Volume 11, Issue 2
9.28.2015 A PUBLICATION BY HOLDERNESS STUDENTS FOR THE HOLDERNESS COMMUNITY
Considering Culture: Sexuality at Holderness By A.J. Chabot ‘16, Maggie Cunha ‘16
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e say we are accepting. We say we don’t discriminate, stereotype, or generalize. But, do some of our actions directly contradict these statements? Athletic team captains say they would accept gay athletes on their team, the faculty have added stickers to their computers saying “we are safe people to talk to,” and Holderness has hired its first married gay residential faculty. Clearly, we are moving forward, but what else might we do to hinder progress without even realizing it? Are there aspects embedded in our culture that, unless addressed, will eventually leave our progress stagnant? After speaking with multiple faculty and students in our community, it seems so, even in the most unlikely places. The goal of this article is not to criticize or offend anyone but instead inform and educate the community about a topic that has been acknowledged by many but shared by few. Eight years ago, Mr. Peck and the administration brought in an outside consultant to run an audit that asked students to submit notecards with hurtful comments they had heard in their time at Holderness. Words like “Faggot” came up enough times for the administration to unveil a surprisingly homophobic aspect to Holderness culture that faculty were somewhat surprised
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to see. Around that time, Ms. Dopp was hired, and the student-to-dorm ratio was lowered in hopes of cultivating a more caring and empathetic attitude. Given these advancements, Mr. Peck still, “wishes that we were able to have a culture that more readily accepts out males”. What about our culture doesn’t as readily accept out males? The portraits of the 8 previous heads of school used to be hung outside of the faculty lounge in Schoolhouse. Eight white, middle-aged men in suits. Phillips Andover Academy has one classroom with presidential portraits lined neatly along the inside of a classroom - a decoration that many schools in our country choose to install. Choosing to highlight only male figures rather than important figures regardless of gender could, some argue, indicate a sort of bias. Are we looking too far into it and claiming that Andover is sexist? No, we are simply shedding light on one of many decisions we make that was not given the thought and awareness it deserves. Look at the Holderness Board of Trustees and Administrative Team. Are some positions more powerful than others? Does our board have almost twice as many men than women? Mr. Lin argues that boards need to be balanced in order to bring varied perspectives into our community. But, how balanced is our board, and how balanced is our administration? Consider
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our student body - what is our male to female ratio? 55% boys to 45% girls. This brings us to our main point. Holderness has an unintentional and often indecipherable emphasis on masculinity. After speaking with a variety of perspectives from within our community, we have uncovered these often subtle points of emphasis - on the field, in the dorms, and after study hall. I think everyone reading this would agree that Holderness emphasizes athletics. Not only do we emphasize sports, but we also emphasize male sports for their higher level of competitiveness. This is not to say that our female sports aren’t competitive, but that male competition originates from a different source; one that - if we were to stretch interpretation - originates from fighting other males in an attempt to court a female. But is that interpretation too stretched? Doesn’t the best football player always get the girl? And why does the waterboy join the football team in the first place - to both be a part of a more masculine group, and, more importantly, to publicize this identity. This leads us to the provocative question of whether males are influenced to play competitive sports to claim heterosexuality. In addition to athletics, the dorm culture at Holderness often supports this masculine and heteronormative model. Think about it: we let teenage Continued Page 2
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Continued Page 2 boys raise teenage boys to be teenage boys who will raise other teenage boys. While the same is true of girls, this can be particularly influential in boys dorms because of Holderness’ emphasis on athletics and masculinity. Lexi Black brings up another similar point, stating, “Because Holderness is such a small school, once a person comes out as gay, they lose all sense of anonymity that they might find at a larger school. They run the risk of being branded.” Holderness’ size and close-knit community are two elements that our school rightfully prides itself on, but it is also important to recognize that these can act as barriers to becoming fully inclusive. And, there’s the word “Faggot.” As Moti Jiang points out, “in public it is politically incorrect, but in private it’s used for some sense of rebellion, or to claim one’s heterosxuality by degrading homosexuality”. She also noted the effect it has to “downgrade a word that is already very offensive to a certain group of people.” Although most often said in a joking context, this connotation and lack of respect makes the word that much more hurtful. The private situations where it’s heard most often - as well as other words like “bitch” or “pussy”- are in the locker room and in the dorms. These two settings are the two most masculine environments at Holderness, and, therefore, the most uncomfortable for interrupting the conversation. When we walk down to Plymouth, we make the conscious decision to take off our coat and tie, or our cords and sweaters. When we move to a new school, we make the conscious decision not to make a fool of ourselves on the first day. We conform in the most developmental portion of our life, we “play along” to what everyone considers the norm. If we have a masculine-emphasized
culture, it would be pretty difficult for a boy not to subscribe to this culture during the time of his life when he wants to conform most. Therefore, if Holderness has a masculine culture, even students who are questioning their sexuality will conform to what they perceive to be the “norm”. Whether it is to cover up their sexual identity or simply feel accepted, the questioning students of Holderness become their own obstacles. This exemplifies heteronormativity. This is the view that all human beings are either male or female, both in sex and in gender, and that sexual and romantic thoughts and relations are normal only when between people of different sexes. Perhaps Holderness’ culture is masculine-heavy, but some feel that the issue most specific to Holderness is our heteronormativity. Mr. Durnan states, “The fact that as of now no boy has “come out” to the community speaks to the difficulty of doing so. By my count, we have had only two students “come out” publicly, so I don’t think we can claim that it is an easy step for girls, either. I’m not sure it is masculinity that is overemphasized at Holderness (though that is a discussion worth having) so much as is our heteronormativity.” Holderness’ heteronormative practices are not entirely negative or offensive. We are not claiming it is wrong for a girl and a guy to go to prom together, but instead suggesting that it would be healthier for our community to realize that this heteronormative couple is not the single archetype of prom-goers or walk backers. As the only public partnership between students at Holderness, it may cause questioning students to, as Ms. Sparkman put it, “feel forced to conform to heteronormative practices.” Some of these situations include walk backs, prom, or even the name game. Whether through direct pressure from peers or from the fear of being marginalized, the
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walk-back culture can force questioning students to conform to the most obvious heteronormative and popular aspect of our culture. While many students enjoy walk backs, the view that “students evaluate personal worth based off a walkback, which also frame as making you valuable and worth discussion,” is definitely problematic. Although the name-game is the least aggressive of these examples, it is worth realizing asking if you have ever seen a new student be forced to introduce themselves to a member of the same sex. If we did an audit tomorrow, would there be things that may once again surprise the administration? Probably, but the goal is to make us all more aware of what we do and say that may be hurtful towards questioning students. Although hoping for an immediate solution is irrational, hoping for progress is not. Holderness’ openly gay faculty are role models for questioning students, and hopefully match Ms. Sparkman’s personal view of her calling; “Part of my role at this school has nothing to do with the classroom or the court, it has everything to do with being visible and leading my life as a lesson - that I’m gay and actually am an ok human being.” So what can we do? When we asked Mr. Durnan, he responded by saying, “We can accept the fact that we have a lot of work to do. We can examine our language, our policies, our events, our curriculum, and our programs to see how we can change them in order to better support LGBTQ students and better educate the community about LGBTQ realities.” While many of us consider Holderness to be an accepting place, it’s critical that we address the prevalence of heteronormativity within our school and work to make Holderness a place that is safe for all regardless of sexual orientation.
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What to Expect From Don’t Drink the Water Director - Ms. Devine
At the end of the summer I began
reading plays for our fall production when I came upon Don’t Drink the Water, a play I purchased awhile back and had never been opened. As with any play, as I am reading it I am visualizing the action on the Holderness stage. As for the characters, I will imagine a certain person I know, and other times it’s someone I have created in my imagination. With this play, I imagined the set and the action. What I didn’t imagine was Snoop as a nun who does magic tricks, A.J. Chabot as the Ambassador, definitely not Sam Mason as the close-talking chef or Morgan Dawkins as the Sultan of Bashir or Aaron Harmatz as the loudmouth caterer from New Jersey! The cast is rounded out by Joe Gillis, who is not a priest; Sam Shinn, who plays a very convincing Russian; Maggie Barton, Anna Macomber, Avery Morgan, Dougie DeLuca, Yarmony Bellows, Grace Lawrence, Keegan Penny, Henry Day, and Sarah Rogers. With a very short production calendar, the play has been cut from a two-act play to a long one-act. We are hustling along with rehearsals. And, while we are enjoying the process, it feels rather condensed. I know this cast and crew will pull it off! Izak Furey and Sergio Yap are feverishly working on sound cues, of which there are many. Leading the crew are Kyra Borsoi and Abby Wiseman, who will make the production run smoothly! The action of the play takes place in an American Embassy somewhere behind the Iron Curtain. This is fast paced comedy with a cast of crazy characters who will have the audience laughing!
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Stage Crew - Izak Furey
Actress - Sarah Rogers
When I was applying to Holderness,
I knew theater was something I’d want to do. But, when I got here, I started to think that stage crew would be fun as well. It wasn’t until auditions that I made my decision to do sound production. I have done some stage crew at my school before Holderness, so I knew I’d like it. I am very excited for the play to start and watch the cast perform. Even though there haven’t been many rehearsals, watching the cast rehearse is a ton of fun. This is the first time I’ve done sound with a live audience, so I’m a little nervous about having the cues working at the right time. It is also a lot of fun being behind the scenes, listening to the actors practice their lines, and knowing what someone thought of a scene they had just performed. It is a great, well acted, and very funny play. I hope everybody can see it because I’m certain we are going to run out of seats!
Opening Show! School Night Thursday, October 8 8:30 PM
Participating in theater at Holderness
is something that most students just don’t understand. Along with five classes and a sport, the time commitment is extremely excessive. Most of the time, the amount of stress is crushing, leaving me with very little free time. People ask me why would I ever do this to myself. Why would I spend hours memorizing lines for a show that the student body is forced to sit through? I have multiple answers to these questions. First, it’s arguably my biggest passion. The lights, costumes, makeup, it’s all incredibly exhilarating. When the school laughs at a joke you made, it just validates all of your hard work. Second, you form friendships from working with your cast towards a common goal. I still have inside jokes with my fellow castmates from Dearly Departed. Having that bond formed from stress and panic builds a relationship comparable to none. Finally, Holderness School prides itself on community and forging your own path. Most of our students consider themselves primarily athletes. Even the majority of the most talented artists still consider athletics more important. The new website doesn’t even feature a section for the arts on its homepage. Participating in the play is my way of trying to diversify the school as best as I can. When I talk about Holderness, I don’t want people to think of just a ski school, a school for people who would rather be doing sports than enriching themselves. When people see me act, I want them to think, “Hey that’s pretty cool. Maybe I’ll give that a try.”
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Bulls Ready for New Rink
Carter Bourassa ‘17
We’ve been without a hockey rink for
about a year. Instead, we’ve had a work in progress. We have watched it go from the debris of the old rink to a huge hole in the ground to a foundation and, finally, to what it is now - an almost complete rink. The rink is on schedule and slated to be completed and operational by November 6th. The construction has obviously come a long way. So far, the roof is up, and the installation of the solar panels that will cover the entire side nearest the new dorms began last week. The cement slab underneath the rink is in place, and the cooling coils have been installed, and more cement is on the way.
Interestingly, it appears that most people don’t realize that the rink will be 75% enclosed. Almost all of the side closest to the new dorms is enclosed, housing all of the mechanical rooms, the Zamboni room, a room for turf storage, and a heated press box above the rink that will be used for filming and viewing the game. The side nearest campus will have huge barn-style doors that can be opened or closed based on the weather. The side facing Bartsch will have large windows and will be partly enclosed.
will be put down so the rink can be used as a multipurpose athletic facility. Heated bleachers will also keep fans warm. Near the Gallop turn-around, there will be standing bleachers that are not only heated but also staggered to improve the spectators’ experience. Both team benches will be heated as well. There is landscaping around the rink and some reconfiguration of the parking lot, too. Finally, there will be a patio area with a propane-powered fire pit between Bartsch and the rink.
This rink recycles some materials from the old rink, primarily the sound system and the boards; however, the rink has a lot of brand new features. When hockey is not in season, turf
Soon the exterior construction will be complete, and only minor details will remain. All of this should be ready and operational by November 6th, just eight days before Tabor Day.
While there will be plenty of Holderness spirit, there won’t be a bull statue to greet athletes and spectators
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Why we Should Talk About the St. Paul’s “Thing” Chae Hahn ‘17
This summer, St. Paul’s School made
national headlines with the trial of an 18-year-old senior charged with sexually assaulting a 15-year-old freshman. After a series of investigations, it was revealed that his actions were a part of an end-of -year tradition dubbed “Senior Salute,” where college-bound seniors compete against each other to see how many younger classmates they can “hook up” with. Students were aware of this notorious competition, yet they accepted it as one of many deepseated school traditions that could not be questioned. This sexual assault case - coming from one of the most elite private schools in the United States confirmed that boarding schools aren’t immune to the so-called “rape culture” prevalent on college campuses. While the controversy over the St. Paul’s case remains the topic of national conversation, students in independent boarding schools remain hesitant to participate in the ongoing debate. What accounts for our reluctance to talk about problematic gender cultures? The answer is quite simple: discomfort. Because we feel uncomfortable, we refuse to talk about rape culture, an issue that has now become increasingly relevant to boarding schools. We even refuse to refer to the St. Paul’s case as a rape trial. Instead, we call it the St. Paul’s “thing” as if it were something trivial and irrelevant; as if it were something that took place in a distant land far away from our own school. What most of us don’t realize is how the distasteful connotation of the term “rape culture” does not reflect what it actually implies. The term needs to be corrected: rape culture does not refer solely to the crime of sexual offense. It’s a broader concept. It points to the sexism running rampant within a culture,
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to the extent that the abuse of genderbased power is condoned and facilitated. When asked to address whether or not Holderness has a tradition that promotes such behavior, Lydia Fisher ‘16 answered, “I think Holderness is a relatively progressive boarding school where students are rarely pressured into such traditions.” As a response to the same question, Nick Lacasse ‘16 said, “not that I know of. I don’t think Holderness has a tradition as repulsive as the senior salute.”
“In reflection to the St. Paul’s case, our school has to stay committed to our long lasting belief that we have to be well aware of the student culture here at our school. We must be ready to educate the community to stay clear of any cultural wrongdoings.” -Mr. Galvin Based on the students’ positive answers, the Holderness community does not seem to practice traditions that promote may sexual violence. In fact, Holderness does not appear to be associated with any potential major sexual assault issues. However, no matter how disconnected Holderness is from these traditions, rape culture still exists on our campus. Like they do at every other boarding schools, aspects of rape culture on our campus are rather subliminal. It takes the form of online communication, casual “jokes” between friends, use of certain language and so on. The abuse of gender-based power is a ubiquitous issue, and it is incredibly foolish to argue that Holderness is somehow exceptional. Problematic gender culture needs to be addressed, especially in a private boarding school, where the campus not only serves educational purposes but also becomes home to
hundreds of students. Discussing the St. Paul’s rape trial is a perfect way to spark up a long overdue conversation. “In reflection to the St. Paul’s case, our school has to stay committed to our long lasting belief that we have to be well aware of the student culture here at our school. We must be ready to educate the community to stay clear of any cultural wrongdoings,” said Mr. Galvin, the Dean of Residential Life, describing how Holderness should take the St. Paul’s case into account and continue to strive to maintain a respectful community. Because of the similarities the school shares with Holderness, the lessons learned from the St. Paul’s case will certainly resonate with us throughout the years to follow. Simply talking about what happened at St. Paul’s can inspire members of our community to become more responsible. Based on our unbiased knowledge of the incident, we can view our culture from a more critical perspective. We can realize that we do not live in a Holderness bubble and that our behaviors will ultimately reflect our community as a whole. We can be aware of the concept of rape culture and fully consider the consequences of the actions each of us will take. Perhaps most importantly, we can guide each other to ensure that sexual violation does not take place on our campus. When asked to explain what Holderness can learn from the St. Paul’s rape trial, Ms.Weymouth, the Dean of Students, answered, “My hope for the Holderness community is that we are never bystanders in our lives. Many students at St. Paul’s knew what Owen Labrie was planning to do that night and that the young girl was intent upon meeting him. If someone had stepped up and stopped them, this assault may not have happened.” Something all of us can think about.
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Brooke Hayes ‘17
Holderness Welcomes New Faculty and Staff
In addition to a new class of students, Holderness has the pleasure of
welcoming a large group of great faculty and staff this year. I had the opportunity to speak to a few and get a sense of what they are really like. Here are a few of their responses: Bruce Paro Advice: Say “Thank You” to the dining hall, building & grounds, housekeeping and equipment room staff whenever possible! Fun Fact: Mr. Weymouth and I were on the 1975 UNH lacrosse team. Sports Team: NY Yankees. Jordan Graham Advice: Ask for help. Fun Fact: I worked as a commercial guide (rafting, mountain biking, snowmobiling, skiing) in Montana and Idaho for the last 5 years. Sports Team: The Oakland Raiders!
New “Kids” On the Block Paul Baier - Math, Girls JV Hockey Hillary Beach - Communications Hannah Brown - Baker Pat Buckley - Director of Stewardship Rob Bushaw - Building and Grounds Laurie Butler - Housekeeping Angel Colarusso - Deputy Director of Advancement Linda Corriveau - Assistant to the Deans
John Donovan - Math, JV Baseball Kayla Wagner Advice: Don’t be afraid to branch out and try new things. Experience Colleen Finnerty-French, Field Hockey, Hockey, is the best teacher! Fun Fact: I was on the Nickelodeon show ‘Slime Time Live’ when I was Nicole Furlonge - English Chair, Mosaic/Dial 10. Sports Team: Kacy Catanzaro from American Ninja Warrior is totally Nigel Furlonge - Associate Head, History, Basketball cool! Christine Lushefski Advice: Do something each day that makes you happy to de-stress. Fun Fact: I got run over by a skateboard when I was 2 and broke my leg. Sports Team: The Rangers. Hilary Beach Advice: Perform a random act of kindness every day. Fun Fact: I swam with a whale shark in the Galapagos Islands. Sports Team: My fantasy football team.
Maria Gallagher-Housekeeping Hal Gartner-Math, Football, JV Baseball Jordan Graham-History, Football, Outing Club, Alex Hall - Advancement Data Specialist/Analyst Chrissy Lushefski-Asst. Athletic Director, Lacrosse Conor O’Meara-Religion, History, Skiing
John Donovan Robert Moore- Building and Grounds Advice: Be organized, stay on top of your work, and ask for help. Fun Fact: As a junior in college I spent a month traveling in the former Bruce Paro- English, JV Hockey, Lacrosse Soviet Union. Sports Team: Boston Red Sox Garrett Poitras- Building and Grounds Alex Hall Advice: Sleep. Never underestimate the power of a good night’s rest and the difference it can make as a long term habit. Fun Fact: I’ve run 7 marathons in the last 5 years. Sports Team: Blank? It’s been a long time since I followed a team...
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Sara Stevens- Dining Services Kayla Wagner-Admissions, Skiing, Lacrosse
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Cautionary Tales with Dougie: A Night Without Check-In Dougie DeLuca ‘16
Last week I distributed a survey asking
what people thought would happen if Mr. Peck announced that there would be no check-in on a Wednesday night. I asked whether or not people would take Mr. Peck’s word and trust that his announcement was legitimate. Roughly 66% of the respondents answered that they would not trust his announcement. This says a lot about us, especially since we are so accustomed to following a strict set of rules; even when the Head of School tells us one of the rules is not in place for the night, we don’t seem to believe it. In the next part of the survey, I asked what would happen on campus during the one night of missioning. Of the respondents, 60% answered that chaos would ensue. The source of this chaos was of great interest to me. Respondents seemed to believe that they themselves would not create chaos, but that the rest of the student population would. If each person believes that they would not participate in the chaos, then where would the chaos start? What follows is my take on what a night without check-in at Holderness would be like. Mr. Peck announced that there would be no check-in on this evening. At 11:25, a few brave students wander into
no-man’s land, only to see that the announcement was true. The chaos has begun. With a flurry of texts confirming the news, all of Rathbun springs into the air, surging through the doorway and spilling onto the front yard. Observing the scene, I hear the students of every other dorm doing exactly what we are doing.
Ignoring my hesitations, I leave my conscience behind and join the madness on the quad. As I dive into the ocean of students, I watch and cheer as several students attempt to climb up onto the roofs of Niles and Webster. Music blasts from Webster, and kids scream to the heavens. Teachers force themselves to sit quietly and let things play out. An outsider looking in would believe us to be in the midst of a riot. After an hour passes, the quad is no longer the center of the madness. All of campus is infected. Weld is a complete mess. The grab-n go-floor is covered in
milk and cereal while peanut butter bagels stick to the ceilings. Students storm the Irving, harassing the lone cashier. As the line gets longer and longer, people start to lose their patience. Losing control, the cashier rushes to the back while students run out of the store with Arizona ice teas, Doritos, and f ’reals in hand. When we return to campus, the scene in front of us is shocking. I am living in Lord of the Flies; the Tabor Day bonfire pales in comparison. How can a student body so community-focused become this barbaric. How could I have participated in this? Campus has been destroyed. It looks like a scene from Mad Max or Walking Dead. We are doomed tomorrow when Mr. Ford and Mr. Peck see this. Still the party rages on. Walking down the paths, I see my peers riding bikes, scooters, and boards around without helmets. Music continues to blast from the dorms. This has gone way too far. How are we going to go to school tomorrow? What’s going to happen to us? While this may be a bit of a stretch, we have rules in place for a reason. Be sure to check-in on time, and maybe we can avoid such a scene.
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REMINDERS & ANNOUNCEMENTS • • • • • •
October 1st: National Homemade Cookie Day October 2nd: All-School Photo during Assembly (Meet in Hagerman) October 8-9th: School Play Don’t Drink the Water October 9th: Fall Parents’ Weekend Please respect rock climbers and address the team as Varsity Rock Climbing Dave Leclerc, Zareen Kessler, and Aaron Harmatz are starting an indoor club. Our slogan is “If you enjoy consuming Manny’s and have no self control, then we’re the club for you!” • Clean your room and call your parents!
overheards
Congratulations, Eccleston Family!
1. 11:30 PM: "Can I Leave the Dorm?" "Why?" "I need to go to Webster" 2. "I'm done getting desserts at Weld" (After Next Meal) "Those Carrot Cupcakes Tho." 3. “I heard a freshman ran a 4.1 forty-yard dash yesterday” 4. “How was my essay?” “You did good using words.” 5. “I just got a payback for standing in the grab n go...” 6. “The last five people I’ve been with played the ukulele” 7. “Watch your grades plummet as your fun rises” 8. “Can I waterboard your stuffed animal?”
Hazel Marie Eccleston September 24, 2015
9. “My hardest class is Ballet for Athletes”
From the Student Handbook...
What’s Up in Res Life?!
“... all members of the community are expected to be on time and to attend all classes, study halls, sports practices, job meetings, assemblies, School Nights, chapel services, required meals, and other required school functions and will be held accountable for their attendance. Continued or chronic absences will result in a disciplinary meeting. It is the responsibility of the student to talk with the appropriate person in charge of the activity before the commitment if the student wishes to be excused.” p. 28
Congratulations to Hoit Dorm and Pfenninger Dorm on receiving the cleanest dorms on campus this week. Also, Yoomi Ren and Geoff West deserve a shout out for cleanest singles. For this upcoming week, our friendly housekeepers will be making cookies for the dorms that do the best job in two categories: recycling and bathrooms. In addition, Mr. Galvin's looking for the cleanest doubles on campus. Please keep up the good work and continue to take some pride in cleaning your homes!
PURPOSE STATEMENT The Picador is a publication that serves to inform the Holderness School community and stimulate discourse through the thoughtful and respectful exchange of ideas, featuring the dynamic and insightful voice of the Holderness student body.
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Editors Maggie Barton AJ Chabot Maggie Cunha Dougie DeLuca Carter Bourassa Chae Hahn Brooke Hayes
Visual Editors Moti Jiang Yiyang Mao Yoomi Ren Keying Yang
Holderness School Chapel Lane PO Box 1879 Plymouth, NH 03264
Faculty Advisor Mr. Herring
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