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Katie on 4 April, 2017 at 10:48 pm said: To me, depression feels like trying to wring the last drips of water out of a damp wash cloth. I feel absolutely emotionally, physically and mentally bankrupt. Many nights I stay up late because I don’t have the energy nor do I care enough to put myself to bed. Same with food, I ignore my hunger until I can’t anymore. I feel crushing guilt and failure at life; it has been a long string of mistakes and seems such a waste. When people try and reach out to me it feels like they are laughing at me on the inside. I see it in their eyes, so I’ve stopped looking at them. I don’t trust anyone, and I feel utterly alone in the world.
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Lynn on 16 February, 2017 at 9:55 pm said: It’s very hard. Sometimes I wish I could just attach a projector to my mind and project what is in there. Lately there has been a definite physical mental feeling, as well as emotional. This is going to sound . Itodd, ’s s is and the whole thing ot iri so abstract it’s very hard ng to find the right words, tryi ng to but there’s an almost icy fig ht. feel. Metallic. And my So me thoughts don’t just flow, ti one idea to the next with a forward momentum. No momentum towards something, like ideas and dreams for producing so tiring trying to fight. Sometimes there is nothin It’s dreams, with it. .My oanything. though still there somewhere, are covered up with this grayness and seemedsototiri be,ng feel trying to fight. Sometimes there unreachable. That’s the worst part is losing touch with my dreams. Another terrible piece is feeling like I can do
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Kate on 28 July, 2017 at 10:55 pm said: It feels like I’m running out of breath when I know I still breath normally. I think of something I shouldn’t be thinking of. These thoughts keep repeating in my head. It’s so tiring trying to fight. Sometimes there is nothing I can do with it. The only thing I could think of is to be disappeared. Just because I don’t want to feel anymore pain. The worst part is when I hate myself. . I don’t know how to explain how i feel when people try to ask me.
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