Brittanie Rose “Boat in Ha Long Bay, Vietnam” and “I Woke Up Today

Jenny Leighann Tudor is a recent King English graduate with a French and Theatre minor. Intrigued by the world around her, Jenny writes an abundance of stories and poetry that reflect the beauty and mystery of the life she witnesses. Jenny hopes to someday publish a full book series and pave the way for other writers to do the same. She would like to thank her professors, classmates, parents, husband, and the Divine Creator for their support and encouragement. Without them, she could not have made it this far.

BOAT IN HA LONG BAY, VIETNAM

I WOKE UP TODAY

I woke up today. But not in your house Like I used to every summer. I didn’t go to the kitchen And taste your cooking That could never compare to mine. I didn’t get to say “mornin’” Or hug you just because. And even though I’m sitting here In my own place now, I’m transported back to your house, Your home, within your love. Everything reminds me of you. And as much as I wished it didn’t, I’m also glad it does. You were beautiful, Mamaw, And I see that beauty everywhere, Reflecting back a part of your soul. I’m mad at the world for taking you Before I got to say goodbye. I’m mad that I don’t get to tell you That I love you and hear you say it back. I’m mad that the world still goes on While your body lies still in the ground. But more than anything, I’m mad that I didn’t call you more. And I’m mad at myself for not being there, For not holding your hand. I’m mad because I could have done better. And I don’t have you here to be disappointed in me. I’ve failed so much and quit so many times I just wonder if you still believe in me. Before you passed, You told me I was your bright and shiny star, But right now, I don’t feel like one. I’m dull and broken, and I’m not a star. Today, I woke up. But not in your house. Not in your presence. And not as your shiny star. Today, I just woke up. And maybe that’s okay for now.