competitively, there was a rush at being on stage and satisfaction that came when a routine came together. TikTok is hardly a substitute for that and I stand by my statements about the potatoes. However, I genuinely enjoyed learning and filming these dances and felt a sense of pride when the Grapeshot team got to see them. My TikTok settings are on private, so good luck finding these videos. But if by some miracle you do, I accept your thanks and you’re welcome. By Harry Fraser

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IN YOURSelf-Isolation COMFORT ZONE The Grapeshot team reveals the blissful ways they quell boredom in self-isolation. Gabby suggests: Netflix Party Extension For all the movie and TV fans out there who miss going to the cinema or buddy watching things with your friends, Netflix Party is the solution for you. Downloading this free chrome extension allows you to chat with all your friends in a side-bar while watching the show. Since it is free, it can be quite glitchy so it could take a few tries before you’re able to start the watch session, but it’s well worth the wait. Alternatively, starting a zoom call and using the share screen feature lets you watch movies or tv on non-Netflix platforms. While it can be a little laggy, this way you can also see your friends and chat normally on the side. So microwave some popcorn and get those virtual movie nights started! Gartic.io/Skribbl (Online Pictionary) Sick of playing online Cards Against Humanity and want another more wholesome suggestion? Try Skribbl/ Gartic.io, free online Pictionary games you can play with friends. Just like in Pictionary, one friend must digitally draw a suggested word, while the other players have to guess. With Skribbl, you also have the option of including your own word pack meaning there are virtually unlimited possibilities. In Gartic.io you can choose a theme to draw to: Marvel/DC, Pokemon, Food. Draw responsibly folks :) Club Penguin Club Penguin is back and better than ever. Because guess what, we’re all members now! Despite being hosted on a slightly shifty looking website, the new club penguin brings back all the features you know and love along with the added bonus of plenty of nostalgia. Bonus tip: if you use server ‘Walrus' your penguin is allowed to swear. But be prepared to watch a whole lot of fights break out. Trust me, it can get intense in there… Jodie suggests: Animal Crossing and Intermittent Gardening If you don’t have Animal Crossing: New Horizons and have been wondering whether the painful cost of $79 for the game is worth it, I’m here to tell you it is. The joys of customizing your own island and growing digital trees cannot be understated. This is a therapeutic way to waste hundreds of hours. While I was marvelling at the sapling that had grown into a shrub in just one day on my Switch, my mum was marvelling over the fact that her real-life plant had sprouted from its seed. Rather than gardening through a simulation, try actual gardening, even if you’re under sixty you still might enjoy it. Walking One walk a day keeps cabin fever at bay. Zoom Study Sessions You never thought this day would come, you miss the Macquarie Uni Library in all its silent and stressful glory. My friends and I have come up with an odd alternative. Using my zoom account (which is a MQU staff account therefore has unlimited meeting time duration), we turn on zoom and study ALL DAY. Coming and going in and out of the call as we need to, for lunch breaks, for breakdowns etc. My study buddies: Avni, Eric, Shruti, and Pegah, have each developed their own quirks in isolation. Avni is perpetually frustrated with Eric who uses screenshots of her exasperated face as his background, Shruti is always shrouded in darkness in a dimly lit room, and Pegah exists in pink robes and leopard print ‘oodies’ – oversized blanket hoodies. It’s a weird way of staying connected but oddly, it works. Apparently my quirk is mentioning Animal Crossing: New Horizons every five minutes.

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Aylish suggests: House Party App This app is a really cool way to stay connected with your friends and family! With hundreds of games to choose from, you’ll be having your own little isolation party in no time. My particular favourites are Quick Draw! And Heads Up; attempting to guess or explain hilarious drawings always makes me laugh. Exercising With A Friend Or Family Member Over Facetime When you have siblings that don’t live with you anymore, it can be a little tricky to spend quality time together, especially during a pandemic. Enter: Facetime and exercising. What better way to get your daily workout in than to workout online! I tried this out last week with my twin and older sister and it was so much fun. Now we all have an excuse to get fit and do awkward pilates moves together! Bonus tip – keep your laptop out of reach from your furry friends. My cat decided to lay across my keyboard, making everything freeze! It made for really cute photos though. Face Masks/Dyeing Hair Sessions Facemasks have always been a great way to relax, feel all slippery and a chance for you to become the cloth monster you’ve always wanted to be – or is that just me? Now face masks can be even more entertaining if you do it online with your friends – especially if you pick the masks that burn your face when the packaging clearly says tingle. Now that we’re all in isolation, I’ve also seen a lot of videos and memes circulating about one thing in particular: changing your hair. I think now is a great time to experiment with your hair as no one but you is going to see it anyway (you can always hide it under a hat during Zoom meetings). So Facetime a friend and grab some dye – we’re going to get funky #isohair. Kathleen suggests: Make a music playlist from your childhood After playing ‘Super Bass’ on repeat for an hour, I decided to make a playlist of my favourite childhood songs. Now I actually want to stay at home so I can listen to my 27 hour playlist. I recommend digging deep into those forgotten hard drives and USB sticks, and copying over those music files you illegally downloaded before Spotify and Apple Music existed. Watch Broadway shows from your bedroom Pro-shots of musical theatre shows have been released by Andrew Lloyd Webber on a YouTube channel named The Shows Must Go On! If you’ve ever wanted to watch The Phantom of the Opera or marvel at the absurdity of Joseph and the Technicolour Dreamcoat, now is the time. Saliha suggests: Knitting Yes, knitting is hard. Yes, knitting will make you look like an old woman. Yes, knitting needles can be used as a weapon to hurt your annoying housemates. Baking I’ve always enjoyed baking. The feeling you get when someone tries your baked goods and they tell you how much they like it cannot be put into words. But my quarantine baking obsession has been so over the top, that I have made my housemate gain 5 kilos in a week. To counteract the weight gain, substitute an electric mixer with a hand whisk and there’s your bicep workout. You’re welcome.

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in popREWIND culture POPQueerness CULTURE Situational comedies (sitcoms) can be traced back as a popular television genre since the 1970s. Usually set around a group of core characters, this genre was designed to be easily accessible entertainment that could be tuned into at any time, regardless of how much knowledge one had of prior seasons or episodes. Needless to say, these shows quickly grew in popularity, spawning iconic shows over the years including Cheers, Seinfeld and Friends. Around the same time, LGBTQ+ social movements were also in full swing, particularly in the US. As queer people fought for their basic rights, an increase in representation and positive portrayals slowly began to be reflected in the shows people watched. As a lot of the genre was centred around family issues and was certainly meant to be enjoyed by families together, any decent representation took quite a while coming. At first, any mention of gayness on these shows was instantly shut down and laughed at as the source of a joke. That, or characters would seem threatened by any show of queerness and do anything possible to disassociate themselves from any chance of affiliation. Though, it wasn’t long before things started to shift, and gay characters were able to move past being the butt of the joke to making the jokes themselves. Wikipedia lists Jodie Dallas, as played by Billy Crystal, from the 70s US sitcom Soap as the first reoccurring gay character on a primetime TV show. Despite Billy himself not being applauded as a gay icon anytime soon, his character still paved the way for a more accepting television audience and managed to make many fans of the show feel recognised and less alone. As time went on, quite a few sitcoms would air episodes featuring a gay character or storyline, all varying greatly in regard to the level of homophobia present. While some came to relatively positive conclusions where the main cast would recognise their prejudice and openly accept the gay character/s, others would continue having the queer character be rejected for their sexual identity. During the 90s a trend began in which many shows featured a main character having a gay dream and the instant identity crisis that followed. These included Frasier, Murphy Brown and Ellen. It’s hypothesised that these episodes were created to test the waters on how audiences would feel about shows starting to have open conversations about these topics and issues. With early discussions of legalising gay marriage in the US on the rise at the time, gay characters and relationships were on their way to being better discussed and normalised across the media. Or so we thought… Potentially one of the most well-recognised sitcoms of all time, Friends, dabbled in queer representation through its years of airing. Despite the main cast consisting of borderline to full-blown homophobic characters, a few queer side characters made appearances over the years. This of course includes Ross’ ex-wife Carol and her new partner Susan. Their wedding episode was one of the first gay weddings aired on mainstream US television, which led to the show gaining two GLAAD Media Award nominations and one win for Outstanding Comedy series. Despite this, many still point out that these queer storylines exist for the purpose of ridiculing the main cast. Aside from this being the case with Ross and his ex-wife, it is of course present with Chandler’s father. From the start, the fact that Chandler’s father is gay is instantly the punchline of jokes made to embarrass him. This is of course made worse when the show reveals that his father is a drag queen, coded as a trans woman and played by a female actress. The obvious lack of understanding and distinction between doing drag and being transgender has definitely aged terribly. Overall, Friends’ queer representation track record is far from perfect, as supported by the hour-long supercut that existed of all the homophobic jokes made across the show. On the other side of the spectrum, Will and Grace is an example of a show that made waves when it first aired for its representation and normalisation of gay lead characters. The show followed a straight woman and gay man who were roommates and the various antics they got up to within their careers, romantic pursuits and friendship groups. While it did receive some heavy critiques for still adhering to certain stereotypes when it had opportunities to be subversive, particularly when it was initially released, the show continued to gain supporters over time and became a much-beloved classic. And of course, we can’t talk about gay sitcoms without talking about Ellen DeGeneres herself. While her reputation over the last few months has been quite spotty, her coming out story and position as the first gay lead on television showed major progress. When her self-titled sitcom aired her coming out episode it was met with 44 million viewers, which was 3 times more than the show’s average. Despite the show being cancelled in the following year, Ellen DeGeneres still went on to become a pop culture icon with her talk show still airing today after almost 17 years. Queer characters in sitcoms nowadays tend to be a lot more common and usually come with a lot less homophobia on the side. Modern Family was another more recent show that normalised queer characters through featuring a gay couple, Mitchell and Cam, as part of the main cast. They are healthily represented as a happy married couple with an adopted daughter and loving extended family. Though, the show has still received its fair share of critiques including the stereotypes it often leans into with Cam in particular being portrayed as quite feminine and the couple acting negatively toward lesbian characters. Many also critique the fact that the couple rarely kiss, and when they do, it is always abrupt. The showrunners attempted to directly address this within the show stating the couple just weren’t big into PDA. While queer representation has definitely improved, this isn’t to say all representations go without criticism. Titus Andromedon from the Netflix series The Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt is just one example of a gay character who

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was initially critiqued for being incredibly stereotyped. Titus is the gay black best friend of main character Kimmy and on paper, the stereotypes are clear. He’s loud, dramatic, and dreams of performing on Broadway. For a lot of the show he also seems incredibly selfish, often wrapped up in his own issues and totally ignorant of his friend’s problems. Though, over the course of the show his character does evolve a little as we get to know him better. The introduction of other gay characters with a variety of other personalities also assists in unpacking these stereotypes. One Day at a Time, the 2017 reboot of the classic 70s sitcom, re-launched with a fresh diverse cast and some much-needed queer representation. The show follows three-generations of a Cuban American family living their life, with oldest child Eleanor starting the show trying to discover her sexuality and eventually coming out as gay. Beyond just having one character come out, it explores a range of issues including dating as a queer person, harassment queer couples face and respecting pronouns. The second season also follows her blossoming relationship with her non-binary significant other, Syd. When Netflix cancelled the show after three seasons it was quickly picked up by PopTV, marking it the first time a Netflix show has been revived by a traditional network. The show has a dedicated and loyal fan base, and it’s really easy to see why. Schitt’s Creek, having just recently aired its finale, has also been praised for its queer representation. Dan Levy, one of the creators of the show, plays David, a pansexual man, within the show. The show explicitly made the choice not to show any homophobia, with all the characters simply accepting who he is once his sexuality is revealed. US promotions for the show also featured billboards of main character David and fiancé Patrick kissing, with the creators stressing the importance of having this kind of representation out there for queer people who often don’t feel seen or celebrated. Brooklyn Nine-Nine is among one of the most mainstream sitcoms currently airing with plenty of queer representation to boast. Two lead characters in the main cast are explicitly queer including Captain Raymond Holt, a black gay police chief and Rosa Diaz, a Mexican American bisexual detective. Both representations of their sexuality are explored in different ways, with Holt’s being established from the first episode while Rosa comes out over the course of the show. Having queer characters of colour in a show is already quite difficult to find, so having two key characters within the same show feels truly monumental. Don’t say you didn’t cry after hearing Holt’s speech to Rosa when she came out. We all know you did. Speaking of the Schurverse, The Good Place’s main character Eleanor has also been confirmed by the show’s writers and creator to be bisexual. While Eleanor does casually flirt with a few other women on-screen, she never explicitly states she is bisexual, and the show never explores any past relationships or experiences she has had with other women. Unfortunately, other identities in the queer community are still greatly underrepresented in sitcoms, including transgender people. While shows have existed focusing on trans storylines including Boy Meets Girl in the UK and The Switch from Canada, neither have managed to gather particularly large audiences. And while trans and non-binary characters have made appearances in shows such as Glee and One Day at a Time, they haven’t been a part of the core case of characters. Additionally, the queer representation that does exist seems to predominantly focus on the white, upper-middle class gay experience, which still comes with a whole lot of privilege. As you may have noticed, most of the old examples listed from the 70s to 90s solely feature white representation, usually amongst a solely white cast. While there have been examples of queer characters of colour in sitcoms in the past, the likes of which include Roc (which featured the first same-sex wedding on network TV), these were far less mainstream. While there are more recent examples airing on TV today, they are still heavily outnumbered by the amount of white characters present. In looking for representation across their other favourite shows, many viewers have picked up on moments that could hint that their favourite characters aren’t as straight as they appear. This has sprung up one of my new favourite genres of YouTube video, that being compilations of popular sitcom characters and their gayest moments played to NSYNC’s ‘Bye Bye Bye’ (of course spelt as “Bi Bi Bi”). With the power of the internet, audiences can band together to theorise and show support for their favourite queer headcanons, something that wasn’t possible back when the genre first started. From this leap back in time we can clearly see that queer characters and storylines in sitcoms have come a long way. Fortunately, queer representation has become a lot more mainstream with LGBTQ+ characters being more readily accepted amongst shows with predominantly straight casts. Regardless, there’s always room to improve when representing a more diverse array of queer characters. This includes acknowledging when beloved shows do get things wrong and recognising where improvements can be made. In the meantime, may I suggest bingeing more of those Bi Bi Bi compilations? 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ILLUSTRATED What does your favourite “ally” catchphrase say about you?

I’m going to be real with you heteros, I’m worried about you. I can’t imagine what you guys go through everyday not being queer. Without fierce clubs and Jonathon Van Ness, putting on your straight pants each morning must be deeply saddening to say the least. While I’m sorry you happened to draw the non-gay card in life, it’s no excuse to be fucking stupid. Below are just some of the classic ‘ally’ phrases that warm the cold hearts of LBGTQ+ people.

“ “I voted yes”

It’s sweet that you want me to know that you gave me a fundamental human right, something that never should have been the subject of a public vote. Does an iTunes gift card work as a thank you?

“I love bi girls, especially if they invite me to the threesome” Oh Chad. You’ve hit the nail on the head. Most women are constantly saying how they feel such an absence of straight male energy in their lives, especially if they have the misfortune of dating another woman. Tell me again where the clitoris is. Quickly.

“Didn’t you used to date men?” Didn’t you used to wake up in the morning and struggle to find things to do because you’re a stay at home mother whose children are in their twenties? Didn’t you find yourself habitually glancing at the clock on your stainless-steel appliances, wondering if ten in the morning was too early to fish out the cans of G&T? Didn’t you used to pair it with a Xanax or four, just to stop you from looking in the mirror of your palatial ensuite and ask yourself if this is as good as it gets? Oh wait, you still do that Karen. 28 | REGULARS

“You don’t even seem gay!” Thank God you told me! If you hadn’t schooled me with your heterosexual audacity, I might have been demoted by the Gay Agenda. I’ll be sure to dust off the stereotypes and ensure my marginalised identity defines me.

“I don’t care if you’re gay, just don’t try to flirt with me haha” You heteros, it never fails to amaze me how narcissistic you are. But oh, how clever. Everyone came out just so they can have the experience of unrequited love and potentially a hate crime because of our not-so-secret love of straights. How about you don’t flirt with me Travis, you fucking smell.

“It was so nice to meet your little friend the other day” Next time you get married (because let’s be real it’s going to be more than once), in a beautiful church that asks zero questions about your adherence to that religion, with a fabulous cake that no one has ever debated about baking, I’m going to shit in your mouth.

“I’m cool with your decision”

“Sometimes I want to give up on men too!” That’s so good to hear Brenda. I feel so accepted when you conflate my sexuality with an overtly frivolous and hyperbolic expression of patriarchal values. I would encourage you to ‘give up’ on men if not for your internalised misogyny that would make dating women problematic.

“Do you know my friend Mike? He’s also gay. You guys would be so cute together!” I’m afraid I don’t know Mike but to the question of compatibility, it’s like pairing fine wine with cheese. Except for queer people, growing up in a heteronormative world means it’s more about which personality disorder goes best with my mental illness. Internalised homophobia and toxic masculinity are quite the emotional cocktail.

From sashaying out of my mother’s vagina, to that time I decided to go through puberty, it’s nice to know that my choices are being appreciated. After a lifetime of marginalisation and bullying I know it was all worth it because Steve from accounting is cool with it.

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Alone with image WRITING ONmyTHE WALL I am a nonbinary MQU undergrad. This pandemic is doing a number on my life. My retail employer laid me off with nothing but my last three timesheets and a link on how to apply for Centrelink benefits. Two of my online classes were reduced to "do whatever you want, as long as you submit the assessments on time". I refrain from eating more than one meal a day, so my family won't run out of groceries as quickly. I am applying for jobs left and right to get my cash flow going. I also have insurance to pay for, so I have stable expenses but an unstable income. What has COVID-19 got to do with my gender identity? Sheltering in place means I'm alone with my thoughts and also my body.

"My hair is getting shaggy, better trim it soon."

"Why are my feet always cold?"

"I haven't worn a bra in a week."

"Have I always been this bad at keeping in touch with "Should I do sex work while I people?" still have boobs?" "I slouch all the time because proper posture makes me more aware of my chest."

"What if I change my skincare routine?" "I'm too damn short."

"I have the body of an adult woman but the voice of a post-pubescent boy, therefore I am undesirable.”

In short, I no longer have things to distract me from the fact that my body causes a dull and persistent ache in my soul. All my life, I've treated my body as a vehicle to transport my mind. It's how I've coped with my dysphoria. I don't want to do that anymore. Not when I finally love myself enough that I want to create a better relationship with my body. I lie awake every night fretting about every cent in my account. I have just under a year to save up at least 12 grand but considering my financial situation, how can I be so sure I can make it? My savings are around the halfway mark, but it took me about two years to get there. How will my family and I cope when the day comes and we don’t have enough money to pay the fees? I try to open up about this to my family, but I don’t think they know how to help me. I don’t know how I want to be helped, either. I don’t expect solutions from them, just the assurance that they’ll be there for me. But I think they revert to trying to fix things. Or worse, they shift the focus to those less fortunate than us so I can shut up about my problems and no one will have to think about it. I don’t want to discredit those in rougher situations than me. We are all trying our best to survive, and I respect how everyone is coping. I just want them to understand that I’m really not okay. And that it’ll take a while for me to be okay. They don’t have to fix me; they just have to continue loving me like they usually do. Even if I can’t show that I love them back. By Anonymous

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Y O U My A Rhouse E HERE Just before semester started, I moved out of my tiny studio apartment and into a dodgy one-bedroom duplex. Now that I’m stuck inside indefinitely, I am so fucking glad I opted for space when I moved. My place is still a shoebox, but unlike my studio, I have separate rooms for eating, sleeping, and studying. When I lived in my studio, I would make dinner a foot away from my bed and study in between my sheets. It drove me a little crazy because my sleeping space was also my active focusing space. So now I take great pleasure in walking more than two metres away from my bed to an awkward exposed-brick alcove where I study. The brick wall has a huge crack in it which the cockroaches use as their own front door. The window is dirty in a way that you can’t wipe away. I’m still immensely happy to have a separate, demarcated space to do productive stuff. As for my kitchen, it’s totally infested with mice. My cat is a shit hunter and I can’t bring myself to kill them when I know I’ll leave once my lease is up. I seal everything in glass jars and don’t leave anything on my bench for more than a few minutes of food prep. Nevertheless, I actually have an oven in this place! It was illegal to have one in my studio, so I had to microwave everything. I’m still getting used to not burning everything and worrying about whether the mice are under the oven when I use it. My bathroom is tiled with pool tiles. My real estate’s plumber has had to visit a few times (shitty tiny copper piping) and doesn’t find this as amusing as I do. It’s totally a move I would make when decorating my Sims’ bathroom back in 2013. Sometimes the toilet doesn’t flush at all. I can’t find a positive aspect of this bathroom other than the fact that the pool tiles are funny. Lastly, I had a good twenty neighbours when I lived in my studio. There was a couple next door that argued a lot and a guy below me who watched conspiracy theory videos about the United States all day. Everyone was really nice though. My property manager was total dad material and would tell me he was doing work on the roof so I could leave the blind open a little and he could say hi to my cat. I felt comforted by the number of kind people around me in my first rental. On my first day in my current place, I had an awkward encounter with my new neighbour. We live under the same roof but have separate entries and no way of entering each other’s space. I was coughing heaps from using cleaning chemicals in the apartment and she instructed me to call an ambulance and go to hospital. I was like, totally fine, but she’s a nurse with a heart condition. When I didn’t call an ambulance, I think she didn’t feel listened to. When she found out I had a cat, she told me I was breaking my lease agreement. I insisted I wasn’t. She asked if my cat would “litter all over the yard.” I told her my cat was an indoor cat. She told me to “make sure it doesn’t get out.” It sounded like a threat. I don’t take well to being told what to do. So, my first impression of my new neighbour was that she was a bit mean. It’s taken being in isolation right next to her to learn that she’s really not and I had judged her a bit REGULARS | 31

quickly. She’s definitely bossy and I’m definitely irreverent, but we have a good routine where she pulls out the bins and I pull them back in. The other day we had a very honest conversation about toilet paper and we split a packet of sweet tender TP. I also work from home at the moment. I work in admin so it’s all happening on my dodgy lil’ Lenovo laptop. I didn’t buy an internet router when I moved out of my parents’ house because I figured I could hotspot myself or go to the library. At the moment, I’m chewing through extreme amounts of data to keep up with uni and work. I don’t feel sorry for myself; I feel sorry for anyone studying online with the NBN. My work involves taking calls from customers. I lost my shit when I took an abusive call sitting on my homely blue couch. After that shift, I made a distinct effort to only do work in one part of my house that I couldn’t see from any other room. By keeping work separate from my relaxation zones, I’m definitely more mentally healthy. At the end of every shift, I imagine myself walking to the bus that gets me home from work. Gotta spiritually detach from shitty customers too. I’m really glad I moved out of that studio. My new place has been roach and mice infested, and my bathroom is pool-tile blue. I didn’t expect to be spending every bloody day inside for months on end, but I’m so grateful for the space I can afford, and even more grateful that I’m getting enough hours at work to pay for it for the next few weeks. By Elizabeth Laughton

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Am I a Bad Person for Using an Applicator Tampon? In modern society, it often comes to question how environmentally friendly your choices are. Plastic straws are a BIG no go, and if you rock up to a café ordering takeaway coffee without a keep cup, there is a high chance of being publicly shunned. However, when discussing the code of ethics in being environmentally sustainable there is often a blurred area, where it becomes more difficult to answer, “Am I being environmentally responsible?” This confusing and complex area is called menstruation. Menstruation is an unavoidable occurrence that has dawned on women around once a month since the beginning of time. However, it occurred to me the other day just how much plastic each period involves. Whether you choose to use tampons, pads, or more environmentally friendly options like menstrual cups or period underwear, the fact remains that waste is unavoidable. Statistics show that the average Australian female will use around 10 000 to 12 000 menstrual products in their lifetime.

A Brief History of Menstruation

In ancient Greece, menstrual blood was a symbol of negativity. The closest modern interpretation would probably be female baggage. The blood itself was deemed bad, sometimes even poisonous. It was something that needed to be gotten rid of, to maintain balance and health. Later in history, periods became more commonly recognised, however, the negative connotation stuck. Historian Susan Strasser explains that women in the pre-20th century US were subject to a “waste not, want not” mentality. They would use leftover scraps to form a pad-like absorbent during their time of the month. It was in 1921 when the first packet of Kotex was made available over the counter, marketed as a “sanitary napkin.” Kotex was made with leftover Cellucotton, which was used during World War I for medical bandages. Tampons were produced around the same time and became highly popularised by women in sport. These sanitary products are the earliest forms of what we all still use today. It’s amazing how far we have come in terms of the design and invention of sanitary products. We now have the luxury of choosing by style, size, and brand. Personally, when it comes to choosing my sanitary product of choice, I tend to go for ease and comfort. For many years I was terrified of tampons. The very concept of them freaked me out. I attempted and failed to figure them out numerous times until the day I discovered applicators. The holy grail of menstruation. Since that day I have continued to use them. I have always been conscious of the environmental impact of using that extra bit of plastic, however, after years of using pads and feeling once again like a child in a nappy, I decided to push those thoughts aside and live in ignorant bliss to the environmental impacts. However, reflecting now as an ‘adult,’ I feel as though it is my responsibility to research and explore my other options. So, I decided to test them out.

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A Diva Cup Contrary to its name, a diva cup, also known as a menstrual cup, is not a glamourous device that emits Beyoncé songs when opened. It is a bell-shaped cup that sits in the vaginal canal and collects blood. It is often chosen as an environmentally preferred option as it can be washed with boiling water and then reused. When thinking about inserting this device into my most sacred delicate area, I must admit the fears of my 13-year-old self looking at a tampon for the first time came flooding back. After watching a few YouTube tutorials, and ultimately hyping myself up, it was time. Inserting the cup was not as challenging as I had first thought. It was a little uncomfortable but not painful. Once in place, I could not feel the cup at all. The diva cup can stay in place for up to 12 hours, significantly longer than a tampon or pad. This aspect, along with its environmentally friendly factors, is one of the bigger selling points. Verdict: I believe this is a great option for women who want to take that next step in being environmentally responsible. Personally, I cannot see myself using this regularly at this current time, however, I am interested in trying it out a few more times. One downside I noticed, is the process of changing it hygienically in a public space, aka work or uni. Overall rating 8/10

Period Underwear Designed like a pad, period underwear has a built-in absorbent layer that collects blood and protects against leakage. It varies per individuals' period and flow; however, it is suggested they are changed around every 2 hours. The perks of this option are that you can wash them whenever and however many times you want, as they are completely and easily reusable. Verdict: When watching ads on television for period underwear I always thought they were a joke and couldn't possibly work. However, after trying them, and getting used to them (which I admit took a while) I understood the choice. They are quite a simple and easy choice, just like wearing a normal pair of underwear. The only cons that came to mind are the fact that again like a pad, you can’t help but feel like an infant learning basic toilet needs. The short time in which you must change them was also a factor that I personally did not like. I also found myself constantly checking if they had leaked, however in those first few hours I can confirm they did not. Overall rating 6.5/10

What Now? After my experiments, I must admit that I feel more aware of my options. It’s easy enough to say that you want to change or are going to change to a more environmentally safe option, however, when it comes to actually doing it, the process of changing can be quite daunting. I must admit in full honesty that I will be sticking to my applicator tampons for the time being, however, I urge everyone to experiment and test out their options because you can’t possibly make an informed judgment until you’ve tried them. In the future, I would like to fully commit to changing over to a diva cup, but for the time being, I do not feel as though I am ready to make the complete switch. That does not necessarily make me a bad person. As a millennial it is hard to live up to the environmental standard that is constantly pushed upon us. Whilst I am a conscious consumer, it is impossible to be the perfect consumer and truly live up to these expectations. It is all about doing as much as you can where you can. I believe things like menstruation should be your choice. Ultimately, you should not feel bad or judged about which sanitary product you use. Periods are a necessary evil. You should choose whatever you are comfortable with in this uncomfortable time, because at the end of the day, girls bleed, boys don’t. And it sucks. By Ella Scott

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Guess Who’s Coming to Dinner? When we could still congregate with people outside of our household, I was invited to a gatho. The host was an acquaintance I had run into a few times at parties. I only knew one other person attending so I plus-oned my girlfriend. My girlfriend and I rocked up late because I had an afternoon shift. We knew it would be a bit awkward because we couldn’t just slide into this gatho – we would have to be introduced to everyone. Nevertheless, I was determined to do something out of my social comfort zone. We were going to attend and stay for a couple of hours. When we arrived, the host came out to greet us. They instructed me to take off my “dyke boots” before entering the house. I laughed awkwardly but didn’t fuss because I had called them “dyke boots” in front of the host before. They then shuffled us into their living room, gestured to me and my girlfriend, and announced to the room, “these are the lesbians!” They said the word lesbian with the inflection of a Monty Python punchline. Yiiiiiikes. I remember awkwardly smiling and waiting for the host to actually introduce us by name. It didn’t happen. The onus was then on us to assert that we had names and tell everyone where we went to uni and where we live and what we do. It was obvious that some in the room had put up a wall and were treating us cautiously. No one moved to offer us chairs; instead, we squeezed into one armchair together. The host asked us if we wanted to play Cards Against Humanity as “separate entities or one person.” I was already desperate for some kind of comic relief. I said we would play separately and made some joke about how no one would want to see our bodies merging into one being. As I made this comment, I clasped my hands together and intertwined all my fingers – like I was holding my own hand. I meant it like some Freaky Friday sci-fi shit; as if our bodies were merging like a horrific science experiment. It was perfectly innocent. The host raised their eyebrows and said something along the lines of, “need to know basis.” Someone coughed and another awkwardly giggled. It wasn’t until the game started that I realised everyone thought I had made a joke about my girlfriend and I scissoring. The game moved slowly. I don’t really enjoy Cards Against Humanity (something about the casual racism and sexism). A card about Draco Malfoy’s asshole was played. Everyone laughed so I pulled an adequately engaged face by widening my eyes and looking away. The host pointed at my girlfriend and I and asked, in front of the group, “Why are the lesbians pulling a face about Draco Malfoy’s asshole? Have you got an opinion on mens’ bums?” Five minutes into this function and we had been introduced as the lesbians, had my words spun into a sexual joke at our expense, and were now being interrogated about our opinions on Draco Malfoy’s asshole. It’s safe to say I wasn’t pleased. I was humiliated. We left early and unpicked the whole event in the car ride home. We had been a sex joke from the moment we entered the room. 36 | FEATURES

I’ve spent a decent amount of time becoming me. A fair bit of that time has been dedicated to accepting and understanding my lesbianism. An even greater amount of that time has been spent reading my friends’ crush’s astrology charts, crying to Harry Styles, loving my family, and naming my cat different variations of “Baby.” I spend 100% of my day being more interesting than my sexuality is alone. It’s a shame my sexuality managed to be more interesting than any other conversation that room could find. By Anonymous

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Finding Your Weird Fish:

Online Dating During a Worldwide Pandemic There is no doubt that our world has become a bit topsy-turvy in the last few months. Social isolation and distancing have become the new normal – in which we are forced to stay inside with our cats and it’s suddenly normal if I veer off the footpath onto the road to get away from a stranger. But whilst we’ve all been staring longingly out our windows, eating nothing but junk food and having Zoom meetings in our pyjamas, a digital platform continues to thrive: online dating. Dating apps are the way to go if you want to meet your new love bug. With an estimated 91 million people across the globe using apps like OkCupid, Tinder, and Hinge. My own experience has ranged from “you’re lovely but not for me” to “no, I did not want to see a shirtless selfie of you, thanks.” While I am yet to delve back into the mysterious depths of online dating, I must admit I’m tempted by its convenience. Instead of a potentially awkward dinner date, now you can have a virtual date without having to move your sleeping cat. "There's so many awesome things about having a first date by video chat," Carissa Bennett tells the ABC. "For starters, you can wear your pyjama pants and do it from the comfort of your own couch." Apps have taken advantage of this new surge by adding in additional features for users to enjoy. Some suggest ideas for your quarantine date, how to video date and my personal favourite from Hinge: dating backgrounds. Now you can have a lovely Zoom date by a picturesque beach, a cosy forest get-away, or with a handsome bartender at your every beck and call. Hinge knows how to please its users. While the prospect of online dating may sound like a breeze, there can be some downsides. Clinical psychologist Dr Maria Scoda, warns that your online relationship may not work in real life. "Once they meet in person, everything they've created may fall flat," she tells the ABC. "I know people don't want to hear that, but it's a possible reality." This is a fear almost everyone has with online dating, including Jessica Lee Cookland, a Macquarie University alumnus. “We went to watch a movie at an outdoor cinema,” she says. “He seemed so sweet, he even brought a bottle of wine and popcorn... until the movie started.” Jessica knew that things were getting weird when he started asking her fifty questions. “Turned out the fifty questions lasted much longer than I thought they would, and we missed the entire movie.” Jessica quickly left as soon as she was able to, “let’s just say we never went on a second date!” Now, I’ve had my fair share of bad first dates, but initially getting the date can sometimes prove 38 | FEATURES

to be the challenge. Profiles on apps can be a minefield to navigate. If you’re looking for a guy, you should expect to see countless shirtless selfies, a cute dog/cat/baby, travel pics with the boys and a record of their “exact” height. So you’ve swiped through all those profiles and have a potential match. Now what? Well, just start talking! Dr Scoda says that virtual dating can allow people to ease into a conversation resulting in a deeper connection. “Even just talking about the mundane things together, describing your day or week, that's part of a normal relationship," she says. Whilst I have been unlucky in the online dating world, there are some out there who have found real love. Years after her awkward movie date, Jessica found her husbandto-be on Tinder. “My first date with Ian was at the beach. We had a drink together whilst watching the sunset and talked about cats.” Jessica had never met someone who liked cats more than her. “I knew from that moment he was special,” she says. Finding love online may seem like a miracle, but just like Jessica, more and more people are using dating apps to land a serious relationship. A study conducted by the University of Sydney followed the dating behaviours of 365 app users. Out of the participants, 87 percent believed that apps gave them "more opportunities to find prospective partners." Dr Michell Hobbs, who led the study, agreed that courtship on apps was changing. “Most people are not using the technology merely for increased sexual promiscuity but are in fact seeking to find a potential long-term partner,” he says. So, should you try online dating? The short answer, yes. Though my search continues, online dating is a fun and exciting way to learn more about yourself and what you’re looking for. You also meet some pretty cool people along the way too. “For me, online dating turned out to be a great way to meet a bunch of new, weird and fun people,” says Thomas Noss, a current student at Macquarie University. “It’s become the new standard for sorting through a sea of weird fish until you find the fish you like. I just kept searching until I found the type of weird that was compatible with my own.” Online dating can be a weird, fun and crazy experience. I met some lovely people there and made some real, genuine connections. Want to meet someone new? I say go for it! I know I’ll be giving it another shot; those Hinge backgrounds are far too tempting. But please stay safe, know your boundaries and remember to date from home! by Aylish Dowsett

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Oh What a Shame… Shame is a funny thing, aye? You’re walking around having the time of your life, then bam! An unbearable weight drops upon you – it’s hard to breath, speak, all you know is that the pressure’s mounting. So little Atlas that you are, you carry the weight of the world on your shoulders and pretend it ain’t shit. I mean you do this every day so it must be easy right? According to Thomas Scheff shame is an inherently invisible pressure, even going as far to describe it as “ubiquitous.” It's omnipresent and invisible, which means that such a force is magnified for populations that already struggle to maintain their footing in the world, namely minorities such as the LGBT+ community. This has some massive impacts on physical and mental health, and the ability of the individuals to interact within society. Due to the massive scope of this nature, we’re just going to focus on the effect of shame in the LGBT+ community. Now you might ask me why I should have any right to speak about shame? Or even shame in the LGBT+ community. What a great question. So here we go bucko, it’s story time. I’ve had my fair share of shame. I’ve been ashamed of so many things: my sexuality, my father, myself, pretty much a bloody lot of shame alright. I was ashamed that at 15-years-old, I kept a stash of money in my dresser in case father dearest needed to “borrow” some money. It was like a tithe, a bribe being paid so that I could pretend to be safe, pretend I wasn’t afraid. Maybe afraid of violence, that endless and omnipresent anger father seemed to exude, but that wasn’t his style. He preferred a colder, harsher abuse – a sort of wintery negligence. When I was older it shifted into myself. The first sixteen years of my life I was a bloody golden child (I even had blonde hair to match the charade). I was sweet, kind and charming – a pretty little picturesque statue cut from marble. I couldn’t be queer right? I mean how could I be? It was a blemish, a stain I couldn’t wash off my hands. I didn’t understand who I was or how capricious life is. This was something that I couldn’t strangle out of existence and my queerness was breaking the charade I’d used to avoid my home life. I was scared and I hated myself for it. Alright enough about me (sorry, my narcissism was kicking in). To point out the obvious, there’s already a constant pressure on the LBGT+ community. Homophobia, which is a terrible way of hiding discrimination behind the concept of an “uncontrollable fear,” is a constant presence in most of the LGBT+ communities’ life, be it expressed in overt or subtle ways. Academic writer, Elizabeth McDermott found that homophobia lead to distress (yea I coulda guessed that) which, in her words, eventuated into “suicide attempts, self-harm practices, risky sexual practices and excessive drinking and drug-taking.” Whilst McDermott points out that this isn’t the case for everyone, it seems to correlate with rising individualistic shame-avoidance strategies within LGTB+ youth. Whilst all this is pretty much what we’d expect to find, it goes even deeper to an inability to reach out for help at a community, institutional and national level. Considering the history between the LGBT+ community and pretty much every institute or support centre, the expectation of receiving no help is sadly warranted. Even though things are getting better, it still isn’t quite there. Now to the main performance, shame. Merely the concept of homophobia leading to LGBT+ youths to partake in shame-avoidance strategies points out this concept of underlying shame. Just as Mr. Ubiquitous and Invisible Shame (AKA Scheff) argued, the concept of shame and recursion leads to silence – such as not seeking out assistance or support – and that this concept should be further studied and applied to social problems. Shame is magnified for LGBT+ individuals, they’re already contending with external and

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internalised homophobia and other forms of social isolation. Compound them all together and you get a nasty concoction of vulnerability and self-destructiveness. Assistant Professor in Health Studies at the American University, Ethan Mereish, writes his view that, “shame silences, disempowers, and isolates marginalized people,” it makes sense that this would directly and disproportionately affect minority groups. Homophobia and discrimination on the basis of sexuality, gender, etc is an attempt to shame the individual. In my experience of being the only ‘out’ person at school, which I can say was definitely not my choice (a story for another time), it is isolating. I have been told to my face, by my friend I might add, that I was “only here to tick boxes.” Cute right. I was the ‘gay’ kid at school and that made me inherently different, I wasn’t part of the majority – it was a “hey, look your sexuality is the only thing that defines you” situation. To the point where when we went on group trips and found out that we’d have to share beds, it seemed necessary to make the joke “at least none of us are gay” (now that I think about it maybe the moral of the story is to chose better friends than me). Look, I can joke about it and make fun of my life all I like, but it was extremely lonely and I felt like I couldn’t do or say anything. The point is this, LGBT+ people do experience shame just like anybody else, but it’s magnified by all the other pressures this world seems to lay on them. It’s compounded with external and internalised homophobia, the subtle discrimination, the isolation and marginalising that for some reason seems to be the staple of LGBT+ youths’ experiences. At the end of the day shame is a terrible feeling for anyone, but for the LGBT+ community it can be seen as a factor leading to disproportionate levels of depression, anxiety, substance abuse and other issues. Shame is something we must consider if we are to move forward and deal with these issues in broader society. No one should ever have to question their worth, no one should ever feel ashamed for who they are. I should also remind you that this piece is entirely based on my subjective lens and my interpretation of the evidence. by Rhys Smith

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Sexuality: The Hindu Experience Sexuality and sensuality are concepts which are not foreign to the South Asian imagination. Taken broadly, sexuality and the exploration of ‘sensualness’ within the South Asian historical and social experience is both broadly understood, yet socially often suppressed. In India and some parts of South Asia, the long-standing Hindu traditions and cultural practices have often acknowledged the existence of a third gender: that of the Hijras or ‘Kinnar,’ as they often prefer to be called. ‘Kinnar’ society is deeply embedded with ancient creation myths, and stories which are rooted in the Hindu mythological tradition. They can be found in almost every South Asian country, with small but vibrant communities in Pakistan, Bangladesh and Nepal. Despite this, the ‘Kinnar’ experience discrimination, verbal and physical violence and overt and politically motivated hatred on a daily basis. This is despite their often integral role in smaller communities and their position as an officially recognised third gender. Throughout history, sexuality has played a significant role in South Asian communities and within the wider South Asian sphere. It certainly continues to, albeit unspoken, underneath the thick veneer of socially conservative mainstream Indian society. Hindu culture specifically is both conservative and extremely progressive. In its entirety, Hinduism provides a basis for both worldviews to exist in cohesion with each other. In terms of sexuality too, Hinduism is a remarkably progressive religious and cultural tradition, with texts like the ‘Kama Sutra’ forming an important component of the wider spiritual characteristic that defines Hindu belief. It can be said that the experience of the ‘Kinnar’ mirrors much of the attitude of modern Hindu families toward sexuality, in that the exploration of sexuality is evident though is largely treated as something that is ‘swept under the rug’ despite its salience. In my experience, sexuality was always something that appeared in our legends and was something that was also explicitly discussed in certain texts and stories. Though it was something the often socially conscious and conservative modern Indian families would not discuss. At least openly. Much like most families in western contexts, sexuality isn’t often the topic of discussion around the dinner table, and for good reason. But, does that mean it shouldn’t be? Why shouldn’t sexuality and specifically the role of gender and of identity formation for young gay, bisexual, lesbian or other queer people be openly discussed by South Asian families? It could come down to the fact that within the South Asian community, there lives another tradition. The tradition of silence. Young queer South Asian teens and adults often go their entire lives without discussing their sexual orientation with the people closest to them; their families. This can be detrimental to their psychological wellbeing in more ways than one cares to imagine. Suicide is a common consequence, as is self-harm. What does this all go to say of family roles in the South Asian context? That discussion and open dialogue are needed now to help sustain strong familial ties. That openness around the role of sexuality in Hindu myth is discussed with adults and within friendly circles. Communication born from a common interest and observance of Hindu religion and culture can bear fruits that mean families are bonded far stronger than ever before. Parents and their children have a role to play. Listen, discuss, learn and grow. Perhaps then the tides of uncertainty and of loss and deprivation can be turned, and greater communal resilience is achieved. At least as much as can be used to reveal the plight of communities in distant lands who suffer every day and continue to go unwanted. Change must first begin at home; family is the basis for this change, and one whose potency is beyond measure. by Navishkar Ram

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Female Desire in Literature Why are we so afraid of female desire? Read almost any classic book and you will find a less-than creative characterisation of a woman painted either as the ‘Blessed Virgin’ or whorish devil – not too much in between. These female tropes aren’t so shocking when reminded just how old some of these texts are, however, that excuse starts to run dry when the same images show up again, and again and again. The Classic Virgin. This trope is not shocking, considering the whole ‘Mary-mother-ofJesus’ thing. Most books throughout literature will contain almost some variant of this trope. From the emphasis placed on Miranda’s ‘purity’ in The Tempest by William Shakespeare, to the characterisation of Lucy as a model of innocence in Bram Stoker's Dracula, it’s clear the virgin trope is perseverant. Almost as persistent as the accompanying depiction of women as whores. In Dracula, Lucy is the embodiment of female virtues of chastity, purity, and innocence, which are threatened by Dracula’s innate horror and impurity. As soon as Lucy is marked by the vampire, a shift takes place, Stoker flips Lucy’s character into a voluptuous woman with an unapologetically open sexual desire. Texts such as Shakespeare’s Richard III reveal the prescriptive notions of silence and obedience that women are expected to abide by, and on a surface level, women do. These often ‘flat’ and two dimensional characters provide a clear insight into the preconceived notions of female virtue, shaped by the idealised fantasies of the often male authors. Emphasis placed on women’s roles as mothers and wives removes any discussion of female sexuality. If female desire is mentioned it’s almost certainly seen in a problematic state. The whole ‘Madonna-Whore’ complex is a tale as old as time and still highly prevalent FEATURES | 43

today, playing crucial roles in texts such as The Handmaid's Tale by Margaret Atwood and The Bloody Chamber by Angela Carter. This idea of women as ‘whores’ is a highly unoriginal trope which is almost always contrasted against a Madonna-esque character. In Edmund Spenser’s ‘Faerie Queene,’ Duessa is seen as the embodiment of falsehood and a master of manipulation and disguise, with some not so subtle references to St Johns Babylonian Whore, thrown in for good measure as well. As a parallel Spenser uses Una who is described as “...so pure and innocent, as that same lambe,” whilst also emphasising the importance of a good female muse for a male poet and his work. The image of females as whores further stifles any discussion of female desire, reinstating the belief that any form of female sexuality is inherently bad. To give a slightly more creative spin to the whore trope, the image of women as witches is often used. ‘The Witch’ as a trope has historical roots, which are prevalent in medieval society texts and through the infamous Salem Witch Trials. Texts such as The Scarlet Letter and Macbeth highlight this highly dramatic reaction to female desire – tying witchcraft not only to the trope of the whore but also women’s intellect. Once again female sexuality is bounded into a restricted and stereotypical label, where female characters are easily distinguishable as either good or bad. This good or bad stereotype seems to be solely based upon women’s sexual agency. That’s not to say all great literature is drawn from these stereotypical female tropes. Literature has also seen some of the biggest developments against these same ideologies, with authors and texts persistently pushing to reclaim female sexual agency. Pushing against these narrow minded representations of female sexuality is not necessarily restricted to modern writers. Yes, the numerous feminist revolutions have undoubtably reshaped and rewritten the role of female sexuality in literature but there have been numerous outliers throughout history who have been given well-earned credit as of late for their understanding and representation of female desire. With authors such as Marie de France, Mary Wollstonecraft and Virginia Woolf all playing integral roles in the development of female representation. So where does this leave us? From an outlook at the representation of women’s sexuality throughout literature, it is obvious that tropes such as the virgin-like Madonna, the whore, or the witch are prevalent. These representations play a significant factor in the lack of female desire presented in texts and the knock-on effect it has on society’s understanding of female sexuality. A finer look at literature does reveal the slow, yet steady push against these tropes, with authors such as D.H. Lawrence and his infamous novel Lady Chatterley’s Lover redefining the representation of female desire. Where to next? by Madi Scott

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Pick a side That’s my girlfriend in the picture. We’re looking for a third. Bisexual means two haven’t you heard? I could never date you. I’d feel insecure. You’re just gay and looking for a cure. Babe I’m fine with it – let’s have a three-way. Just another straight cis girl, wanting the time of day. You’re straight, you’re gay. It’s just a phase. Probably slept with so many people it’s all a haze. Bisexuality is discriminatory. You’re just a fantasy. Sleeping with the enemy. This is not a real identity. Too straight to be gay, too gay to be straight. The B in LGBT is hated as of late.

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You.

One of these days you’ll stretch your branches toward the sky, into the clouds and sway. Breathing in the moments of clarity they contain. As the sun sets, you’ll bask in the shades of sunset, knowing that with a final hue, a final word, its light can no longer blind you. You’ll feel a cool breeze rustling your edges, smell the promise of another day and know, Hidden in the darkness of night, has been your heart. Your art. You’re home.

by Krystle Alice

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RuPaul’s Drag Race Season 12 For those not familiar with this legendary work of television mastery, RuPaul’s Drag Race is a reality competition show where drag queens compete for the title of America’s Next Drag Superstar. Think Project Runway meets America’s Next Top Model meets So You Think You Can Dance meets Shark Tank. I’m not even joking. These queens are expected to slay anything from runways and celebrity impersonation to marketing a product and creating a set of high fashion garments. As the show entered its twelfth season, many were wondering (myself included) whether the producers could keep it new and interesting. But I can assure you, this season they stepped their pussy up. Needless to say, spoiler alert. You’ve been warned. Starting with a two-part premiere, Season 12 presented us with 13 sickeningly talented performers. It was hard to see the weak link this season, but we didn’t have to wait long till the drama started. One of the contestants, Sherry Pie, was disqualified before the premiere even aired as she faced allegations of catfishing and predatory behaviour. This presented quite a challenge for the production team, as Sherry has to date won two challenges and appears to make it to the top 4. Her airtime has been almost completely erased, which is quite disconcerting when she wins the challenges and makes it super awkward because she does REALLY well. We’ve been treated to heavy-handed editing that overtly removes her from the episode, with some arguing this only serves to mystify her more and reinforce the scandal. You want to like her, especially after that Gay’s Anatomy performance, but then you remember she is an alleged sex offender. Ugh. Moving on, we come to Miss Gigi Goode. At only 21, Gigi is one of the youngest contestants on the show yet has managed to snag three challenge wins so far, and it’s only halfway through the competition. For some perspective, winners of previous seasons have won two or three challenges. Season 11’s winner Yvie Oddly only won a single challenge. Gigi is a clear front runner and she has delivered some spectacular moments. From

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her stunning looks to her dry Snatch Game character, Maria the Robot, Gigi has shown herself to be a formidable competitor. Aside from anything else, it shows that when young queer people have a supportive family, they flourish. Who would have thought? Aside from episode 3, this is one of the best seasons of Drag Race ever. The acting challenge in episode 5 ‘Gays Anatomy’ was one of the best in the show’s history. Ru and the judges were splitting hairs that week and six queens were in the top. For the first time I found myself laughing out loud to a Drag Race acting challenge. Aiden Zhane’s Mae West inspired ghost and Jan’s physical comedy was everything. I know you guys must sleep on mattresses, but do you know what the judges sleep on? That’s right, Jan. Simply Jan. As if by some cruel twist of show biz fate, Jan is once again overshadowed by Marcia (or whoever happens to win that week). One of the most gag-worthy moments was in episode 7, where the queens performed in Madonna: The Unauthorised Rusical. For some perspective, Jan has a BFA in Musical Theatre and her voice is so good it would make the Pope stop defending George Pell. That’s how talented she is. As I write this, Jan’s verse in the Rusical is stuck in my head and I encourage you all to watch the performance. Jan was spectacular, her voice was the by far the best out of the group and she embodied Madonna flawlessly. Little old me should have known by the edit that this episode was, in the words of Alyssa Edwards, rigger morris. The edit showed Jan as shining brighter than the rest, a pillar of talent and professional-level musical theatre. Poised to win. That was the warning sign. So, as Jan beamed on the mainstage after a killer runway and her Broadway level performance, RuPaul looked her in the eye and said something to the effect of, “you killed it Jan, you’re safe” before turning to Gigi and grinning “Gigi, condragulations, you’re the winner of this weeks challenge.” Now, as you can see from above, I’m a Gigi fan. Saying that, I won’t stand for robbery, and Jan was burgled. Big Time. Watch for yourself

and tell me Jan wasn’t robbed. That’s right, you can’t. But I will say one thing, it was darn good reality television. Then we have Brita. IF you didn’t already know, she is from New York City and was voted entertainer of the year at some point. She talked a big game entering the show and I’m going to be honest, I really believed her. Too bad she was a bit shit. But what made it worse was the utter delusion that followed her around like a dark cloud. In the end she lip-synched for her life three times, losing on the third. In the design challenge, Brita thought she looked amazing, when in reality, she looked like a stuffed teddy bear in a condom. I’m sorry, but that was not a pineapple Brita. When she found herself in the bottom week after week, she didn’t really focus on the critiques that could have helped her improve. Instead Brita bullied and attacked poor Aiden Zhane. Because somehow it was Aiden’s fault the judges liked her better than Brita. In the Gay’s Anatomy challenge, Aiden sat through what I can only expect was several painstaking minutes of LITERAL SPITTING, as Brita’s saliva leapt from her mouth. If the measure for quality acting is the amount you spray it rather than saying it, Brita has several Academy Awards. Back to some quality queens, see Jackie Cox. The self-declared Persian Princess Next Door, Miss Cox (if you’re naughty) is one talented lady, if not a little attractive as a boy. There is one every season people and if you don’t believe me look for yourself. Even Miss

Vanjie tried to snap her up during her guest appearance. Jackie shone in the Snatch Game, where her performance of Lisa Renna was stellar. The first time I saw it I didn’t find it that funny but then I saw the actual Lisa Renna and what the fuck Jackie was amazing. Again, Gigi swooped in and took the win for her performance as Maria the Robot, but Jackie isn’t going anywhere with that star quality. That brings us up to date so far. I spend each week waiting for the next episode to drop and it’s kind of making quarantine fly by. I cannot recommend this show enough, get into it if you want to peek into the world of drag artistry and all the charisma, uniqueness, nerve and talent you could ever want. by Harry Fraser

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Animal Crossing: New Horizons It was around March when panic over the coronavirus began to truly be reflected in Sydney’s consumerist behaviour. Waves of stories hit the news of people hoarding supplies and emptying shelves faster than they could be restocked. I wasn’t among the panic-buyers making a mad dash for toilet paper or pasta. Instead, I panic-bought a Switch, and Animal Crossing: New Horizons. Hype over this game has been exponential. Reviewers singing praises over its charming aesthetic and therapeutic gameplay experience. The prospect of having one’s own island paradise, a haven cloistered away from the reality we are all currently dealing with, was extremely appealing to me. Explaining the mechanics of the game to someone that has never played it before is inherently funny as it sounds like all the worst parts of adulthood and capitalism jam-packed into a deceptively cute package. New Horizons series producer Hisashi Nogami himself struggled: “It was very difficult to explain to the promotional staff on how to promote it. How do you write a catchphrase for this game? It’s unprecedented!” Effectively you are placed on an island, forced to pay off loans to an opportunistic racoon called Tom Nook, and must wait to enjoy the fruits of your labour in real time. 1 game day = 1 real day. That means to get the absolute most out of this game, to experience all the seasonal events, and to complete your ‘Critterpedia’ of bugs and fish, you would need to play the game for at least 1 year cycle. Enormous debt and patience. What fun! Except that bizarrely, it is incredibly fun.

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Today I woke up, opened the game, and got excited over the fact that the leaves on the trees had started to yellow to an Autumn hue. The fact that a digital leaf changing colour fills me with joy, and what this reveals about my current mental state, is probably something best not examined too deeply. While this isn’t the challenging thrill most gamers seek, it’s the minutiae of details like this that make the game enjoyable. There’s no one to fight, nothing to beat, no big boss, no villain. The game objective, if there even is one, is self-improvement day-by-day. It’s about patience, delayed gratification, and the concept that the things worth having, and appreciating, take time. That said there is one very controversial way to ‘cheat’ the game. Crossers call this move ‘time-travelling.’ Effectively changing the date/time on your Switch will trick the game into thinking real time has passed. Whether or not a player decides to time travel reminded me of a famous psychological study created by Walter Mischel during the 1960s called the ‘Stanford marshmallow experiment.’ In this test, a young child between four to six years old would be sat down at a table with a marshmallow placed in front of them. If they could last 15 minutes without eating the marshmallow then they would be given a second. In the recreations of this experiment, the way the kids stare longing at the marshmallow, smell it, and break off little pieces of it to taste, makes those scant 15 minutes feel infinite. This is how I felt in the early stages of New Horizons and is why, despite my appreciation of a slow burn, I am also guilty of time travel. To read up further on this experiment I recommend reading Jonah Lehrer’s New Yorker article ‘Don’t!’ This article notes some of the initial conclusions Mischel drew from the experiment. He found that those with an inability to delay reward “seemed more likely to have behavioural problems, both in school and at home… struggled in stressful situations, often had trouble paying attention, and found it difficult to maintain friendships.” Modern recreations of this experiment did not yield the same results and failed to hold firm under the scrutiny of new research. My advice, try not to time travel in the game, but if you do, don’t feel too bad about it, sometimes it’s okay to have your marshmallow and eat it too.

There have been many Animal Crossing games prior to the release of New Horizons but none have achieved the same level of acclaim and cultural relevance. An obvious conclusion is that it comes down to timing. As the number of coronavirus cases continues to rise globally, and social distancing rules become increasingly strict, the perfect storm of stress, boredom, procrastination, and loneliness, was created. In the game various animals, known as villagers, move onto your island. They each have their own personalities, dreams, and quirks, allowing you to build a tight-knit community in-game. Outside of the game there’s also a community of players, sharing their uniquely customized islands, meme-able pet peeves, and discoveries. This heavy social aspect reflects why the game was conceptualised by its creator, Katsuya Eguchi, in the first place. In 1986 Eguchi moved from his hometown of Chiba 300 miles to Nintendo’s headquarters in Kyoto. He revealed his feelings of displacement and isolation to Edge Magazine: “Animal Crossing features three themes: family, friendship and community. But the reason I wanted to investigate them was a result of being so lonely when I arrived in Kyoto! Chiba is east of Tokyo and quite a distance from Kyoto, and when I moved there I left my family and friends behind. In doing so, I realised that being close to them – being able to spend time with them, talk to them, play with them – was such a great, important thing. I wondered for a long time if there would be a way to recreate that feeling, and that was the impetus behind the original Animal Crossing.” The circumstances under which Animal Crossing was created echo what many of us may be feeling today. For me playing the game has the added emotions of nostalgia and sentimentality. It was with horror that my mum came upon me holed up in my room having played New Horizons for several hours. It was a reversion to my younger childhood self and a sight that would have reminded her of the countless hours I spent playing Animal Crossing: Wild World and City Folk in primary school, and Animal Crossing: New Leaf in high school. Suffice to say my obsession with this game is unhealthy and lifelong. Out of curiosity I rummaged through my closet and unearthed my old DS and Animal Crossing: Wild World, which was released in 2005. Opening up the game I found my character, aptly named “Junior,” asleep in the attic, which is where you start the game. The name Junior was my younger self thinking she was clever because my initials are “jr.” I was expecting some crazy funny town name but apparently as a kid I was also a realist, so I’d named my Animal Crossing world “Sydney.” Screw escapism. In-game it’s 5:59am on January 1st and my town is blanketed in snow and covered in

weeds. Running through the game the first villager I come across is a purple duck called Mallary. “So,” she begins, “what do you want to bug me about this time?” My options of how to respond are, “I’m here to talk!” or “I don’t need you.” I opted for “I don’t need you,” because wow what a salty bitch. I gave things a second chance by talking to a Golden Retriever called Goldie. She casually asked for my blood type, remarked on the oddness of the question she had asked, and then said, “you’ll find out soon enough, Junior. I guarantee it.” My takeaway is that apparently Wild World was much more sinister than its later remakes and I love it. Briefly playing it also highlights just how far Animal Crossing has come in the 15 years since the release of Wild World, the first Animal Crossing game that I played. New Horizons has stunning graphics, something that the larger Switch screen highlights beautifully. There’s so much more to do in New Horizons than in any other Animal Crossing game; with the addition of crafting, countless customization options, and the fact that you can actually place furniture OUTSIDE – fans of the series will appreciate the significance of this last point. Tedious annoyances like having a tiny inventory with unstackable items have been taken out. Any past gripes I may have had have been tweaked to perfection in New Horizons. Despite these changes the game keeps the soul and feeling of playing its older instalments. Much about the game still feels unexplored and unknown. I’ve yet to run into a lot of series favourites like Kapp’n and Mr. Resetti. By embodying all the best elements of its predecessors it’s safe to say New Horizons is the holy grail of Animal Crossing games. If you haven’t played it already, I highly recommend it. by Jodie Ramodien

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Carole Fuckin Baskin A REVIEW OF NETFLIX’S HIT SERIES TIGER KING

It’s hard to really pinpoint why Tiger King is the singular best thing I’ve ever watched in my life. Maybe it’s the myriad of polygamous relationships? Maybe it’s Joe Exotic’s exceptionally outlandish aesthetic? Or maybe it’s the fact that this show featured a man getting his arm ripped off by a tiger and that was by far the least controversial part about it? In any event, Tiger King has quickly become an isolation phenomenon, and for good reason: it’s weirdly brilliant and highly problematic.

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If for some unholy reason you haven’t seen it yet, the series comprises of seven short episodes and follows the exploits of Joe Exotic. Currently in gaol, Exotic used to be the owner of a seemingly successful private zoo in Oklahoma, which was home to over 200 tigers and other big cats. He also ran for president of the United States and governor of Oklahoma, which is nothing if not an excellent commentary on the American political system. The central plot is the conspiracy that ended up landing Exotic in gaol… that he tried to hire someone to kill Carole Baskin, the owner of a rescue park for big cats who was dedicated to shutting down his zoo.

Now this isn’t exactly what one would call a well-made documentary series. There doesn’t appear to be much of a coherent plot. Each episode jumps from subplot to subplot and raises enough questions and conspiracies to land you in therapy. It was disguised as a documentary about big cat preservation but really doesn’t focus on the animals at all, nor does it make any real important points about their treatment. The animals feel like more of a subplot to the real drama: the batshit crazy people who look after them. The documentary focuses more on the weird-beyond-comprehension lives of these big cat owners and their dodgy deals and shady business. There’re a few lines on a black screen at the end showing some statistics about big cat ownership in the United States, seemingly sending a message about the practice and its issues. However, it would be misleading to say that is the main focus of the series. I’ve thought about this a lot and the reason I think Tiger King is so compelling is that it is essentially extreme reality television, dressed up as a slickly produced docuseries. The series kind of runs like a Greek tragedy. We’re welcomed into the fantastical world of Exotic and his larger than life persona, that has seemingly crafted a successful empire of big cat glory. Then slowly, then almost all at once, it crumbles. With the final demise of Exotic leaving him destitute and in federal prison. But somehow with a much younger and semi good-looking husband. Go figure. Despite the show’s flaws in storytelling, as you’re watching it, it’s almost impossible to look away or even feign disinterest. The sheer number of jaw-dropping and ‘what the literal fuck’ moments is beyond comprehension. And while this is the series’ greatest strength, the sheer salaciousness of its subjects and their crazy lives, it’s also kind of the most worrying part about the series. Tiger King feels like an exposé that is somehow devoid of truth or meaning, despite the horrific and dramatic events taking place. The series seems like it’s squeezing its subjects dry of all the shameful and unbelievable parts of their lives, without seeking to understand them or the truth behind their various perspectives. In that respect, the series feels unresolved at the end, there’s been no clear revelations and no real understanding of the point of these people nor their lives. It’s voyeurism at its finest and is maybe just what we needed during this crazy global event but shouldn’t be mistaken for being a trustworthy nor particularly insightful narrative. A particularly disturbing part of the series was Exotic’s Carole Baskin rants. Now don’t get me

wrong, she definitely killed her husband. Like the woman is all kinds of crazy and her eyes scream murder. But the endless shots of his video tirades against her, wishing for her death, alongside footage of him shooting and blowing up lookalike dolls of her, made my stomach turn. To render a person, regardless of the conspiracy theories against them, down to a running monologue of ‘that bitch,’ left Baskin has somehow the least humanised character in the whole series. Exotic’s rants were never condemned nor really questioned in the series, and while Baskin is guilty of her own damaging rhetoric against Exotic, it’s hard to reconcile the violent and hateful imagery we see with the way Exotic is continually vilified throughout the documentary. The harsh painting of Baskin as the show’s main villain lacked nuance and was almost unreasonable. Yes, she’s running a dodgy zoo of her own, yes, she probably fed her ex-husband to tigers, yes, she is a tad unhinged. But that doesn’t excuse Exotic’s death threats and continual verbal abuse and harassment of her. Exotic may be interesting to watch and may somehow elicit some form of sympathy within us, but he is not the nice, neat victim to Baskin’s villain. The reality is a lot more complex than that, which is something the documentary fails to realise. Tiger King left a weird taste in my mouth. It was entertaining beyond belief and had me screaming in disbelief at the TV at certain points but was seemingly devoid of any real humanity. I know a lot more about Joe Exotic than I did at the start of the documentary, but I don’t know him any better. I don’t know what drives or motivates him or why he is the way he is. We get small snippets about his past but no real understanding of him as a person. So, while we’re positioned to feel sympathy for him, there is no real reason for us to do so. And that’s maybe why Tiger King feels so odd and disjointed, there’s nothing tying us to the characters on an emotional level. I mean that and Doc Antle’s weird sex cult (the photo of him and Britney Spears changed my life forever). Anyway, Carole did it and I will hear nothing more about it. by Katelyn Free

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ORLANDO Ah, Orlando—the film directed by Sally Potter and starring Tilda Swinton, an adaptation of Virginia Woolf’s novel by the same name—I see we meet again. When was it last we chanced upon this field of battle? Yes, I remember now, the distant year of 2012, the HSC, extension english, module: gender. Whilst we were foes then, locked in embittered combat, I now remember you as a companion. A pity you don’t live up to what you could be. Before I go on, full disclosure, I am a cis man and this is a film about gender and it’s intricacies throughout the ages, but I digress. I like this movie. Solid 7/10-ish. With its mise en scene, Tilda Swinton knocks it out of the park. Billy Zane is in it for five minutes and is named Marmaduke Bonthrop Shelmerdine (which delightfully obliterates my spell check). I could go on. But damn if this movie doesn’t reek with “high-literature.” It’s slow, there’s no central conflict, and I’m certain you need to have read the book to follow the film. It’s a movie you would watch in english classes but not in film classes. A film you can only really enjoy if you’re on its wavelength and ready for some gendered examinations of history. Even then, it lacks Woolf’s best musings from her book (which was written as a love letter/fanfic to her girlfriend, so big sapphic energy). Orlando centres around Orlando, a British nobleman who lives forever because the Queen told him to. Eventually down the line Orlando wakes up as a woman. Throughout the film we see the gender politics, and elaborate costumes from various periods of British history. And like history, this film takes forever to get anywhere. Orlando is a film best watched with a bunch of friends looking for a queer film. This way you can: • Talk over the boring bits (the 1650s could’ve been cut entirely), stan Orlando when they’re iconic (gets ghosted, goes into a weeks long depressive slumber in an opulent bed). • Boo Orlando when they don’t drink respect-women-juice (Orlando spends a good chunk of the movie as a primo fuckboi). • And just holler yikes in unison at some parts (“women are a beautiful romantic animal... apart from my wife”). I think Potter adapted the book too closely and in doing so ran out of time for the best parts of the novel. Towards the end of the novel Orlando continues their adventure on the SS Gender Theory, piloted by Simone de Beauvoir, into genderfluid and non-binary territories. In the film Orlando’s gendered trip has only two destinations, masc and femme.

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Perhaps this speaks to the zeitgeist of both works and is why I reckon it’s time for a remake. It’s a 1990s film, about a 1920s novel, about gender. The world has learned a lot about gender since then and now more than ever do we need Orlando to dunk some succulent gender theory upon us. I’d like a remake to be snappier, quicker, getting Orlando on the gender train sooner. Woolf’s writing had some whimsy to it and the film needs more of this whimsy. A couple of times Orlando looks at the camera knowingly and there should’ve been more of this. I swear in the book when Orlando changes genders the fey spirit of femininity dances about. I refuse to check this for myself however, I ain’t ever touching anything related to Year 12 again. Honestly I think what this movie needed most was the fun energy that’s in The Emperor’s New Groove. The opening where Kuzco does the whole “I bet you’re wondering how I got here” bit to the audience could just be copied directly into Orlando. Now please don’t get it twisted, I like this film. But that’s only because I read the book. I would only watch it again to spring it upon some friends and watch in delight as they react to what I know is coming. The same way you spring The Room on someone. With The Room you catch something new each watch. I already caught all of what Orlando has. Woolf’s magnum opus deserves a film that can stand on its own. Too many adaptations of literary masterworks stay far too hoity-toity and lose the spirit of what they are adapting. We need a bit more postmodern fancy in our favourite eternal genderfluid icon. In short, I think Homer said it best: Never, Sally Potter’s Orlando, never. I can’t love the button-down film like you. I want it all: the terrifying 17th Century, the dizzying 21st, and the creamy 19th. Sure, you might offend a few of the bluenoses with your postmodernism and queer theory – oh, you’ll never be the darling of the so-called “literary academics” who cluck their tongues, stroke their beards, and talk about “what’s to be done with this Virginia Woolf?” by Jay Muir

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I know it sucks having your birthday in quarantine, but it’s high-key not my problem Aries. Deal with it. Coles is still open so get a cake. At least you won’t have to share it.

You think you’re one of the Fab Five from Queer Eye. No Karen, you’re the person they make over.

This is a good time for you Gemini. Everyone is starting to think like you because due to our fading attachment to the outside world, we too have forgotten the fact that our actions have consequences.

CANCER

LEO

VIRGO

It’s time to incorporate drastic measures into your routine. You should maybe get some help with your personality disorder that is alienating your family during quarantine but perhaps making your bed every day is all the change you can manage.

You’re a human dump truck Leo, I don’t know how else to say it. You park yourself on everyone’s front lawn and that simply won’t do, not anymore.

Don’t let words get toxic or taint your inner thoughts. You might think it’s all COVID-19’s fault, but you’re avoiding the fact you have clinical depression.

LIBRA

SCORPIO

SAGITTARIUS

If you feel like a dormant volcano ready to blow, do it. Tell your upper middle-class family how they fucked you up. It won’t end well, but I just want to see what happens.

You are irritated by the lack of practical solutions to your problems. And by that, I mean the fact you cannot drown out your insecurities by having sex with randoms because of stage three lockdown. Oops.

You know what’s funny? When people do Ariana Grande impressions that don’t consist of just picking up something with your sleeve over your hand. You are so much better than that Sagittarius.

CAPRICORN

AQUARIUS

PISCES

Everyone wants you to fail this month. They want you to be a stifled, flickering flame in a wet cave. Maybe it’s the pandemic. It’s probably because you’re delusional and condescending.

It’s been a tough time lately Aquarius. I’m sorry you are not the latest reincarnation of Karl Marx, the legendary Britney Spears. I know you wanted to be. Just hang in there. Maybe shave your head idk.

You used to think you wore too much makeup to pull off a bowl cut, but I’m here to tell you Pisces, you’re the only person who wears enough.