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my name is Adrienne Ynna Alcala Arcilla

i saw my dream in riot grrrls the way they could take back everything that everyone said was not theirs i saw my dream in quentin tarantino films the way a woman could pull out a persons eyeball from its socket w/her bare hands i saw my dreams in films and music the way they made me feel validated and worth something and then i got a little dissapointed be-­ cause when i looked back at all my dreams, i realized they were all centered around white people and they weren’t really my dreams, they were someone else’s that I inherted cus I just didn’t know any better

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a term to describe solidarity a term to describe solidarity or biological similarity or biological similarity i always heard sisters could resemble power i always heard sisters could resemble power and grace and grace but i never got that, we always had so much but i never got that, we always had so much hate hate & & even even now now I I thought thought we’d we’d grow grow and and I I thought we’d learn thought we’d learn the importance of solidarity the importance of solidarity but the only thing we have in common is bio-­ but the only thing we have in common is bio-­ logical similarity logical similarity now there’s no use in trying now there’s no use in trying imagine all the relationships that are dying imagine all the relationships that are dying all the sisters that grow together all the sisters that grow together and all the others who grow apart and all the others who grow apart ourblood may come from the same place our blood may come from the same place but we are not but we are not

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f e e l i n g lost? f e e l i n g lonely? d o n ’ t belong?

Boogie Nights (1997)............................P.T Anderson Cry Baby (1990).......................................John Waters The Big Lebowski (1998)..................Coen Brothers Frida (2002)..............................................Julie Taymor Howl’s Moving Castle (2004)...........Hayao Miyazaki Fallen Angels (1995)............................Wong Kar Wai The Double (2013)........Richard Ayoade Amelie (2001)...........Jean-­Pierre Jeunet Romeo + Juliet (1996)......Baz Luhrman Hot Rod (2007).................Akiva Schaffer Akira (1988).................Katsuhiro Otomo Enter the Void (2010)..........Gaspar Noe ADVENTURE TIME AMERICAN HORROR STORY GRAVITY FALLS

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Some Things Never Seem to Fucking Some Things Never Seem to Fucking Work//Solange.........................................8 Work//Solange.........................................8 Pendulum//FKA twigs...........................14 Pendulum//FKA twigs...........................14 Teen Idle................................................22 Teen Idle................................................22