A journey from Tallin to Paldaniski a former closed soviet submarine base, now a small town of 99% Ethnic Russian residents-Then to the Russian speaking city of Narva wedged onto the edge of Estonia with Russia their mother country just a stones throw away across the river.I admit I wasnt their long enough so I looked for symbols of my fears and light encroaches in this land. I should return; I must return again to Narva.