R&R R&R Fall 2022 Edition XX Fall 2022 Edition XX
First, as always, I would like to thank the artists who have produced the amazing pieces showcased in these next 30 pages.
Next, a huge thank-you to the teachers and our advisor, Mrs. Batchelor, who have supported artists and sta alike through this process.
And nally, this all would not have been possible without the tireless work of the R&R sta .
We hope you enjoy this 20th edition of R&R Creative Arts Magazine.
Sincerely,
Abigail Wells Editor-in-Chief
FROM THE EDITOR FROM THE EDITOR
TABLE OF TABLE 1 Letter from the Editor 2 Table of Contents 3 Sta Page 4 Untitled 5 My Heart 6 Aria Ainsworth 7 Head In e Clouds 8 What I’m inking 9 Untitled 10 Mary and Her Pink Hat’s Advantures 12 Untitled 12 e Place 13 Tensor of Ice 14 Shoot 16 Ghost STAFF: STAFF: Editor-in-Chief: Abigail Wells Andonia Alexander-Smith Jezel Carmon Advisor: Mrs. Batchelor
OF CONTENTS OF CONTENTS
Editor: Colin Welden
Nathanael Adegoke
Grace Roche
17 Print and Charcoal 18 Arasaka 20 Arasaka v.2 22 Apartment 208 24 Hand Spiral 25 Stars 26 Sharks 28 False Promises 30 Alley Angle 31 It Wasn’t Worth It 32 Animals 33 Life Over ere 35 Stagger 36 Untitled 37 Resurge 38 Landscape
U N T I T L E D.
U N T I T L E D. B Y M A L L O R Y B A R N E S
MY HEART. MY HEART.
BY ANONYMOUS
My heart. It’s yours. Not gi ed but stolen. Because a gi means I wanted you to have it, or I trusted you to keep it, or that it was meant for you. But it wasn’t.
e lies you fed me through that bright handsome smile they carried me away on a vacation for a while, a vacation from my problems, and hurt insecurities
because I stupidly trusted that you were the right one for me.
I thought I was running from all the bad but no.
I simply sprinted right into a virus I can’t see, but I know it lives to continuously infect me with its open invitation because it somehow unlocked the key. My heart.
Beating a million miles a minute but it was mine till you stole it while I was distracted in your eyes,
e eyes that infected me with those girly butter ies but now seem to just make me cry, Make me hungry for the life that was before you before us before what I thought was my vacation before you stole my heart and sped away like a train leaving a station.
Good morning! e weather is amazing today, don’t you think? I love it when the sky is this shade of pink, and the clouds are u y cotton candy that I could just grab and eat. I suppose I should tell you about the accident, right? I’m sorry, I don’t really remember much… I was driving to work when I saw something standing in the road. I thought it was… a unicorn. And I wanted to pet the unicorn. But then there was a lot of blood… ey won’t answer my questions about the person I hit. I swear it was an accident though, I would never hurt anyone! Never, I swear! I swear! I would never hurt anyone because… well, I know what it’s like to be hurt. I don’t want anyone else to deal with the pain. I don’t remember much, but when I was younger… my parents were very neglectful. ey fought a lot. Sometimes, they–they hurt me; I think. I don’t remember. I don’t want to remember. And that girl, walking with the man in the road, she looked a lot like me, and her father looked a lot like my father and–
Do you have any candy? I really like strawberry la y ta y, or maybe pink gumdrops, or um… pink marshmallows. You don’t? at’s a shame. I’m really hungry.
I don’t understand why you’re asking so many questions about my parents. I haven’t seen them in a while. My dad died a few years back, because of a heart murmur, and my mother followed soon a er. She was always very frail, you
know. Weak. I mean, she was just very sad all the time. She never seemed to believe me when I talked about all the beautiful things in life. e ying cats, the double rainbows, and the little talking mice that scurry around all the time. I think when you’re sad, you don’t want to notice the happy things, because you like being sad. I’m not like that. When I’m sad, I think of all my favorite things, like puppies and cinnamon rolls and pink! I don’t like thinking about the things that make me sad. I don’t like thinking about the accident.
I don’t want to talk about the accident! I don’t remember! ere was no man, there was just a unicorn, and I was listening to Sunshine, Lollipops, and Rainbows, and I wanted to pet the unicorn. Nothing bad has happened to me lately. No, ever. Everything is perfect. I don’t know why I’m here. I don’t remember…
I’ve never been diagnosed with any mental disorders, no. Or any physical ailments. I actually don’t remember going to the doctor at all in the past twenty years… but that’s okay, nothing bad happens to me. I have the unicorns and the puppies to protect me from the bad things.
Yes, I’m willing to pay for the damages.
Yes, I live alone. No, I’m sorry. I don’t remember.
BY ANONYMOUS
ARIA AINSWORTH ARIA AINSWORTH
HEAD IN THE CLOUDS HEAD IN THE CLOUDS
BY NATHANAEL ADEGOKE
AINSWORTH
Romanticizing madness
Leaves me habitized to sadness
Leaves me reeling in this feeling
It makes me want to die
Pitying those who pity me
Can’t believe they deal healthily
Why is it so hard to breathe?
If you wanna know why I don’t let me show through en here are all the things I’d never say to you
I tell myself-
You’ll never write a word that everyone hasn’t heard
So why even bother?
You’re just such a bother
You’re a burden
You’re hurting
But don’t tell a soul
Cause you’re too ugly
You’re like a black hole
Burdening and bothering is blasphemy against me
Is all I seem to know
If I didn’t hate myself
Maybe I’d help myself
Maybe I’d feel worthy
I don’t think they heard me.
When my smiles scream for lifelines
When I’m not focused all the time
I’m in my head
Wishing I was dead
Wishing I’d wish for some help
But I’m stuck with the blasphemy against me
It’s all I seem to know
But I don’t know anything
My mind is a little thing
So why does it take down my will?
WHAT I’M THINKING
WHAT
I’M THINKING
BY LILY BELL
UNTITLED UNTITLED
BY MALLORY TINGLE
MARY AND HER PINK MARY AND HER PINK
BY LILY
Mary Matthews walked down marble steps in her golden heels
Suitcase packed, her fears of nishing school real
A senator father and an heiress mother, what else could she be?
Must become a lady despite her dreams of ying over the sea
A perfect pink hat, only memories of the estate of her youth
Mary’s sister was done When Mary rst begun e plan was: learn for a while
To earn that walk down the aisle
But might as well take a break to travel So, Mary ran there too.
Crossing the seas
Mary’s happy as can be Wind on her face
e pink hat kept in place
Ready for the adventures ahead Dreams in her head
As she sees the perfect white coast
e Matthews enjoyed European delights And Mary met a sailor as crazy as the night
And when Mr. Matthew gave a call Saying she shouldn’t be there at all
Mary took her pink On his boat, together
Saying she shouldn’t
Mary took her pink On his boat, together
Far away as the winds
Love bound them together
Crossing Mary’s happy Wind on e pink hat
She and her sailor’s
But there’s boats Her father stopped them before
Covered in shadows of Mourning at nishing school screamed
And two years of studies le A rich man sounded But it was much en loving the sailor whose All dressed She prepared Of her brand-new Clutching the faded hat as though
When her husband bought her So, during
HAT’S ADVENTURES
HAT’S ADVENTURES
pink hat and her man together they ran shouldn’t be there at all pink hat and her man together they ran winds would take them together like a tangled string
Crossing the seas happy as can be her face kept in place sailor’s future ahead boats covered in red before the American coast
the future she dreamed school where she couldn’t have screamed her with a ring and her hat sounded dreary much less eerie whose heart couldn’t beat back dressed in white prepared for the sight brand-new home though it were all that she had her a new one, it just made sad during the days
She entertained
Until night crept along
And she felt all wrong
Mary didn’t even cry when she heard Her husband had died from an enemy’s sword
Crossing the seas
Mary’s numb as can be
A frown on her face
e pink hat kept in place
Going back, Europe’s ahead
Even though her sailor is still dead
She nds herself old and alone now, so what else can she do?
With nothing else there Mary nds some cool air
In an art lled building that reminds her of her old house
She nds one painting and stares at it quiet as a church mouse
It reminds her of the men that she’s lost
Pink hat and all
People have a ball
Gawking at her like she’s a part of the art show
And maybe she is now so Mary Matthews stands still and remembers the life that she and that tattered pink hat lived.
BELL
PINK
BY JACKSON BURNS
How lucky i am
To hear the wind in the trees
Speaking to my soul
UNTITLED UNTITLED THE PLACE THE PLACE
BY COLIN WELDEN
Check your expectations at the door
Leave your preconceptions behind is is the place where all are equal is is the place where no one hides
Forsake your pristine presentation
ere’s no need for suit and tie
For here the widow cracks a smile
And the jokester dares to cry
Every face her is a stranger
So abandon all your fear
Leave your mask behind you
No one knows you here
B
T E N S O R O F I C E
Y N
T E N S O R O F I C E T H A
A
N A E L A D E G O K E
SHOOT.
SHOOT.
BY COLIN WELDEN
Somewhere deep in the city, there was a streetlamp, buzzing with electricity. Moths ock to it, both because of the glowing light and the shelter o ered by the dome of the light, protecting them from the rain. Below the light, there was a man. He wore a long coat with the collar turned up to hide his face. He sported a black panama, casting a shadow over his eyes. Across the street, the light from a window on the fourth oor of an apartment complex ickered out, and another gure emerged onto the re escape. He was smaller, younger, and less seasoned than the other man, but he knew how to use the silver pistol tucked into the back of his jeans.
e two men met with no acknowledgement aside from a brief nod. ere was much to be done that night.
e older man had to admit that despite his initial disdain for his partner, the younger man was skilled, and he would make a dangerous enemy. e older man wondered if, over the course of the two years they had worked together, he had become fond of the boy. It was such a shame that he had to die. Reluctantly, the older man reached for the pistol in his pocket, admiring the way its sleek surface reected the moonlight. is gun had killed before. It would kill again. He raised the gun, aiming at the back of the younger man’s head. He could do this.
“You won’t do it,” the younger man countered, as if his partner had spoken the words aloud. Both had stopped in their tracks, standing perfectly still on the city sidewalk. It would be so easy to pull the trigger. e older man could shoot his partner and go home to his son, as he did every night. But this kill was di erent. is kill was personal. He had been given this assignment as a punishment, a reminder of what happened when he allowed himself to care about someone. Still, he was unable to pull the trigger. e younger man turned around, pointing an accusatory nger. “You won’t shoot me.”
“I will,” the older man protested, his hands shaking. “I’ll do it, just watch!”
But the younger man only shook his head and sighed. ey stood in silence for a moment. e older man knew what he had to do. He knew what the punishment was for reneging on an assignment. Still, his hands trembled. His nger fell from the trigger. e gun dropped to the ground.
“I can’t.”
“I know,” the younger man said, not unkindly. “I know.”
e gunshot cracked through the night, seeming to shatter the sky itself. e sidewalk was stained dark red, and the man on the ground let out a guttural noise as he choked on his own blood. Frowning slightly, the other man tucked away his gun, turned on his heel, and went home.
GHOST GHOST
BY COLIN WELDEN
ere are days when I don’t think of you
When your ghost neglects to haunt my mind
I no longer hear your voice calling my name
And the details of your face have le me behind
I can close my eyes without seeing your face
I don’t cry over photos of us anymore I can go to sleep without thinking you’re there
My fantasies don’t include you showing up at my door
It’s been a year since they lowered you into the ground
But only now are you nally dead
I won’t think of you tomorrow
Stay out of my head.
PRINT & CHARCOAL PRINT & CHARCOAL
BY ANDONIA ALEXANDER-SMITH
ARASAKA ARASAKA
BY NATHANAEL ADEGOKE
ARASAKA v.2 ARASAKA v.2
BY NATHANAEL ADEGOKE
APARTMENT 208 APARTMENT 208
BY COLIN WELDEN
At 11:59pm on a Wednesday, Dave waits outside 63 Willow Court Road, watching the window of apartment 208, waiting for the signal. It comes a few seconds later when Jack, the apartment’s inhabitant, opens the curtains and cracks open the window. Dave quietly ascends the re escape and opens the window so that he can sit on the sill. Jack knows he’s there before he sees him. Before he catches the pervasive scent of cigarettes or hears the scu of boots on the re escape, he knows. is is how it always is.
ey both sit on the windowsill without looking at each other, Jack facing the inside of the room while Dave watches the city lights. Neither of them can suppress their smiles as their ngers curl around each other.
“I missed you,” Dave admits.
“I missed you too,” Jack replies, putting his head in his hands. “I didn’t expect you to come back.”
“Of course, I came. I wouldn’t just leave you.”
“Wouldn’t you?”
ey both sigh, leaning against each other. Jack thinks of the question he is too afraid to ask. Dave thinks of the answer. Both are ashamed.
Jack stands up to pace around his room, wringing his hands, and Dave twists around to face him. “Jack…”
“Does she know?”
“No. Not yet. But she knows something. Keeps snooping around my room, asking about everything. She doesn’t know about you, though, if that’s what you’re asking.”
“You’re getting sloppy.”
“Maybe I am. Maybe I’m hoping I get caught. Wouldn’t it be easier? I could just leave. Stay here every night. With you. Would that be so bad?” e man’s eyes burn with desperation, and Jack knows it would be so easy to just agree, to say that that would be all he could ever want, that if Jack could just have him, it would be enough. But he can’t.
Jack walks back to the window, leaning over Dave’s head. “You should go.”
“I probably should,” he agrees, but neither of them moves. ey always do this, entertaining the idea of letting the whole thing drop, of making the right decision, even though they both know they won’t.
A few hours later, just before the sun rises, Dave slips away, gently pressing his lips to Jack’s forehead before tiptoeing down the re escape and disappearing into the night. No one questions the young man out on an early walk; no one hears him when he slips through the window of his own home and slides into bed next to his wife, who doesn’t even stir. He watches her intently, wondering what would happen if he woke her up right now and told her everything. He thinks of his children. He thinks of his own family, who tells him that this is all for the best, that his true self deserves to remain hidden deep in the slums of the city, con ned to apartment 208 in 63 Willow Court Road. He closes his eyes and dri s into a dreamless sleep. Jack lies alone in his bed, thinking of Dave, wondering if this is how love is.
HAND SPIRAL HAND SPIRAL
BY ANDONIA ALEXANDER-SMITH
STARS STARS
Here I am in the darkness I am trapped here I am safe here
I don’t think I will ever leave I am not sure that I want to In the shadow of the night no one can see
e cracks in my smile
e scars on my skin
e aws I can’t shake
In the shadows
No one can see me
Shine brightly my star
Bring hope to the night
You’re all that I have
When all’s said and done
Shine brightly my star
I’m afraid of the sun
SHARKS SHARKS
BY ANDONIA ALEXANDER-SMITH
SHARKS SHARKS
FALSEPROMISES FALSEPROMISES
BY NATHANAEL ADEGOKE
FALSEPROMISES FALSEPROMISES
ALLEY ANGLE ALLEY ANGLE
BY NATHANAEL ADEGOKE
By: Julia Luttrell
Itwasn’tworthit
the other day I ate a tree
it was big and tall and green
But now I can’t sing or talk or breathe or move or play or laugh or eat
cause now I have a big ol’ tree growing out inside of me
Animals
By: Baxter Kelley
Everyone loves animals but Dogs and cats are too much
Frogs and rats are small hogs and bats are annoying snails and sloths are boring
Everyone’s scared of snakes sh die too soon
pandas are always hungry and bears kill you basically, what I’m saying is that there is no animal for you. I hope you get the message that bears will always kill you.
Life Over ere
Day dreamer
Head in the clouds
Losing the future
Lost in the now My body is present My feet on the ground e weight of reality Holding me down My mind wanders elsewhere Somewhere in space
Unchained from reality Without time Without place
It’s not that I hate you Or that I don’t care
It’s just that it’s easier: Life over there
By: Anonymous
I have all the freedom I don’t have to be me As the sight of myself Gets harder to see Abandon all pretense To hell with this mask My method is patience
Existence my task Lost in my own mind e world fades away I’m silent and distant With nothing to say You tap on my shoulder An anchor A place And for this I hate you I don’t want to wake
ere
Stagger
By: Nathanael
Adegoke
By: Nathanael Adegoke
Untitled
RESURGE RESURGE
ANONYMOUS
LANDSCAPE LANDSCAPE ANONYMOUS