The Thing Inside Me

Poestory

The Thing Inside Me

Pregnant at fourteen, how could that be? I don’t even remember what happened, Did he even penetrate me? My friends said it was fun, but I can’t remember a thing, I have to ask for forgiveness now, for I committed a sin.

“Before you be a mother be a woman,” The song on the radio played. Can anything else go wrong in my life? And what of the rest of my days?

I am already an outcast. Dear God, why me? Why is this happening? I only kissed him. Such a lonely, shameful place to be.

Finally, the truth is out; I can’t hide it anymore, My dad kicked me out of his house. I’m three months going on four. Before there is a baby, there should be a spouse.

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I watched through the window as my friends go back to school. I am pregnant because I broke a bible rule I looked at my stomach, all I felt was disgust, I barely had anything on my chest one could call a bust.

I cried for nine months, and every day I prayed, I did believe in miracles, but this thing won't go away. It woke me up at the crack of dawn, I’m in so much pain, It must be ready to come out, God knows I feel the same.

The thing finally came out of me, oh, what a relief, “Hey nurse, leave me alone now, I just want to go to sleep.” It’s time to feed it now? I don’t know what to do! I’m scared, I’m nervous, will someone show me how?

I held the thing in my hand, this surely feels weird, Its mouth opened to my breast; I felt a drop of tear. Again, something moved inside me, I felt it in my core, I think this is love, the thing is not a thing anymore.

I wonder what God was thinking. A mini human being? I can’t even take care of myself, I’m only fifteen. I looked deep into his eyes, maybe hoping to see, What the future holds for my baby boy and me.

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