WHEN THE HEAVINESS OF BEING A WOMAN BECOMES TOO MUCH YOU WILL WANT by jalyn eaton

WHEN THE HEAVINESS OF BEING A WOMAN BECOMES TOO MUCH YOU WILL WANT

JALYN EATON

TO REMOVE YOUR INSIDES AND REPLACE THEM WITH RIBBON THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT YOU WANT THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT YOU’LL DO

YOU WILL RIP THEM OUT ONE BY ONE LAYING DOWN TO AVOID MAKING A MESS

You'll start by placing your hand on your abdomen With your fingernails, you will perforate five holes into your skin You'll moan through gritted teeth, "uterus, you have got to go first" And she will try to fight back You will tell her that you will no longer give her the right to tear you apart Layer by layer by layer You are tired

You try to get her to understand this.

It is not personal She will become nasty with you She'll shout shit like "woman up" But you will only hear muffled echoes from your hands as she bleeds You will gently place her next to you She weighs much more than you would have expected

You'll say things you don’t mean like "Fuck you. I hate you.

You've ruined me" She will not say anything in response For the first time, you will see your blood pump from your earlobes to your toenails

You will begin to second guess this whole procedure You'll look to your side and regard how your uterus bleeds out in silence You will rip out your own heart when you are least expecting it At this point, you will start to feel cold "Brain, you are far from least" You will save the most difficult for last It will start with an old Western stare down You'll open your mouth to begin an apology but Your brain will cut you off like How could you?

It is here that you will reach the paramount of your guilt You will be tired.

You will be cold.

You will place both of your hands on either side of your head And you will squeeze [If you thought the uterus was hard, At least with her you had practice] As you apply pressure to your cranium, You will gasp in agony FINALLY Your brain will escape through your skull like a bloody nose

IT WILL NOT BE PRETTY BUT AS A WOMAN YOU WILL NOT HAVE EXPECTED IT TO BE.

Immediately following: The rest of your insides will liquidate and seep out through each of your holes The drip of your lungs will make it difficult to breathe You will become much lighter than you had initially planned

IF YOU ARE NOT ALREADY CHAINED BY YOUR WRISTS TO THE FRAME OF YOUR BED, WHAT HOLLOW REMAINS OF YOU WILL BEGIN TO DRIFT A W A Y .

jalyn