Gauge 18: The Final Frontier

Gauge Editor­in­Chief

Evan Allen

Creative Director

Kate Digilio

Managing Editor

Talia Ralph

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Kelly Smith

Photo Editor

Sarah Jacobs

Editorial Assistant

Matthew Haviland

Design Assistant

Megan Donovan

Fiction Editor Assistant Fiction Editor Poetry Editor Assistant Photo Editor

Rex Horner Nicole Fernandez Jacqueline Frasca Jake Ladue

Web Designer

Meredith Pomeroy

Editorial Team

Lilly Schneider

Contributing Writers Design Team Illustrators Photo Team Fiction Readers Web Writers

issue 18

Paul Ryan

Zoe Hayden

Alexander Kaufman

Elizabeth Cormack Emily Small

Megan Seabaugh

Ella Zander

Julie Gagnon Ariel Goldberg

Jeannie Harrell Jusmine Martin

Hanna Edizel

Lorena Alvarado Hannah Cotier Asher Norris

Molly Coombs

Jeanine Gaitan

Nicholas Dennis

Melissa Park

Zoe Harris

Hannah Rose Parry

Jamie Rogers

Rae Bourque Gordie Hendrick

Katie Neuhof

Tessia Bekelja Veronica Del Rosario Winelle Felix

Clara Everhart

Victoria Reuter

Ted Rogers

Elena Tarchi

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Evan Allen Editor-in-Chief

Graduation: the Final Frontier.

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Kate Digilio Creative Director

notes

We were discussing cowboys and astronauts in a coffee shop when suddenly the question occurred: What makes cowboys so sexy? Something about a man in !"#$%"&'&()(*+',-- '(*$,'$%"'./*."$0'&(1"',*'%(.'2#34'#*)'.,5"'6#.$'#*)')#*+"&,/.' unknown in his eyes. And the theme for Gauge 18 was born: The Final Frontier.

We celebrated with whiskey and toasted to glowing red dust storms on Mars.

Photograph by Alex Dempsey

3

ode to j o h n marion wayne Words by Molly Coombs Photography by Victoria Reuter

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The Marian I knew sang opera while 3,,4(*+' )(**"&' #*)' %#)' !,*+' 3,*6"&.#tions with our pair of seemingly indifferent cats. She was the opposite of the John Wayne cool I so desperately sought to emulate.

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P%"&"' ;"&"*<$' #' !,$' ,- ' Q,%*' @#7*"' moments in those days. The failings, the doubts, the worries – they were my constant companions. I wanted to be as John Wayne as one chubby girl could possibly be, but when your idea of strenuous effort is proper keyboard 8,.$/&"0'#3%("6(*+'$%#$'!"6"!',- '3,,!';#.' *,'.(58!"'$#.49':/$'$%"'-#($%';#.'.$&,*+' #*)'$%"'5#*$&#'/*"=/(6,3#!'H';%#$';,/!)' the Duke do? Certainly not anything my mother would.

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Wayne moments.

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5

Drawing world the

Words by Rex Horner Photography by Jake Ladue

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The Philosopher Next Door

Peter Valentine and his colorful home have been captivating Cambridge for almost twenty years. But what goes on inside may be even more compelling.

Words by Talia Ralph Photography by Hannah Cotier Illustration by Hanna Edizel

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in electromagnetic martial arts. Or, as he calls it on his painted fence, “a better way through the woods.”

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Though Hobbs wanted to see these .$&#*+"' "6"*$.' #.' 8/&"!7' 3,(*3()"*$#!0' %"' 3,/!)'*,$'.%#4"'$%"'-""!(*+'$%#$'\#!"*$(*"' possessed a spiritual strength. “The way D' 6(";")' C"$"&' $%"*' ;#.' $%#$' %"' ;#.' $%"' F&.$' 8"&.,*' ;%,' "6"&' $&/!7' 2"+#*' $%"(&' ,;*' &"!(+(,*0Z' Y,22.' .#7.9' [Y"<.'

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Peter Valentine refused to be interviewed for this article. Instead, he sent the writer this letter.

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glycerol-based chemical cryoprotectant, The cryo8&,$"3$#*$<.' 8/&8,."' (.' $,' extract as much water as possible from the cells, so that his temperature can 2"' !,;"&")' 2"!,;' -&"">ing with minimal damage.

D*.$"#)' ,- ' -&"">(*+0' :#&$' The cat I love is about 70% water. I ;(!!' 6($&(-70' ;%(3%' (.' 5,&"' !(4"' 2"(*+' 8&"."&6")' (*' #' would like to lower that percentage.

A.()"'-&,5')"#$%0'$%"'3&7.$#!!(>#$(,*',- ' sheet of clear glass than a ;#$"&'(*'$%"'2,)7'#.'($'-&"">".'(.'$%"'!#&+- frosty cat-shaped ice cube.

After his blood is ".$' ,2.$#3!"' $,' ,6"&3,5"' (*' 3&7,8&"."&6#$(,*9' ' A.' $%"' $"58"&#$/&"' )&,8.' $%"' &"5,6")0' :#&$' ;(!!' 2"' packed in dry ice until tiny amount of water inside each %"' &"#3%".' 5(*/.' dcd' ,- ' :#&$<.' 3#$' 3"!!.' degrees Fahrenheit. Then ;(!!'

-&"">"9' @%"*' his body will be placed A common mistake is to put it becomes ice and in liquid nitrogen while a dead cat into the freezer. expands, the cell being acoustically monitored for ice Though it seems logical, membranes will 3&7.$#!!(>#$(,*' ;%(!"' %(.' 2,)7' $"58' nothing could be worse for rupture and cause continues to decrease. If ice begins to a dead little hero. potentially irre- form, the Cryonics technicians will hear 6"&.(2!"' )#5#+"9' it and stop the process. With expert This expansion, as monitoring and a little luck, his brain well as damaging .%,/!)*<$' .%#$$"&' (*$,' #' $%,/.#*)' 8("3".' cell walls, can lead to cracking, which is from water expansion. not a technical term. It just means that his organs and body will snap and break What about all the red tape? - or - It’s into icy pieces, which is also considered cool. He’s just a cat.

D- ' :#&$' ;"&"' #' 8"&.,*0' %"<)' *"")' #' a bad thing.

P,'8&"6"*$'(3"'-&,5'-,&5(*+0'#-$"&':#&$' medical examiner or a doctor to legally (.' 4(!!")0' D<!!' (*X"3$' %(5' ;($%' #*' #*$(3,- declare him dead before transporting #+/!#*$0'!(4"'%"8#&(*0'$,'8&"6"*$'%(.'2!,,)' him to the CI in Michigan. And with -&,5' .,!()(-7(*+9' P%"*' D<!!' #)5(*(.$"&' the wild gunplay and incredibly powerful by-the-book cat CPR, to circulate the 8/*3%(*+'(*6,!6")'(*'%(.')"#$%0'$%"'8,!(3"' drug through his entire body: breath- would also want to see the body before (*+',*3"'(*$,'%(.'*,."'n;%(!"'!"#6(*+'%(.' ($' 3,/!)' 2"' 5,6")9' :/$' :#&$' (.' *,$' #' open mouth unobstructed), followed by person, so I can wrap him in his burial ten quick chest compressions about two 1#+'(55")(#$"!79 :#&$' ;(!!' $%"*' 2"' 8!#3")' (*' #' 8(3*(3E inches behind his cat elbow.

The anticoagulant prepares his 2#.4"$E.(>")'3,,!"&';($%'#$'!"#.$',*"E#*)E blood for a washout, which is when #E%#!- ' $(5".' %(.' ;"(+%$' (*' >(8E!,34' 2#+.' $%"' N&7,*(3.' D*.$($/$"' ;(!!' &"5,6"' %(.' of ice cubes and mailed to the Cryonics 2!,,)9' P%"7<!!' $%"*' &"8!#3"' ($' ;($%' #' Institute in Michigan. The cooler will be D<)' .#7' #' 3,*3(."' -#&";"!!0' 2/$' *,$' +,,)bye, and toss him in the fridge.

A common mistake is to put a dead 3#$' (*$,' $%"' -&"">"&9' P%,/+%' ($' .""5.' logical, nothing could be worse for a dead !($$!"'%"&,9'R(58!7'-&"">(*+'#'3#$'3#*'3#/."' )#5#+"',*'#'3"!!/!#&'!"6"!0'.,'N#8$9':#&$' ;(!!'%#6"'$,'2"'8&"88")'2"-,&"'.%,;$(5"9

sealed and labeled “biological specimen 8#34")' (*' (3"0Z' ;%(3%' ($' (.9' D<!!' 8&,2#2!7' also call ahead. Otherwise I run the risk ,- ' %#6(*+' N#8$9' :#&$' &"$/&*")0' ;%(3%' (.' embarrassing.

Why doesn’t everyone do this?

Though its mostly certain to work, there are still some criticisms of cryonics. :#&$<.' &"6(6#!' )"8"*).' ,*' %78,$%"$(3#!' #)6#*3".' (*' $"3%*,!,+79' R,' -#&' *,' 3#$.' %#6"'2""*'&"6(6")'#-$"&'2"(*+'6($&(F")'(*' !(=/()' *($&,+"*9' :/$' $%"*0' *,' 3#$.' %#6"' not not been resuscitated in the future "($%"&9' C"&-/.(,*' %#.*<$' 2""*' 8"&-"3$")0' and tiny bits of ice can still damage 3"!!.9'A*)'.,'-#&0'$%"&"<.'*,';#7'$,'&"8#(&' 3#$.' ,*' #' 3"!!/!#&' !"6"!9' D$<.' #!.,' ;,&$%' 5"*$(,*(*+' $%#$' $%"&"<.' *,' +/#&#*$""' %"';,*<$'3,5"'2#34'%#/*$")']'$%,/+%' experts agree this is unlikely. Still, for N#8$9':#&$'$%"'&(.4.'5#7'2"';,&$%'($0'-,&' %(.'8&"."&6#$(,*'3,/!)'8&,6()"'5,)"&#$"' happiness to the children of tomorrow, ;%,',$%"&;(."'5(+%$',*!7'%#6"'$%"'3,!)0' calculated affection of space cats.

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Walden Pondering

Words by Kelly Smith Photography by Sarah Jacobs

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“The best part is when you see the murk of the bottom and you look up and you can’t see the surface—it’s all a blur. All you can see is blue with these rays coming around like you’re in this magical cathedral of light.”

alden Pond, roughly a 2&"#$%E%,!)' )(6(*+9' D$<.' #' $&#)($(,*' $%#$' half-mile in diameter, has a 3#*<$' 2"' #$$&(2/$")' $,' #' .(*+/!#&' 8"&.,*' self-contained feel to it, like ,&'$(5"',- ',&(+(*]$%"'3&";'),".*<$'%,!)' the inside of a snow globe. ,-F3(#!' 5""$(*+.' #*)' $%"&"' (.' *,' 5"5A rowboat bobs at its center and the 2"&.%(8' -""9' @#!)"*0' -,&' $%"' )(6"&.' #*)' .5"!!' ,- ' )"3#7(*+' !"#6".' .(+*#!.' $&#*.(- their families, is something of a transcention. There is a smattering of trees along )"*$#!' "B8"&("*3"W' #' ."52!#*3"' ,- ' ;%#$' its edge with a thin strip of “beach” too Thoreau recorded during his residence small for walking. there. Three men in particular, Frank ^&#*4'^,&5(3#0'bk0'%#*+.'%(.'1(88"&.' (*3!/)")0'.;(5'@#!)"*<.';#$"&.';"!!'(*$,' ,6"&'$%"'-"*3"'#*)'.$&"$3%".0'#&5.'.;(*+- L,6"52"&9 ing side to side. Frank taught his children [D$<.' *,$' /*3,55,*' $,' .""' %#!- ' #' $,' .;(5' #$' @#!)"*' C,*)9' O6"&7)#7' %"' ),>"*' 8",8!"' .;(55(*+' (*' $%"(&' /*)"&5#4".'$%"'$&(8'-&,5'L";'Y#58.%(&"'$,' wear or less,” John Small, another latehop in for a swim, go for a jog, or to set ."#.,*' )(6"&0' .#7.9' Y"' %#.' X/.$' #&&(6")' up a lounge chair by the water. He says ;($%'K#*("!'N%&(.$(#*.,*0',&'[K(6"&'K#*9Z' Walden has kept him sane, has kept him Q,%*'+!#*3".',/$',6"&'$%"';#$"&0'$%"'./*' #!(6"9 making his eyes a pair of squished grapes. [^,&' 5"' ($<.' $%"' %"#!(*+' "B8"&("*3"' D' [@"<&"' $%"' 3,!,&-/!0' !,3#!' -,!4' $%"7' $#!4' get from this place,” Frank says, “A lot of about in the brochures,” John says. people feel that way.”

John lumbers down the narrow path P%"'@#!)"*'C,*)'`"."&6#$(,*'(.'bmd' $,'$%"';#$"&<.'"*$&#*3"9'[L,$'#'3!,/)'(*' acres of open space that attracts up to $%"'.47JZ'%"'.#7.9'Y"'!,,4.'5,&"'!(4"'#'1,mcc0ccc'8",8!"'"#3%'7"#&9':/$'#;#7'-&,5' $#$(,*')"6(3"'$%#*'#')(6"&'(*'%(.'Y#;#((#*' the tourists and the replica of Henry .;(5' $&/*4.' #*)' 8&(*$")' PE.%(&$9' :/$' K#6()' P%,&"#/<.' 3#2(*' *"#&' $%"' 8#&4(*+' when his eyes make their way to the water, lot, Frank is part of a culture of not-so- he says he feels whole, like he is a part of %())"*0'&,;)70'-&""E)(6(*+E!,3#!.9 something bigger than himself.

P%"' +&,/8' 5""$.' *"#&!7' "6"&7' )#7' Frank touches his toes, stretches his from May to late September to practice tanned legs. He says coming to Walden deep-water snorkeling, also known as /.")'$,'2"'#'-#5(!7'"6"*$0'3,58!"$"';($%'

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Each dive is a series of spiraling moments— the shock to your system is a reminder that you’re still human.

potlucks and picnics. He used to run for miles with his son, Adam, around the 8,*)<.',/$"&'")+".9 “And then I got this dang cancer,” he says. “I was stitched from here,” he motions from his chest to his lower abdomen, “to here.”

Frank has had cancer three times.

[D' !,.$' #!!' ,- ' $%(.' 5/.3!"' .,' D<5' !(4"' )7(*<';%"*'D<5',/$'$%"&"9'D$<.'+,**#'$#4"' me time to build the muscle back up,” he says. ^&#*4'#*)'Q,%*'F&.$'5"$'jf'7"#&.'#+,9' John would come with a mask and snorkel and start at one end of the pond and )(6"'jc'$,'dc'-""$'),;*0';,&4(*+'%(.';#7' to the other for the sake of exploration.

Y(.'5,.$'&"3"*$'F*)U'#'.8"3(".',- '.8,*+"' ,6"&'ecc'5(!!(,*'7"#&.',!)9 A few early birds kick by leisurely in wet suits and swim caps, making sounds like a babbling brook. John dips his toe in ;($%'#*'"B#++"&#$")'.%(6"&9

P%"'3,!)';#$"&'),".*<$'2,$%"&'^&#*49' If anything the sensation—or lack there of—reminds him of his mortality. [@"<!!'.$(!!'2"'.;(55(*+'(*'L,6"52"&] P%#*4.+(6(*+' (.' 57' &"3,&)0Z' ^&#*4' .#7.0' stripping down to a pair of black swim $&/*4.9'P%"'+&,/8',-$"*',&+#*(>".'8,!#&' 2"#&'.;(5.',*'L";'I"#&<.'K#79'N!,."&'$,' $%"'")+"0'^&#*4'.!(*+.',*'%(.'1(88"&.'#*)' "*$"&.'$%"';#$"&'.!,;!79''[D$<.'7,/&'2,)7' 2#.(3#!!7' .#7(*+' (- ' 7,/' ),*<$' +"$' ,/$' ,- ' this water, in a certain amount of time, ($<.' +,**#' 4(!!' 7,/0Z' %"' .#7.9' Y"' 8/.%".' ,-- ' ,- ' $%"' 8,*)<.' 5/&47' 2,$$,5' #*)' +(6".' #' .(!"*$' ;#6"9' Y"' (.' (*' #' >,*"0' %(.' ritual.

[D$<.'!(4"'#'*#&3,$(30Z'K#*'3,*$(*/".'#.' ^&#*4' 1,#$.'#;#79' [I,/' ),*<$' $%(*4](*' -#3$0'7,/'3#*<$'$%(*49'A!!'$%,."'$&,/2!(*+' thoughts, they kind of go away.” The ;#$"&' &"6($#!(>".' .;(55"&.0' K#*' .#7.9' O#3%' )(6"' (.' #' ."&(".' ,- ' .8(&#!(*+' 5,ments—the shock to your system is a

&"5(*)"&' $%#$' 7,/<&"' .$(!!' %/5#*9' P%"' epE7"#&E,!)' %#.' 2""*' 3,5(*+' $,' @#!)"*' -,&' F6"' 7"#&.0' 3%&,*(3!(*+' %(.' )(6".';($%' #*'/*)"&;#$"&'3#5"&#9''K#*<.'&"3,&)')".3"*$'(.'pc'-""$9 One year in particular, Dan made it a 8,(*$'$,'3,5"'"6"&7)#7'$,'$&#3"'$%"'373!"' of seasons as Thoreau does in Walden. “I wanted to experience what Thoreau ex8"&("*3")]%,;' D' -"!$' /*)"&' $%"' !"#6".0' the snow the ice, I watched the whole cycle.”

John shakes his head with a chuckle in &".8,*."'$,'K#*<.'3,**"3$(,*'$,'P%,&"#/9' [D<5' *,$' #.' 8%(!,.,8%(3#!0Z' %"' .#7.9' [D' think, back in his day, people just looked #$'gP%,&"#/h'#*)'.#()0'M:,70'%"<.'#'4,,49<Z

%,5"'27'mUlc0'%(.';(-"';,*)"&.';%"&"'%"' (.9'Y(.'.,*0'*,;'djE7"#&.E,!)0';,*<$'3,5"' ,/$'$,'$%"'8,*)]%"'),".*<$'%#6"'$(5"9 [D'./&"';(.%'$%"7<)'3,5"0Z'%"'.#7.9 ^&#*4'#*)'%(.'1(88"&.'#&"'*,;'#'.8"34' (*' $%"' )(.$#*3"9' O6"&7' -";' 5(*/$".0' %"' stops to tread water for a moment—to catch his breath. The steady rhythm of his kick, the repetition of cupped hands "*$"&(*+' ;#$"&' 5#4".' @#!)"*<.' T3$,2"&' chill comfortable.

[Y"<.' *,$' ;,&&(")' #2,/$' $%"' 3,!)0Z' Q,%*' .#7.9' ZY"' ./&6(6")' 3#*3"&]%"<.' !/347'$,'2"'#!(6"9Z For the three men, it might be the 3%#!!"*+"' ,- ' )(.3,6"&(*+' *";' .8"3(".' $,' document, of pushing their bodies to the limit, that keeps them coming. Dan says Q,%*' 3,5".' $,' @#!)"*' #!5,.$' "6"&7' $%(.')&(6"'(.'-,/*)")'(*'-"#&',- '$%"'[2!#34' night during the summer, usually alone. #27..9Z' ' [P%"&"<.' .,5"$%(*+' #' !($$!"' 2($' [?7' ;(-"' ),".*<$' 5/3%' !(4"' .;(55(*+0Z' scary about that until you cure that fear.” he says. “She always jokes about this Dan says. “I wanted to see what was 8!#3"' 2"(*+' 57' 5(.$&"..9Z' D- ' %"<.' *,$' down there. The more I did it the more I

conquered the fear of that darkness.”

T-$"*0' K#*' .%,,$.' F!5' -&,5' $%"' bottom of the pond up. To get the best footage he ascends in a spiraling motion.

“The best part is when you see the murk of the bottom and you look up and you 3#*<$' .""' $%"' ./&-#3"]($<.' #!!' #' 2!/&9' A!!' you can see is blue with these rays coming #&,/*)' !(4"' 7,/<&"' (*' $%(.' 5#+(3#!' 3#$%"dral of light.”

Walden is his church.

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He says that today, from the bottom, it looks like a Hubble telescope photo of deep space.

Dan nods enthusiastically as he

There were just jellyfish everywhere as I was coming up. It looked like little galaxies— globular, fuzzy galaxies all around me.

&"5(*(.3".'#2,/$'#')(6"'%"'%#)'$%"';""4' before: [P%"&"' ;"&"' X/.$' X"!!7F.%' "6"&7;%"&"' as I was coming up,” he says, his hands ,/$.$&"$3%")' #.' $%,/+%' $%"' .8#3"' #2,6"' %(.' %"#)' ;"&"' #' 3#*6#.9' [D$' !,,4")' !(4"' !($$!"' +#!#B(".]+!,2/!#&0' -/>>7' +#!#B(".' #!!' #&,/*)' 5"9Z' Y"' 8#/.".' #*)' >(8.' %(.'

1""3"9 :#34' 27' $%"' -"*3"0' ^&#*4' $,;"!.' ,-- ' #*)' F*).' #' *(3"' .8,$' (*' $%"' ./*9' Y"' &"3!(*".0' %(.' 8#!5.' .8!#7")' !(4"' !"#6".' ,*' dirt. He sighs once and smiles. “If it ;"&"*<$'-,&'$%(.'8!#3"'D'),*<$'4*,;';%#$' I would do.”

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Shedding Light on the Last Shangri La Words by Alexander Kaufman Photography by Zoe Harris

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lutching his application to resettle in the United States, Thakur Prasad Mishra hesitated at the ),,&' ,- ' $%"' _L' F"!)' ,-F3"' (*' .,/$%"#.$"&*'L"8#!9 P%"' F+%$' $,' /*3"*.,&' :%/$#*<.' media had left Mishra - founder of the F&.$'*";.8#8"&')")(3#$")'$,'$%"'jcf0ccc' )(.8!#3")' S%,$.%#58#.0' L"8#!(E.8"#4"&.'

-&,5':%/$#*'E'$,&*'2"$;""*'%(.'+&,;(*+' #/)("*3"' ,- ' &"-/+"".' (*' L"8#!' #*)' $%"' security and opportunity for a normal life (*'$%"'_*($")'R$#$".9':/$';($%'3,55/*(.$' 5(!($(#.'-&#3$/&(*+'3(6(!($7'(*'$%"'&"-/+"".<' 3,55/*($70'%"'&"#!(>")'&"."$$!"5"*$';#.' his only option.

A*)0'"6"*'(- 'A5"&(3#<.'.$&""$.';"&"*<$' 8#6")'(*'+,!)0'#$'!"#.$'$%"7';"&"*<$'!(*")' with trash and untethered animals. At !"#.$'$%"'*"(+%2,&.'(*'L";'I,&4'3,/!)*<$' see through the walls. At least resettle5"*$' ;,/!)' #!!,;' $%"' &"-/+"".' $,' !"#6"' their life in limbo between the kingdom that kicked them out and the country that kept them in squalor.

For 19 years, rain had showered down through the holes in the cheap plastic &,,F*+' ,- ' $%"(&' 5#4".%(-$' .%#34' (*' $%"' camp. Sweltering summer sun baked the (*.()"' ,- ' $%"' 1(5.7' .$&/3$/&"9' P,' 5#4"' matters worse, the closest neighbors and

all of their garbage, animals, family talks, #*)')(."#."E.8&"#)(*+'3,/+%.'!(6")'(*3%".' away in identically constructed huts.

C&(6#370'?(.%&#'.#7.0')()'*,$'"B(.$9 [D' -""!' !(4"' D' !(6")' (*' ./3%' #' %,/."' where a normal human being would *"6"&' !(6"0Z' %"' .#7.' ,- ' $%"' &#5.%#34!"' .%"!$"&'%"'!(6")'(*'-,&'*"#&!7'$;,')"3#)".9' “It was horrible. It was so horrible.”

L".$!")'%(+%'(*'$%"'Y(5#!#7#.'2"$;""*' D*)(#' #*)' N%(*#0' :%/$#*' (.' #' 3/!$/&#!' $(5"'3#8./!"9'O6"*'(*'($.'3($(".0':/))%(.$' prayer bells ring louder than car horns. :/.(*"..8",8!"' %#6"' 7"$' $,' $&#)"' $%"(&' traditional, orange-and-red-hued robes -,&'+&#7'./($.'#*)'$(".9'P\.'.$#7'$/*")'$,' state-sponsored news stations. Rural folks .$(!!'$&#6"!'27',B9'D*'#*'"--,&$'$,'8&"."&6"' their unique, seemingly peaceful society, &/!"&.' %#6"' 3%"&&7E8(34")' *"#&!7' "6"&7' #.8"3$' ,- ' :%/$#*"."' !(-"0' (*3!/)(*+' ;%,' +"$.'$,'!(6"'(*'$%"'[K&#+,*'G(*+),59Z P%#$<.';%70'(*'jkkc0'#/$%,&($(".'#&&".$")0'$,&$/&")'#*)'-,&3")'?(.%&#<.'-#$%"&'$,' .(+*'#'3,*$&#3$'8&,5(.(*+'$,'!"#6"':%/$#*' when Mishra was just six years old. As L"8#!(E.8"#4(*+' Y(*)/.0' $%"' ?(.%&#.' .(58!7')()*<$'F$'$%"'5,!)9' L,;0'dpE7"#&E,!)'?(.%&#0'#'X,/&*#!(.$' #*)' -&""' 8&"..' #)6,3#$"0' &/*.' $%"' 5/!$(5")(#' :%/$#*' L";.' R"&6(3"' -&,5' %(.'

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College of Journalism and Mass N,55/*(3#$(,*';($%'%(.'2&,$%"&<.'F*#*cial backing, started publishing The Bhutan Reporter, an English-language newspaper distributed throughout the camps once a month.

Thousands of refugees knew his *#5"9' :"*"#$%' %(.' 27!(*".' $%"7' !"#&*")' ;%"$%"&'$%"'_L';,/!)'3,*$(*/"'$,'8&,6()"' $%"5' #()0' ;%"*' $%"' _*($")' R$#$".' would resettle applicants trickling into $%"'(*$"&*#$(,*#!'#()',-F3".0'#*)'(- '$%"(&' homeland would consider letting them return.

“The goal was to keep the refugee community informed about what was going on,” he says. :/$'8/2!(.%(*+' (*' O*+!(.%' !(5($")'%(.' #/)("*3"'$,'$%"'jc0ccc',&'.,'&"-/+"".'!($"&#$"'(*'$%"'!#*+/#+"9'R,0'(*'dccm0'?(.%&#' booked time in a Katmandu radio station, ;%"&"' %"' 2&,#)3#.$' #' L"8#!(E!#*+/#+"' program into the camps.

“Radio was really the best medium to reach most people,” he says. “People were like, ‘Hey, this is in our language, I /*)"&.$#*)'$%(.9<Z When word came from Washington

that the US Buddhist prayer bells ring louder than + , 6 " & * 5 " * $' car horns. Businesspeople have yet to would take trade their traditional, orange-and-red(*' mc0ccc' hued robes for gray suits and ties. TVs Lhotshampas, stay tuned to state-sponsored news Mishra was skeptical. stations. Rural folks still travel by ox.

He says he In an effort to preserve their unique, dreamed of seemingly peaceful society, rulers have returning to cherry-picked nearly every aspect of :%/$#*' #*)' Bhutanese life, including who gets to injecting the live in the “Dragon Kingdom.”

3,/*$&7<.' *";.' outlets with the editorial independence necessary to form a healthy democracy. :/$'$%"'+,6"&*5"*$'&"-/.")'$,'+&#*$'%(5' 3($(>"*.%(80' #*)' %"<)' #!&"#)7' .8"*$' 5,.$' ,- ' %(.' !(-"' !#*+/(.%(*+' (*' $%"' L"8#!"."' camps. Something had to change, he thought. ?(.%&#'2"+#*'#)6,3#$(*+'-,&'&"."$$!"ment on air and in Bhutan Reporter articles, *,$'&"#!(>(*+'$%"':%/$#*'P(+"&'^,&3"0'#*' #&5")' ."3$' ,- ' $%"' 3,55/*(.$' :%/$#*' C",8!"<.'C#&$7'(*'$%"'3#58.0';"&"'4""*'$,' F+%$'#'+/"&&(!!#';#&'#+#(*.$'$%"':%/$#*"."9' Knowing they had power in numbers, the militants were adamantly opposed to any,*"'!"#6(*+'$%"'3#58.9

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When threats from communist thugs .$#&$")' 1,,)(*+' %(.' Y,$5#(!' (*2,B0' ?(.%&#'4*";'($';#.'$(5"'$,'!"#6"'L"8#!9 “They said, ‘if you want your family to be safe, you will stop saying anything #2,/$' &"."$$!"5"*$0<Z' %"' .#7.9' [P%"7' #3cused me of being a writer paid by the _L'#*)'_R'+,6"&*5"*$9Z O6"*' #-$"&' %"' $/&*")' (*' %(.' #88!(3#tion, he debated whether to stay or go to the US for weeks. The aid workers in $%"' _R' +,6"&*5"*$' F"!)' ,-F3".0' 3#!!")'

T6"&."#.' C&,3"..(*+' O*$($(".' nTCOo0' (*$"&6(";")'%(50'.3&""*")'%(.'2#34+&,/*)0' "6#!/#$")' %(.' %"#!$%' #*)' F*#!!7' )""5")' him eligible for resettlement. The pros8"3$' ,- ' 5,6(*+' ,*' -&,5' $%"' .$#+*#*$0' seemingly futureless life in the camps became more and more appealing. Two )#7.'2"-,&"'$%"'*"B$'1(+%$'$,'L";'Q"&."7<.'

L";#&4' D*$"&*#$(,*#!' A(&8,&$0' %"' 5#)"' /8'%(.'5(*)'$,'!"#6"'L"8#!9 [D'4"8$'($'#'."3&"$W'D')()'*,$'$"!!'#*7,*"' I had applied until two days before I was +,(*+' ,*' $%"' 8!#*"0Z' %"' .#7.' ,- ' $%"' jpE %,/&'1(+%$9' Meanwhile, the communists exploded three bombs near Thimphu, the :%/$#*"."' 3#8($#!0' #*)' 3,/*$!"..' ,$%"&.'

(*'$%"',-F3".',- '(*$"&*#$(,*#!'#()'+&,/8.' #*)'$%"'_L9 According to a US State Department ,-F3(#!0' 2,52' $%&"#$.' 3#/.")' #' */52"&' ,- ' #)5(*(.$&#$(6"' F"!)' ,-F3".0' ;%"&"' refugees applied for resettlement, to $"58,&#&(!7'3!,."'(*'dccf9 “The whole program had to be shut down a few times because security was ./3%' #*' (../"0Z' $%"' ,-F3(#!0' .8"#4(*+' ,*' condition of anonymity because she (.' *,$' #/$%,&(>")' to comment, says [D' $%(*4' ($<)' 2"' “I feel like I lived in in a telephone in5,&"' )(-F3/!$' -,&' such a house where $"&6(";9' [I,/' 3#*<$' them to go back,” a normal human being ask people to run .%"' .#7.9' [D<5' *,$' would never live.” – #*' TCO' (- ' $%"7<&"' ./&"' %,;' $%"7<)' Thakur Prasad Mishra in danger.” be treated by their Y,;"6"&0'2#&&(*+' countrymen.” a few hiccups around :/$0' 5,&"' $%#*' that time, the OPEs anything, Mishra continue to process .#7.' %"' ;#*$.' $,' &"$/&*' $,' :%/$#*9' Y(.' &"-/+"".9' P%"' _R' "52#..7' (*' L"8#!' work as a media liaison - connecting re&"8,&$")' lc0ccc' S%,$.%#58#.' ;"&"' 8,&$"&.' -&,5' L";' I,&4' $,' A5.$"&)#5' resettled in the US as of September 1. ;($%' .,/&3".'(*' L"8#!' E' !(5($.' %(.'#2(!($7' P%"' ,-F3(#!0' ;%,' !#.$' $&#6"!")' $,' $,'3%#*+"':%/$#*'$%"';#7'%"';#*$.'$,9 :%/$#*' $"*' 7"#&.' #+,0' .#7.' $%"&"' (.' !($$!"'

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to the country and report on life in the remote corners of the kingdom. If he &"$/&*.' $,' %(.' 3,/*$&7' #.' #' :%/$#*"."'

3($(>"*0' %"' .#7.' %"<!!' &"+(.$"&' $%"' :%/$#*' L";.' R"&6(3"' #*)' $&#(*' $%"' :%/$#*<.'

X,/&*#!(.$.' $,' 2"' #++&"..(6"' ;#$3%),+.' and gatekeepers, to emulate the Western model of the Fourth Estate. [:%/$#*' *"").' $,' @".$"&*(>"' (*' #' complete way,” he says. “It might take #*,$%"&'dc0'lc'7"#&.0'2/$'D';(!!'&"$/&*'$,' :%/$#*'.,5")#79Z

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as you are

A Season Ends at the Berkshire Nudist Resort Words by Melissa Park Photography by Gordie Hendrick

W

e sit on lawn chairs on the O6"&7,*"'(.'.5(!(*+'*,;0'+&""$(*+'5"' weekend of the season and the cold wind porch of his trailer together— openly. I try not to let my eyes wander 4""8.' "6"&7,*"' (*.()"' ,&' 3!,$%")9' P%(.' me in my thick, two-layer coat toward the counter, where I know the is another misconception Diana clears and Mike with a can of beer, nude man is still standing, watching, and up—when it gets cold, nudists put on -/!!7' */)"9' Y"' (.' ,*"' ,- ' $%"' -";' 2&#6"' D'),*<$'4*,;'%,;'$,'&"#3$0',&'"6"*'5,&"' layers, too. nudists willing to endure the brisk wind importantly, where my eyes will land.

For Diana, nudism does more good $,' $#4"' #)6#*$#+"' ,- ' $%"' !#.$' R#$/&)#7' :/$'K#**7'(.'#!&"#)7'/.%"&(*+'5"',/$' $%#*' %#&59' [D' $%(*4' 7,/' %#6"' #' 2"$$"&' ,- ' $%"' ."#.,*' #$' :"&4.%(&"' \(.$#' L/)(.$' the door again and into the grumbling self-body image, you feel much more Resort. +,!- ' 3#&$9' ^&,5' %(.' )&(6"&<.' ."#$' (*' $%"' comfortable in your own skin,” she says.

[I,/' $"!!' 8",8!"' #2,/$' $%(.0Z' %"' +".- front, Danny recites a prepared narration [@"<6"' %#)' 8",8!"' %"&"' ;($%' 5#.$"3$,tures to himself and then out towards the ,- ':"&4.%(&"'\(.$#0'8,(*$(*+',/$'6#&(,/.' mies and colostomies and nobody makes jddE#3&"' 3#58+&,/*)0' [#*)' $%"7' 3#*<$' additions in the camp, including the hot a big gawk about it.”

"6"*'/*)"&.$#*)';%#$'($<.'!(4"9'I,/'%#6"' $/2.' #*)' 8,,!.9' P%"' &".,&$' (.' )(6()")' R%"' #*)' %"&' %/.2#*)' !(6"' #' */)(.$' to come here, like you coming here now, into three smaller neighborhoods of lifestyle at home as well, but she admits or no one will really be able to grasp what 5#4".%(-$'$&#(!"&.'#*)'`\.]P%"'V%"$$,0' ($<.'*"6"&'$%"'.#5"'#.'2"(*+'#$'$%"'3#589' ($'(.9'P%"7'),*<$'%#6"'$,'3,5"'*#4")0'$%"7' R*,2<.'Y(!!'#*)'Y"#6"*9 She still wears clothes when she goes to just need to experience the ;,&4' #$' $%"' #)6#*3"5"*$' ,-F3"' people, the innocence.” at a nearby college.

P%"':"&4.%(&"'\(.$#'L/)(.$' Although only about three Resort is a high meadow at the percent of the American popuFor Diana, nudism does more good -,,$' ,- ' $%"' !,-$7' :"&4.%(&"' lation is recreationally nude, the than harm. “I think you have a better Mountains in Hancock, A5"&(3#*' A..,3(#$(,*' -,&' L/)"' self-body image, you feel much more Massachusetts. Its entrance `"3&"#$(,*' &"3,+*(>".' dmc' 3!,$%comfortable in your own skin,” she on Kittle Road is dappled with ing-optional destinations across says. “We’ve had people here with large, leaning trees—easy for the country and has almost mastectomies and colostomies and local skiers and hikers to miss ec0ccc' 5"52"&.0' #' */52"&' $%"7' nobody makes a big gawk about it.” ,*'$%"(&';#7'$,'*"#&27'Q(5(*7<.' &"8,&$'%#.'),/2!")'(*'$%"'8#.$'jc' Peak. years.

Owners Danny and Ginny Danny drops me off at the :,,4.$"(*' #&"' "B8"3$(*+' 5"' next trailer, where a small group at the Kittle House, the small red cabin K(#*#'!(6".'(*'#'$&#(!"&'(*'Y"#6"*9'R%"' clusters around the front porch, hunched $%#$'."&6".'#.'$%"(&',-F3"'#*)'7"#&E&,/*)' is one of the few campers who has been against the wind. It takes me a while to home. They show me around the camp 3,5(*+'$,':"&4.%(&"'\(.$#'"6"*'2"-,&"'($' &"3,+*(>"' 57' *"B$' (*$"&6(";""' #.' $%"' in a bumpy golf cart. Danny sports thick was an established nudist resort. She is same man from the clubhouse. Holding a eyewear—a post-care requirement of his a wiry woman with open eyes and a big 3#*',- '2""&'(*',*"'%#*)0'%"';#6".'-,&'5"' recent cataract surgery. His wife smiles smile. When she laughs, her whole face to sit beside him. often and asks questions about my life, crinkles with the sound of it. I like her Mike laughs so easily, as do his friends, while Danny jostles the cart toward the immediately. Her trailer is cluttered with $%"'&"5#(*(*+'-";';%,'%#6"'!(*+"&")'$,' clubhouse. .5#!!'$&(*4"$.9'L,$%(*+'5#$3%".9' "*X,7' $%"' F*#!' ;""4"*)9' :"347' (.' ,*"' D*.()"0' $%"&"' (.' #' )#*3"' 1,,&' #*)' #' R%"' (.' *"($%"&' 2($$"&' *,&' )"-"*.(6"' ,- '$%"59'P%(.';#.'%"&'F&.$'-/!!'."#.,*'#$' DJ booth on one side of the room and when I ask about misconceptions of the :"&4.%(&"' \(.$#0' #*)' .%"' #!&"#)7' )&"#).' a bar on the other. It is late afternoon, */)(.$'!(-".$7!"9'[D'$%(*4'$%"7'$%(*4';"<&"' returning home where clothing is not but people are still lining the counters for #!!' 8"&6"&$.0Z' .%"' .#()9' [D' &"#!!7' $%(*4' optional. plates of greasy meatball subs and fries. $%#$<.' ;%#$' $%"7' $%(*49' A*)' g;"' #&"*<$h9' [Y"&"0'7,/'3#*'!"#6"'$%"',/$.()"';,&!)'

I see a man, fully nude, standing at the Sorry to disappoint.” #!,*"0' 7,/' 3#*' !"#6"' ($' #$' $%"' +#$"0' 7,/' 3,/*$"&9'Y"'(.'$%"'F&.$',*"'$,'!,,4'/89 Today, she is not nude. It is the last 3,5"'/8'%"&"'#*)'7,/'),*<$'%#6"'$,'$%(*4'

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“You tell people about this, and they can’t even understand what it’s like.

You have to come here, like you coming here now, or no one will really be able to grasp what it is.

They don’t have to come naked, they just need to experience the people, the innocence.”

#2,/$'+,(*+'$,';,&4',*'?,*)#7',&';%#$<.' going on at home,” she says. “There are *,' 8%,*".0' 7,/' ),*<$' %#6"' $,' 3%"34' $%"' D*$"&*"$9' P%(.' (.' #*' ".3#8"0' "6"&7' ;""4end is an escape from your day to day life.”

Mike and the others nod silently. In less than three days, the gates will close behind the last “I think they think we’re all $&#(!"&' #*)' #.' :"347' 8/$.' perverts. I really think that’s ($0'[O6"&7,*"'+,".'2#34'$,' what they think. And [we the real world.” Although aren’t]. Sorry to disappoint.” :"347' #*)' %"&' %/.2#*)' hope to continue their nudist lifestyle at home as well, she says it always -""!.' 5,&"' )(-F3/!$' ;($%' 4().' #*)' +&#*)4().' #&,/*)9' O6"*' ?(4"0' ;%,' ,8"*!7' practices a nudist lifestyle at home like Diana, must go back to business casual -,&'%(.';,&4'#$'#'/*(6"&.($79 P%"'=/("$'$%#$'-,!!,;.'$%(.'&"#!(>#$(,*' (.' #!5,.$' ;(.$-/!9' :/$' $%"*' ?(4"' .#7.0' [S"$<.' #!!' .(*+' G/52#7#%9Z' A*)' $%(.' ."$.'

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Owner of the Berkshires Resort, Danny Bookstein

little house on the

red planet Words by Evan Allen Photography by Katie Neuhof

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(&.$0'$%"7<!!'."*)'&,2,$.'$,'8/58' and more like a possioxygen into portable houses bility. From America to underneath the pink Martian A/.$&#!(#'$,'R;($>"&!#*)0' sky. Two years later, humans will follow: a ,&+#*(>#$(,*.' !(4"' $%"' team of four who will breathe this new air Mars Foundation are and begin setting up plants to manufac- pushing for funding ture basic supplies like plastic, bricks, and #*)' 1(+%$9' N(6(!(>#$(,*' rocket fuel. With the help of the robots, 5#7' 2"' 5,6(*+' ,/$' ,- ' $%"."'.8#3"'8(,*""&.';(!!'5(*"'?#&.<.'./&- lower Earth orbit.

-#3"' -,&' 2/(!)(*+' 5#$"&(#!.9' P%"7<!!' 8!#*$' The idea of space simple crops in greenhouses, and expand 3,!,*(>#$(,*' %#.' #!;#7.' their habitat to prepare for more settlers.

2""*'#'-#6,&($"',- ';&($O6"*$/#!!70' 8"&5#*"*$' %(!!.()"' ."$$!"- ers like H. G. Wells, ments will be built against the sloping but it took a giant leap walls of Candor Chasma, part of the $,;#&)' &"#!($7' (*' jkpb' "*,&5,/.' 3#*7,*' .7.$"5' 3#!!")' \#!!".' when physicist Gerard ?#&(*"&".' $%#$' &/*.' d0ecc' 5(!".' "#.$' $,' G9' T<L"(!!' 8/2!(.%")' #*' ;".$' #3&,..' ?#&.<.' ./&-#3"0' )""8"&' $%#*' article in Physics Today O#&$%<.' V&#*)' N#*7,*9' D*.()"' $%"' "*- 3#!!")'[P%"'N,!,*(>#$(,*' closed settlements, there will be gardens of Space.” The article and trees and plants hanging from the -"#$/&")' $%"' F&.$' .3("*ceilings. $(F3#!!7'-"#.(2!"'8!#*'-,&' [@%"&"6"&' 7,/<&"' ;#!4(*+0' D' ;#*$' building habitats, called you to be able to reach out and pick [T<L"(!!'

37!(*)"&.0Z' #' .$&#;2"&&70Z' .#7.' :&/3"' ?#34"*>("0' in which people could 3,E-,/*)"&' #*)' "B"3/$(6"' )(&"3$,&' ,- ' !(6"'(*'.8#3"9'P%"'.8#3"' the Mars Foundation, a Massachusetts- #3$(6(.$' 5,6"5"*$' ;#.'

2#.")' ,&+#*(>#$(,*' )")(3#$")' $,' 8!#*- 2,&*9'P%"'Se'R,3("$7'-,&5")'(*'jkpe'$,' *(*+' #' 6(#2!"' %,5".$"#)' ,*' $%"' &")' 8&,5,$"'T<L"(!!<.'()"#.9 8!#*"$9'?#34"*>("0'ef0'(.'#'?#..#3%/."$$.'

The Mars Foundation is a successor Institute of Technology grad with glasses $,' T<L"(!!<.' 6(.(,*9' :&/3"' ?#34"*>("0' #' and a salt-and-pepper beard. Spread on -,&5"&'5"52"&',- 'Se0'.$#&$")'$%"'?#&.' the table before him are stacks of papers, ^,/*)#$(,*'(*'dccb';($%'$%"'.8"3(F3'+,#!' hard copies of different parts of the Mars ,- '3&"#$(*+'#'6(#2!"'.8#3"'."$$!"5"*$'8!#*9' Homestead Plan.

D$.'5"52"&.'#&"'#'.5#!!'#*)'1/()'+&,/8' At its nearest point in its orbit, Mars is ,- '6,!/*$""&.U'.3("*$(.$.'#*)'.8#3"'"*$%/lb'5(!!(,*'5(!".'#;#7'-&,5'O#&$%'H'#$'($.' siasts who spend their time working on -/&$%".$0' ($' (.' *"#&!7' dec' 5(!!(,*9' :/$' ($<.' ?#&.'3,!,*(>#$(,*'8&,X"3$.'!(4"'$%"'?#&.' getting closer. Earth is home to six billion Y,5".$"#)' C!#*9' D$<.' #' *,$E-,&E8&,F$' 8",8!"0' #*)' ;#&0' 8,6"&$70' ,6"&8,8/!#- ,&+#*(>#$(,*' $%#$' +"$.' ($.' -/*)(*+' -&,5' tion, and pollution 8&(6#$"'),*,&.9 $%&"#$"*' ,/&' ./&6(6#!'

Like many who #.' #' .8"3(".9' :/$' #.' dream of space coloWe’re going to Mars. .3("*3"' #)6#*3".0' *(>#$(,*0' ?#34"*>("' We’d be less than the dream of life on +&";'/8'(*'$%"'F-$(".'

Mars is looking more and sixties. He came human if we didn’t.

of age during the Cold War and the race to the moon, when science promised both destruction and miracles. “One )#7';"';,/!)'%#6"'#*'"B"&3(."'(*'.3%,,!' about what to do in case of a nuclear at$#340'#*)'$%#$'#-$"&*,,*'D<)'2"'&"#)(*+'#' 8,8/!#&'.3("*3"'5#+#>(*"'#2/$'$%"'3($(".' ,- '$%"'-/$/&"0';($%'"6"&72,)7'%#6(*+'$%"(&' own personal helicopter,” he says. “And I &"#!(>")' $%#$' ;"' &"#!!7' %#6"' $,' +"$' .,5"' 8",8!"',-- '$%"'8!#*"$'$,'.#6"'3(6(!(>#$(,*9Z ?#34"*>("'"*6(.(,*.'*,$',*!7'#'3,!,*7',*'?#&.0'2/$'6#.$'3($(".'.8&"#)'#3&,..' $%"' .,!#&' .7.$"59' C",8!"' ;,/!)' !(6"' (*' enormous climate-controlled habitats in the asteroid belt, near the moon, and in ?#&.<.',&2($9 :/$' $%"&"' #&"' )#/*$(*+' ,2.$#3!".9' ?/3%',- '$%"'$"3%*,!,+7';"<)'*"")'$,'+"$'

$,'?#&.'%#.'7"$'$,'2"'(*6"*$")9'D$.')"6"!,85"*$'#!,*"';(!!'3,.$'#$'!"#.$'adc'2(!!(,*' #33,&)(*+' $,' .,5"' .8#3"' #3$(6(.$' ".$(5#$".W'"#3%'!#/*3%'3,.$.'#2,/$'aj'2(!!(,*9' P%"' -")"&#!' +,6"&*5"*$' (.' *,$' ;(!!ing to spend that kind of money. This 7"#&0' C&".()"*$' T2#5#' 3/$' LARA<.'

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antarctica a cold hearted love affair Words by ZoĂŤ Hayden Photography by Ted Rogers Illustration by Emily Small

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ntarctica has a way of mak(*+' 5,&$#!' 8"&(!' /*2"!("6#2!7' intoxicating. Just ask Ernest Shackleton, whose wife, Emily, 5(+%$'%#6"'3#!!")'A*$#&3$(3#'%(.'5(.$&"..9' Obsessed with the brutal landscape, he returned again and again to try and conquer the continent.

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the United Kingdom. In 1912, he learned Their original mission, the crossing of that his former commander Scott had the Antarctic continent on foot, had long 8"&(.%")'(*'@".$"&*'A*$#&3$(3#',- '.$#&6#- been forgotten. The once-proud expedition after his own failed push to the Pole. $(,*' ;#.' *,;' #' 6(!!#+"' ,- ' 3#*6#.' $"*$.0' According to his correspondence with plopped helplessly upon the surface Emily, he had no intention of going back of the ice. $,'$%"'A*$#&3$(39':/$'(*'$%(.'3#."'%"')()' :/$'(3"'(.'#'$&(347'$%(*+0'#*)';%"$%"&'#$' ;%#$' #*7' 5#*' ;,/!)' ),' ;%(!"' %#6(*+' #' land or sea, it is inescapable in Antarctica. long extramarital affair: he lied.

A$' #*7' 5,5"*$0' .%"!6".' ,- ' /*2&,4"*' So, in March of 1916, four years whiteness could split with the rise and after the death of Scott, Shackleton was fall of water beneath. Pockets of ice *,$' #$' %,5"' (*' L,&-,!40' O*+!#*)0' ;($%' 3,/!)' 5"!$' ;($%(*' $%"' 2,)7' ,- ' $%"' 1,"0' his wife and family. He was adrift on an 5#4(*+' %())"*' F../&".' $%#$' ;,/!)' ./)(3"'1,"'(*'$%"'@"))"!!'R"#9'Y(.'.%(8'%#)' )"*!7' -#(!' $,' ./88,&$' #' 5#*<.' ;"(+%$9' been crushed four months earlier by the P%"')#*+"&';#.'3,*.$#*$9':/$'($';#.';%#$' immense pressure of the 8#34' (3"9' Y"' ./&6"7")' each of his 28 men daily, looking for indications According to his correspondence of the deterioration of with Emily, Shackleton had no inten$%"(&')&(6"',&'$%"(&'5"*$#!' tion of going back to the Antarctic. state. They were waiting But in this case he did what any for an opening in the ice, man would do while having a long a chance to launch the extramarital affair: he lied. boats, a chance to set off and make landfall.

Shackleton had come for.

Expeditions to the Antarctic, both in R%#34!"$,*<.'$(5"'#*)'*,;0'#!;#7.'$""$"&' 2"$;""*' 3,*3"(6#2!"' &(.4.' #*)' /*2"!("6able ones. The men of the Heroic Age ,- ' A*$#&3$(3' OB8!,&#$(,*' 3,/!)' %#6"' hardly picked a more forbidding place to $&7'$,'3,*=/"&9'P%"')".(&"'-,&'#)6"*$/&"' ;#.' ,-$"*' X/.$(F")' ;($%' #' &"#.,*' !(4"' .3("*$(F3' )(.3,6"&7' ,&' &"."#&3%0' #*)' $%"' expeditions often took meteorologists, biologists, and geologists along for the &()"9':/$'#'3!"#&!7'.$#$")'+,#!'),".*<$'$#4"' #;#7'$%"'$%&(!!9'D$'3"&$#(*!7')()*<$'5#4"'($' any less likely that they would die.

Today, people still return to Ross D.!#*)0' ;%(3%' (.' -&,>"*' (*$,' $%"' (3"' $%#$' 8"&5#*"*$!7' 3,6"&.' ?3?/&),' R,/*)9' Once the trusty base for Shackleton, Scott, and other expedition leaders of the Heroic Age, it is now the site of McMurdo Station, the largest human habitation in Antarctica.

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1,;*' $,' A*$#&3$(3#U' $%"' ."#' (3"' 5#4".'($.'F&.$'#88"#&#*3"'$%&,/+%' a tiny window, and the plane lands ,*'$%#$'.#5"'-&,>"*',3"#*9' 'O6"&7$%(*+'(.'3,!)'#*)0'#2,6"' all, extremely white. The only interruption in the snowy white*"..'(.'2!#340'#.%7'&,34'."&6(*+'#.' a reminder that at one point, four 6,!3#*,".' "&/8$")' -&,5' $%"' ."#' to produce this tiny island, now locked in ice. The weather is extremely dry: Antarctica is a desert.

Lips crack immediately when exposed to the air. The sun is blind(*+0' #*)' "6"&7' 2($' ,- ' .4(*' 5/.$' 2"' 3,6"&")' ;($%' ./*.3&""*0' including the insides of nostrils.

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Sarah Das is a glaciologist who has studied on McMurdo. She took %"&' F&.$' $&(8' $,'

The desire for adventure was often justified with a reason like scientific discovery or research, and the expeditions often took meteorologists, biologists, and geologists along for the ride. But a clearly stated goal doesn’t take away the thrill. It certainly didn’t make it any less likely that they would die.

A*$#&3$(3#' (*' jkke0' ;,&4(*+' #.' #' F"!)' assistant on Antarctic research projects.

[P%"' F&.$' $(5"' ;#.' $,$#!!7' )(--"&"*$' #*)' "B3($(*+0Z'.%"'.#7.9'[@%"*'7,/'#&&(6"0'7,/' #&"' X/.$' ,6"&;%"!5")' ;($%' $%(.' 2!#.$' ,- ' 3,!)' #*)' ;%($"9' D$<.' .$(!!' !(4"' $%(.' "6"&7' time I get off the plane.”

Das, who currently works at Woods Hole Oceanographic Institution (WHOI) in Massachusetts, has been to Antarctica a total of six times. “I always liked

"B8!,&(*+' #*)' #)6"*$/&"9' D' $%,/+%$' it would be neat in college to go to Antarctica,” she says. She describes McMurdo as a space camp, built %#8%#>#&)!7' ,*' $%"' 5,,*' H' #' 5#>"' ,- ' ),&5($,&(".' #*)' 5"..' halls, full of military personnel and scientists. She says she felt utterly ,6"&;%"!5")' 27' $%"' !#34' ,- ' 3,!,&.0' the lack of children, the lack of growing things. The experience ;#.' /*"B8"3$")0' -#&' &"5,6")' -&,5' $%"' )&#5#$(30' +&#*)(,."' 6(.(,*.' ,- ' !(-"' (*' A*$#&3$(3#' $%#$' .%"<)' had before. The reality was far more interesting. @%"&"' !(-"' %#.' "6,!6")' 2"*"#$%' the Antarctic Circle, it tends to stand out in stark contrast to the featureless, unbroken ice that constitutes much of the continent. Chris Linder, an oceanographic researcher, writer, and freelance photographer who has also worked for WHOI, has watched this "6,!/$(,*' /*-,!)9' Y"' %#.' $#4"*' $%&""' Antarctic journeys, and his particular &"."#&3%'+#6"'%(5'$%"',88,&$/*($7'$,'!(6"'

;($%'$%"'6#.$'3,!,*7',- 'A)q!("'8"*+/(*.' on Ross Is!#*)9' [D$<.' #' 5(3&,3,.5' ,- ' Antarctica,” he says. “All of the life on Antarctica exists on the edges of the continent. The penguins are on the edges of Ross Island.” Half a million 8"*+/(*.' !(6"' ,*' $%"' (.!#*)' 7"#&E&,/*)0' ,/$*/52"&(*+' $%"' jdcc' %/5#*.' ;%,' call McMurdo their temporary home in the summertime. :/$' A*$#&3$(3#' (.' %#&)!7' %,5"9' D$' 8,.".'(*3&")(2!"')#*+"&0'7"$';"'3#*<$'4""8' ,/&."!6".'#;#79'@%#$'.$#&$")'#.'#'%"#$")' crush has become a long, sensational romance. Much effort has gone into making Antarctica more habitable for $%"' 8",8!"' ;%,' 6(.($' %"&0' 2/$' $%"' %#&.%' climate is just as unpredictable, the contrast to landscapes that naturally support %/5#*' !(-"' X/.$' #.' +&"#$9' I"$' $%"' 8",8!"' ;%,'%#6"'2""*'$%"&"'.""'A*$#&3$(3#';($%' $%"'&,5#*$(3(.$<.'"7"9 [I,/'+,'$%"&"',*3"0Z'.#7.'S(*)"&0'[#!!' you think about is a different way to +"$' ),;*9' D$<.' !(4"' +,(*+' $,' #*,$%"&' planet entirely.”

Deserted I Words by Lilly Schneider Illustration by Rae Bourque

n July of the summer that marked my halfway point through college, my best friend Graham and I set out in an old grey Toyota to conquer the A5"&(3#*'@".$9'@"'F+/&")';"<)'.$#&$'(*' Washington, swing across Oregon, Idaho and Utah, then climb up through the whole state of California. Just the two of us, with camping gear and our steady grey steed: we wanted to feel like the pioneers of the past. We wanted to look out at A5"&(3#' #*)' F*)' ($' ;#.' "6"&7$%(*+' ;"' thought it was or had been.

A$' *(+%$0' ;"' 3#58")' 2".()"' &(6"&.0' sleeping in the dirt. We sang old songs to !/!!',/&."!6".'$,'.!""80';#.%")',/&')(.%".' in the water. Daytime was for speed. We clocked triple digits through Utah, where we stood on cliffs all the colors of a burnt &#(*2,;' #*)' !,,4")' ,/$' ,6"&' $%"' .#5"' !#*).3#8"' $%"' "B8!,&"&.' 5/.$' %#6"' .""*9' @"'&,!!")'$%&,/+%'+!($$"&(*+'S#.'\"+#.'#.' quickly as possible, in chilly dawn, and a day later we entered the strange world of Q,.%/#' P&""' L#$(,*#!' C#&49' K""8' (*' $%"' ?,X#6"'K"."&$0'$%"'[8#&4Z'"*3,58#..")' one winding road, marked campsites, and a few plastic outhouses. There was no running water anywhere, and the nearest $,;*';#.'-,&$7EF6"'5(*/$".'#;#79

L,' 8!#3"' .,' -#&0' *,$' "6"*' _$#%<.' the landscape. We could also see the parkgargantuan canyons, had seemed as new ing lot, and our car, parked a few ridges to our eyeballs as this. I imagined that beyond. Why not explore a little further? frontiering folk had seen it in the same P%"' 3#&' ;#.' X/.$' ,6"&' $%#$' &()+"0' (- ' ;"' way. It was like another planet. Rocks took a shortcut. rose up in great swells and points, or surAnd this is how Graham and I got faced from the dusty earth like the backs lost. of whales. They were unlike any rocks D*'$%"'?,X#6"'K"."&$9 ;"<)' "6"&' .""*0' #*)' ;"' )()*<$' &"3,+*(>"' In July. any of the plants. The Joshua trees, bare, We had no cell phone, no map, no crooked things with baubles of spikes on sunscreen, no food, and only half a galtheir branch-ends, were sometimes two lon of water. feet high and sometimes six. All sense D<5' *,$' ./&"' ;%"*' ;"' &"#!(>")' ;"' ,- '.3#!"0',- '8"&.8"3$(6"0';#.'+,*"W'!,,4- ;"&"'!,.$9'A$'F&.$';"';"&"'"*X,7(*+',/&ing out, it was impossible to tell whether ."!6".0'#*)'$%"*';"';"&"'#'!($$!"'*"&6,/.0' .,5"$%(*+';#.',*"',&'F6"'5(!".'#;#79'@"' and then we were screwed. The sun, so parked in an abandoned campsite and %,$'$%"'&#*+"&'%#)'#)6(.")'*,'5,&"'$%#*' went immediately out into the desert, $;"*$7'5(*/$".<'&#;'"B8,./&"'8"&')#70'%#)' eager to explore. .""5")' #$' F&.$' #' 3/&(,.($7' $,' /.W' .$&#*+"' The rocks were rough like coral is ./*0' .($$(*+' /8' $%"&"' .,' %,$J' R/))"*!70' &,/+%9'O6"*';($%',/&'3#&E.$(--"*")'X,(*$.' $%"' 6"&7' ./*' $%#$' %#)' ;#&5")' /.' *(3"!7' ;"' -,/*)' ;"' 3,/!)' 3!(52' *"#&E6"&$(3#!' ,/&' ;%,!"' .%,&$' !(6".' 2"3#5"' #' ."&(,/.' rock faces, and we threat, a killer. We clambered around decided on a difeeling stronger and rection and went Suddenly, the very sun more agile than we that way, climbing that had warmed us really were until we ,6"&' &,34.' ;%"*' nicely our whole short -,/*)' #' !#&+"' 1#$' we had to, trying lives became a serious one where we could $,' 4""8' ,/&."!6".' rest and look out at in the slim linthreat, a killer.

ings of shade along their sides when we 3,/!)];%(3%' ;#.' #!5,.$' *"6"&9' P%"' &,#)'3,/!)'2"'#&,/*)'#*7'$/&*0',6"&'#*7' ;#&8")'&,34'-,&5#$(,*9':/$'($'*"6"&';#.0' and there was nothing else to do but keep +,(*+0'%,8(*+'$,'%"!!';"';"&"*<$'8/$$(*+' ,/&."!6".'-/&$%"&'(*$,'$%(.'/*!(6#2!"'!#*)0' to some abstract point where there was no coming back.

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We walked as quickly as the hot air allowed, eyes on the ground. We stepped past listless tumbleweeds, blackened paddles of cactus come apart from each other and lying in dead piles on the ground, and something wildly angular, bursting with spikes, that looked like electricity in cactus form. The longer we walked, the less we cared if we were scraped or poked. Finding the road was our only reason.

Only when thirst became unbear-

Relief was violent: Graham fell his to his knees on the hot pavement; I grabbed what was left of the water and guzzled.

able did we stop and take the most 3,*."&6#$(6"' +/!8.' of water we could 5#*#+"9'@"')()*<$' look at each other during these times. It was too much to think about why we must 3,*."&6"0'#*)'D'$%(*4';"'2"+#*'$,'&"."*$' each other at each sip. I wondered how it felt to the explorers of the past when there was no water left. When there was *,'&,#)'$,'F*)'(*'$%"'F&.$'8!#3"9 A' )&7' &(6"&' 2")' ./&-#3")' 2"-,&"' /.0' and maybe because it was more like a 8#$%'$%#*'#*7$%(*+';"<)'.""*'-,&'#';%(!"' we followed it all the way up a high ridge, grabbing sagebrush to help us climb, scaring a few jackrabbits. We stopped at $%"' $,8' $,' ./&6"7' 5,&"' ,- ' $%"' &,#)!"..' desert. It was so terribly ugly. So awfully, horribly untouched and empty of life.

[I,/<&"' 2!"")(*+0Z' V&#%#5' .#()9' A' crooked line of blood ran from my thigh $,' 57' #*4!"9' D$' )()*<$' %/&$0' 2/$' ($' #!.,' )()*<$'.$,89' D')#22")'#$'($';($%'#'&"3"(8$' V&#%#5' -,/*)' (*' %(.' 8,34"$W' 7".$"&)#70' ;"<)'2,/+%$'2#+"!.0'3#&&,$.0'&#*3%')&"..ing and three bottles of Gatorade at a \(34<.'R/8"&5#&4"$'(*'S#.'\"+#.9 We had been lost for somewhere near

three hours, not speaking, only forging on—not because we were 2&#6"0' ,&' 8#$&(otic, but because we had made a choice, and had to follow it through. And then, #$'!#.$0'.,!()'#*)'F&5'#*)';()"U'$%"'&,#)9' P(&")'#.';"&"0';"'&#*9'`"!("- ';#.'6(,!"*$U' Graham fell his to his knees on the hot 8#6"5"*$W'D'+&#22")';%#$';#.'!"-$',- '$%"' ;#$"&'#*)'+/>>!")9' We set off wearily for the car, and &"#!(>")' #' 5(!"' !#$"&' ;"' ;"&"' +,(*+' $%"' ;&,*+' ;#79' A$' !"#.$' #' ),>"*' )&(6"&.' (+nored our outstretched thumbs before a young couple stopped and let us into their car: a shock of air conditioning and leath"&'."#$.9'^(*#!!7';"'#&&(6")'#$',/&'P,7,$#0' ;%(3%' %#)' *"6"&' !,,4")' .,' 8#$%"$(3' *,&' so grand.

“Water,” said Graham.

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My fellow Americans…

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Since the press That’s right. QC 3,*$#3$.'-,&':,"(*+' lasers may, in and Intellectual fact, save the \"*$/&".0' $;,' world. c o m p a n i e s 2&"#4(*+' 2(>#&&"' ground with laser technology, offered no comment (“terribly sorry”), I did my own research #*)'$,,4'$%"'F*)(*+.'$,'?,$%"&'O#&$%<.'

Supreme Court: Chatroulette.

“HOW DID U KNOW?!” asks some good old boy in army fatigues, who shows me his badges, Smith & Wesson, and platinum credit cards after making sure I am not a Russian spy.

Unloaded handgun (“Pvt1stclassxD”). :/$' !"$<.' .$"8' #;#7' -&,5' $%"' %"#67' artillery, for a second.

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When asked the best possible way to kill mosquitoes with Malaria, two laughing males suggest changing the climate. Okay, Gandalf; Saruman. A twentysomething female who calls me Mr. Scientist says, “Kill the mosquitoes.

Secure the area.” Well, that sounds about right.

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America quietly headlines the directed energy weapons race, other nations are also harnessing the powers of superhot 8%,$,*' 2"#5.' #*)' $%"' ;(!)".$' #)6#*3".' (*';"#8,*'$"3%*,!,+7'"6"&9

“What if the mosquito is on my arm?” asks an herbally enhanced Rutgers student.

Don’t worry. You may have Malaria already!

Otherwise, imagine bean bags bursting against the leather skin of full grown elephants. We would barely notice.

How about the future scourge of A5"&(3#i' :#!!(.$(3' */3!"#&' 5(..(!".0' ,- ' course. More threatening than mosqui$,".0'".8"3(#!!7'2"3#/."',/&'(*."3$.'),*<$' 3,*)/3$'2(,!,+(3#!';#&-#&"9':,"(*+0',- '#!!'

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Italy too.

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Remember the laser grid from Resident Evil that detected – and came slicing through – dodging zombie commandoes, wave by creative wave? Intellectual Ventures does them one better.

,*' $%"' ,-F3(#!' D*$"!!"3$/#!' \"*$/&".' #*)' :,"(*+';"2.($".9 “What?” asks an ecstatic young blonde, dancing on the other side of the world.

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California. You’re the crazy one, “Laser guns or not, they will kill the same,” writes a sun-deprived youth with curly hair and glasses. We share a silence. “It never ends, does it.”

because next time an armor-plated truck rolls into the desert, it’s going to be carrying a high-energy laser rifle and kicking ass. You don’t even know, girlfriend…”

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4 5

Illustrations by Cole Dennis

The Good Old Days by Molly LaFlesh (The marriage, it crumbled into dust.)

The trouble started ;%"*'($'2"3#5"'3!"#&'7,/'3,/!)*<$'3!(5#B ‘til I said your name just right, thirty-six times in a row.

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Notes on a Break-up (Cinematic Nonsense Version)

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Zoom out to see us both framed in the lens from across the lobby as we stand there talking about the past.

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Just come home.

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4 7

Must Come Down Words by Lindsay Clark

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—Why do you want to stay? than a fifth grader.

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5 1

W i l d B l u e Yonder

Four Wr iters Pause Before They Lea p

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“Final call for boarding.”

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Melissa Park

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