12 LIV BOYER '22
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wonder: is it definition alone ma kes me “great pleasure.” But the as to visualiz e? ply c sim cifi spe ned it defi kes is t ma Deligh of the definition what ity plic sim the is ter just got tired. Or wri intentionally vag ue? cribe it, or maybe the re than two words to des mo no thought. I find r ds ate nee gre e ling olv fee Maybe the , attempting to not inv ion nit defi of ity not. This plic sim moving, but my mind is This tiredness created a ’t involve the mind. I’m don t tha ks nt. tas me in mo ts n igh ow many of my del , and just be me in my m my past and my fut ure allows me to feel free fro lly wa lk around my since 6th grade. I typica ry evening without fail eve lk r it’s a random wa y the htl ano , nig a est for on e I’ve gon nder. One day it is the wa to ide dec I es ds of nights. etim kin I have two favorite neighborhood, but som up and dow n for hours. ay, vew dri r skin for a my you t on jus ss it’s t pne street, the nex have a thin layer of dam to ugh eno t jus , hes mid Hu h leaves on trees and bus The first is a wa rm one. clean. I can hea r the lus ling fee the in you d g roa vin a n lea r, is icy. Wa lking dow breeze to wash ove h the wind. The second ngs. wit ndi g rou vin sur mo s, ght thi bri te ly wri den I rustling as reflecting off the sud ts ligh et stre feet r the m you er fro und out re is a sof t press night, but it’s stil l light w hasn’t come yet and the t on plo a res w, the sno ing h wit join , ded sky The streets are floo fall carelessly from the to ue tin con es get for flak I lk Big snow. in me. When I wa from the imprint in the different form of ecstasy a ate cre se the the y onl like t, nts pas ure, no the ear th’s floor. Mome m of myself; with no fut life. I become a truer for different personas for g atin cre es, about everything in my liti rea te stories for ight in the idea of alterna all my days ma king new present. Sometimes I del moments. I cou ld spend ” ___ s wa I if at . “wh lity myself, hav ing the I get pul led back into rea rises faithfu lly, and thus myself. But alas the sun of yea r to do nter is my favorite time matter the weather. Wi no n y with every dow s bod r dow you win h the oug I drive with this, flushing ice thr ut abo y risk y abl ing thing. rib esc sat ind n is an especially isfy this. There’s something hav ing the windows dow ile wh the st h bla oug on t thr hea hes the pus breath. Turning rm, welcoming air skin the same time as wa re can r atu you per o ont tem lt in me nce air ere icy Having by this is: the diff ed for wa rd. What I mean wind create a new vents, thus you’re thr ust wa rmth and whipping of ng ngi cha The e. tim and ce spa the price I’m wil ling h rth oug propel you thr windows dow n is wo the g vin Ha e. stick tim in nt me and get ting caught in the rea lity, a single, silent, mo your hair flying around le, mp h exa oug For thr nt. ng me biti mo n and to pay for this silent wind rush over your ski g uriating, but feeling the nothing bet ter than drivin re’s the t of chapstick , which is inf tha is at g tin get I’m at wh lly ica Bas your hair is well worth it. yet in a coat. and ever since, it’s been t time in seventh grade, firs the a way I for in y ely bod itiv pet and d com I started running itively pressures my min pet com ng nni Ru mans d. Hu . m my min pure human nat ure another escape route fro of freedom embedded in t sor a s in g ate nin cre ne run of alo g ion the pushing sensat don’t appreciate; runnin . . This allows me to base ngs free bri be g to nin t, run hun to dom ve, free were built to mo takes away from the ing pet com of my ent on ct gem jud ns the effe what I was built to do. The ed and timed to others rui pressure of being compar sing out. Pure pas of ge ver the on What I mean by this is the ’re that’s almost as if you ling fee the but being alone oy on, enj g hin ally eci pus mind. I esp r body needs to keep You n. rtio exe l You can sica phy of g the body move for ward. thoughtlessness by way t energy towards makin tha er hes pitt pus the r, and hai ay, r aw you takes all thinking d brushing through tly ligh d. The wind you’ve create rt hen shi r pre you y com ’t wa can the , you feel, but h a little splash at the end wit n ent ow em r pav t you in we the lost pening, but you’re patter of your feet on push for ward. It’s all hap you as ch t. ma igh sto del r a you ly t presses agains moment, and that is tru . Nothing exists but this stil l snapshot of a second all a par t of our fut ure doesn’t exist, it’s everything in the past and t tha s why all of these tion thu m, liza rea edo a fre to had I once sent moment is key pre the in lf rse you edom from the g rin Fre inner dia log ue. Cente is defined as freedom. del ights. Delight for me st ate ybe from the gre ma my or t, be to pas up things add ortant ly freedom from the imp st mo and y, bod mind, freedom from the self as a whole.
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