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But he m,.·\l<"r b.lked a c,1ke \.,..llhout d rt!Jdy-made ho, .1nd dirl'ct,om. and rt'IJ1t0n,h1~ 1us1 don't ,,Ofl like rh,11 Lrrt· 1u,1 ,,on·t \\orl. like th,11
So nng the chm~ ,ind hJng lhC' bt.-d ,hech oul 10 dry ·c.iu..c I'm i1 wh1rh, ind or emotion ""•rlmg through )OUr town romorrO\\'
frc-.,h out 01 med '-t.hool m J freezer wnk.•wlu:fl'
TodJ)- 11'\ mine. My truth ,\ 1)· le,1r
10 J>op me
- Shane Bruce
nll\l lO 1he pot pt~ .md 1cc culx"
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poem ,s a poem JIX>UI nw,
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Cl.1, Boh
w11h a lot ot po1enuc1l ..1nd 1111l1..· .1mb111on ,.lnd .1 Iii.I of 1h1n~ to do
for e,1Ch dJ\. 01 the \\(,'('I,. -J,rrnlff 8NM n
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Sounder'1 Bend
Guill
\\t• C-lll"II! u1> .,mund \ound<·r'\ Ht nd
Thr It J\t" ,1hou1 u, I10.1I1np \\1.• 10,I,~ on 1h.11 d.1ppkd m,m· ol d.ul wJt(.>f
St l\\t·1 n Krt't.'1'1 il'fl'- t~ l1ntd \\o1lh e; h1ldu.-n l,1ugh1ni,t
WhirlmM ,mcl trul1c km.,; in lhc.• -.un \ht• hl,rnh, lht•lr t"'\-'l'\ ,-..,th ht.•r ((>.11 \\'htlt.• lht· ,-..innowing \\,l\t" ol ht•r Ol..lOC
RNch out ,ind rod, our bo,11 ·\Ion~
~1t11m
ll'rn. ,.._ lim.'d with t h,ldren l,1u~hmg ~f(.'t.~t ll\ 1n our p.w~mg
hun""' must h.>,~ 1-w ~ \\id, IN5Z bffl~ k,.., bJmed to ck>,,i-t.it,on
Tht·) r,lc.t• lo
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I ,milt• knowing their dt.•liRhl 1 \\.J\ .i child once wanhng 10 m.h.'
\\ A \\
crusr ~'f!'d
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Tht· .u11umn mt•r ,11 e\t•nmg 11dc--
bJfflNI 10 dt-l.'a-st.1r,on
Th.11 d.1ppled mJrc ot darl.. w,lll•r
,a, •l<n- on ,i,,. d.lrl ;,e ~ Ol ~ N l n f ! d,e, CtN'Tk'
OnJt, mnt" <'.ut bnns
Tiffany Clark •Mobdf'" llom<•, Photogr.Jph
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Visualize
Creati o n
Come with me on a
One hell of a
Journey through my e)'e.
sort of, a55of1ed
Visualize the pam that I can inflict. Though I may be small in size my blow proves Costl y; ripping through flesh, shattering bonl's, and
sordid, 1orrid
Snatching the very es¾'nce of life away.
and aromatics
affair of the hean involving acrobatics and aphrodcsiacs made from mud
I'm a ~lider with no lim1ta11on; )cnn,fet Br°" n
A killer with no conscience because
I h~we no feelings, I have no heart, My ~ul is as t o ld as 'ilCCI. I \ pit fire .incl speak wilh thundrr
A,-. the lives of the innO(.cnt and the corrupt, The young c.1nd the old, th<' me-ck and the strong
The Pen
Arc swept away IO my nurry.
It writes the ll-'dtous t~1sl..\
And C\fen though I Jm JUCit a pawn in this
Grocery list~. chore:-,, mundane Out M:nbblcs l1ttlt• rhymes.
Game of deJth you ch()()\(_• lo play;
Unmasks stray thouNhts repressed in v,1in
You turn to
me 10 wl..,t• thl' problems that
In wme d.uk corn('r of 1he mind
Weigh hl'ilVY on your mind Don't cry,
or 1he one th.it \Vll.'ld-, the 1001
It 1,-.. 10 Ix.• in time I'll t.1ke aw,1y Your mi1,,cr1C!, and make 1h(:m mine.
Th,1t med1ocr1t\ c,mnot bind Nor 1he routine long befool
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belon· ,1 rt•ally b,gan.
,our hmt c .an"': ht \0 h.ud,
\'ou toug ·1 ,1rontt C'l10Ui,th
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'""' hit• bdow b1~ \\',1,,mh.1,lruRRll•Rt-...tf'K>\\ 1hJt \\-t' IO'\l" you~00\\ Jnd pr.l) l'rl olrC' with thought--
Our
you.
Your b.ltlll• I\ 0,.,('r Rl"II now
I ud Startled to actio~ . le massive c o In a sin~ rise fro m the earth Crows - David Lollis ,, Jon M.Jrtm Tl>Hdort•, pencil • An,11n
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\\ ilh,I\\ ilhoul God \\ "'-.. ht- \\...1-.r~ , tndft.....,, gu1d..1ntchte "ould bt.• .a ,,,le- Of nu"'Y\ d.t\ Jttt.'f d.l\. \\ thou« (;od, <ontmuou, It)\\'." .1nd O'H.''"-~1"""' ,,,,ufd N' no el'kfing ot lh" ro.tci. no \\J't
Pa u dos Ferros, Brasil
Barhed Wire
Finis
In .10 unnotiu'CI (,{'( hon or town,
.,, ,1nd ~w thfU\I .md ,;,lice, ,1\ though lhl.• lu,t to m1ure 1h,ll gr,md protru'ii0n 01 b.ir"- ,1nd dr,,pm>; limb-, c.tandmg ,1 .., a king lookmM over his gr.tnd dom,lm. Then the dic;covery of .in anticnl wire buril-d within lw, vcn<•r.1ble \1dc. Worker., fl't•I
The hoo-.c ,c, l•mpty now, Rl•mn.:rnts
Wht.•rc t"\'l'll ,mil~ .ue UJ>'iide d°'""• I find thi'i plJC<.' b> ch.mcl' w11h .i friend, -\nd ol'> he lt.·.id\ mt• .1round 1ht.• bend
of., hfc p.ickl-d away
hi,;, wul in p.1in, .JS -.park!io, chip<.,, .incl .,,,wdust flicker from within
in a pl.ice he Ol'Vl'r knew,
61.1t ,, •lh God I~
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I ,tm .. hocked h>, the horror I \ee:
lnJt." IO\t.' .ind h.~l\t."Ot"''
O.irbl-d wire-
The house is empty now, living done
Tiny mud hou\l'\ ,incl ,1.1rk mf',('ry.
\\ lh thm then.- 1, ~.lee Jnd humhlt'f'lt"-,.,
A ,m.ill girl squa1, pl.iyin),I in 1hc red s1ree1, No clothe, on her b.Jck or \hoc-s on her feet
\\ h.u , .. there 10 f\'.".Jr
when ,uu h.we the Loni on \.our ,,de,•? h.i-.t l1n 't'OUr he.ut 10 Jt._,..u, •nd let: Him. in )'our ht-Jrt. ,1b1dC'.
A brulal slrap of pain buri<.>cl In lhc- mon.uch's 'itde. A pac,t md1scrl•tion of wme fallen 10<', no r<.•l,ef \inc.c, w11hout thinking, \Oml' farmer h,ld pierced his side. with \I.Jpll~, 10 thread th,ll
All that's left tloscd up
lingering mortal wound into the side or the King. She draws wilh .1 -.1ick in the 1hick caked clJy, Nol once looking up 10 quC'sl1on, •porquel"
mthat
big grey box.
SU'\>l·n Br,ldlt'Y
No, she doe-.n't question ror she is so sm.:i/1, A child wi1hou1 judgmcnr, lr,insparcnt to all. She ~ecs nothing or scorn in 1he people around, (a/<;(• contentment is round.
Only her world where
M..1)'lx- her clr.iwrng~ w,rh l,1rgl.', puffy lines H o \d !.\o rlec. of land<., w h l•rc h urtinR declines.
Acq,uiescence
\\'s M'I Secre\
\\ hy th1:, s.ad and 10' cold
The e m pty brown e yes .,nd dirH,taincd tears, Encompassed o nly by vacant fears
th.it feeh l1k:e ,, inter?
The cold thar stands beh-...een us grips my heart J,ke wind's sharp breath.
.ind rrom
its
You-one of ones-will
<00n be placed lovingly with other\
Of a child whose w,1nts want to be filled And a world oi dreams she'll never build-
rrozeo deprh, dt-cl.ues.
It IS \.\ infer.
You would never guess
I long ior Spring. I h.ave nor understood the silence
oi your distant place-Hand., closed 1igh1 against me,
Sh.lnng w,lh olhers 1he Spnng foroidden me. [ye, open 10 1ha1 olher place leave me bound in winter's barrenness.
Alone she scribbles, no hopes and no place
how I ache !or
For unkept curls and a lonely face.
ju!:il a whisper of a kiss
Others pass by, of her pain unrcm,nded,
Your scent I tap on the wind
Revelalion comes sharply, and I am suddenly blinded.
transfixed I stammer and trip
falling over and over again -Y\fOnne Elrod
You glance my way
O,nching I 1hink of the possible rebuke
11 is \.Vinler.
I long for Spring.
You are already mine
I am denied 1he warmth we mighl have shared. Your willing absence blows frigid from a distant place, and though my spirit goes OUI Slil/, you've lefl me ,n a WOfld apart. II is Winier.
a perfccl fantasy seethes anointed with your image
Blindly I grasped your rose so dehca1ely viscous left a lovely b,t of red
lulia Goldie, /ene/,Oil on Wood Panel.
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The mangled he,1p l,e~ beside Highway 247, he<ll danung on its corpse huge broken toothed mauler towers like the giant around the Lilliputians. A baleful act of lunacy caused by an impulse to be First around the curve on its way to some forbidden destination. - Death occurs here.
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A memory of glaring chrome teeth and horrid sounds of impact. Awareness and time lose their meanin angels stand like Bedpo~ts with eternal vigi lance. S~asoning
spirit on a new adventure Beyond the confines of warmth fills the ne -Life occurs here. Comfort, illuminati n and love calls my soul Life-birth is not r ml'rnbered, D eath-birth is. A p ·11cely voice embracing my inner-bein g sa.ys, ''No, not yet." Ascent becomes ~seen~ Joy becomes ta-stay is muttered. sadness. My the lumens of day filters A layer of cl~ti w hile m¼ fimbs begin to move. - Death 11urts less than life.
j"ea
My Nature
Spnn~. lht· furm.ih\.t• "i't.·ar.01 m,1c-,ht."d gr<"en, ,,nd b.Jbv c ,uro1..
"11h l1t11l• or
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t \oor-v ..uck\(' dnltc. on .\ hu.-e 7 e
1.m~u,dly .,wal..eninp_ dc-ltc.ue
no ,,,It.
nuucr-. 01 ,hrill quic-tn<',._.
Summer, growing out of mnoc..cnc<" Jnd mlo d1,obed1t·nn•
\ n cndlraf,.., p..1,1ure this lu,h grl'E'n ck-.irl lrl~ and vin~ h but one ec,t~hv l1t1Ned ,v1th
Bod•t.~ h.l\t<'d ,n bullt-r .ind b.1ll"d m the ..,un l\,ot c.1ut1ou, or c.intcr. couldn't~"-' pas1 2 1 _
.r\ liulc .1rm"' dN'OUr-.. lh<"
lhe ,1utumn,1I 't<.'Jt\
co,,
CO\l"red m '"•'"
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d,1nger hNt·
p.JII~ to dod~e-
,ticky bur,..-. longing to be ..,u<.I..
Pre-Lovm8, ( ,lre, PrC>--M,1mmogrJm. o,t of OIJy, le-.. lcmm~ ~ t lrit.·nd Cr,1111udt• .1ncl gr,w,ty , 1,11 in IJct
,\ clni ''"Clcorll(•, ,1 Jump
"'"•m
.l J>ond J J trre .1 climb
\VtnlN, lhe hrc-.t sign~ of gr.1\',
- Steveo_ Bt-tJ:dley
unconquerable
tht re
'"th lt.·.l\t.•, ot ,.d,,,_ ,md ~edt.•.
lhc frozen ,1.1rt~
., hull J
tt.•,1se
Prune ,lnd cr,inbt•rry fll('(Jlc-i,.· h4.:.1lt-d tor l7 \eJr-..
Fore,er tr,1pped he-rt:,
or minutNo
I blos<om.
.\n infrn11~ ot rcl1rt•men1, 111..e lht• cool before, St•f'\'ing. \\'inter. ,,ell sea\Oll('{I \:Cl
-f Th,;-re1,.t t.111.ud
Jlw.iy, longes,t.
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Editorial Staff:
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1enniter Br0\\ n Shane Bruce Sharon Felder
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ls:ellie Bate~ Cla~ Bolt Tiifany Clari.. Jon Martin Ben McDonald Amber Schiltz Jeremy Shirley Chase Stone
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The ob\;ous is ignored Hatred blossoms and . Is embraced as though Love ne\'cr \Vas
Susan Wooten Wayne Cox
. Love? There's a shout ·Or was it a whisper? Both denied respect
Cover: Photograph-Ben McDonald Design-Clay Bolt and Jeremy Shirley
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